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poem 1

Death is a bitch i know

I'll teach you how to take it slow

Just tell them end of discussion

Causing death and destruction

Cause this album pack enough evil

Don't we have enough death , people

Driving a hearse, re birthed, through death,

Listen here, i ain't lookin for no tears

Like nas illmatic i never sleep cause sleep is the cousin death

She glammed up behind that eyeliner i know there's tears

I say what my mind speak

I'll make you bleed, death guaranteed.

The freshness of my breath bring your death

I'm godbless, i'm success so fuck stress

I shall love thee better after death.

But i can't keep you baby girl ,

i'mma confess,

the less death of thee.

poem 2

What's it like to have a life like mine,

Well i'll tell you,

Im 17 i can't seem to do anything right

I always seem to fuck up everything that is great in my life

I apologize way to much

My step father took advantage of me mentally and emotionally

And almost physically.

I have a hard time in crowded places

I have autism

And pots

I suck at literally everything and I just want to die !

I'm too needy

I'm too clingy

Im to hurt

Im to broken

To be loved or to be perfect

I can't seem to understand why i had to be born the way that i am

Can someone tell me honestly why i am the way i am

I don't want to be me anymore

I hate it

I hate myself

I can't take it anymore

I seem to just disappoint ppl

Or piss them off

Why why why why me

I ask why me ! i don't want to live anymore just take the pain away please i beg you

I want to cut myself till i bleed out

Hang myself

Take a bunch of pills and overdose

Die from alcoholism

I just want to ball my eyes out

I'm just done

Numb to the bone

I don't want to do this anymore

Im life is shit

I need something to get me high

Something anything please

Just make it stop

Shoot me

Kill me please I beg you

I cant talk to anyone because they're either too busy or just don't want to talk to me

poem 3

Can’t breathe

I can’t breathe,

help me please,

Can’t do this anymore,

Depression got me on high alert,

Sucking the life out of me,

My every breath goes away,

I’m I going to die?

No I will not die today ,

Fight ,

Fight ….

poem 4

“This is how I feel”

This feeling won't go away,

This feeling of not being strong enough,

This pain,

it hurts,

Will it ever go away?

I don’t know anymore,

I feel lifeless,

Unworthy,

Trash,

Destroyed,

Broken,

Life less,

Dead,

Empty inside and out,

Will I ever get past this feeling of numbness of pain?

He won't remember me, will he?

I don't know.

I hurt him, didn't I?

No, I had no choice,

I told him that,

I told him I didn't want to break the best thing that's happened to me in a very long time,

He won't forgive me, will he?

He was hurt,

He fell in love,

I broke him,

Even after I promised I would never,

This Horrible pain inside me,

It's so powerful,

I can’t push it away,

It won't go away,

Will I ever heal the same,

Will I ever be the same,

Will I ever be happy again?

I feel like I deserve to feel like this,

I don't know anymore

Every time I try to move passed it,

“It always comes back as if it’s attached to my soul”

Am I not worth the fight?

Maybe,

Maybe not,

It’s as if i'm in a prison full of all my demons and mistakes I made in the past

I feel trapped like a zoo animal inside a stainless steel cage,

I feel hopeless,

I feel like i'm stuck,

I try to get better,

Be more happier,

But then my demons give me a reason not to be happy anymore,

I become this empty,

Numb,

Lifeless,

Fake,

Dead person inside and out,

“I feel like I will never escape this hideous painful world we call life”

I hide things from people,

Important people who mean everything to me,

Certain things that I'm scared to tell ppl about,

I'm scared to tell them how I feel inside,

How I feel,

I feel scared,

I’m afraid that I will never be happy again,

Never be careless again,

Never escape this pain we call

The depression cycle of life,

That’s how I truly think 24/7!

poem 5

Lonely walk inside this mind

She walks down this empty haunted abandoned town,

She thinks to herself,

This place used to be so beautiful,

The hurricane that hit in the past long ago,

Had made it to what it is today,

All alone in this place called her mind,

Its fridged in here,

This icy windy air piercing the skin of the girl who walks alone,

She walks alone feeling scared and paranoid,

She yells for help,

Waiting for a response,

She waits anxiously,

Nothing,

but the piercing frigid icy cold air that swirls past her ear with a

“swoosh” “oooooo”

Says the wind

She continues to walk down the road of the abandoned town,

Looking side to side paranoid as if someone is watching her,

She’s scared,

She’s cold,

She looks behind her going in a circle,

still looking everywhere,

For something alive,

She gets lonely,

She yells for her mom

MOM!

Please help,

Anyone,

Please,

I'm scared,

She pouts

She starts to breathe heavy

Heaving in and out,

She’s terrified,

She walks all alone,

Down this path that used to be a road,

She starts to run

Door to door

Knocking

yelling for anyone

She stops in the middle of the road,

Panting

Scared,tired,

She yells again

MOM!

ANYONE!

PLEASE,

HELP,

She cries

Terrified

She might never be able to see her mom again

She drops down to her knees and screams,

Shes panicking she trys to calm down,

Nothing seems to work,

Its as if the air is being sucked out of her,

She thinks to herself,

Oh god where am I,

How did I get here,

I want to go home,

I want my mom,

She sobs till there's nothing left in her to cry about,

I'm lost,

I don't know where I am and I don't know how to escape from this lonely road I call my mind

Will No-one save her?

From herself

All alone…

Can’t you see, I'm haunted by my shadow.

Drowning

My limbs are tight,

I can’t move,

an icy frigid water,

light glares through the icy frigid water,

The sun,

Looking through the icy glass water,

Slowly drowning,

I try to fight the tiredness in my eyes and limbs,

I try to swim up to the top,

The water pushes me back down,

I can’t breathe,

Freaking out,

Underwater I sink,

Down down down down

I go,

In the deep blue sea,

Drowning slowly,

I fight the pain inside,

I think,

No one will miss me,

So I close my eyes,

And I slowly let go,

Let it in the last breath in my body,

The water takes me in,

Drowning me,

It hurts,

But it’s okay,

I deserve this pain,

I let go even more,

The Deeper I go,

Into the depths of the deep blue sea

It calls to me,

Drowning my every move,

Drowning more and more,

Deeper and deeper,

The sea pulls me down,

I Drown painfully,

slowly,

I drowned!

poem 6

The true love never gives up the fight,

but...

Why did you?

I’m broken without you,

I can barely move,

I get worse and worse without you,

I’m dying without you,

This person I am now,

Is…

I don’t even know her/him,

Why did you leave me,

Why did you lie,

You broke your promise,

But why…

but I still want you,

Why do I still love you,

Why…

I can’t be without you,

But…

Somehow I can,

Why,

You broke my trust,

You hurt me,

But somehow,

The many things you’ve done doesn't matter at all to me,

I hate this feeling,

I want you, but I feel like I shouldn't

I love you but I shouldn't,

You were my everything,

Yet…

You did everything I didn't expect you to do,

And you went for the kill,

You have officially killed the girl/boy I used to be,

I want to hate you,

But…

Instead,

I love you,

I want to hurt you,

But…

Instead,

I want your body,

You destroyed me,

This is what you made

A distant hesitant paranoid crazy girl/boy I am now,

Thanks to you I might not ever be the same,

Ever,

again!

This energy is killing my vibes now!

Yea I’m fucked up but I don’t want a be

Yeah i'm empty inside,

I just don't feel alive,

And I don't want to live

but

I’m too scared to die-I-high.

Would anyone ever save us from this pain we feel all alone at night,

Every night,

Every hour,

Every minute

Every goddamn day and night 24/7

Everytime we close these eyes were back to the starting line

poem 7

We fight

We kick

We yell

We harm

Nothing seems to work for us,

We let our guard down,

And then

boom!

We change

No one is as messed up as us

We’ve seen things

Ppl would never believe

Done things ppl dont think we would ever do

Hurt ourselves from the pain inside of being all alone for the rest of our lives

We are the broken chords

Of life

Who’s the fool now!

poem 8

My life is never the same after you,

You made me soar through the clouds as if no care in the world,

Now you let me drown and drop to the ground,

I’m getting worse.

Each breath is a pain,

Each heavy breathing

I want to let go,

Hold on I still want you,

Come back I still need you,

Let me take your hand,

Let me love you all my life,

I can’t do this anymore,

But I have to,

If not for me,

For my friends,

my mother,

Let go of you is what I have to do,

I will always love you,

goodbye my love.

Trust me I know!

She walks alone,

Once again heartbroken,

poem 9

Never to understand,

what she has done to deserve this pain,

How does everything good end up scared and broken

Dead on the inside,

Once again.

One last breath!

He walks alone

Under the beautiful midnight sky

He stops to look up at the stars,

WHY am I the ONE who GETS hurt THE most HUH!

He cries and screams at the world around him,

WHY!

Walking in the middle of the road

drinking the pain away

Once again,

Hoping to be numb,

He yells,

He screams,

He cries,

WHY THE FUCK AM I THE ONE WHO GETS HURT!

More and more cries

Tears slide down his white silk tone skin cheeks

Flushed because he’s

Yelling for the pain to be erased

He begs and cries

He drinks more and more every night,

He yells

I DON’T WANT TO HURT ANYmore

I DON”T WANT TO STILL BE IN LOVE WITH HER,

He cries drops to his knees

Crying and drinking

He drinks till the pain is gone

He knows tonight is the right time

Take a lot of alcohol and drink till there's nothing left of him

One last breath he takes one more sip before he closes his eyes and draws one last breath of air.

poem 10

I'm sick of losing everything I love,

To the one thing I hate the most,

It’s because of me that they are never coming back,

I can’t do this anymore,

I can’t lose one more person,

I’m all alone,

Please stay,

I'm sick of losing everyone that I love deeply,

I choose to protect from myself,

I pushed them away to protect them from me,

I’m not great,

My sky is grey,

Cloudy and rainy,

It’s a storm,

We call depression,

It kills us all

Whether we like it or not we don’t have a choice,

None of us choose to isolate ourselves from you

We protect you by pushing you away,

Because we love and care for you more than you know

So don’t hate us we protect you.

poem 11

She looks at herself in the mirror

Looking at this person she doesn’t know anymore,

She can’t bare looking anymore,

She looks away, ashamed of the person she has become,

Then she sees the scars on her wrist, the fresh ones too

She drops to the ground

On her knees, she’s holding the blade to her heart,

crying,

The only friend who understands is the blade in her hands,

She cries,

She looks at the blade for a long time

She’s in a daze,

She Blinks,

Holds the blade tight,

She Squeezes tighter,

Blood seeps through her hand,

Blood flows deeply and slowly,

down her wrist to the ground,

It hits the white dantish floor of the bathroom,

She grabs a wet towel and dabs at the blood seeping through her wrists,

She feels no pain,

She’s numb,

Inside,

And out,

Once again she wants to run from the demon of her problems,

She slit her wrist over the other ones,

Making it red and bruised,

The blood seeps faster out her wrist,

She hit the vain,

Blood boils,

Blood drips,

Blood stains the counter,

Sains the floor,

She slits her wrists more and more,

Everytime she slits her wrist,

more blood comes out,

She lays on the floor,

In a pool of her own blood,

The blood that she cut out,

Of her own skin,

She lays,

Lifeless,

Finally taking her final breath,

She lays there satisfied,

She finally got rid of her demons.

poem 12

Once again she gives in to her demons,

Bloody wrist, Not worth shit,

Slitting her wrists,

Bloody sleeves,

Bruised body,

Bucket full of water,

Her wrists are covered in blood and bruised scars,

Scars from the outside, started to outgrow her skin.

Why

poem 13

ESCAPE AND LOVE BRAND(A depressed emo song)

It all away if you dig

Be my last impression your last lie

My last impression your last fairy tale

Scribble out the light, kick

Tried I tried, would you call

Dysfunctional family I don't walk

Gave up and the music lends

To it some nights well spent

I hope that some day by day

Certain distant fall comfort

As escape and love

Brand new man, a brand new man

And starts all over the hill

Felt and then swallowed

Choked on the virgin blood

Lips never shaped the words

I hope that some day by day

Certain distant fall comfort

As escape and love

Brand new man, a brand new man

Side we've got something never live

Yourself this is not so clear midst

Cold tears left with nothing don't feel

Like myself your middle finger was clutching

I hope that some day by day

Certain distant fall comfort

As escape and love

Brand new man, a brand new man

DO HOW I FEEL(A depressed rap/r&b song)

Are my melody that's how I was blind I promise

Me just stop and think about the death of us

Is we give it one more day one wanted

Know your friends and my new badu while you sleep

Shot to the world, come back down to the places

Where we began to flip you're staying because you're kind

Extra kind then suddenly you're here baby and you lose

All of that habit the pain

It should've been a few

But I'm gone do how I feel

In my bedroom door

Wrong hand got me excited

Try to keep you satisfied give

Oh I don't wanna do is fight and I shoulda'

Been there, done that you would never mend

Your girlfriend oh, what you do give

It should've been a few

But I'm gone do how I feel

In my bedroom door

Wrong hand got me excited

Have put you to do things that you walk

Out my life when will they say stay

To the lights and before we say goodbye

Gonna be the love that off the floor she left

It should've been a few

But I'm gone do how I feel

In my bedroom door

Wrong hand got me excited

Get depressed, commit suicide, manic

Fitted, legitted, hardwood classic

It's alright, if it's right

Thinkin bout suicide

Yeah the coach used to say i was awesome, right

Im commitin homicide, just to stop suicide,

You other brothers can’t deny

She commited suicide by

Got bitches on mollies, they rollin' all night

Have you tried contempting suicide?

When it came to grams it was 90 i fried

To help me commit suicide

More money to count, yeah you know i’m gettin' right

[f] forgettin' fame formulates foreplay for suicide,

poem 14

The Gentle And Deadly QueenA Poem by siren01

Whose queen is that? I think I know.

Its owner is quite sad though.

It really is a tale of woe,

I watch him frown. I cry hello.

He gives his queen a shake,

And sobs until the tears make.

The only other sound's the break,

Of distant waves and birds awake.

The queen is gentle, deadly and deep,

But he has promises to keep,

Until then he shall not sleep.

He lies in bed with ducts that weep.

He rises from his bitter bed,

With thoughts of sadness in his head,

He idolises being dead.

Facing the day with never ending dread.

With thanks to the poet, Robert Frost, for the underlying structure.

poem 15

Get out of my head

get out of my head

stuck in my head

Try to tear me apart

But know that there is scars

In the heat of the moment i get lost in frigail mind

Don't fall too far

You will crash and burn

These are scars

These are my scars

poem 16

Is there something wrong with me ?

Cos I can’t seem to keep anyone or anything, anyone or anything.

Is it the way I walk ? The way I talk ?

Or how I wish I could change the world ?

Is it silly of me, is it silly of me to dream ?

Oh I try to make everyone happy,

But what about

What about me ?

Is it too much to ask,

Is it too much of a chore ?

For someone to stick around unlike everyone before.

Is it the way I dress ?

My need to impress ?

Or how I’m clearly drenched in loneliness ?

And I’m craving, craving something like this.

Do I feel too much ?

Tell me, do I feel to much ?

Are you suffocating under my love ?

I can’t help it darling I can’t help it with you.

poem 17

Is there something wrong with me ?

Cos I can’t seem to keep anyone or anything, anyone or anything.

Is it the way I walk ? The way I talk ?

Or how I wish I could change the world ?

Is it silly of me, is it silly of me to dream ?

Oh I try to make everyone happy,

But what about

What about me ?

Is it too much to ask,

Is it too much of a chore ?

For someone to stick around unlike everyone before.

Is it the way I dress ?

My need to impress ?

Or how I’m clearly drenched in loneliness ?

And I’m craving, craving something like this.

Do I feel too much ?

Tell me, do I feel to much ?

Are you suffocating under my love ?

I can’t help it darling I can’t help it with you.

poem 18

Good morning my love

I hope you have a good day

I just noticed something...

I'm not saying that how you look is important to me, Idc about your body or your face, your soul is all that matters to me but your body is literally flawless, it looks perfect to me

Impressum

Tag der Veröffentlichung: 02.09.2020

Widmung:
Death is a bitch, Life sucks,

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