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Saniul Alom Sun
Zone Of Mafia
- Biografie/Autobiografie
- Englisch
- 4750 Wörter
- Ab 16 Jahren
- 17
- Are you new mamma (flying)
- Haha that bird. Let's play a little t20 mommy
- Which is Mama?
Everyone slapped him on the cheek. Seeing that they were having fun for so long, now everyone became silent
- Respect girls.
He grabbed the girl's hand and dragged her away. A girl was smoking a cigarette while sitting next to him
-No Cigarette Just Response (Cigarette snatched away)
The girl was looking at him with a smile. 5 more people ran beside the girl
- The boy is having a problem.
- Don't stand up and do whatever you want. What great courage he has. No one could look me in the eye and he snatched my cigarette and sang. Go. (Anger turns red)
Let's all go and catch up. Let's not know the identity till then
The girls in front of the gate were teased by Adnan and his team. Senior brother of varsity
He came a little farther and snatched the cigarette from the girl. The campus leader can't look anyone in the eye.
And the one who has done these things for so long is Mehrab.
He grabbed Meherab and brought him in front of Dibar
Meherab: How sweet I like it
Day: My feet. Break his arms and legs and I will explain.
Adnan: Leave him in our hands during the day and he will not be able to do it today
Dibah: What is he doing to you?
Adnan: I was slapped in front of everyone.
Day: Watt (surprised)
Shafi: Brother once said put him here
Meherab: Hahahahaha
Dibah: You know why you are laughing You've been doing so much since you were a newcomer.
Meherab: You have a good mind. That's what I want, so I love you (the hairs moved from the top of Dibar's face with his mouth).
Everyone at the varsity was shocked to hear about Meherab.
Jannat: You see how great courage he has during the day. Proposes to you
Dibah: My foot is his proposal. Beat him in such a way that no one thinks ten times before doing it next time.
Shafi jumped and hit 6 Meher picked it up and hit Shafi's chest with a stick. Shafi fell to the ground. Meherab left the girls and moved back
Meherab: Your anger is as beautiful as the truth. I really fell in love with you.
Adnan: You do
Meherab: If you don't want to lose your dignity, if you don't read it, then everyone will think from tiger to cat.
Tisha: This principal is coming. Let's go
Dibah: I will see you. Just get out.
Meherab: Wait, I'm coming.
Diba Ra left with Adnan. Everyone went to their class.
Meherab entered the class and everyone was looking at Meherab. Wondering how such an unsmart boy could have done so much. It's not good to see. The dress is bad too. How did you get to varsity?
Mehrab went and sat on the back bench. Sir came to the class. Good morning everyone. Sir started taking classes. If everyone in the class is attentive and Mehrab is looking out of the window.
Sir: Stand up this boy (in a serious voice)
Mehrab stood up
Sir: What is the name? It seems new to see why this condition of clothing
Meherab: Meherab. Yes new here. But no matter what the dress, the mind is very big.
Everyone in the class laughed out loud. Sir stepped back and swallowed.
Sir: Why do you come back and sit in front. And stay focused in class.
Almost everyone in the class was surprised. Didn't tell anyone to be silent, sir.
Mehrab sat down. Sir began to take classes. Kavya is looking at the outside very well
Meherab: Sir, it is not a black cherry tree
Everyone looked back at Meherab's hand and looked outside
Sir: Yes.
Meherab: If you allow me, I will go there for a while.
Sir: Go to him.
Mehrab got up and left
Sapphire: Look, we can't talk in fear in Sir's class. And this newcomer is feeling like the son of a minister. Sir, he didn't say anything.
Rosie: It looks like this will be the son of the minister again hahaha aha
Parvez: Is there any quality in it for which Sir is agreeing with him?
Sapphire: Let's play a game and see who he is.
Rosie: OK, start today
Parvez: Look at this tree. [mehr]
1,49 US$
Goodwill Galbassi
Das geheime Wissen der Hexen
So verbindest du dich mit deinen magischen Kräften und erreichst spirituellen Wohlstand.
- Esoterik
- Deutsch
- 29753 Wörter
- Ab 14 Jahren
- 91
Inkl. kraftvollen Praxis-Ritualen der weißen Magie!
Es hat einen Grund, warum du diese Zeilen liest: Du weißt, dass zwischen Himmel und Erde mehr ist, als uns die Wissenschaft erklären kann.
Oft fühlen wir uns im hektischen Alltag wie ein Spielball der Umstände. Und manchmal kommt ein Gefühl der Ohnmacht auf. Doch keine Sorge! Du glaubst daran, dass Magie deine Lebensumstände verändern kann? Dass es höhere Mächte gibt, die deinen Körper, deinen Geist und deine Seele nachhaltig vor Unheil schützen können?
Es ist tatsächlich wahr: Es existiert Zauberei, die unsere Leben auf natürliche Weise zu einem besseren Ort machen kann. Und jeder kann sie mit dem notwenigen Glauben an sich selbst anwenden. Auch in dir stecken magische Kräfte!
Doch hier liegt das hinderliche Problem:
Vielen Junghexen, Einsteigern und magisch Interessierten mangelt es an konkretem Wissen: Wie soll ich konkret vorgehen und was gilt es zu beachten?
Wie kann ich böse Energie auf mich selbst, meinen Haushalt und meine Familie vermeiden? Wie kann ich Negatives auflösen? Und wirken dafür auch einfache, pragmatische Sachen – ohne hunderte Euros für spezielles Material oder Rituale auszugeben?
Denn Fakt ist: Wenn man mit magischen Kräften nicht richtig umzugehen weiß, wartet man nicht nur vergeblich auf die gewünschte Wirkung. Im schlimmsten Fall kann Zauberei auch für dich selbst gefährlich werden. Um modernen Hexen den Einstieg zu erleichtern, hat Goodwill Galbassi dieses Buch verfasst:
Altbewährtes Wissen für den modernen Alltag — So gelingt dein Einstieg in die magische Welt der Hexerei
Dieses Buch nimmt dich an die Hand und führt durch die faszinierende Welt der Magie. In einfacher, lebendiger Sprache gewinnst du einen Überblick über das wichtigste Grundlagenwissen.
Mit folgenden Inhalten wirst du deine magischen Fähigkeiten zum Blühen bringen – und das ein oder andere Mal staunen, was nicht alles mit einfachen Mitteln möglich ist:
Komplette Schritt für Schritt-Anleitungen, wie Hexen ihre magischen Rituale durchführen (das Wohlstands-Ritual ist besonders beliebt!)
Welche Arten von Ritualen gibt es und wofür eignen sie sich jeweils am besten?
Die wichtigsten Regeln, wenn du Magie anwendest.
Erfahre seelische und mentale Beruhigung durch Magie
Wie und wo beschaffe ich das richtige Material?
Wie du erkennst, ob ein Fluch auf dir liegt (selbst wenn du bisher nicht daran gedacht hast)
Die besten Zauber gegen Melancholie, Unsicherheit, Ärger mit Mitmenschen und vieles mehr
Ausführliche Vorstellung magischer Symbole und Zeichen
inkl. Über 20 Runen-Vorstellungen und wie du mit den Runen umgehen solltest, um sie nachhaltig zu aktivieren
Wie du dich vor Energie-Vampiren schützen kannst
Wende den kleinen SOS-Zauber an, wenn du im Alltag unterwegs schnell Schutz brauchst (z.B. Meeting, Wartezimmer)
Wirkt ein Zauber bei dir einmal nicht auf Anhieb? Die Autorin gibt dir auch hierfür einen kleinen Tipp.
Und vieles mehr.
Alle Kapitel sind kompakt, leicht verständlich und ohne erhobenen Zeigefinger verfasst. So kannst du in Harmonie mit dir selbst leben und handeln.
Diese Hexenkunst wird dein Leben und das Leben deiner Liebsten verändern. Lade jetzt dein eigenes Exemplar herunter und das Zaubern kann losgehen. [mehr]
Stichwörter: hexen buch, hexen handbuch, hexen buch anfänger, weiße magie buch, weiße magie, das große hexenhandbuch, wicca buch, zauberbuch für erwachsene, magie buch, hexerei, magie, witchcraft buch, basiswissen weiße magie, praxis der weissen und schwarzen magie
9,99 €
Dr. Olusola Coker
Bye Bye To Witchcrafts
Powerful Prayers to Totally Destroy The Activities of Witchcraft in Your Life. Guaranteed Midnight prayers To Destroy W
- Bibel
- Englisch
- 12858 Wörter
- Ab 10 Jahren
- 261
The time to put an end to witchcraft activities and powers is now. Witchcraft powers have destroyed so many lives and if unchecked, the result could be disastrous.
It is a known fact that the majority of people may not achieve or make an impact in life. A lot of people are buried in the grave yeard with their dream unfulfilled. Witchcraft activities prevented so many people from achieving their purpose in life.
Do you belong to any of the following people?
Have you been praying and fasting for years, yet witchcraft powers are still tormenting you?
Are your children dying one after the other and you don’t have any solution to it? Then, witches and wizards might have been killing them. If you are in this situation, this book is for you.
Have you been searching for jobs for the past ten years and no success although you are a first-class graduate? Then, you must destroy the activities of witchcraft.
Have you attended over ten contract negotiation table and you never won a single one? then, witchcraft powers are working against your progress in life, you need to deal with it now.
Are you tired of life and you feel like ending it all? Then, witches and wizards have concluded to use you as a sacrifice, you need to stop them now before they finish your life.
Has your business been stagnant for the past twenty years and above with no progress? Then, witchcraft powers are about to paralyze your life and your business for life, you must stop them now.
Are you part of a polygamous home? Then, all the prayer points in this book will make you overcome all obstacles experience in any polygamous home.
Are you the type that your parents received a word of knowledge that you will be great in life and you discovered that you are steal finding it difficult even to feed at the age of 40 years, then this book is for you?
Are you the type that in your primary and secondary school days you where very brilliant to the point that the school authority recognize this by making you the head boy or head girl, yet could not go further in your career or profession
Did you work hard and save enough money for you to travel abroad to better your life, but on getting there, you discovered that you are even worse than if you ever traveled. You regretted that you traveled in the first space. Watch out witchcraft power is about to finish your life as you are back. You must stop them now, by praying all the prayer points in this book.
Do you always make the wrong decision most of the time despite your knowledge and technical know-how?
Have you worked in more than seven companies or ministries and yet nothing to show for it? , then, witchcraft activities are oppressing your life.
Do you observe that you don’t have savings or your account is always on a zero balance despite your high level of income? Then, witchcraft powers are at work in your life.
Do you suddenly observe a change in your character or behavior which is now affecting your life? Then, you are under attack by witchcraft powers.
Do you wake up early in the morning feeling tired most of the time and unwilling to go to work even though your doctor certify you that you are ok, Then you might be under a witchcraft attack?
Do you always find it difficult to control yourself or you lack self-control? Then you might be under a witchcraft attack.
Do you find yourself in a position where you find it difficult to follow your boss's instructions at work? Then, you need to pray against witchcraft attack
Do you always feel unhappy although you are blessed financially? Then, witchcraft attacks are about to hit you. You need to pray all the prayer points in this book
Do you find it difficult to say no to some proposal although you know within yourself that It will not favor you?
Do you find it difficult to read your Bible regularly at least once a day? Then, you are under a witchcraft attack. The witches and wizards attack your level of spirituality first so that they can have their way.
If you experience someone is pressing you down during sleep and you could not help yourself, then this is a sign of witchcraft attacks. . In most cases, this type of attack may lead to death or long time sickness. You need to pray all the prayer points in this book
When you dream that you are fighting with a cat, then you are under a witchcraft attack.
Most car or vehicle accidents you see on roads are not ordinary, they are witchcraft attacks.
Untimely death is another form of witchcraft attacks because they use their body for donation during a special occasion. You need to pray aggressively.
Do you observe a problem in your relationship that has been going on smoothly and all of a sudden is about to hit the rock? Then you are under a witchcraft attack.
Do you observe that your children you trained in the way of the Lord suddenly become an alcohol addict, then, witchcraft powers are working on them?
If your spouse just calls you one day and tells you that he or she is ending the relationship for no reason, then this is an indication of witchcraft attacks.
When your spouse suddenly refuses to have sex with you, then you need to watch out, witchcraft attacks are at work.
Most problems faced by people in this world are a result of witchcraft attacks. This book is specifically designed to eliminate witchcraft attacks in your life and set you free completely.
Inside this book, you will discover all you need to do to prevent witchcraft attacks in your life and to destroy all their activities and powers completely.
This book will show you the activities of witchcraft, the way witches and wizards operate in frustrating people, and making sure that their dreams are not fulfilled.
Then this book is for you. In this book, you will have access to all the things you need to do to end witchcraft activities in your life. You will know 100 ways to block Witchcraft Powers from attacking you. You will also be able to dismantle witchcraft strongholds and destroy all their powers. You will also know strategies and methods to use for spiritual warfare prayers against the powers of witchcraft,
This book will also show you
30 major Reasons Witchcraft Powers is Attacking You.
How to be Decisive and Take Action on witchcraft's activities.
How to know if you have been initiated into the witchcraft kingdom.
How to Quickly decide on dealing with witchcraft powers
How to Stay Calm in a Crisis.
Skills You Should have as a Warrior in Christ.
Powerful prayers and Declarations to dismantle and destroy witchcraft activities and powers.
And many more [mehr]
Stichwörter: witchcraft powers, daily dvotional, midnight prayers, prayers, prayer points, witches and wizards, fasting and prayer program
2,99 US$
Carolin Schindbeer
Family Time - Was kochen wir denn heute?
Großartiger Kochspaß für die ganze Familie, schnelle Familienküche einfach zubereitet
- Kochen
- Deutsch
- 24453 Wörter
- Keine Altersempfehlung
- 46
Neue verbesserte Auflage mit vielen Rezeptbildern!
Eltern stehen täglich vor neuen Herausforderungen. Eine, die dagegen in den meisten Fällen immer gleich bleibt, ist: „Was sollen wir denn heute wieder kochen?“Stellen Sie sich vor, Sie haben ein Kochbuch in Händen, das dieses Problem und Fragen wie „Was lässt sich einfach und schnell zubereiten und schmeckt nicht nur Ihnen als Erziehungspersonen, sondern vor allem Ihren Kindern?“, „Was müssen wir alles für eine ausgewogene und gesunde Ernährung besorgen?“, und „Wie beschäftige ich mein Kind während des Kochens?“ ein für alle Mal der Vergangenheit angehören lässt.Et voilà – „Family Time – Was kochen wir denn heute?“, das fantastische Familienkochbuch von Carolin Schindbeer unterstützt Eltern genau dabei und bietet dazu abwechslungsreiche Rezepte, die Ihre Kinder lieben werden.Carolin Schindbeer, selbst Mutter von drei Kindern, stellt viele einfache und abwechslungsreiche Gerichte vor. Ob mit Fleisch, vegetarisch oder vegan – für jeden Geschmack findet sich das passende Rezept, einfach in der Zubereitung und auch gemeinsam mit Kindern umsetzbar. Egal ob Salate, herzhafte Gerichte oder leckere Süßspeisen, in diesem wundervollen Familienkochbuch finden Sie Rezeptideen für jede Tageszeit, die nicht nur satt, sondern auch glücklich machen.Haben Sie auch schon einmal einen kritischen Blick auf den Esstisch geworfen? Wie ist der Essensalltag Ihrer „Kleinen“? Egal was sie bisher gekocht haben, nörgelnde Kinder und die immer gleiche Frage: „Wann gibt es wieder Pizza oder Pasta?“, sind Alltag?Dann ist „Family Time – Was kochen wir denn heute?“ genau das richtige Kochbuch für Sie. Neben der riesigen Auswahl an Rezepten für jede Tageszeit und Situation erhalten Sie zusätzlich die hilfreichsten Tipps zum gemeinsamen Kochen mit Kindern. Und für die Beschäftigung der „Kleinen“ zwischendurch, gibt es unterstützende Malvorlagen zum Ausmalen – so wird das Kochen zum gemeinsamen Erfolgserlebnis – Spaß garantiert!Sie möchten Ihr Kind von Anfang an vegan ernähren? Carolin Schindbeer hat auch daran gedacht: Um Kindern von klein an die vegane Ernährung schmackhaft zu machen, finden Sie kindgerechte Rezepte und wertvolle Tipps für den optimalen Einstieg in die vegane Ernährung.Überzeugen Sie sich von der Qualität dieses gelungenen Familienkochbuchs mit einem Klick auf den „Blick ins Buch“.Worauf warten Sie also noch? Profitieren auch Sie ab sofort von den vielen erstaunlich einfachen und gleichzeitig leckeren Rezepten für die ganze Familie, in dem Sie das Buch jetzt bestellen. Das bringt nicht nur Ihrer Familie mehr Freude, sondern vor allem Ihnen mehr Leichtigkeit beim gemeinsamen Schlemmen.Viel Freude beim Ausprobieren und guten Appetit! [mehr]
Stichwörter: Kochen für die Familie, Familienrezepte, schnell und einfach kochen, Kochen mit kindern, Familienkochbuch, Familie kochen, rezepte für kinder, familienküche, schnelle familienküche, kochen für kinder, einfache gerichte, schnelle mahlzeiten
9,99 €
Helmut Schmidt
Julia - Roman 1. Kapitel
- Liebe
- Deutsch
- 1 Wörter
- Keine Altersempfehlung
- 1057
- 2
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Julia 1. Kapitel
Im Wartezimmer gab es nur noch einen Stuhl der nicht besetzt war. Seit mehr als einer Stunde saß ich hier mit elf Patienten in diesem tristen Raum. Die Stühle waren unbequem; keiner sagte ein Wort. Die Luft war stickig, obwohl ein Fenster geöffnet war. Meine Füße schmerzten wie nach einem zehn Kilometer-Marsch. Ich hätte diese unbequemen Pumps nicht anziehen sollen, dachte ich. Ich taxierte die Menschen im Raum und mir fiel auf, dass ich im Vergleich zu allen anderen Frauen doch recht üppig gestylt war. Das störte mich aber nicht besonders. Ich liebte es, meine Haare schick zu frisieren, ein dezentes, aber gutaussehendes Make up aufzulegen und große Ohrringe zu tragen. Mein Kleiderschrank hatte fast eine halbe Stunde leiden müssen, bevor ich mich für ein sehr elegantes, ultramarin-blaues Kostüm entschieden hatte. Es war mir immer wichtig einen guten Eindruck zu machen und zu hinterlassen. Aber mein Styling spielte für mich jetzt absolut keine Rolle. Ich fühlte mich hier nicht sehr wohl in diesem Warteraum. Ich wünschte mir eigentlich nur, dass die Tür geöffnet wurde und die Arzthelferin endlich den nächsten hereinbitten würde. Die meisten Patienten beschäftigten sich eifrig mit den Illustrierten, einige saßen nur stumm da und starrten auf den Boden; die Frau mir gegenüber durchsuchte nun schon zum vierten mal ihre Handtasche; aber ihrem Gesichtsausdruck konnte ich entnehmen, dass sie nicht finden konnte, was sie vermisste. Ich fing an darüber nachzudenken, ob sie überhaupt wusste, was sie suchte. Ich schätzte sie auf Anfang 50; etwa zehn Jahre älter als ich. Hin und wieder blickte sie zu mir herüber. Sie war eine attraktive Frau, wirkte sehr nervös. Okay, sie könnte viel mehr aus ihrem Typ machen; aber vielleicht fehlten ihr die finanziellen Mittel oder sie brauchte einen Farb-und Stilberater – möglicherweise war sie aber auch schwer psychisch krank und bemerkte gar nicht, wie altbacken ihre Frisur wirkte und das ihr Pulli offensichtlich zu heiß gewaschen worden war, die schreckliche Farbe dabei völlig außer acht gelassen. Sie wirkte völlig verkrampft und unruhig. Aber besonders entspannt fühlte ich mich auch nicht. Der Mann, der neben mir saß, gab in
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regelmäßigen Abständen leichte, aber nicht zu überhörende Stöhn-Geräusche von sich. Ich hatte keine Ahnung, warum er das tat, er tat es eben. Ich wartete seit einiger Zeit sogar darauf, dass ein erneutes Stöhnen von ihm zu hören war und überlegte, ob die Abstände dazwischen immer zeitgleich waren; aber das konnte ich nicht hundertprozentig beurteilen. Eine junge Frau am Fenster strickte mit sehr dicken Nadeln an einem Pullover in einer unglaublichen Geschwindigkeit. Wahrscheinlich wollte sie das selbstgemachte Teil heute Abend noch verschenken, obwohl es in dieser Jahreszeit bestimmt keiner tragen würde, wenn man nicht schwitzen wollte. Ich stellte mir vor, wie sie es am Abend in Windeseile noch auf dem prallgefüllten Küchentisch in Geschenkpapier einwickelte, die Beschenkte es dann eine Stunde später auspackte und sie dann mit Schrecken mit ansehen musste, dass sie vergessen hatte die Fäden zu vernähen. Irgendwie sind die doch alle bekloppt hier, dachte ich. Und ich saß mit all denen in diesem Wartezimmer. Was machte ich hier bloß? Ob es ein Fehler war hierher zu kommen? Sollte ich wieder gehen? Wie konnte Carmen mich nur hierher schicken? Ich überlegte, ob ich mein Taschenbuch erneut hervorholen und ein weiteres Kapitel lesen sollte; es war ein sehr spannendes Buch – etwas neues von Nora Roberts, konnte mich in einer Atmosphäre wie dieser aber nicht besonders gut auf das Geschehen in dem Buch konzentrieren. Vielleicht bekam ja irgendjemand gleich hier einen Anfall oder so was. Ich entschied mich dann nach einer Weile für eine der wenigen Illustrierten, die noch auf dem Tisch lagen, fing gerade an, darin herumzublättern, als plötzlich und endlich die Tür wieder geöffnet wurde. „Frau Julia Bartens bitte für Dr. Reiser“. Ich war erleichtert, dass das Warten für mich ein Ende hatte und folgte der Sprechstundenhilfe, die mich in das Zimmer zu Dr. Reiser führte, meine Krankenakte nicht sehr galant auf seinen Schreibtisch knallte und sofort darauf wortlos wieder verschwand. Wahrscheinlich hatte sie sich gestern Abend von ihrem Mann getrennt, dachte ich; vielleicht hat sie aber auch ihre Periode und damit ein Problem. Zumindest wirkte sie äußerst unfreundlich und schlecht gelaunt. „Frau Bartens, bitte nehmen Sie Platz“, begrüßte mich dann freundlicher der
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mir bislang völlig unbekannte Neurologe und Psychiater Dr. Ludwig Reiser. „Was kann ich für Sie tun?“ – Recht jung für einen Arzt, ging es mir durch den Kopf. Vielleicht zu jung. Aber sympathisch. Und dazu noch gutaussehend; und das nahm mir zunächst schon ein wenig die Angst, dass ich einem mir völlig fremden Menschen meine Probleme anvertrauen sollte. Er trug ein weißes Polo-Shirt, von dem keines der Knöpfe geschlossen war, so dass seine schwarzen dichten Brusthaare zu sehen waren, was mich für einen winzigen Augenblick leicht erregte. Sein Haupthaar war voll, und raffiniert geschnitten; er war bestens rasiert; an der Stirn war eine kleine Narbe zu sehen; (wahrscheinlich war er als Kind irgendwann einmal unglücklich gestürzt oder die Narbe war das Ergebnis einer Schlägerei mit einem Kommilitonen während seiner Studienzeit); seine Augen waren dunkel – ein Südländischer Typ, den ich mir sehr gut mit nacktem Oberkörper in einer Strand-Cocktailbar auf Mallorca vorstellen könnte, während ich bei ihm meine vierte Pina-Colada bestellte und im Hintergrund ein Sommerhit aus den Lautsprechern meine gute Laune steigerte, dachte ich. Seine Frau war zu beneiden, mit einem solchen Mann gesegnet zu sein – zumindest optisch. „Sie sind das erste Mal hier, ja?!“, fragte er dann, weil ich nicht spontan auf seine Frage geantwortet hatte; so dass ich den Eindruck hatte, ich stand hier etwas unter Zeitdruck. Verständlich, wenn noch elf weitere Patienten hier bei ihm Seelen-Striptease machen sollten; oder zumindest vier oder fünf, wenn der Rest dann bei dem Kollegen Dr. Schildmeyer vorgeladen wurde. Ganz davon abgesehen, wie viele weitere hier noch einen Termin hatten heute. Wieso bestellen die sich hier so viele Patienten auf einmal, die dann doch Stunden im Wartezimmer „ausharren“ müssen? Plant man hier nicht richtig? dachte ich. „Ja, ich bin…, also meine Freundin meinte, dass ich Hilfe benötige“, begann ich etwas unsicher. „Fein, wobei kann ich Ihnen also helfen?“ Ich sah mich um in dem Raum und schwieg eine Weile. Irgendwie war ich nach dem langen Warten gar nicht bereit jetzt „behandelt“ zu werden. An den Wänden hingen geschmackvolle Bilder, Regale waren vollgestopft mit Fachbüchern; die Behandlungsliege war mit einem knallroten Laken bespannt. Auf dem Schreibtisch stand neben dem
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Computermonitor, die Sprechanlage zum Vorzimmer, vielen Schreibutensilien, Stempeln und sonstigem Papierkram ein kleiner Bilderrahmen, den ich leider nur von hinten sehen konnte. Wahrscheinlich ein Foto seiner Frau oder seiner Kinder, dachte ich. „Woran denken Sie gerade, Frau Bartens?“, fragte er mich mit einem Kugelschreiber in der Hand, leicht schmunzelnd und beobachtend. Und spontan antwortete ich: „Ich denke an die Patienten im Wartezimmer, die sich jetzt immer noch so fühlen wie ich mich bis vor einer Minute noch gefühlt habe; wartend und ungeduldig. Sie warten darauf, dass Sie hier mit mir fertig werden – wenn ich dass mal so sagen darf – und deshalb fühle ich mich eingeengt und unter Zeitdruck“, meinte ich, während meine Augen an der Grünpflanze auf der Fensterbank hingen blieben, die meines Erachtens dringend Wasser brauchte; welches mir aber heute recht unwahrscheinlich schien, dass das passieren würde; weil bestimmt die Arzthelferin „Madame Schlechte Laune“ dafür zu sorgen und diese ja ihren miesesten Tag seit langem hatte. „Machen Sie sich oft Gedanken über das Wohl anderer? Kommt es häufig vor, dass Sie in erster Linie weniger an sich selbst denken ?“, fragte er; und ich spürte, dass wir mit diesen beiden Sätzen schon mitten in der Behandlung waren, und der gutaussehende, charmante, sicherlich verheiratete Vater von zwei phantastischen wohlerzogenen Töchtern im nächsten Augenblick in meiner Akte schreiben würde, dass ich an einem Helfersyndrom leide. „Nein, das war nur so ´n Gedanke – Entschuldigung“, antwortete ich. „Sie müssen sich dafür nicht entschuldigen“, sagte er. Und dann folgte: „Sagen Sie mir doch bitte, warum Sie der Meinung sind, dass Sie sich dafür entschuldigen müssten“. Ich schaute einen Moment nach unten und überlegte, welche Antwort jetzt die richtige wäre. Der Mann war schon dabei mich seelisch auszuziehen; und das gefiel mir nicht. Ich hatte geahnt, dass dieses Gespräch in der Gemeinschaftspraxis Dr. med. Ludwig Reiser und Dr. Udo Schildmeyer - Fachärzte für Neurologie und Psychiatrie so ablaufen würde. Ich hatte es hier also ganz offensichtlich mit Dr. Reiser zutun, obwohl mich niemand danach gefragt hatte, ob ich vielleicht nicht lieber von Herrn Dr. Schildmeyer behandelt werden möchte. Aber den kannte ich ja auch nicht.
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Er beobachtete mich irgendwie belustigt; das machte mich nervös. So attraktiv wie noch vor einer Minute war er plötzlich nicht mehr. Er wartete auf meine Antwort. „Frau Bartens?“ – Und ich sagte dann: „Ich habe mich nur dafür entschuldigt, weil dieser Satz nicht nötig gewesen wäre – wir haben damit nur Zeit verloren“. – „Sie denken also, dass Sie anders hätten antworten sollen?“ Meine Güte, was mache ich hier eigentlich, ging es mir durch den Kopf. Worüber rede ich mit diesem Typen? Warum habe ich das Gefühl, dass dieser Mensch hier eine gewisse Macht über mich ausübt? Was sollte das? Ich begann also noch mal von vorne. „Sie haben mich gefragt, woran ich gerade denke. Und wahrscheinlich haben Sie erwartet, dass ich Ihnen als Antwort mein Problem anvertraue, denke ich; ich meine warum ich eigentlich hier bin, womit ich nicht klarkomme“, erwiderte ich etwas vorsichtig. Es machte ihm Spaß diese – meines Erachtens – schwachsinnige Unterhaltung zu führen und meinte: „Sie sind also der Meinung, dass Sie auf meine Fragen so antworten müssen, damit ich zufrieden bin? Frau Bartens, ich habe sie gefragt, woran Sie denken, und Sie haben mir gesagt, dass Ihnen die wartenden Patienten durch den Kopf gehen. Das war ehrlich und völlig richtig. Jede andere Antwort hätte nicht der Wahrheit entsprochen“. Ich nickte leicht zufrieden und schaute dann etwas verunsichert wieder einen Moment auf meine Schuhe. Na, dann ist es ja gut, dachte ich. Dann können wir ja nun noch mal von vorne beginnen. Ich überlegte einen Moment, wie ich diesem Mann jetzt am besten mein Problem beibringen könnte, aber dabei wurde ich schon wieder unterbrochen von ihm: „Sie schauen nun schon das zweite mal nach unten, Frau Bartens. Verraten Sie mir doch bitte, ob Sie sich unwohl fühlen hier“. „Ich fühle mich nicht unwohl; ich schaue nur gerne mal hin und wieder hier und dort hin. Außerdem tun mir meine Füße weh, weil ich die falschen Schuhe gewählt habe. Und wohin soll ich denn sonst schauen? Ich hab´ mir ihr Zimmer doch schon angesehen“, protestierte ich; und fühlte mich nach dieser Frage jetzt mehr als unwohl. „Und ? Gefällt es Ihnen?“ – „Was ?“ – „Na, mein Behandlungszimmer. Ist es für Ihren Geschmack stilvoll eingerichtet, oder was würden Sie verändern?“, bohrte er und lehnte sich nun zum ersten Mal
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lässig zurück an die Rückenlehne des Schreibtischstuhls. – Das Gespräch blieb für mich absolut unsinnig. Ich hatte nach dem schlechten Opening gehofft, dass wir nun eine „normale“ Unterhaltung beginnen würden, aber er wollte es anscheinend nicht. Solche banalen Kommunikationen hatte ich schon oft geführt mit Männern, die mich mit einem halbvollen Glas Bier in der Hand in Pubs oder Kneipen dumm von der Seite anquatschten, wenn sie schon leicht angeheitert waren und das Anmachen für sie somit leichter war; und bei denen ich es dann genoss sie abblitzen zu lassen; aber erst dann, wenn ich ein ebenso etwa zehnminütiges schwachsinniges Gespräch mit denen geführt – um nicht zu sagen – sie total verarscht und irgendwie - gewonnen hatte. Hier war es nicht anders; nur, dass dieser Typ Arzt war und mich nicht anbaggern wollte; was im Grunde eigentlich schade war, wenn er nicht so gut aussehen würde, obwohl jetzt von Minute zu Minute seine attraktive Optik mehr und mehr nachließ. „Entschuldigen Sie, es ist ein Behandlungszimmer; was soll man denn daran großartig stilvoll einrichten? Außerdem ist es ihr Behandlungszimmer, das können Sie doch einrichten wie Sie es für richtig halten. Ich bitte Sie ja auch nicht in meine Wohnung zu kommen und mich zu beraten was ich verändern soll“. Ich überlegte kurz ob ich das so hätte sagen sollen; schaute Dr. Reiser dann aber direkt in die Augen und nicht mehr nach unten, zu der Grünpflanze, den Bildern an den Wänden, dem Fotorahmen von hinten auf dem Schreibtisch; aber den klebenden Blick in seine Augen hielt ich nicht lange stand. „Und schon wieder haben Sie sich entschuldigt“, meinte der Doc und hatte sogar recht damit. (Ich finde das richtig scheiße hier, Doc Reiser – wir labern hier nun schon seit fünf Minuten über diesen Raum, über meine Gedanken und vor allem über meine taktvolle Art, mich zu entschuldigen; was ich aber anscheinend nicht darf. Wenn ich nicht schon krank bin, dann machst Du mich krank, Doc Reiser, ja! Und lange werde ich mir das hier bestimmt nicht mehr antun, außerdem bringen diese Scheiß-Schuhe mich um) „Die Blume braucht Wasser“, sagte ich ganz spontan; „und knallrote Bettlaken finde ich richtig daneben. Erst mal sieht ein knallrotes Laken für mich tuntig aus, hinzu kommt, dass diese Farbe bestimmt abfärbt und somit alleine
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gewaschen werden muss, weil man sonst alles versaut – zusammen mit anderen Textilien, meine ich. Die Bilder an den Wänden gefallen mir allerdings“. Vielleicht war das nun die richtige Antwort, die er hören wollte. „Na bitte – Und ohne sich dafür zu entschuldigen, sagen Sie mir das?“ – „Sie haben es mir verboten“, sagte ich bestimmend; obwohl das nicht ganz richtig war. Dr. Reiser musste darüber lachen; ich fand es alles andere als komisch, dann wechselte er das Thema. „Sie sagten vorhin, dass eine Freundin Ihnen geraten hat, Sie sollten einen Psychiater aufsuchen, Frau Bartens“. Ich hatte keine Ahnung, was das nun sollte. Ich wusste aber, dass ich mich bestimmt wieder hervorragend mit meiner besten Freundin Carmen verstehen würde, und zwar nachdem ich sie erwürgt hatte, weil sie mir diesen Gehirnklempner empfohlen hatte. Dr. Reiser bestimmte das Gespräch. Er stellte die Fragen, ich hatte zu antworten; ganz nebenbei wurde aber jede Bewegung die ich machte auseinandergepflückt, jede Antwort sowieso. Jetzt wurde Carmen in dieses Gequatsche hineingezogen. Nein, das lasse ich nicht zu, dachte ich und reagierte dementsprechend. „Wir sollten nicht vom Thema abweichen, Herr Dr. Reiser. Ich bin mit Ihrem Behandlungszimmer noch nicht fertig. Das Bild dort auf Ihrem Schreibtisch; ist das Ihre Frau? Ich kann es leider nur von hinten sehen.“ – Er schmunzelte wieder. Ich spürte genau, dass er mich für komplett durchgeknallt hielt, aber das war mir egal. Ich hasste es, dass diese gelehrten Psycho-Mediziner sofort die Macht über die Patienten hatten; dabei war doch allgemein bekannt, dass über 70 % aller Psychiater selbst in psychiatrischer Behandlung waren. Kein Wunder; die mussten sich ja auch den ganzen Tag die Geschichten von „Bekloppten“ anhören. Er nahm den Bilderrahmen in seine Hände und betrachtete das Foto darin. „Ja, das ist meine Frau. Möchten Sie das Foto sehen?“ Ich hätte jetzt erwartet, dass er es auf seinen Platz hätte stehen lassen, sofort umgedreht und mir zeigte, aber er hielt die Zügel in diesem Spiel fest. „Nein“, antwortete ich kurz. „Ich frage mich nur, warum Sie ein Bild Ihrer Frau hier auf Ihrem Schreibtisch stehen haben. Sie sehen sie doch heute Abend sicher schon wieder. Oder ist sie vereist? Ich meine, es geht mich nichts an – Entschuldigung…“ (oh scheiße, jetzt hatte ich dieses Wort schon wieder
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gesagt; und gleich musste ich ein drittes Mal erklären, warum – deshalb versuchte ich noch schnell die Situation zu retten) „Entschuldigen Sie bitte das Wort „Entschuldigung“ – das wollte ich eigentlich gar nicht sagen; denn wozu sollte ich mich entschuldigen, nicht wahr?!“. Und bevor er einhaken und mich wieder foltern konnte, sagte ich: „Vielleicht hat Ihre Frau auch ein Foto von Ihnen auf dem Schreibtisch stehen, falls sie an einem Schreibtisch arbeitet; oder aber auch eins in ihrem Portemonnaie oder zumindest in ihrer Handtasche – ist ja okay – wahrscheinlich ein Zeichen dafür, dass Sie sich immer noch lieben oder sich immer wieder irgendwie ansehen müssen; und wenn es nur auf einem Foto ist. Es könnte natürlich auch einen anderen Grund haben“. Ich machte eine kurze Pause; wollte ihm diesen Grund gar nicht nennen; aber diese Chance bekam ich nicht. „An welchen Grund denken Sie da, Frau Bartens ?“ Er sollte ihn hören, diesen Grund, doch dazu benötigte ich vorher eine kleine Information, und diese durchaus nichts bringende Unterhaltung fing an, mir in einer gewissen Weise Spaß zu machen. „Wie viele Patienten behandeln Sie hier am Tag?“ – „Das ist ganz unterschiedlich; aber im Schnitt sind es etwa zwanzig; warum fragen Sie“, lautete seine Antwort, die natürlich sofort wieder mit einer Frage gekoppelt war; um mir ganz deutlich zu stecken, dass er immer noch der Arzt war – ich die Kranke. „Nun ja“, begann ich, „wenn wir mal davon ausgehen, dass die Hälfte dieser Patienten weiblich ist, und – ganz unabhängig von ihren Problemen – davon wieder fünfzig Prozent noch recht attraktiv, ich meine, was Sie unter attraktiv verstehen, und jede Frau Ihnen hier persönliches, privates, ja, meistens sicherlich auch intimstes aus ihrem Leben erzählt, dann könnte es doch gut möglich sein, dass Sie sich hin und wieder in die Gefahr begeben, sich in die eine oder andere zu verlieben. Und in einem solchen Moment schauen Sie dann auf das Foto Ihrer Frau und sehen, wie schön und makellos sie doch ist, und das es sich nicht lohnt, diese wahrscheinlich perfekte, immer verständnisvolle Ehefrau zu betrügen; und wenn dieses Betrügen auch nur im Kopf stattfindet“. Pause. Er starrte mich nur an; sein Schmunzeln war verschwunden, aber sein rechter Mundwinkel war ganz leicht angehoben, so dass ich den Eindruck bekam, dass er mir
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damit zwar weiterhin seine Macht zeigen wollte, ich ihm aber auch endlich mal die Wahrheit und nichts als die Wahrheit gesagt hatte; ja, ich hatte einen Stachel ausgefahren und ihn getroffen, dachte ich, und diese Situation war für ihn irgendwie neu – zumindest hatte ich das Gefühl; und es hätte mir eine Art Befriedigung verschafft, wenn es denn so wäre; denn diesen Gesichtsausdruck, den er nun auflegte, war neu für mich und ich sah diesen nun zum ersten Mal bei ihm. Ich überlegte, wie es nun weiterging und wie er nun reagieren würde. Wahrscheinlich würde er mir jetzt das Bild zeigen; was aber nicht geschah. Er hielt es weiterhin in seinen Händen und fragte mich dann: „Halten Sie sich für attraktiv, Frau Bartens?“ Damit hatte ich nun nicht gerechnet. „Bitte ?“ – Er wusste genau, dass ich die Frage akustisch bestens verstanden hatte, genoss aber meine Verunsicherung und wiederholte sie, setzte sogar noch einen drauf. „Ob Sie sich für attraktiv halten. Wie sehen Sie sich selbst? Finden Sie, dass Sie makellos sind, optisch perfekt?“ - „Ich bin ganz sicher nicht makellos und perfekt. Weder optisch noch charakterlich. Wer behauptet das schon von sich? Wenn ich all das wäre, dann säße ich sicher nicht hier bei Ihnen, oder? Und was Attraktivität betrifft, ich denke, dass sollte man von sich selbst nicht sagen; ich mache das zumindest nicht. Das sollen andere entscheiden; außerdem ist das eine Geschmacksfrage“; und das war meine ehrliche Meinung dazu. „Das ist eine selbstbewusste Einstellung, Frau Bartens. Verraten Sie mir aber doch jetzt bitte, warum Sie davon ausgehen, dass all diese positiven Eigenschaften auf meine Frau zutreffen?“ – Verunsichert schaute ich wieder nach unten zu meinen immer noch schmerzenden Füßen. Dieses Wort – ja, dieses Wort sollte jetzt kommen, denn jetzt passte es wirklich und würde auch seinen Sinn erfüllen. Ich musste es sagen, und wenn ich Glück hatte, würde er es sogar annehmen diesmal. Ich sollte auch nicht länger warten damit. Ich schaute wieder hoch, sah ihn an und wagte es; und zwar deutlich. „Entschuldigung, Herr Dr. Reiser – Sie haben recht. Es gibt keinen Grund, dass ich mir über Ihre Frau ein Urteil erlaube; das war nicht sehr höflich von mir“. Ich wollte noch ein zweites „Entschuldigung“ hinterher schieben, ließ es dann aber bleiben. Er sah mich weiter an und schwieg.
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Kein Kommentar von Dr. Reiser warum ich so geantwortet hatte. Ich sah wieder auf meine Schuhe, begann meine Füße aneinander zu reiben, überlegte kurz, ob ich mich trauen sollte, meine Schuhe auszuziehen, ließ es bleiben, sah wieder hoch zu ihm. Unser Schweigen dauerte an. Nach etwa zwei Minuten (obwohl es mir wie mehrere Stunden vorkam) ertrug ich es nicht mehr. „Und?“ sagte ich. Und endlich brach auch er die unerträgliche Stille. „Ich denke, dass Sie das Foto doch ganz gerne sehen würden, und ich frage Sie, wie ist sie denn dann, meine Frau, wenn Sie nun plötzlich Ihrer Meinung nach doch nicht perfekt ist, Frau Bartens ?“ Das war zu viel. Dieser Mann verarschte mich. Ja, er verarschte mich so, wie es schon zu viele Männer getan hatten. Ich hatte keine Lust mehr, diese „Behandlung“ noch länger über mich ergehen zu lassen. Keine Minute länger würde ich mir das hier antun. Es war mir scheißegal, ob hier ein Psychiater, ein Staatsanwalt oder gar der Papst persönlich vor mir saß. Ich kochte vor Wut, stand auf, und dann schrie ich es laut heraus: „Das weiß ich doch nicht. Was denken Sie eigentlich wer Sie sind und was wir hier machen? Diesen Psycho-Terror können Sie sich an den Hut stecken. Und jetzt zeigen Sie mir endlich dieses Scheiß-Foto von Ihrer Frau, verdammt!“ Im gleichen Moment riss ich ihm den Bilderrahmen aus der Hand, schaute darauf und sah eine sehr hübsche, lächelnde, blonde Frau von etwa vierzig Jahren. Das Foto war oben rechts unter dem Rahmen mit einem schwarzen Trauerband versehen… [mehr]
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Es waren die ersten Sommerferien, die ich auf dem Pferdehof von Tante Susi und Onkel Herbert verbgringen musste. Das hieß: raus aus der Stadt und rein ins Land! Nicht, dass ich damit ein Problem hätte. Ich war früher oft hier gewesen, und es gefiel mir auf dem Land. Aber gleich sechs Wochen!? Noch dazu kannte ich hier kein Schwein. So weit ich weiß treiben sich auf dem Hof immer noch die beiden Reitlehrer herum, die einmal pro Woche Reitunterricht gaben. Meine Tante hatte auch etwas von zwei Stallburschen gesagt, die nun auf dem Hof mitarbeiteten. Mal sehen, vielleicht verstand ich mich mit ihnen ja ganz gut. Langweilig sollte es nämlich nicht unbedingt werden. Das Wohnhaus von Tante und Onkel war noch immer groß und von der Einrichtung hatte sich auch nicht sehr viel verändert. Hier und da ein neues Möbelstück oder ein anderer Wandanstrich. Aber die alte Küche war zum Glück noch dieselbe. Ich liebte sie. Am meisten mochte ich den Ofen, der noch mit Holz geschürt wurde. Im Winter war es immer wunderschön warm. Aber jetzt war ja erst mal Sommer. Der Pferdestall war renoviert worden, er sah richtig gut aus. Kein Putz bröckelte mehr ab, auch bedeckte neue weiße Farbe die Wände. Hiner dem Stall befand sich eine große Koppel und der Misthaufen. In der Mitte des Hofes war der Springbrunnen, der immer plätscherte. Eine Reithalle existierte ja auch noch, sie war groß und wurde überwiegend im Winter oder wenn es regnete benutzt. Das letzte mal war ich vor vier Jahren hier gewesen. Jetzt bin ich fünfzehn (werde bald sechzehn!), nicht größer als einen Meter sechzig und die größte Quasselstrippe bin ich auch nicht. Das war ich noch nie. Meine dunkelblonden Haare trug ich lang, nicht mehr viel und sie würden bis zu meinem Hintern reichen. Meine Augen hatten ein warmes braun, meine Lippen waren voll und mein Gesicht schmal. Allgemein war ich schlank und eigentlich ziehmlich zufrieden mit meinem Ich. Aber womit ich im Moment nicht zufrieden war: ich musste sechs Wochen ohne meine Freunde verbringen. Super.
Als ich an diesem Morgen aufwachte, wusste ich erst mal nicht, wo ich war. Dann fiel es mir ein: ich war auf dem Pferdehof von Tante und Onkel. Die Sonne schien schon in mein Zimmer herein und daher ich die ganze Nacht mein Fenster gekippt hatte, hörte ich von draußen die Vögel zwitschern. So, heute war der erste Tag der Sommerferien, ein Montag. Gestern Abend war ich angekommen und irgendwie noch müde von der Fahrt. Trotzdem wälzte ich mich aus dem Bett und schlurfte zum Kleiderschrank. Ich zog mir ein schwarzes Top und meine beige Reiterhose heraus, schnappte mir Unterwäsche und zog mich schnell an. Dann band ich meine langen Haare zu einem Zopf zusammen, lies ein paar Strähnen heraushängen und trug ein wenig Wimperntusche auf, um nicht komplett verschlafen auszusehen. Noch ein prüfender Blick in den Spiegel, dann ging ich die Treppen nach unten in die Küche. Tante Susi und Onkel Herbert waren natürlich schon auf den Beinen und frühstückten. "Ah, guten Morgen, Amy. Setz dich doch!", begrüßte mich Tante. "Guten Morgen", murmelte ich und setzte mich an den Tisch. "Hier, nimm dir einen Teller!", meinte Onkel und stellte mir einen vor die Nase. Ich lächelte ihm verschlafen zu und schnappte mir dann ein Brötchen, schnitt es auf und bestrich es mit Hagebuttenmarmelade. "Magst du Kaffee?" Tante stand schon mit der Kanne neben mir. Ich nickte und sie schenkte mir etwas in die Tasse ein, die neben meinem Teller stand. Eine große Menge Milch durfte in meinem Kaffee nicht fehlen, ich trank ihn ungesüßt. Schnell aß ich mein Brötchen, räumte meinen Teller ab und fragte dann, was es zu tun gab. "Unsere Stallburschen müssten schon hier sein. Gewöhnlich kommen sie um acht Uhr, manchmal sogar früher. Schau einfach in den Stall, sie werden Arbeit für dich haben." "Okay. Wissen sie, dass ich über die Ferien hier bin?", wollte ich noch wissen. Tante nickte. "Ja, ich habe es ihnen gesagt!" Okay, dann rechneten sie also bereits mit mir. So weit ich wusste hießen die Stallburschen Mike und Sascha. Wer allerdings wer war, wusste ich noch nicht. Nachdem ich mir also meine Zähne geputzt und meine alten Turnschuhe angezogen hatte, lief ich hinüber in den Stall. Es war schon wunderschön warm, dafür das es erst neun Uhr war. Das Stalltor war bereits offen und schon schlug mir der Pferdegeruch entgegen, den ich schon lange nicht mehr gerochen hatte. Kurz musste ich mich daran gewöhnen. Ich schlenderte die lange Stallgasse entlang. Pferde wieherten, streckten ihre Köpfe aus den Boxen und anscheinend freuten auch sie sich am Wetter. Ich traute meinen Augen kaum, als ich an einem mir vertrautem Pferd vorbeilief. "Das ist doch..." Ich schaute es genau an. Doch, es war Espri. Er hatte immer noch dieselben runden, neugierigen Augen, die Ohren stets gespitzt. Espri war pechschwarz, das Fell glänzte wunderschön und er war das Pferd, in das ich mich damals sofort verliebte. Das er noch nicht verkauft war, machte mich glücklich. Ich hätte nicht damit gerechnet, Espri noch einmal zu sehen. Nur reiten durfte ich ihn damals nur, wenn Onkel dabei war. Denn Espri hatte ziehmliches Temperament. Gerade, als ich die Box öffnen wollte, rief hinter mir jemand: "Hey, was machst du da?" Erschrocken fuhr ich zusammen und drehte mich um. Das musste einer der Stallburschen sein. Er hatte schwarzes Haar, war muskulös, was ihn echt gut aussehen ließ. Mit großen Schritten kam er auf mich zu. "Wer bist du und was machst du hier?" Der Typ baute sich vor mir auf. Sollte ich jetzt wohl Angst haben? "Ähm, ich bin Amy und ich wohne die nächstens sechs Wochen hier, schon vergessen?", gab ich spitz zurück. Das fing ja mal super an! Nach kurzem Überlegen schnippte der Junge mit den Fingern. "Stimmt, das hat deine Tante ja erzählt! Sorry, dass ich dich so blöd angemacht hab. Ich bin Sascha!" "Ah okay. Dann ist der andere Typ Mike, oder?" Sascha nickte. "Okay. So, was kann ich jetzt machen, wo soll ich helfen?", wollte ich wissen. Sascha schaute mich an und fing dann das Lachen an. "Du? Helfen? Kann eine aus der Stadt sich überhautp die Hände schmutzig machen?" Wow, das war eine ziehmlich blöde Beleidigung gewesen. Ich wurde wütend. "Hey, du Klugscheißer! Du hast keine Ahnung, also halt mal schön die Klappe! Ich zeig's dir schon!", fuhr ich ihn an. Sofort verstummte er. "Ähm, okay, dann...bring die Pferde raus und miste dann die Boxen." Mit einem kurzen, wütenden Nicken ging ich in die Sattelkammer, um mir ein paar Führstricke zu schnappen. "Brauchst du Hilfe?" "Ich kann das allein, okay?" Mit energischen Schritten ging ich zur ersten Box, holte das Pferd heraus und brachte es auf die Koppel, dann das zweite, das dritte ... Nach ein paar weiteren Pferden stand ich wieder vor Espris Box. "Lass mich Espri holen, er hat voll Temperament!", meinte Sascha. "Vergiss es, Klugscheißer! Den hole schön ich!" Selbstbewusst machte ich Espri am Strick fest und holte ihn dann aus der Box. Anmutig schritt Espri neben mir her. Was für eine Schönheit er war! Nachdem ich auch ihn erflolgreich auf die Koppel gebracht hatte, mussten noch zwei Pferde rausgebracht werden. "Die mach ich schon, fang schon mal das misten an!", rief Sascha mir zu, als ich wieder in den Stall kam. "Wenn du meinst", war mein Kommentar. Draußen war es schon richtig warm geworden. Okay, jetzt erst mal Heugabel und Schubkarre holen! Nachdem ich die Sachen im Stall aufgetrieben hatte, machte ich mich an die Arbeit. Ich fuhr mit der Schubkarre in die erste Box und fing an zu misten. Dabei war ich völlig in Gedanken. "Was denkt dieser Sascha eigentlich? Dass ich nicht anpacken kann, nur weil ich aus der Stadt komme? Hoffentlich ist dieser Mike nicht genauso doof." Vier Boxen weiter stand auf einmal wieder Sascha neben mir. "Hätte nicht gedacht, dass du das so gut hinbekommst!" Ich schaute über die Schulter und sah, welch bescheuertes Grinsen Sascha aufgesetzt hatte. "Halt die Klappe und geh!" "Nein, ich schau dir zu." Meine Güte, drückte ich mich nicht klar aus? "Sascha, lass mich bitte in Ruhe!" Er sagte nichts darauf, sondern blieb, wo er war. Schön, sollte er doch hierbleiben, wenn er es so interessant fand. Mürrisch machte ich weiter und schaufelte den Mist in die Karre, dann schob ich zur nächsten Box. Sascha ging wieder mit mir. Gott, wie lange musste ich ihn noch aushalten? Nachdem ich die anschließende Box auch gemistet hatte, leerte ich meine Karre wieder aus. Sie war ziehmlich schwer geworden und wankte gefährlich, als ich sie schob. "Soll ich das machen?", fragte Sascha, der neben mir herlief. Jetzt war es genug! Konnte er mich nicht in Ruhe lassen? Erst diese abgruntief blöde Bemerkung, auf die er so dämlich zu lachen begonnen hatte, jetzt schleimte und nervte er rum! Aprubt blieb ich stehen und stellte die Schubkarre wütend auf den Boden. "Nerv mich jetzt nicht!", presste ich unter zusammengebissenen Zähnen hervor. "Und was ist, wenn doch?" Herausfordernd blickte er mich an. Ohne zu überlegen griff ich mir aus der Schubkarre eine Hand voll Mist und knallte sie ihm ins Gesicht. Verdattert schaute er mich an, als er wieder freie Sicht hatte und sich vom Mist befreit hatte. Ich sagte nichts, funkelte ihn noch kurz an und ging dann mit der Schubkarre weiter Richtung Misthaufen. "Das bekommst du zurück!", rief er mir nach und lachte. [mehr]
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Sachin Sarohi
The Fear
- Horror
- Englisch
- 2 Wörter
- Ab 16 Jahren
- 461
- 9
Night was cold and wind was blowing with sound that can frighten ears. I and my wife were travelling in Himalayas. There was no sign of any life there. Roads were so narrow that car was driven at 20 km. We were talking to each other and planning about next day suddenly both of the car head light went off. I immediately stopped the car and was thinking of what happened. I told my wife to relax as she was frightened to see what happened. I got out of the car and asked her to stay inside. That was the first time realize the hilly region which we enjoyed the whole day is so dull and full of fear. It was completely dark and I was not able to see my wife sitting in the car also. She was again and again asking me to come back inside; she was frightened of wild animals that roam around there in search of food. I came back inside and tried to turn on the parking light but nothing was working at all. There might be a problem with the light circuit I told my wife who was mum and could not speak anything. It was 1 am and the whole night was left, I was also worried that our car is standing in the middle of the road and somebody can hit us. I again went outside to see the road end, in the silence realize that a river was flowing down below and the sound was so low that realize that we are very high from it. I came back inside the car and asked my wife to take some sleep as we cannot move till morning. We locked the door and sat inside. We were hearing different sound coming from the deep jungle which was not good at all. The night was not passing by and the temperature was going down and down. I asked my wife to go behind and have some sleep but she was not ready to leave me at all. 2 am I asked my wife to stay there as I need to go for a Lou. I unlocked the door and went outside again. As soon as I went beside the car I was frightened to see a lady sitting just beside the back door and watching me. My whole body was white and I could not move my legs, as I have heard many ghostly stories about people who die in road accidents in mountains. My wife asked me what happened and told to come inside. I held my breath and came back inside. I was shivering with fear and my wife was seeing me asking what happened. I saw the back window and that lady hand were placed on the glass of the window. I could not react and told my wife nothing happened. I could see the hand from the front mirror but was not looking behind because I could not. I Believe in god but never prayed, I knew something is about to happen and we both could not do anything about it. I was praying in my mind that whatever it was should leave us that time realized how much important our life is and about my wife who was more afraid of all these things and if I tell her about the lady she will not be able to wait till morning and will ask me to drive. I stopped looking into the mirror and was sitting there without speaking anything. My wife kept on asking me what happened. She was curious to know as she never saw me like that. We sat there for sometime and I again decided to look into the mirror. I took a deep breath and saw this time nothing was there and I felt relaxed but it was for just for few minutes. This time my wife asked me that she wants to go out to get fresh. The moment she said to me and I immediately refused because I knew something is there and how important she was for me. She kept on insisting that she will take just 2 minutes. After sometime I agreed but told her to wait inside as I wanted to check the place. I not at all wanted to get out of the car but I had to, I opened the door and went outside. This moment was more horrifying and worst experience of my life. I looked around but nobody was there. I called my wife out. She was out with me in cold now. After sometime we came back inside and I was happy that we are safe now. This time we felt that car was getting cozy inside. Temperature was not so cold we felt that we were sitting in front of heater. I knew I did not turn the heater on but still it was warm inside. Soon realize why it was. The worst night mare was about to happen. I saw in the mirror that lady was sitting at the back seat staring directly into my eyes. I COULD NOT REACT AT ALL. My wife saw my face with fear and kept asking why I was reacting that way. She knew I was not afraid of anything but she was to be proven wrong in a moment. She said what happened. Nothing came out of my mouth. Suddenly my wife turned to back seat and grabbed her shawl. I hold her hand and looked into her face. She said what happened, she could not see the lady but I could clearly see in the mirror that somebody was sitting there. I don't want to sit in that car anymore but I knew the moment I tell my wife about it she will be out of the car and will run which was not safe at all in the jungle. We kept sitting there for sometime and I closed my eyes and was praying. It was 4 am now and car was again started to get cool. We waited for some more time and it was looking normal now. Lady was gone and sun was about to rise. I turn the engine on and for our surprise lights were working absolutely fine as if nothing happened. We started again and after sometime sun was shining above us. My mind was a bit relaxed but what ever happened I was not able to forget. After driving few kms we saw a small hotel. We decided to stay there and we took one room. Hotel had an old construction but that was the only one there. After we had breakfast we went to our room and slept. We both were so tired that we did not knew that we slept for full day and now again it was NIGHT. Inside our room there was a big glass window from which we can see the full view of the jungle. My wife was sleeping as she was really tired suddenly there was a knock on the door, I opened the door and saw an old man standing with a candle in his hand. He asked me to take it as everyday light goes off anytime. I took the candle and again started to think about the last night. I woke up my wife to ask if she want to have dinner, she refused as she was too tired and did not want to get up. It was a full moon night and trees can be seen easily in the dense forest. I was feeling hungry so I decided to go downstairs and will have something. I saw my wife sleeping so I closed the door and went down to reception. I ordered something to eat and sat on a chair which was placed to see the full jungle view. I was looking at the jungle and full moon light crossing the trees was an amazing view. As soon as my food came in the light went off. I stood up immediately as I was worried about my wife. I started to run back to my room but could not find it. Soon I realized that we both were the only people staying there. With the mobile torch I found my room and I opened the door. THE THING WHICH I SAW WAS THE LAST THING I WANTED TO SEE IN MY LIFE: The same lady was standing beside my wife and looking at her and smiling. I was stunned and ran towards my wife. I shouted and grabbed her in my arms. She was shocked and was confused about what happened. I immediately asked her to pack the bags and leave the hotel. She insisted on staying in the hotel only as she knew outside weather will not allow us to leave. I wanted to tell her the entire things that was happening with me but I knew right now she will be able to sleep well but after that she will not be able to rest properly. I was inside the blanket now and was looking here and there but there was no sign of the lady. Till 11.30 I was awake but after sometime I feel sleepy and closed my eyes. 2 am somebody was knocking the window; I opened my eyes and saw the same lady was standing outside the window and staring me. I checked my wife and to my biggest surprise she was not in the bed. I turn on my mobile torch and check the entire room; suddenly I heard a low sound coming from the corner of the wall. I checked there my wife was sitting on the ground and looking at the same women. She was so afraid that she could not even shout. I immediately ran towards her and held her in my arms. She pointed her finger towards the window and said she saw a man standing outside. I told her it was not a man it was a women. She refused to believe it and was sure that it was a man. Nothing was there now and we both sat and I told her everything about what happened last night. She was very surprised to hear that I was seeing a women and she was seeing a man. We both decided not to stay at that place anymore. We packed our bags and came towards the main lobby from where stairs were going down towards the main reception and gate. We walked slowly and to our surprise somebody footsteps were coming from behind but we could not see that person. We came towards the gate and looked for the manager, he was not there so we opened the gate and came out. Our car was parked few meters away we both walked towards the car and I opened the door and we sat inside the car now.
I turned on the engine and to our surprise headlights were again not working. We looked at each other in fear, there was a complete silence. Suddenly a mist of fog covered the whole area and it was dense that we could not see a meter away. I knew whatever it was will not let us go anywhere but we did not know what they wanted from us.
After sometime I asked my wife if we can go inside the hotel again as it was getting colder and colder outside but she refused as she was shivering not because of cold but because of FEAR.
We kept sitting inside the car and waiting for sunrise. We decided that we will go back and will end our tour here. 2 hours passed nothing happened; we sat inside mum and thinking what we will see in next moment. Car window was covered with fog, I turned on the engine and started the blower, and it was of no use. Suddenly we heard that somebody is coming towards the car, the footstep was so loud and clear that we knew that it coming very fast towards us. We hold our hand together and look around, suddenly in the front mirror something was written – “I will be with you always”.
I started the car wiper but it was not going off as if someone has painted on the car window. My wife started to scream madly and shouted :” who are you, what you wanted from us?”
Nothing was there other than a big silence. It was sunrise after sometime and road was clear and visible. Next surprise was waiting for us, there was no hotel. We were standing in the middle of the road and it was covered of trees. There was no sign of hotel or anybody. I came out of the car and looked here and there but nothing was there. At least now we were relaxed that its sunrise now and we are safe. I immediately started the car engine and turned back. We drove so fast as if we are getting late to get our life back. 4 hours of driving I got a T-point, there was no sign where to go. We decided to take the left turn as road in that direction was in good condition. After sometime we saw a small café and a lady was sitting there. My wife was so happy so see someone to whom we can talk and ask about the area. We had some tea and ate some food. I asked the lady if there is any hotel in that area or if she has heard anything about a man and women. She knew nothing about it, we started again as it was evening and we want to get out this mountain drive. I kept on driving though I was feeling very tried but I knew if I stopped now then we will not be able to leave that place.
After sometime it was again DARK. Fear could be seen in my wife eyes, she was so shocked that she stopped talking to me and was looking here and there.
I stopped the car again to get fresh; my wife did not like it at all. I came out the car and first looked at the place. It was dark outside and same nothing was visible clearly. I got fresh and was coming back towards my car; suddenly I heard that someone is calling me from behind. I looked back and saw the same lady was standing in front of me with a man. She did not come near me but was staring at me and said “I will be with you always”. I started running towards my car and turned on the engine and drove as I was driving in formula one. My wife started crying as she knew something again has happened. This time headlights were working fine and we kept on driving. I knew whatever it was now will never come back, we saw the lights coming from town and we reached the town finally.
We were so happy and relaxed to be there, my wife jumped on me and we hugged each other. We knew that we have won the race against death and we are alive.
We came back to our house and months have passed now, there was no sign of that lady and man.
Today my wife has gone out for a party and I am alone in the house. Light went off and when it came back on, I saw something is written on the mirror: “I WILL BE WITH YOU ALWAYS”.
The Fear: Being alone is my greatest fear. [mehr]
Stichwörter: Its just a new beginning
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Dr. Sonnet Mondal.
Fusion Sonnets of 21st Century
21 Lines
- Lyrik und Poesie
- Englisch
- 1 Wörter
- Keine Altersempfehlung
- 493
- 2
Sonnet 1
The white clouds, in black theme;
Hidden daylight on the Eastern earth,
For Great Poets a dreadful dearth,
For the poetic vegetation to take birth ;
The spotted moon shining upon its seam-
Without vitality, fragile against the agile clouds,
Heading towards it to spread the shroud,
No star in the scenery, no men to cry aloud;
Where’s the smile, where’s the gleam?
Where’s the hope where’s the dream?
The billows will fall as water vapours
Upon the wish of the Lord!
If not poetry will form itself in the dark-
Fighting to shape its form.
The white clouds in the black theme ;
Perhaps the fault of the painter…
Colors spreading toward the subject tower;
A new shade to be brushed
To save it from being crushed;
Or a few drops upon the face with a pull on the edges will form-
The spotted moon, shining upon its seam.
Sonnet 2
Oh, Old, Bold, kingly building…
You stand here for the fifteen decades of transition-
So many changes in thoughts travelling through sensation-
Of wars and treaties, cries and cremations;
Oodles of the century in your stoic ceiling!!!
Your eroded body with weathered paint-
Must be turning you faint,
Without a space to launch a complain, all constrained.
Are you not bored standing here, then why are you smiling?
I know you have whims; still why aren’t you appealing?
The day isn’t far when the circulating air in your galleries-
Will break open the blockage of the ministerial ears,
And will force them to dress up with new color perhaps white-
Then the parties and dances will kiss off your boredom.
Oh, Old, Bold, kingly building…
Are you not jaded with the age old architecture?
No more does it winch your structure.
The people residing have pinned loads of pegs in your skin –
Haven’t your soul ever wanted to move out of this sin?
Still from where do you gather the power to bear-
Oodles of the century in your stoic ceiling!!!
Sonnet 3
Hours of waste heaped beside your shores;
Nature started you with the touch of purity perhaps from the hands of a priest,
With glaciers creating you and flakes creating mist,
Boulders standing on the way showing you fist;
Still you flow, form and find inspite of the infected core.
People say you to be life and still treat you as dustbin,
Curtailing the ability of the moving fins-
To move about, live or swim,
Above is it layer of smoke and over you, the oil pores?
When would men realize, actions will cause sores?
The sores would rise above the skin to expose themselves;
The children would scream in pain-
Perhaps then the guys would realize
And clear your feet and drop flower on you.
Hours of waste heaped beside your shores;
The human blood overburdened with sorrows,
Showing the step of the fellows,
Anxiety, grief abound in veins-
Layering it the hidden pains…
Scores of ups and downs in the course-
Still you flow, form and find inspite of the infected core.
Sonnet 4
The mother sat with hanging tongue, brooding over conscience;
The puppies in their own world of Natural toys; above the cawing ravens,
Bits of stones comprise their castle, their heaven…
Stolen splendor, innocent appeal, thoughtless vitality – all woven;
The platonic smell in mystic hairs within immortal science.
The new-borns were lessened by one in number,
The very next date, after the time of human supper,
The mother seemed fresh, her stomach looked fatter;
Was it her who did it in some shallow mines?
You were the cause of production, then what led you break the charming rhymes?
Must be to reduce an extra burden of –
Or to cure someone off the circle of existence;
Perhaps the soul will go to merge into the supreme soul-
Or the hunger would never return again.
The mother sat with hanging tongue, brooding over conscience;
The burning heat had vaporized the saliva of the mother,
The hanging skin of her belly had arose a blood hunger,
That supplemented her crooked eyebrows towards a female child-
And lured her towards becoming savage and wild.
Perhaps crops and economy would improve and prepare you to conceive-
The platonic smell in mystic hairs within immortal science.
Sonnet 5
The steel cages rusted, rotted yet strong and bold,
Inside them lies a separate world of wild limbs limping-
And turned inert with torture and malfunctioning,
Their bloody flesh exposed a slapdash attitude with distressed feeling.
Excitement in eyes, pleasure in heart, wonder in minds from sufferings untold.
The fierce paws perhaps waiting for the head,
One chance will kiss alive the daring dead!
They are here cogently none of them are well fed.
What makes them stay here for hours in heat and cold?
What if God decides to move them to eternity from these nuts and bolts?
The crowd is increasing with the number of days in earth’s calendar,
Perchance some eyes would feel the ensuing death-
And scream in protest, close the doors-
To provide zeal to work and vigor to our pulse.
The steel cages rusted, rotted yet strong and bold,
The values disgraced and degraded in an ever-sinking trough-
The well born meant to rule and the ill born destined to plough!
The hunger forces them to spread their hands and bow their heads-
Possibly one lord would see the angry eyes desiring to weave wreaths-
And would start heaping red soil in the gulf of separation to change the world of-
Excitement in eyes, pleasure in heart, wonder in minds from sufferings untold.
Sonnet 6
The signs of the past signaling them though the walls of the museum-
Ancestral figures sleeping inside glasses;
A nostalgic journey embedded inside multifaces;
Moving in and out, the sorrowfully happy masses.
The bridge which leads to our much coveted past’s stadium.
The plaster over the stony bones undergoing depreciation,
Unnoticed or willfully derelict till the boss comes for inspection.
Most of the doors have been closed under the poster of renovation!
When will the gates containing history open in open fluid medium?
Is it also ordained to face the delaying court of law, in this millennium?
Beside the central entrance, bamboos have been erected,
The floor is dusty but to support the roof;
The work has started, the contractors engaged, the workforce is on-
Perhaps that could smell breathe into the sleeping statues.
The signs of the past signaling them though the walls of the museum-
Fated to be silent in reaction of the course of detrimental activities,
Carried out by those still figures with cavities-
They didn’t care to save their past-
Then we are far better in saving them in any caste.
We will still care without anger and act to preserve,
The bridge which leads to our much coveted past’s stadium.
Sonnet 7
The two sparrows fluttering feathers in the mud water-
The summer heat outside raging over the northern tropic;
The folded leaves, dozing crowns, piercing sunlight caught in the camera’s click.
The shot captured the lifted tails, squashy feathers, twinkling eyes and the insect in the beaks.
While the thirsty earth begs for some juice, nature seems to be interested only in its care.
The camera turned to jail more of such scenery-
The dusty structures all around surrounded by ironical greenery;
No where a second such beauty; what a slavery!
Have all other sparrows left the bower?
Why didn’t the scene act as an inspirational shelter?
Some rays have acted worse than the scorching sunlight!
They must end soon, for more lovely views to be viewed;
Or they will turn to iron falcons
To take up the reign of survival.
The two sparrows fluttering feathers in the mud water-
Want of water all over the thirsty city,
Still fumes are up over the trees; what a pity!
The realization yet to be dawned and distributed-
Or the living brains would turn to boiler heads;
The water pumps of actions are being cleared to prevent the rule of insects-
While the thirsty earth begs for some juice, nature seems to be interested only in its care.
Sonnet 8
The shirts and pants hanging from the ropes crisscrossing the room-
Perhaps they were washed today; the last drops still appear on the floor;
They are yet not dry, held together by something in the core,
One of them appears red, indicative drops, apart from those dropping from pores.
Below the roof a new world has bloomed.
Sleepy eyes, sinking figure, loose fingers upon different brands of wine and fusion,
Hallucinations cutting towards flattering illusion,
The smoke rising and curling up to create a new creation of destruction.
Are they heading towards perfection in passion or ultimate doom?
Have the labeled bottles perforated their body or they find happiness in gloom?
Addiction will vanish in another six months-
Vital forces of the drunk, will end in water-
The dying whim of employment would turn them loyal;
The compulsion to perform will certainly speak in favor of betterment.
The shirts and pants hanging from the ropes crisscrossing the room-
The yes failed to see those burning veins-
Whither no blood but alcohol drains!
Neither parents nor teachers interested for their survival-
The sensed out bodies with the red color tearing through eyes-What a carnival?
They will spin to ashes and then the renunciation will make the scholars utter as if-
Below the roof a new world has bloomed.
Sonnet 9
Peace all over the pitch black abode of the sleeping souls-
A faint weep could be heard, mysterious yet sad-
A half burnt man sat on his grave, over his head a tattered hat
A symbol of his success that turned his enemies mad.
Triumph or collapse both being part of life, harmony was packed into holes.
His lament was for what he failed to complete-
His annoyance was that he was competent to compete,
Yet was shot dead before his works could reach the country fleet.
Why did they tell then that ‘you aren’t applying for big goals’?
And when he did why did they stole his discoveries and tear his brain’s poles?
A figure rose from behind, awakened by his daily sobs-
That world is a punishment, the graveyard is serene;
You have worked a lot and now the Lord wants you to wait,
Till those assassins finish their span and come here with no bed to sleep.
Peace all over the pitch black abode of the sleeping souls-
The moans of the dead specify his failure to satisfy himself-
Even with huge money and innovations in his shelf,
Still he didn’t wait but tried to run with wrong associations-
That led to his untimely fall, and post death frustrations.
Now, it’s the hour to realize the world’s way-
Triumph or collapse both being part of life, harmony was packed into holes.
Sonnet 10
The time has vanished when I used to rely upon my branches-
I am now, just like a tree whose lithe boughs have congealed,
Enduringly bent and rotten without the sap inside that have been sealed
Somewhere else, for someone else’s to be filled.
The provider of shade is now herself craving for calm benches.
The yearning in psyche is still strong yet has lost poise,
My opinion doesn’t matter anymore owing to my faint voice;
I fear placing my words to prevent creating noise.
Shall the doctors be able to cure me to early stages?
Or shall I be forced to be like this for the rest of my ages?
I will stay in this form, but will not groan in pain-
When my children are enduring me, shall I not endure them?
Let my branches fall and let me turn cripple,
Till I have the verve in the nerves of my eyes, I must see them idyllic.
The time has vanished when I used to rely upon my branches-
Perhaps I have disused the forming element of my cadaver-
This had left me like a brittle glass upon the soft bed cover;
I have no clout to enjoy but smirk occasionally-
When I see them laughing in joy, those who care me blissfully;
Let this be my life now, contended with all I had over the years and forget that-
The provider of shade is now herself craving for calm benches.
Sonnet 11
Outside the lights are up, the grand fiesta of lights has stepped inside halls-
But they have botched to skulk within me.
My eyes are wide open to seize the brightness and feel the glee,
Yet times and over it is murkiness and tedium, what it could see!
The large bursts crashed against my ears, crackers burned in my eyeballs…
Over two decades ago, it was the similar night, same as today
Two kids at the doorsteps, behind them their father was about to join the play-
I had evil commitment and my spiteful arm shot him to taste the clay…
Is it my turn now to cart the heavy death’s shawl?
Or should I wait for heavenly calls?
The peccadillo I had adhered to blinks each moment,
Let me spread my hands to be taken away by the handless,
Let my only dwelling be temple!
Let me wait before I sleep.
Outside the lights are up, the grand fiesta of lights has stepped inside halls-
I was a sincere murderer; I was bound by profession;
The ferocious sounds have provided a base of my frustration;
The reason may be my wobbly fingers and meager eyesight,
That pulls me back, say me no and deter me from having my fight.
Can those children without senses, with slaughtered father be my now…?
The large bursts crashed against my ears, crackers burned in my eyeballs…
Sonnet 12
Tension crawled and prevailed over the creepers in the mangrove and vineyard-
The other day witnessed the death of the grasses;
The army with spades and machines moving in masses,
To trample upon herbs, chop down the mangrove without any traces.
Nature is silent perhaps dumb to see the greenery turning to a grey graveyard!
The land that swelled amongst leaves now presented waterless soil,
As if the human race choked in a python coil;
The huge figures were cut into pieces, loaded in trucks and the wastes were boiled.
Was there none to choose barren yards?
Now who will provide fruits of life and shelter to birds?
The last one was left but covered by worms of hundred types-
Their only home was left- not an inch without a group of them;
The green hue emitted the color of industries-
The spades dropped from the hands, now looked at the seeds, the basis of creation.
Tension crawled and prevailed over the creepers in the mangrove and vineyard-
Unwanted, undesirable minds moved their arms without perceiving thoughts-
Depending upon the sales of those destroyed and the deceiving papers they got.
The mute worms made them look into themselves and kindled thinking power-
What if there’s neither rain nor the life sustaining showers!
They will now take up their tools and dig the ground to cremate the notes, still
Nature is silent perhaps dumb to see the greenery turning to a grey graveyard!
Sonnet 13
The deformed woman, in her eightieth revolution round the sun,
Like thin black rotten skin pasted upon a skeleton frame;
She came out of the crowd and called out to blame,
For the dirt were uncared by the juvenile bloods-a terrible shame!
The gaze through the spectacles looked spectacular with the stick, as if preparing to run.
With a broom in her hands she brushed the floor,
Fifty men and women all standing without thinking to adore,
No one humble enough to share with her before she pushes the dust out of the door.
What she thinks of such person avoiding their turn?
Or does she take it as her old-age fun?
She is not worn out but looked most carefree still in her senescence –
The servant suddenly arrived to fall to her feet and take the charge-
Of cleaning, staring with surprise at the crowd who never knew-
Who was combing the ground was a landlady.
The deformed women, in her eightieth revolution round the sun,
Sunburns and distortions in form were a result of her long service-
For days to serve the people gathering at her office;
This was years ago, but still now God has kept her strong-
While travelling and cleaning places all along-
The natives were dormant but now buoyant to take up charge of reformations while-
The gaze through the spectacles looked spectacular with the stick, as if preparing to run.
Sonnet 14
Falling heavily, the rains barred us from moving out-
My thoughts boarded upon the boat of chimera and rowed to my land,
Crossing the oceans to reach the shore where stands my dwelling of sand;
My nostalgia played a mischief upon my beliefs with a magic wand.
Waiting beside to see the waves pull down the structure setting laws of timeout.
O Ocean Fluid you are perpetual flowing with the same pace,
Then why are you so fervent to crack away my heart’s case?
I endure the groaning pain which for the mankind absorb no place.
Will it persist drizzling and create unanswerable doubts?
Out should I move, prepare myself for a bout?
By the time the showers will stop, may be all of a sudden,
But the colorists will get some time to complete their work-
To paint my home, and all along to paint my gloom;
They must be working hard; the nature has lent his hand.
Falling heavily, the rains barred us from moving out-
Grueling me for my actions through its own measures,
I was wrong to make someone cry for my own pleasure-
To leave address and set up a new,
But destiny desired failure for me amongst my crew.
I hope Mother Nature indubitably will exonerate me or I will be-
Waiting beside to see the waves pull down the structure setting laws of timeout.
Sonnet 15
The girls came to me, each with the opinion of being diverse in their own tales-
The first one with the policy of ‘to be for one is to be forever’;
The second one with the principle ‘to love I belong never’;
The third one with the words ‘to head towards love is a daring endeavor’;
Confusion prevailed over my musing wits with those terse lines from the females.
Spending a night with each will increase my awareness and compel,
All of them were to be my lovers to compete swell, to lift me up from the baffling well,
The second one came, she lost; the first one with a pre-relation, she too failed;
The third one tried to be safe; wasn’t all swept in just a gale?
Was this their commitment to lips or was there more for fake sales?
The will power of women didn’t lie in words but they are like volatile chemicals,
Touch and vanish without informing, sometimes leaving a trace-
To fall into them is like digging deep in a well,
Still I would experiment, if not the purity of words then the purity of pelt.
The girls came to me, each with the opinion of being diverse in their own tales-
Experimenting was just a filthy cause, lust lasted in heap,
Unsatisfied with one that led to two and three and seep-
The beauty beneath the blood; the feeling of ship in a storm,
Perhaps I chose those girls changing their norms;
I fell in love through yearn, but they seemed to scorn…
Confusion prevailed over my musing wits with those terse lines from the females.
Sonnet 15
The girls came to me, each with the opinion of being diverse in their own tales-
The first one with the policy of ‘to be for one is to be forever’;
The second one with the principle ‘to love I belong never’;
The third one with the words ‘to head towards love is a daring endeavor’;
Confusion prevailed over my musing wits with those terse lines from the females.
Spending a night with each will increase my awareness and compel,
All of them were to be my lovers to compete swell, to lift me up from the baffling well,
The second one came, she lost; the first one with a pre-relation, she too failed;
The third one tried to be safe; wasn’t all swept in just a gale?
Was this their commitment to lips or was there more for fake sales?
The will power of women didn’t lie in words but they are like volatile chemicals,
Touch and vanish without informing, sometimes leaving a trace-
To fall into them is like digging deep in a well,
Still I would experiment, if not the purity of words then the purity of pelt.
The girls came to me, each with the opinion of being diverse in their own tales-
Experimenting was just a filthy cause, lust lasted in heap,
Unsatisfied with one that led to two and three and seep-
The beauty beneath the blood; the feeling of ship in a storm,
Perhaps I chose those girls changing their norms;
I fell in love through yearn, but they seemed to scorn…
Confusion prevailed over my musing wits with those terse lines from the females.
Sonnet 16
It was the autumn festivity, liberated joy marked by a day of desires-
Desire for good shirts, good food, good friends, good journey-
Amongst the sea of wishes, there’s some, infact too many –
Glance at the season not as their means to toil but to earn money.
The alluring ladies enjoying the victuals, while server is in frayed attire.
Standing with his small child washing the crockery, the man behind the counter-
Occasionally he looks at his son, wipes off his sweat and tries to work faster,
While his son look at the merry-go-rounds; a vain dreamer.
To one it’s everything, to another it’s nothing; isn’t it a satire?
Will they earn enough capital to leap out from the poverty fire?
They are avoiding outlay, being ambitious towards some aim,
To stop the customary conditions in the rich and poor-
They want brotherhood, we too-
But the self-seeking people, let them value labor now.
It was the autumn festivity, liberated joy marked by a day of desires-
A freefalling object lightened the sky premises-
The mesmerizing night had made so truthful promises;
The astronauts too sighted the object and tried to track it,
Who should it belong; it fell to one of the hunger stricken feet;
The world has watched this through technology, no one to do injustice yet-
The alluring ladies enjoying the victuals, while server is in frayed attire.
Sonnet 17
Sometimes the sizzling sun, sometimes the blinding rain in the muddy plot,
Thwart my lazy veins to depart for daily classes,
But my poetic psyche begins its research ogling through the glasses-
Not at youthful lasses but at the blissful Sun, White sky, and growing grasses.
The Sun and Moon in their reverse course performing their duty to capture snapshots.
So many four years have passed; I will also go by-
The hazy metaphors of these days, some prominent yet among them, will surely make me cry;
I will earn a lot but will these things available for me to buy?
Where does the past passes and clot?
Is our sorrowful mind only facet of elucidation that we have got?
Lords must have fixed the sky to register and clouds as informer,
Wherever we go, leaving our land, to foster peace in our life,
Thinking or forgetting our times of yore to which we covet to come back some day,
The chronicle will keep on working; we’ll posses the criterion to see them.
Sometimes the sizzling sun, sometimes the blinding rain in the muddy plot,
If I went to class I couldn’t have travelled to the billow,
May be I have a different world like all others; yet I reside in a hollow-
Memories and mirrors, reflect a melancholic song when viewed closely,
We have our closed fingers yet outlets are many through which they escape simply;
Nature like a King fixes work for its subjects and has his own cameras with which-
The Sun and Moon in their reverse course performing their duty to capture snapshots.
Sonnet 18
The passing days enhance my loneliness, among pen and papers;
I talk to the two lizards-
Who too try to hide apart-
To escape from the smell of my unwashed body and dirty shirt.
I long for someone of any gender, somebody of any culture.
The door bell rang; she came inside my room-
A fairy out of nowhere, kissed away my gloom!
Time went by; she came closer, still I refused to turn myself to a bridegroom.
What do I want; to be like the solitary reaper?
Why my feelings wished a companion when I preferred tear?
I was barmy from within who failed to know his fancy;
Let me talk to the walls and books,
I love that more than speaking to robots;
They will listen all my words without protest.
The passing days enhance my loneliness, among pen and papers;
God should not have created me at least,
Let me now turn to a theist,
I may have challenged him-
To spend my life without fulfilling whims-
I now think of growing stronger, let me desire none yet,
I long for someone of any gender, somebody of any culture.
Sonnet 19
With the toughness in figure, sanctity in intellect, clarity acquired over the days-
He stood on one leg as the a stilted log, adamant in deep meditation,
Without food for a hundred days in the same condition;
Below his feet, woods have been stacked; a fire-stick has been ignited under stipulation.
The hermit stood upon the fire; unshaken by the blaze!
The day before the sage stated himself to be sacrificed in the fire of purity,
For the sake of peace and principles among degrading humanity;
No administrator took a step, though all gathered from the city.
Couldn’t the sage utilize his divine powers for civilizing the phase?
Couldn’t those idiots stop this or they wanted more of such plays?
May be some godly influence paralyzed the people and policemen,
Leaving their eyes to watch,
Conceivably this was to make them see the naked truth all around,
To make them act, for benevolence and be strict with rules.
With the toughness in figure, sanctity in intellect, clarity acquired over the days-
The religious norms yet not done away, we still wear them as gowns;
As the saint burnt without movement, his parts fell down.
The scene should have caused a shockwave
But all bowed with joined hands, fell to their knees but none dared to save.
Today I realize rationality has lost in religions, which forced the bold people stand as-
The hermit stood upon the fire; unshaken by the blaze!
Sonnet 20
The greatest Epic of all times had so much to teach, though followers are fewer;
The plight of women indicated though the pages of Mahabharata,
‘Panchali’ born in the lap of King Dhrupad; in the kingly strata;
A princess for whom gold was like water; coins could be treated as excreta.
She sat upon barbs, in spite of her glorious image and backing power.
She longed and dreamed of Arjuna but got four of the brothers along,
She didn’t complain; but which woman would act so strong-
When the evil hands fell on her clothing while her husbands sat in the throng!
How strong was the deal that the dignity of a woman fell lesser?
Just a game of dice; does it suit to the princely ears?
The squashing of a princess occurred in a time when God had incarnated,
Then are we not better at present? At least the laws are…
Or the epic ought to be an indication to future scenarios,
Written by some wise man from his vision.
The greatest Epic of all times had so much to teach, though followers are fewer;
‘Panchali’ perhaps tried to be teacher of the women cult-
This made her endure so many curses and insult;
Made her a women of respect but after centuries –
Still how many think of these and her glories?
Perhaps the wise man would take steps now, to spread the message of the lady who-
She sat upon barbs, in spite of her glorious image and backing power.
Sonnet 21
I called upon platonic love upon knowing you;
I proposed you first then persuaded you to conceive spirituality-
The night assisted with its serenity and tranquility,
Of romantic breeze carrying the smell of concealed beauty.
I was mad in passion or mad in illusion, upon the reflection from the dews.
She spoke, perhaps the nature had dawned similar effects at her place-
It seemed we were familiar from toes to face,
We roamed in heaven; she blushed, my eyes glazed.
What if a strong wind blew?
Will I not be brought back to those dozing few?
I had my wife yet she was like an obligatory being,
The poetess for whom my poetry will flow,
Beyond the wildest imaginings and thoughts-
Inviting readers from the superficial world.
I called upon platonic love upon knowing you;
Nasty eyes looking at the figure formed by brain,
Like a tree I fall upon your breasts; now to give pain-
My carnal desire of lust you have to fulfill,
Let me pour the immortal juice in you without any appeal.
My hunger is satisfied now, the sun has risen-
I was mad in passion or mad in illusion, upon the reflection from the dews.
Sonnet 22
I thought myself to be the central spark of a diamond, a rationalist;
But never realized to be centre of pastime for the hackers of heart,
I was brave and bold but now I dare not act smart,
For I have been deceived detrimentally mingling me with dirt.
I have exchanged blows but they are too many, the modernists.
Was I really suited for a scornful behavior laid upon my core?
By those who call themselves intellectuals of the shore;
They want us to butter them, or else burn the core.
Why don’t they bear us with their list?
Why do they act as the arrogant, ancient priests?
Perhaps fear, the only reason of dumping the good,
They know us to be better, suitable for the age-
Yet enforce rules, but how long will they succeed?
Time is now ripe for them to leave poetry and join politics.
I thought myself to be the central spark of a diamond, a rationalist;
The old fashion might not match the present period; much less to share-
But the philosophy does, the style too if nurtured with care.
Respect arising from foolishness will now turn to disdain them-
Uncover their functional courtesy, rip of their wallet of fame.
But shall I be alone again to protest?
I have exchanged blows but they are too many, the modernists.
Sonnet 23
The Bamboo framework was being put up for the fest;
Freedom was blowing like soft breeze though the branches of a ‘Gulmohar’,
While the workers worked as red ants before the ensuing winter,
The sky seemed to bop and bloom with white cotton flowers;
The frame made of the bare bones of a tree that couldn’t protest.
Waiting hearts would be so glad to see the completion,
Four days of delight, with desires to show up oneself; nothing but infatuation-
Towards neglecting the dark days of decimation.
Do we love to adhere to wastage of time and neglect the test?
Or are we machines limited to our capability of taking rest?
Perhaps some think that the population of flora has increased,
And some seek to derive delight from shortcuts deserting the fact.
Whatever may be, the bustle is just like crackers-
After they are fatigued, we are back again on our toes.
The Bamboo framework was being put up for the fest;
The following day would bring new apparel,
Noise from the performers and beggars would run parallel;
Just a sputter of hope in a petite fraction of time,
In a tasteless water sugar and lime;
Cherishing them would help us, or we all will be like-
The frame made of the bare bones of a tree that couldn’t protest.
Sonnet 24
My first night of gig; I was presented as an elocutionist for poetry recitation;
Days of hard work must turn fruits of success in fame,
Of understanding verse to make others do the same.
I was primed, yet it was the first instant; I didn’t realize it to be a game.
I never knew if, for my voice, my image to be set into aberration.
The culture of city was great sitting in its historical chair,
As I stepped into the stage, the lights were off, what a fear!
Lights in front were off, I finished my lexis, but no but no claps rang in the ears.
Didn’t my tone overflowing with feelings create any sensation?
Should I have refrained from appearing in shows; should I have been down in frustration?
Look at me today, thousands fight for tickets,
I shall not deprive them of their wish, for any revenge;
But shall smile while I perform, those day are over,
Left for stories while appearing in interviews.
My first night of gig; I was presented as an elocutionist for poetry recitation;
I was dire at reciting the lines, I feel at present,
The lights were off perhaps to encourage this peasant,
I cried outside; the feelings in it were more than the poetry I said,
A memory that is still waiting to fade.
Like the knife, I go sharper each time my lips shudder, but days ago-
I never knew if, for my voice, my image to be set into aberration.
Sonnet 25
We two brothers brought up in the same cradle of care;
Separation was not meant for us;
Hand in hand even in tightest mass,
For we were the seeds of the same grass.
The love was intended for a short time- I was left bare.
I wore a coat given by my mother,
A bracelet from my father,
Those were the only gifts in these long twenty years.
Did they prefer one than a pair?
Are brothers not meant to share?
I was possibly one hour older, I guess-
I had to bear for the younger one,
People knew me more than him,
Perhaps they wanted both to be blessed equally.
We two brothers brought up in the same cradle of care;
My wits are confusing me in my own thoughts,
For the job I have done and adore he has got;
I see no tension in his eyebrows,
While my forehead and figure shows,
The anxiety of being adopted; no place for tears, I should be grateful though-
The love was intended for a short time- I was left bare.
Sonnet 26
The train moved calmly, as the slayer wheels proceeded for a crime...
I was on another track, waiting for that to pass,
It was amusement watching the movement, like the rounds of compass-
Upon it travelling thousand people of a hundred class.
The mail, a minister, with its subjects on both sides, but none upon the lines!
The wailings of my mother, slapped me twice,
For the joy I tried to receive from that who had cut my brother into taciturn slice,
A mean of transport, inevitably strong, yet criminal in disguise-
Was I paying for the butcher’s shine?
He committed suicide; where lies the fault of mine?
We felt sorrow, perhaps due to the loss of an essential life!
Covered by magic and everyday findings,
No scope for exceeding grief, or I will be the cause of another as such;
He was liable for what he did in his senses; why should I shake!
The train moved calmly, as the slayer wheels proceeded for a crime...
A dog was barking in tremendous restlessness-index of concern,
For below the massive engine, was one of his son -
For a moment he was seen, the next his flesh was carried away,
The mother looked at her other brood, and took them to play.
A striking similarity and a possible solution upon the dubious kindness of
The mail, a minister, with its subjects on both sides, but none upon the lines!
Sonnet 27
The hospital looked overburdened with patients, a place to shed tears of sorrow;
A little child with broken leg passed by,
An old man whose veins seem to turn dry;
Sleepers spreading infectious dust against the warning board which seems to be a lie.
The jail teaching humanity, through the art to lend and borrow...
In a place where one wants nothing but support,
Though the hours of patience; as if the people bored-
In a ship trembling upon life-taking waters to reach the port.
If this is present, what is waiting for tomorrow?
The healers breaking beliefs; will they prolong hiding in burrows?
The natural medicine will enhance to accrue,
And ignite the germs within;
While the science of yoga establishing strong,
Weaving to cure the ill-treated.
The hospital looked overburdened with patients, a place to shed tears of sorrow;
The young boy, like an official during day and lamp at night –
Striving to cure his father- a damaged body creating fright.
That made his studies a bud in a plant full of roses,
Still to bloom, till his father wins over the daily doses.
Oh! If we were tough before proceeding in-
The jail teaching humanity, through the art to lend and borrow...
Sonnet 28
I wasn’t any versifier; you were, among the few;
Your philosophical ride wasn’t truthful,
Taking me as a loving fool;
Look, your gifted floras have twisted into plastic tools.
I searched your awarded creation to have a first sincere view.
What is it? My muse questioned me times and again-
I had thought of penning but it has all gone into vain-
The themes that were mine thrilled him with fame.
Why did I share with you the story of my dead son Andrew?
Why have you committed theft even from my stored dews?
I am your inspiration; my sad heart feels proud,
You had words to trim them; stud them with jewels.
What an expert observer and listener you were!
I fall to your knees, here lies your greatness.
I wasn’t any versifier; you were, among the few;
You were in the front greatness was behind-
The cause beheaded and then reflected in your canto of typical kinds...
As I bent like a bow, you appeared with a glow,
To take me by a rope and pierce me with a glint of an arrow-
Never did you try, but your action meant studying me; I knew as...
I searched your awarded creation to have a first sincere view.
Sonnet 29
The landscape that my imaginations drew upon the canvass of joy, philosophically,
Made me travel as far as the chariot of my mind took me to-
Feel the unfelt before being touched by the blue,
Lost to find a new world, to examine if it was true!
All the while reality was becoming blurred; smiling maliciously.
I had no feet neither weight,
Before a pond in which lilies have been drawn like plate-
A man on the other shore, handless, giggling upon fate.
Whose fate- mine or his, seemed deadly?
Has he read or foreseen some ensuing fury heading furiously?
The man must be another dreamer-
Painting upon something aesthetic, unreal, unwanted!
An escapist, let not be so-
The warning is turning red; let me sprinkle water upon my face.
The landscape that my imaginations drew upon the canvass of joy, philosophically,
Was for few hours of night-
The day wasn’t so bright, it demanded fight;
The man must be an incarnation-
Showing his hand lost to crocodiles in motion.
The water lilies like traps towards the end, I have now realized-
All the while reality was becoming blurred; smiling maliciously.
Sonnet 30
The tapering of feet was heard as I waited below the bridge;
The place hasn’t changed, but none seems to be bothered,
To see the new encroachments revolutionizing their lives, providing a machine guard.
I waited with bags of questions for my parents who must be still old colored.
They should see me and think of covering the gravel of peach...
Another hour marked no special entrance,
My dad as if marked by marker; my joy enhanced-
For my mother, another eye was waiting for a glance.
Where’s the connection to my ridge?
Was I wrong in replacing my inventory cartridge?
It had been so many days that I had waited and they too,
To see each other but she wasn’t there;
Brimming watery observation now thought,
Whether there was any need to change; perspective rules.
The tapering of feet was heard as I waited below the bridge;
I was born, perhaps for this day-
To learn that grief lies veiled behind being gay;
Stumbling into truth, I removed the curtain-
My face tuned red, to see hell in certain.
I fell to my father’s chest, he told- I’m still living; my heart still gave a statement-
They should see me and think of covering the gravel of peach...
Sonnet 31
A flower that sprinkled drops upon my cursed face;
Spreading binding variety like a television program,
Like trumpets of victory upon wooden drums-
Love accumulating in unbreakable lumps.
Let me smile, the time is ripe, of fruits and grace.
I screamed for her, the tall buildings broke my echoes,
I began moving my feet, the soil warned my toes;
She blinked through her waving hairs, but no care did it show.
Did her stem demand a stronger base?
Did she think me to be a toy in her showcase?
For some wayward moment, I thought her to be mine,
I wasn’t wrong, she too was not,
The gap betrayed us, yet left memories in the sediments,
Of gone days, to make us wink remembering cries
A flower that sprinkled drops upon my cursed face;
She had hr her dearer for being older,
I couldn’t leave impressions upon her style, I being newer;
I succeeded in tying a thread connecting our life-
This was cut by her sharp tongue that acted as a knife.
Sadness molded by joy of forgetfulness;
Let me smile, the time is ripe, of fruits and grace.
Sonnet 32
The bucket flooded with the rain water dropping from the roof hole-
Swelling water raged in the river;
A flickering lamp quivering at the corner,
While the four members shared two breads with no drinking water.
The hunger was overpowered by the rising death toll.
The wires of communication by the flowing devil fate;
They didn’t cry to save vitality, as the water touched the gates,
In no time the flooded bucket was floating beside a piece of bread in the plate.
Was it due to the bending of earth’s poles?
Or was the wrath, each moment going out of control?
The jammed silt are now being removed,
Helicopters spreading food, insufficient yet appreciable-
The anger of the river will calm down soon,
To provide grains with its kindness.
The bucket flooded with the rain water dropping from the roof hole-
The palpitating mothers beside her motionless child,
Restlessness in her turning mild;
Like a life containing egg, broken without protest-
The people and cattle stopped their breathe, the birds without nests.
The giant will feel sad now and try to make amendments for the day when,
The hunger was overpowered by the rising death toll.
Sonnet 33
Neglecting the arts how far do you artists intend to proceed with virtual humanity!
When you are called to inspire the falling youth with ethics-
You say you are incompetent showing your competence beside politics!
Sometimes blaming even the new creative tricks.
We grew up with your stories; hereby we respect your creativity.
You were bold enough to stand up against odds,
But never to nurture a pod,
Of talent left for the mercy of God.
Do you fear healthy competitions filled with purity?
Or do you still crave for self popularity?
While thinking of this I saw some policemen,
I was pushed into a hypothetical place of gunshots,
One of them pierced my arm, my wife coming down towards me-
Was shot dead; perhaps you were right.
Neglecting the arts how far do you artists intend to proceed with virtual humanity!
We know you all as authors, not as social workers;
When you don’t write, that makes me suffer.
When we asked you for guidance in confrontation,
You said the decades are now for self formation.
We witnessed an execution, which confused us; if art was for service...
We grew up with your stories; hereby we respect your creativity.
Sonnet 34
The red radiance upon the distant tower was no more-
The cold season that left a pockmark upon my face pulled me in its cart.
I visualized the day when my regret knew no bounds in ceaseless flirts-
Signified by vexing tears from a torn heart.
Faithfulness betrayed by prettiness in a forsaken sea with no shore.
Her lotus breasts and nectar crammed lips-
Aroused in me the desire to take a sip,
And immortalize my romanticism; long and deep.
Was it necessary for my destiny to carry me to her door?
What was the women attraction that I urged to adore?
My physique needed satisfaction,
With nearing creation in any form,
But love took birth within the want-
This perhaps encouraged me to choose another after her.
The red radiance upon the distant tower was no more-
We crept into each other like creepers,
She hided her thorns-the blood suckers;
Blood flowed through the saline waters wetting the eyebrows,
Leaving me half baked in half baked world of sorrows.
Today I stand; I have strength of another lady to save me from-
Faithfulness betrayed by prettiness in a forsaken sea with no shore.
Sonnet 35
The flighty Daisies winked and shook in the cold weather-
Pending works to be finished,
The oneness to be relished,
Upon the branches brought together; revered like a fetich;
They wanted to be released from being torn, to live together forever.
The petals closed, then opened to look straight;
The wind stopped; the stillness looked great,
A sudden gale scattered the pollen, even upon the leaflets.
Shall they be alone to live together?
Or will they wait in some posy to share the death beauty with others?
Their span is short, as hours for us-
Is to help them grow and kill them,
Yet that keeps their honor-
Perhaps this is their pride.
The flighty Daisies winked and shook in the cold weather-
Like the girl and boy of same cast;
Still like a handshake in the background of an atomic blast,
Pulling them apart without reason,
A cold war undergoing fission.
They won’t curse those hearts, but will wish goodwill from them…
They wanted to be released from being torn, to live together forever.
Sonnet 36
I have saved a tear in my pocket,
As a testimony of the injustice inflicted and imposed-
Upon me, spitting upon my candor that closed,
The honest reflection of which I could boast.
No one in this place except a spider web with a hanging cricket.
I don’t think about the food, infected by insects-
But the wrongful acts and oily tongue infects
Me with the plague of incurable prospects.
What that puts my brain to receive shocks from the electric socket?
When will I see the freedom facet?
Thank you judge for releasing me from death sentence,
But you should have done that-
For I am free now to take guns,
To save the convicts from illogical orders.
I have saved a tear in my pocket,
To show the physically challenged class-
The blinds, deaf, lames, as they pass
Me to be surprised, while they see their unrevealed cruel reflection,
To be jailed in their own spotted complexion.
And I will be free, though old but now…
No one in this place except a spider web with a hanging cricket.
Sonnet 37
The crystal gave a thousand shines as if thousand smiles-
Inside the glass case,
Greedy guys looking with wonder; one reflecting face
Ready to entertain the cost but ‘Not for Sale’ written at the base!
Unseen beside the door, the gateman thinking about his domicile.
Saluting the gentlemen and ladies he stands from morning-
Controlling his boldness to look at the gathering,
Masses who have enough, but being deterred from buying.
Is he meant to sign only the attendance files?
What prevents him from being mentally agile?
He must have been bored,
Or he talks to the diamond while closing the gates;
They must be having some secret pacts,
While they laugh at night.
The crystal gave a thousand shines as if thousand smiles-
The real was stolen; the present substitutes the past, may be wrongfully;
A human creation too attracts blissfully!
The cost has been removed as it doesn’t cost much-
Perhaps this magnetizes the rich crowds as such.
The real cost would have scorned it; the idea possibly is from someone…
Unseen beside the door- the gateman, thinking about his domicile.
Sonnet 38
The dawn was greeted by me amidst heartfelt song of birds;
My hairs as if brushed by invisible hands-
The disturbance still to blow the sands-
In this capillary of the forest land.
I was walking towards the village to wake her up and take her away from the guards-
Suddenly, tension in affection flared, as it prevails-
Supplemented by the cries of the foxes, like sharp bells,
As if biting sharks attacking sails.
Should I have started the journey afterwards?
Should I have run through the yards?
The friends of nature wanted me to be fast,
To obtain spring out of summer,
To foster peace in the world of turmoil-
At least in me in the forest area.
The dawn was greeted by me amidst heartfelt song of birds;
The dogs barked, as I passed, without cause-
As it seemed to me while moving without pause;
My love must be dreaming of me, I felt restlessness within-
Neither policeman nor cadres, neither leader nor Maoist, I’m none in the political bin.
I care not, you bark, you will you will know when I bring her; I thought while…
I was walking towards the village to wake her up and take her away from the guards-
Sonnet 39
Devotees fell straight upon the marble floor to call upon the Almighty,
Few people knew it to be a temple, a worshiping site,
That looked like a five star hotel from outside!
Turning away the willing people, who are befuddled by the bright light.
The gray color of religion seems to cream out here; a lost identity!
The men entering with their hands up, as if to dance-
To show themselves and give attendance
And then stand close to the idols to have a longer glance.
Do they have reverence to lie on the uneven floor, unmaintained and dirty?
Does polish of the walls decide sanctity?
At least the genteel floors do well for the urbane class;
At least it makes them feel existence, even a bit,
To thwart misery in the winter of life
And while remembering crimes.
Devotees fell straight upon the marble floor to call upon the Almighty,
Comforts crossing limits while praying,
To get God, so easy a way existing!
In the very town of heat and sweat,
Perchance the root is the bequest behind the gates.
Whether it is honest I know not, I too cheer, but-
The gray color of religion seems to cream out here; a lost identity!
Sonnet 40
The three friends gossiping beside the shores of the big Ganges River,
So many ships, so many businesses, so many lives upon it,
Clear calm waters yet mysterious in every bit
To fulfill the black and white needs.
Through the blue color, a red hue could be seen at the centre.
The living world floats above while the dead below the surface;
Cruel intensions behind a graceful face,
Lucid from the floating necklace.
Are you that whom we worship for triumph in endeavors?
You are vast we know, is it obligatory to depict your power?
Instructed by the omniscient to kill the sinful people,
To purify their souls,
You must be working hard-
In spite of tears over-feeding you.
The three friends gossiping beside the shores of the big Ganges River,
Recalling their friend’s body being pulled up, a year ago-
With the same river that seems to overflow with ego;
The parents blamed them, who were like their sons!
While the shrill laugh sounded like firing guns.
Maybe he wanted to die, he was helped…
Through the blue color, a red hue could be seen at the centre.
Sonnet 41
Centuries of creation instills creativity in me, to think and act along-
Boldness through the saved pages of history,
Mind and soul joining hands to decipher mystery-
Prevailing as a result of downfall of readers in each country.
Readers preferring ease in literature, as if preferring drums than lyrics in songs.
Unreformed writers’ society coming up with daily workshops,
Of gossips devoid of heritage and creative crops-
To turn in films of fantasy; what a flop!
Should I bring in the renaissance spitting on the wrong?
Should I not learn to create being formally strong?
Let my birth be for you, oh literature and loving men-
Let me refrain from copying but receive inspiration;
The heaven shower blessings upon my pen, give in ink-
So that it can form the cascade of creation.
Centuries of creation instills creativity in me, to think and act along-
Perhaps the founders were egocentric to dedicate them to one-
Yet they were meant for all underneath the Sun;
As the manuscripts were like the notes of music,
To be molded into any rhythm to heal even the sick.
Revive, restore, recreate, and then form a formation of my name for…
Readers preferring ease in literature, as if preferring drums than lyrics in songs.
Sonnet 42
While standing below the tree shade-
Destroyed in lightning,
The grasshoppers were heard singing,
The mind was out of trade, away from any dealing.
The fever of sleep has gripped the forehead.
My legs and arms were paralyzed,
With a disease in disguise;
A beggar dying for want of rice.
How is this startling world made?
What’s the need of creation without ensuring food and bed?
I sank to the ground,
A rain drop wetted my eyelids,
Lifted me up to look at my utensil-
Some coins have gathered there!
While standing below the tree shade-
Pockets were seen hanging with coins and notes;
They are for make ups and coats.
The disease of neglect is a cancer,
The doctors seem to promote it further.
Lift me up men or mature will push me into the grave-
The fever of sleep has gripped the forehead.
Sonnet 43
The cell vibrated twice-
Like while arrival of any other message;
The sender knew I was engaged,
Still made up sit upon a sharp wedge.
Best friend or lover, or lover turned best friend- it was dice.
Confusion gave rise to dilemmatic thoughts,
While nice feelings were being caught,
And stored in a lot.
Was my love now suitable for a tag price?
Did I think pastime and passion to be nice?
Save me, my turmoil is turning into fire,
To burn me and give me pain;
I must be direct now-
To save myself for my love.
The cell vibrated twice-
I realized that I liked him,
For my present had least concern for my whims;
Yet I can’t be witch-
To seep blood of care like a leech.
Let me suffer, it will revive me; Still attitude makes me think-
Best friend or lover, or lover turned best friend- it was dice.
Sonnet 44
‘Come on’, I said, ‘the dawn is calling’-
Through the softness in breeze and coldness in atmosphere,
Let us walk to the bridge very near
To our house; where life can be felt through water fear.
His ears being deaf in laziness, the eyes preferred sleeping.
I was alone; I wondered why!
The roads those shines in everyday dew has turned wry-
I feel so sad; the dryness made me cry.
Why the nicest part of the day is dozing?
Should I wait in the woods or move to my housing?
Let me walk ahead-
To see the magician performing hypnotism
Upon the trees and vapors,
And have a try to wake it up.
‘Come on’, I said, ‘the dawn is calling’-
I sighted a dead sparrow on my way-
And a man beside lying dead in clay.
All pedestrians were there but the bird which was still alive-
Was left to leave its life-
My friend was right; perhaps dreams have warned him-
His ears being deaf in laziness, the eyes preferred sleeping.
Sonnet 45
The smoke curled up from the ashes-
Of my two brothers and sister;
Innocent victims trapped in a civil war,
Was now focused in the media center.
The judges were either unknown or temporary in such cases.
I broke my skull hitting against the stone,
The house that echoed in laughs is now alone;
Anger from the smoke accruing in bones.
Will you now blame me countrymen for wearing Maoist dresses?
Shall I not breathe revenge at all places?
I will save the rest;
I will take arms for the cause-
To shoot out the curtains
That covers the naked truth.
The smoke curled up from the ashes-
My beloveds were going up in a chariot,-
I could see them happy leaving the earthly lots.
I couldn’t cry but was taken to stillness-
The sight injected an incurable illness…
If I wait, more of such chariots would leave the land as-
The judges were either unknown or temporary in such cases.
Sonnet 46
The newspapers cornered in the room-
Once lured us into them,
While sipping coffee, before going for games;
Sources of knowledge from companies liable for blame.
News those were stories are transformed now into news yet to bloom.
Money makes articles, wine impresses reporters,
The scientists are neglected, the cameras upon gangsters!
Even they are two teams holding political bars.
Doesn’t it seem to be a gloom?
Does it pronounce an ensuing doom?
I still prefer old papers,
But time won’t allow me.
Yes a new paper is in demand-
To be published with honesty; let me start it.
The newspapers cornered in the room-
The rulers would kill their rivals,
Stopping the flow of finance at all levels.
They are not prepared for greatness,
But for a secured life without busyness.
I can work out, there is still a willing mass; they have realized-
News those were stories are transformed now into news yet to bloom.
Sonnet 47
The Sun peeped through the banyan branches-
At the glasshouse where the stone hearted
Board of environmentalists have headed,
To find out the cause as why the plants in an area have been beheaded.
The director was himself peddling herbs growing in inches.
He has authored books about greenery,
Yet actions spoil the scenery-
Of your genius and pull you to the level of primary.
Don’t you feel warning pinches?
Is it you or the chair- whose values have been buried in beaches?
One of them looked-
And placed a concept of a new plant community.
What a relief that papers were signed-
Which too were on our skin; we will have a family now.
The Sun peeped through the banyan branches-
As if the sun has come down to help the slaughtered woods!
Through its reflections upon the spectacles to perform some good;
To pour energy in the old bones-
And make them remember their loans
They had soaked for years; the interest was due too while-
The director was himself peddling herbs growing in inches.
Sonnet 48
The eagle swooped down-
The small rabbits recently born,
May be in some morn,
A week before was now out in the lawn.
The danger was coming down in a black gown.
The jungle rules had driven the mother away-
Though she must be on her away,
To look at the sky, too see her son disappearing as prey.
What are these rules to turn blood from red to brown?
Who is maintaining these, who is wearing the crown?
None but rules for survival;
The food being less-
The remaining kids were benefitted;
A perfect balance moving in a pace.
The eagle swooped down-
The mother rabbit preferred one to die-
For the other to live in the weather that was dry;
The eaglets must be starving too –
For them some food was brought into.
The birth of one of the sacrificed must be meant for this; and fixed when-
The danger was coming down in a black gown.
Sonnet 49
Beside the costliest restaurant of the city-
At about hot midday,
The dusty hands working in clay,
Picked up a fist of boiled rice to carry on his stay.
As a human he ate once in a rotation; what a captivity!
A waiter came outside and threw chicken legs;
Inside, sounds were heard of glasses and pegs-
An airplane flew over; he saw it but held his broken keg.
Has the flame of thoughts extinguished from his body?
Has his mind been plastered with cements and bricks of pity?
A lotto ticket could be see beside,
That shows hope;
He still has ambition,
Luck will guide him.
Beside the costliest restaurant of the city-
A car raced beside-
No jolly but more dust accumulated by his side;
His shirt was dirtier,
So he was unmoved, still fascinated by the car.
He had neglected jobs before, now-
As a human, he ate once in a rotation; what a captivity!
Sonnet 50
The university roads and lanes-
Witnessing degrees for one and a half hundred years;
It hasn’t seen one without tears,
Brought by work, exam or love losing fear.
The rare exception was the boy with a bag with a smile insane!
Confidence bubbling out through laughs and giggles
Sorrowless lives persist in no lifelong tales;
They are not born but penetrate; he as if has shells.
Is it deliberate that a boy taking life truly as a game?
What’s his cult, what’s his name?
Upon the breasts of psychology he replies-
Laughing all the while
Has failed to teach him what happiness is,
These laughs are his sorrow…
The university roads and lanes-
Cursed a boy to be happy forever,
In success and failures and in all endeavors.
The odd one out is never favorite; to be adored,
With his smile he was bored.
The rest enjoyed being happy winning over the odd time-
The rare exception was the boy with a bag with a smile insane!
Sonnet 51
Tearing roots, which stem dares to float in the sky!
Fear has grasped their hearts-
The videos of the bloodshot shirts,
Laid down in media pages of dead bodies carried in carts.
They prefer bathing in dew than blood; they prefer smile to sigh.
They have seen daring men-
With farsighted and wise ken,
But have sighted the same turning lame.
Why is the ambition being curbed with the fear to die?
What souls are these preferring fruits without cry?
The invention and innovations
Must be going on; though hidden;
Waiting for the perfect ruler-
To patronize those…
Tearing roots, which stem dares to float in the sky!
The creativity has become dumb-
In response to overwhelming luxuries under the sun.
The feet are too clean to be placed upon the floor,
But the heart is uncombed even more.
The sadly ended biographies may have to carry the responsibility
Sonnet 52
The drunken river of Amazon,
Flowing in a zig zag way,
With often hunters becoming prey;
Night prevailing even during the creamy day.
She knows her destination, no matter hills or lawns.
Away from its consciousness,
It prefers bitterness-
To see brutal hunts in wilderness.
You will not change; is this you pawn?
Do you want more bottles in your million ponds?
Exceptions are no exception,
She is one among the Nile, Ganges or Mississippi;
The reason why the jungle has been allotted to her,
May be as a punishment of her mind-set.
The drunken river of Amazon,
Turned greedy of blood wine,
As of the deaths, without any sign.
She had a bunch of slayer pets as captives,
Of deadly reptiles and aquatic lives.
She has being jailed among glaciers and oceans, and now-
She knows her destination, no matter hills or lawns.
Sonnet 53
Mother you just leave me starving with five grains of rice,
I cry yet you frown,
I wipe off the salty waters and bow down,
For I do nothing in the town.
I would like to be small to be well fed, as small as lice.
To reduce my stomach, my hunger-
Hunger that arises out of blunder,
Not of me, but of the wicked employer.
How long we will be treated as mice?
When will we be given the break to rise?
I will store my energy in every bit,
Of the fat in my body;
And wait, to see at least my children-
Sitting in chair with an elite meal.
Mother you just leave me starving with five grains of rice,
I will have half life with these,
I demand the worst grown rice not cheese.
I will turn to be a robber now,
Don’t blame me anyhow.
The robbers sit in thrones, he happy or
I would like to be small to be well fed, as small as lice.
Sonnet 54
I am afraid to open your diary;
Once a decade ago I did,
It killed the seed
Of my existence, tearing me in bits.
The day I thought of hating you hating you Mary.
Your son was lazy;
I was active even when the world was dozy.
I think this is why you were crazy.
Thinking of him or me did you turn weary?
Didn’t you plan for my marriage in a hurry?
People are not granted of their every wish,
I too was a bad wish for you.
Yet I like serving you-
As I am of your gender mother.
I am afraid to open your diary;
I do not like to be weak,
With a cause that I know to be bleak.
You ancestors are responsible; and you too
For neglecting sandals and preferring shoes.
I will be an exception; I had pledge to my conscience on
The day I thought of hating you hating you Mary.
Sonnet 55
Don’t you haunt me anymore!
I have ran enough with the pen,
Still you are not within my ken-
Dulling my memory lane.
I know you exist but prefer to hide in wit’s shore.
Days ago I had almost caught you in the book fair,
But the people I asked turned to be liars,
The illiterate buyers.
Do you want me to be bored?
I want to see you, Have to gather some lore?
I will catch you in your game,
By developing the power to light the shadows-
Under which you hide.
My pen is moving faster, be ready.
Don’t you haunt me anymore!
The days left are less,
To leave this mortal dress.
I have left my all- house, children and wife,
Now left only my life…
Illusive breezes cannot befool me; I will get you, or realize you;
I know you exist but prefer to hide in wit’s shore.
Sonnet 56
Look you have turned your drains into dustbins;
The income goes up to hundred thousands,
Yet what a brand!
Is this that you have developed beside you dwelling land.
Oh! Sorry it wasn’t yours; you can grin.
But don’t you dare to ask me to cure,
When the illnesses you are in to endure-
Will prove you to be impure.
Why do you wait to commit sin?
To invite trouble why are you all so keen?
See, you are feeling asleep,
As if I have the duty-
I have the interest; you are perhaps true-
But you will too when I am transferred.
Look you have turned your drains into dustbins;
I am a pig; you kick me for that,
But I clear your drains while you relish my fat.
You will have my flu-
Not for me but for the work you favor not to do.
I am better than you clearing you dirt-
Oh! Sorry it wasn’t yours; you can grin.
Sonnet 57
The baby was sleeping peacefully in the cradle.
Unaware of the fire-
Flaring to end desires-
And hopes that could have been admired.
A scene that pierces life with a poison touched needle.
The relatives were outside;
The flames got a chance to slide-
To eat up and then transfer the chide.
Where have the parents gone to peddle?
Coming back will their hearts settle?
They will perhaps come back soon,
And the father will jump in-
To save the little bud,
Who has not yet developed dreams.
The baby was sleeping peacefully in the cradle.
The fire must have felt like playing above,
To show its affection and love;
But in course it may touch it,
And end the life with other burning kit.
Footsteps have been heard , it will save the situation from turning into-
A scene that pierces life with a poison touched needle.
Sonnet 58
Still atmosphere, with scorching rays tormenting upon us;
I had no identity,
Neither sense to consider it as a pity-
But a uniform with uniformity.
I could smell my sweat and taste it as it dropped on the grass.
Eyes waiting to see something,
I didn’t know what thing-
When only the blank landscape or some living beings.
What’s after this that will truss?
Is it surprise or fuss?
Whatever I care not to think,
As I have commitment;
To fulfill even if my life goes away-
My soul will rest in peace.
Still atmosphere, with scorching rays tormenting upon us;
My family calls me earnestly,
Their faces flash and blink continually;
I gave out a breathe I felt danger-
Not of me but to make me feel I am a soldier.
The gun bears the weight of the Nation, let me hold it firmly.
I could smell my sweat and taste it as it dropped on the grass.
Sonnet 59
Cries have often blurted out roughly;
One day parties and celebration
Cheered the station-
With music in all forms within the mansion.
The gifted bangles have been broken brutally.
Once so happy, is now kicked,
For nameless reasons that had pricked-
The husband who’s cruelty has clicked.
Why does the good turn bad, unexpectedly?
Is there some way of reviving them pleasantly?
Perhaps the work pressure has increased,
To be lowered soon.
Or might be some problem that irritates him,
But not for long; He will calm down.
Cries have often blurted out roughly;
None tells you to be man!
When you hit me with the wand!
I do not complain, you don’t allow,
Tying me with a rope like a cow.
To revive your love, I will not complain that…
The gifted bangles have been broken brutally.
Sonnet 60
The bulldozer ran over the bricks and plasters;
Of the old-age home-
Breaking the calm domes,
Leaving them houseless without a place even to moan.
They aged even disturbed in their time of rest; what a disaster!
The rotten skin will not get pills now,
They seem to be the cows-
Driven away hitting them with dry boughs.
Don’t these contractors respect their father and mother?
Doesn’t their conscience push them to be kind hearted and better?
They have taken money-
The feelings have been put behind bars;
Still they will set up a similar home-
In their senescence, when they have means.
The bulldozer ran over the bricks and plasters;
Some betrayer has signed illicit piece-
In grasping greed than to miss-
The opening to become rich,
No matter if he is termed as bitch.
The goodness will crawl with repeated attacks to sense…
The aged even disturbed in their time of rest; what a disaster!
Sonnet 61
I am a branded man-eater;
I am known for my teeth and paws,
To break human laws,
And kill one biweekly and eat raw.
They set awards for me but not for the hunters.
I had the power, the support of the jungle-
I will have stronger limbs and voice to rumble-
Your guns to me are like bangles.
When will you turn as nature lovers?
I can repose, but will you punish my family killers?
I am no one to forgive you,
I am just a cause;
If you leave us in ourselves-
We will put a pause upon the kill.
I am a branded man-eater;
I had a family and my younger brother-
All were hunted down along with my neighbors;
If I sit quiet and chase gales,
Curses will seal my after life for the hell.
So this is my profession now, and will bid to change but…
They set awards for me but not for the hunters.
Sonnet 62
The two butterfly mating while the two lizards on either side-
Unaware of the peril surrounding them,
They embraced each other in the passionate game-
If they are killed, then what a shame!
All the time they were lost within, neglecting the outside.
Sex was to cheat them or their sex was to be cheated!
The tube light knew not then who in the depleted-
Earth would shake them before their lives are uprooted.
Why had they turned blind in spite of the light?
Can’t they be rescued with might?
The reptiles proceeded,
Then turned to their left,
Went past the two beautiful creatures-
It was their mating season too.
The two butterfly mating while the two lizards on either side-
The eyes of a boy watching the scene,
He took a photo but didn’t clean,
It from the flaws-
Leaving it to the Natural laws.
They were saved; romance was protected; it being in the lizards too but…
All the time they were lost within, neglecting the outside.
Sonnet 63
Crowds that I never saw in my life of ruling-
Blocked the roads and lanes,
Some peeping out from window panes,
Same hope in all that I will do something for these men.
I had papers that had false promises; my tongue will utter them without feelings.
My hear empathizes with you dears supporters,
The culprit is my chair,
Without which I lived once, but now will be bare.
What should I do with those voices ringing?
Shall I thrash the chair and come down from the ceiling?
I owe much to you,
I will perform –
Not in papers but in will,
You can surely be assured.
Crowds that I never saw in my life of ruling-
A heavy hand of the hidden monarch was in my shoulder,
With a lot more strength and power;
Let me utter false today,
I may be spitted upon after few days.
But there must be a way to escape and then speak out, but now-
I had papers that had false promises; my tongue will utter them without feelings.
Sonnet 64
The old car stood by the garage parking;
Cleaning was going on in the floor inside,
Doors closed as they chose to hide-
The new car like a new bride.
What a gift after so many years of serving!
The masters and mistresses,
Whenever they visited any places;
The dust touched the metal but not their dresses.
Will the new be as efficient and attached in feelings?
To serve you-Does it has a healthy bearing?
He is still stronger with these plain tires-
To carry the weights for hundreds of miles,
And then reach safely to home;
They will know once they have climbed the new stuff.
The old car stood by the garage parking;
Left for one month still,
The servants speak of their master’s will-
To sell it even in low cost
The wounds in the body do no more cost!
Still this wounded figure is superior and will be…
What a gift after so many years of serving!
Sonnet 65
A poor lyricist writing songs for none but self.
One thousand songs without music, without name-
Without money, without fame,
Waiting to burn in flames.
Thousand dollars for twelve in the shelf.
They have offered him,
Resting upon his weakness- him whim,
To taste the glass cased cream.
Did they want the titles from themselves?
From the trap of greed, should I not protect myself?
Let them buy,
Let me earn;
They will think that I can’t write more!
While the best is still in my mind.
A poor lyricist writing songs for none but self.
I will die to see my songs being sung and settle,
But will expire if I see them in other’s title.
None to respect me for I don’t have birth base,
Of jewels and diamonds in case.
My creations will never end, never stop its flow; let me now think of…
Thousand dollars for twelve in the shelf.
Sonnet 66
Exchanging blames were going on in the dining table;
For some subtle mistakes,
When mom made-
The materials for the cake.
Idiotic reasons were twisting to harm faith in the blood carrying cables.
I and my brother waiting to get them cool-
For they were looking as fools,
As they quarreled sitting upon the tools.
Have they ever thought what reaction in my little brother would bubble?
Will he too not learn to wrangle?
I laughed to create ease,
They were surprised and then ashamed-
Of what they were into-
Now we ate in silence.
Exchanging blames were going on in the dining table;
They didn’t notice,
That I didn’t even had one bread piece-
In my mouth and the fear of my brother-
Didn’t make them bother.
It will stop as it is groundless but they must realize
Idiotic reasons were twisting to harm faith in the blood carrying cables.
Sonnet 67
The water gurgled out-
As the farmer cut the canal out of the last pool,
The last source in this year’s rule-
The weather at no time was rainy but dry and cool.
One of the working men occasionally looks up at the sky and shouts…
Last year was same,
The season focused upon turning them lame,
In all aspect from food to the sells erasing their name.
Where is the excess water swelling out?
It knows we want her-yet why she is putting us in doubt?
Suddenly a storm started-
All took shelter under trees;
Far in the distance the sky looks –
Its ripe time now to reap.
The water gurgled out-
Of the pond-
But will it be able to maintain the bond!
That these reapers have with rain-
After two years staying out of brain.
It’s like a friend gone away; all eagerly waiting for his return, while-
One of the working men occasionally looks up at the sky and shouts…
Sonnet 68
The black posters have been pasted yesterday;
No one to go out were the admonition,
Whether to start business or for education,
Which the people seem to follow with caution.
Let the war restore democracy today.
The hope rings in every ears-
The bullets tearing the foreheads seemed to clear,
That they had overcome the administrative fear.
The policemen, are they not supposed to fill up the bay?
Apart from the men in power, does nobody have the right to place their say?
It has become a dumping ground of inhuman activities;
Yet a leader is there whom people follow sincerely;
They do not utter the name-
But works accordingly with zeal.
The black posters have been pasted yesterday;
The smell of the slaughtered bodies,
Has been a cause of the jackals’ rhapsodies.
The raped women sitting for marriage to be raped again-
They will not nag; they have turned harlots of men.
The seeping anger gives more power to their chief…
Let the war restore democracy today.
Sonnet 69
I didn’t want to hear this from you-
At least not in my birth-month; never…
You didn’t think of my fever,
The relation I suppose was not forever.
I wanted rain you gave me just drops, that too few…
I had always wished to know your mind and figure-
But the other girl knew the black spot pressing the trigger,
With another fire-pellet from you that tore my tears.
Was she the best in the crew?
Was love now fixed with screws?
I will not cry,
You do not deserve it-
But another relation,
With the one who has proposed me last month!
I didn’t want to hear this from you-
I was not stone nor the lord-
To think not or forgive you in accord;
I get the stench of extra affairs-
For your pleasure, I can’t form pair.
You can go; I will be find happiness in loneliness or in some others,
I wanted rain you gave me just drops, that too few…
Sonnet 70
I close this book now, and close my eyelids-
I have described the night enough, perhaps more;
Let me now go out of the roof door,
And allow it to describe itself from sky to floor.
My test is over your starts now, common water the seeds-
Which I have failed to farm,
And charm,
The readers and book worms.
Will you listen or I will have to plead?
After writing so much will I now have to read?
I have enough wits, you can’t hide-
Let the readers and lover of poetry get you-
Through my future write ups,
To decipher you truly.
I close this book now, and close my eyelids-
Let me take rest,
For creating the best.
Your Profoundness; that had instilled so many poets to write-
But none could win in the fight.
I will write you through you, you can’t say no-
My test is over your starts now, common water the seeds. [mehr]
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