I just want to hide,
I don't want to face the world,
it feels like it too much,
i'm slowly slipping,
and it like nobody catching me,

I'm losing my grip,
I just want out,
i want to numb the pain,
but I know that not the answer,
I want to scream,

But it no sound comes out,
I put on a front,
like everything okay,
but inside I am falling apart,
losing all control,

I don't know where it will stop,
I feel sick,
I feel like i'm losing control,
and i must find a way to hold onto it,
nothing is easy,

But if I open up,
than i'm weak,
if I give in,
than I want attention,
it just never seem to end,

i'm hurting inside,
and I don't know how to deal,
it like i don't have permission,
permission to feel the pain,
i'm not suppose to be 'that girl'

I'm a big girl,
i'm suppose to act tough,
but i feel like i'm losing the battle,
it feels like i'm letting ppl down,
like I have to remain tough,

While everybody around me falls apart,
it don't feel fair,
that I can't express myself freely,
the past and present combining into one,
it's a never ending fight,

All I ask is to be free,
but no matter what,
the pain follows me like a shadow,
I can't seem to shake it,
but I can numb myself to not feel the pain.

-Unknown

White - I want a relationship with you
Green - I'm falling for you
Purple - I miss you
Orange - I really like you
Pink - I love you
Yellow - You're amazing
Blue - You're friendly
Grey - We need to talk ;)
Silver - I want to get to know you better
Red - You're awesome
Hot Pink - Let's have sex
Dark Red - Have my babies
Dark Grey - Meh
Blood Red - I want you as my slave ;)

Comment what is your color is.

Ok, i'm making a book about characters I have made. I'm getting bored and I need ideas.

You may know me, you may not.
I'm a girl, i'm a guy.
Who am I?
Do I like girls or guys?
I don't know.
Scared out of my skin.
I wish I felt not sin.
They tell me i'm gay.
They tell me i'm mad.
But aren't we all?
I kissed a girl.
I loved a boy.
I never knew who I was.
Until I met you!
So here I go my love, i'm saying it now.
I'm Bisexual and i'm proud!
I love you so can you kiss me now?

When you recover, what will you do?
When you recover, will you still be you?
Will you be stronger, will you be new,
When you recover from what you've been through?

Can life get better than it was before?
Will you realize your dreams and improve your score?
Will people still remember your name,
Or will they forget you because they're ashamed?

Life in recovery may not be the same.
The rules may have changed in this brand new game.
You can pick up the pieces and make a new start,
And courage and hope keep you from falling apart.

The world all around you seems different and changed.
Things that once were now seem out of range,
But you can recapture your life and fulfill
The dreams that were lost when you took ill.

The journey to wellness takes time and is long,
And those that get well are exceptionally strong.
For depression can kill, but you have survived.
Your goal to recover has kept you alive.

Now you're recovered, what will you do?
You suffered and conquered and saw it through.
Back from the black and abyss of despair,
It is time to move on; it is time to care.

Source: https://www.familyfriendpoems.com/poem/now-youve-recovered

For my BFF who is in a Mental Hospital now......

All we ever talk of is light—
let there be light, there was light then,

good light—but what I consider
dawn is darker than all that.

So many hours between the day
receding and what we recognize

as morning, the sun cresting
like a wave that won’t break

over us—as if  light were protective,
as if  no hearts were flayed,

no bodies broken on a day
like today. In any film,

the sunrise tells us everything
will be all right. Danger wouldn’t

dare show up now, dragging
its shadow across the screen.

We talk so much of  light, please
let me speak on behalf

of  the good dark. Let us
talk more of how dark

the beginning of a day is.

Who am I? Who am I trying to be?

Not myself, anyone but myself.

Living in a fantasy to bury the reality,

Making myself the mystery,

A strong facade disguising the misery.

Empty, but beyond the point of emptiness,

Full to brim with fake confidence,

A guard that will never be broken,

Because I broke a long time ago.

I’m hurting but don’t tell anyone.

No one needs to know.

Don’t show or you’ve failed.

Always okay, always fine, always on show.

The show must go on.

It will never stop.

The show must not go on,

But I know it will.

I give up. I give up giving up.

I am lost.

I don’t need to be saved,

I need to be found.

WE DON'T BITE

Things haven't been the same since my birthday
We went to Fazbear's
That was the worst day
Home alone in this awful darkness
I don't even know where my dad or mom is
Never been a fan of animatronics
Can i get a grown-up to check in my closet?
Just heard a noise
I dunno where it went
To the right or the left?
Is it under my bed?
This must be joke and it's all in my head
But what if I'm in hell and I'm already dead!
Calm down, take it slow
Check the halls
Listen close
Shut that door better keep it closed
Whats behind it?
I don't wanna know!
Fazbear's pizza?
Thought it was gone
Freddy and his friends are far from done
Did you hear that?
Now here they all come
Five long nights and I'm only on one!
Welcome home
Girls and boys
Time to play with brand new toys
Nightmares lurk inside your mind
Now no place is safe to hide
TO HIDE!
You have nowhere to run
So why not join the fun?
At night we come to life
Come closer
WE DON'T BITE!
I don't believe that for one second
Let me keep my distance and i'll be pleasant
If you wanna be my friend then
PROVE IT!
I got a flashlight and i know how to
USE IT!
That's right
Step back from me
I'll snap at you
If you snap at me
And then i'll flash you when you try attacking me
Hope i don't run out of batteries!
Oh my god
I'm on my own
Left alone and i'm not that old
Wish there was a lock on the door
Where am i now?
This is not my home!
Oddly enough it feels like i'm not alone
Sorry guys!
But you gotta go
My mom and dad are not comfortable
With robots watching me when i'm all alone!
Welcome Home
Girls and boys
Time to play with brand new toys
Nightmares lurk inside your mind
Now no place is safe to hide
TO HIDE!
You have nowhere to run
So why not join the fun?
At night we come to life
Come closer
WE DON'T BITE!
Things haven't been the same since my birthday
We went to Fazbear's
That was the worst day
I'm crying out now
Somebody help me!
Cuz when I open up my eyes
They surround me
Why did it have to be me?
Nobody else believes me
Will nothing here give me peace?
Maybe death will set me free
NO!
I'M NOT GIVING UP EASY
AIN'T GONNA LET A CUPCAKE EAT ME!
YOU'RE NOT REAL
I CALL YOU BLUFF
BLARGH!!!!!
THAT SCARE
WAS REAL ENOUGH!
EVEN WHEN THEY'RE NOT IN BUISNESS
I'M NUMBER ONE ON FREDBEAR'S HIT LIST
TIME FOR THE NIGHTMARES TO GO AWAY!
ANYBODY TOLD YOU WERE HERE TO STAY?
Welcome home
Girls and boys
Time to play with brand new toys
Nightmares lurk inside your mind
Now no place is safe to hide
TO HIDE!
You have nowhere to run
So why not join the fun?
At night we come to life!
Come closer
WE DON'T BITE!!!

If I had reached out my hand,
Would you have taken it that day?
Could I have made you feel better?
Could I have made you okay?
Could I have pulled you away
From the dark into light?
Brought you right back to a safe place
And just held you tight?

Why didn't you shout louder?
Why couldn't we hear?
You were all alone that morning,
All alone in your fear.
I know we could have saved you
If we had just seen
You stuck in that pain and torment.
How long had it been?

Your burden you carried
In an invisible case.
You suffered in silence
With a smile on your face.
So many questions we have.
So many words unspoken.
Why didn't we know
That your life was so broken?

I miss you each day.
I try to understand your choice.
If I close my eyes, try hard,
I can still hear your voice.
I know you are free now,
Free to fly high.
I imagine I see you
When I look up to the sky.

I can't turn the clock back.
I can't change time,
But oh how I wish I could,
Sweet lover of mine.
I know you are still with us,
Watching, keeping us safe,
And one day we'll meet again
In a heavenly place.