Rippin' with my sinners 'cause fuck it, man, I ain't no beginner.
And then I crawled back to the life that I said I wouldn't live in.
'Cause I just couldn't open up, I'm always shifting.
Go find yourself a man who's strong and tall and Christian.

I'm way too cold to hold ya
Call me when it's over
I realized I'm just as frozen as the rest.

Storm in the sky, fire in the street.
If there's nothing but pain, put it on me.

Found myself walking down the street.
Why did you never notice me?

I had a good day until I thought of you
The grass isn't so green from my cloudy point of view
Open your eyes to the rain
Close them and hope that it ends
You said you'd be here forever
But I didn't think you meant friends

Ever think about what the future might hold?
How one day you'll fight, then grow old?
Or how much love can change
But you can't seem to find that one page:
The one where you lost your battles
The one where you broke down
The ones where you let your head sink to the dirt
Because you let your heard break

But those pages are lost for a reason,
You forget about the heart break
You fought, and won, countless battles
After you broke down, you got back up and tried again
And someone was always there to pick your head back off the dirt
They told you to pick it up
Not because they care for you
But because it going to get dirty.

I hope one day you will realize I did truly care for you. I promise you're gonna miss me being there, putting up with you, refusing to give up on you. You're gonna regret everything you've done to me, including all the damage you caused. And someday, you'll turn back and I won't be waiting there for you, but you'll miss me when I become priceless to another.

"We loved with a love that was more than love. "
Edgar Poe

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=BzxjdtJavdM

Help,
I don't want to ask
I don't want to admit
I might need it.

I'm convinced
I'm self-sufficient
but if that were true
why am I still struggling?

It's like drowning on dry land.

Maybe, just maybe, I need help.