Introduction (Necessary to read)

"You still don't get it, mom! Do you not see me suffering? Do you not feel the motherly need of helping your own daughter? Especially when she's holding your own grandchild?" I fell down to the ground sobbing, screaming.

"Gradnchild?" my mother questioned, "You got yourself pregnant?!" she sneered. "You are a disgrace to this family. Sixteen and pregnant..." she scoffed, "You just want the attention, don't you? Oh, poor little Kiki... Well, guess what? Not from me, not in this house, not under my roof!" my mother barked.

"If Dad were here, he would understand, he would help me, follow me, he would love me unlike you, you cold-blooded, heartless beast that I am forced to call my mother!" I hissed as I picked myself up and stormed out of the house with no where to go.

My name is Kiara Graves, Kiara means one with dark hair and apparently are meant to be extremely vivacious, whatever that means... and I am sixteen and pregnant, well... seventeen in a few days. People call me Kiara, some Kiki, Kay/K and others "that girl who got knocked up by Drew Savoy... But we gotta go back a bit, to before I had a bun in my oven, meaning a baby in my stomach.

 

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S O P H O M O R E  Y E A R

 

Sophomore year, I wasn't popular, I didn't have a lot of friends, I didn't have any reputation that I knew of. I was just one of the nobodys, just one of many people in Lincoln High School. No one noticed me, no one knew me. It was just me and my friends. Hunter, best friend since forever, total fuckboy, but I love him. Nicole, not the closest person I have in our friend group but she's Hunter's number one contact when he's horny and is failing at finding a girl. Bryce, gay best friend, well, I think he's gay, we're still not sure... Honestly, He's not our best friend. He's a recent add to our group, just moved to town from France, he was born here but moved when he was young and complicated bullshit like that. And last but not least, Sophie, she's my best friend, my sister, my twin, my other half.

Yup, the start of sophomore year was just us five teenage kids, goofing around, minding their own business, not getting into too much trouble and living our lives. Well, until that one Thurday afternoon on my way to Chemistry class.

 

 

I. To my surprise

It was about early March, on a breezy, yet sunny day outside. I had just left my locker and split up with my friends to go to class. I had then realized that I had grabbed my Biology textbook instead of Chemistry and rushed back to my locker in order to get to class on time. Unforunately, on the way, I seemed to have walked into a wall as I was looking down at my mistakely taken Biology textbook. 

My ass hit the ground as a small 'umph' sputtered out from my plump, pink lips. As I looked away from my Biology book, I soon realized a pair of Nike shoes were placed in front of me. As I looked up, following the feet, to the legs, to the stomach, to the hands, to the arms, to the neck, and then to the face, his face. 

"Woah, watch where you're going." he said looking down at me. I avoided eye contact by picking up the few things I had dropped. Once I looked up again, he was gone, out of sight.

I quickly got to my locker and went to Chemistry class. I knocked on the door and excused myself for my tardiness. "Since you and Mr. Savoy here both wish to arrive late to my class, you may seat youselves in the back and try your best to catch up in today's experiment." the teacher annouced, "Well, then, go on."

I closed the door behind me and walked to the last table in the back of the classroom, next to him, the guy who I had just bumped into a few seconds earlier, Drew Savoy. Football team captain, quaterback, hot, asshole, fuckboy, but of course, all us girls want him, bad.

"Hey there," he grinned as I sat down into the empty seat next to him. 

"Hey." I replied harsh and dull.

"Well, okay then..." he murmured off. I tried looking at all the other tables to see what they were doing so that I wouldn't fail today's experiment. I finally managed to understand the work that needed to be done and started. With only 15 minutes left, I knew it wouldn't be possible to finish by myself. I needed a useful chem partner but unfortunately for me, all I had was Drew Savoy.

"Need some help?" he asked me, just watching me work my ass off.

"No, no, everything's fine. I definitely do not need your help." I demanded. He shut his mouth for a while and continued watching me, so closely, it felt as if he were waiting for me to screw up.

"Why do you look so familiar? Why do I feel like, I don't know, like I just saw you a moment ago?" he questioned and seemed to be asking himself.

"Uh, maybe you just so rudely walked into me and made me fall on my ass earlier and didn't bother to help." I sassed at him.

"Woah, that was you? Haha. Whoops, hadn't realized, my bad..." he said uncaringly, "But, for your information, you're the one who bumped into me."

"Whatever Savoy..." I sighed not giving the slightest fuck in the world.

"Are you sure you don't need my help? You can just ask for it." he added.

"No, I don't need your help. Leave me alone, and let me concentrate." I exclaimed

"Okay, fine... Just tell me when you need me." he teased with a smirk on his face. I continued working but soon enough I needed another set of hands to finish the experiment. 

"C'mon, I know you need my help. Just say it..." he teased.

"I will not." I assured.

"Okay, fine... Then, we'll both fail today's experiment and it'll be on you." he stated.

"Ugh, fuck me." I muttered. "Could you help me?" I murmured annoyed.

"What? I didn't hear you." he teased along.

"Drew Savoy, would you please help me finish our experiment?" I replied angered and annoyed.

"Your wish is my command." he snickered and with that, he helped me finish the work without even asking what to do. He already knew how to do it all, I was shocked...

II. Unexpected

The day ended before I knew it, I was shutting my locker and I was waiting for my friends until I spot Drew Savoy. He was walking towards me, looking down at his phone, texting. I slipped my phone out of my pocket and pretended to be texting some friends, instead of standing there staring at him.

He got closer and closer, I pretended to not realize his presence. I lifted my eyes, as did he. He smirked at the sight of me watching him and walked straight past me. Then, I realized, he wasn't walking towards me but actually walking out the school's main door.

My friends appeared in a matter of seconds...

We had planned to go chill at the mall, grab some ice cream or something but I decided to bail on them and go home, without explanation. Sophie (best friend) and Hunter (fuckboi best friend since forever) both assured me to call them if something was wrong or if I needed to talk. Although, Hunter's offer seemed to be less sincere.

I got into my car and drove home. I don't even know why I bailed on today's afterschool plans... What's going on?

I got home and was greeted oh-so-graciously by my mother.

"What are you doing home? Aren't you supposed to be at school?" she exclaims as I walk in.

"Uh, no... School ended about 45 minutes ago." I replied dully. "Hey there new guy." I add addressing myself towards the guy who was underneath my mom, yes, I had just walked in with her about to have sex with this guy. My mom isn't even young, and hot, she's like 45 years old and is working all the time. I don't know where these guys come from.

My dad died a few years back, I miss him everyday. I loved him more than mom, I was such a daddy's girl and everyone in the family knew it. Mom hasn't been the same since. She's always at work or says she is but actually, she's at some guy's house. She never bothers to care about me, she hands me money when necessary, she lets me have friends over whenever I catch her doing something wrong or if she's busy, so in general, she's not that much of a pain in my ass. Only when she's actually in my presence, such as now.

"Don't you have some friends to be with? Or a boyfriend?" she sneers at me.

"I do have friends, for your information, but I will be in my room." I snapped back and ran upstairs to my room. I collasped onto my bed after throwing my bag accross my bedroom. I closed my eyes and laid on my back in starfish position. I stared at the ceiling...

"Why did I bail? Well, I know why... but that's not a reason. That has nothing to do with anything. There is nothing happening there. It's not even a subject of discussion." I muttered to myself, "Stop talking to yourself, weirdo." I mumbled, "Drew Savoy, what have you done to me?"

 

3/26/17

 

[: New book! First two chapters! It's been a while since I've posted a new book, I've been working on this one a while. I already have the next few chapters ready to go, but I'm gonna wait for some feedback, and hope all goes well... Hope you like it so far! Leave a comment good or bad, I'm all ears, favorite if you like it so far, and the rest will be coming soon! :]

III. Excuses, excuses

 It's been a long night, I barely slept and my alarm just started ringing for the fifth time telling me to get the fuck out of bed or you're gonna be fucking late and fucking ugly if you don't have enough time to fix that thing you call face.

"Ugh, fineeee..." I groan and moan as I roll myself out of bed. I drag myself to my bathroom and look at myself in the mirror half awake. I pull my hair back and wash my face using my expensive exfoliator that is a gracious smell of citrus fruit that wakes me up every morning. As I scrub my face, I hear my phone ring.

"Hellooooo?" I say as I throw the phone onto my bathroom counter and click the speaker button with my pinky finger.

"Hey Kia!" Hunter yells into the phone. Only my closest friends call me that, meaning Hunter and Sophie.

"Hey Hun," I reply, "What up?"

"Wanna ride?" he offers.

"Nah, I'm good, hun." I say as I rince my face off with a wet pink cloth and quickly dry my face off. I start to brush my naturally dried hair from last night's long shower.

"We can get some freeeee donuuuuts..." he teases, well, more like tempts, tortures... "You know you want tooooo!" he says in a singy-songy tune.

"Okay, fine, you win!" I shout back laughing at him.

"As always!" he gushes being cheeky. He may be the school fuckboi, not the top fuckboi, but he's still cute and innocent when he wants to be.

"Sure, sure, hun. Believe what you want!" I joke back at him. I love calling him 'hun', he secretly hates it. Well, actually, it's no secret, he tells me all the time. I love it cause it sounds like 'honey' but short so 'hun' but it's also a nickname for is actual name Hunter so 'hun'. I love it! I've been doing it for years and he still hates it.

"Kiara Graves, stop calling me that or you're not getting any donuts!" he jokes, well, I hope he's joking.

"Noooooo, not the donuts!" I yelp dramatically as I finish my hair and open my makeup bag.

"Okay, fine." he assures me, "So, I'll pick you up at the usual?" he asks but implies it more as a statement.

"Yup, I'll see you soon, hun!" I rebelliously yell back.

"Imma fucking k-" he starts to yell back but I hung up, cutting him off before he could finish his sentence.

"Whoops." I say and continue getting ready. After about another twenty minutes in the bathroom, I walk over to my closet to pick out a set of clothes for the day. Once I've gotten that down, I start dealing with my hair, trying to decide wether I should straight it, or curl it. I end up straightening it because I got too lazy to take the time to curl it. I slip my clothes on and stuff all the things I need into my purse for the day. 

I slip on a pair of vans and grab my phone checking the time. With about 15 minutes extra that I would normally use to eat breakfast or grab an apple if I'm really late, I decide to slip in some earrings which I rarely do because I get lazy. I end up standing in front of the mirror looking straight ahead, lost in thought.

My phone rings once again, bringing me back to reality.

"Bitch, where you at?" Hunter says impatiently.

"Bitch, I'm coming! Calm your titties," I reply jokingly.

"Okay," he answers back happily like a five year old kid. I laugh and hang up the phone as I grab my things and run down the stairs. I grab my keys and run out the door into Hunter's beautiful black car (I don't know shit about cars but I know his is beau-ti-ful!).

"Let's go!" I yell to him, "I need my donuts, and some caffeine..."

"Okay, okay... I'm going!" he yells back stressy and I giggle at him.

"Stop giggling bitch, what took you so long? Normally you already waitin' outside the door for meh?" Hunter complained to me while talking all funny.

"Well excuuuuuuuuuuuse me for trying to put in a pair of earrings, hun." I sass and squint at him as I call him hun once more.

"Bitch call me hun one more time." he threatens.

"Hun." I blurt out clearly looking straight at him, "Whatcha gon' do about it now, huh?"

"You're gonna regret that..." he says and drives straight past dunkin donuts. 

"Nooo, nononononononononono no." I plead to him.

"I warned you, biotch," he replies not even flinching on my pleas.

"I neeeeeeeed a donut! Huuuuuuuunntteeeeeerrrrrrr!" I beg to him with my hands stuck together in praying position. "Huuuuuunnnnnntttteeeeeeeeeeerrrrrrrrr...." I yell as loud as and as long as I possibly can until he gives up. "C'mon, c'mon, you know you want the donuts too, c'mon... Hunnnnteerrrr, c'mon," I tease him poking at his sides until he smiles.

"Ugh, you know me to damn well... Dammit, Kia." he pouts and turns around to go back to Dunkin Donuts. I teasingly push his shoulder as I laugh at him and feel the accomplishment of my pursuation.

"You know you love meeeeee!" I tease him.

"Yeah, yeah... Whatever..." he says with a chuckle at the end trying to hide it. We order our donuts and I get myself some caffeine to keep myself awake for the day since I didn't get much sleep. We get back to getting to school and eat on the way there. Obviously, we had to keep a donut for Sophie or she'd not talked to me for about an hour. 

"So, why you so desperate for that shot of caffeine? And why'd you skip our after school plans yesterday? Something wrong, Kia?" Hunter asks these many questions worried and curious.

"Nah, just couldn't fall asleep, my mom brought a new guy home and, well, you know where that goes..." I lied, honestly, I didn't even hear my mom and her new guy last night. The house was super quiet. 

"Yeah, I do... Thanks for telling me that..." he says sarcastically and disgusted.

"Well, you asked." I said putting the blame on him.

"Okay, fine. But that still doesn't explain why you bailed on us yesterday. We had to listen to one of Sophie's boring gossip stories on Drew Savoy and Amber Hydes and Brooke Trapp. Those bitches are best friends until it comes to who can get that guy first. What does he have that I don't?" he questions, probably wanting a serious answer.

"Awww, is Hunter jellyyyyy of Drew Savoy?" I tease him in a baby voice, also trying to get the questions away from me.

"Shut up." he snaps back and angrily eats his donut.

"Don''t take it out on your donut... It's not his fault." I pout jokingly with a laugh and make Hunter smile and he playfully shoves me as he parks into the school parking lot.

"Whatever." he mutters with a laugh and turns the engine off. We get out of the car and meet up with the squad at our usual spot under a special tree that we've all craved our names into back in Freshmen Year. I pass Sophie her donut secretly as I hug her and give her a kiss on the cheek. She whisper-yells a thank you in my ear and gives me a big kiss on the cheek and a big hug to Hunter. I hug Nicole (Hunter's speed dial booty call but we're still pretty good friends) and fist bump Bryce (assumingy gay friend who is the newest in our group and from France, kind of...)

We chill for a while and then go our seperate ways. First period, Friday morning, uh, oh right, history... Fuck me. I rush over to my locker to grab my history textbook that is actually enormous and double check my make up in my locker mirror along with a teeth and lip check after devouring those donuts earlier. I decide to simply grab a piece of gum and go to class. 

I arrive a little early and decide to sit towards the back of the class. I chug down the rest of my latte and throw it in the trash before the teacher gets in.

IV. Party planning

 

The day drags on and on... as if it were never ending. I just wanted to roll back into bed and sleep my life and feelings and thoughts away. I've been constantly thinking, random thoughts jumping around. Like, why didn't I tell the truth to Hunter earlier. Why didn't I tell him the real reason why couldn't sleep all night? Maybe, I'm embarassed. Maybe, I'm scared about what he would say. Maybe, I don't wanna hear the truth that I already know of deep down inside of me. I can't have a crush on Drew Savoy, that's ridiculous. Not me, Kiara Graves doesn't crush on fuckboys. Never. Well, except Hunter, way back then, before we even knew what puberty was...

Why did I bail on yesterday's plans? I still didn't have a reasonable reason. Why am I so caught up on Drew Savoy? I mean, nothing happened. We barely even talked. He doesn't know anything about me and I don't know anything about him except for all the things I've heard about, mostly from Sophie who's obsessed with the cool kids and dreams of being one of them.

I decided that I needed to tell someone about my current situation instead of balling up my feelings inside of me. I couldn't tell Hunter this morning, I think he'd be too, uh, I'm not sure what word to use... honest? jealous? Ugh, which ever...

I don't know if I'll have the guts to tell Sophie. Well, yeah, I have the guts to do it, but it's the aftermath that will blow up in my face. Since she's so obsessed, she's gonna maybe trying to get me and Drew together which would get me and her both a place in the group of the "cool kids" and we'd live happily ever after.

However, I strongly disagree and don't want that to happen. 

 

*****

 

Now, sitting at lunch, Nicole is talking about a party this weekend that she got invited to and wants, needs all of us to come.

"Come on, Kiki, you need to party! Blow off some steam! Sophie needs her gossip and it all can be seen live, she could even be part of a story... Bryce here, needs to open up and shit, gotta get him drunk AF (as fuck)! And me, I need myself a MAN!" Nicole says listing all possible reasons why we all need to go to this party.

"Am I not enough for you Nikki?" Hunter leans into her slipping his hands into her shirt and leans in to kiss her but she pushes him off.

"Uhhh, no." she snaps in his face as all of us laugh at Hunter. "I need a new man. I'm just your booty call, bitch. I mean, don't get me wrong, I do like it..." she whispers getting closer to him as he has a smirk on his face. "But, I still need a man." she finishes as she pushes Hunter's face away again before their lips get to have an impact. We all take a while laughing at Hunter's double rejection and finish eating.

"Well, I'm in." Sophie says talking about the party as we walk back into the school towards the Sophie's locker.

"Great!" Nicole cheered gleaming of joy.

"Me too," Hunter decides to join in as we walk over to his and Nicole's locker which are next to each other and is how they actually met back in Freshmen Year. Then, Hunter introduced her to me meaning I introduced her to Sophie and then yeah...

Once we get to my locker, they are all waiting for me to say yes to the party, even Bryce already agreed.

"Okay, fine..." I say giving in to all their begging and puppy dog eyes. "Who's house is it at anyways?" I ask Nicole.

"Oh, Drew Savoy." she informs casually.

"Drew Savoy?" I ask unsure if I had misunderstood.

"Yeah..." she says suspious of my questioning.

"Why...?" everyone asks in unison staring at me but I keep my head in my locker as if I were looking for something.

"What, oh, no reason. Just thought I heard wrong or something? You know like, when you, uh, say 'what' but then you realize a second afterwards that you actually know what they said and then you let the person repeat instead of being like, oh wait, never mind, I already heard you the first time, my bad..." I ramble and mumble on and on trying to be convincing but failing.

 

5/6/17

V. Wait, what?

School was finally over and I have to discuss plans with the squad now to determine who is getting ready where, where is this person meeting the other, what time, etc. I was waiting by my locker for them, and once again, guess who starts walking straight towards me. Well, I guess I don't even have to say it because it is so damn freaking obvious but whatever, it's Drew Savoy.

He's probably just going to keep walking, ignoring my presence, not even a smile, smirk, or grin. He's getting closer, closer. He looks up from his phone and looks me straight in the eyes. He walks towards me now, no longer towards the door.

"Hey," he says and walking towards my locker.

"Hey...?" I replied unsure of the meaning of this.

"You're the girl from Chem Lab, right?" he assures himself casually.

"Yeah, also the girl who fell on the floor because of you and you didn't bother to help." I snapped back.

"Yup, definitely you." he replied with a smirk on his pretty face.

"So...?" I continued.

"What?" he replied lost and I looked at him with an are-you-kidding-me face, "I'm joking," he continued. "I'm throwing a party tomorrow at my place, wanna come?" he requested leaning his back against the lockers with his head turnt facing me.

"I don't know, maybe I have plans." I replied not wanting to seem so needy as if being invited to Drew Savoy's party by the one and only Drew Savoy were the greastest thing in the world that could ever happen to me ever. "Do you even know my name?" I asked him.

"Of course, I do." he replied a little too quickly.

"Oh really?" I asked once again.

"Kiara Graves, the girl in my Chemistry class who I assume arrived late because she managed to grab the wrong textbook, in doing that, she rushed back to her locker, which is on the other side of the school, not wanting to arrive late to class, in the process, she ends up running straight into the amazingly, handsome Drew Savoy and falls on that nice ass of hers. She blushes and that's that." he states quickly getting every detail right. Wait a second, did he just say that I have a nice ass? "And now, she blushes once more as she realizes the words that have come out of the amazingly, handsome Drew Savoy."

"Okay, okay." I finally manage to say, my face probably as red as that disgusting pimple that girl Jen from French class had last week.

"Okay, you'll come?" he asks.

"Okay, I'll think about it." I say and close my locker and leave, forgetting the fact that I was supposed to meet everyone at my locker.

 

[: A very short chapter but are you not loving and shipping #DRIARA already or is it just me? I mean, I'm the one writing the book but I wanna know what happens next, like hurry up me, continue the fucking story and stop writing these useless author notes that no one cares about! So, hope you're liking my book so far, byeeeee. :]

VI. More excuses?

 Looking for my car and catching my breath, I check if I am dreaming or if I have a concussion and I'm daydreaming, hallucinating maybe... There is no way, the actual Drew Savoy just invited me to his party. I don't believe it.

All of the sudden, I am taken back by Sophie yelling at me. "Kiaaaa! The fuck you doing?"

"What...?" was all I managed to reply.

"Everyone's waiting for you! They've all left already and are on the way to Coldstone (ice cream parlor) now." she ranted to me.

"Well, I don't have my car. Hunter took me to school this morning!" I replied back.

"Well, then, get in the fucking car!" she replied and that was actually a reasonable thing to do. We both get into to Sophie's car and drive to our squad meetup. "What were you doing? You were completely on another planet when I found you earlier. Actually, you've been off lately in general. Is something going on that I don't know about? You know you can tell me anything, right? Do you have a crush on someone and you didn't tell me? Do you have a secret boyfriend? *GASP* Oh My Sweet Baby Jesuss! You do!"

"SOPH!!! Stop rambling! I don't have a secret boyfriend!" I yell back at her, tired of her getting into my business.

"Then, what in the hell is going on? For real." she says as we drive into Coldstone. She parks the car and looks straight at me. "You can tell me."

"I, uh, ..." I start to stutter.

"Come on, Kia. No matter what, I'm here for you." Sophie adds.

"I- I can't tell you now. M- maybe later? After our ice cream rendez vous?" I tried to give myself some more time.

"Okay, fine. But, no later than that!" Sophie grunts and gets out of the car. We get into Coldstone, order our ice cream and get to our usual booth with everyone already sitting there. 

"What the hell took you guys so long? I still need to go buy an outfit for tomorrow!" Nicole boasts.

"Sorry, forgot about the fact that I didn't have my car since this guy took me to school this morning." I apologised.

"Whatever... Now let's talk business." Nicole starts.

 

*****

 

In the end, we decided that all the girls were getting ready at my place since my mom would most likely not be home and the guys would meet us up afterwards and we'd drive to the party together. All us girs were going to the mall now to get an outfit for tomorrow night and I decided to come along to stall a little bit longer, my conversation with Sophie. 

The guys will probably tag along because they have nothing better to do but will leave once they get bored of us just going in and out of stores, like they always do. And that's what happened. We were currently in Forever 21 and the guys had already left about two stores ago. I just found the perfect outfit and warned the girls that I was going to try it on.

It was perfect length for showing off my legs but not too short, perfect amount of cleavage but not too much. Somehow, all I could think about is what Drew would think of me wearing this. 

I was sure off this outfit and bought it. Along with a velvet chocker that seemed to have appealed to me. Waiting for Nicole to decide on which outfit to buy, Sophie and I stood there. I knew she was going to bring the conversation up and I still wasn't prepared.

"So..." Sophie starts.

"So, what?" I question her acting oblivious.

"That's a cute outfit. Is it for someone in particular?" She asks me.

"This? What? No..." I replied casually.

"I saw the way you looked at yourself in the mirror. The way you twirled in it. The way you look at your own ass in it. I know you, Kia. Please tell me, who is it? Why won't you tell me?" she pleaded.

"I'm scared." I whispered to her, embarrased of myself.

"Scared, of what?" she asks me sincerely, and is careful with her words.

"Your judgement, Hunter's, Nikki's, even Bry's.. Thinking I'm a fool, crazy even, for even thinking about such a guy. But I know that I need to tell, I won't be able to keep it in much longer." I say in a soft voice.

"I won't judge, none of us will." Sophie says.

"Okay, but if I'm gonna tell you, it'll have to be no interuptions. One word without my approval and storytime is over." I state.

"Okay, pinky promise." she assures me.

"Pinky promise." I replied. 

 

6/7/17

 

 

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