Chapter 1: Love at First Sight
Just another normal day at school. Maths ugh, Year 9 maths is too hard. And we shouldn’t even be doing work cause it’s 2 weeks until the end of term and end of the year. We’re sitting in class just doing our work and this boy walks in. New boy ugh. Brown hair, hazel eyes and tall. Apparently his names Marcus. He’s kinda cute, but all the girls were already obsessed. Two of them even dibbed him. But he wasn’t paying any attention to them. He was looking at me, why me? I looked up and he gave me a smile and a wink. I smiled back. Damn was that obvious I don’t like him. I was the only girl that hadn’t had an obsession with him. Like yeah, he’s cute, but I’m with someone and obviously he doesn’t know that because he just laid eyes on us. Well me. He’s all the girls were talking about for the rest of the day. I always got the question, “So do you like him?” and I always had the same answer, “No, I mean he’s cute and all but he’s not for me.” But then they’d all say “Are you serious? He’s so right for you. He’s tall and he’s extremely cute.’’ He didn’t seem like he was at all for me. But obviously he and everyone else thinks I’m his type.
He came back today and spent the day at school with us. I got to talk to him for a bit and actually meet him but it didn’t go very well. It pretty much went something like this:
Hey
Hey
You’re Charlotte right?
Yeah I am. And you’re Marcus right? Wait shit of course you are.
Haha yeah. You seem really sweet and I’m probably about to ruin this but what’s your Instagram?
******** haha. How come?
I’ll text you tonight.
Okay
Well it was nice talking to you
Yeah you too
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And that was it, although James saw the whole thing. If you’re confused, let me explain. James was my boyfriend at the time and he got jealous very easy. Every time he saw me talking and laughing with a boy, he’d give me some kind of death stare. It annoys me. A lot. I’m thinking about breaking up with him, but I know I’ll regret it. Anyways one of the boys, Brooklyn was giving Marcus the ropes on our school. Brooklyn and I are really good friends; we’ve been friends for 10 years. I met him first day of kindy. When he has girl troubles he comes to me and vice versa. He told me that Marcus asked about me, and this is how the conversation went:
M: So Charlotte’s kinda cute I think I like her
B: Uh oh no can do Mr. Small but feisty over there is with her
M: Shit really?
B:Yeah, but if you slide your way in there, you’ll become really good friends, and who knows, when they break up, maybe something might happen between you two.
M: Okay I’ll try.
I was impressed with Brooklyn. I’m not surprised that he blew it out though.
I kinda liked having another boy “obsessing” over me. As I’ve said he’s really sweet and super cute. He’s growing on me a bit.
Chapter 2: The First Day
First Day of Year 10. And Marcus’ first day. Shit. I have no idea what could happen. We talked all holidays, off and on. But then there was also James to worry about. James asked me a lot “Why do you never talk to me anymore?” and I said ‘I’m always really busy’ but it’s kind of obvious that that’s not the reason when the only two people online on skype at 4am are me and Marcus. Marcus and I texted a lot but then we started skyping and soon it became nearly every day. I saw him once over the holidays, we met up and walked around Newtown. It was quite fun actually but something happened and we agreed not to talk about it. I felt like and Marcus and I were good friends but that was just us two. What about school? Who knows what will happen. The boys and the girls don’t really hang out much anymore because of a sporting incident last year. We never really did hang out but then we were getting closer and then we decided to play Year 9 Boys vs Girls Basketball for knockout sport and that’s when everything went downhill. We just haven’t really connected since then. We always fight and then we all get in trouble. But I don’t even really hang out with the girls much. I only really hang out with two or three of the boys and one girl that’s not even in my core classes. Thank god my friends are in my elective classes. Hopefully Marcus is in my elective classes otherwise I’m doomed for a friendship with him. See me and Brooklyn are such good friends because we’ve been in the same classes ever since the day we met, whereas James and me, are barely ever in the same classes so everyone thinks me and Brooklyn are dating because we’re so close. So my first class of year 10, Visual Arts. Perfect. Why you ask? Because No.1: It’s my favourite class and No.2 it’s an elective class so I can find out if Marcus is in my elective classes. I didn’t get a chance to talk to anyone before classes because I was late for school. One of the joys of catching a bus; I’m late for school twice a week on an average. So I walk in, and guess who’s sitting in the normally vacant seat behind mine. Marcus. Ok then. I sit down and he taps me on the shoulder and says hey and stands up. I stood up too. And he gives me the biggest hug. Definitely what I needed right now. Ok so not so bad. I thought he would’ve given me a death stare and complained to Miss about where he was sitting. But no. So we start the class. We have to draw the first thing that comes to mind. For me, this is easy because I’m a visual person, I can imagine things in the blink of an eye. A little while after I start my drawing I turn around and look at what Marcus was drawing. He drew the back of a girl, long dark brown hair wearing a hazel top. Then I realized. It was me, I have long brown hair and I chose to wear my favourite top, a hazel top with the words Bon Voyage written in the middle in beautiful handwriting. James gave me that top and I absolutely adored it. But when Marcus drew it, it looked even more amazing. I turned back around and continued with my work. Maybe I like him a little more.
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When break came around after second period, me and Marcus walked out together. He asked me if I could sit with me, Brooklyn and Cassandra, who was Brooklyn’s girlfriend. I said of course and James overheard me. He doesn’t sit with me; he sits with the rest of the boys. Thank god. I’m starting to think about James not as my boyfriend, but maybe just a friend. I don’t know. I still have to pass Year 10 before I can think about anything else. I sit down with Marcus and I look behind me. James’ group sits over the corridor to me. Marcus and I sit down and Brooklyn comes and sits next to me. Cassandra comes and legit lies all over Brooklyn. He gives me the KMS face. KMS= Kill My Self. We use that face for when our partners are being the most annoying little shits ever. So Marcus and I start talking about school stuff and about what it was like for him in Britain. Although he made it a not so boring conversation. He seems really shy around me but when he’s around Brooklyn and his other friends, he’s so confident and funny. He shouldn’t be nervous around me, like it’s me.
Chapter 3: A Lot Happened In The Past 8 Months
Let’s skip about 8 months into Year 10. James and I came to an end. He never actually told me why he ended it. Oh yeah, he ended it. Not me, him. By this time, Marcus and I were very good friends. But there was one thing in the way; The Newtown Incident. TNI was something that happened in the summer holidays. We went into Newtown and we were walking around. He then stopped me and pulled me aside and kissed me but it was extremely awkward as I didn’t really like him that way. We agreed to not talk about it but I still think about that day and I know that he still feels that way about me. We were walking to class with Brooklyn and we came to a stop, Brooklyn told Marcus to keep going. Brooklyn said that he says a lot about me and lately he’s been trying to ask me out but he doesn’t know when to do it. Like that’s sweet, but I don’t know if I’m ready yet because I only just got out of a relationship with James. Also I don’t know if James would be ok with it because even though I’m not with him, he still gets jealous easily. Brooklyn and I keep walking and we catch up with Marcus. Marcus’ hand slips down near mine and he holds my hand. I don’t let go. We walk into Chemistry Theory and James and his “gang” give us some looks; both good and bad. One of them asked me if we were dating and I just ignored him. I sat down in my usual spot and Marcus sat behind me. We start working and I don’t hear anything from Marcus until about 15 minutes before break. I feel a tap on my shoulder, it was Marcus. He was passing me a note. ‘You probably got the idea but, go out with me? Xx’ I didn’t know what to say. I wrote down ‘Of course X’ I handed it back to him. I turned around and passed it back. He smiled and gave me the same wink he gave me when he laid eyes on me. I look up at the clock. 10 minutes left. We keep working and then the bell rings. I pack up my stuff and I feel someone touch me around my waist. I immediately knew who it was. I turn around to see James. James?! I’m thinking ‘What the hell, is this a game?’ He said ‘Hey gorgeous, how are you?’ and I said ‘I would be better if you’d get your hands off my waist. I no longer think of you as someone who means something to me’ and I walk off and see Marcus walking away. ‘Hey Marcus, wait up!’ I said and he turned around and looked at me and stopped. I caught up with him and he said ‘What the hell was that?’ I had to think because honestly, I didn’t even know myself. ‘Marcus, I don’t like him. I don’t know what that was. Honestly, I don’t.’ He looked at me with a face that says ‘I believe you but I don’t’. He then talks again; ‘I believe you, I 100% do. But I need to ask you something? Do you still have feelings for him?’ I think about this. I know I don’t but deep down I could still have some feelings. But I didn’t want to mess anything up so I cover it up. ‘No. No I don’t. I hate him’, but I don’t know anymore. He comes closer ‘Are u sure? Because you might regret what’s about to happen if you still do’ I think ‘What’s going to happen?’ He comes even closer and leans in further. I knew where this was going. And considering James was behind Marcus, I didn’t stop him. He kisses me, he’s pretty good. But it feels so right, especially since James saw. For what feels like a long time, he starts moving his hands around my waist and they keep going down to my butt. He pins me against the wall and it feels so good. The corridors were clear and we just kept going. Eventually, the bell went. He moved his hands away from me and slipped his hand down to mine. We started walking to our second class, Visual Arts. We walk in and sit down. He sits behind me again and we start working on yesterday’s work. His drawing looks amazing. He passes me another note. ‘I can’t stop thinking about you xox’ I get this butterfly feeling in my stomach. Was that meant to happen? It never happened with James. But then again, he never did any of this for me. He never wrote me cute notes, never kissed me like no one was there in the halls and never walked with me to class. He was always hanging out with his friends and whenever he kissed me in front of his friends, he got lot of shit for it so he stopped kissing me in front of his friends and doing cute things for me. Marcus and I have been together for a day and he’s already impressing me. I walk out of Visual Arts and I feel a tug on my arm. James? Again? He pulls me as close as when Marcus kissed me and I saw Marcus come out of the room and into the hallway with this scene being the first thing he sees. I see him coming out of the corner of my eye and I immediately knew where this was going. Marcus came up to us and pushed us apart and grabbed James by the shirt and said ‘If you come anywhere near my girl again, your reputation in this school will be pathetic. You no longer own her. You never did. And you’re acting like you still love her. You broke up with her. If you’re still in love with her, tough luck. She’s moved on. ’
Chapter 4: Reminisce About It
After that incident with James and Marcus I had to talk to Marcus about it. I caught up with him after he walked away and he said ‘What the hell was that? He still has feelings for you Charlotte, get back with him.’ I couldn’t believe it when he said that. ‘You think I still love him don’t you?’ I said. The words blurted out my mouth. I regretted saying that. He came back with ‘Are you serious? Of course that’s what I think, he can’t keep his hands off you and you don’t do anything about it. You haven’t for the past 4 months. Charlotte I love you a lot and I hate it when he comes in and thinks he’s still with you. I haven’t even known you for that long but I know you, really well. I know when you’re lying and I know when you’re not ok. James doesn’t know any of that, because he didn’t study how perfect you are.’ I was taking in all of this, bit by bit. He’s actually saying this to me. He actually is. ‘Ok’ I say ‘I’m going to talk to him now.’ I walk back over to James. He realizes I’m there and slips his hands around my waist. I push him away and say ‘James, I’m not with you, you broke up with me remember? Get the fact that I’ve moved on and that you broke my heart and I hate you for that.’ I walk away and Marcus gives me a thumbs up but then gives me a worried face and tells me to turn around. I turn around and James is coming my way. He screams at me ‘I never broke up with you Charlotte that night was a joke!’ I couldn’t believe it. The night he called me, crying on the phone was all a joke.
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I’m studying for my Chemistry Theory Finals. I look over at my phone and I have 14 missed calls from James, 8 from Brooklyn and 18 from Marcus. I called Brooklyn back first ‘Hey’ he starts and I say ‘Why’d you call me so many times’ and he says in a quiet voice ‘I needed to warn you about something that James is going to do’ I start to get worried ‘What is he going to do?’ there was a pause from him ‘He’s going to break up with you in front of everyone at school on Wednesday’. I hung up. I didn’t know whether or not to believe him. I call Marcus back. It rings a few times. He answers like he just woke up. His voice was broad and deep, not like usual. I say ‘You called me a few times? How come?’ and he said ‘I couldn’t stop thinking about you and what’s going to happen to you ‘and I think does he already know? ‘The James thing?’ I say ‘Yeah it is. I’m here for you’ It was really sweet of him to say that but I don’t know how I feel about him still. We say our goodbyes and I get onto my final phone call. James. It rings until his voicemail comes up. I don’t leave a message; he’ll call me back. He rings me and I pick up straight away. He says ‘Hey, I’ve been thinking, we need to break up.’ I knew it. ‘Excuse me?’ I say. I already knew this was gonna happen. ‘I didn’t want to’ he starts ‘but your too attached to Marcus. You never want to hang out with me anymore. You’re always doing fun things with Marcus and it looks like you’re dating him. I know about the Newtown Incident and I’m mad that you didn’t tell me, if you did I would’ve understood but because you kept that from me I was furious You need to get with him. And soon.’ I couldn’t believe it. He was telling me to get with one of my best friends. ‘Ok then, be like that, but you always said you were the one that didn’t want to lose me’ and I hung up. I cried and cried. I texted Marcus ‘James and I are through, text me don’t call X’ and then I texted Brooklyn ‘don’t text me but James and I are done, don’t tell anyone Xo’ I didn’t know what to do. I got urgent replies from the both of them saying call me text me and then I got a notification ‘Marcus Farge sent you a message’ I open it and it was this long message about how he felt really bad and he confessed about how he really felt about me. I read it and read it and read over and over again and I still read that message every day.
Chapter 5: Well That Went Well
I walk into school the next day, shivering of the thought of going into class. I have English first period. I walk in and no sign of Marcus or James. One of James’ friends walks up to me and says ‘Because of you, they’re both in the principal’s office. Your supposed boyfriend; warning of suspension. Your supposed ex and my best mate; Suspension of 6 days.’ I stutter my words slightly ‘What happened to get them that much trouble?’ regretting my question, he starts ‘James told Marcus to meet him this morning so he could say sorry. But instead of saying sorry, he started a fight. We saw it and it didn’t go down very well. James started the fight but then Marcus finished it. We left after he finished so no one knows what happened next.’ I think to myself ‘Marcus? Finish a fight? He must be on drugs’ I sit down and half way through the class Marcus walks in. Black eye, a massive cut down his leg, cuts all down his arms and blood stains on his no longer pristine white shirt. He came in and sat down at the back. I text him, ‘I heard what happened. Are u ok? Xx.’ Waiting for a response, James walks in slowly afterwards and sits down in Marcus’ normal spot. I hear his chair shuffle and he was right by me a second later. He whispers ‘I hope you’re happy’ and I shuffle my chair forward. My phone vibrates. It’s a text from Marcus. ‘I’m fine. Talk to me after class outside :) Xx.’ Not the answer I expected but still an answer. I look back and see him smile at me but it wasn’t his superstar jock smile, it was a worried smile. I sit through the most boring class of English I’ve ever experienced and the bell finally rings. I’m the first one out and I stand outside class. Marcus eventually walks out and grabs my hand and pulls me along, not in an aggressive way but in a way that he doesn’t want anyone to see us talking. He pulls me into one of the music rooms and explains everything to me. ‘I didn’t want to hurt you in any way, nor did I want to hurt your relationship with James’
‘I didn’t realize I was still with James’ I start. ‘I know’ he says ‘I know you didn’t realize, but you shouldn’t have gotten with me in the first place. So I’m going to give you a decision, stay with me or ask James for a second chance, I’ll be there for you no matter what choice you make.’ I couldn’t believe it. James was telling me to get with Marcus and Marcus was telling me to get with James. This is unbelievable.
‘I’m staying with you. I don’t care how bad it gets’ but then I think. Maybe I’m in over my head. But I know I’m not. I walk out of the music room with Marcus and we bump into James and his friends. One of his friends pulled Marcus back and punches him in the stomach. I look and James and he pulls his phone out and starts filming. James’ friend keep going and Marcus fights back, only for James to film his friend getting beaten up by Marcus. Half of year 9 was surrounded by James’ friend now and Marcus runs out of the circle, his bag half on his back and his shirt ripped. I run after him and Brooklyn runs after me and eventually catches up with me. We walk around the corner and look down the halls. No Marcus. We run around the whole school and still don’t see any Marcus. He doesn’t show up to second period either. Brooklyn texts me halfway through class ‘We’ll find him, don’t worry Xx’. Is it obvious I'm that scared?
Chapter 6: It's Only The End Of Year 10
I run out of class as soon as the bells rings, Brooklyn running after me. We run to the one place we didn’t look before, the underneath room in the main stairs to the entrance of the school. I run as quick as I can and I lose Brooklyn. I remember Brooklyn and I talking to Marcus about this room when we were showing him around. I open the door and see Marcus sitting there, looking the same as when he ran off. He looks at me and gets up. ‘You can’t be here’ he starts ‘I don’t want you to get hurt. I need you to leave’ I can’t believe him. ‘What are you doing this time that’s going to get you hurt?’ He looks at me with his cute smile and tells me not to worry. Even with blood and cuts all over his face he’s still the cutest boy alive. I leave and I go to find James. I eventually find James and ask him if he’s planning to give Marcus more shit. He said he hadn’t talked to Marcus since he ran off and hid. I start walking and James catches up to me. He pulls me back and says ‘I hope we can still be friends.’ Friends? ‘You broke my heart, what makes you think I want to be friends with you.’ And I walked off. I went back down to where Marcus was except this time there was no Marcus. I found a note. “I’m sorry Charlotte, I had to leave. You don’t deserve to be treated like this. You deserve to be with someone forever. I have to leave but I’ll be back. I’ll call you when I’m ready. I love you so much and I’ll see you soon Xxxx” I’m shocked. I couldn’t believe it. I break out in tears right there and I fall to the floor. I cry more and more. Brooklyn eventually finds me and I show him the note. He reads it and gives me a big hug. ‘We have to go after him. Whether he likes it or not.’ I think about this. This could go amazingly well or shit. ‘I need to call him first, make sure he’s ok.’ I pull out my phone and there is notifications from every app ‘Missed call from Marcus Farge’ on messenger and skype ‘Missed Call: Marcus Bæ
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