I laid there in my bed with my I-pod blaring “Body Crumbles” in my ears, tracing abstract patterns on the textured popcorn ceiling. It was nearly 4:30 on a Friday morning and anyone with a brain and who had woken up at 6:45 the previous morning would be asleep right now. Trouble was, though I tossed and turned all night, I never even came close to sleep. I sighed, rolled my eyes, and finally just gave up. “Insomnia is a cruel bitch” I mumbled to myself in what I’m pretty sure if anyone else had heard would have thought was Chinese. Funny thing was, my Chinese vocabulary consisted of hello and goodbye. I was a smart kid don’t get me wrong, but Chinese is a world all its own and I had no desire to become a part of. I tossed the black satin sheet off of me and slowly walked to my mirror; I gasped and backed away when I saw my reflection. I looked like I could be a zombie from the movie ghost of mars. Yikes, I thought to myself. I crawled back even more slowly and hastily grabbed my silver and purple brush. I needed to tame that horrid beast atop my head that dared to call itself hair. I brushed from the bottom up undoing all the tangles in my path. Once I had gotten finished my hair was as smooth as silk and I smiled to myself, pleased with the outcome. My I-pod changed to “Your Guardian Angel” by Red Jumpsuit Apparatus and my smile grew even broader. I was in love with this song and always had been. I sang along with the words as I examined my eyes. There were deep purple bruise like bags under my hazel eyes and again I cursed my insomnia. Everyone always thought I wore contacts at school. They were always shocked to find out that I had never worn them a day in my life. “Your eyes are beautiful.” They would always tell me. That was usually the only complement I ever got. Apparently everyone thought I was emo or something. Yet after thousands upon thousands of times I had said, “Alondra is just Alondra. No stereotype involved.” You would think they had gotten the point. Nope on this island if you were white, you were either a slut or emo and that was the end of it. Galveston ultimately sucked.
I whimpered to myself and glanced at the clock. It read 4:47 in big bold neon green letters. Another day without a lick of sleep. I thought the doctor said the damned depression pills were supposed to make you sleepy. Well, either he lied or they don’t work. I groaned and put away my I-pod. I walked sluggishly to the shower and turned the hot water knob on as high as it would go. After about a minute and a half I saw the steam twisting and turning in the air. Perfect, I thought to myself. If I couldn’t sleep I ought to just go ahead and get ready for school. I stripped off my clothes and climbed into the steaming shower. At first the hot water sent a chill down my spine but then I relaxed into it. I felt all my muscles begin to uncoil and become more relaxed with each passing moment. I began to sing “Remembering Sunday” by All Time Low as I washed my hair and body. After about 5 to 10 extra minutes of relaxation in the scalding water, I turned it off and pulled back the zebra print shower curtains. One of the many perks of being 16 in this house is I get my own bathroom! This means I get to decorate as I please. I grabbed one of my fluffy white towels and wrapped it around my body in sort of a dress fashion then took another of my fluffy towels and towel dried my hair. “Evil Angel” by Breaking Benjamin started playing loudly from my phone, almost causing me to jump up and out of my skin. I looked at the caller I.D. and it read Jaylin. A smile spread across my face and jumped up and down cheerfully as I answered it.
“Hewo?” I said in a kiddy voice. I heard him chuckle the he replied darkly, “Little girl, little girl, let me in!” I stifled a giggle and replied in a kiddy voice yet again, “Not by the hair of my chinny chin chin!” he laughed and through it all he said, “You, have hair, on, your chin?” I gasped in mock horror and clutched my hand to my chest as if he had wounded me. “As if!” I yelled back laughing. “Why do you need me to let you in anyway? Where is the key I gave you?” there was a long pause on the phone that told me he lost it. “Uh… I didn’t lose it if that’s what you’re implying.” He said sheepishly. I rolled my eyes and came back with, “Yeah, right. I’ll be down in a minute Jay-bear.” I hung up the phone and ran into my room. I pulled open my drawer and pulled out my light blue bra and bottoms and slid them on then skipped over to my closet and pulled on a pair of white skinny jeans. I grabbed my R.J.A shirt and made a mad dash for the front door. I swung it open and Jaylin was still standing there like he had implied he was only his eyes had widened the moment he looked at me. I looked at him funny and cocked my head to the side. I looked down to see what had made his eyes go so damn wide and I instantly saw it. I forgot to put on my shirt! I still had it in my hand. I covered my chest with the shirt and felt my cheeks blush a bright scarlet. “Um… you can come in. If you want to that is.” I said as I ducked behind the door and slid on my shirt. “Sure.” He said and stepped in the door and closed it just as I had finished pulling on my shirt.
He stood by the entrance and, though he was my best friend since like forever, I had to say that he looked hot! His hair was redid black and swung off to the side perfectly, the black avenged sevenfold shirt he wore clung tightly to him, his skinny jeans he wore in that these-are-my-favorite-jeans-because-they-look-amazing-on-me way and his favorite green cap was on his head. His green eyes were dancing in the dim light of the candles I had lit. “What are you doing up so early hun? I thought I was the only one with insomnia outta the group.” I asked, curiosity filling my voice. “Well that may be true but I just wanted to get on at your stop. My dad is coming home in like 10 minutes and you know my mom and him always fight. I just really don’t wanna hear it.” He said staring down at his fingers. I smiled a crooked half smile and intertwined my fingers in his. He looked up at me with a bewildered expression that I just shrugged off. “Why of course you may Sir Jaylin.” He laughed softly and I led him up to my room.
He plopped on my bed and made himself right at home. I shook my head and blow dried my hair. It was kind of short but longer than a bob so it really didn’t take too long. I clicked it off and due to the fact that I wasn’t looking in the mirror and I had the blow dryer going, I didn’t hear either of the twins come in. The twins were Skylar and Kyle. If their hair weren’t different lengths and Kyle didn’t have a snake bite, you couldn’t tell them apart unless you had known then for a while. The four of us had been inseparable best friends for about three years now. And only recently did Skylar and I start dating. Suddenly I felt a pair of strong arms wrap gently around my waist. I jumped slightly but then I heard Skylar’s deep seductive voice and I practically melted into his arms right there on the spot. “Why so jumpy babe?” he asked. His warm breath tickled my ear and I got the faint smell of peppermint that lingered in his breath. “I wasn’t expecting everyone to pull a me.” I said sheepishly. He laughed softly and buried his face in the crook of my neck and shoulder. “You always smell like sugar cookies.” He enquired. “What, do you have a secret stash of them that you munch on when we leave or something?” I laughed at that. “Oh yes, they are stashed at the end of my imaginary rainbow brick road and are guarded by Jim the rainbow.” I told him in a playfully sarcastic voice. I felt him smile and he kissed my neck gently as if that were some silent cue Jaylin and Kyle both rolled their eyes and left. I turned my head slightly trying to see why they left me when Skylar lifted me up and laid me on my bed tickling me. I was laughing so much I ended up crying. “Sk-Sky-Skylar!” I panted out between laughs. He slowly stopped and hovered his body over me. “What?” he asked with a bemused smile on his face. “It’s a little too early to be trying to make me laugh myself to death, don’t you think hun?” I asked playfully. I propped myself up on my elbows and kissed him lightly on the lips.
His bemused smile became a sweet one and he lowered himself onto the bed beside me. He gently moved the hair from my eyes and cradled me to his chest. I loved being like this with him. It was the one place I could be where all the noise and chaos of the world ceased to exist. In my mind we were the only two souls on the planet. And that was just how I liked it too. “Amor?” He asked in his deep voice that always made my heart flutter. Though the boy had no touch of Mexican in him, he always managed to speak perfect Spanish and make me melt. “Yes?” I responded in a small voice. He chuckled once and I felt it in his chest. I counted his heart beats. 1, 2, 3, 4, and so on until I felt gentle fingers lifting my chin so my gaze could be solely on his eyes. “I love you.” He told me. There was no humor in his voice, only seriousness that told me he wasn’t lying. I swear my breathing stopped and my heart skipped about 2 to 3 beats. It wasn’t in a bad way, not at all. I stared into his blue eyes and said the truest words I had ever spoken to anyone, anywhere, and at any time. “I love you too. Always have, always will.” The grin that covered his face was one of pride and joy. He kissed me then. Soft at first, but then the intensity took over both of us. I softly bit his lower lip and his response was instant. He deepened the kiss with a force that was pure desire. I let him explore the inside of my mouth as he pleased and he let me do the same with him. His strong hands gripped my hips and pulled me closer to him, molding me to the shape of his body.
The door opened and both of us stopped abruptly and looked hastily at the door. Jaylin was standing there his eyes wide and his mouth shut tight. I could see the water in his eyes starting to build and I got up hurriedly off the bed and ran to him. When I got to him, he ran. “Jaylin!” I called after him I grabbed my flats and ran after him. I heard Skylar calling my name behind me and I looked back at him but kept running. The look on his face was one of pain. My heart broke when I saw that. That piece that broke seemed to fall on the floor at my feet. I was hurting him. I didn’t want to. But I had to go after Jaylin. I knew he liked me. And he tolerated Skylar and I dating but I knew what he had stumbled in on us doing was like digging his heart out with a spoon. I ran in front of him and to the front door before he could get there. The water I had saw brimming in his eyes earlier was now overflowing down his cheeks. Crack! I heard that break. I felt another piece of my heart break and fall to the floor. “Move out of my way, Alondra!” he shouted but it came out choked and muffled due to his tears. “Jaylin.” I began the grabbed his hand and intertwined mine in his. “Walk with me please.” I begged in a whisper in his ear. He nodded slowly and I led him out of the door. We walked in silence for about five minutes when he stopped.
“Alondra,” he began, “Why do you even still want me here? Do you think I’m just going to stick around while you tug at the strings on my heart like that? That hurt, so much more than I think you realize. I love you with every fiber in my being and body and you are too blind to see that! I mean hell; you’re too blind to even see that when he leaves to go to “tutoring”, he double quoted the word, “he is cheating on you with That Vanessa chick you always see him hanging out with!”He finished. His hand flew up to his mouth and he mumbled something like oh shit. “Do what?” I choked out. My head began to reel. I didn’t know whether to cry or be angry. “He said if I ever mentioned it he would make me regret it. You know how bad his temper gets and I have seen him do some pretty bad things to guys who snitched on him.” He stopped to gauge my reaction. He pulled my into his embrace and just held me. The silent tears that were flowing down my cheeks were staining his shirt. He lifted me up and carried me to the skate park. It was too early for anyone to be there so he knew we would be alone.
He carried me over to one of the grinding benches and sat down with me still in his arms. I curled up into a ball in his arms and the tears and sobs came in uncontrollable bursts now.” I had told him I loved him.” I sobbed I felt his jaw tighten but then It released and he stroked the side of my head. “It’s okay babe.” He crooned. “I know that it hurts when the person you love doesn’t love you back.” That just made the sobs come all the more forcefully. I knew he meant me. But he was also trying to give me some comfort. “It will all be okay soon.” He began rocking back and forth and I fell asleep for the first time all night.
When I woke up I was in my room and in my bed. Someone was there with me and I turned my head slightly to see who it was. It was Jaylin. I smiled in spite of myself. Even after everything that went on, he stayed here with me. His arms were around me and I pulled them tighter. He woke up slightly the groggy expression on his face made me giggle. But then everything came back. I groaned and buried my face in the pillow. I felt Jaylin’s hand stroke the back of my head. “Alondra?” he said in a concerned voice. I lifted my head from my pillow to look at him. My hair was all in my face and he laughed slightly and gently pushed it out of my face. “Are you okay?” he asked. I nodded my head and sighed. “What time is it?” I asked while looking out the window. The sunlight was streaming in brightly and I had a feeling it was way past time to be in school. “It is 12:56.” He replied sleepily.”Don’t worry I already called into the school to tell them you were sick.” He added. I pursed my lips. I hadn’t even thought of that yet. “Thanks hun. I really feel like crap so the sick excuse works.” I told him. I really was thankful.. Speaking of the evil twin, how did Jaylin get them out of here? "how did you get them out of here?" i asked totaly curious. he shrugged his shoulders and said, "I told Skylar to fuck off. And in return, he slashed my arm with his pocket knife. Said he'd finish the job later." he held up his arm and pushed up the sleeve. there was a long gash that was covered in bandages that were soaked in his red blood. I was horrified that Skylar would do such a thing. I opened my mouth to apologize for his behavior and to ask him if he needed anything, but he stoped me before I could. "I'm fine." he said.
I reluctantly crawled back into the bed and propped myself up on my elbow. Jaylin put his green capon my head and said, “Huh, looks better on you than it does me.” “Hey, um, I know it’s kind of sudden but,” I began and then stopped and began chewing on my lip. “What?” he asked, curiosity filling his voice. “Well, I haven’t always been honest with you. I lied when I told you a year ago that I didn’t like you. I was just afraid of what people might say and I didn’t want to be teased. I did like you. A lot actually.” I stopped to gauge his reaction. His eyes widened but he stayed silent to let me finish. “I was wandering if, maybe you would want to go out with me?” I asked then mentally prepared myself for rejection. He scooted closer to me and leaned in and kissed me. His lips were soft and sweet and the kiss was soft and not forceful in the slightest. He pulled away with a smile and replied, “That answer your question?” I smiled broadly and wrapped my arms around his neck and kissed him happily. We laughed and he helped me up and out of the bed. I stumbled when I tried to walk at first and his strong sure arms caught me. “Are you sure you are alright?” he asked in a joking manner. “Yeah.” I replied as I leaned into him. We swayed side to side as he hummed “Come What May” by the Scene Aesthetic. We were dancing. I smiled to myself at that thought. Jaylin had always hated dancing and the fact that he was doing it now was astonishing to me. I looked up at him (yes he is taller than me) and he looked down and smiled at me. He pressed his lips on mine softly and then slightly more forcefully and then pulled away. I frowned and he laughed. “You need to finish getting ready.” He told me then kissed my nose. “Why?” I asked and gave him a quizzical look. “Because we are going to a concert.” He told me then ran out of the door. I jumped up and down repeatedly. I was so friggin happy it was unreal! And then it occurred to me that he never told me what concert we were going to.

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