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My Intoxicated Love
Touch and poetry
Dedicated to the Love of My Life
*1
This is how a story goes
Just like a sun rising from a dark sky’s
To your brown beautiful face I imagine and I see
'Will you marry me?'
Got you with my knees down
'Without a ring? ‘You asked
Here it is ' now with a ring, will you marry me?"
Been two months since we met,
seems like a rising sun that will never set,
Like how sweet it gets,
Time goes' then I see you forget.
.....because the sweet road seems long
So I will take you real careful and slow,
Now remember every step as we go.
Its from me, so let it grow,
I will live to love you if you see it as I saw..
I still love you
Love In Time
*3
She was a child and I was a child again,
Back like empty burrels but here comes the rain,
To feel and fill
Sweet like a drug and harder when taken away
I promise to never dissapoint
It’s really no fun making promises and not keep them
Its love
so you keep your head up and feel okay
Sometimes when your heart is clean and dark you don’t see another day
You get blinded by love
and you smile because its simple
beautiful, black and other times complicated
And then you beg,
Please do not break it
because today sounds like its the best day
Take it a little careful and slow
Its one night at a time
Young of love but growing righteous line by line
These shillings, feelings and poetry
.....you know .....time never understands
but if its about love then am ready to shine
its a journey,
“there got to be time likes this”, she says it every-time
whatever happens I still will be holding your ground
Then if fate unearthed it
and we be opening the door on the other side
We will have a family
and that’s how we grow with time
Each day love in time
Touch
*4
If I could touch Gods fingertips now,
I would kiss each one of them,
And ask Him to bear my touch to you
And cover you with my touch until your heart replies
...I love you..
I have memorized the taste of your kiss
And the way your hairs lies on my head
...during every moment
And I don't want any day.....
Any day to feel if my love for you is going down.
Your voice, your touch… oh love
It keeps me reminded that am in love
I sit here thinking about how to make you feel this day
It’s one of your days of love,
God sent me an angel,
And I thank Him for keeping you with me.
I sometimes wonder what to say
To cheer you up for the rest of the day
Am a little silent,
Does that makes you little sad?
It really makes me wish I had...
Some sort of special powers
To show you things which have never seen
Like rising you up to that tower
Where we would say and bid our thoughts and dreams
But I can only give you my special love
A walk and these special words
I am so happy
You are truly my heart.
*5
If I love you, you probably know by now,
I don’t fake it and every word I say or write, I mean it,
Because it’s real despite the worst past have been through,
When I love you,
I can’t see what’s behind your eyes,
I trust quick and that's a weakness;
That’s why I don’t have love from many friends as you,
That’s why am all alone and not close to somebody,
Because when I love….
My heart becomes bigger than my body,
When I love…
I don’t care about the consequences that come,
When I love you….
I can wake up at 3 am just to write a song for you;
Because am blinded by your beautiful heart,
But from all the love I have showed people,
I don’t get that love in return.
I have become a sacrificial lamp from the people I loved before,
They leave,.....and all come later saying how good I was’
Pretending that they care when they didn’t.
That happens If I love you.
Gazing the bright skies…
What do you see, ?
I prayed that the moon will show up today
But it didn’t;
Reminds me of the biblical story of admirers,
Trusting the skies,
Realizing the deep truth and sorting it,
We may not share the same balcony,
We many not share the same city,
But at least we share something bigger than that.
The beauty of the skies;
It’s beyond all we think of.
The skies, love.
I am praying to you God
A lot is asked of you and I know you a fulfill-able giver
I will not ask you for money or property because all those things are begged by many from you.
I need hope and love
Through you I have lost and I have gained
Through you I have seen another day better and brighter
God, fill my heart with strength to find love from what’s left of me
I will give you my trust, today, tomorrow and everyday
And may my soul forever be in you
For you have given me life and your love
Give me what’s really remaining of my blessings
Only that, My Lord.
Amen
An Open Letter To My Unborn Child- Why We Walked Away*8
Yesterday, we walked away,
Your mother and I dropped a package from fun,
She secured as I provided,
Though hard times be,
Am sure she wanted you to see,
That through all days and seasons,
Some days were light and soft like ash,
Others became wet and heavy
You know when it rains, it pours for real; they say
But all in all I left;
I had to leave her and face my fears,
I didn’t have to beg,
For if I did I wouldn’t have written this piece,
If I did, we would have been together as a family,
I saw that as fate,
That I won’t love you without being so far,
Like missing you so much teaches’ me to love
But I did, I took all that with me and left,
It’s our different cultures that started it here,
It them my unborn child; so be careful,
The grave is always wide,
And I took this step for you.
That's why I left.
Are you ready?....Child!
Everyday, moments when am alone, I think of how you look,
How adorable your face is,
I think of how I looked when I was your age,
And, how my mother felt once she held me,
My father would stare at me expecting a sign;
....he thought I could hear him talking;
Funny, I was, just a new born
And so you are,
I wanna touch you but she left with you,
All I would wish to do is give you my entirety,
Is it safe to say that you are prepared?
I got my heart on top of my hands.
I don't want to break it
I still require all but the more I have; the more am trapped
I am hesitant to give out my heart .
What's more,
My heart bleeds and hands shake ,
I know the pain through the runway ,
So I lay and float a for a moment.
I look around for once
And see others run around
I loved once and my heart was cold and warm
So please, love; get off my head you are hiding
Offer me a reprieve since I would prefer not to lose it
There you are, I have you on my hands
Over an edge, just beside the ocean .
My fingers are covered in oil
And my heart slips in every beat of it.
Am suddenly close,
So I see my heart tumble off to the ocean .
Then am free once more
She at last got off my head
Truly, got off my head.
Hey Kid*11
Hey kid, am just now leaving,
I hope you allow me come around,
When you are grown up and free
Now, they won’t allow me to.
Or can I come around this evening?
Oh, I guess you need time, yes of course,
Why else would you choose to ignore me?
It’s alright,
But, I can’t help it that your mind has changed,
It’s hard to love someone who breaks you twice,
I did let her in again.
Hey kid,
Are you still there?
Did you find the deeper truth and meaning?
I hope you read the smaller pieces I wrote.
I always think of you and love you everyday
Am sure you are busy now.
I don’t want to disturb you so I won’t come around,
But always keep my forgiveness and love your mom.
You take my hand and wish me well,
If it’s shallow, it never last,
So I keep you just back of my mind;
Funny, isn't it?
I have a little private hell on my mind,
But now am sited next to my computer,
With my phone on my right side,
I would like to call but the tone has changed,
Our feelings are both cold,
So if need be, either one of us will call,
We both guess without being told,
With nothing said but the silence,
The flame is dead,
Our love with no friendship at all,
I switch on and listen to my radio,
And I write this poem….
But in a moment, the radio sings a tune of love gone wrong;
It’s my first time thinking of we; in a sad song;
I don’t cry but I hold on my fears,
I switch it off and call it a night,
You are too good to be my love.
If I never see you,
Know that my heart longs for you everyday,
And my smile is because of my imagination of how adoring you look,
My thought of you brings me hope when am down,
And I always feel accompanied when am alone.
Every thought of you brings a sweet melody to my mind,
And that touches my heart deep,
It reminds me love exist.
If I never see you,
Know that my heart got a place for you,
And your absence won’t stop my love for you.
Know that I carry you from my inside,
And I struggled to write these words.
The world decided to let me go,
Knowing that I will return in another life.
…… if I never see you
In another life,
I will hold you tight,
And I won’t let you leave again,
I will play and sing the songs I have made for you.
I will love you because it will feel just right.
In another life,
I will find you;
And marry you at the same time,
I will whisper the lovely poems I wrote for you,
And I will not stop loving you.
In another life,
I will kiss you goodnight and every morning,
I won’t cry no more,
I won’t argue and promise you won’t fight me,
I have always loved you and I will always will.
In another life,
It would be us,
The three of us, together forever.
In another life…….
*15
Everything will pass on
Everything will have an end
Every Friday will be followed by a Monday
And every December will be followed by a May
Once we be strong the rough tides will slow
And everything will be back to normal
At night, the happy music will play on once more,
There won't be any sorrow
It will all come to an end
We would be happy again
There will be good days that we do not wish to end
Filled with fresh breeze and the softest sunshine
We shall give a toast to the lost and the ones we have found
The past will be gone day to another day
Soon we will forget the days and their names.
If you stay with me to the end
Kissing and tender....forever.
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Tag der Veröffentlichung: 17.05.2017
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Dedicated to the Love of My Life