A LETTER TO JESUS
Now Jesus I know that I do not pray like I used to do and I know that I really do not do all the things that we used to do together. But I just want to let you know that I still keep you in my heart and in my soul. Now I don’t know what to do any more and I am just not gonna fake the funk like I really do. I want to let you know what my plans are for my life. Well I guess that I really don’t have plans in my life and I never had them. It was all you who had all the plans and all the ideas and thoughts that I have now. So I am not gonna say that It was all me when I know that if it was not for you by my side then I would not be here now writing you this letter. Now I just want to know what is the plan for my life and what it is that you want me to do, cause I really do not know anymore. So what is it that you have in store for me and where is it that you want me to go in life if not up down if not in our and if not around round. I just do not know anymore what it is that I need to do or where I need to go. You created me for a purpose and I really do not know what it is that purpose is anymore. I want you to come to me in a dream and lead me to the place where it is that you need me to go. Now I can tell you what I want to do and I can tell you what I want out of life and all , but I know that Is not the plan that you have for me. So why is it that you can talk to others and not talk to me the way that you talk to them. I am not mad or even jealous in the way that you bless others or what ever it is that they day you do for them. I just want for me what you want for me doc. I have to know cause you know that I have been on a ride for the last few years and still I am going on that ride and it is not fun at all. Don’t get me wrong now I am real grateful for where you got me so far and all but I just want what I want and I have to have it now. Now I know that the things that I want is not in accordance to your plan but this is what I want. Now if it serves me right, you said somewhere in your word that you will give me the desires of my heart and I have yet to receive them doc, wzup wit that. Are you lying to me and not holding true to your word or are you just trying to show me something that I really do not care to see now. I respect you and all and I know that I can come to you as I am and all and I have come to you will open arms and a open heart and yet you have not blessed me with what I want. I do not want to think that it is all about me cause you are me. You are the one that gave me breathe. Wait a minute. I must have made a mistake, it is not you, but your father god that made me and gave me life and life more abundantly. So all that you have done is made a way for me to go. I want to follow you and all and I have tried that and I got lost, you lost me and you left me behind. You did not come after me and you sent others to see about me and I did not want to see them I wanted to see you. So now what do we do Jesus. Now whom am I to pray to you or your father. I love you both but I get confused at times in who to honor and cherish. But I tell you what I will do and I will stake my life on this: I will not stop trying to go after what I want and I will not cease to love you either. Now you know who I am and what I want and where I need to go to be happy and to have that joy that I think that I will have, so just give it to me and let me be the judge if it is the thing that is right for me and then if it is not then and only then will I tell you that I was wrong. Is that a deal? So from this point on I will leave you and try to cleave to the thing that makes me happy and puts a smile on my face and joy in my heart. Ok. Now you too said that your arms are out stretched if things do not go right and you will receive back into your fold. I will be like the prodigal son that came home. So do we have a deal? Do you agree with what I have brought to you as a I guess a request. Now your daddy said that he knew me before I was formed in my mothers womb and he knew that every move that I would make. Do why not let me have what I want. Let me have what it is that I desire. Now this is my life and the life that you gave me and I wish to do with it what I want. Don’t take that away from me cause I have nothing else, so why not let me have this life of love that I want. So I am gonna say goodbye and let you think about what I said. Now don’t hold this against me coming to you like this. This is what you want me to do right, come to you and talk to you in how I feel and give you what I feel in my heart. I am not lying and I am not holding back either. So holla back at cha boi and I love you man and I am still waiting on you to give it to me. Trust me. I know what I am doing and I know how to handle myself ok. I know this for a fact cause you taught me how to do this.

LOVE PEACE AND POWER, SMOOVE B

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Tag der Veröffentlichung: 30.11.2010

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