Where the hell could she have gone!? The spot isn’t warm anymore; she’s been gone for awhile, where the HELL is she?”Alexis?!” I’m screaming outside at 5:00 in the morning. She would have come back by now, maybe she was mad at me? For what, whatever I did I would apology a thousand times over. She’s killing me the sky is the normal color it should be, even though the air is a little bit chillier. There are no water lilies in the pond and I don’t think she would be able to go in even if she wanted to. I’ve looked everywhere, she’s not in the woods I would’ve been able to smell her, she’s not in the house and she’s not in the damn bed! I sink on the bay of the pond, the sky is just starting to turn orange as the sun fights its way through the horizons. I feel the lone tear that slides down my cheek but I don’t know how it got there, I don’t feel sad I just feel... lonely

I don’t remember the bed being so soft, and I feel so at ease. I rub the mattress and feel the lines that I definitely don’t remember being there. Maybe I’m still dreaming, maybe I can sleep for a little while longer, it would be easy being that it smells amazing in here. I don’t smell Michael’s earthy scent; I smell fresh water and morning dew and earth, wait those are all the smells of-
“I can here you thinking I know you’re up” his voice says across from me, I open my eyes and see his blue eyes and black and blue striped hair. I smile from ear to ear “zhafar!” I shoot up and wrap my arms around his neck. I haven’t seen him since I, rudely, told him to leave me and Michael alone. Of course then I was under Michaels charm spell but I still felt bad about it.
“Oh my god! How did you get in here, Michael let you in oh I could just kiss him, then you and then him again-“I stopped mid rant and actually looked around. I was in the room, the one with the pastel pink walls and white ceiling, the one with the black carpet and the I heart acdc poster. I stiffen and as soon as I understand where I am that voice bursts open the door, draining away my happiness with one swift hand movement. “Lexy your up” his arms pull me away from zhafar and into his body. The body I have hated for 10 years “I’ve missed you baby girl” I mutter something that I make sure sounds like I’ve missed you too dad, but in my head behind the walls I have made sure are safely up I say: why the hell aren’t you dead?!


Oh god she’s scared, who the hell is scaring her and why the hell is she still gone?! The sky is swirling the grey that would make you think a deadly tornado was on the way. But I knew better, we knew better. Ever since the first grey cloud popped into the sky I had been pacing the floor saying nothing but ‘she’s gone and she’s scared’, I couldn’t really think of anything else to say. My wolf was going crazy he was snarling vicious thoughts at me and for once I agreed with him. Whoever took her would pay, we would rip there intestines out and choke them with it. And that was just for making her scared! John cleared his throat and that menial sound turned my attention back to my pack. Some of them stared at me with fear and confusion and some of them stared outside with fear and understanding. “We understand that ‘she’ is gone but would you mind explaining what happened?” he said in that calm voice I used to hate him for. Always the calm center in a storm, but this time literally! I looked at him and narrowed my eyes, I understand this is what they need to help but to me words just waste time. I sighed a deep heavy sigh of annoyance, “I have no idea how she was taken or how she left but the only thing I know is that she’s gone, she’s scared and she’s GONE!” I yell at them. They all look at me in understanding and I let out a breath “sorry” I say and then I plop down. I rub my face, why can’t she just come back why can’t they just bring her back?!


Why the hell am I here? Why am I in his arms? Why am I asking stupid dumb questions and allowing myself to be in his arms?! I step out of his arms only to bump into a wall, a tall muscely wall. I let out a little squeal and dad laughs at me, I narrow my eyes on him, what the hell are you laughing at rapist? I ask quietly in my mind. Apparently it wasn’t too quiet he heard it and he smiled, a slow honey dripping smile “I see you still believe you made that lie you made up” he says as I trying to scold a child smoothly. I make my face and emotionless mask “it’s not a lie and you know it”
“Oh please,” the once motherly tone says from my door pane “we all know that it’s a lie and you can stop pretending”. She steps next to my dad and locks her hand in his twining them at the fingers. “We’ll still love you-“
“I don’t want what you sick people call love” I spit at them
“We won’t judge you for lying” she said as if I hadn’t’ talked at all. I stare at her for a minute longer; she’s not the same she’s gone. For one minute I thought I had actually had her back, but for as long as he’s alive she will always be the same. This is not my mother, these are not my parents anymore, and they’re the shells of what used to be. My mother’s shell face falls and she looks close to tears, but then my father’s shell hand gives hers a squeeze and it seems for her all is right again.
“If you are going to be living here again young lady you will not be saying or thinking hurtful things”
“Wait, who on this green earth said I was staying here, I sure as hell didn’t” I walk past them and down the stairs. I step onto the crabgrass lawn and spread my wings, I don’t take a look back and I don’t pay attention to what’s going on the only thing I’m focused on right now is getting back to danhmor. I probably should have paid attention because I would have noticed it when the massive hands grabbed my wings and I was hit upside the head with a large piece of wood.


My god, it’d not supposed to be so clear, why the HELL is it so bright outside. Just a couple minutes ago it was dark and gloomy now all the birds a chirping and all lappty-doo while she isn’t here! I started biting my nails while john was talking some battle tactic crap, I really couldn’t care about anything but why it was so freaking sunny outside. My mind kept flashing back to this morning, where I stretched out and reached for her but she wasn’t there. The spot was cold; she’d been gone for a while. I couldn’t find her scent but I did smell a light flowery smell, one that smelled vaguely familiar- AH HELL! “That BITCH!” I shot up from my chair and walked around flexing my hands. Wanting to rip her mother’s throat out, I had to calm myself down “what, what is it?”
“It’s her, she TOOK HER FROM ME!” I feel the house vibrate under my feet but I could care less, how could you just kidnap someone like that?
“Who took her?” that danm calm voice again, I manage to calm myself down
“Her mother, her mother took her. I was so distraught that I wasn’t paying attention to it, but that smell it wasn’t hers, god how could I have been so STUPID?!” I feel hot and angry and that’s not helping my temper. She took her from me and now she would pay, “her mother?” the calm voice was laced with confusion. I looked into those green eyes that mirrored mine and saw the glimmer of hope there. Should I be hopeful too? Could he help me? “I know where she is, why didn’t you just say something?”
“I forgot,” I grit out through my teeth “tell me where she is” I say and stare at him. He accepts the challenging and stares back at me, after agonizing seconds of silence it was Cora who interrupted “oh for GODS sake, she is out there with her parents, and from what I gather there not very good parents, and you’re here having a god damn stare down?!” her voice was lined with anger. I knew that Alexis and Cora had been hanging out but I hadn’t known she knew about her parents, was it only him that was left out of the loop!? I snapped out of it and stepped closer, a voice that was clearly my wolfs came out of my mouth “tell me where she is beta” I said slowly.
“It’s a town called claren,” he cleared his throat and squirmed “it’s a city in Minnesota”
“MINNESOTA!” my anger barely contained I hit a lamp that I would have to apologize for later, but as for now I couldn’t care less about a stupid lamp. Minnesota was a good 5 states away, time I didn’t have and couldn’t bear. “Leslie, call the airport and find out the earliest plane to claren, Minnesota” the red head girl bounced up and ran upstairs. “John, you and Cora pack you’re my strongest wolves” they gave me a nod and bound upstairs together. I looked at the rest of my pack and they looked tensed and ready for action “Charlie, you’re in charge of the pack now,” the brown haired man nodded his head
“I will guard it with my life” I smiled at him, nice to know there were loyal pack members. Leslie rushed down the stairs eyes wide and fearful. “The next plane isn’t until two weeks from now”. Those 9 words somehow couldn’t and wouldn’t work their way up to my brain, so they just stay in my ears bouncing up and down.
“I’m sorry what?”
“The next plane,” she swallowed and shifted her legs into a wider stance “isn’t until two weeks”. TWO WEEKS! HELL, I BARELY MADE THE NIGHT AND NOW THE PLANE WAS GOING TO DELAY ME FOR ANOTHER TWO WEEKS!?! I nodded and took deep breaths, “max go Google up how long it would take to drive to Minnesota” I pinched the bridge of my nose and closed my eyes, I heard him scuffle and get up. Not 3 minutes more he came back “alpha?” suddenly I felt older than 25, I gave him a nod to tell him I was still comprehensive “it said the trip would be a week” he said in a quiet voice. I took a couple more deep breaths and allowed myself to stand, I kept my eyes closed because I didn’t want to scare my them, my eyes glowed a neon green, they practically blinded me. A whole week, god knows what could happen in a week. “Tell Cora and john that I’ll be at the cottage and print out directions and inn houses” without a yes or any other word I left. I stepped outside and breathed the warm air into my lungs, god it smelled like her, that earthy dew smell that attracted me to her hung there. I sat down on the porch step and wept, I cried and cried until Cora came out and wrapped her arms around me and whispered sweet nothings into my ear. And for one minute I let myself believe that it was Alexis, funny how fast time goes when your pretending.


Ugh! My head is killing me, my back is aching and I’m covered in grime from my head to my toe. I slowly get up as not to aggravate my head, one hand goes to my head and the other to my showing baby bump. Christ how much time do I have left?! I found out… then there’s this… Jesus I only have 2 weeks left! I have to go back to Michael I have to get the hell out of here! Where am I anyway? I look around and see nothing but 4 dirty grimy walls and a steel door that had a paper plate with food and a letter in front of it. A letter?! Who the hell gives a letter to their prisoner?! Crazy people that’s who, I should stop talking to myself and get something to eat, I’m starved. I don’t want to test my legs out so I crawl to the tray oooh a tuna sandwich and chips! My favorite, I look to the letter and almost choke the piece of sandwich. In the familiar script it says: Alexis, I swallow the piece of bread and pick up the letter with shaky hands, I pull myself together and rip open the letter:
Hello sweetheart, I really do wish you wouldn’t have had such a fit you wouldn’t be here now if you would have stopped saying those hurtful lies and calmed down. Ah well I guess it’s all going to go fine, I made you a tuna sandwich I remember you like those, but I don’t know how you tolerate the after taste. Any matter if you are wondering how long we will keep you here that would be until that forbidden abomination is out of your stomach. Then maybe we can patch things together, but for now you’ll just have to live with the fact that we’re keeping you here against your will.
Love always,
Mother
That evil wench is going to keep me here! Captive until my unborn child is out of me and then god knows what she’ll do to her then. It’s strange because I feel my blood boiling, I feel the anger in my veins but my heart isn’t reacting to it. It’s staying at the same lazy heart rate; I look down to my arms and sure enough on my left upper arm the giant beige spot tells all. They’ve given me a drug to keep my heartbeat normal, sneaky BASTARDS!!!


The whole ride just to get to Canada was nerve breaking, silence, that’s all there was. My mind and my wolf couldn’t focus on two things at once, I couldn’t focus on holding a stress free conversation and focusing on Alexis, she was just way too important. My thoughts were broken by Cora clearing her throat, I looked to her and watched as she opened and closed her mouth trying to make words come out that would soothe me, but we knew that nothing could soothe me. I leaned my head back and relaxed, we had gotten a phone call saying the weather was the same as it had been since we left. Granted it was probably 8:00 in Alaska it was still warm and vibrant. That worried me, shouldn’t it has calmed down, and shouldn’t she be calmed, why the hell is it taking so damn long to get to Minnesota?! My wolf kept snapping at me, questions I couldn’t and didn’t want to answer, but the only question that was frequently asked was ‘why the HELL is it taking so damn long to get to Minnesota?!’. Now you would think I would have told him that he needed to calm down and think rationally, I did the damn dog wouldn’t listen! He would rather run there, but how exactly could you tell a wolf who’s mate is missing to calm down and think rationally? I sure as hell can’t!


I have no idea how I managed to fall asleep, but I did in the fetal position. I guess that’s why my father’s shell decided it was a good a time as any to approach me, wrong move. I remained still and kept my breathing slow and easy, I peeked under my lashes to see him coming closer to me with the hunger I saw 12 years ago. Though it repulsed me I had to keep my mind blank, my breathing slow and even and my body completely and utterly still. He knelt down next to me and laid his hand on my shoulder. He sent with it a calm and love, pff yeah right calm and understanding my butt, he bent down and tried to claim my mouth in his. Before he could even get in within a couple inches of me I used my strength and grabbed his throat, with extra strength I drew from somewhere, where I have absolutely no idea but it felt right, I tackled him to the ground where he stated pinned down by my hand. He looked at me with clear blue eyes and I smirked, my teeth felt sharper and they poked out from under my lips, I leaned down to his ear “you should be scared, daddy” I told him then punched him in the gut. He ‘oomph’ and hunched over, I let him up and walked to the door, I didn’t feel like leaving, somewhere deep down inside told me to stay where I was, “you can leave now” I told him when he just stared at me. I growled at him and he shot up and practically raced outside. I slammed the door and sunk behind it, where the HELL did that growl come from, and the strength and the teeth for that matter?! I ran my teeth along my canines and felt nothing but my regular tooth, maybe I was just imagining things, and maybe I was going crazy.


“I’M NOT CRAZY, I FELT A WITHDRAWL!!” why wouldn’t they understand, we had just stepped inside the doors of the ‘snugly duckling’ inn when I felt a withdrawal, my energy was taken. I felt it and I know I’m not crazy, but yet here we are with them looking at me like I’m a maniac. John walks up to the receptionist who was staring at us with fear and confusion, I would be scared to if a crazy man started yelling things like that- wait, I said I’m not crazy! Cora walked over to me and leans her head on my shoulder
“You think I’m losing it don’t you” I say looking around at the atmosphere. It’s very yellow, thus the duckling part, but I mean it’s like way too much yellow. Yellow furniture, yellow curtains, yellow walls it’s like a banana peel in here.
“Yeah I think your losing it” she said with subdued amusement, she rubs my arm and john walks back to us to hand me my key. I look at the small rectangular piece of wood that has room 7 carved on it. How much longer can I hold my sanity?


How can these people do this to me!! There is absolutely nothing in this room, no bed no sheet nothing! I thought they were supposed to love me! Oh god I actually am going crazy to think that. I had to sleep in a flipping ball last night to keep myself warm, now I have a crick in my neck, my back is sore and my stomach is basically doing back flips! My mental calendar is saying I have 5 days left until she comes out. Normally I would be ecstatic that in 5 days me and my baby could go free, but I’m pretty sure they have no intention of actually freeing me or letting my baby live for that matter. My super powers aren’t with me anymore, I can’t growl and I have no extra strength. Was I imagining things? I’ll see when he comes down, if he decides to come down. The door unbolts and I see a wisp of blue hair, I grit my teeth together, I don’t want to see him. The bastard claimed to have loved me but yet he just sits by while they keep me imprisoned down here!
“It isn’t that simple” he muttered and put down a tray of what looks to be steak and potatoes. I’m hungry but I’m pissed at him so I won’t scurry to it. I look at him with hatred and disgust
“Please don’t do this lexy, just accept it and then-“
“ACCEPT IT!” my super powers are coming back and I stand up. My legs aren’t cramped anymore, they feel strong and powerful.
“YOU WANT ME TO ACCEPT THE FACT THAT MY OWN PARENTS WANT TO KEEP ME DOWN HERE BECAUSE OF MY UNBORN CHILD!?” I step closer until I’m right in front of him and smell his watery musk
“I WIL NOT ACCEPT THAT, YOU CANNOT MAKE ME!” I scream in his face. I don’t feel bad about screaming at him, he deserves this,
“I want you to accept the fact that the abomination you call your child will be disposed of and then you will take your proper mate” his face twists into something I’ve never seen before. Anger and pain. I can practically smell the water outside the walls wanting to come in. I look at him curiously,
“Who told you to say that” I ask slowly,
“Nobody”
“We can smell each other’s lies”
“The only thing I c can smell on you is that dog!” he yells in my face. I don’t know what the hell has gotten into him but quite frankly I don’t like it. Once again my anger boils in my blood but my heart remains at its lazy pace. I clench my fists together at my sides and feel my strength return to me.
“that DOG is my TRUE MATE, and for you lying to me I should rip your nose off and stick it up your ungrateful, stupid, lying piece of crap ASS!” I kick his shin and he falls down, I use that advantage and knee him in the face. He falls down with a thud holding his nose and his shin; I run to the door and yank it open. I have to be extremely quiet or they will hear me, I tiptoe up the stairs and check to my left and my right. I don’t hear any voice so I speed walk/ tiptoe through the living room. The coast is still clear I slowly open the door and I just hear voices coming down the stairs when I close the door behind me and make it safely to the woods behind the house.


There it is again, that DAMN withdrawal!! I sit up in the bed and look around the sun lit, I swore for a minute I thought I smelt her, that wonderful earthy smell that would easily lull me back to sleep if she were here. But she’s not; I rub my face and let out a shaky breath. The tears are falling before I could stop them,
“It’s not going to help her if you cry” she told me softly, she rubbed my arm and I sniffled. I looked into her green eyes,
“I can’t do anything else Cora, I” I sobbed “I need her.” I let the tears fall free, she shushed me and whispered encouraging words but I could feel her unease. All that mattered was that she wasn’t here but I would find her, even if it kills me.


This is going to kill me! I have no idea which way the town is, or where the closest inn is. Eventually I found a small little pond that is water lily less, I sit down and put my feet in the water. It feels good around my ankles and it washes the grim e off of them. It looks to be noon I feel more tired than I did this morning, I lean back on my elbows and look at the sky. I watch the clouds in the sky until one grey one rolled in. “time to go” I mutter to myself, I force myself up and continue to go on. I find a wolfs den just when it starts to rain, I sniff inside and don’t smell any wolves. I carefully go inside and go to the deepest part I could find. I curl into a ball and my slow heartbeat lulls me to sleep, one last thought pops into my head before my eyes permanently seal close:
What if Michael never finds me?


I have to find her! We spent the whole day driving and we only make it halfway to North Dakota, we don’t go to an inn we go to a motel this time. I sit down on the burgundy and gold bedspread that covers the stiff mattress. My head is hung in sadness halfway to North Dakota, then after that we have to cross North Dakota! Thankfully claren is closer to North Dakota than Wisconsin or I would have gone mad a long time ago. I have my own room so I lay down and stare at the ceiling, it’s beige and has multiple water spots but I don’t look at them. I just stare blankly at the ceiling. John says it’s only 3 more days until we get there but I can’t wait that long. Deciding I can no longer mope around I grab a bucket from the closet and fill it with warm water. I storm out to the back of the motel where a luscious green garden grows, all the smells remind me of her but it’s missing the one thing that makes it heavenly. I dribble some water on it and decide it’s not enough; I keep spilling it until it’s just right and I get on my knees and sniff. It smells so much like her, so lifelike, I pick up some of the, mud and stuff it in my pocket. Tonight I will sleep with the heavenly smells of her. And maybe tomorrow will speed up.


Rain, rain, rain that’s all there was last night. A few hints of thunder and lightning, wherever my mother is she’s really ticked off. Somehow I got to sleep though; I think it was the smell of the foxes that drifted me to that heavenly state. Whatever it was I’m grateful, today is going to be terrible, I’ll have to trek through the mud and the rain. Not that I have a problem with that as long as I reach civilization soon. The mud feels squishy underneath my toes and I giggle a light airy sound that I miss. I walk through the heavy rain; I walk over the twigs and branches that lay down in the mud. I take one break and lift my head toward the grey sky, the water washes away my tears, and I miss Michael dearly. I’m too weak to fly and my heart beat is still at its lazy rate, which means the weather in Alaska is still the same. I get myself together and look straight ahead, for a minute I think I have gone crazy, I hear the faint sounds of a bell dinging. 4 dings, that’s what I count, and it’s 4:00! A town, a town is nearby; my efforts have not been futile! I look toward the sky “take that mother” I mumble. Soon I’ll be among people and they can help me, and I can get back to Michael! I rub my now completely rounded, engorged belly. I hope he finds me, I’m due any day soon, and I need him here with me. Not for comfort or for strength, but just for me, I need him here for me.


“She needs me I can feel it” I rub over my chest; we’ve just made it to North Dakota, like literally right over the border.
“Yes Michael, we understand she needs you,” john says in that stupid calm voice “you need her too but we have to wait until we get there to find her”. I am so sick of waiting, so damn tired of just sitting around while she could be in danger and I wouldn’t even know. The weather hasn’t changed and it’s so warm that some of the mountain caps have started to melt. I lean back in the back seat of the car and blow out a breath. I puff up my cheeks and look outside, for a country to be so bordered near Canada it is very dry. Not desert dry, but dry. Cora starts humming ‘if I die young’ by the band Perry and for some reason that makes me calm. I know I should be frightened that it’s about death but it just gives me hope. Hope that I’ll find her. Alive.


I want to rest, just lie down and rest, but I can’t. Sure my feet hurt, I’m starving and my back is killing me but I’m so close to the town. I can smell the gas, the coffee, the sweat I could even smell the people. Just a little bit closer, I could make it, scratch that, I would make it. I make it to the boundary lines between the woods and the city and see the cars zoom pass me, just my luck. I escape from the death grip of my parents only to get lost in the woods then when I finally find a town I can almost get squashed to death. I look to my right where the cars seem to be coming from, I’m clear, I can’t run or jog so I speed walk to the halfway mark. For the life of me I can’t remember what it’s called, I never had to drive anywhere, so for now I’ll just call it wall thingy. I climb over that carefully and look to my left, still clear, I speed walk across there to the greenery and the town. I want to do a victor dance but I don’t think my body will allow it. I look to the neon green sign in front of me that states
Helen
Population: 356
Not a lot of people, that is amazing. There’s no gate surrounding the city so I just walk right on in, suburban houses surround me but right in the middle I see a town hall. I walk past the beautiful houses and admire them from their beauty but I don’t really see them. I need to get to the town hall then I’ll take it from there. I reach the burgundy building and pull open one massive beige door. There’s one receptionist and she’s banging away at her computer, I move as fast as my legs will allow to her. She doesn’t notice me at first but slowly she looks up
“Welcome to the Helen town-“whatever she was going to say died on her lips, she got up which caused her rolly chair to bump into the wall.
“My goodness! Are you ok?!” she gasps
“No, I was lost and I need medical attention if there is a hospital-“my words stopped as I looked down at the wetness. Really I soil myself!? Is this some pregnancy thing?
“Oh jeez, mayor townfurd we have a woman in labor!” she yells down the hall. I gulp I’m in labor? Surprising I don’t feel any- HOLY CRAP! My stomach feels like it is about to break open. Crap Michael where the hell are you!?


We have just reached Minnesota, a town called Helen when my wolf snaps up. That smell, that wonderful smell I worked so hard to create has sprung up coming from the town.
“STOP THE CAR!” I scream at john and I bust the door open, water slapping my face but I don’t care she’s there. Finally. I race into the city and let my nose lead me, she’s moving closer and closer towards the town hospital. I run there as fast as my feet will let me; I zing zap around the houses and arrive onto what looks like a town square. I look around and what I see almost brings me to tears. There she is her hand on her now bulged stomach and her jeans soaked around the crotch. She peed on herself! Doesn’t matter as long as she’s here, I swiftly jog to her and her head looks up. I notice there are black s=circles under her eyes and sweat creasing her brow, but as soon as she sees me her face is transformed into one of utter happiness. The lady next to her takes one look at me, then her and smiles.
“Glad you’re here, you can help out now” she says kindly, Alex reaches one hand out for me and I take it. I want to smell it and make sure she’s ok but I notice she’s hot, like extremely hot. My face shows some of my worry and with a light smile she nods
“It’s time”
It takes a while for her words to actually make it to my brain, when it does I swoop her up in my arms and run towards the hospital. My nose follows the smell of sick people and anesthetic,
“Michael you came” her breath is a little bit airy, that’s not good.
“I will always come for you, and I will always find you” I tell her, I have to run faster; I have to get her there. She screams a bloodcurdling scream, her hand squeezes with such force I’d think it was going to shatter. It’s probably conjunctions, or whatever it’s called, I can’t really think right now. I’m almost there, I kick up my legs and make them run faster, and we’re there in an instant.
“Help! She’s going through labor!” I scream at I’m not sure who, 3 people with scrubs come and a fourth one with a wheelchair. I look at it skeptically, I don’t want her out of my arms, that is until she bites me
“Ouch!”
“Let me down or I swear I’ll do far worse” she says through clenched teeth. I let her down easily and they wheel her off into the elevator, I start to follow her but a small arm grabs my arm
“Sir you have to fill these out” a very soft voice says, I look at the nurse and take the clipboard. I can barely see what’s in front of me, but I fill it out to the best of my knowledge. She takes it back and gives me scrubs; these damn things are so confusing! I wrap the dress part around my neck and tie on the hat like a bandana; they say I don’t need booties so I take the elevator to the 3rd floor. As soon as I get off the elevator I smell her, that heavenly mixture of earth and rain, I follow it to room 303. There she is lying on the bed with a white hospital dress on and wet curly hair. Her eyes are brown so I assume they have her medicated,
“Hey sweetie pops” yep definitely medicated. I walk to her and kiss her forehead
“I missed you” she says softly with her eyes closed “I was so scared, and you weren’t there, I thought they did something terrible to you” her voice cracks. I caress her now clean face,
“I’m here now, and I don’t plan on leaving anytime soon”
“That’s good I don’t think I could handle it if you- ow, ow, OW!!” she screams and squeezes her eyes closed. She holds my hand and squeezes superman strength, it hurts but any type of touch from her is good.
“Why the HELL does it hurt so bad after the medication, god it’s like she’s ripping my stomach open!” She yells at me. I have no idea what I’m supposed to say ‘good job’ or ‘keep up the work’ I’m pretty sure she would kill me for that one. So instead I form a tight lip smile and leave it at that, after just reuniting with her I have no intention of dying.
“There the mama to be is” Cora says from the door way, Alex’s face lights up
“Cora this baby is trying to kill me” she complains half heartedly.
“If she’s got any of our blood she would have succeeded” Alex goes still and her eyes widen. I don’t know why she’s so scared now, and then I remember the vision. The girls green eye’s she is a wolf and god knows how she’s going to come out.


Oh god, oh god, oh god. She might come out a werewolf, she might kill me, and oh god this is going to be painful. Not that it isn’t painful now but it’s going to be uber painful. I start to hyperventilate and the mute Michael finally decides to speak
“Cora can I talk to you outside for a moment” he’s leaving. Oh god no, why is he leaving, when I need him most he’s going to leave?! What the hell is that about, I grab his hand before he can leave and my super powers come back, I look at Cora and growl showing my now lengthened teeth? She whines and scuttles out the hospital room while Michael looks down at me as if I’m crazy. I calm down and my powers go away leaving me in pain and tired.
“Don’t leave please” I ask him in a small voice, his brow is furrowed but he nods. He sits down and still stares at me, I lay on my side because my back is starting to be pained, I rub his arm and it musters the smell of him that I have missed so dearly. The smell of dog and earth and man and earth. This is the smell that again lulls me to sleep.
It was her! It was her all this time, I knew I wasn’t crazy, there were withdrawals and it came from her. However she did it she conjured my power and used it for herself, her eyes even turned green. She starts to snore and I take it as my cue, I gingerly take her hand off my arm and tip-toe out of the room. I close the door gently and find Cora in the waiting room. She looks at me with confusion
“What the HELL was that Michael?! What did you do to her?!” she practically shrieks.
“I didn’t do anything, it was the withdrawals, they came from her, I told you” I pointed to her, john comes in and sighs
“What happened now” before I could get out one word Cora fills him in
“You weren’t just being paranoid, you actually felt withdrawals” john says blankly, I nod once and remember she’s alone in her room. I walk back without giving them an explanation o find her sitting up with tears coming from her eyes
“Aww baby what happened” I jog to her and rub her back
“You, you left me again”


He almost gave me a damn heart attack! I thought he left me, again, and that I would be all alone and, well alone.
“No, I had to go apologize to Cora for you snapping at her” he says to me calmly, I sniffle and look up into his green eyes,
“You mean it”
“Yes”
“Really?”
“Really”
“Cross your heart and hope to die” I say half heartedly
“Cross my heart and hope to die”. I move over gingerly so as not to disturb the baby and the medication working to keep me from feeling anything. I pat the space next to me and he only looks into my eyes once, he takes off that stupid blue apron thingy and gets into the bed next to me. He holds my shoulders and I lean into him, as soon as my head hit’s his shoulders another ripping sensation hits me, this time closer to my womanly parts. There’s an annoying beeping sound and the doctor comes in, he looks at the zig zag lines and looks back to me with a sad smile.
“It’s time”.
It can’t be time, I’m not ready isn’t she supposed to wait until I’m ready?! I think it’s a little selfish of her just to come out whenever she wants, and I have to deal with it!


It’s time! They never told me what to do when it was actually time, I actually don’t know who they are so I have to find someone to blame... john I’ll blame john. She looks at me expecting something, I blacked out, and I’m not supposed to do that
“I’m sorry, what?”
“I asked, do you think this will be painful?” she said obviously annoyed. I frowned I want to say ‘how the hell would I know?!’ but I don’t think that would go over well with her.
“It won’t hurt, we’re giving you a c-section” the doctor says while fixing her bed so it moves “you won’t feel a thing” he assures her. I see her exhale a big breath I didn’t know she was holding in. The doctor looks at me
“Your gown, sir?”
“Oh that’s right,” I tied it back around my neck “I’m kind of outta sorts”
“Your out of sorts,” she snorted “try being chained up for 3 frickin’ days”
“I tried to find you” my anger has been lit. I did I nearly went crazy trying to find her!
“Obviously not hard enough” she humphs and smiles at the doctor, who looks pretty damn scared. She nods her head toward the door
“Baby, out, c-section, drugs any of those ring a bell?” she says lightly, the doctor scurries trying to push her out into the hallway. She leans back on the bed and looks up at the lights, only once does her eyes look to mine, she smiles
“Don’t leave ‘kay?” she asks lightly
“Never” I promise her. I don’t plan on going anywhere, anytime soon.


A c-section, ooh I’ve heard those are easy and pain-free. The medicine, which doesn’t seem to be working, should add to that pain-freeliness. I’m wheeled past two big doors that lead to a big silver colored wall room. The doctor stops me in the middle of the floor and leans my bed back,
“I want you to just relax okay, you might feel a little pinch, but that’ll be all, okay?”
I smile brilliantly at him
“That’s better than ok, that’s brilliant!” I say to him. He smiles and then a curtain is up, I can’t see my stomach anymore but I see Michael standing awkwardly in his blue paper dress, he never let go of my hand. Before they put a plastic mask over my mouth I say to him
“It’s gonna be fine, and easy, and pain-free” I say giddily. He smiles and kisses my forehead, how much I missed his kisses I will never be able to explain. I peck his lips really quick and they put the mask on. Whatever wonderful medicine this is I don’t feel a thing, I do feel a slight pinch and look up to see Michael look a little blanched. I want to laugh at him for his un-manliness but I see a quick glimpse of it in one of the mirrors. Instantly I want to throw up, but I just turn my eyes and look at other things. It feels funny what they’re doing down there like when you bite your nail down to the meat than your rub it over a piece of clothing. It kind of tickles. I hear a faint ‘oh my god’ come from Michael and looks up to see him with tears in his eyes. What, what is it? Is something wrong down there, did they disconnect my liver?! Michael disappears from my view but still holds onto my hand, when he comes back he carries a little pink bundle. He leans it ever so slightly and instantly her green eyes lock with mine, I feel the tears welling in my eyes as she coo’s. What I see next though is enough to stop my heart, her green eyes turn pink. The sign of happiness and all I can think is ‘oh crap’.

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