TABLE OF CONTENTS

A Confession

A Huge Mistake

Ain't No Stoppin'

Already Fluttered Away

Always and Forever (December 12-13, 2012)

Always Belong to Him

Are You Happy?

 

Baby

Baby Boy (April 7, 2012)

Betrayals and Lies

Black

Blinded

Broken Down

Broken Hearted

 

Can't Help But Smile

Confused

Consuming (June 4, 2013)

Crush

 

Dear GOD,

Decieve

Deeper Into My Heart

Depression

Despair

Do You Care? (February 8, 2012)

Do You Ever...

Don't Leave Me Alone (April 19, 2012)

Don't Leave Me Tonight

Don't Take Me For Granted

Don't You Dare Leave Me Behind

Drown

 

Each and Every Day

Emptiness

End

Entrapped (February 7, 2012)

Everyone Deserves This (December 3, 2012)

 

Fall In Your Arms

Fallen

Falling Apart

Falling Even More

Falling to Pieces

Final Goodbye

Forever

Forgotten

"Fuck You!"

Fucked Up Life

 

Gone

Goodbye

Growing Apart

 

He'll Never Know

Held to the Ground

Help Me

High School

HIM

His Smile

How and Why

 

I Can't Take This Anymore

I Don't Know (April 18, 2011)

I Don't Understand

(I Hope)

I Just Want to Rest (May 20, 2013)

I Love the Way You...

I Love You

I Love You

I Loved...

I Need to Know You Care

I Need You (April 19, 2011)

I Promise You

I Thank GOD

I Will Love You Like No Other

I Wish (April 20, 2011)

IF...

If Only...

I'll Do Anything to Keep You By My Side

I'm Begging You

I'm Going to Let You

I'm Hanging On By Just A Thread

I'm Here to Stay

I'm So Very Sorry

Inside

It Must Be Love (July 16, 2013)

It's the Way You Love Me

I've Finally Had Enough

 

Left Alone

Let Me Fly

Life Is Nothing But A Game

Lifetime Ride (August 27, 2013)

Long Gone (October 29, 2014)

Lost

Love

Love At First Sight

Love Me For Me

Love Me Forever and Always

 

Mary Jane (September 6, 2013)

Masked (November 25, 2012)

Maybe Someday (February 13, 2012)

Me and Him

Mother Moon

My Everything (September 27, 2014)

My Fucked Up Life

My Heart is True

My Love

My Promise to You (November 2, 2013)

My Scream

My Stand

 

Needing You

Never Asked For Much

Never Been So True

Never Gonna Be Enough (November 20, 2013)

Never Let Me Go (October 3, 2013)

New Daughter

Nightmare (July 23, 2013)

Nighttime Passion

No Games

No Night For A Kind Lover ;) (November 13, 2013)

No One Wants to Be Alone

Not Okay

Not the One

 

One Chance

Only You

Opened My Eyes

Our Broken Friendship

Our Destiny

Our Time is Up

Overwhelmed (August 16, 2013)

 

Pain

Perfect

Please Don't Leave Me

Please Talk to Me

Promise

 

Rage

Real

Ripped Me Apart

Roses

 

Scared

Shame

She Can't Get Enough

Silent Goodbye

Slowly Break and Die

So Tired of This Fight (September 21, 2014)

Sorrow

Split In Two

Stay

Stolen (June 4, 2013)

Stripping Away My Life

 

Take Me As I Am

Tell Him How I Feel

The Pain

The Painful Truth

To Blame

Together Forever

Tore Down My Defenses

True Love's Last Kiss

Two

 

Until I Drop

Use Me (February 17, 2012)

 

Valentine's Day

Vanishes

 

Walking Away (June 4, 2013)

Warped (February 23, 2012)

We'll Always Be Together

What Does Love Mean?

What I Lack

What You Mean to Me (February 11, 2013)

Where Do I Belong?

Who I Am!

Why?

Why Can't You See?

Why You?

Will You... (July 20, 2013)

Wishing

Wishing On A Shooting Star

With Love in His Eyes

Withing Your Chest

 

You

You

You Promise

You That I Seek

You Walked Away

You Won't Talk

You'll Always Be There (December 24, 2014)

Your Touch

You're All the Same

You're My...

You're On My Mind (April 18, 2011)

You're The... (October 3, 2014)

You're the Love of My Life (September 27, 2014)

You're the Only One 

 

A CONFESSION

I have a confession to make:

The words you spoke cut deep into my heart

I know I can't change your feelings

Now I don't know where to start

 

Though words of logic you speak

I can't change the way I feel

And I will respect your decision

But don't worry;

I'll heal

 

I look forward to seeing you

Though I'm too scared to say why

You make my heart beat faster

And then I'm all shy

 

I should have known at first sight

That you were too good for me

Your heart is the purest I've seen

And you hold every girl's key

 

You've got a great personality

And good looks didn't forget to stop by

I know this all sounds cheesy

But I've spoken not a single lie

 

A HUGE MISTAKE

Shoulders slumped

Head bowed

She hardly makes it through the day

Regretting every minute

Wishing she had of listened

Now she's lost something...

Something that can never be returned or found

She's hurt beyond repair now

Coldness seeps into her being

Her thoughts are heavy and clouded

Her life holds no meaning

She has no one to understand her...

No one to talk to...

Where could she begin?

Wait

There's a flicker of hope...

A thought of someone she can speak to

But there's a risk...

A risk of someone hating her...

A risk she'll have to take

Fear penetrates her mind...

Filling every pore of her body

Taking a deep breath

She makes her decision

She walks up to her Mom

Taking another deep breath

She spills everything

She's crying now

Sobbing uncontrollably

Her mother holds her

Patient, knowing, caring, always there

There's no hatred in her Mother's embrace;

She should have known better

What she did was wrong

But her Mother understands

Her Mother has been there, done that

She knows she must work hard now...

Work hard if she wants her Mother's trust again

But her Mother's still there...

Still there, and always will be

She made a huge mistake

But she'll pull through

She'll be okay again

Thanks to her Mother...

And her Mother only

 

AIN'T NO STOPPIN'

Every single tear

Every little drop

I see you smile

And my heart stops

 

Give me a chance

You won't regret

Try me on for size

I'll let you take a bet

 

So go ahead

And cut me open

This will never end

There ain't no stoppin'

ALREADY FLUTTERED AWAY

Wrapped in each other's arms

Not knowing what the other is thinking

Thoughts swirling

Worlds collidin

Auras merging

They stare deep into each others eyes

Searching for the light of the other's soul

There's a flicker in her eyes

But it's quickly gone and covered

He sighs and bites his lip

Thinking that maybe someday she will trust him

And open up completely

She sees the look on his face

And quickly tries to recapture the moment

But it's already fluttered away

ALWAYS AND FOREVER (DECEMBER 12-13, 2012)

Always and forever

I'll stand by your side

I promise I'll never let you go or leave you behind

 

My love for you will be stronger each day

I'll take your hand and ease your pains away

 

You can spend each day knowing you have my heart

I hope you know you made my life restart

 

My happiness with you can't be described

You take away the tears my eyes have ever cried

 

Always and forever

You'll hve my love

The angles have blessed us from above

 

Even if we have our fights

I know it's you I love at the end of the night

 

My life isn't exactly a fairytale

But you came along and put my pain up for sale

 

You lift me up and understand the best you can

And I know it's your side at which I stand

 

You came along like a candle in my dark

With just one smile

You completely stole my heart

 

Every time I look

And see you standing there

I finally realize just how much you care

 

Every minute we are apart

I go insane

My heart starts to race when I hear your name

 

Always and Forever

You'll have me for your own

I promise

You'll never be alone

 

You hold me close and chase my tears away

You drive me crazy

Each and every day

 

When you hold me tight

You take away all my fears

When you're gone

I'm wishing you were near

 

So, always and forever I'll stand by your side

I promise I'll never let you go or leave you behind

ALWAYS BELONGED TO HIM

My heart beats winthin his chest

My blood flows within his veins

My lips smile upon his face

My voice sings within his throat

My eyes cry within his soul

My arms long for his embrace

My body leaps for him to notice

My life has always belonged to him

ARE YOU HAPPY?

Are you happy you forgot me?

Are you happy I am gone?

Are you happy you have broken me?

Are you happy I am crying?

Are you happy you are no longer mine?

BABY

Baby, I miss you

Please come back home

It's way too cold

And I'm here all alone

 

Baby, I'm sorry

For all of your pain

I didn't see this coming

It'll never be the same

 

Baby, I love you

Please open up your eyes

I have a few regrets

But nothing was a lie

 

Baby, I need you

Please just hold me tight

I take all the blame

Just let me make this right

 

Baby, I want you

You're the only one for me

Just take my hand

For we were meant to be

 

Baby, I long for you

Each and every night

I think of all our memories

And hold them with all my might

 

Baby, I dream of you

Holding me so close

We are so far away

But ever so close

 

Baby, I pray for you

To be in my arms again

I'll never let you go

Not even in the end

 

Baby, I wish that you

Would look into my eyes and see

That I'll love you forever

I want just you and me

BABY BOY (APRIL 7, 2012)

Baby boy, you drive me crazy

When I'm with you there's no time to be lazy

 

I cherish every second spent with you

I love you more every day

You haven't got a clue

 

I go insane when we are apart

I feel like something is missing in my heart

 

But when I stand by your side

I forget about all the tears I've cried

 

And when you stand close and hold me

I had no idea of such serenity

 

I wanna spend forever in your life

And maybe someday become your wife

 

Baby boy, I'm going insane

My heart skips a beat when I hear your name

 

I worry all the time that I will disappoint you someday

But then you take all my fears away

 

So, baby, I'm begging you to never let me go

I'll love you always

More than you'll know 

BETRAYALS AND LIES

I see all the pain and fear in your eyes

From all the years of betrayals and lies

BLACK

Roses are red

Violets are blue

My heart is black

My soul is, too

BLINDED

I was blinded by your sweet, innocent face

But now you're nothing more than another heartbreak

BROKEN DOWN

All alone in the dark

I cry

I scream

I wish I'd die

 

You do not care about me

I'm in despair

 

So I take a blade

To get rid of all the pain I've made

 

Forgotten tears

Unknown fears

 

I hang my head low

My pain and anger cannot show

But by the end

I'm sure I'll blow

BROKEN HEARTED

Broken hearted

Drained

My soul is once again chained

CAN'T HELP BUT SMILE

Every time I see you

I can't help but smile

I haven't been this happy in a while

CONFUSED

I'm confused

Inside and out

I'm wondering why I don't pout

 

Feelings are bubbling to the top

I'm wondering when I'm gonna pop

 

Paper ready

Pencil in hand

I try to find words you'll understand

 

Can't you see what it is I lack?

What's turning my days pitch black?

CONSUMING (JUNE 4, 2013)

The need for your touch consumes me at night

Longing for your warmth

Knowing that we're right

 

As I lay down beside you

I dread morning because it'll come too soon

 

Every kiss you place on me

Opens my eyes and lets me see

 

The confusion in my eyes is plain to you

You're the only one who sees me so true

 

I hope that this moment will last

I don't want just memoried of a broken past

 

Knowing that you'll always be by my side

Makes my pain and sorrows take off and hide

CRUSH

When I first saw you

I felt so shy

I wanted to say something cute and smart

But only managed to say "Hi"

 

You're scuffed up shoes and faded blue jeans

Put a smile on my face

My crush on you grows each day

And I know why I'm held in place

 

My friends all say that you'd want me, too

But I'm too shy to approach you

 

Your shyness is endearing

And I love it

DEAR GOD

Dear GOD,

I don't now why I make so many mistakes.

It's like I'm cursed or destined to be a mistake and a regret to everyone who meets me.

I don't know why I push everyone away and build indestructible defenses.

I'm just tired of being hurt,

Surely everyone understands that..

I'm not perfec,

But I try so hard to please everyone and to be as perfect as possible.

But no one realizes how unhappy and lonely and scared I am.

I just want someone to love and accept me as I am.

I guess what I'm praying for is HOPE.

Hope for the future and the possibilities it holds.

Maybe one day I'll understand my purpose.

Maybe someday...

 

Amen

DECIEVE

I'm lost within myself

With no way out or in

I'm tangled in confusion

When will this end??

 

There's no way to save me

In thi terror that I weave

I just want out

Who am I trying to decieve?

DEEPER INTO MY HEART

You take my breath aay

With every move you make

When you take me by the hand

I know I'll never break

 

You treat me like a Princess

Like I've never been treated before

I'm beginning to fall deep

And soon you'll have my core

 

Every minute that I spend with you

You walk deeper into my heart

I know at times there's cause for doubt

But try to look at it as a new start

DEPRESSION

The tears come at every corner

Flowing swiftly and with ease

Her heart is turning into stone

Like a lonely, Winter breeze

 

Her family is getting worried

For the way she's shutting down

No more smiles, no more laughter

It's like her happiness is bound

DESPAIR

The pain in my heart

Can be seen in my eyes

There's a torture in my soul

That just can't be denied

 

The ache in my body

Doesn't ever go away

I can only lay here in despair

Day after day

DO YOU CARE? (FEBRUARY 8, 2012)

Don't you care at all?

Can't youo see what you're doing to me?

I gave you my heart and all of my love

It's tearing me apart, you see

 

Take the chains from my soul

Patch the tears in my heart

Hold my hand and keep me close

Make my end my start

 

Play with my emotions

Like you always seem to do

Lean in close and whisper words,

Lies that seem so true

 

Tears are streaming down my face

But you don't really care

I'm hiding in a corner

While you stand over there

 

You could help me

You really could

But you're always there

And never would

 

At first it seemed so perfect

But now I'm slowly dying

But you don't seem to care

Or hear the words I'm crying

DO YOU EVER...

Do you ever stand quietly

And watch as I sleep?

Dreaming my dreams

And praying my soul to keep

 

Do you ever bend gently

And place a kiss on my forehead?

Or do you smooth my hair back

And tuck me into bed?

 

Do you ever walk swiftly

To turn out the lights?

Or whisper, "I love you!"

Into the night?

 

Do you ever stand

Smiling down on me?

Brushing away fears

Or leaving me be?

 

Do you ever hold me

When you see I'm having a nightmare?

Do you ever wish

I knew how much you care?

 

Do you ever laugh

If I drool on my pillow?

Or sigh in contentment

If I look as peaceful as a willow?

DON'T LEAVE ME ALONE (APRIL 19, 2012)

If I had to go one day without seeing your face

My heart would fall apart and out of place

 

My hands would be empty and cold

My arms would have nothing to hold

 

So please don't make me go through that pain

I don't think I'd be able to stay sane

 

So while we are together, just hold me tight

And maybe one day, everything with be right

 

So, just sit back and let's close our eyes

Let's not worry or think of Goodbyes

 

Why don't we let our fantasies take us away

At least for a while, let's have our way

 

So, baby please don't leave me alone

Don't make me live on my own

 

I cn't stand the thought of leaving your side

I'm waiting for the day, that you make me your bride

 

So love me forever and always

Don't make me spend anymore lonely days

DON'T LEAVE ME TONIGHT

If you leave me tonight,

I'll wake up alone

Don't tell me I will make it on my own

Don't leave me tonight

This heart of stone will sing until it dies

If you leave me tonight

DON'T TAKE ME FOR GRANTED

I am not a perfect girl.

I am human, too and will fail you often.

I don't have hair that stays in place.

I don't always say the right things.

I don't have the body of a super model.

I am not quiet, calm, nor reserved.

I won't always like you.

I am a hypocrite.

I won't always agree with you.

I don't always want you to hold me.

I won't make it easy on you.

I might want flowers or candy.

I may love me.

Double standards prevail.

I want to hold your hand.

I contradict myself often.

I don't want to hear you lie to me.

Sometimes all I want is you to hold me close.

I won't change for you.

I don't believe in me.

Don't say you love me to get on my good side.

How can I be good to me, when you won't be?

All I ask is that you hug me.

Hnestly, I'm not a Princess, nor do I aspire to become one.

I'm sorry.

I'm shy.

Talk to me.

Be interested.

Be genuine.

I'm a bitch.

Compliments are taken to heart.

I hate you.

I want you.

I love you.

I'm sensitive.

What I say goes.

I am brutally honest more than likely.

I am smarter than you and you know it.

Kiss me.

Don't lie to me.

I cry.

Protect me.

When I say, "I don't care," I really do,

Chocolate, love letters and kisses are my weaknesses.

I love surprises.

I can see right through you.

I act tough, but I'm really not.

Tickles are a comfort.

Movies are great.

You don't have to fight or show off to impress me.

If I say that I'm okay, I'm really not.

Being held around the waist is a must.

I don't expect all these things from you, but some of them would be nice.

And most importantly...

Don't take me for granted or break my heart. <3

DON'T YOU DARE LEAVE ME BEHIND

If my hesitation to answer is long

Then know something is wrong

 

If my eyes start filling with tears

Please just hold me near

 

If I refuse to meet your eyes

Then my, "I'm okay" is really a lie

 

If my mouth is closed and my voice not heard

Then please comfort me by word

 

If my voice is quivering and begins to shake

Then you know it's my hand you need to take

 

If it looks like it's hard to breathe

Then your love is what I need

 

If it seems my heart is about to break

Then you should know my smile is fake

 

If there's despair written on my face

Then please rescue me from this place

 

If I'm lost in my own lttle world

You should know my thoughts and emotions are swirled

 

If it looks like I'm about to lose my mind

Then don't you dare leave me behind

DROWN

My fears

Soon turn to tears

 

Got to keep from falling deep

I take one giant leap

 

My tears are pouring down

I'll be lucky if I don't drown

EACH AND EVERY DAY

I wish you were here to wipe my tears away

I wish you were here each and every day

EMPTINESS

Sadness overwhelmed my body

As I saw you standing there;

My best friend

It was then that I realized

This has no end

 

This emptiness that fills me

Day after day after day

This has no end

Has no sway

 

Has no way of filling

For nothing will fill this void

This emptiness is already filled

With emptiness itself

For now, I feel like I've been toyed

END

I lay in bed

And not a word is said

 

But then he walks in

And my happiness runs thin

 

I know what's coming

So my blood starts running

 

Tears fill my eyes

Can they hear my cries?

 

I want this to end

Will my broken heart ever mend?

ENTRAPPED (FEBRUARY 7, 2012)

Your smile leaves me breathless

Your touch maes my heart race

The thought of you makes me shake

I'm no longer on safe base

 

I wake up every morning

And you're already on my mind

Wishing you could set me free

But life just isn't that kind

 

You're entrapped in the arms of another

And will never belong to me

Maybe I'll find my one, true love

And you won't be all I see

 

But for now I'll have to deal

With you on the other side

Hopeful wishing gets me nowhere

So I'll keep it bottled inside

 

If only love were simple

I wouldn't suffer everyday

But it's the hardest thing there is

And is always flying away

EVERYONE DESERVES THIS (DECEMBER 3, 2012)

To love and be loved is the most wonderful feeling in the world.

When you find someone who makes you feel complete and happy,

Hold on for all it's worth.

When that person can make your stress and worries melt away with only a smile or a hug,

You know you've done something right in finding them.

Everyone deserves to be loved for who they are.

To be picked up when they fall and to have someone always beside them,

Holding their hand and wiping away their tears.

To have someone who supports and backs you up no matter what.

We all deserve to be loved irrevocably and without any condions.

To have someone who completely understands when you need time,

But smart enough to help when they see you breaking apart.

Someone who looks at you as if it's the first time everyday,

With amazement in their eyes.

To wake up every morning in the arms of someone you would sacrifice anything for to make them happy,

Including your heart and life,

And know that they would do the same for you.

To fall more in love every time you look in their eyes.

We deserve someone who brings out the best in us and who makes us want to strive for perfection.

Someone who is perfectly content and happy to just hold you close and hear your heart beating in your chest.

Knowing that you have found the soulmate that GOD put on this earth for you, and you alone.

Everyone deserves someone to make them happy and to make them feel like the luckiest person in the world.

Everyone deserves to find True Love.

To know what it's like to be really in love and the wonderful feeling of being adored and loved in return.

Everyone deserves this....

FALL IN YOUR ARMS

Laying side by side

I lose myself in your eyes

Putting the past behind me

Of betrayal and lies

 

You're on of the few people

Who can actually make me smile

All I have to say is

That it's been a while

 

Excitement fills me

From just looking your way

I wish I could fall in your arms

Every day

FALLEN

I have fallen to the floor

I never knew love was a chore

Trusting you to keep me safe

You let me fall and made me break

FALLING APART

Tears of pain are flowing down my face

Pretty soon, all will be erased

 

Who knows what the future holds?

All I know is that you have turned me cold

 

It looks like all is broken now

But things will work out somehow

 

You still remain in my heart

But for now I'm falling apart

FALLING EVEN MORE

You've had me in your palm

Since we first locked eyes

Things moved so fast after that

And almost  six months have flown by

 

Shy glances and secret cuddles

Was just the beginning of you stealing my heart

I admite the frst few weeks were shady

But that's alrght, it was just the start

 

Everyday I am so amazed

That I am lucky enough to have you

You make me laugh and chase my fears away

And I'm falling even more madly in love with you

FALLING TO PIECES

I try to find myself.

I really do but I just can't.

I mean, it's hard because I always choose the wrong path and it brings me down harder than I already have.

I'm falling to pieces. I just don't think I can take anymore.

What if it destroys me?

FINAL GOODBYE

This is my final Goodbye

No more need to lie

 

You had a sick obession

So let this be your lesson

 

Every night I cried

But at least I can say I tried

When all you did was deny

FOREVER

You and me were meant to be

Forever can't you see?

Nothing less than destiny

Forever you and me

FORGOTTEN

I'm invisible

I am alone

I've been forgotten

I am unknown

"FUCK YOU!"

She sits down and stares at the cold floor

When someone walks in through the door

 

She looks up and shields her blue eyes

She's still so timid because of the lies

 

He comes over and holds her tight

He whispers in her ear all through the night.

 

When morning comes all covered in dew

She looks in his eyes to say, "Thank you"

 

But no ones in sight; she even looked around

Heart in her throat, she sinks to the ground

 

She should have known better, they never are true

All she can think now is to tell him "Fuck You!!

 

He avoids all her calls and forgets all their dates

Where in hell, came all this hate??

 

She starts to feel guilty; That she's to blame

She tried and she tried, but no forgiveness came

 

Hate starts in her heart and starts to boil

Timidness forgotten, she's stuck in a coil

FUCKED UP LIFE

I see the anger in your eyes

But I'm so scared to say Goodbye

Wondering why only I can hear the cried

You push and shove

You hit and yell

Se we scream and fight

Then you stomp away to end the night

We stay quiet for a couple days

Until the fire starts to blaze

The days go on but all gets worse

This family is just one big curse

The bruises grow

And the fear cannot show

Or he'll beat me until it no longer shows

So all I do is sit and sigh

Now tell me what's wrong

In this fucked up life

I'd like to cut my heart out with a knife

GONE

You say you want me dead

I'm sorry I'm a mess

You tell me I am worthless

I'm sorry I can't do anything right

You say I'm alone

I'm sorry but I still won't fight

So tonight I will make things right

I'll start from the top and go down the river and watch my blood flow like a water fall.

So I'll write your message on the wall:

 

I'm sorry but at least I made your wish come true!

Am I right?

Cause now I'm gone

 

 

 

 

GOODBYE

All the time that's passing

Is opening up my eyes

Letting me see you're betrayal

And all your stupid lies

You told me that you loved me

But you lied about that, too

The saddest part though

Was that I was in love with you

 

Now my eyes are open

And I'm no longer yours to claim

I belong to myself

I'll never be the same

Thanks for all the heartache

And the tears I never cried

Now it's time to say Goodbye

To you and all your lies

 

You opened up every opportunity

For me to find my one

You think that I'm the one who's lost

But guess what? I'm the one who won

So go ahead and say what you want

You will never hurt me again

You aren't worth my time

And I'm tired of this end

 

Now my eyes are open

And I'm no longer yours to claim

I belong to myself

I'll never be the same

Thanks for all the heartache

And the tears I never cried

Now it's time to say Goodbye

To you and all your lies

 

I'm tired of all your games

So now I'm leaving you

I hope you realize someday

That I was the one who remained true

I've got a smile on my face now

As I finally walk away

Time for me to move on

It's time for me to live my way

 

Now my eyes are open

And I'm no longer yours to claim

I belong to myself

I'll never be the same

Thanks for all the heartache

And the tears I never cried

Now it's time to say Goodbye

To you and all your lies

 

Oh, oh, oh

Goodbye, Goodbye...

 

 

GROWING APART

It feels like we are growing apart

And the distance is tearing a hole in my heart

 

I don't know what to say to make things right

My tears cascade in the lonely night

HE'LL NEVER KNOW

I love him

But he'll never know

Because...

I fear him, too

HELD TO THE GROUND

When I look at you

My heart begins to pound

Your eyes find mine

And I'm held to the ground

HELP ME

Help me through these thoughts of mine

Help me find the fine line

Help me when I ask you to

Help me when I'm needing through

Help me with no answers needed

Help me when I've all but bleeded

Help me when you see my pain

Help me like you're not the same

Help me with all you can

Help me with your healing hand

Help me with no blaming words

Help me by understanding how much I hurt

Help me when all hope is gone

Help me without the words, "You're wrong!"

Help me through the suicide

Help me with what's going on inside

Help me like nobody else

Help me find my missing self

Help me through when all is lost

Help me find life's true cost

Help me on my rainy days

Help me with the words, "It'll be okay"

Help me through these trying times

Help me find what's truly mine

Help me with the pain inside

Help me by finding where I hide

Help me fnd my meaning

Help me when you see me bleeding

HIGH SCHOOL

We fight

We talk

We get mad

And we walk

 

Smile today

Cry tomorrow

Keep on living

Don't let into some sorrow

 

We make enemies

We make friends

We find some guys

Who won't be there in the end

 

Don't do homework

You're gonna fail

Do your homework

You've got good mail

 

You find a guy

But he turns his back

Girl, you're alive

Don't have an attack

HIM

All I've ever wanted is to see his face

Recognize him

Cherish the sight of him

To whisper his name softly in surprise

To be filled with fear and sadness and happiness beyond belief

I just want to know that he's still out there

Living his life to the fullest

Yet I still hope that a part of him misses me

As much as I miss him

I want this wound in my heart to heal

But I want him to be happy

I want to feel relief again

Yet I don't want to forget his face

Or any moment I had spent with him

I want to be able to look at another guy again

But somehow I know it will never be the same

HIS SMILE

His smile is the reason

My blood flows

 

HOW AND WHY

How can one be broken into a million?

How can one heart be hurt so much?

Why can't the heart be put to rest?

Why isn't this all enough?

I CAN'T TAKE THIS ANYMORE

I can't take this anymore

Someone shut the front door

 

I'm begining to lose my mind

I've got no one being kind

 

I really miss my friends

This horror never ends

 

My thought I can't control

I can't even find my soul

 

I just want to be stress-free

But anxiety is always with me

 

I'm feeling insecure

My life is a never-ending horror

 

My feelings are running wild

And I'm feeling like a new born child

 

I'm mad and hurt beyond belief

All I really want is a little relief

 

My heart is breaking inside

The tears are so hard to hide

 

I can't sleep at night

I don't know what's right

 

My parents don't even understand

I just want to hold a helping hand

 

I'm hiding behind a smile

My life is like a too long mile

 

I can't take it anymore

Someone shut the front door

 

If only you would care

I'd be so willing to share

 

The whole story of my life

This is as sharp as a knife

 

I don't know what to think

My life is missing an important link

I DON'T KNOW

 

You make me break into a smile

With a simple memory

Too bad you're not here to stay

For now and eternity

 

You walk away

Head held low

I almost cry

As I watch you go

 

My heart aches and throbs with longing

And it's quite clear who it's for

I sit back and start the long wait

For who knows when you'll walk back through that door?

 

One sweet kiss

Is all it takes

It just makes me wonder

Was it all a big mistake?

 

I don't want it to be

Don't get me wrong

But I'm still hurt from the last one

And his stupid love song

 

I don't know what will happen

If anything at all

I don't know who we'll meet

But for you my heart screams its call

 

Two sweet kisses is all we shared

But my lips still burn with fire

If only I knew what went on in that head

Who it is you truly desire

 

You once asked me what was on my mind

And I answered with a simple reply

"I don't know," is what I said

But it was, of course, a lie

 

"Kiss me, you thick-headed male!"

That is what went through my head

With this I think I will find a close

And lay down in an ice cold bed

I DON'T UNDERSTAND

Why can't I get it right?

Why does everything go wrong?

I don't understand it

What is it that I long?

 

I thought everything was going great

But then it all rushed down

I don't understand it

Why can't my life be sound?

 

I just want to be content

And have my life be serene

But every time I turn around

I have somone being mean

 

I wish I were stress-free

But I can't do anything right

My thoughts haunt me

And keeps me up at night

 

My life is complicated

And I'm confused all the time

I wish my life was happy

And that everything was fine

(I HOPE)

Why does everyone tell lies?

I don't know Hello from Goodbye

 

I'm tired of this shit

Just let me take the freaking hit

 

Stop trying to protect me

Just let me be

 

Please I beg of you

Stop trying to act true

 

Everyone told me that I was being used

But I didn't want that to be the truth

 

Sure the sex was great

But the opposite of love isn't hate

 

I can't take this shit anymore

My tears are falling to the floor

 

Go ahead and act like you care

But you were never there

 

I don't know what to think

Everything changes with a blink

 

Please forgive me if I'm wrong

But I've loved you all along

 

And now I can't even talk to him

It's my fault... It's not them

 

I don't know what else to say

But I know this pain will never go away

 

Please forgive me for everything

But I need to figure out some things

 

I'm so confused and lost

But nothing comes without a cost

 

There's nothing else to say

Things will be better someday

 

(I hope)

I JUST WANT TO REST (MAY 20, 2013)

I didn't think it would hurt this much

To know that I'll never truly be enough

Knowing that you could fall for another

Was enough to rip our hearts from each other

 

Waking up at night, without you by my side

Going through each day, not knowing if I'll be alright

 

Trying to stay busy, without you onmy mind

My heart stays with you and it's hard to find

 

Fighting back tears all through the day

Wishing you were by my side and that you'd never go away

 

My heart is broken and shattered in my chest

I don't want to keep going, I just want to rest

 

I can't go on without you in my life

My heart shoud be cut out with a knfe

 

I just don't want to feel this pain anymore

I know that I love you to my very core

I LOVE THE WAY YOU...

I love the way you smile

And the way you look at me

But there's just one thing I wonder

What is it that you see?

 

I love the way you hold me close

And look deep into my eyes

I love the way you laugh

And the way you gently sigh

 

I love the way you make me feel

When we sit and talk together

I love the way you love me

And never say forever

 

I love the way you take some risks

And give me that sideways glance

I love the way you kiss my lips

And offer me my chance

 

I love the way you whisper my name

Like it's sacred to your lips

I love the way you walk

And the way you bump me with your hips

 

I love the way you talk

And the way you roll your eyes

I love your facial expressions

As I catch you by surprise

 

I love the way you give me hope

By giving me some light

I love the way you say I'm wrong

But that we are always right

 

I love the way you share with me

Every secret and lie

I love the way you save me

From every tear I cry

 

I love the way you stroke my cheeks

And the way you stole my heart

I love the way you keep the past away

And give me a fresh new start

 

I love how you're a mystery

With every different piece

I love the way you treat me

Like we're Beauty and the Beast

 

I love the way you hold my hands

And whisper softly in my ear

I love everything about you

And the fact that you're always near

 

I love the way you make me laugh

When I'm about to cry

I even love your name

And how you never say Goodbye

 

Maybe I'm stupid or naive

But I think you really care

Cause every time I've needed you

You were always there

I don't know what to do or say

But for now I know I'm scared

I LOVE YOU

I love you

Do you love me, too?

If you do not

I will be blue

 

I do not care

What you say

And no you can't

Send me away

 

Can't sleep at night

Cry all day

If only you were here

Just a moment to stay

 

Now I do

Care what you say

And if you wish

I will go away

 

I just wanted you to know

That I love you

And am only wishing

That you love me, too

I LOVE YOU

I told you I love you -

You broke my heart

But even worse

You tore me apart

I LOVED...

I loved the way you looked at me

I loved the way you smiled

I loved the way you talked to me

Like I was the only thing that mattered

I loved the way you kissed me

And gently carrassed my cheeks

I loved the way you made me feel

When we were together

I loved the way you knew me so well

And knew when I was lying

When you looked at me

And whispered softly, "Liar"

I loved the way you did

What you knew you weren't supposed to

I loved the way you

Walked down the halls

And came straight to me

I loved the way you paid attention to me

How you gave me your undivided attention

I loved the way you whispered my name

Like it was sacred to your lips

I loved how you never looked at another girl

I loved the way you smelled

I loved how you were mysterious

With a smile always tugging at your lips

I loved the way you rolled your eyes

And the way you always talked to me

I loved the way you included me in everything

Even when others disagreed

I loved it when you shared your secrets

And teased me with your smile

I loved the way you held me

Like you'd never let me go

I loved the way you held my hand

And listened to only me

I loved how you were always kind

And never had any worries

I loved the way you made me feel

When you looked deep into my eyes

I loved the way you never left me waiting

Or ever kept me hanging

I loved the way you saved me

From every tear I've cried

I loved the way you never let me down

I loved the way you made me happy

Even on my worst days

I loved the way you spoke to me

Like I was the only one you trusted

I loved the way you treated me

Like I was a Princess

I loved the way you made me laugh

When I was about to cry

I loved the way

You never said Goodbye

I loved the way you swept me into your arms

And kissed my lips in greeting

I loved the way you tricked me

Into falling into you

And how you promised me

With secret kisses

And words of the sweetest kind

I NEED TO KNOW YOU CARE

Why can't we be friends?

I promise I'll be there till the end

 

Please give me one more chance to make it right

I need you in my life because you're my light

 

I really miss your friendship

I feel like I've been hit

 

 I miss our whispered conversations

And our old relations

 

I'm sorry I let you down

I swear I need you around

 

I don't know what went wrong

But let me sing you my song

 

Please let us be friends again

I swear it won't be like then

 

I need you in my life I swear

I just need to know you care

 

You were once like a sister to me

And only you can set me free

 

Our broken friendship makes me cry

I swear to you this isn't a lie

 

It tore a hole in my heart

To watch you leave me in the dark

 

I don't know what to do or say

I just want you to be here to stay

 

I need you for a sister's hug

So I can annoy you like a bug

 

I want you to comfort me when I cry

I never want to hear you say Goodbye

 

I want to share everything with you

Just like we used to

 

I miss our fun sleepovers

I wish we were as tight as a two-leafed clover

 

I wish we could talk just like best friends

I just want to know you're here till the end

 

I need you in my life I swear

I need to know that you really care

I NEED YOU (APRIL 19, 2011)

My heart reaches out

To you next to me

Holding the one thing

To set me free

 

If I can still you smile

And burst into laughter

Is this what I've always wanted?

Is this my Happily Ever After?

 

You entertain my every thought

And make my heart beat loudly

You make the days flash by

And at night I sleep so soundly

 

Day by day, you fill my thoughts

And night by night, you're in my dreams

I need you more than ever now

For I need to be redeemed

 

I need you for strength

And to keep my spirits high

I think I can trust you more than anybody

But please don't break me with a lie

 

You seem to be so real

And you seem to be so true

I need you more than ever

I need to be with you

 

Why can't you hear my anguished screams

For you to come rescue me?

I wish you'd hurry up

And use my heart's loving key

 

You need to understand

Exactly what it is you hold

I still need you desperately

But you need to be told

 

You hold my entire life

Right there in that key

You hold all of my heartache

And the very core of me

 

So please use it wisely

And know I really need you

So please don't use it against me

Please turn out to be true

 

I PROMISE YOU

I promise you commitment, love and loyalty like you have never had before.

I offer you my entire heart, body, and soul.

This is more than just a promise.

It is a promise of eternal commitment.

This is my promise to you and you alone forever.

It means I will stand by your side and support you in all of your dremas and goals.

I promise to stay loyal to you always.

My heart is unchained and the key is in your hand.

I THANK GOD

Smiling like an idiot when I see you headed my way

I thank GOD you're in my life each and every day

I WILL LOVE YOU LIKE NO OTHER

I may be heartbroken or silly.

I may talk too much about random stuff.

I may try too hard to make you laugh.

I may not always be perfect.

I may look deep into your eyes and pray to Heaven and back that you'll grab me and kiss me like you mean forever.

I may text you at a bad time.

I may get jealous even thought there's really no need.

I may think and dream about you all the time.

But one thing I am a thousand...

No, a MILLION...

Percent positive about, is that if you make me yours forever, I will give you the moon.

I will move mountains t make you smile.

I will love you like there's no tomorrow...

I will love you like no other.

Trust me on this... XD

I WISH (APRIL 20, 2011)

I wish you could feel

The happiness you cause

How my heart beats

How you break all the laws

 

You don't see to be

Like all the other guys

You act like you're you

And don't fill girls full of lies

 

I wish you could feel

How you make my heart flutter

How you save my whole life

From despairing in the gutter

 

You make my cheeks blush

And go a bright red

Just a smile in my direction

Is all that you've said

 

I glance over at you

And try not to be shy

I giggle at everything

And my spirtits fly high

 

I wish you could know

Exactly how you make me feel

And that just looking at you

Makes my heart heal

 

You close up the wounds

That cause all my pain

You make me feel special

And not my usual lame

 

I wish you could hear

All my thoughts about you

How you make my days colorful

Instead of just blue

 

I'm smiling again

And my heart beats a new tune

One filled with joy

I hope you don't leave anytime soon

 

The only hope now

Is seeing you again

I just wish you could hear

How you've made my heart sing

 

My memories of you

Stay fresh and clear

I wish you could feel

How I feel when you're near

 

Just wait until next time

Whenever that is

I wish you could stay

But you've left with a kiss

 

IF...

If you could change one thing about me

What would it be?

If you had the opportunity

Would you spend your life with me?

IF ONLY...

The love of my life is him...

If only he knew it

I'LL DO ANYTHING TO KEEP YOU BY MY SIDE

Following every word that you say

I find it hard to break away

You had my heart from the moment you said, "Hello."

I don't ever want to let you go

You're everything to me

I don't want to set you free

You're perfect to me

You're everything I need

And when you stare into my eyes

I'm scared you'll say Goodbye

I'll do anything to keep you by my side

I'M BEGGING YOU

You hurt me

You said that you loved me

But I know it's all a lie

Wishing you were here

I want you to hold me tight and whisper, "I love you" in my ar

And make it sincere

So I know your heart is true

I hate the fights

I hate the words

So please come back and take away all this fear

And I'm begging you

Please put my heart back together

And never break it again

I love you

I'M GOING TO LET YOU

I'm going to let you make me feel good, take every look, wink, smile, warm embrace, tender touch, and loving moment.

I'm going to let you show me that I am special and I'm going to learn to accept it as it is.

I'm going to show you the way I feel by letting you in.

I'm going to let you make me feel of worth and believe in it.

Because I don't want to wake up and realize it's too late.

I'M HANGING ON BY JUST A THREAD

I'm hanging on by just a thread

I don't know how long I'll last

Before I break

My whole life's at stake

I fell in love with you

I thought you were so true

But now I see I'm just a fool

I'm hanging on by just a thread

 

Isn't it funny how nobody knows

Or even cares

Until you're long gone?

A whisper in the wind

It seems like only memories are

Cherished and loved

I wish I were a memory

And that you were the only key

To loving me

And caring

For all of eternity

 

I'm hanging on by just a thread

I don't know how long I'll last

Before I break

My whole life's at stake

I fell in love with you

I thought you were so true

But now I see I'm just a fool

I'm hanging on by just a thread

 

Stress and anxiety are all that I know

It's all too much

For just a teenage girl

Nobody understands

Nobody cares

I've gotten to the point

That I find no meaning

At all to my entire being

I'm frightened and alone

Got no place to call home

Feeling as small as can be

I barely get a glance

Let alone a second chance

 

I'm hanging on by just a thread

I don't know how long I'll last

Before I break

My whole life's at stake

I fell in love with you

I thought you were so true

But now I see I'm just a fool

I'm hanging on by just a thread

 

I've got problems with my parents

Who don't even care

My feelings are thoughts

I can't even share

Depression sneaks up on me

Like an old, forgotten friend

I've got no choice

But to let it in

School's another issue

Got people holding grudges

I can't walk down the halls

Without getting ridiculed

Only got a few true friends

All the others have to pretend

 

I'm hanging on by just a thread

I don't know how long I'll last

Before I break

My whole life's at stake

I fell in love with you

I thought you were so true

But now I see I'm just a fool

I'm hanging on by just a thread

 

My thoughts are hard to think

My heart is feeling heavy

I get sick to my stomach

With a nice fever to go along

Almost everyday

My head is always hurting

I'm exhausted all the time

I've got no one to talk to

No one to lean on

Life holds no more meaning

Not a single little spark

I've got no end in sight

Other than a lonely life

I sit here like a loner

Cause torture fills my eyes

Nobody understands

Cause they don't want to know the reason why

 

I'm hanging on by just a thread

I don't know how long I'll last

Before I break

My whole life's at stake

I fell in love with you

I thought you were so true

But now I see I'm just a fool

I'm hanging on by just a thread

 

I'm crying all the time

When I don't even know why

I'm looking for explanations

But coming up empty handed

Running into dead ends

I'm walking aimlessly about

Not knowing where to go

I'm trying to go unnoticed

Trying to hang real low

I just want some understanding

And a little support, too

 

I'm hanging on by just a thread

I don't know how long I'll last

Before I break

My whole life's at stake

I fell in love with you

I thought you were so true

But now I see I'm just a fool

I'm hanging on by just a thread

 

I'm beginning to give up

Got nothing left to give

Everyone ignores me

And gives me dirty looks

Nobody cares what happens to me

I don't know where I want to be

I'm heading downhill

I haven't a clue where I'm gonna land

I'm treading on thin ice

I don't know if I'm even gonna make it

I have a heavy heart

But it's filled with so much love

I'm afraid

But not of loving

I'm afraid of not being loved

No one seems to understand this

They don't think of me as a person

But as a pest, an abomination

They don't understand

So they shouldn't be making judgements

Unless they have walked through my shoes

 

I'm hanging on by just a thread

I don't know how long I'll last

Before I break

My whole life's at stake

I fell in love with you

I thought you were so true

But now I see I'm just a fool

I'm hanging on by just a thread

 

I'm so very lonely

But I hate to admit it

I feel like a huge mistake

And that I can't do anything right

I just don't know what to do

Or who to turn to

I wish that people would understand me

But they don't

And I don't know if they ever will

Writing is all that I have

But people don't bother to read it

Then you walked into my life

And shed me some light

I'm confused

And I don't understand

Why you would have chosen me

To share with

But now that you're gone

I understand so much more

Now that you're gone

I've been set free

You didn't want me

For me

Did you?

You just wanted what you wanted

But now that you're gone

I can finally relax

I can finally stop fighting

Everyone around me

I'm so very sorry for the way

I treated everyone I love

Because of you

I thought it was you who I wanted

Needed

But now I see that I was wrong

Now that you're gone

I can finally think

And smile

And laugh

And talk freely with the ones I love

And all that I needed

Was you to be gone

Now that you're gone

I can actually be happy

You were the one

Who was keeping me from life

Youstole my heart

So now I'm gonna steal it back

Because you don't deserve

What my heart holds in it

I thought you were the greatest thing in the world

But I was sadly mistaken

 

I'm hanging on by just a thread

I don't know how long I'll last

Before I break

My whole life's at stake

I fell in love with you

I thought you were so true

But now I see I'm just a fool

I'm hanging on by just a thread

 

You never said you'd wait for me

Or that you would always be there

But you said enough

To make me think you cared

Now you've screwed me over

And I see with clearer eyes

All you wanted was a girl

To stand by your side

And do what you knew we shouldn't

I just want to thank you

For opening up my eyes

Now I can see your betrayal

And all your stupid lies

Now that you're gone

I enjoy life

I thought you really cared

But now I see you were really fake

Well, guess what?

I'm over you and your lies

You led me into your trap

With false words

And teasing eyes

I'm letting you go now

And I never want to see you again

There will always be a place for you in my heart

But it won't be big

You did the unforgivable

But yet I still forgive you

I just wanted you to know that you hurt me

And that I'm over all your lies

 

I was hanging on by just a thread

I didn't know how long I'd last

Before I broke

My whole life was at stake

I fell in love with you

I thought you were so true

But now I see I'm just a fool

I was hanging on by just a thread

But now I have my life back

I'M HERE TO STAY

I know that you're scared to let someone in

And that terrifies me to no end

I just wish that you'd realize I'm here to stay

And I'll love you forever and a day

I know words don't matter, but actions do

If only you knew how locked my heart is, too

I'M SO VERY SORRY

I know I've treated you wrong

But I'm trying to make it right

 

I feel really bad

But I think I see the light

 

I feel it really close

And can sometimes glimpse the bright

 

Though it's never within reach

I still try with all my might

 

I know I've treated you wrong

But I'm trying to make it right

 

I'm so very sorry

For putting you in this fight

INSIDE

My heart races for only you.

It sits in my chest,

Fluttering like a bird at just the sight of you.

And as you get closer,

As I'm drawn to you like a magnet,

My heart beats rapidly in anticipation.

It races and pounds and sends butterflies permeating through my blood stream.

They scatter and fly throughout me,

Paralyzing me to the spot.

As you trace my skin with your fingertips,

I get electric shocks in currents through my body.

The sound of your voice saying my name sends my heart beat into a frenzy.

It doesn't matter how many mornings I wake up beside you,

You still make my heart race.

It must be love!

IT MUST BE LOVE (JULY 16, 2013)

My heart races for only you.

It sits in my chest,

Fluttering like a bird at just the sight of you.

And as you get closer,

As I'm drawn to you like a magnet,

My heart beats rapidly in anticipation.

It races and pounds and sends butterflies permeating through my blood stream.

They scatter and fly throughout me,

Paralyzing me to the spot.

As you trace my skin with your fingertips,

I get electric shocks in currents through my body.

The sound of your voice saying my name sends my heart beat into a frenzy.

It doesn't matter how many mornings I wake up beside you,

You still make my heart race.

It must be love!

IT'S THE WAY YOU LOVE ME

It's the way you love me

It's the way... It's the way

You love me

A love like no other

Without you

I'd be just another girl

A whisper long forgotten in the wind

 

I wouldn't know who I am

Without you here to tell me

Then there you are

Taking my hand

And guiding me through life

In the darkening, dead night

The only star in the sky

Hanging there just for me

 

It's the way you love me

A love like no other

Without you

I'd be just another girl

A whisper long forgotten in the wind

I'VE FINALLY HAD ENOUGH

I didn't now that it would hurt this much

To say that I've finally had enough

Tears threaten at every turn

And it's your touch for which I yearn

LEFT ALONE

Left alone in the dark

Crying... Bleeding from the heart

My sister hates my freaking guts

Tumbling... Spinning like a klutz

LET ME FLY

My broken wings

They cannot fly

One last time

I wish to soar

The open sky

Let me fly

Like a bird

Instead of dying

Like a butterfly

LIFE IS NOTHING BUT A GAME

You've been let down

You've been let down

By every soul you've come around

You can't get out

You can't get out

Of these never ending, killing thoughts

They crawl inside your head like a demon posessing the undead

Your white sleeves bleed through

You say no one understands your pain

But I feel the same

Life is nothing but a game

It always ends the same

The fear just seems to gain

You feel nothing but the pain

With not self control, you lost your soul

But who's to blame?

You feel ashamed to show who you really are

Just run that extra yard

Be that wild card

You dream of being free but then you look at me

And say it just wasn't meant to be

So take my hand

Take my hand

I'll show you that I understand

LIFETIME RIDE (AUGUST 27, 2013)

What's there to fear

When you have me by your side?

What's there to be afraid of

If you never have to worry about Goodbye?

 

So please don't be afraid, my love

I'll take you by the hand

My arms are open for only you

And I'll always understand

 

My love for you has no limits

I'm here for your every need

I'll protect you with everything I can

And for that you'll never bleed

 

I'm always gonna be here

For your every worry and fear

And when things seem too much

I'll simply hold you near

 

When you feel yourself start to pull away

That's when you need me most

So please, my love, just trust me

Don't be afraid to let me too close

 

No matter what your worries are

I'll always be by your side

You can always open up to me

So just hold on for this lifetime ride

LONG GONE (OCTOBER 29, 2014)

Who am I to think,

That you could possibly love me?

I'll never be good enough,

It's plain to see.

 

I've given you plenty of chances.

Do you even care?

You keep repeating your mistakes,

And expecting me to always be there.

 

Well, I hope you're happy now,

Because I'm saying Goodbye.

You promised to never hurt me,

But I guess that was a lie.

 

I gave my everything to you,

But you wanted even more.

My feelings mean nothing to you,

So I'm walking out the door.

 

You're the only oneI've truly loved,

And you threw it in my face.

I can't take anymore of this pain.

I never really belonged in this place.

 

You gave me hope and made me believe again,

And even made me smile.

But I'll never truly be enough.

I'm guessing you've known for a while.

 

You had my heart but shattered it to pieces,

Maybe that was your plan all along.

I love you with everything I have,

But soon I'll be long gone. 

LOST

I've lost track of time

I got lost in your eyes

You brought plenty of fears

And multiple tears

LOVE

Love is like a memory that can never be erased.

I find it hard not to think of you when you're always on my mind

And every time I run away, I find myself still in your arms

I don't know why I'm stil with you when you always break my heart.

LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT

Well you know that little thing called Love at First Sight?

Yeah, that.

I never believed in such a thing until I met him.

The one who became the sunshine to my rain

I didn't know I could ever feel so strongly about someone,

Especially in a world like this.

But who can ever stop their feelings?

Because I certainly can't...

LOVE ME FOR ME

All I've ever wanted is someone to love me for me.

Not because of my looks or my body or for what other people say about me.

I am a human being.

NOT a toy.

Please don not pretend to care.

Please do not lie, steal, cheat, or use me in any way.

Thanks. 

MARY JANE (SEPTEMBER 6, 2013)

Oh, Mary Jane you taste so nice

When your smoke enters my lungs I feel so high

You take me stress away and ease me down

As you go from hand to hand, getting passed around

You burn so fast so we load you again

I feel so good, I don't care if you're a sin

Oh, Mary Jane you're always there for me

There's so much smoke, no way to see

The feelings you give are sublime

I just want to smoke you, time after time

MASKED (NOVEMBER 25, 2012)

In a world like this, no one ACTUALLY cares who you are, what your dreams are, the struggles you've been through, or where life is going to take you.

They only care about themselves.

And when someone asks, "Are you okay?" they don't really want an answer.

People are only nice to others to put up a good front.

No one cares about anybody anymore.

Everyone is masked, at least to an extent.

But if everyone were to take off those masks and be truthful with themselves and others,

The world would be a much better place.

MAYBE SOMEDAY (FEBRUARY 13, 2012)

Looking at you I feel my pulse quicken

My body lights with ice and fire

Ice for the sorrow of us not together

And the heat for my intense desire

 

My breath comes in jagged puffs

In the ice cold, Winter air

But I'm alive with warmth

As you tell me that you care

 

But looking in your eyes, I feel pain

Because I know we will never be

Valentine's Day holds tears

As I realize you'll never belong to me

 

I try to think positive

As you kiss my lips and hold me tight

But this is just a tease, I know

But, OH! It feels so right

 

Holding back tears when you're around

I crash and break when you're away

The tears stream and slowly stop

As you tell me, "Maybe someday!"

 

ME AND HIM

I tick. He tocks.

My heart beats. His is a clock.

 

I'm set to sorrow. He's set to cry.

I say Hello. He says Goodbye.

 

My heart breaks. His does, too.

My eyes cry. He's all blue.

 

I feel sad. He feels sorrow.

I hurt today. He waits for tomorrow.

 

I fall down. He breaks apart.

I'll love him forever. He's had me from the start.

 

My heart cries out. His cries within.

My blood says Yang. His screams Yin.

 

My veins sing. He starts to shiver.

I hold his close. His body begins to quiver.

 

 

MOTHER MOON

Oh, Mother Moon, only a crescent

Yet still lighting the right path in the sky

Dawn peeks over the horizon

And it's time for a sad Goodbye

 

A little girl watches from her window

And a single tear rolls down her cheek

For the moon was her only companion

That forever she had seeked

 

Miles away, a horse calls out

To the moon that was also his friend

The moon reappears, shining and twinkling

To prove that she has no end

MY EVERYTHING (SEPTEMBER 27, 2014)

You're the smile on my face,

The love in my heart,

The thoughts in my mind,

The kisses on my lips.

You're my Prince Charming.

My hero.

My heart.

My best friend.

My entire world.

My soulmate.

My rock.

My problem solver.

My fear chaser.

My love.

My passion.

My life.

My temptation.

MY EVERYTHING!

You're the Love of my Life.

MY FUCKED UP LIFE

On the top I tried to stay,

But every time I was knocked away.

 

Lonely and sad, I wandered on.

Wishing for someone to just lean on.

 

Years flew by, and still no rest.

Was this a joke or some big test?

 

I entered High School with a new goal.

I just wanted to get out alive and whole.

 

My heart was broken multiple times.

I never broke theirs, it was always mine.

 

I tried and I tried to keep my smile.

To just go the extra mile.

 

I kept myself fly,

And tried the new high.

 

Emotions ran wild.

I was just like a child.

 

I cried and I cried.

No matter how I tried.

 

I threw myself in danger.

Fell in love with a stranger.

 

Don't even know where it started,

But I came out broken hearted.

 

Molested as a child, I was left scared.

Verbally abused, I was then bared.

 

I feared everything I saw.

Mainly myself and the law.

 

I wanted to live, I wanted to flee.

But somehow I knew I'd never be free.

 

Then to Morenci I moved and tried again.

Little did I know, my suffering would end.

 

At first I wanted to rebel.

I wanted to fight and yell.

 

MY HEART IS TRUE

I love you and my heart is true, but how can someone so special like you ever be with someone like me? So when you go please let me know and don't forget these words: "My heart is now and forever yours."

MY LOVE

My love is never ending

It goes to the end of time

It'll never stop

Not even with this rhyme

 

My love is like all time

It goes on forever

It will completely cover you

Me and my friends together

 

My love is like a giant tree

Reaching out to sweep the ground

It's got branches that are countless

And love is all around

 

My love is like the ocean

You might get lost at sea

It will go on forever

All you'll see is me

 

My love is like a kite

Soaring through the air

Flying with the wind

Letting you know I care

 

My love is like a smile

Always warming up your heart

It'll be there when you need it

Never at the end, always at the start

 

My love is like chocolate

Comforting and sweet

It'll make you feel good

Make you cool when you over heat

 

My love is like a river

Always trailing through the states

For indifference is the opposite of love

It isn't hate

 

My love is always here

It'll be here forever

Never gonna leave until it finds its match

And they wind up together

 

That's my love

And it will never end

For my love is yours

My very best friend

 

MY PROMISE TO YOU (NOVEMBER 2, 2013)

I promise to always lift you up when you are feeling down.

I promise to wipe your tears when you feel you need to cry.

I promse to keep you smiling, to show off that beautiful smile you have.

I promise to be your strength whenever you fall weak.

I promise to be your voice when you can't find the words.

I promise to be your eyes when you cannot see.

I promise to be your ears when you cannot hear.

I promise to always tell you what's real when you want to hear the truth.

I promise to be your dream catcher, to chase away your every fear.

I promise to be your smile when you're frowning.

I promise to always cheer you up when you are down and blue.

I promise to give you faith when you are feeling insecure.

I promise to keep you sturdy when you are feeling unsafe.

I promise to listen when you need to talk.

I promise to tell you no lies, just what is true.

I promise to always lend you my shoulder for when you need to cry.

I promise to always hold you when you need someone.

I promise to always care for you wherever you are.

I promise to always be there.

I promise to never hurt you and to never break your heart.

I can't promise you the world.

I can't promise you the sky.

I can't promise you that we will never fight.

I can't promise you that I will never cry.

But I can promise you that I will always be true to you.

And baby I promise that I will always love you more than anything, with all my heart.

No matter what happens or what we go through,

Baby I'll love you until the end of time.

That's my promise to you!!

MY SCREAM

Outside I seem alright

But inside's a raging war

My heart is hurting ever bad

And my mind's a living sore

 

You look at me and smile

And pretend to understand

But I see behind your mask

And your outstretched hand

 

You don't see me crying

Or feel my tortured pain

You say that you're different

But I know you're all the same

 

I wish someone would here my scream

That I need help breaking through

But you don't seem to care enough

To focus on anyone that's not you

 

I wish someone would understand

And come sit down by my side

To hold my hand and hug me

And say that I don't need to hide

 

But then again, I don't need you

I'll make it through alone

For I'm not very trusting

I hide out at my home

 

I'll just sit down and scream my wish

I'll scream it loud and clear

I'll scream for understanding

And for someone to stand near

 

Don't you hear the words I say?

The words I'm screaming out

My scream is being scattered

And being thrown about

 

I don't know why

I'm so hard to care for

I'm a person just like everyone else

But I'm the one thrown to the floor

MY STAND

I was struggling up the steep cliff sife

When I heard a voice say run and hide

 

At first I didn't understand

The voice persisted and yanked my hand

 

I stumbled down to the cliff floor

And was confused to see an open door

 

But when I tried to go through

The voice said, "No can do"

 

Ar first I thought you were having a laugh

Until I saw the broken graph

 

Everyone's name was in on the scene

But my senses hadn't been that keen

 

I was alone, back at the start

With nothing but my broken heart

 

I tried to go on like nothing was wrong

But no one could see my heart was long gone

 

I stopped for a minute to catch my breath

But in that instance happened death

 

Why couldn't I get a little break?

You put my heart at the stake

 

Ice crept into my lonely soul

And I started shaking with no control

 

I sat at the start for such a long time

Waiting for someone to carry me over the line

 

But that's not how this race works

I just have to get over the hurt

 

That's when I decided to make this end

That's when I finally took my stand

 

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To all the people that have either broken my heart, or made it whole again.