Chapter 1~ A bad History

The sun was down, no longer revealing it's warmth on my abused skin. My wings were a bloody, torn mess. Feathers astray, I could not fly, I barely could walk.
Tears streaked my face, my eyes were red from tiredness. I shivered, they had not provided enough clothing. I was wearing a white halter top with grey sweat pants. My feet were bare and had multiple cuts. I felt hopeless and tired, I would love to lay here, just for a second...
My blonde, curly hair was soaked with the previous rain of yesterday. It had now reached my waist from the absent trimmings.
My eyes roamed the forest, looking for any pursuit that I was being followed. I have been running from Him ever since they decided to place me here in Forks.
I looked past the trees and saw a sign declaring "Welcome To La Push" . My disappointment wavered, as I saw a pair of children playing by the black water.
"Claire, Come here" I heard a soft, melodious voice call to the child that was building a very small, lopsided castle. The child was gorgeous in a way, with dark black hair that reached her shoulders and wide dark brown eyes. She had russet skin that would bring revolt to my father's eyes, but as I think of it, my father is a monster to even his children 's eyes.
The woman who called to her was very beautiful, with the same features as the child. Black hair, dark brown eyes and the same russet skin. Not even the three scars brought a minimum damage to her beauty.
I cannot believe how peaceful they were, they then went inside this small structure that my friend, Sarah would call a house.
It was clear to me that they were Indians, I expected guards to come burst through the doors and restrain them.
I felt very light-headed, and my vision began to sway. I had to get help before I faint.
I brought my wings to my back, letting them fold in. To those who saw my back would describe it as as very silvery scars. This was due to the fact that my wings had a silvery outline.
My light head got worse and I began walking to the white house that the woman and the girl had went in.
I paused as I felt my hairs stand up. I felt a cold hand on my arm and felt my blood drain.
I turned around and saw Him. The very one that put me in my coffin.
"Now Clarabelle," He started, feigning a stern voice. "You do know that you cannot run from me, is that right?"
I gritted my teethe as I felt that dreaded sense come on, his death was in my eyes then...

I was in a field, I felt pursuit and I whirled around to face it.
"Get out of my way,poodle," I growled.
In front of me was a russet wolf that was about the size of a horse.
The wolf growled. I charged at him, knocking him over.
The wolf whimpered and struggled to get up, I smiled and wrapped my arms around it, in a position, similar to a hug.
"This will teach you not to mess with my mate." I said.
The wolf struggled good and manage to squirm out my way. I flew back and barely looked up before the wolf snapped my head off, cleanly.

I gasped, and felt tears swarm in my eyes again.
"Please let go, Caleb, I have information to tell you" I said,, squirming to loosen his hold.
He hesitated and slowly let go. He stood, tense. His blonde hair in a new locations. He wore jeans and a button shirt.
"What?" He demanded. I cringed, this is why I could no longer love him , he was a monster, his beauty only a distraction.
"Please leave me alone, Caleb. In saw how you were going to die and it isn't pleasant. There is a creature out there that is more lithe than you, and even though I no longer love you, I do not want you to get hurt." I stated nervously. My light head had vanished but I felt it coming back and I did not want to loose consciousness in front of him.
He threw his head back and laughed. I was confused, he knew about my curse and he knew my feeling when I tell people and they laugh. I am deeply hurt.
After 2 minutes, he stopped and stared at me with a complex emotion across his face. In my vision, it was starting to morph and waver.
"Fine," He said, he was instantly in front of my face. I will leave you be, but do not expect this to be forever." He caressed my cheek with his cold hand and I cringed as he kissed my cheek. These affections I used to love but now they were revolting to me.
I looked at his ruby red eyes as he looked at my ice blue ones. He might have mistaken this as a meaningful look but I was just trying to understand how he can be so cruel and nice at the same time.
He vanished and I felt relief flood me before my light head took over it, my vision blurred once more and I took a few steps before I was at the front door. I grinned faintly at my strength and I raise my hand to knock on the cold piece of wood.
The door opened before revealing the woman who called "Claire" inside the house.
My faintness swarmed over and I fell to the ground as it began to rain once more

Chapter 2~ A world of wonders

I felt something cold press my forehead. I tossed my head, letting my blonde wide ringlets blocking the cold item. There was a pause and I felt a small hand on my forehead.
Oh no...

I smiled at the large man. He had black hair, dark brown eyes and the same russet skin that I had.
"I love you, Sam." I said. Sam was the large man's name. I loved how I said his name. I loved him in general.
"I love you too, Emily." He declared, kissing my nose gently. I giggled and threw my arms around him.
"I am going to the store to get some milk before the boys come back, do you want anything?" I asked, as I unwrapped his arms and walked to the living room and grabbed my bag.
Sam shook his head and gave me a passionate kiss before walking back into the kitchen.
I stepped outside of the house. I began thinking about buying some lingerie for Sam...
I was too caught up in my own thoughts that I did not see the truck that ran the light.
I froze, a deer caught in headlights as the truck got closer. I screamed as it crashed into me, I felt my bones break and I felt my legs get smashed and crushed.
I love you, Sam was my last thought as I faded into the black.

I screamed and jumped from the soft area I was placed at. Emily, startled, dropped the cold foreign object she placed to my forehead.
She grinned and picked up the item, "Boys," she called. "She's awake."
I felt rumbling and I screamed as I got picked up behind in a bone-crushing hug.
I screamed and felt myself fall into the death of the stranger...

I looked at everyone around me with a weak smile. They all meant the world to me, not just my imprint, Jessie.
I felt my eyes rest on her as I caressed her hand, through the 45 years we have been together ever since she was introduced to me as a vampire's relative, I felt nothing but love for her.
"I love you, Jessica" I said, my voice shaky with age. Well, I guess that is what you get when your 80 years old.
Her response was a single sob as she clutched my hand.
"I love you too, Seth." She said, her red hair was in a nest, her blue eyes were looking at me from my bed.
I felt sleepy. I wanted to rest.
I felt my eyes droop and with a sigh, I fell asleep and never awoke.

Even through the shock of the hug, I felt very optimistic. He was going to die peacefully like I wanted every being to do, not with knifes and guns and violence, just a nice sleep.
"Seth," Emily chided gently, her hands on her hips. "Put her down now."
I felt those strong arms loosen and I slowly went to the ground.
"Thank you," I said, laughing a little nervously.
"No problem," Seth said, shrugging. "If I wouldn't I bet you that Emily would've stabbed me with a broom or something."
The way he spoke was strange, it sounded very gangly and awkward. I like it.
"I'm sorry," Emily said, her hand on my shoulder. I did not have to worry since I saw hers already, if the future changed in some way then I would continue to see her death's.
"You were out for about a day, honey." Her voice was lace with worry. "Do you know what happened to make you go bonkers and faint like that?" She asked.
I was confused, "bonkers" was not in my vocabulary.
She must read my emotion that was clear on my face because she laughed slightly and said, "Honey, what made you faint?" She asked.
I panicked, they were not to know about Caleb's secret, that he was a demonic vampire.
"I am sorry, but I do not remember the previous happenings that made me go "bonkers and faint."" I stated bluntly.
Seth and her looked at me oddly.
"Um, " She said. "Okkayy, do you want something to eat? You must be starving." She smiled.
My stomach growled and she laughed. She then lead me to the room called a kitchen. The room was tiny with a small table seated for 4 but about 7 persons had manage to squeeze into it.
"This is Sam, Leah, Quil, Embry, Paul, Jared, and Jacob." I smiled politely at them and waved.
They all waved back except for Jacob, who had shaggy black hair and dark brown eyes. I looked at those amazing eyes and felt the room move, there was nobody here but us. I no longer heard the rattling of pans and the talking. It felt like we were floating and that if I could not grab him and bring him to earth, we would just go floating up more and more.
Jacob suddenly knocked out of the trance and looked angry. He stood up from the chair and went out the back door.

Chapter 3~ Meet the Cullens

Emily giggled and soon began preparing this rather odd thing called Toast. It was just the toasting of bread with butter spread on it.
It tasted quite delicious.
I thought about Sarah, she would be shaking her head and laugh about how old I am even though she is physically older than me. She was gorgeous with silky black hair and warm brown eyes, she came from this tribe, the Quileutes who was supposedly be able to horse-sized wolves.
"So...You okay? You hit your head on pretty hard." Paul said. I looked up from the "toast" and the "pancakes."
"Oh. Yes I am. I guess I am suppose to part right?" To be truthful, I did not want to part from these people, they are amazing and nice and Jacob...
I paused. I have heard this name before, I assume it was from Sarah..
"No sweetheart." Emily said, with a wave of her hand, 'Please stay until we have at least some information about you. Do you have a family?"
That was a private and very complex question. Was my family still alive? Were they well off without me?
I gulped and felt moist in my eyes. "No, I do not have a family, they are all dead.' I clench the fabric that covered the table, it was called a tablecloth.
A hot hand grabbed my shoulders and Sam said," Don't worry we are your family now," With a nice smile. But I was too busy trying to suppress the the dark future of him...

I felt myself shift into a big, black wolf. I trotted in the wood for a few minutes , hearing the annoying voice of my pack.
Jacob and Leah and Seth had joined my pack once more because of the drama of the Cullens. I still felt violent around Jacob due to the Two Alpha things. I felt a stinging in my noise and growled as I ran after a leech. I attack his back and felt myself fly as he bucked beneath me. I felt my skull hit the tree and it all went black.

I flinched and removed myself from the table. "Excuse me? But is there a room where I can rest?" I had a headache from seeing all these deaths, it was sad for me.
"I'll show you.' I felt a voice that warmed me throgh my spine say. I turned around and felt my eyes widen as I took in the figure that filled the doorway.
Jacob.
I blushed and tucked a silvery strand that escaped my hairstyle, which was humorlessly called a ponytail.
I suddenly felt energized. It was similar to a battery. When I was around him, I felt numb and cool, I felt like I could spread my wings and fly around him going forever and forever...
"I don't feel tired." I declared with a toothy smile. "In fact, why do we not go somewhere. It is getting rather tiring being in this house, I hope you do not take offense to this, Emily."
"Hell yeah,' All the boys, except Jacob and Same said. They all ran outside while Emily shook her head.
'You don't know what you got yourself into."


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I sighed as we went into a meadow. I had a rather tiring day.
We had went to Port Angeles, and went shopping for sports equipment and a few, rather ugly tops for me as a gift for joining the La Push Gang.
We were playing this game called football. It excited the boys to a point that they were shivering as they went into this large meadow.
The meadow was beautiful with some small poppies laying around and tall grass sticking up in random locations, if it was a private time I would sit and play my harp with Jacob, who I have become quite fond off.
He was looking at me with an perplexed emotion across him face with some jealousy due to the fact that I was "piggy-back" riding Embry.
I slide off Embry and sat down on the cool grass, laying down feeling my blonde hair intertwine with the grass. Just lovely.
I sat up and hugged my knees as I watched the boys as they set up their equipment and began playing the game. It was rather confusing so I gave up and layed on the grass again.
I felt somebody sit beside me and I look up to see Jacob, looking at me.
I sat up quickly and blushed. "Hi," I whispered, I was nervous due to the fact that I never courted with anybody.
"Hi," He said with a scowl as he began pulling the grass.
'Why pretend that you do not acknowledge me, Jaocb?" I asked. I was surely confused, why is he acting distant?
"Oh, I acknowledge you, I acknowledge you real well" he muttered.
I grinned, this pleased me very much and I began flicking the blades of grass, watching sail over to the boys who I gave up on with their very complex game.
"Jacob, do you have a person with who you court with?" I asked, I was very confused with how they would say this.
Jacob too, looked confused before shaking his head and saying, "I don't have a 'person with whom I court with'", He said, pausing to insert these fingers that seemed to resemble quotes. "But I do have a girlfriend." He said, leaning against a smooth rock.
My heart dropped as he said these worlds, I grabbed the linen of my halter top and began to fiddle with it to avoid the dread of warm tears that would slide down my face.
"T-That is great,' I stuttered. My eyes watering slightly. This was ridiculous, I was a strong independent woman, I should not care my self to fancy some boy.
But even as I thought those false thoughts, Jaocb smiled at the sky.
"She is so pretty with fair skin like the color of snow. She looks so cute when she blushes, like someone laid apple blossoms on her cheeks. Her hair is the bronze, like the color of shiny penny, her eyes are like chocolate-"
He was cut off, thankfully. I could not bear to hear anymore. My heart was weak.
He urgently grabbed my hand and my heart soared up to the clouds, then it slammed back into my chest with dread.
"Clara, move out of the way!" I shouted at my cute angel. Her blonde curly hair covered head turned around and her blue eyes looked up at me.
Only, I wasn't looking at Clarabelle, I was looking at Renesmee, who face was contorted with evil, her black eyes looking at Clara with malice as she lunged from the bush she was hiding from.
I felt shivers rack throughout my body before lunging at Nessie, the former love of my life.
Clarabelle gasped and grunted as her ivory wings popped out, I attacked Renesmee and slammed her against the nearest tree.
Clara attacked pushing her shoulder into Renesmee's stomach.
Nessie hissed and flung herself at me after I missed.
"Silly Jakie, I wasn't going after her," She said as she lifted up my whole body. I didn't realize how strong she had gotten.
I felt a terrible pain crack into my neck and whimpered as I sagged against her.
I could still hear her whispering in my pointed ear. "I was going after you."

I screamed, and ripped my hand out of Jacob's. That was the worse death I have ever saw. But what got me deeply confused was that I was included in there.
Jacob was not paying attention, he was looking at the teenager who had her hand intertwined with a young woman.
She was beautiful with curly bronze hair and chocolate brown eyes, her doll-like face was splitting into a grin. She wore a navy blue tank top with a short sleeve white top underneath with black "skinny jeans" as Sarah would say. Her hair was combed to the side.
It was Renesmee, the girl that brought Jacob's life to a tragic end.
The girl next to her was looking at Jacob witha friendly smile, she had dark brown hair that was splayed all over the place but she looked "sexy" with it. Her amber eyes were looking at Renesmee with adoration. She was pale and had on a dark red top with a vest over it with light blue jeans.
"Jacob," she squealed as she ran to Jacob, I felt him let go of my hand as he caught her.
"I missed you, " she whispered in his ear. Jacob smiled but looked over to me with a apologizing smile.
I wanted so badly to rip her off of his person. to spread my wings and tell him the truth, the whole truth.
But the truth will never set me free, no matter how hard I try.
"Oh," she said, looking over at me with a dark blush on her cheeks, Jacob was right when he said it looked like apple blossoms on her cheeks.
"I'm sorry," Renesmee apoligized.
She stuck out her hand with had blue and purple paint on it. i looked down at it before looking up at her, I hesitantly shook it and screamed as I felt that stinging in my brain:

I slowly let the dead Jacob go, i felt no remorse over him, he left me, he imprinted on me. It's over between us but that still doesn't mean that he goes unpunished.
There was a quiet sob behind me and I turned around with an evil smile on my face as I looked at Clarabelle.
"What happened? Did the little angel get her feelings hurt well you'll learn to live with it.Hey, I did." I threw back my head and laughed. How true that was.
"Why Renesmee? Why?" She asked, her wings were sagging and she was on the floor, blood was running down her face from the blow I gave her.
"Why? WHY?" I shouted as I approached her, my steps were uneven with anger as I glared down at the fallen angel.
"I taught you how to fit in in this time, how to be somebody and you do this shit to me? I was there, Jacob was there, my whole family was there when you kissed Jacob. How do you think I feel? My family is packing up to leave and I decided that this is a great time to get rid of you happiness as to mine were crushed. I had everything planned for the future me and Jacob were going to have and you just came in and SWOOP," I swooped my hands and picked her up. "You came and crushed them. Well, now I'm going to end this now."
Clarabelle struggled as I began choking her. She thrashed and I grinned as I felt the weakness slowly came over her.
"Tell Jacob I said Hi." I said, grinning. Clarabelle opened her eyes and I felt something come over her.
With a cry, I felt her loosen my grip, she pushed me on the floor.
"Get up," She yelled and picked me up throwing me against the tree, I sagged down.
She came over to me and I felt fear swarm over me and everything went black as she punched that crucial pressure point in my neck.

I fell to the floor, my heart beating like a hummingbird's. This was all to much for me, I can't deal. I can't...
"I have to go.." I said faintly as I clutched my head. My steps were uneven as I began to stagger out of the clearing.
I felt a warm hand grabbed me and I flinched, expecting to see a death overcome me. When I didn't, I pushed the hand off of me.
"Are you okay?" Renesmee asked, concern leeking her face. I cringed as I began picturing the future because I knew that when she saw me with Jacob in the future, those eyes would be black coals of hate.
"No.." I sighed as I fell to the ground, still conscious.
"Sam, take the guys home. Leah, Seth come help me with Clara."
I moaned when he said his new nickname for me because that meant that we were getting closer to the future.
"Where?" Leah asked.
"To the Cullens." Seth answered.
"No, my grandparents are hunting, we just have to take her to the hospital." Renesmee.
I felt people approaching me and I panicked, one more death and it will surly be the end of me.
"DO NOT TOUCH ME!!!!! Don't touch me!

" I gasped. This was the first time that I spoke gangly and I sounded quite strange.
They ignored me and picked me up and then the worst began to happen.
Flashes of knifes, harsh words, hatred, darkness overcame me. I screamed bloody murder as I began thrashing around, waiting for it to be over. But it wasn't over, I cried and I began seeing everyone I know dying. Leah, Sam, Jacob.... It didn't end.
I saw people I didn't even know dying to. Vampires, but they were good their essence told me that and I could tell that it was all because of me.

I heard those outside voices break through the barrier of Hell. They were the only thing that kept me sane.
"What the hell is wrong with her?"
"Is she okay?"
"Take her to the Cullens Now!"
I screamed once more as I saw those blood red eyes follow me, I could not escape them. I hollered, "LEAVE ME BE, CALEB!"
I felt my self fall into a deep abase and fell into my own tears.

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My thoughts were drowned with murmurs and mumbles. My brain pounded against my skull, my mouth was dry and my throat was parched. I smacked my lips and sighed.
I opened my eyes and peeked through my eyelashes to see a young man looking down at me with mild concern.
"What happened?" I asked to the man, He was quite handsome, he had bronze colored hair that looking liked it was always finger-combed. My vision was too blurry and my head still hurt, so I could not see his features clear enough.
"Clara!" I turned my head. Too quickly, I may add. I grabbed my head to steady my vision as Jacob came to the bedside, kneeling in front of me. He grabbed my cool hand with his warm one. My heart pounded in my chest.
"You went crazy in the field back there, I don't know what happened to you but we brought you here and Edward gave you some Advil and some syringe to calm you down. Alice changed your clothes because they were dirty and she was afraid they might cause a infection or something." He rolled his eyes.
I looked down to notice that my clothes were changed into a blue halter top and black crop pants. I looked around the room. It looked like a study with all of the medical books that covered it the only odd thing was that there was a medical bed that I was laying on right in the middle.
"I'm sorry," I murmured weakly. I felt a dark blush on my cheeks as I hid behind the curtain of my blonde hair. I truly was embarrassed with what happened in the field, I lost myself and I did not want it to happen again.
"It alright," Jacob murmured soothingly as he rubbed my back. I flinched, expecting a death to come but when it did not, I relaxed into his soft touch.

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