Disclaimer

This book its plot, charachters and setting belongs to Stepheny Meyer, exept for Erica her Mother and Lissa those characters are my own and the belong only to me.

Prolouge

                               Prologue

                                            

 

 

 

I took a deep breath before I closed my eyes. I was ready…ready to finely rest. I have done everything I      could   the, rest was up to them. I have fought alongside them I have protected all of them every one was safe   my whole family was safe just as I had prayed for. Jacob was safe our enemies were defeated. We have won the war. With my last remaining energy I opened my eyes again and looked across the room at all of their sombre faces. Jacob was right next to me his face full of tears. I reached my good hand out towards him. He took it and placed it against his lips. And with my last breath I whispered…

“Don’t be sad, we won’’ 

I tried to smile, and then just like that my world went peach black.

 

 

 

 

  And I… surrendered myself to the clawing hands of death.

   That had loomed over me since before I was even born. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Chapter 1

CHAPER 1: GOOD BYE      

 

 

 

My story starts long before this book does. So I thought it would only be fitting to clue you in on the missing pieces. My name is Erica Bains. I was born and bred in small-town on the border of Seattle called Forks. It's a town with a population of only 2000 people. It rains 265 days a year and on the days it's not raining its probably snowing. It’s a town where everybody knows everybody, and it is also where I spent eleven years of my life. Before my father was murdered in our own home... that’s when everything went downhill in my life my mother and I moved out of forks leaving my friends and family behind. I was devastated about my father’s death Eric Bains after whom I was named was the best father in the world and I loved him dearly. My life was an absolute void without him.

 

Which is why I was surprised when my mother sat me down one day at the kitchen table and told me that our house was being foreclosed. I was truly shocked. I knew we had some financial problems but it never occurred to me that we’d be homeless. As soon as I got over the shock of what she had just told me my brain went on over drive with all the questions I wanted to ask. , However, sensing my raising anxiety and no doubt having already played this conversation in her head so many times she knew my question before I did and she answered it before I could ask it. 

 

“Don’t worry sweetie, you won’t be homeless I’m sending you to live with your uncle in forks.’’ She said.

 

“WHAT! What do you mean you’re sending me away?”

 “Honey it's only for a few months until I get a job.’’

 “But ... where will you stay?’’

 I’ll be crashing at Renée but she only has room for one.

“Mom I don’t want to go I love my life and my friends.’’

“Erica you can make new friends and besides your cousin Isabella and Uncle Charlie are in forks.’’ And so without much say in the matter I was to be flown of to, Forks next weekend.  I hated that I had to leave but what else could I do run away? Good plan but in a way that still meant leaving. And when I came to think of it I liked Bella and Charlie and I liked adventures to.

The following weekend is stood in the airport looking at my best friend Lisa with tears in my eyes. Oh how I’m going to miss her cheery personality and her bad ass poker skills.

 

“So I guess this is good-bye said Lisa with a trembling voice.”

 “Yhea I guess so ‘’ I said taking one last long look at her and drinking in all her features. Her wavy brown hair and her striking gray eyes were here best features.

 And at that moment both of us burst into tears and sobs. A computerized voice interrupted all the hugs and goodbyes. Attention all passengers flight 108 to forks is about to take of all passengers please make your to the loading docks.

“That’s my queue.’’ I said. “I’ve got to go.’’

“Oh honey I’m going to miss you so much promises to call every day?’’ said my mom.

“I promises mom and err... I’m gona miss you to.’’

 

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Mean while in forks

 

“Bella’’

“Yes Charlie.’’

“I’m sorry I never told you sooner but I talked to your aunt Vanessa and … well your little coz is gona be staying with us for a little while.’’

 Bella nearly shrieked her best childhood friend Erica was coming she could see all the memories come back warm summers in Jackson Ville and a chilly Christmas here in forks. She could only phantom what Riki must look like know and shed be just in time for the wedding.

“HELLO earth to Bella’’

 Charlie’s voice ripped her out of her thoughts.

 ‘Hugh’

 Was all Bella could say at that moment.

“What do you think I mean would it be okay if you slept in the spear room?’’

“Oh… of course when is she coming?’’

“Well on… Saturday she’s on a plane as we speak.’ He replied.

“Wow that’s a little time to get ready but we can do it.’ Bella said.

“Do what?’’ Charlie asked.

“Clear out my room and move it in to the spear bedroom.”

 

“Good thinking Bella I think Alice is rubbing off on you.”

 He said with a sarcastic tone in his voice.

 “Ha- ha -ha very funny dad the question is. Is Edward rubbing off on you?”

Charlie took a huge bite of his toast. He did it on purpose so that he wouldn’t have to answer the question but Bella knew the answer was going to be no! And never! A couple of miles away                   

Erica was on a plane looking at the view. Wow this place is beautiful and just the same way she had remembered it as a kid no even better. Erica tried to recollect everything she knew about this place Charlie, Bella Uncle Billy and Sue Clearwater. There was always someone in the background of her memories some one important but that person always seemed to be a blur it always bugged her that she didn’t know who that person was. A woman in a navy blue uniform and a hat shaped almost like a sailors came up to Erica. 

“Excuse me miss but the plane is about to land any minute now I suggest you gather your things and get ready.”

 The women spoke loudly and slowly as if she was speaking to a 3-year old. Erica found this annoying that people have to explain things extra carefully just because she was a minor. I’m 15 years old and they think I can’t get off a plane!             

 

 

                                                

At the airport Bella and her fiancé where waiting for Erica to arrive.

“Bella ...love there’s no need to be nervous I’m sure she’s fine.”

“You’re probably right Edward I mean she should be here any minute.’’

“Bella I can’t read your mind but I’m sure you do not believe what you’re saying.’’

 Bella laughed he always has a way of making her feel better. At that very moment she saw a dark headed girl coming out to the conveyer belt searching desperately for her bags. “RIKI!” Bella blurted out the girls head spun and looked at Bella. She hesitated for a split second and then shouted back

“Bells!”

 The two girls rushed towards each other they remained in each other’s embrace until they were interrupted by a boy. His hair was dirty brown and his eyes were the most incredible shade I had never seen before. He looked at Bella for a moment obviously taking in the resemblances. Then Bella looked at me and said “Erica this is Edward, my… fiancé. Edward this is Erica.”

 He smiled and stuck out a hand

“It’s a pleasure to finally meet you.”

 “Tanks vice versa”

I told him. He seemed confused. As if I had said something wrong. He, s hazel golden eyes were turning a dark shade of brown and then black he’s eyes were fixed on me. He was just staring at me then he let go of my gaze and whispered something into Bella’s ear and took off.

 

 The ride back to Charlie’s was a long quit one. Bella tried to make small talk but it still didn’t seem right she saw her fiancé eyeing me, like I was a piece of meat. And no matter how hard she tried to Denney it I always knew she was just as dumbstruck as I was.

When we finally arrived Charlie was waiting outside and so was women, it was Sue. Charlie waved the moment he saw us. Hey girls he said just as Bella drove in the drive way. I got out of the truck felling nervous and sweaty.  What if this meeting was like the one at the airport all awkward? Charlie greeted her with a pat on the back. Something told her that even though he had a daughter he didn’t do this often. Next was Sue she gave me a hug and two kisses one on each cheek. At that moment I decided that I liked her and that she had a warm spirit. A boy ran out of the house with something in his hand mom it’s finished he said unaware that I was there Sue gave him a look and quickly he turned in my direction. Hi he said with a warm smile I’m Seth .Of course I should have remembered how could I forget,  Seth tagging along with us everywhere we went he was about 8 then but know he was all grown up .

“I’m Erica”

 I finally said.

“I know” he replied.

Erica felt strange the warmth                                                                                            

She was felling in the car was ten times worse now her palms were sweaty and she felt a bit dizzy Sue picked up on this and asked if she’d like a glass of water Erica nodded afraid to trust her own voice. Sue navigated her inside and before she left asked Seth to go home and stay there. He didn’t argue he did as he was told and started jogging before he was out of sight  he smiled one of those wonderful smiles of his at me. Sue sat me down and handed me a glass of long awaited water. Thanks I said and drank up I be cooling down in fact I felt comfortable and cool it seemed to be getting chilly it felt what the weather looked like outside. Sue made small chat with me while we were waiting for Bella and Charlie. When they finally came in sue laid the table and we began eating. I loved Sues cooking nice and meaty but Bella was a veggie eater and only ate the salad. Later Sue left and Charlie had to go do his night shift so it was only me and Bella. She showed me my room but she seemed quit.

“Bella’’ I said.

“Yes.’’ She replied.

 “About Edward… I’m sorry I don’t know what I said but I’m really sorry.’’

“Oh no, it's not you it's just that he had to… be… somewhere. You might want to hit the shower and get some sleep I’m taking you over to a friend’s house when you wake up.’’

 I thought about this for a moment. Haven’t I had enough strange meetings for one day? No now all she wanted to do was sleep she was so tired. I think I have get lag I said to Bella she smiled and said we could do it tomorrow If I wasn’t up for it. Thanks Erica said. No probe replied Bella oh and the bathrooms down the hall.        

Cahpter 2

Chapter 2: Meetings

 

          

I woke up early in the morning. Despite my fatigue yesterday I hardly slept a wink, something about this room reminded me of Edward and I know this sounds crazy… but I imagined him staring at me last night. This made me feel really uncomfortable. I didn’t know what to do so I started painting something. I love painting it always makes me feel calm. When I finished it was roundabout (6:30 A.M) so I packed my stuff and went to the bathroom as I  stood in front of the mirror and examined  myself head to toe. Okay my hair is black with slight hints of brown it goes all the way to my hips. My skin is pale and creamy at the same time like alabaster. My eyes are a light icy blue with a black halo around the edges. It makes my eyes stand out even more than usual. My body is in good shape well sculpted long limbs, I have a great cleavage, as Lisa would always say not too big not too small just right and voluptuous as some would say. I am tall but not that tall. My but is smooth and firm a great shape.

  My fingers were small and delicate and very thin. My lips are pink and have a semi heart shaped on the top of it. Suddenly I heard a knock on the door it was Bella asking if she can come in. I said I’ll be done in a minute and finished putting on my top and I opened the door. Bella was already dressed and wide-awake surprisingly enough I never heard her get dressed. (I don’t like it when things get past me without my knowing) Good morning Bella said with a cheery tone in her voice. Morning Erica said what’s got you so cheery? Oh nothing just feeling happy. It’s good that your already dressed were leaving now .Bella it's 7:00 am. Well Charlie is gone and I don’t want you to be alone so I'm taking you with me. Okay Bella you win.                             

During the drive to where ever they were going Erica couldn’t stop wondering how Bella became ‘engaged’ at such a young age. She was from California and the word engagement to anyone under the age of 35 was a foreign or an unheard of term. It was thoughts like this that made Erica think about her own future she wondered if she would also fall in love with someone as beautiful as Edward and that someone loving her the same way he loved Bella. Riki aha Bella’s words snapped her out of her day dream.         

                               

 

  ‘I saw you pull the saddest face. Is everything okay?’

  

‘Oh sorry I just do that sometimes and forget where I am.’

 

‘Did you sleep well?’

Erica actually considered this for a moment and decided that having creepy dreams about her fiancé starring at her last night would not be music to her ears.

‘Like a baby’ Erica replied. Finally we had reached our destination. It was a beautiful white mansion. Here we are announced Bella. And where exactly is here I asked?. It’s the Cullen mansion where Edward lives I wanted you to meet my new… well our soon to be new family. Erica was nervous again she could see her eyes change colour in the review mirror from a calm blue to an intense brown which meant that she was anxious. When she stepped into the house a weird smell engulfed her it was so strong it burned her throat. A small figure became visible from the far end of the hall way. As it came closer the person became clearer. Alice Bella said in a surprised tone your back?                   

  

In the flesh both of them started laughing. As usual I had no idea as to what was going on so I just remained there gaping for air. Then Alice turned to me with a big smile and said

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

    Welcome I have the feeling were going to be the best of friends. Something about her immediately rendered her a kindred spirit. All Erica could do was smile. At that moment Erica realized that she was surrounded by the whole family. How did they get here without her noticing? All of them with their hazel eyes except one of them of course Edward. A male voice ripped her out of herself pity. He was very tall and masculine defiantly someone who would pass as a steroid addict. But when he spoke it sounded goofy and playful. The only description for him was a puppy’s sweet innocence in a body of a pit-bull. Hi I said trying to sound calm and unaware of all the eyes on me. Strangely enough I felt like Daniel in a prison with all those hungry lions but knowing they would never hurt him. I remember the story from Sunday school. I felt as though everyone was waiting for me to say something. The only thing that came to my mind was the word run. So “Erica where you from?” asked Alice.                

 

 

California I replied .So are you water junky asked the pit-bull and by the way I’m Emit. This time he spoke to me as his equal and not mockingly. Yes I replied I love water sports I told him. At that moment a blond walked in she said hallo in a very hostile manner. Nice to meet you I replied and added a smile for special effect. It then occurred to me that the way Emit was looking at Blondie was not the way a brother looks at his sister at all. A heat wave hit me at that moment and the stench got even worse I was feeling nauseas and dehydrated I was just about to lose my balance when a pair of ice cold hands came across my hips to hold me up right. I turned around and it was Edward .Are you ok he asked me. “Ye... Yes.”

“Do you need some water?”

“Yeah?”

“Ok” he said “Sit down I’ll get you some.”

 Bella asked me what just happened and I said I don’t know. When he came back with my drink .He asked if I had anything for breakfast. I’m fine I said just had a rough night that’s all. He nodded and I knew that was the end of the visit my knew family act he didn’t like me for some reason

And some how I knew that wasn’t gona change. When Bella and I left things not-so-surprisingly became even more awkward.

“Hey Riki how about we meet Billy you remember him don’t you?’’

“Yeah but I think I’ve had enough meetings for today Bell please don’t make me do that again.’’

“Nonsense.’’ replied Bella.

 

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When we came up to Billy’s house everything seemed the same as it was when I was a child the wooden bench Bella and loved to swing and the small pond Seth and I would always pretend was a great water fall full of adventure and pirates. I crawled in my skin remembering how silly I was I just prayed that no one else would remember. When I realized that Billy was paralyzed I had an awkward feeling that caught in my thought but never dared to go any further. While he was getting us some tea a piece of paper caught my attention. It was white and black with a photo of a teenage boy. On it read the words Jacob black run away 16 years old. I instantly recognized this person he was my best friend when my dad died he was the only one who under stood me he was even my first kiss. I can’t believe I forgot him the very important person at the back of my mind was him all a long and know he is missing his gone. I would ask Bella all about it when we had some private time I wouldn’t mention it in front of his father Billy. I couldn’t even phantom what he is going through .At that very moment a group of teenage boys and a girl entered the room the boys were only wearing shorts  and the girl whom I later found out was Leah Clearwater was wearing a tight faded tanned tank top and old worn out shorts. The reason this bothered was not because of their lack of style it was more of their lack of clothes it was in the middle of winter and it was freezing outside but that didn’t seem to bother them the least bit. I bit my lip I didn’t realize I was staring until I met the eyes of Sam Ulie he was not a boy but a man who looked about in his late twenty’s or early thirty’s. He coked his head in my direction

‘‘Well look who we have here’’

‘’Hey Sam.’’ Bella said.

‘‘This is my cousin Erica’’

He reached out his hand toward me.

‘‘Nice to finally meet you’’

I took his hand.

‘‘The pleasure is all mine’’

I noticed that his hands were unusually warm but it was comforting to my hands which were bitter cold despite my several attempts at rubbing them together to get my blood circulating in my fingers. He introduced me to everyone and as he said there names one by one they would throw a

“Hey!’’

 Or “Nice to meet you’’ In my direction. They were all friendly and I didn’t feel uncomfortable around them it was a very pleasant visit the boys made me feel normal strange how I felt so at home in this group of weird people maybe it was because I was weird myself. As much as I enjoyed myself that day the words Jacob- Lost -Hurt was always at the back of my mind. When it was time to leave Seth escorted us out and pretty much demanded that we come back tomorrow .Sure I said and got into Bella’s truck and as we drove off the sun was setting it was nearing twilight. I couldn’t contain myself I needed to know why and when and where.

‘‘Why did Jacob runaway?’’

She looked at me in amassment and then turned her attention back to the road.

‘‘I don’t know’’

When she said this I heard a tone of pain and longing in her voice I didn’t want to do this to her but I needed answers.

‘‘When did he leave?’’

“Two weeks ago’’

“Why didn’t you tell me Bella?’’

“I didn’t want to worry you. Jacob can take care of himself I’m sure he’ll be back soon’’

‘But didn’t you think I at least would want to know?’

‘What good would it have done?’

Fair enough and with that the conversation ended I didn’t want to push further although I knew there was more to this than she was letting on and I would not give up until I find out what it is. Like I said I don’t like things getting past me without me knowing what it is.

 

 

 

Chapter 3

                           CHAPTER 3: THE IMPRINT

                                 Jacob’s point of view

 

I don’t know what it was but two days ago I felt this sudden erg to go back home. I wasn’t homesick for the last two weeks life has actually been bearable. Everything was easier in wolf form when you’re hungry you eat when you’re tired you sleep for every question a simple answer. So why was I so eager to go home when I knew what would be waiting for me. Why was my body tugging me back in the direction of home? Maybe it was instinct was my pack in danger was someone hurt either way the longing was too strong it would take me three days to get back home but that seemed too long to wait as I adjusted my stride my body began to relax I was giving it what it asked for and with each step I took I was getting closer to home.

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                      Erica’s point of view

As I awoke for my first day at forks high I was exhausted last night I had a nightmare of my father being killed it was more a flash back because I really was there when he died. I was ten years old and two men broke into our house my mother was out that night she had to pull an all-nighter. So it was only me and my dad at home .My father told me to hide underneath the bed and no matter what never ever come out. I love you my baby girl where his last words. I love you two I replied. And I did as I was told. The next minute I heard the bedroom door swing open and a cold voice called out too my father

‘‘Eric don’t make this hard just tell us where she is’’

A growl ripped through the room I could see two pairs of huge paws hit the floor. And then it begun the sounds were awful and tortures. I wanted so badly to help him to save him but I remembered his words never ever. And then the noise stopped the room fell silent. The door swung closed the kitchen door slammed shut but I didn’t dear come out of my hiding place scared and alone. I never saw my father ever again after that but the police found his body near the lake the next day it was too late when they got to him. When they questioned me about what happened I told them everything I knew but my story was too unbelievable and they thought I imagined it. As I eat my breakfast now silent tears run down my face regret anger sorrow. In some ways I’m still that little girl underneath the bed scared of everything longing for her daddy. These nightmares have become more and more frequent over the last few days.

 

My first day of school was pleasant I met all Bella’s friends in science the teacher paired me up with Jessica for an assignment we have to collect fungi from mushrooms and examine the living organisms underneath a microscope in class. Jessica and I had discussed going to the woods together but she called last minute and cancelled on me. I was pissed but I gathered since I was already there let me get the freaking germs and get out of this place. I wondered around the forest for several minutes before I realized I was lost. And my cell phone battery was flat well done Erica Baines you’ve managed to get yourself into another shity situation. I sat down and rested my back against the bark of a very large tree maybe if I stay put they will eventually find me. It is already sunset maybe I’m giving myself false hope. At that moment a small robin bird fell from the sky it was hurt and limping I felt sorry for it I wanted to help it… save it but I just didn’t know how. I knelt down and held it in my arms I was about cry somewhere out there was a family that needed him just like I needed my dad. With that thought a single tear escaped and hit the little petrified bird on the wing and suddenly as if I had imagined the whole thing the bird hoped out of my hand started flapping its wing and running around franticly his wing looked as if it had never been injured in the first place. I was baffled all the blood stains on its wings were gone and its neck wasn’t tilting any more what just happened. Was it all just a daydream no it was not my clothes and hands were stained with blood and a single feather of the bird remained in my hands so I wasn’t gowning crazy but that still didn’t explain what just happened. I wanted to know more I was curious I followed the bird as it hoped from tree to tree eventually it stopped and took off into the sky. I was disappointed I wanted to hold it again and look for any scares or dents on its body. The sun was low now and twilight was fast approaching I was scared now I had forgotten my situation when the bird had fallen from the sky, and now I heard a sound coming from behind me I slowly and quietly followed the noise where the forest came to an opening there on the cliff was a huge dog basking in the remaining sunlight .I could hardly breathe it took all my effort to stop myself from screaming it hadn’t seen me if I’m quite I can get away without being noticed. I took a step back without averting my gaze from the creature. A twig snapped underneath my weight. The dog stood up and started in my direction I was paralyzed head to toe. Within seconds the beast was in front of me it was so close I could feel it’s warm breath on my face. It was taller than me by three heads and could possibly weigh more than three men. I was done for this thing would eat me and pick its teeth with my bones. I looked up and realized it was staring at me and I looked into its eyes and I couldn’t look anywhere else. It was hypnotizing and every trace of fear left my body I knew it was a stupid move but I reached out a hand to touch its face. And it didn’t even flinch its eyes stayed on mine never leaving them. I felt as though it was searing            

Into my soul I felt safe and protected. I never wanted to leave. It sat down on its stomach and now we were level we stayed that way for nearly half an hour no sound no movement just getting lost in each other’s eyes. It stood up and left. I followed it but it was hard to see because it was night already. When it finally stopped and stood aside I saw a long road in front of me I gasped it had shown me the way out of the forest. As I stepped on to the tare I looked back and nodded my head to say thank you. From this point on I could get home easy.  

When I arrived home it was 8:30 pm before I opened the door I braced myself. On the long walk here I had already come up with what to tell them I couldn’t share what happened today with anyone it was too special and no one would believe me any way. I was right the moment I entered I was bombarded with questions I explained how I needed mushroom fungi and how Jessica bailed on me the fact that I got lost trying to find my way home was all the explanation I needed. After my game of 101 questions from Charlie I was finally able to go up stairs. I hopped into the shower and let the hot water wash any doubt of this day happening away I know what I saw and I’ll never ever forget it.  

 

Chapter 4

                      CAPTER 4: HOME SWEET HOME

                            Jacob’s point of view

 

I can’t believe what happened to me today after all this pain and suffering could it really be that I have …imprinted.

On this girl whose name I didn’t even know. Who ho when I looked into her eyes it was as if gravity didn’t even exist as if she was the only anchor to my life. I felt as if I could drown in her blue garish eyes and even now I can’t stand being away from her I have to find her I can’t let her go. I’ll look for her tomorrow I already know her sent it’s a mixture of lavender petals and burnt rose. This is what brought me home she is what brought me home. There was only one problem gowning home and facing my pack! Now as I run on all fours their thoughts invade my mind they know I’m coming I let out a great cry Awwwwoooo aw aw-aw- Awwwwoooo. I have found her she has found me my other half my ….life.

Quill: Jake welcome back.

 

 Jacob: It’s good to be back.

 

Seth: Great news Jake.

 

Leah: Where have you been smart ass?

 

No doubt the last one was from Leah!

My heartfelt light and worry free every ounce of sorrow and self pity I felt for myself was gone. All the love I felt for Bella was gone I know understood the way she felt about me she loved me as I love her as a sister nothing more no passion no lust just friendship. And I actually thank her for not choosing me over Edward. Otherwise dumping her for this girl would have been very hard. I wonder what she’s like apart from being very sexy and beautiful. In a way she looked like a goddess .And those eyes oh god! They drive me crazy I couldn’t stop looking at them it seemed as if they go on forever you could lose yourself in them and you might just never ever find your way out.

Leah: Hey Jake could you just shut up for a sec your gona make me puke!

And with that all eight wolfs ran into the night happy they were all complete again.

 

Chapter 5

             CAPTER5: THIRST OF THE BEAST

 

 

                           Edwards’s point of view

 

I don’t know what has gotten into me. I can control myself around every one even Bella but never before have I ever wanted any ones blood as much as I did Erica’s. The thirst I had for Bella’s blood was nothing compared to the thirst I have for hers she ignites a part of me that has been lying dormant for centuries a part of that I’ve learned to suppress and even forget about. The part of me I hate the … killer part of me. When I’m with Bella it’s different because I love her I can control my hunger and my thirst but when I’m with Erica… I always feel on the edge like when I’m out hunting and worst of all I can’t read her thoughts just like with Bella so I never know what she’s thinking. I can never admit this to Bella but Erica is the most beautiful girl I’ve ever seen, and after 200 years on this planet I’ve seen a lot of girls. I think Emit and Jasper feel it too there something different about her something that makes her irresistible. The night I broke into Bella’s old room accidentally I saw her sleeping peacefully on the bed her neck fully exposed and her sweet sent filled the room. It took every ounce of self control I had to get out of the room I’m sure she saw me but she didn’t say anything the next day so I gathered that she was still sleepy and thought it was all a dream and when Bella told me she might be missing I stayed put in the mansion choosing tomorrow to go hunt. I wouldn’t want to go into hunt mode and suddenly find her out there alone I don’t know what I might do.

 

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Erica’s point of view

 

Today I woke up feeling inspired I wanted so badly to sketch the wolf I had seen yesterday so I woke up extra early and opened the cheap sketch book I had bought back home. When I was done and dressed I made breakfast for Charlie and Bella .The one thing I’ve learned after all this years of living with a mother that travels so often is that you have to know how to cook or else it’s an all you can it junk food buffet. Charlie enjoyed it Bella wasn’t there so Charlie took me to school. When I met Jessica in the hall way she apologized for ditching me.

‘’Hey no harm no foul’’ I assured her.

‘’but we still need the mushroom fungi’’

‘’no problem I seduced mike into giving me some of his lunch’’

‘’ha ha very funny’’

It then dawned on me that she had a crush on him one which he is not aware of. As class began my teacher was going on about the women’s reproductive organs and as he showed the real life pictures of the outsides of the breasts some boys let out a mouth full of laughter while others blushed quietly. After school I finished all my homework and I decided to take Seth up on his offer and go visit him and Billy.      

 

 

                                                  

 

Chapter 6

Chapter 6: GUESS WHOSE BACK

                           

                               Jacobs Point of view

 

 

I could smell her sent as she approached I told everyone to leave they couldn’t deny me, she was my soul mate and if I wanted private time with her that’s what I would have. I made as if I was busy working on a bike but the anticipation got the better of me and I couldn’t help looking at her when she finally came close enough to talk to me her eyes widened she paused for a second and said the words ever so softly

‘’Jake…your back’’

With those words I instantly remembered her Erica .Bella’s cousin we used to be close as kids she was even my first kiss.

Everything I had planned to say had melted away and all I could think of was

“Riki’’

“You remember me?’’ she asked

“How could I ever forget?’’ I asked.

 My heart seized she was so gorgeous and she was standing so close to me I could hear the sweet rhythm of her heart beat fast and slow fast and slow. She looked at me for a while and then before I knew what she was doing she embraced me soft and tender she whispered in my ear

‘’I was worried about you’’

She was resting her head on my chest and I took a deep whiff of her sent it was so intoxicating I didn’t want to let go of her I wanted us to stay this way for ever ‘’

So where is every one?’’

She finally broke the silence.

‘’ Err I don’t really know. Do you want to come inside?’’ I know that was a really lam answer but what else was I supposed to say.

‘’ Ok sure.’’

As I was about to leave and start for the cottage she tugged on my sleeve.

‘’Jacob you kept your promise’’

Instantly I knew what she was talking about. When we were kids the night before she left for California we sat by the river together she was eleven and I was twelve. In fear of never seeing her again .I planted a nervous sloppy kiss on her lips. I made her promise me that someday no matter how long it took she would come back. And she made me promise to wait for her. After all these years we managed to keep our promises.

‘’You to I replied’’

When we finally entered the house we sat down and talked and laughed for hours on end no one ever got my sense of humour like she did. As she smiled I fell in love with those dimples I wanted so badly to go over to the side of the table and cradle her in my arms, but I remember what Billy said a love as strong as the imprint might be startling so I had to take it slow. She told me all about her life in California and how she had taken up art as therapy but actually became really good at it.

“That’s because everything you touch turns into gold’’ I punched myself mentally realizing how cheesy that sounds. For the rest of the afternoon we had just enjoyed each other’s company she didn’t tell me about the wolf in the woods I figured she kept me a secret from everyone only   I knew exactly what happened that magical afternoon.  

I

, Jacob Black,

                 Fell

                         In  

                            Love…

 

 

                        Erica’s Point of View

 

After returning home from a wonderful visit with Jacob I hit the shower and went to bed. I hadn’t realized how long I was there to be honest I didn’t want to leave for some reason I felt whole when I was with him I felt at peace. God nobody makes me laugh as much as he does with his really cheesy jokes. I couldn’t deny the fact that his sex appeal was way over scale I had made myself from 1 to 10 and that’s how I would judge guys at a party or at a mall but Jake was like a bright red rose among a dozen of white ones he was very eye catching I wanted to ask him since when did he become so damn sexy but I didn’t. When I was with him I wanted to do crazy things that I would never be caught dead doing anywhere else like dancing. I didn’t feel shy when I was with him although my eyes where hazel the whole time I was there it meant I was happy and when thy where green it meant I was in love grey meant I was sad. I never liked the fact that they changed colour it was weird and for some who knew me like my mother it was easy to see if I was laying. But it was hardly noticeable unless I actually pointed it out. As I lie on my bed with the small bird’s feather in my hand I can’t help but think how much my life has changed over the last few days. Downstairs I heard the door open it was probably Charlie coming back from his night shift. But I heard two pairs of footsteps and there was whispering. I couldn’t quite make out what they were saying but if I was quiet enough

‘’Where is she?’’

‘’She’s… asleep…why?’’

And then I couldn’t hear anything after that, I was sure they were talking about me I wanted so badly to know what they were talking about. So I stood up quietly and tip toed my way to stairs I could hear everything now and I really wish I hadn’t, because what I heard was way too much info than I ever wanted to know! It was Edward and Bella discussing the wedding plans and their honeymoon. I heard Bella ask when he was going to change her and to keep the promise he had made for her about having a physically normal honeymoon. I couldn’t understand what she meant and why was there any question of her having a normal honeymoon unless…O.M.G! Does he have some form of erectile dysfunction and what did she mean by changing her. It was at that moment Edward grabbed me by my arm and nudged me forward so that Bella was aware of my presence. Ouch. I moaned that hurt!

‘’ell looks who’s eves dropping on our conversation.’’

I felt enraged at his accusations.

 ‘‘I wasn’t eves dropping!’’ I spat the words out at him.

“Then what where you doing hiding underneath the stairs?’’

    “I-I was just… Erm thirsty and I wanted to get some water that’s why I was passing the stairs on my way to the kitchen and I couldn’t help overhearing.’’ Edward was silent there was nothing he could say to combat my lie. I was actually proud of myself for not losing my calm I never told lies before so I wasn’t really good at this or so I thought but I never made eye contact my eyes changing colour would be a dead giveaway. Bella interrupted my train of thought with her next question.

“How much did you actually hear?’’

 

Nothing I replied I guessed Edi’s mechanical problems was not a heated topic right now so I lied again.

 

“Are you sure?’’ He asked me in an anxious tone.

‘’Well I did hear some smooching and wedding plans and… Bella began to blush my plan to change the subject was working. ‘’So if you don’t mind I’d like to go back to bed now’’.   Oh ok said Bella I take you to school tomorrow.  Ok goodnight Bella I said and then I turned slowly to Edward who was still clutching on to my arm as a signal to let go. He got the idea and released my arm which was bitter cold by now it was almost as if I put my hand in the freezer for a long time nevertheless I greeted him and returned to my safe warm bedroom.

 

                   

Chapter 7

                   CHAPTER 7: FIRE AND ICE

 

 

This morning my alarm clock was busted so I woke up later than usual also to find out I was the only one left in the house. Oh well id only miss period one and as for Mr. Herbert ill just bat my eyelashes and tell him how truly sorry I am works all the time. So as I showered and got dressed I was really in no rush. By the time I came into the kitchen I was really hungry and was only focused on my mission to find food. Which is why I didn’t notice Jacob sitting there at the breakfast table until he cleared his throat? I spun around to find him there with a huge grin on his face.

‘’hungry?’’ he asked holding up a brown paper bag.

My stomach replied to his answer with a great roar he laughed feeling pleased with himself.

‘’Jake w-w what are you doing here’’

 

‘’well I came here to see Charlie but he was already out so I figured I’d wait for you to wake up and I’d give a tour of the town personally’’

 

‘’Oh but how did you get in?’’

‘’I got the spear keys my dad and the chief are really close’’.

‘’oh.’’ was all I could say at that moment. So I pulled out a chair opposite him and began to eat the jam scones I found inside the paper bag.

‘’so how is your mother.’’ he began.

   ‘’ Vanessa is   Erm she’s okay apart from bad debt and having our house reclaimed’’ ‘’How’s your mom Jacob?’ He looked down at the table and whispered so softly it was hard to hear what he was saying.

‘’She’s dead.’’

The news hit me like a ton of bricks I was astounded I was on the verge of tears I remember Rachel she was a kind woman and she was always good to me and I didn’t even know she was dead. I didn’t know what to say and when I finally did manage to say something I disappointed myself at how it sounded

 

‘’I’m so sorry Jake I didn’t even know’’ He lifted his head and his expression looked as though he was in anguish. Without thinking I placed my hand over his.

‘’I sorry Jake I really am I know what it feels like to lose a parent.’’

‘’There’s no need to be sorry it happened a long time ago’’

He added a goofy smile for special affects and then looked down at my hand on his. I felt a slight blush creep up my face.

“Im sorry I got your hands all sticky’’ And as I started to move my hands away he held on to them and lifted my index finger to his lips

“No it’s ok I like jam’’ And then he slowly and tenderly began to lick my finger I gasped every nerve in my body was tingling. When he let go of my hand he looked me straight in the eyes your eyes just turned colour he said. I noticed they do that often. Yes my doctor said he couldn’t figure out what makes them change colour but he said it was not affecting my eye sight at all so… they just didn’t do anything about it. Oh well I think it’s cool that they can change I have never seen them that colour though.

“Why what colour are they?’’ I asked.

“Well there kinda green’’ he replied.

  Oh crap! I shouted in my head could my eyes be telling me something?

 

A FEW MINUTES LATER

 

After we were done eating he persuaded me in to ditching school and spending the day with him. I made a bit of a fuss but I truly did want to go with him. He led me out side to his motor bike and handed me the smaller helmet of the two and started the engine. I had to admit that single moment was one of the most exiting ones I had since I came to forks. Partly because I’ve never been on a motor bike before but also because I was so close to Jake. Before he began to ride the bike he turned around and said

“Hang on tight!’’

So I did. I wrapped my arms around him and leaned my chest onto his back he’s body tensed a bit and I had a feeling of satisfaction knowing that I made as nervous as he made me.

The whole ride was pleasant his body was so scorching hot that the air around me didn’t make me cold at all. As we came to a curve I held on to him for dear life afraid I might just fall of.

He’s body tensed even more I realized I might be squeezing the life out of him so I let go of my grip a little. When we finally arrived at our destination I didn’t want to get off I wanted to hold onto him forever and a just keep driving. He parked the bike and got of first and as my feet touched the ground my knees began to buckle and I was about to fall as his arms slipped around my waist and held me up.

“Easy there tiger’’ he said as he still held on to me bringing our body’s up against each other.

“Are you okay?” He asked.

“Yes.” I replied not certain exactly what happened to me.

“I just … lost my balance.” I told him.

He chuckled

“Your feet are still wobbly from being on the bike.” He explained.

“Oh.” I replied.

“But how come your fine?” I asked him.

“Well I’ve been riding for a long time my feet have adjusted.” He said with a smirk.

“Are you ok to stand? He asked.

“I think so. I replied and he let go of my waist still keeping on hand on me just encase. I was fine my feet seemed to have recovered and he let go. When we reached the building a large Singh read FORKS MUSEUM and once we got inside I was engulfed by the beauty of the ancient artefacts all around me.

There was a replica of native village and the tribe’s woman cleaning the hide of the buffalo skin, and tribe’s men sitting around the fire with the shaman and chief. “So what do you think?’’ Jacob asked me.

“I think it’s great but why the museum?’’

“Well I thought it was important for you to know about your heritage.”

I wriggled my nose at his answer well my grandfather was a native on my father’s side and that makes me well ¼ of a native. I guess I never thought of that side of my family often because most of them are dead and the rest probably don’t even know I exist.

“Oh come on Riki don’t tell me you never knew that your father was native.’’

He’s words brought me out of my trance.

“Yes I know just never thought of it much is all.’’

My eyes scanned the information boards and as we entered deeper into the museum we saw pictures of the American soldiers and their horses. As we got deeper into the main room one particular Singh caught my attention it read, “Certain native man and women were believed to have magical abilities they were able to transform their bodies into those of everyday animals.’’ I was astounded by this discovery quickly I yanked on Jacob’s sleeve,

“What is this?’’ I asked as I pointed to the Singh. He looked confused.

“What’s what?’’ He asked.

“Read it.’’

“Oh do you believe in that kinda stuff?’’ He asked in a hushed voice so no one else could hear him.

“Do you?’’ I asked him.

He leaned in closer to me so that now his face was only an inch away from mine. I could smell his cologne and I could feel his warm breath on my face. As his lips parted to speak goose bumps ran up and down my arms even though it was warm in this room. I imagined kissing them like I did so many years ago.

“I don’t know.’’ He said.

“But if it was true what would you think about it?’’

 

“To be honest I think it would be really awesome.’’ I replied.

He took a few steps back and grind at me.

“What?’’ I asked.

“Nothing’ He said.

                          

                                 ^^0^^0^^

 

When we left the museum Jake took me down to the city centre. It was buzzing with noise and chatter and various smells. As we walked down the pavement a homeless guy was sitting in a squatted position up against an old store. He held a Singh in his hand that said no food no money please help! I reached into my pocket and retrieved a couple of penny’s to throw in his hat as I bent over he grabbed my arm and began shouting franticly.

“God bless your soul! For the ones you love will be in grave danger! So will you! Run they’re coming run!’’

At that moment Jake yanked at the hands of the man of me and picked up the guy by his collar and looked him square in the face. As he let go the man fell to the ground and then he got up and took off. I then realized that everyone was staring at use from the shops store owners poked their heads out of their windows to see what was going on. After a couple of seconds every one turned around and went on with their business they probably thought it was a no good bum giving us trouble. When Jake turned around his attention went to my wrist which I was rubbing because it throbbed with pain.

“Are you okay?’’ He asked as if my life depended on it.

“Yeah I’m fine Jake’’

“Let me see.’’ He took my arm and examined it carefully.

“Does it hurt?”

“Not anymore.’’ I looked into his eyes and I was surprised at how warm he was. I remembered just yesterday how Edward had held the same wrist Jacob is holding right now. Edward was cold and hard like ice, he could be dangerous too. Jacob is warm like fire and inviting, gentle but he could also be deadly to protect the ones he cared about.

“Why are you staring at me like that?’’ He asked as he let go of my hand.

 I suddenly blushed as I realized that I was in fact staring and that he noticed.

“I’m sorry Jake I didn’t realize that I was doing it.’’

   “Erica Baines are you checking me out?’’ He said in a mimicking tone of an elderly woman.

I giggled as he said those words and because what he said was actually true but I wasn’t gowning to admit that now was I?

After we went to the arcade (which by the way I beat Jacob in almost everything) but he won’t admit it. He bought me a Sunday not because I wanted one but because we thought it would be something funny to see the looks on people’s faces as we ate our Sundays on such a cold day. After that it was really late and I had to get home before Charlie sent out a search party. Jacob promised to take me out again next time we agreed on the movies since had already been to every other cool hang out place in one day. God this town was small but I didn’t mind as long as I had Jacob I could never deem it boring. I just sat there and watched him eat he was so handsome and sexy and… whoa there I stopped myself from thinking any further and averted my gaze away from him. Ag! What’s wrong with me? I’ve never felt this crazy about anybody before. Jake turns me on in a way I can’t control it’s as if he’s got some weird spell on me or something. My body just reacts when he touches or smiles at me. It’s something I can never fully explain or understand. He is my friend for crying out loud. In fact he was like a brother to me growing up so why am I having this feelings and thoughts about him? It’s just… wrong.

“Is everything okay?’’ he asked his words zapping me out of my thoughts.

“Yes everything’s fine, Jake can I ask you something?’’

“Err okay shoot.’’

“Why did you … run away?’’

He’s smile suddenly dropped and his face looked sad as he seemed to be having a painful memory. I quickly realized how stupid I was for asking. He ran away because there must have been a really painful but valid reason. One I had no right to know and it broke my heart to seem this way. I wanted reach out to touch his hand and tell him that he didn’t have to answer my question. Before I could he began to speak.

Jacob: “I don’t really want to talk about it.’’

 

Erica: “it’s okay it was stupid of me for asking and it’s none of my business anyway.’’

 

Jacob:  “No its not… I just can’t talk about it yet.’’

 

Erica: “It’s okay really you don’t owe me any explanation.’’

Jacob let out a big sigh and leaned back on the chair rubbing his temples.

Jacob: “thank you for understanding you really are amazing.

I blushed at his words he called me amazing!

Erica: “No, thank you for today I had the best time.’’

He smiled at me and looked at my Sunday “Are you going to finish that?’’ he asked pointing at my hardly touched Sunday. To be honest I had completely forgotten about it.

Erica: “Lets share.’’ I said looking for an excuse to sit closer to him. For the next couple of hours we just enjoyed each other’s company it was really nice listening to all his stories about his family and friends. My heart skipped a beat every time he’s fingers grazed my arm or he’s knee went up against my thigh. Finally we decided to go home I was thrilled that I would get to wrap my arms around him again. Secretly I was waiting for that moment all day long. He got on the bike and I followed soon after and I got to do what I was waiting for. A small piece of haven in my day. I eagerly rapped my arms around him and leaned my head on his back, he was comfortingly warm and I soaked in every moment it. He smelled incredibly good to me, and as I inhaled his sent I could feel his body tense up again.

I found it a little amusing at how nervous I made him, and I giggled in my mind. Somehow no matter how hard I tried all the guys in my age group felt that way around me. They would always tense up as I spoke to them and some would even stutter. I didn’t understand why at first, but my mother had explained it to me as puberty and that they couldn’t control how there body’s reacted to mine. Of course I never felt the same way about boys. To me they were as interesting as math class and that’s not an overreaction. While all the other girls would fuss about parties and cute guys I was always had my head in my books. So this is why I’m so surprised that I can’t control myself around Jacob its crazy. As the bike slowed down I looked up and I realized we were getting closer to home. Wait did I just think of Charlie’s house as my home? Well that’s a first I guess this place was rubbing off on me.

The bike suddenly stopped and I was disappointed that I would have to relinquish my hold on Jacob. I didn’t want this moment to come to an end. I was too selfish I didn’t want to let go of him, but all good things have to come to an end. So I let go and waited for him to get of first, and then it was my turn. As I got off the bike my legs betrayed me and I began to topple forwards. If it weren’t for Jacob catching me I would of landed face flat. Instead lucky for me I landed in his arms.

Jacob: Are you okay?

 

Erica: Yeah I-I forgot that my legs would do that.

 Dam it! What’s wrong with me I’ve never stuttered so much in my whole life?

 

Jacob: Are you sure because I could carry you inside if you don’t feel up for walking.

 

Erica:No thank you I’m alright. I could even run a marathon.

 

He smiled that perfect toothy grin at me and my knees almost buckled again this time the bike had nothing to do with it.

 

Jacob: If you say so.

 

He walked me the door and I offered him to come inside but he reclined explaining that he was late for some sort of a meeting.

 

Before he left we said our goodbyes.

 

Erica: Thanks for today Jake I had a great time actually the best since I came to forks.

 

Jacob :If it made you happy then it’s my pleasure

 

I reached out and gave him a huge. At first he seemed shocked but then eased into it and embraced me as well.

 

When I eventually let go of him he walked over to his bike. He hopped on it and started then engine he waved at me and I reciprocated it. I got the keys out of my pocket and opened the door only to find a very angry looking Edward on the couch.

 

Huh-oh I’ve just stepped out of Jacobs warm and loving presences out of my burning fire and into Ice.

 

 

 

Chapter 8

CAPTER8: Nightmares

 

 

Edward looked really pissed off, and his eyes were jet black. He’s jaw was clenched and so were his fists. What was wrong with him I couldn’t have been that late…? I looked up at the old watch that rested on the living room wall holly crap it was already Ten thirty pm. Time fly’s when you’re having fun. Edward got up and started in my direction

 “Where have you been?’’ he asked in a sombre tone.

 

 “I was out with a friend” I retorted.

 

 “Do you have any idea what the implications of your actions are, or do you even know how worried Bella was not even beginning with Charlie.’’ 

With each word he took a step closer to me and now he was only inches away from me and I was backed up against a wall.

I was horrified I had never seen him look this angry before then again I didn’t know him that well either.

 

 “I left Bella a text message and I put a note on the fridge so why should anyone worry and where is Bella any way?’’

Edward shook his head my question must have caught him of guard.

 “Bella is in the shower at the moment and Charlie has a late night shift today, and they didn’t get your messages so I guess they did have reason to worry. Who exactly where you with?’’

 

 “Jacob.’’ At that moment I knew I shouldn’t have said what I had because he seemed to snap.

He lunged at me and grabbed my arm slamming it against the wall I let out a shriek as the pain engulfed my arm, and then almost as to silence me he started choking me. I tried to get lose but his grip was too tight how he could be this strong it’s impossible. I tried to call out to Bella but it was useless I could hardly breathe let alone speak. I started crying the tears streamed down my face why was he doing this to me! He loosened his grip slightly and I took in as much air as my lungs could take. He put his face to the side of my neck and started inhaling my sent. His lips parted slowly and he started planting kisses up and down my neck. He let go of my neck and pinned my shoulders to the wall this way I was face to face with him and I could not look into his eyes they scared me just as much as he did or even more. Please! Please! Please! Don’t hurt me I begged I was quivering now. He leaned in and before I knew it he was kissing me. I gasped and tried to push him away but to no avail. I pressed my lips together and turned my head to the side so that the side of my face was all he could see. He let out a hiss and began tearing of my jersey. At that moment I knew that he indeed was trying to rape me.

He put his ice cold hands underneath my blouse shivers went up and down my spine. I tried to stop him but it wasn’t enough. My body became limp I couldn’t fight any more he was much too strong for me and the pain I was going through was too much. He shook my body side to side like a rag doll and I moaned at the pain of the whip lash. He let go off my body and I collapsed on to the floor I was exhausted and terrified at what he was about to do next. I heard him take a few steps back and crouch on the ground.

“Oh my God I killed her.’’

At that moment Bella came down the stairs her hair all wet and only wearing a white towel. She saw what looked like my dead body on the floor and Edward crouched next me. Her face went blank as she put two and two together.

 

“Edward! What did you do?!’’ she screamed so loud that the vein on her neck popped up.

I tried to lift up my head to look up and as I did

BANG! The door was busted open and on the other side were Jacob, Seth, Quill, Embry, Jarred and Leah. I let out a silent prayer that they would help me. Jacob looked at me and instantly the playful caring eyes turned vile and lethal. Before I knew it Jacob glared at Edward and leaped into the air as he did this I could only hear the sound of clothes been torn apart. Where he should have landed was a huge wolf the same one I had seen in the woods my wolf the one I had grown so fond of. How was all I could think maybe I knocked my head as fell and I’m delusional or maybe I’m just having a nightmare? A really bad one. I tried speaking but the pain around my neck was too much I could hardly move my limbs. The giant wolf was not calm and gentle as I remember he was terrifying exposing a row of very big and very sharp teeth at Edward. Next thing I know Quill Embry and Jarred all leaped up and now my wolf was accompanied by three more wolves. Holly crap! Even I couldn’t dream this. All of the wolves were concentrating on Edward and they moved so quick that all I saw was flashes of colour pass by me. They pounced on Edward and I watched as they tore him to pieces. Oh god! They were killing him! The strange thing was that there was no blood it was only pieces of ice that were exposed on his body  he didn’t even put up a fight he just lied there as they ripped his head off. From the distance I heard Bella’s cries.

“No! Stop! Please Jacob no!’’

I felt faint as my body began to shake with fear I didn’t know how much more I could take of this. I felt a pair of warm hands holding me I looked up and it was Seth he began asking me something but I couldn’t hear him my pulse was beating too loud suddenly Seth became a blurry face and then darkness.

 

 

2 DAYS LATER In the reservation.

 

I drifted into a magical world after that. Everything was hazy and cosy too. Images of me and Jacob rolling in the lavender fields when we were kids passed by as if I was watching it in the cinema. At that thought I found myself seated in a large idealistic cinema all alone and I began to watch the story of my life from an audience’s perspective. The scene of me and Jacob in the lavender fields was the first and then as if by some miracle my six year old me became my eighteen year old me and so did Jacob. I watched in awe as I saw myself in the future I looked so grown up and well…beautiful! Jacob looked incredible with a bit of stubble on his face. He was much taller than he is know and much hotter. What happened next was unbelievable on the screen the laughter of children died out and was replaced by a wind chime like laughter and a deep throaty laugh. Jacob rolled on top off me and began kissing me with so much passion and drive that the real me which was sitting down and watching was about to explode with excitement. The fake me was not fazed though she kissed him back with just as much passion and enthusiasm as he had kissed her. The fake me began to moan and rip off Jacobs clothes as he did the same to her. It was then that I realized it was not her first time with Jacob because they didn’t seem nervous at all. Just as it was about to get to the good part the movie stopped and the screen went blank. Another movie began to play but this one was fast and dark and it made feel uncomfortable. That’s when I saw it the bone chilling image that will for always be branded in my head. Jacob standing on a cliff in the early morning he has no shirt on but he doesn’t seem cold. He was kissing Bella passionately and lovingly. I felt hurt and betrayed by both of them and for the first time ever I felt jealousy for my Jacob. As I sat in the cinema I couldn’t watch anymore I began to scream

“No! No! Take it off pleas take it off. I can’t watch anymore.’’

I felt a pair of hands shaking me as I was screaming. I heard a woman’s voice calling my name at first it was from a distance but then it got louder and louder until it eventually became so loud the person could have been right in front of me.

I slowly began to open my eyes and I saw Sue’s motherly faced looking down at me with a very concerned expression on her face. And then she began to speak

Sue: “Good heavens child you got us thinking you were dead.’’

I blinked my eyes at her so the cinema was only a nightmare and Jacob wasn’t really kissing Bella. Thank god.

Erica: “Dead?’’ I replied to her why would she think I was dead?

Sue: “Well you slept for two day straight.’’

 

My eyes nearly bulged out off my sockets.

 

Erica: “Two days! Why didn’t any one wake me?

It was only then my brain began working. Where was I? I didn’t recognize this place and how did I get hear and why does my head hurt? Sue seemed to pick up on my distress. She ran her hand though my hair to comfort me and my anxiety calmed a bit. As I tried to lift myself into a sitting position I flinched at the pain that came from my right arm.

“What’s the matter?’’ sue demanded.

I lifted my arm to examine myself and as I looked at myself I let out slight gasp. My arms where bruised beyond all recognition and my wrists showed the evidence of two purple finger prints around them.

“What happened to me?’’

Sue looked very displeased

“You mean you don’t remember?’’ she replied.

“No’’ I whispered

She looked at me once more this time with surprise.

Sue: “You must have knocked you’re head harder than I had anticipated.’’

I stared at her in confusion and I wondered if she would ever give me a straight answer. After a short while she stood from the side of the bed where she was sitting.

Sue: “I’ll tell you everything in good time but right now I assume you must be famished.’’ I was about to protest and demand that she tells me.  When my stomach let out a ferocious growl I flushed with embracement and she smiled a warm smile at me. She helped me out of the bed and showed me to the bathroom where bathed and groomed myself before exiting. Sue had lent me some of Leah’s old clothes. Her clothes where a bit too big for me and they hung loos around my body. After I had eaten my breakfast I was ready for answers, but she insisted I wait for everyone else to arrive before she answered my questions. I tried pleading with her but she would not have any of it. She simply instructed me to go lie down until they came. I had no energy to argue so I did as I was told. As I got up and started for the bed room the front door burst open and three pairs of feet shuffled into the room. I gulped as I realized one of them might be Jacob. I couldn’t let him see me like this all bruised up and in pain. I quickly dashed to the familiar room and closed the door. From the other side of the wall I could hear the voices off people talking. I placed my ear on the door and strained my ears to hear what they were saying. My suspicions were confirmed when I heard Jacobs voice conversing with Sue, Leah and Seth. I heard Jacob ask Sue if I had woken up yet. Sue replied and a few seconds later I heard footsteps coming towards me.

I quickly got into the bed and pretended to be sleeping. The door swung open and I slowly opened my eyes a slight bit to see who it was. It was Jacob he took a stool and stat beside me. For a long while he just sat there watching me I began to wonder how much longer I could stay still and then he began to speak

Jacob: “Hey princess how are you?’’

I fluttered my lashes and opened my eyes. It was no use pretending any longer. He looked down at me with a smirk a small victory for him.

 “How did you know I was faking?’’

 “Well, because you usually lay on your right side when you are really asleep.’’

 I looked at him in amazement what he said was true but how would he know how I slept?

 “And how would you know that?’’ my question seemed to catch him off guard and the smirk on his face faded away. By now my sarcasm became genuine curiosity. He was about to answer when Seth came charging into the room.   

“I’m sorry to interrupt but I thought I’d make sure you guys didn’t do anything nasty on my bed’’. Ok that was just really embarrassing. I noticed Jacobs light blush as well it was petty but it was kind of making him nervous.

“Ok is any one going to tell me what happened to me?’’

Jacobs gaze suddenly grew very cold all the warmth and familiarity I associated with him almost disappeared. And Seth who had been relatively quiet spoke up.

“Edward is what happened to you.’’ Looking at his face something at the back of my mind started to recall something and just then like a light been switched on I remembered everything and how I had gotten my bruises and eventually became unconscious and Seth being there and oh god his dead!

“Edwards dead! His dead the dogs killed him because he tried to kill me!’’ As I finished my sentence Jacob and Seth looked at me wide eyed as if I was crazy.

“Edwards perfectly fine.’’ said Seth in a perfectly calm way.

“What are you crazy you saw what they did to him even tuna can’t be shredded that much’’.

“I really don’t know what you saw but it must have been your imagination’’. A knot of anger began to grow inside of me those were the exact words they told me when I had tried to explain my father’s death 4 years ago. They had thought I was crazy and delusional because of grief for seven months after my father’s death I went to counselling trying to prove my stable sanity. To my determent it didn’t work and I began to believe that what I had seen was in fact just an illusion but the nightmares of that day still haunted me in my dreams and I became very anti social suffering in silence. In many ways coming to forks was like a clean slate. New start a way in which I could leave my past behind not relive it. So when Seth unknowingly accused me of begin crazy I lost it something in me snapped something I couldn’t control.

“I. Am. Not. Crazy! I know what I saw and unless you tell me what the hell is going on here I’m leaving  and ill find out myself.’’ I got out of the bed and began to make my way to the door when Jacob grabbed my arm. He looked into my eyes for a moment and seemed shocked. Damn! They must have changed colour again. He let go of me and began to speak.

“Ok we will tell you but you might want to take a seat. This is gona be one hell of a story. I don’t even know where to start.’’

“How about from the start’’ I heard a voice say it was Leah I took a seat on the bed. Seth plonked down beside me and whispered in my ear “Brace yourself.’’

Chapter 9

CHAPTER 9: THE TRUTH

 

Have you ever heard the term the truth hurts? Well it’s exactly what I was feeling right now. When Jacob began telling the story I sat there like a statue unable to speak or even fully comprehend what he was saying. All the while he explained to me what shape shifters were and that my father was one of them and heck he was even the pack leader the “Alpha’’. And that I possessed the gene and would become one of them when I turned sixteen. When he finished three pairs of eyes were fixated on me Leah’s, Seth’s and Jacobs. “So what do you think?’’ asked Seth.

I wiped my face surprised to find tears I had apparently been crying the whole time. I looked outside the window and it was already twilight the story must have gone on for longer than I imagined. I looked back at Jacob and began to speak.    

“I think that whatever your smoking it must be some real good stuff if you actually believe this.’’

“Were not lying and were not crazy drug addicts either.’’ Retorted Leah

“Look we are not taking you for a ride okay you wanted to know the truth well know you have it.’’ A jumble of emotions engulfed me so I wasn’t crazy all those years of isolating myself from normal teenage behaviour was for nothing. But then again I just discovered what I had always feared growing up I was indeed not normal. No this can’t be happening 15 and half years of living in this world had taught me there’s no such thing as monsters in your closet or underneath your bed. And that could not be erased by 4 hours of … I don’t even know what you call this. I began to speak.

“Show me.’’

 

“Show you what said Jacob?’’ with a wiry look on his face.

 

“You said you can shift any time you want to now I want to see it for myself then I will believe you.’’

 

Jacob looked at the others as if he was considering my request.

 

“Ok.’’ He finally said.

Ok?  I thought this all a joke and at any moment know someone was gona jump out of the closet and shout “smile you’re on candid camera.”

 

“But we have to go outside for this’’ said Leah.

 

I nodded and began to follow them outside. Strangely enough we didn’t stop in the yard and we travelled quite deep into the woods and my head was throbbing and my fatigue was rising.

“How much further’’ I asked

 

Jacob who was in front of me stopped abruptly.

“Why? Don’t you feel well?’’

I saw concern in his eyes and my heart melted under his gaze.

“Erm… is just a headache.’’

Before I knew what was happening he scoped me up wedding style and held me close to him. I began to protest to being treated like a baby but then I realized this is probably the only time I’ll get to be this close to him so I bit my lip and muttered a small “thanks’’.

We kept on moving until we reached an area that was densely covered with trees. I suppose if it was all true they wouldn’t want anyone else to find out about them. Jacob put me down again and every where our skin met it was like tiny static shocks all over that area. I stared at him for a second

“Wasn’t I heavy for you?’’ He looked down at me and smiled.

He walked over to this huge bolder the size of a car and picked it up. With a smug smile on his face he spoke. “Compared to this bolder your feather light.’’ I sighed and leaned against one of the trees and began to speak. “Really Jake at this point nothing should surprise me anymore, but you never cease to.’’ He looked at me again but this time with amusement in he’s expression as he began to speak “Well I hope I never stop I don’t ever want bore you.’’ I was about to tell him that he could never bore and that every moment I’m with him he takes my breath away. Ok well I wouldn’t really say that out loud but I was thinking it when I was interrupted by Leah coughing. “Sorry to interrupt you love birds but we came here for a reason and I don’t have time to waste.’’ She ended off by pointing at her wrist watch. Deep rushes of heat run up my neck and ears my cheeks were hot. She just insinuated that Jacob and I were in love ok I know it was a joke but even the thought of it gave me butterflies in my stomach. A couple of seconds ran by in uncomfortable silence. It was Seth who eventually spoke “So who’s going to do it?’’ Every ones gaze fell on Seth and an eerie understanding fell upon him “What me? No way why do I have to do everything no one else wants too?’’ I looked at Seth with an apologetic expression on my face “pleas Seth do it for me.’’ He's expression grew soft and he finally gave in. “Ok I’ll do it.’’ He stepped back from me and headed in the direction of a thick bush. A couple of seconds passed and when I looked up I saw it there it was huge and majestic. It was Seth and I was approaching me its real everything is real everything they have told me for the last couple of hour’s was the truth. Seth stood in front of me now close enough for me to touch him I lifted my hands and began to stroke his muzzle. He made a purring sound as if he really liked it. Jacob made a low kind of growling sound and Seth stepped away from me. “So what do you think’’ ask Leah.

I turned my attention back to Seth “Holy shit Seth you’re a dog!

                        

Chapter 10

                       CHAPTER: 10 Hunger

                    

 The next morning I woke up in Jacobs bed and I was surprised at how well id slept considering… well everything. It was really hard to believe everything that’s happened in the last couple of days it would be much easier to convince myself that I was insane then to believe the truth. Never the less it was true and I was going to learn to accept it. I showered changed and brushed all the tangles out of my hair. My hair looks just like my fathers, crow black and sleek touching my hips. Most of my features I got from my mother my figure my face my lips and my colouring, but my hair and my eyes were exactly like my fathers and my temperament too. Every time I styled my hair it reminded me of him. A knot started to form in the pit of my stomach and I realized how hungry I was. The last time I had eaten anything was yesterday afternoon. Yikes!

I got up from where I was seated and headed towards the kitchen. I was not surprised to find it empty it was rather early.

I made my way to the refrigerator and hesitated at the handle. Would Aunt Sue mind if I helped myself? As if responding my stomach clenched and a wave of hunger engulfed me. I flung open the fridge door I would have to go on the assumption that she wouldn’t. Inside was a variety of fruits and yogurts. I searched through the refrigerator vigorously desperate to find something non-vegetarian. Finally I found some meatloaf it was neatly wrapped in some cling foil. I ripped open the cling wrap and was about to re-heat it in the microwave when the smell of if reached me Oh- My- God! I had never been so hungry in my life my stomach was practically doing flip flops. I took a huge bite out of it and the taste was superb. Forgetting all my manners I devoured it as if I had never eaten in my life. Biting, ripping and chewing like a wild animal the meatloaf was gone within a few minutes. I sat down and my brain started working again. What the hell was wrong with me? I was truly astonished at how desperately hungry I was to eat such a large chunk of meatloaf in such a short period of time. As I pondered these thoughts in my mind I was too distracted to notice that was Leah standing in the hallway her mouth was gaping in shock. She entered the room and held up the cling wrap examining it closely. Her expression had changed from shock to understanding as she placed one hand on my shoulder and said.

 

“Its part of the change it’s like the earliest symptom and soon you’ll be one of us.’’

I looked at her in amazement the way she said “symptom’’ it’s almost like describing a disease. I was still a bit unsure about becoming a shifter I mean did I even want that? A tiny voice inside my head kept on reminding me that I really had no other choice.

 

“What other… symptoms are there?’’ I asked in a whisper.

 

She smiled at me and took a seat opposite mine.

 

“Well … (She began) you’ll have random heat flashes especially when you’re near the Cullen’s.’’ She said in a matter of fact way.

 

“Is it because they are Vampires?’’ I offer.

 

 

“Yes it is your natural alert system setting in. Since they are and have been our enemies for centuries our bodies have build up a defence against them almost like a warning when they are near us. The more there are the more intense it is’’   

 

 

I sighed as I remembered the day I was at the Cullen mansion. That’s probably why I had almost fainted. Everything just makes so much sense now. The alarming heat flashes and being so uncomfortable around them it was all instinct.

I listen intently as Leah continues.

 

 

“You will also find that your temperament changes and you often get dramatic mood swings for no apparent reason and you’ll have a very short temper.’’  

“That sucks.’’ I muttered.

 

 

“Yes, it does but it gets better with time as you learn how to control your temper it hardly bothers you anymore.’’

 

 

As she spoke a thought popped into my mind something I have been meaning to ask.

 

“Leah does it hurt when you shift into wolves?’’

 

 She looks a little caught off guard, but answers my question any way.   

                

“Only the first time, it felt as though my body was splitting into half it was the most agonizing thing I had ever experienced. For a moment I thought that things had gone wrong and I was dying, but when I came to I was a wolf and there was no pain just a lot of voices in my head. After the first few times it becomes surprisingly pleasant.’’

 

Bile rose up in my throat as she described the way it felt when she phased I couldn’t help but shudder. It just seems so…so painful.

 

“What voices?’’ I asked her.

 

“Well… when we phase for the first time we become connected to our pack so much so that we are able to hear their thoughts when we are in our altered state or not. Their emotions can become a bit overwhelming at times and being able read each other’s thoughts leaves very little or no privacy at all.’’

 

I thought about this for a second she called them a pack (like you would group of wild dogs.) I should have guessed that they could read each other’s minds after all you can’t speak when you’re a wolf and that’s the only form of communication. The fact that my most private and intimate thoughts and memories would become an open book is not my idea of fun, but being able to read their thoughts especially Jacobs would be kinda fun. Suddenly an idea came to me.

 

“So can you read every one’s mind like clearly or only the things they choose to show you?’’ I ask getting a bit exited.

 

 

“Pretty much anything they’re thinking about’’ She replies.

 

 

 

“Well… do you err know what Jake thinks of … err me?’’ I ask trying not to sound lame and failing miserably.

 

 

 

She looks at me and a smile tugs at the corner of her lips and I notice for the first time the dimples that form on her cheek.

 

 

 

“Yes, he likes you and so does everyone else.’’

 

 

I looked down at my knuckles and smiled to myself everyone likes me and the feeling is mutual I wish I could have stayed forever here with the so-called-pack. In this group of people I’ve only known for a few weeks I feel more at home than I ever did at California. Perhaps I have always been homesick and know I was truly at home.  

 

 

Chapter 11

 

                         CHAPTER 11: Surprise, Surprise!

 

Dear Diary                                                                                            21/9/2012              

 

It has been 2 weeks since I found out about werewolves and vampires. I haven’t seen or heard of Edward since the night he assaulted me. I am worried that what has happened is putting strain on their relationship. I am not sure if the wedding is still on or not. I started school a week ago and I constantly see the Cullen’s in the corridors or during recess. Bella keeps on apologising for what he has done to me and promises it will never happen again. I just hold my tongue and tell her its fine. She doesn’t know that I know he’s a vampire. She doesn’t even know that I’m a shifter. Poor Bella I feel sorry for her. L

I just hope they don’t call of the wedding because of me. Despite the fact that he tried to kill me, I know he makes her happy… very happy. I hope they can make a mends.     

 I have moved back in with Charlie and I’m comforted by the sight of the tiny room. Charlie doesn’t have a clue on what went down with me and Edward he was told I was having a “sleep over’’ with Leah-he was not happy about me leaving without permission though and he grounded me for a week-  and when I came back after the long weekend my bruises were long gone. Tonight Jacob invited me to the bon fire they are having at the reservation. I am sooo exited! :)

 

                                                           Erica

 

                                             ♦♥

 

 

This morning I woke up with a smile on my face I haven’t had a nightmare in a while now and that’s a good sign. It’s a Friday and the day of the bonfire. I opened my window and smell of the fresh air. It was a sunny morning but the wind was still chilly. It’s September and the trees are already shedding their leaves. The ground was covered by beautiful brown and red leaves. It’s as if the whole world is getting ready for 3 months of slumber. It’s always cold and rainy in forks but it only snows in winter. The soft white blanket covers the earth as you sleep, and then you awake to breathtaking sight. Oh how much I’ve missed the snow my childhood memories always featured them.

 

A couple of hours later:

 In Mr. Gershwin’s biology class

 

I found it hard to focus on what MR. Gershwin was saying. He was rambling on about some kind of biome I think It was aquatic. I wasn’t paying any attention though. I was too busy sketching the beautiful scenery outside. Suddenly the head mistress walked into the class room. Every ones attention shifted towards her. She is the type of woman that demands attention without saying a word. She began to speak

“Good morning class I would like to introduce you to our two newest students they are transfers.’’  She made a quick gesture of her hands as if to signal them to come in. Then she said their names.

“Jacob Black and Seth Clearwater’’

 My mouth hung open as I saw Jacob and Seth shuffle into the class room.

 

“No-way’’ I whispered to myself.

 

What was going on Jacob and Seth at Forks high? Something was just not adding up. The last time I had asked Seth why they still kept attending the school at the reservation he’d just said that there were too many vampires (leeches) as he referred to them, in the school. So why the sudden change of heart could there is something wrong? The teacher asked for their details which they handed to him in a small envelope. He then told them to take there seats. Unfortunately for me the only seats that was available where across the room from me.

 

The girl sitting next to me, Nicola leaned in to whisper in my ear.

 

“The one in the black t-shirt what is he’s name again?’’ she asked with a big grin on her face.

 

I looked over my shoulder to where Jake was seated our eyes met and we exchanged smiles and I began to answer Nicola’s question without taking my eyes of him.

 

“He’s name is Jacob.’’ I said.

 

She smiled and said his name.

 

“He’s hawt don’t ya think?’ she said in her southern bell accent.

I nodded as a response and started reading my text book. I was defiantly happy that he was here and I would get to see him more often. Yes my life has changed drastically since I came to forks and everything I ever thought was true was in fact a lie, and the amazing friends I’ve made. I have to fix things with Bella and Edward I just have to. I really worry about her with him he could do the same thing he did to me to her, but I I’ve seen the way he looks at her with love and tenderness and in my gut I know he’ll never really hurt her. My second priority is to learn as much as possible about shifters my birthday is in November so I only have a few months left of being… human. When I phase I will become different stronger, faster and smarter. Leah had already told me about the physical changes such as my body temperature rising to like 80 degrees. When she asked me why I never thought it was strange that they were always so hot I was taken aback. My father was always that temperature so grew up with it and I had just come to the assumption that some people were hotter than others. To me they didn’t feel so hot either they just felt warm in a cosy way. Billy explained that the reason for that was that since I contain the gene to shift the reactions my body had to the heat was less minute than that of humans. My thoughts were interrupted by the bell and my body went on auto pilot packing away my books. As I started for my locker I felt Jacob presence as he approached from behind. It was strange how I always knew he was near and the way my eyes would always wonder on him even in a crowded room. I turned around ready to bombard him with all my questions about him coming to forks high. But when I looked into his eyes my ability to form a coherent sentence disappeared. All I could think about was him.

“Hi.’’ I said trying not to sound like I just inhaled a helium balloon.

 “Hey’’ he says.

“So…are you going to tell me what’s up or should I guess?’’  I ask with some humour in my tone.

 

He smiled at me with his perfect row of teeth he’s eyes lighting up as if he had the greatest idea in the world.  As he begun to speak I noticed the cute dimple that formed on his chin.

 

“Well since you asked so nicely … I got a scholarship for football and I accepted.’’

 

I took this into consideration and then looked over Jacobs shoulders were Seth stood. 

 

“Him to’’ I asked pointing to Seth.

 

Seth looked at me at the mention of this and replied.

 

“Yes… but mine is for track’’

 

When I actually thought about this it did make a lot of sense since they were naturally so strong and fast they should easily do better than their human counterparts.

 

“Well congrats!’’ I said giving them my best smile in return for there’s.

 

“So are we all catching a ride home together?’’ I said.

 

“Yes, my father’s truck is parked at the entrance’’ Replied Jacob.

 

I smiled at this remembering the time I was on his bike so close to him so…happy. Then an image of Jacob Seth and I on the bike altogether gave me the giggles that would have been sooo weird.

 

 Later on that night

 

As I waited for Jacob in the living area I aimlessly flicked through the channels on TV. It was already eight fifteen he was supposed to pick me up at seven thirty why on earth is he so late? I watched the clock with such focus and intensity the image began to blur. I went through all the reasons why he could possibly be late and ended up with a few outrages ideas.

“Oh.’’ I sighed to myself alone on a Friday night potentially stood up by the guy I have a major crush on. While I was wallowing in myself pity the door bell rang. I immediately dashed for the door almost tripping with excitement. He came for me he cares! I thought to myself feeling quit giddy. I flung the door open only to be shattered by disappointment the person who stood in front of me was not Jacob but instead a mail man in his mid fifties with a receding hairline and crooked  coffee stained teeth. He smiled as he began to speak.

 

“Special delivery for… a Erica Bains.’’

 

“Yes that would be me.’’ I said a bit hesitantly.

 

“Please sign here’’ He said handing me a clipboard with a sheet clipped on to it. I signed on the dotted line and returned his clipboard. He then handed me a tiny box wrapped in black paper and tied neatly with a golden bow. I wished the man good night and closed the door. For a moment I just stood there in the hallway looking at the box in my hand too dumbfounded to even move. Who could have sent this? I went upstairs into my bedroom and collapsed on my bed maybe it’s my mom or maybe it’s an apology gift from Jacob. Either way I wasted no time in ripping of the gift wrap. Inside was a beautiful black swayed box. My heart fluttered as I opened it and saw what was inside. An exquisite pair of tear shaped diamond earrings. My eyes widened at the site of them they must be 10 carrots. Inside the box was also a piece of crimson red paper with loopy cursive written all over it. I unfolded it and began reading.

 

        Dear Erica

 

 

I sincerely hope you except this gift as a token of my apology. I understand that what I have done is unforgivable, and I am well aware that you must despise me. I appreciate the fact that you haven’t laid any charges against me. There is no excuse for what I have done to you and I have been avoiding you out of shame and fear that I won’t be able to control myself around you. Never the less I know no gift will ever make up for what I did to you but I’m hoping this could be a start.

 

                                                                            Edward Cullen

       

I stared at the note blankly trying to make sense of the words and the emotions that accompanied them. Well that was totally not what I was expecting. Obviously the dude was remorseful but could I ever forgive him? Does he think he can by my trust so… so easily? I don’t think so Erica Bains cannot be bought off. If he wants my trust back he’ll have to earn it. Today has certainly been full of surprises Jacob transferring to my school, Jacob standing me up for tonight’s bonfire and getting 2million dollar earrings from the guy who just recently tried to kill me. A yawn escaped my lips as I put the earrings and the note in my drawer. I looked at the time it’s eight thirty. By now it’s evident that Jacobs not gowning to show so slip of my jeans and t-shirt and pull on the night gown my mother bought for me. Heading to the bathroom I brush my teeth and hair. I sat on the couch waiting for Charlie to come home since I fear sleeping in an empty house. I am starting to watch a movie when I doze off. I guess Jacob has his reasons for ditching me and as for Edward well I’ll cross that bridge when I get to it. Surprise - surprise.    I hear the TV boom and I chuckle to myself and what a surprise today has been.   

 

 

                              

 

 

Chapter 12

                                  Chapter 12: Forgiveness

 

I woke up feeling cold and disgruntled. Last night I had another nightmare of my father being murdered but this time my dream ended differently instead of hearing the door slam closed in my dreams I got to see the face of the murderer. He's crimson red eyes staring at me boring wholes into my own. As I tried to look away I felt myself falling into an endless dark pit of nothing. I kept on falling deeper and deeper into hell with nothing to cling onto no one to save me I had no salvation as continued my free fall spiralling into what could only be described as the pits of despair. As I hit the bottom I woke up on the floor of my bedroom relieved to find out it was only a dream. I must have fallen of the bed. I picked myself of the floor and began collecting my bearings. Still shaken from the nightmare I had I tried to recollect the events of last night. Immediately my mind went to the diamond earrings. I headed over to the bedside drawer that I had stashed it in last night. Sure enough there it was the tiny velvet box exactly where I had left it. I closed the drawer and went down stairs were I was met by a half asleep Charlie sitting on the couch in his pyjamas eating crap and watching baseball. I sat down beside him and he looked at me with squinted eyes.

“Morning’’ he said sheepishly scratching his head as if trying to remember who I was.

 

“Morning’’ I whispered back to be polite clearly he had a hangover.

“So” I said speaking in a whisper so I did not aggravate his headache- “why aren’t you at the station today?”

 

“It’s my day of and I have to do my fitting for the wedding today, which reminds me get dressed the brides maids dresses are getting tailored too and we’ll have to be at the Cullen mansion for that.”

 

I was surprised to learn that Charlie would have to go through a fitting as well but I guess as father of the bride it was a protocol to look smart at the wedding. As I thought of this I felt a pang of pain my father will never get to walk me down the aisle someday. Without objection I dragged myself upstairs, got myself ready and we were out of the house within an hour. As Charlie pulled up in their drive way I felt a steady heat creep up my skin and I remembered who or rather what they were “vampires’’. I started to squirm a little in my seat I was getting hotter and hotter by the minute. Finally I opened the car door and got out to get some air. As Charlie and I walked to the front door of the mansion the crunch of leaves under our feet was the only sound in the air. I noticed that not even one bird hovered near; they probably knew what would happen to them if they got too close.

 

Charlie lifted his hand to ring the door bell but before he got the chance the front door swung open. Alice stood in front of us beaming in delight and asking us to come in. Charlie accepted the invitation and went in without a moment of thought greeting Alice happily and asking for Bella. I however hesitated not able to completely trust any of them, but eventually I had to go in and despite my hesitation Alice didn’t seem to be affected at all greeting me with the warmest of smiles as I reciprocated. She wasted no time as she shoved me into one of the rooms that was littered with beautiful dresses.

 

“Where is everyone?’’ I asked suddenly feeling a bit nervous being in a room alone with a vampire.

 

 

“Their all with Esmae` and Rosalie but I’m only doing your fitting today since I did all the other brides maids weeks ago’’

 

I sighed as I looked at all those dresses today’s going to be a long day.

 

“So what are we wearing.’’ I asked trying to sound enthusiastic.

 

“We are not wearing anything.’’ She said in a chirpy tone.

 

I was taken aback by her statement so much so that I surprised myself with what I said next.

 

“Really then who are all those dresses for… the groomsmen?’’

 I heard someone laughing from downstairs and I was surprised that they heard my joke but then I remembered vampire hearing it’s really worse than being bugged by the CIA. 

Usually I wasn’t sarcastic or funny, but I guess she really did give me the perfect opportunity. Hmm I guess Jacobs rubbing off on me. She responded to my sudden outburst of Witt with a slight giggle and then said.

 

“No silly, what I mean is we won’t all be wearing the same thing like at a traditional wedding anyway. I decided that each of us gets too pick out something of our choice. You know like what would suit us best –with my help and final decision of course- it will make everyone a lot happier.’’

 

I rolled my eyes internally. I didn’t really know Alice all too well but from what Bella has already told me about her obsession with fashion I’m sure the choice will be mainly hers. 

 

“So’’-I said all too eager to get this over and done with. “Let’s do this’’

 

Alice beamed at my statement and led me to where all the dresses laid spread out on the bed. Then she put her index finger on her chin and studied me with here golden eyes.

And then she held up a crimson red strapless mini dress. It was made out of some sort of latex material and I absolutely refused to wear that. I mean hello… it’s a wedding not a striper convention. Of course I didn’t say that out loud. What I said aloud was.

 

“Gee… Alice I don’t think I’m allowed to wear something like that … at a… wedding.’’

 

 

“How about this one?” she said. Putting down the red dress and holding up a pink frilly dress with bows and flowers sowed on to it. At this point I don’t know which one is worse the slut ala` slut or the goldilocks dress. Before I even said anything she let out a sigh and put the dress down holding her palms towards me she said.

 

“I know, I know pinks not your colour.’’

 

I looked up at her in astonishment.

 

“How did you know I was going to say that?’’ I asked.

 

“Well that’s my gift I see the future and right now I’m seeing Bella walking up the stairs shell be here in about, oh five seconds or so.’’ That’s when she began the countdown.

“5-4-3-2-1.’’ And sure enough the door swung open and there she was just as Alice had predicted.

 

I clapped my hands and looked at her admiringly although it wasn’t the most shocking thing I had seen lately but it was in its own right amazing.

 

“That’s amazing Alice.’’ I said truly in awe of her “gift’’.

  She twirled around and then took a bow.

 

“Thank you’’ She said with a grin on her face. “Thank you very much.’’   

 

At that moment Bella interrupted our conversation.

“Err… what are you guys talking about?’’

 

“Bella did you know Alice can see the future?’’

 

I asked getting all exited. I mean really there’s so much I want to know about my future.

 

“Oh.’’- Bella said- “That explains it.’’

 

“Explains what?’’ I asked.

 

“Why you have a big grin on your face and, before you ask she can’t tell your fortune or anything like that. She can only see random visions that come and go any time. Although if she concentrates on a particular person hard enough she is able to see something’s but even then if that person changes their mind the vision might not come true and the future will change.’’

 

I felt like a deflated balloon after hearing all of this-so much for knowing my future- I guess I’ll just have to live it like everyone else. I tried not to look disappointed though I really did but I guess it must have shown since Alice looked at me and said.

 

“Hey if I do see any of your future ill be sure to let you know ok.’’

 

“Ok’’ I said at least it was something to start with.

 

“Now what do you think about this one?’’ She said holding up a long black silk dress.

“Well… I like it.’’ I said.

 

“I thought you might, now go try it on.’’ She said practically shoving me in to the bathroom.

 

I held the dress in my hands looking down at it. It seemed simple enough but was also elegant in its’ own right. As I slipped of my clothes and placed them on the edge of the bathtub neatly, I began to notice that my earlier discomfort of a heat flash was considerably subdued know. I suppose the others must have left. I slipped on the dress feeling its soft silk on my skin. I studied myself in the mirror before stepping out of the bathroom. The dress fit me perfectly and emphasized all my curves. It formed a puddle of black silk at my feet. It had a long slit where my right leg was sticking out. The neckline was low but not too low and was loose and flowing towards the end. I turned around and the back of the dress was a really low cut. My whole upper back was exposed. I loosened my hair out of the bun I had tied it in this morning. It fell over my shoulders and rested around my hips. That’s much better I thought massaging my scalp as I began to exit the bathroom. When I stepped out and looked up at Bella and Alice I saw their mouths gaping open. It was Alice that snapped out of it first and began to speak.

 

“It’s perfect! I mean the length and the colour and the way it hugs you’re body, its-it’s beautiful. And it brings out your eyes so wonderfully. You must take it… you were born for that dress! I mean who knew you had such potential.’’

 I blushed slightly I have never been complimented and insulted at same time before. I mean talk about being politically incorrect. She basically just said you look so pretty now that you’re out of you rags Cinderella. I guess me being the person that I am, I won’t hold any grudges.

 

“You really think so?’’ I asked twirling just like Alice had a few moments ago.

 

“Of course, you look amazing.’’ Bella said.

 

“Well I suppose we don’t have to do any tailoring to that dress its already perfect for you.’’ Alice said and then she added before she left the room.

“Why don’t you get dressed and meet us downstairs for brunch.’’

 

Brunch I thought to myself do vampires even eat?

 And the smaller more cynical voice at the back of my head said of course they do...they just eat people.

I went back into the bathroom and changed back into my own clothes. I looked at myself in the mirror once more this time I looked more like my old self. Before I left the bathroom I hanged the dress on a hanger and made sure that I didn’t leave a mess in the immaculate bathroom. When I came out of the bathroom I noticed that Bella had left and in her place was Edward. I recoiled at the sight of him remembering my last encounter I had with him and let’s just say it was not a good one.

 

There was deafening silence in the room the only sound was my pulse beating rapidly in my ear. He broke the silence first.

 

“I won’t hurt you again I promise… I’ve just hunted a minute ago and the burning is not so bad. Please don’t be afraid of me.’’

 

I looked at him from where I stood and plucked up enough courage to talk.

 

“I-I… I am not afraid of you.’’ I lied. I was very much afraid of him.

 

“Did you get my gift? I know it will never make up for what I did and I know you’ll never forgive me but…’’

 

I don’t know what made me say this, but I did. When the words came out of my mouth they surprised even me, let alone him.  

                  

 “I forgive you Edward.’’ I said in a strained voice.

He looked at me with his eyebrows so high they could touch his hair line.

 

“You… forgive me?’’ he said as if he didn’t understand what those words meant.

 I sighed and slipped my hands into my jean pocket and pulled out the tiny velvet box that held the pair of diamond earrings and walked over to a table where I put it down with a thump.

 

“I forgive you; I think I have a long time ago. I don’t trust you though I don’t think I ever will. You know trust has to be earned and so far you haven’t done a good job of that. Also I can’t accept your gift because trust can’t be bought either… and neither can forgiveness. The only reason I’m giving you the time of day right now is because of Bella. I love her like a sister and she loves you more than anything else… apparently even me. Even though you did what you did to me and don’t get me wrong I did hate for a while but then I couldn’t hate you anymore because I had no more hatred left. I still believe you will never hurt Bella. It’s obvious that you love her and I … don’t want to ruin that love. We can be civil to each other at least in public, but don’t touch me… don’t ever touch me ever again unless I say it’s ok.’’ I was breathless after I finished my speech. To my disbelief Edward looked even more stunned than before. That’s when he opened his mouth to speak.

 

“I don’t know what to say… thank you and I won’t touch you ever again. I promise you that.’’

 

At that moment I looked up at him and saw how sullen his face looked.  I gave him a light smile before I left the room. When I reached the door I turned around to look at him one last time and said.

 

“Lighten up it’s your wedding tomorrow.’’

 

He looked up at me and smiled before he said.

 

“I know.’’ 

 At that moment I walked out of the room and closed the door behind me feeling a sense of relief to finally get that awkward moment over and done with. Finally I allowed myself to breathe again and let my guard down. It was as if a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders and for once I was looking forward to the wedding tomorrow. As I started down the staircase towards the kitchen I couldn’t help but wonder what beautiful thing forgiveness is.      

         

 

 

 

Chapter 13

                           CHAPTER 13: Ignition

 

As I landed on the final step of the stairs I felt my heart leap in my chest. The person who stood in front of me was the last person I expected to see in the Cullen household, but never the less there he stood in front of me with a big grin on his face.

 

“What are you doing here Jacob?’’ I asked.

 He gave me a look of mock sadness as he spoke.

 

“A simple hi Jacob, it’s nice to see you! Would be nice you know’’ he said mimicking my voice.

 

I internally rolled my eyes and gave him my best smile before I delivered my come back.

 

“You know what would be nice?’’ I asked in my most seductive voice while flicking my hair over my shoulders exposing my neck. I stood on my tip toes so that my face would be level with his as I waited for him to answer looking deeply into his eyes.

 

 

“I-I… don’t know w-w-w- what?’’ He asked stuttering like crazy.

 

“Gee, I don’t know Jacob maybe if you had actually showed up last night!’’ I spat the last bit out and shoved him away from me. He looked shocked even more so than Edward had and that’s when I realized what I had done. It’s almost as if I had snapped out of a spell or something. That’s when I began speaking again.

 

“Jacob I’m sorry I don’t know what came over me I don’t even know where that came from I was normal one minute and the next I’m ripping your head off I’m so, so, so sorry.’’

 

He looked down at me and took my hand in he’s I felt a jolt of static run up my hand.

 

“It’s ok… its part of the change your bodies going through you know like mood swings and stuff and shifters naturally have short tempers believe you me I’ve had my fair share of saying things I didn’t mean.’’

 

Oh my god I think I love him. I mean can you ever ask for any one more perfect. Seriously forget the fact that his a total hunk for 1 second and you’ll see how strong willed he is how caring he is and how down to earth and funny he is and also how understanding. Seriously I probably don’t deserve to have someone so special in my life, no one does, I mean for Christ sake his practically a fictional character in every girls dreams. No I don’t think you could ever ask for someone more perfect than him and if you do you ought to be shot right there and then because you’ll never get what you ask for.

 I was about to say something when he put his finger on my lip and told me to shush as he continued to speak.

 

“You’re right to be mad at me for not showing up last night I’m really sorry about that.’’

 

I was about to say it was ok and tell him not worry but he interrupted me again.

 

“No let me finish’’- he said as he continued- “The only reason I couldn’t make it was because some new vampires are in town and we had heard reports about suspicious deaths in the area since their arrival. First we thought they were just passing by but now we have reason to believe that they are here for different reasons. There are three of them that much we could tell just by sent. Whatever they were doing here Sam and everyone else decided that they had long overstayed their welcome and we went to illuminate them. We were chancing them all night long and eventually we were able to take down two of them easily enough.  The third one escaped and we were unable to relocate that slimy little leach again.’’

 

When Jacob was done speaking I felt so small. While he was out there making sure the town was safe the whole night I’m here wining like a little brat about him not being there last night. I mean how pathetic must I seem to him. I really just wanted to jump off a cliff at that moment. I really don’t deserve him I could live a thousand life times and still not deserve him. Then again I don’t really have to worry about, not deserving him, since technically his not mine in the first place. I wish he was though. It was as I was pondering these thoughts his voice came slamming into me like a ton of bricks.

 

“So’’-he said- “to make it up to you how about we go to the movies tonight just me and you.’’

 

I blinked at him, what was I supposed to say any way? Oh wait I know before my brain starts yelling say yes you stupid idiot! Say yes! I said:

 

“That would be great, I’ve been meaning to watch the movie for ages.’’ I was pleased with my reply I didn’t even stutter not once. He placed he’s hand on my cheek and tilted my face slightly so I would look at him. OH GOD is he going to kiss me. My heart began drumming against my ribs so hard I thought it was going to fly out of my chest. As he leaned in closer our faces just inches apart I could feel the heat emanating of he’s body. I became deaf to the world as the pulse in my ear became so loud I thought my eardrum would burst. Each and every inch of my body was sizzling with anticipation. Craving for his touch and dying for his kiss. My eyelids closed and I could feel his warm breath on my lips I could smell his familiar sent that always accompanied him. And for a moment I held my breath. That’s when he let go of me and I saw Emit and Carlisle standing in the door way. I made a mental note to assonate both of them. I’m completely serious for a second I was really considering ripping out their throats. How could they ruin such a perfect moment with such a perfect guy (morons). I immediately felt myself flush red and it wasn’t because I was embarrassed. I was mad real mad just like before. Suddenly I felt wave of calm hit me, I was so relaxed all of a sudden and that’s when I saw Jasper walk into the room looking highly irritated look on his face he began to speak.

 

“What the hell is going on here? I thought I was being attacked by all the emotions’’

 

I was truly baffled by his statement. What on earth was he talking about emotions and how could they possibly “attack’’ him? I was about to ask Jacob what he was talking about, but before I could open my mouth he answered my unspoken question.

 

“Remember when I told you that one of them was empathic… well that’s Jasper.’’

 

I suddenly understood why I was feeling so calm Jacob had explained to me a couple of weeks ago that certain vampires had empathic abilities which meant that they could feel other people’s emotions and also manipulate it, so that they made people feel any emotion they wanted them to feel. It was this stark realization that unsettled me… I did not appreciate people being able to literarily toy with my emotions, although this wave of calm was highly appreciated over my former outburst of rage.

 

While I was deciphering the situation in my mind Emit began to speak.

 

“That’s exactly what I was wondering jazz, I could feel the tension from all the way in the forest.’’ He paused for a moment looking a bit puzzled and then directed his next question at me.

 

“What happened her any way I thought you and Edward were…and I came as quickly as I can , but obviously your fine so why do I feel like I can cut the tension in this room with a knife?’’

 

I blushed a little at his words he was actually concerned about me! Maybe I should cut him some slack and remove him from my hit list. However I decided to ignore his question figuring it would be too hard to explain and directed my attention to Jasper once again.

 

“Are you the reason I’m feeling so calm right now?’’ I asked.

Jasper who had somewhat been in a trance snapped out of it at the sound of my voice and nodded his head as a way of saying yes.

To my astonishment Jacob began to explain to them that my sudden outburst was due to the fact that I was turning into a shifter and that everything was alright. And there was no need to worry.

 After hearing this news the small crowd dispersed and headed into the direction of the kitchen. Jasper however had not yet moved from his position by the staircase caught my eye and before I left the room I mouthed the words thank you before I exited the room and made my way to the kitchen. He saw this and returned a smile to me.

 

In the kitchen we were met by Esmae`, Rosalie, Alice and Bella.

The kitchen was wide and spacious as it over looked the forest. The décor was white and the counters were made of black marble. There was a single island that was right in the centre of the room. That was surrounded by eight stools. On the rare occasions that the sun shone, I can imagine it filling up the area that would result in a stunning image. If I had my sketch book here I would draw it, it was beautiful.

 

I greeted Esmae politely and complimented her on her extravagant kitchen. As for Rosalie well… a simple “Hi’’ was all I could manage for her right now.

 

I sat down on the stool and Jacob sat down in the on right next to me soon everyone but Esmae` followed as she was busy cooking.

 

“So... what’s on the menu?’’ Jacob asked Esmae in eager tone.

 

“Oh I’m afraid nothing much’’ -she said-“Just jam and toast with some orange juice.’’

“Oh no that’s perfect’’-Jacob said with a smirk on he’s face and he’s full attention on me added- “I like jam’’

 

A chill went up and down my spine as I recalled that morning we ate jam scones together and how he licked the jam off my fingers. My face flushed visibly from that memory that took place only a few weeks ago but seemed like a life time. I think it was at that moment that he Ignited a spark in me that has being growing and growing into a flame ever since. I think it was from that moment I started loving him and it took me this long to realize that. That day… that moment… was my Ignition.  

 

 

 

 

Chapter 14

CHAPTER14: The Movies

 

I stood in front of the mirror that evening examining my reflection. It was 6.pm and Jacob was supposed to be here at 6.15 pm so I still had a few minutes to do some finishing touches. I was a chilly night so I decided to wear my favourite skinny jeans that hugged my body so tightly and my knee high- black -swayed-heel-boots. With a white long sleeved blouse that had a low neckline and fit me like a second skin. For makeup I made use of Alice who was all too eager to put this and that on my face but the end result was flawless I could hardly recognize myself. I decided to leave my hair loose over my shoulders were it fell in long black, sleek ringlets. As I applies the last accessory perfume I heard a car pull up on the drive way. I peeked out of my window and saw Jacob getting out of a car. I looked at my watch again 6.13. Well he’s early I thought to myself. At that I heard the door bell ring and Charlie answer it and after a few seconds he was calling for me and suddenly I felt very, very nervous. Unfortunately Alice couldn’t stay with me after my make over because of all the stuff she had to do for the wedding tomorrow. So I had to pep talk myself and I finally managed to bring myself out of the room and down the stairs I was met my two pairs of eyes staring at me incredulously.

 

As I finally came to the landing of the stairs Charlie had seemed to redeem himself and began to speak.

 

“ Wow … you look really nice tonight Erica I don’t want to hold you two up any longer so I’ll just spare you the awkwardness and leave.’’- And then he said looking at Jacob- “have her back by eleven… and you kids have fun you deserve it.’’

 

“We will’’ I said to reassure him as he headed back upstairs.

 

For the first time tonight I took in Jacob’s appearance and was stunned I mean normally he’s extremely gorgeous but tonight he’s drop dead.

 

He was wearing a black t shirt with a Levi’s jean and he’s hair was spiked with some gel. I could smell he’s delicious after shave which made me notice he’s clean shaven face.

 

That’s when I noticed that he’s eyes were fixated on me and I realized he was literarily speechless and so was I.

 

Finally he broke the silence.

 

“You… you look beautiful.’ He said.

And I replied.

“Thank you, flattery will get you everywhere. You might I add clean up exceptionally well you look great Jake!’’

 

A blush started to creep up his cheeks which were not as noticeable with his russet brown skin as it is in my alabaster coloured skin, although I did notice.

 

“Shall we get going?’’ he asked holding out his hand to me.

I accepted this gladly and went along with him into the drive way.

 

“Why of course Mr Black just lead the way.’’ I said feeling a zap every where our bodies met.

 

When we entered the car Jacob put the key into the ignition and the motor began to purr with life. As we pulled out of the drive way I couldn’t help but feeling a bit disappointed with the fact that he didn’t rather bring his motorbike instead. I was secretly hoping that I would get to wrap my arms around him once again. A smile crept on to my face as I remembered the events that had taken place earlier today. I still can’t understand how my day went from bad to good to worse to horrible to amazing to wretched to unbelievably happy which is right now. As I was enveloped in my thoughts I could feel Jacob watching me. It’s hard to describe but it almost as if his looks has a feeling to it. It made me feel good and nervous at the same time.

 

“I think you should rather keep your eyes on the road Mr Black.’’ I said in a rather cocky voice.

He looked away nervously and said.

 

“I don’t think you know how sexy you are, otherwise you’d understand how impossible that action is.’’

 

I sighed and sucked up his words like a sponge. I practically almost fainted at his words but still I managed to keep my composer as I said the next words.

 

“Well if you ever plan on looking at me again I suggest we don’t crash into something before we even get to watch the movie.’’ I said in a sarcastic tone.

 

“Oh…we wouldn’t want that now would we?’’ He said fixing his gaze on the road and he never looked at me again for the whole drive. Wow he really did take me seriously.

 

When we arrived at the movies we stood in a long line for tickets and Jacob being the guy he is offered me the opportunity to pick the move we were to watch. He probably thought I would pick some ridicules chick flick or some lame romantic comedy. However little did he know that I was a horror fan and he was surprised at my movie selection which was Apocalypto. A few moments later we bought one large popcorn Jacob insisted on paying for everything I but would not allow it so we split the price half way with everything.

 

Once we finally got into the cinemas and found our seats-which Jacob had no problem doing since he had night vision and all- had to lead me by my hand as he manoeuvred through the seats and people. As we finally sat down I relaxed in to my seat and he did the same next to me. When the movie began I was immediately drawn into the story. I watched as the people were murdered and mutilated. There was a scene in the movie where the people’s hearts were cut out and their heads chopped off. I couldn’t take it any more I flinched and hid my head in Jacobs’s strong masculine shoulders. When a considerable amount of time had gone by I asked him if it was over and he said it was, so I reluctantly pulled away from him… I felt so safe when I was with him as if nothing could touch me.

 

When the movie was over everybody filed out of the cinema although it was only half the number of people who had came in. Trough out the movie many people left the cinema saying that they were going to be sick.

 

I exited the doors of the cinema and Jacob was right behind me commenting on how ‘awesome’ the movie was.

I was about to say something but then I forgot what it was when I felt a warm hand hold onto mine. I looked at Jacob who had a ridiculously (but still adorable) large grin on his face. I didn’t move out of his grasp or flinch or anything instead I allowed him to draw me closer to him and then he kissed my …hand.

 

The place where his lips had touched my bare skin felt as though it was on fire. Every fibre of my being was set ablaze as my heart started to beat wildly in my chest I instinctively placed my free hand on my chest to make sure it didn’t just leap out and land on the floor. I tried to regain my composer but I couldn’t all I managed to do was smile at him and hope got the message of my approval. Apparently he did because of what he said next.

 

 

“The night is still young and I don’t want to go home just yet, how about you.’’ He paused looking at me hopefully.

 

All I could do was nod like an idiot and he probably took that as a yes.

 

“So why don’t we go to La push I know this great spot on the beach were we can have like a picnic or something.

 

I was finally able to talk again when I said.

 

“Sure Jake that would be great’’

He looked at me with an expression on his face that I couldn’t quite figure out and said.

 

“Did anyone ever tell you how beautiful you are?’’ he said with a smirk on his face.

 

I thought for a while before I said what I did next.

 

“Don’t say that please Jacob, I mean I am flattered and all but really what does it mean to be just beautiful? Does it mean you’re kind or caring or even intelligent? No it doesn’t because beauty means nothing if you’re not a good person and it means very little to me as well.’’

 

Jacob looked at me again with that indescribable expression on his face and it made my knees go week.

 

“Of cores not, but you just happen to be one of those rare people who are beautiful on the outside in and you happen to be very smart as well… I mean who gets an A for algebra any ways?’’

 

I smiled at him but I actually considered his words for a moment I mean I’m not a vein person or anything but I do consider myself good looking if nothing else, and I have been getting straight A’s since kindergarten and I do consider myself a good person. Jacob interrupted my thoughts when he said.

 

“I consider myself lucky to have you Erica.’’

He must have picked up on the puzzled expression on my face because he quickly added.

 

“I mean as a friend.’’

 

I looked up at him and said something I really and truly wish I hadn’t said because it made me feel so stupid.

 

“Jacob there’s nothing wrong with being more than friends.’’

(God would you just kill me know). Jacob looked down at me with a look of surprise on his face and I immediately opened my mouth to redeem myself but he cut me off before I could say anything.

 

“There’s nothing wrong with being just friends either.’’ His words cut through my heart like a knife ouch! I am pretty sure I actually flinched at his words for a second. I tried to calm myself buy repeating the words I’m not going to cry in my head over and over again. That’s when he said this.

 

“But it’s even better when can be friends and more than friends’’ he said with a sloppy grin on his face and I couldn’t help but wonder that he was on to something.

 

“Well friend’’- I said as we entered the car and Jacob started driving-“I don’t even know you favourite food.’’ I asked desperate for a topic change.

 

He looked a bit puzzled and started answering my question.

 

“Out of all the things you could ask you want to know what my favourite food is?’’

 

“Yeah, it’s a start… let’s make a game out of it you get to ask me questions and I’ll have to answer truthfully If you answer my questions, truthfully.’’ I said with a smile for effect.

 

He looked at me for a second and then responded.

 

“You mean like 20 questions or something?’’ he asked.

 

“Exactly ’’ I replied.

 

“Well… I suppose my favourite food has got to be pizza, and yours?’’

 

“Hmm, defiantly chocolate cake I have a weak spot for all things chocolate. So my turn what’s your favourite song?’’

 

 

“Eye of the tiger hands down I have a weak spot for rocky, and yours?’’

 

“Ok Jake, are you seriously gona use my own questions on me?’’

 

“No… just answer the question.’’

 

“Hmm not really sure but I love Adele’s someone like you and set fire to the rain a lot, so what’s your favourite colour? ’’

 

“Blue ’’

 

“Like the sky blue or like dark ocean blue?’’

 

“No.’’

 

“Oh, really like what then?’’

 

“Like your eyes’’

 He said looking at me with that same look he had on his face at the Cullen mansion when we were about to… I bit my lower lip out of embarrassment compliments were fine of course but not when he said it like that or when he looked at me like that without even blinking. It made me lose my composer and I was glade I was sitting because my knees felt weak and I suddenly felt a very strong need to touch him I don’t know why but for some god forsaken reason I felt myself more drawn to him than ever before was that even possible? I had a crush on him and all but no one ever made me feel this way so…so turned on.

 

“Erm thanks… I guess.’’ I said feeling a bit sheepish.

 

“You’re welcome so it’s my turn now and my question is …’’- he paused thinking for a second.-“Oh! I know, what date is your birth day on?’’

“November 28 …and yours Jake?’’

 

“The 5th of May.’’

 

“I guess it’s my turn now.’’ I said buying my time since I was running out of questions.

 

“So what annoys you?’’

 

He gave a slight Humph before he answered.

 

“Well let’s see Vampires, blondes, blonde vampires and guys that wear skinny jeans. Do you have a … boyfriend?’’

 

He's question took me back a bit and there was a long pause before I answered.

 

“No I don’t.’’ I said with an exasperated sigh no I don’t.

 

“Well did you ever have one… a boyfriend I mean’’

 

“Yes, I did have a few in the past but it was nothing serious’’

 

“Oh really what were their names… did you love any of them?’’

 

“Erm… I don’t know… and besides it’s my turn to ask questions. So did you have any girlfriends?’’

 

“It depends on what you mean by girlfriend if you mean a girl that is my friend then yes but if you mean it in a romantic way then no.’’

 

“How come?’’ I asked curiously.

 

“No one caught my attention I suppose… and the one that did didn’t feel the same way about me. The thing I regret the most was that I didn’t realize that sooner, it could of saved me allot of problems … and heart ache.’’   

 

My curiosity got the better of me and my mind began to work double time. Who was this girl that caught Jacobs attention? Was she nice, smart or pretty? What did she do to cause him such heartache did he… bile rose up my throat and I found it hard to complete my own thought did he love her?

 

“Did you love her?’’ I asked in a meek voice. Feeling compelled to fill the silence that has engulfed us.

 

“Yes, I did. I loved her enough that I was willing to risk my own life for her. It was only later on after she constantly rejected me I started to understand that I loved her in all the wrong ways.’’ He said with a sombre look on his face.

 

“What do you mean?’’ I asked not understanding what he was trying to imply.

 

“I mean that I thought I loved her –and I did- but in a way a brother loves a sister nothing else. I was confused about my emotions and the fact that she was already taken might have added more appeal to her that she’s worth.’’

 

I rested my head on the headrest of the seat and let out a mental sigh. Love is confusing, torturous, hazards to health and above all blind. I closed my eyes and rubbed my temples

It was only know that I realized how tiered I am.

When I opened my eyes again I was met by a grinning Jacob.

 

“Here we are La push!’’ He said opening the car door stepping outside he walked around the car an opened my door for me

Ahhhh the perfect gentlemen I thought to myself.

 

He held out a hand for me and I took I graciously, I felt little shocks every where our skin met. When I was out of the car I took a deep breath.

“So this is the famous La push beach hey, well it’s about time… I miss the ocean.’’

 

Chapter 15

CHAPTER 15: LA PUSH

 

La push was gorgeous. The beach stretched out for as far as the eye could see. The lonely moon hung above our heads casting a bright glow all around us- just enough for me to be able to see without many problems- the moon light fell on the dark ocean making it appear as if it were made of a thousand sparkling diamonds. There wasn’t a single cloud in the sky which was rather unusual since it rains almost every day in forks. The wind wiped my hair wildly and I struggled to keep it out of my face- which was a considerably hard task since it was so long it reached my hips- I searched in my pockets and was glade to find a hair band which I used to tie my hair with into a sleek ponytail and I pined my bangs to the back to keep it out of my face. There much better, I thought to myself.

 

“Follow me.’’ – Jacob said taking my hand in his and manoeuvred through the rocks and large boulders.-“I know a great spot just a few minutes away, you’ll love it.’’

I giggled as I followed him until he came to a stop in front of a warning sign that read. WARNING! PROPERTY OFF LIMITS WAVES ARE DANGEROUS, ENTER AT OWN RISK.          

 

 Jacob entered through a hole in the fence and stood expectantly on the other side waiting for me.

 

“Well, what you waiting for Christmas? Come on.’’

 

“Ha-ha very funny Jake… but the sign says it’s off bounds.’’

 

“Oh come on. I’ve been down here a thousand times nothing’s gona happen.’’

 

“What if someone finds us here and reports us… Charlie would flip if he found out we blatantly disobeyed rules! And not to mention what my mother would do if she found out I have a criminal recorded shed ship me back to California faster than you could say goodbye.’’

 

Jacob looked at me for a second before he burst into laughter. Seriously I have never seen anyone laugh so hard before.

 

“What’s so funny?’’ I asked feeling a bit irritated.

 

“Oh, nothing it’s j-just that you… Ahhhh never mind its better if I don’t say.’’ He said still laughing uncontrollably.

 

“Whatever Jake… just don’t come crying to me when you need to be bailed out of juvenile detention.’’ I said with a scold on my face hoping it would make him stop laughing. Unfortunately for me however it just made him laugh even harder and I didn’t think that was possible.

 I just stood there watching him through the fence thinking to myself how lucky he was he was on the opposite side preventing me from punching him in the face right now. When he eventually stopped laughing, and I say eventually because it really was a while, He looked up at me and began to speak.

 

“Hopefully I will never be in a position where you’re the only one who can bail me out of juvi.’’

 

“What’s that supposed to mean?’’ I asked sceptically not fully understanding weather that was a compliment or an insult.

 

“It means that you should forget about everything else and just trust me. Why don’t you trust me.’’

 

Oh I see lay the guilt trip on me why don’t cha.

 

“I do trust you Jake it’s just that the rules…’’

 

“Forget about the rules Erica you are part of a supernatural group of people that can change into wolves whenever they please. I don’t know about you but I think that’s far more outrages than entering on private property, and besides… rules are meant to be broken.’’

He said in a serious tone and I found myself absorbed in his words I have never seen him so bossy before and I… think I like it.

 

I slipped through the hole in the fence just as he had done before and I now stood face to face with him. He gave me a smirk and said.

“Now … was that so hard?’’

“No, I suppose not.’’ He’s grin was wiped off his face and his face contorted into a frown.

 

“What’s wrong?’’ He asked seeming a bit worried.

 

“Nothing’’ I said with a smile on my face. What was I supposed to tell him? Yeah Jake I think it’s really sexy when you boss me around and give me orders. He’d probably phase and run away thinking that I’m a complete psycho maniac.

 

“Well then welcome to the dark side.’’ He said with a grin on his face again. He led the way as we continued and finally we stopped to sit down just a few meters away from the water’s edge. I was at a loss for words as I saw the crystal like water.

 

“So… is it as bad as you thought.’’ He asked seeming royally pleased with himself.

 

“No… it’s beautiful… like you.’’ Oh my god did I really just say that out loud?

 

“Why thank you but I prefer to be described as ruggedly handsome.’’ He said jokingly but I could tell that I embarrassed him a bit.

 

“You are ruggedly handsome but that was not what I was talking about.’ I said feeling a bit weird for asking but not being able to stop myself all the same.

 

“Oh… what is it then?’’ He asked seeming a bit confused.

 “That day in the woods when I was lost… it was you wasn’t it?’’

 

He's head dropped and I could see from the look on his face I was right.

 

“I knew it! How come you didn’t tell me? I mean after you told me about shifters and everything.’’

 

“I don’t know… I guess I was embarrassed’’ He's response caught me off guard.

 

“Why on earth would you think like that?’’

 

“I don’t know I guess I felt bad for not taking you home entirely and letting you walk all that way alone… at night… with vampires on the loose. I was there though hiding behind the trees and following you until you got home.’’

 

“Jake I had no idea, I’m so sorry for making you feel like that.’’

 I leaned over towards him and gave him a quick peck on the lips. It wasn’t a kiss and it only lasted a second but I swear the look on his face seemed as though I had just told him he won a million dollars.

 

“What was that for?’’ He asked still seeming a bit shocked.

 

“That was to say thank you, for being such an awesome friend.’’ I said placing my hand in his and intertwining my fingers with his, and noticing for the first time how perfectly they fit with one another. Like two piece’s of a puzzle.

 

“Thanks that means a lot to me… you mean a lot to me.’’ He said squeezing my hand as if to reassure me.

 

I looked up at him and gave him a mischievous smile as an idea crept into my mind.

 

“Jake… can I ask you something?’’ I said in my sweetest voice.

 

“Well… it depends on what the question is princess.’’

I rolled my eyes when he said princess.

 

“Well it’s more of a favour than anything else I need you to do something for me.’’

I watched as the goofy expression on his face turn into one of confusion.

 

“Do what exactly?’’ He asked in a cautious tone.

 

“Well, I think this is the perfect time and place to do it since there is no one around to see us. And I really want to see it if you don’t mind.’’

 

“Ok what is it you want me to do so badly?’’ He said he’s face going red and he’s voice cracking a bit.

 

“You know’’-I said waving a hand in his direction-“Do whatever it is that you guys do.’’

 

“Wait I’m not sure I follow... do I have to take of my clothes to do it?’ He asked and I noticed little beads of sweat forming on his forehead.

 

“Well I suppose I mean it would be rather impossible with your clothes on don’t yeah think?’’

 

“You mean like right here right now.’’ He said swallowing hard.

 

“Well, know is when I am asking Jake.’’

 

“Erica! Don’t you think it’s a little too early for that? I mean…?’’ He said looking really uncomfortable now. What’s up with him all I want him to do is phase that’s all gees.

 

“I don’t see why it would be early Jake; I mean it’s not really that big of a deal. It’s not as if I’m asking you to have sex with me or anything.’’ When I said those words and I saw the reaction on his face I almost died of embarrassment!

 

“Jake you don’t think that I was asking you to… Oh god you did. Oh god … I was just asking you to phase into a wolf so I could take a picture and sketch you. That’s all I swear to god.’’

 

“Phew… well that’s a relief. You almost had me going for a second, and talk about a bad misunderstanding.’’

 

“Ha-ha, you can say that again. So will you phase for me please?’’

 

“Err… I don’t see why not. But you’ll have to close your eyes and turn around.’’

 

“Okay Black …no problem. ’’ I said turning myself around and shutting my eyes. I felt my hair band slipping of my hair as I did so and my stands of long black hair whisk around my face once again.

 

Behind me I heard Jacob unbuckling his belt. Soon after I heard a thud which I assumed was his pants falling to the floor. A sudden blush crept up my cheeks as I realized a stark naked Jacob was standing only inches behind me in the middle of an isolated place.

 

As my thoughts started to get the best of me I felt something move in front of me.

 

“Are you decent?’’ I asked before opening my eyes.

 

I heard a grunt in return which confirmed that he was in wolf form.

 

I began opening my eyes and was met by a breath taking site.

There he stood in front of me in all his glory, in the moon light with the wind playing with his deep brown fur. The back ground was the ocean and the moon. It was a sight to behold.

I have of course seen a wolf before and I have seen Seth and Jacob in wolf form before this moment but this was something different. It’s not anything that can be explained … only experienced.

I took a cautious step forward and then another until I was directly in front of him.

 Now I could see his eyes… his big beautiful chocolate brown eyes staring at me. Like a treasure waiting to be opened, his eyes intrigued me. It’s rather strange really…everything looked completely different about him, but his eyes were exactly the same… human eyes I thought to myself. Like my first encounter with the wolf Jacob I felt an uncontrollable urge to touch him. So I lifted up my hand and started stroking his muzzle. He let out a small grunt and I watched as he rolled his eyes all the way to the back of his head in obvious ecstasy.  Oh… so he likes this. I thought to myself and continued patting him. He then began to lick my forearm and I quickly stepped back.

 

“Hey! - I said practically giggling- don’t think I don’t know that’s a kiss for a wolf’’

He took a step closer to me and pulled a face which I assume is supposed to be wolf for a smile, before he began his assault on me. He began nudging me on my arms and abdomen with his large snout. Which might I add was very gentle for such a large creature, and also so sent me into giggling frenzy. So much so that I toppled over and landed on my back in the sand. Even that didn’t deter him and he continued with his assault… until I could take it no more.

 

“Jake stop please! I can’t breathe and I’m going to pee!’’

 

I wiped the laughter induced tears from my eyes, stood up got my camera phone out of my pocket and took his picture.

 

When it was time for him to phase back again, I turned around closed my eyes and he repeated the whole process again only in reverse. When I opened my eyes a now fully dressed Jacob stood in front of me. Just as breath taking but in a completely different way. Happy to have the human Jacob back once again I gave him a kiss on the cheek and started to head back towards the car.

 

“Hey, where are you going?’’ he asked with a smirk on his face.

 

“Err… to the car.’’ I replied feeling a bit confused.

 

“Hey no fair, I never had my turn yet.’’

This made stop dead in my tracks and I turned to face him feeling utterly confused and nervous.

 

“It’s your turn for what exactly?’’I enquired.

 

He took a few steps towards me his playful grin wiped of his face completely now. His eyes looked soft and tender as he looked at me. He slowly raised his right hand towards my face without taking his eyes of me. His fingers were almost about to touch my cheek when he stopped. He seemed almost hesitant as if he were fighting an inner battle with himself. Suddenly his warm soft gentle fingers were on my cheek. The feeling of utter delight enveloped me. His was skin was a sharp contrast to biting cold breeze of the night and I allowed myself to nestle my face into his hand seeking comfort in his warmth I closed my eyes to savour the moment as skilful fingers traced my jaw line and found their way into my hair. I opened my eyes again and that’s when he said.

“For this’’ he said cupping my cheeks in his hands. He face drew closer and closer to mine and I knew he was about to kiss me. I felt a little light headed and I thought my heart was about to burst out of my chest. That’s when I felt his body tense and mine responded by doing exactly the same.

He pulled away from me abruptly.

“Shit!’’ he spat.

“What’s wrong?’’ I asked, suddenly feeling panicked.

 

However I found out the answer to my own question a few moments later.

 

 

A beam of light flashed into my eyes momentarily blinding me and, I felt Jacobs hand grab hold of mine before we took off running.

 

“Hey! Kids watcha doing down there, its private property?!’’

 

As I ran hand in hand with Jacob I managed to steal a glance behind me and I saw a man with a flash light-which explains my earlier blindness-who was about in his late fifties standing at the far end of the fence. Most importantly I saw the badge on his right breast pocket. Suddenly the pieces of what just happened hit me. We just got busted! By an officer of the law! And we were on the run!  I’m a freaking fugitive?

 

“Shit!’’ Jacob cursed again.

And all the while all I could think was my sentiments exactly.

 

    

Chapter 16

                     Chapter 16: Visitor

By the time we reached the car I was already out of breath, panting I took the last few steps towards the car and got in resting my head against the headrest and trying to regain my composure. Taking deep heaving breaths I watched as Jacob got in next to me and hastily put the keys into the ignition. Unlike me he seemed completely unaffected by the physical exertion “werewolf stamina” I suppose. I watched as he pulled the care out of La push and onto the main road.

 

Within minutes we were parked in the familiar drive way of my house. We didn’t speak during the ride and now an awkward silence fell upon us as we both fumbled for something suitable to say or do. It was Jacob who spoke first.

 

“I'm sorry” he said looking at me with an expression I couldn't quit decipher.  

“For what” I managed to squeak.

“For forcing you to come with me when you didn’t want to and almost getting us caught, you were right I shouldn’t have made you do it.”

 

I listen silently as I watched the serious expression in he’s eyes. I started to recall the events of tonight and then for no apparent reason I broke into fit of giggles.

He's appearance changed from remorseful to shock and then confusion.

“What? ...what’s so funny?” he asked.

 

This only made me laugh harder. The more I thought about it the funnier it seemed to me. When I finally managed to stop laughing I wiped the laughter induced tears from my eyes and said.

“You know , you didn’t make me do anything I didn’t want to and besides tonight was fun the last time I laughed so much was..._” I stopped as tried to recall the last time I've had this much fun. After a moment of hesitation I settled for this.

“A really long time, and it’s all thanks to you.”

 

He smiled at me listlessly.

 

“Well I'm glad then” he said. I suddenly had this very strong erg to run my hands through his hair and without really stopping to think about what I was doing I raised my hand and ran my fingers through his smooth dark hair.

“You better stop that.” He said sleepily, his eyes rolling back in their sockets. I didn’t stop, instead I just asked

“Why?” in an innocent tone. He grabbed hold of my hand and he pulled me closer a strange look crossed over his features one of hunger and desire.  It was more animalistic than anything else it frightened me as much as it excited me.

“Because if you don’t I can’t be held accountable for my actions.” I understood then that he was warning me, cautioning me. I didn’t care though I wanted him, and I knew he wanted me too. The evidence was written as clear as day on his face. At that moment I let myself go, I broke away from my usual cautious personality and I allowed myself to be driven by what I felt instead of what I thought. I did something daring, I said

“I don’t care” our gazes met and we were both still for a heartbeat. He understood me and he knew that I wanted this...I wanted him. He wasted no time he leaned over across the gear box and his mouth was on mine in an instant.

 

I felt as if all my senses were on high alert the sight of him, his intoxicating smell the feel of his lips on my lips and the sound of his rapid heartbeat. Everything was amplified clearer more resolute I felt like I have been living my life through blurred lenses before this moment. The feeling was sensual and heated and it stirred emotions from deep within. I felt utterly confused and yet everything all made sense to me because it was him. In my new universe everything was him and he was everything. Even me, I was his and he was mine. A strong possessive feeling encompassed me as the words mine kept replaying in my thoughts. His mine, mine and I’m his.

 

He pulled away for a second to gaze into my eyes.

He looked stunned and dishevelled, his breathing ragged.

He only said

 

“Good God” before he pulled me over onto his seat where I straddled him and he kissed me again and again. His hands moving up and down my body and my own hands struggling to remove his shirt I got it all the way up to his chin and he did the rest. I gazed upon his bare chest and amazement and if it weren’t just for the two of us I would have asked for an Amen.

 

He busied himself with unbuttoning my shirt while simultaneously leaving a trail of kisses down my neck that made my blood boil with desire. When finished with my shirt he practically ripped it off and now I was only wearing a black lacy bra. He took me in for a second before he brought me down to him again and I was completely lost in his kiss again. I trembled with delight as his hands made their way up to my chest, gentle but eager. My head lolled back as I let out a slight moan. Our breathing heavy, I could see the cars windows fogged over because of the steam. I allowed a lone thought to run through my head as he slipped of a strap of my bra. Oh god this is it, I thought before I heard a tap on the car window. At first it was just annoying and I ignored it but as it got louder I risked a quick glance at the window and the face I saw made my blood run cold.

“Mom?”

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