I finally entered the front gate, home’s shady relief beckoning from summer’s furnace. An infant sparrow stood in the middle of the path. It glanced up and greeted me with a wink. I stooped and reached down to scare it so that it would fly off, but it didn’t move. out as if to pick it up, but it either couldn’t move or saw my ruse and called the bluff, fFeet remaining firmly planted on the ground. It cocked its head, looking up at me. I scratch my head in confusion.
Something about this ravine’s ambivalence was amiss. I imagined the terror awaiting it when one of the cats came out. It looked up at me, unruffled, unstressed, and without pain, apparently lacking an appropriate fear of death. It made me sad frowned.
I knocked on the door. Pete came outsideanswered. I alerted him to the situation, and bade him to come and share in my pity, and asked him, ‘Have we got a little cage?’
‘Just leave it alone,’ Pete said.
‘Yeah, I know, but I want to save it. It’s a living soul, a life, equal to yours and mine. I want to save it.’ I sighed and trudged inside.
‘What’s the humane thing to do?’ I asked. It’s a living soul, a life, equal to yours and mine. ‘We could cCall the RSPCA?’
Pete frowned. ‘IYeah, it’s only a little bird...’ Pete trailed off.
‘Yeah, I know, but suppose so...’ I echoed. We sighed, shrugged, and trudged back inside. I kicked off my clogs and I made a refreshing glass of orange juice and watched the news. Pete went out during the weather forecast.
I went out later and the sparrow was still there, minus its head. I picked it up and put it in the bin. Its carcass still still greets me every time I step through the gate. I wonder: did it ever feel learn to be afraid?
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Three months later and I’m rubbing sleep from my eyes and drinking juice from the carton in dawn’s the cool light of dawn. A squeaking kerfuffle sound emanaitses from the laundry not once, nor twice, but thrice. I walk in and passively watch as and send the theanother sparrow sees me, flies into a a panic, and ; it furiously bangs its head frantically and repeatedly bangs its head against the sky-window, attempting to escape. I step back into the hallway.
Thirst quenched, I yawn, scratch, and I hear the sweet song of sleep’s embrace calling serenading me back to bed. Thump, thump, goes the sparrow’s head against the glass. How’d you get into this predicament? I grumble and look for any felines that may be lurking—curse, and check to see if any of the cats are around—no sign of them. I glance back in the laundry at the sparrow. There’s no way out from the laundry except by coming back into the hallway.
I start to make chirpy sounds. ‘Birdy, birdy,’ I say, sliding the back door all the way open. ‘Here, birdy-birdy-birdy.’ I go back into the laundry. The sparrow isn’t seduced. It fraenetically flies into the slams into the window some more, increasingly frustrated at this invisible barrier between itself and freedom. Thump! Thump! Thump! It’s getting sluggish.
I wait quietly, dozing off, and am jilted from sleep’s precipice when the sparrow suddenly hops out of the laundry with a chirp. I get up and move lumber towards toward it, hoping it’ll flee to freedom out the back door, but it flies around the living room instead, finally tiring and coming to rest on the couch I’ve just vacated.
We look at each other eye-to-eye. Hey, I know you, says the sparrow, hopping about. You’re the one that killed my friend, aren’t you? It cocked its head.
I didn’t kill him; I just let him die.
It was a her, and you could have saved her, said ys the sparrow. You’re as good as a murderer, in my eyes. I suppose you’re going to murder me, now, too, hmm? Well, get on with it.
I go around the living room opening the windows. The sparrow watches. Standing before the largest window, I thrust it open and, exposinge the sky’s glaring light of the sky to its eyes. ‘Here, birdy-birdy,’ I say, clicking my fingers.
Look into my eyes, says the sparrow. Have I no honour? The sparrow hopped off the couch and down the hallway. It hopped into Pete’s room and flies into a frenzy, crashing against the flew into the curtains, creating a ruckus and giving him an unpleasant to cause a rude awakening-up call. ‘What the?!’
‘It just hopped in ...’ I said.
Pete sprang out of bed and fled the room. ‘There were two of them inside the other day,’ he says, headed to the kitchen for coffee.
Yeah, you too! cursesd the sparrow, shaking its fist as Pete walked away. You’re just as much to blame as he ie iss. It nodsded at me from its curtain perch.
‘Don’t be afraid,’ I said.
I opened the front door and , go to my room, slip went backinto to bed., and closed my eyes and watcheds the sparrow hop-hop-hops outside and flies away.
Texte: Eugene Samolin
Tag der Veröffentlichung: 10.09.2020
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