She crys in the night

by: sierra hansen


Chapter#1: somethings not right


"mommy!" aly screamed from her room. Not again! i thought. This is the second night terror tonight. "Im comeing hunny" i say from my room as i pull my pants on and rush to her before she can wake her brother tayler up. Being only a year old he needed his sleep but her at only three needed her sleep also. I walked into my kids room and saw my daughters fragile frame on the bed knee's pulled to her chest sobbing into her night gown. I rushed to her side "whats wrong sweetie" i say trying to keep the worry out of my tone.
But i was scared it couldnt be normal for a three year old little girl to be acting like that. I wiped her blond curly hair out of her eyes and wiped away her tears. "Whats wrong?" i asked again gently lifting her chin with my fingers. The sight of her tear stained face broke my heart. "I dont want go back to daddys" she sobbed. I sighed i had been through this with her a million times. "Honey mommy has to send you back the courts said so" i try pleading with the child.
I sat with her for an hour as she clung to my shirt crying. I was getting tired it was 4am and i knew tayler would be up soon he usually woke around 6am. "Honey mommys gotta get to bed its late" i tried prying her little fingers from my shirt to no avail. She had a death grip on me and refused to let go. Everytime i tried to get up she would cry harder. "Ive got to go to bed alison!" i said sternly. She let go of me but looked up with tearfull eyes. I felt bad but started to walk out i had to get to bed. Before i shut the door behind me my daughter sobbed and said in a soft voice "Mommy dont go" i turned back around looking at my daughter who looked absolutely petrified. "come here honey !" i said holding my arms out to her. She got up and ran to me jumping in my arms clinging to my shirt for dear life.
I picked her up and walked across the hall to my bedroom and layed her down on my bed "mommy stay" she said as i went to close the door. I turned to her and smiled a sad smile "i am baby just shutting the door" i whispered as i shut the door and lay beside her. She wrapped her little arms around me "goodnight aly" i said to her rubbing her hair. "I no go back to daddys he give me owie!" she said. What! "Aly what do you mean?" i asked but when i turned to her she was fast asleep.
~the next day~

"Mommy wake up" aly giggled. I opened my eyes and focused on the sounds around me and noticed tayler crying in the room down the hall. "Shit" i muttered rubbing my eyes looking at the clock on my bedside tableit was 9 am. "Mommy wake up, wake up" aly said again this time jumping on me. I opened my eyes back up "Ok im up" i muttered sleepily. This wakeing up two to three times a night was really getting to me. I slowley stood up grabbing my glasses off the bedside stand. I walked to taylors room openeing the door with aly following behind me. Taylor was standing up in his crib crying. "Hey tay" i said to him he looked up at me and his sister."mama!" he cried excitedly.
"Bubby awake" aly said to me. I nodded my head picking taylor up and carrying him down the stairs of our town house. I fixed them both a bowl of cereal and sat down on the couch watching them. I had to admit that since last year when me and there dad kaden had split up it had been hard. I had just got my own place again i had been liveing with my mother and haveing my own place was great just hard to do it all on my own. "Love you mommy" aly said from her little table.
I looked up at her and smiled but that got me thinking about last night. What the hell was that all about? I shrugged it off. Kids have nightmares right. I mean with us switching the kids back and forth every three days its no wonder the poor child has bad dreams. Never sure where she is going to wake up.
I dint hate thier father i just couldnt handle him hitting me and cheating all the time i put up with it for almost 5 years and i just couldnt anymore. I dint want my children liveing around that besides he was hardly there when the kids were awake and when he was all we did was fight. I had met him when i was 16 and had fallen in love fast he was my first love. I would never stop loveing him.
"mommy im done" aly said bringing me out of my reverie. "Oh sorry aly um go put that in the sink and come back in here we will get you dressed" i said. I was kinda excited my sister was comeing over today i hadnt known her when i was a child we had the same dad but never got to meet we dint even know about eachother entell a few months earlyer and she had moved down here to indiana from kentucky a few weeks ago and today was the day we were spending together.
"Mommy clothes" aly said. I was out of it today i just had alot on my mind. "Ya here ya go aly" i said putting her in a black pair of stretch pants and a pink addedas hoodie. "Why dont you go play outside" i said to her. She got excited it was january and for once it wasnt really cold out and the snow had melted. I helped aly put her shoes on and led her out the back door into my small fenced in back yard. When i heard a knock on the front door. "Just a second" i yelled as i grabbed taylor out of his highchair and placed him on the floor by the toybox then ran to the front door unlocking and opening it. "Amber!" i yelled throwing my arms around my 18 year old sister. "Come in" i said when i finnaly let her go.
"You look tired trinity" amber commented "I could come back later or tommarow" she added. I shook my head no "No its fine just a little tired" i said rubbing my eyes. "Alison wake up again last night?" she asked. I nodded my head. "I dont know what to do amber it happens every night i have her she wakes up screaming and when i go to check on her she is just.... petrified! she looks as if she had just seen a ghost . But she is ok when i put her in bed with me" i told her. Amber nodded. "What about the counsler you had taken her to a few months back for it?" Amber asked. I shrugged "She dint know she said it could be trama from the devorce" i stated not wanting to admit what the counsler had said she thought might be going on. She thought aly was being abused sexually but we dint know by who. I knew i could piece two and two together but i just couldnt he would never do that right? I mean he had slept with 12 year olds but aly was just a baby and his own at that.
Amber smiled sadley at me. We spent the morning talking and playing with the kids and cathching up. When nightfall came i was regretting amber leaveing and regretting the night to come. "Trinity, somethings not right" amber stated sadley.


Chapter#2: She's so innocent!


"Do you want me to give aly a bath?" amber asked as i was cleaning taylers highchair off from dinner. And had just put him to bed. "You dont have to" i said plopping down on the couch exhosted. She smiled at me "its fine" she said and picked alison up and walked to the upstairs before i could say anything.
I guese i had dosed off because the next thing i heard was amber yelling my name in a panicked voice. I jumped up running to the bottom of the stairs. She was at the top. "You would not believe what yer daughter just said" she said with a sad but angry look. I looked at her quistianly. "She said her daddy touched her...her..." she dint finish but i put my hand up i knew what she was trying to say and knew the truth i just never wanted to believe it.
"Get aly dressed and bring her downstairs" i said in an emotionless voice as i walked dumbfounded to the couch and fell to it. Tears began silently falling down my face. "No" i said to myself. "Why god? She's so innocent!" I said with eyes closed faceing the heavens. I felt a hand touch my arm and i heard aly call my name. "It will be dealt with!" amber said sharply.I nodded my head wipeing the tears from me face but they kept falling. "Aly go play" Amber said to her patting her back from the sound of it.
I closed my eyes hopeing for my mind to erase the last hour of my life. To no avail. daddy touched me, daddy touched me. thats all i could hear "Trinity!" i broke out of my trance looking up into ambers worried face. "Ya?" i asked. "Ive been calling yer name for ten minutes" she said looking a little worried. "Sorry" i said rubbing my eyes trying to focus. "Trinity you have to focus! The cops are on there way!" My head snapped up to look at her. "What?" i asked. Amber looked at me before decideing to answer me "Trinity i called the cops i wont just let this go and you shouldnt eather!" She snapped at the end.Tears streamed down my face again. I wiped them away but more kept comeing. "Trinity you have to pull your self together. For your daughter!" She said. For some reasen i got angry at that. At least the tears stoped but the rage took its place. "Im going to fucking kill him!" I jumped up and began paceing the room. "He wont get away with this! That sick Fuck his own fucking daughter!" There was a knock on the door but i couldnt stop paceing.
Entell amber grabbed my arm "Trin calm down it will do no good for the cop to see you like this" she said stopping me in my tracks. I nodded at her takeing a deep breath. As amber went and answered the front door. I sat back down on the couch my daughter across the room just stareing at me. "Come here baby" i said holding my arms out. She ran to me as the amber came back in the room followed by a young male cop with dirty blond hair. "Hi mam im officer bolt" he said holding his hand out. I shook his hand unwillingly thinking in my head. lets just get this over with!
Apparently he read my thoughts cause he got straight to the point. "Alright we got a report tonight that" he looked at his paper before continueing "Three year old alison edwards was mullested by her father" i nodded my head when he looked up at me and amber. We sat there explaining what happened and how we found out for a good twenty minutes.
He continued to write things down after we stopped talking. Then he looked at alison then to us heaveing a sigh. "im sorry i just have trouble believeing a three year old little girl has told you that" he stated emotionless. "Ill be right back" he said walking out leaveing us looking angry. I grabbed my phone texting my mom. txt: mom the cops are here about lexie (amber had explained it to her earlyer) need you here now!
The cop had just walked back in when my mother showed up not two seconds later. "Hi im Trinitys mother" she said. Holding her hand out for the cop to shake. she was acting sickingly sweet. When all i wanted to do was blow up on him for not protecting my daughter. How could i protect my kids when the state was so corrupt. Just like they dint want to protect me last march almost a year ago. I remembered the mans hatefull laugh as he wripped my clothes from my body. The smell of his breath which smelled of stale tobbaco and beer. "Trinity!" my mom called i looked up everyone was looking at me "Im gonna head home" my mom said. I nodded apparently she had already told the cop what she had seen of my daughters odd behavior like her touching herself in front of other kids and telling others to touch her.
“I will be back in a second” the cop said and walked outside. I sat on the couch looking out the window daydreaming again or more like reminiscing on last march.
~memory~

He leaned in to kiss me I pushed him back and went back to watching the movie. When I felt him pin me down quickly ripping my pants from me and unzipping his. He shoved himself into me. I screamed. “No!” I cried. He kept on panting and pumping me “no please!” I begged.

~end of memory~

“Trinity are you ok?” amber asked me. I looked up to her and nodded but noticed my vision was blurry I reached a hand up under my glasses noticeing that tears had stained my face
"Oh" i said wipeing the tears away. "The cop has been gone over 15 minutes mabe he left!" amber said. "No he wouldnt leave" i told her. "Go check" she answered back. I nodded and stood up walking to the door in a daze. I dint want the cop thinking i was checking so i lit up a ciggerate and walked out the door acting like i was just smokeing but planning on comeing back in if he was gone. But he wasnt he was at his car speaking to someone on the walkie talkie in his car.
He looked up at me and placed the walkie back into his car and walked over to me. "Sorry it took so long mam" he said. Why was he being so polite now? "We have called dcs and also i have my juvinile detective on the case." He stated. He stopped talkeing for a moment and i thought he was done but when i turned to look at the door he spoke. "mam if i were you i wouldnt send her back to her fathers now i cant tell you not to send her back being you have a custady agreement through the court but im saying call your lawer and see if he can file for emergency custady for you." he looked at me sadly. "Im sorry mam thats all i can do right now." He gave me his card and told me to call him if there was any problem and with that he left.

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Tag der Veröffentlichung: 07.03.2011

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