I kept telling myself that the anger will eventually subside but I know that it wont, I am lying to myself for no reason. All for self satisfactory. I am lying to myself for need, want, and devotion, it is kind of lame that I am acting this way but something has possessed me and I cant control it by myself and it is killing me. I have thought of suicide late at night almost every night I think of suicide but I will not come through with it I know my my departure would kill my family, I have also thought of the reasons of my anger the need the want, need and the devotion but if I act almost civil I would get the reasons. I guess now that it is getting colder I feel more and more insane for some reason. Something is possessing me and I cant stop it now it is controlling me until I hurt something or worse. This is me confessing to the world God and my self.


Payback and carma is always misunderstood. If you go out and kill someone(accidently) are the family and friends of the one you killed allowed to come and kill you, no that is how payback and carma are misunderstood but if you are playing a game of some sort and you push someone piece off the board because of the rules say so are they allowed to yell, scream, and shake the board so that you cant play anymore unless you start over, no. But carma is another different thing isnt it? Yes, carma you cant control but payback you can, cant you?
Yes, yes you can Carma comes to the earth from who knows. Payback is something everyone can control. So watch yourself, your family,your friends,and also people you dont even know.

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Tag der Veröffentlichung: 05.04.2010

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