Thinking about you

Sitting alone in an empty room
thinking about you
I don't know why I think about you
when all you did was make me cry

You said you cared
but I guess you didn't
When you broke my heart
a part of me died

I felt so dead and empty inside
I don't know why I keep thinking about you.
I guess I cared a little too much
I just couldn't help it

I felt so happy in your arms
but now you left me and i'm cold
I needed someone to care like I do
I guess you weren't up for that

I wanted to find a love that grew
with every kiss under the moon
I just didn't find that love with you

Born for no reason

I think that I was born
to be mean
to be sad
to be depressed
to feel empty
to feel… alone.

Sometimes, I wish I was dead
I think it would be better that way.
I was born for no reason,
I sit here thinking that
no one would miss me
and now I sit here in tears
crying because I know its true.

Everyone says they would miss me,
that they love me
but I feel like there lying.
I look in the mirror and laugh
knowing that they are lying.

Who could possibly love me?
That is the biggest question.
I mean, Who could love me...
when I cant even love myself.
I am nothing special.

I think that
I was just born,
For no reason at all...

The storms about to come

Dark clouds come fast
The birds move changing location
Quiet, everything stops
The clouds unmovable, letting light in
Then everything rushes right at you
Noise is finally heard for a moment
Then it's all inaudible
The wind comes in through the trees
Trying to knock you down with everything
But, you stay firm
Ready to take on whatever
Crazy storm is about to come

Feelings about him ♥

So there is this person and I can't get him out of my head. Hes on my mind from the time I get out of bed till the time I rest my head. Of all the guys that have tried to get to me this one is the one to suceed. I like him so much and I hope he is wanting to stay because as I am without him now my life is full of rain. When I talk to him I can't help but smile, because no matter how I'm feeling in that moment he makes me so much happier than I ever thought possible. His smile, how he gets nervous, or shy, the way he didn't know how to hug well until I came along, how when he told me he liked me he thought I would hate him. Maybe he thought I wouldnt feel the same, but the thing is I care for him way too much to ever hate him. I think scratch that I know he is way to good for me and that I don't deserve a guy like him. Full of sweetness, kindness and more, I really don't know why or even how he came to like me. All I know is that I am really lucky to have him in my life and that I would hate to loose him. I don't ever want to think of what life without him would be like, I can't even remember what it was like before he was my friend. I'm hoping that one day he will be more than a friend and that maybe just maybe I can finally be fully happy. I think that this amazing guy was probably brought into my life for a reason, because I believe that everything has reason behind it. I think I might know why god brought him to me, maybe to save me or maybe to let me breath and care without worry because he will be there for me, I hope he always is because I'm here to stay until the final day that he pushes me away.

 

written on: June 18th 2013 inspired by my crush, these are just some things that came out of my head when I was thinking about him, please comment your thoughts and maybe tell me how you feel about your current crush or love (: have you ever felt the same for someone? (:

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Tag der Veröffentlichung: 19.11.2012

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