Prologue

Hello, I'm Rayline. Rayline Nichole Brooks and I am 18 years old. This is the story of my life... Seriously. I had a normal childhood life, I had a Mom, Dad, and a sister, Crystal. But.. once I was in 7th grade... that's when everything started to change. My Dad left us, school turned horrible, people started to bully me or no reason, and I started to get depressed. First, it started out with one person bullying me a day, soon it grew worse over the years. By Senior year, I was bullied and Cyberbullied everyday all the time. I never told my mom about it because i didn't want her to freak out.


Chapter One- School

I woke up to my alarm clock blaring in my ear. I slammed the snooze button and slowly got out of bed. I walked to my bathroom and looked in the mirror. Always the same appearance everyday.. all the time.. deep, dark blue eyes, long black hair, pale skin, high cheekbones,and perfect lips. Sigh. I picked up my brush and brushed out my hair. Perfectly straight hair... just like my Dad's. I put on my black eyeliner, white eyeshadow, black mascara and lip gloss. I brushed my teeth and walked out of the bathroom. I went to my closet and picked out a black graphic short-sleeved shirt, black skinny jeans and my converse. I finished changing just as my sister jumps into my doorway. "Hurry up!!!! Were going to be late for school!!!!" she screamed.
"Who cares...? Not me!" I replied.
"Ugh! Hellooo!!!! Today is like the best day eveerrr!!!!"
"Umm.... why??"
"HELLOOO DUMMY!!! Free day after our morning classes!"
"Oh.. Kool... I don't really care.." Ugh... Crystal crossed her arms.
"Just hurry up." She walked away and I grabbed my books and a hoodie. I walked downstairs to the kitchen and before I could eat breakfast, Crystal grabbed my arm and yanked me out the door. She yelled good-bye to our Mom before she closed the door.
"Can you drive us today?" She practically begged me.
"Fine..." Sigh. I pulled out my car keys and unlocked the doors. We both got in and I started the car. I pulled out of the driveway while Crystal turned to music to pop.
"Seriously?" I mumbled.
"What?? I'm not listening to your sappy depression music." I rolled my eyes and focused on the road.
We got to school and got out of the car. I locked the doors and put the keys in my bag. I stared at the building. Kool.. school.. know as my hell hole. We walked up to the front doors... Here we go. Another crappy day. I walked in and Crystal pretty much ran past me. I hurried to my locker, ignoring everyone's glares and their whispers. I opened my locker then it slammed shut. I was slammed against the lockers to see a very unhappy Chelsy.
"What do you want, Chelsy?" I sighed.
"Your sappy life.. Just kiding!! Really, I want my homework and I want it now." She laughed. I shoved her off me and opened my locker. I took out her homework and threw it at her.
"Happy?" I asked her and crossed my arms.
"Nope.. Not yet." She slammed me back against the locker and punched me in the nose hard as hell to where my nose starts to bleed. She started to walk away but stopped and yelled over her shoulder. "Now I am.. LOSER!!!" I slammed my locker door shut and walked to class. I sat down at my desk and stared at my desk.. my hair covering my face. The bell rang and everyone else sat down. The teacher walked in and started class but everyone was still talking... about me. I heard my name in everyone's conversations. I looked up a little and saw Chelsy and her friends laugh and stare at me. Clearly they were making fun of me.. I looked away and stared at the teacher.
"Class pull out your literature books and read chapter 8, then answer the questions. NO TALKING!!!!!" Mrs. Burlington yelled. Everyone did as she said and the rest of the period went by fast. The bell rang and everyone picked up their books and left to their next class. I stood up but Chelsy can over with her friends. She book checked me and her best friend, Renee, pushed me onto the floor on top of all my books.Ouch. Chelsy kneeled down beside me.
"Your such a nerdy loser, Rayline. No one likes you." She smirked. She punched me in the side hard as hell and I grabbed my side. Chelsy and her friends left and i just laid there helpless. I was used to it.. I closed my eyes to try and ignore the pain. Soon I heard footsteps getting closer to me.. Great. The nest class... or a teacher. I heard books getting picked up.. then the books getting put on a desk. I felt a tap on my shoulder and opened my eyes. I saw the most amazing guy in front of me.. He had dark drown hair they was a bit long and came just above his eyes. He had dark blue eyes, just like mine, but tan skin. He had high cheekbones like I do and perfect lips.. He looked godlike. He stared at me with his dark blue eyes hypnotizing me.
"Um.. are you okay?" He broke the silence.
"No... not really.." I didn't want to lie..
"What happened??" He pointed to my side.
"Nothing.." This time I wanted to lie... I looked away.
"Your lying." He laughed.
"So??" I mumbled. He stared at me and crossed his arms. "Okay Okay.. You know Chelsy and her little friends right?" I looked at him.
"Ummm... Yeah.. I'm new here, but I've heard of them. They sound like jerks with no lives" I laughed.
"Yeah.. cause they are. They make fun of me everyday and they beat me up all the time. Like earlier.. before you came in here and found me like this. Chelsy book checked me, her friend pushed me on the floor, Chelsy punched me in the side and called me a nerdy loser.." I closed my eyes trying to keep calm.
"Wow.. they are jerks. Who would make fun of you? Your pretty cool." I opened my eyes and he was smiling.
"Ha.. thanks.. But everyone makes fun of me... all the time.. You see I have a very hard" I got cut off my the bell. "Oh shit. Can we talk later? When we have our free time after morning classes?" I talked fast.
"Yeah! Wait can you show me where Algebra is?" He stood up.
"Yeah that's actually where I'm going." I smiled.
"Great! Oh by the way.. My names Alexander. But i prefer to be called Xander." He grinned.
"Ooooh. Xander. Cutee name. Mines Rayline." I kept smiling.
"Ha. Thanks. And Rayline. That's a really cute name." I blushed. "We better get to calss."
"Right!" Xander held out his hand and I took it. He helped me up and handed me my books.
"Since your new here we should be okay for being late.. I'll just say I was showing you around school." I smiled.
"Okay." He smiled back. We started to walk to our class and when we got there we were late but we didn't get in trouble.. like I said.

Chapter Two- Lunch

The rest of the morning went by fast and it was lunchtime. Free day was after lunch. I went to the lunch room and found my friends. Kayla, Mike, and Aron, I walked over to them.
"Hey!!" They all screamed.
"Hellooo." I replied. Immediately I started looking for Xander. Kayla caught me looking around.
"Ooooh. Who you looking for??" She giggled.
"Oh. Um.. no one.." I blushed.. There!!! I found him! And Chelsy.. and her friends.. talking to him..
I stared at them. I don't know why... but I was jealous. Why was i jealous? I don't even know him that well... Sigh. Do I like him? I don't even know... I think I do like him...
"Rayline.. Helloo?" Aron was calling my name. Mike was waving his hand in front of my face.
"What? Oh sorry.. I was thinking about something." I looked at them.
"Can we go get our lunch?? I'm starving!!!" Mike complained.
"That's cause your always hungry" Kayla giggled. We all laughed and walked to the lunch line. We got our food then went to sit down at a table. I saw Xander walking over to me with his lunch. I couldn't help but smile. He sat on the other side of me, Kayla sat on my left and Mike and Aron sat across from us.
"Whose your friend, Rayline???" Mike winked. I ignored him.
"Guys this is Xander.. Xander meet my best friends, Kayla, Mike, and Aron." I grinned. "Nice to meet you guys." Xander smiled.
"Nice to meet you too!" They all replied.
"So.. your the new kid right?" Mike said.
"Yes man."
"What do you think of the school so far?" Aron asked, taking a bit of his hamburger.
"It's pretty cool... besides everyone talking about Rayline and making fun of her." Xander half frowned. I stared at my pizza. I thought about Xander talking to Chelsy again..
"Oh yeah.. we all hate it too.. we don't give a shit what people think of Rayline. She's our best friend and she will always be her." Kayla smiled. I looekd at her and smiled.
"Oh yeah.. I saw you talking with Chelsy and her little minions.. what did they say?" I couldn't help but know what they were talking about. I looked at Xander and he lookeed back at me.
"Oh.. umm... they were all hitting on me.. I was telling them to go away but they would not listen to me. They all just stared at me. Until i brought up your name." He grinned "They were all like 'Oh my gosh!! Why are you talking to her?? She's a loser.' and all that shit. I was like 'You know what... she is not a loser she is pretty damn awesome. You guys are the losers, you have no lives, so get over it!' Then I left." He was pretty damn awesome. I couldn't help but just grin.
"Oh my god!! That is soooooooooo awesome!!!!!" Kayla yelled. We all laughed at her. Xander was smiling at me and I smiled back. I mouthed "Thank you" and he nodded. Me and Kayla finished eating and went to go dump our trays. We got to the trashcans and Chelsy came up to me.


Chapter 3- Beat up.

"What the fuck are you doing with the new kid, bitch?" She screamed in my face.
"Umm.. after you left the class room after you punched me.. he came in and helped me." I answered.
"Why the hell would he talk to you?? Your just a loser.. a nobody. No one likes you so why don't you just stop talking to him and leave him to me. Kay??" She smirked.
"Umm.. who the hell do you think you are? You can't just tell her what she can do?? And NEVER I mean NEVER call my best friend a loser or anything like that kay???" Kayla was about to punch Chelsy in the face.
"Umm.. I'm the most popular girl in school, so I can do what ever I want to do. I can make fun of her all I want. Who the hell do you think you are, Kayla? Why do you even hang out with this loser? You can be with better people who don't have problems or tons of drama... like me for instance. Rayline, you just a ugly bitch, your a loser, and you have no friends, like I said no one fucking likes you so don't even try to get close to Xander cause guess what hun? He will soon be mine. So fuck off!! Even better go die in a fucking hole!!!" She screamed. I tried not to let what she said get to me. I tried not to cry in front of them. I hands curled up into fists, I was about to punch this bitch in the face. That is.. if Kayal didn't punch her. Kayla punched Chelsy right in the nose and I swear I heard her nose break. Chelsy screamed seriously loud and everyone looked at us.
"BITCH!! No one punches me in the nose!!" Chesly screamed. She was about to attack Kayla but I moved in front of her.
"Don't you dare do anything to her." I growled. Chelsy gave me a snobby look.
"That's okay.. your even better to beat up." She laughed and her friends laughed with her.
"Rayline.. it's okay.. come on.." Kayla whispered in my ear. She started to pull me away from them but Chelsy shoved me onto the ground. Now everyone was staring at us.
"Dude just stop!!" Kayla screamed at Chelsy.
"Kayla, shut up! This isn't about you!" Renee yelled back to Kayla. I stood up and pulled Kayla back to our table.
"I'm not done with you, Rayline!!!!" Chelsy screamed. I sat down next to Xander and tried not to break into tears.
"Are you okay?" Xander asked me, he looked worried. I just nodded because my voice might break and i would end up crying. The bell rang and that meant lunch was over. Everyone left the lunchroom and now could do whatever they wanted to. We went into the hallway.
"Hey guys, I'll be right back. I need to go to the bathroom." I said calmly.
"Okay. Don't take to long." They all laughed. I walked down the hallway to the bathroom. I went to the sink and put my hands on the sides. I looked into the mirror and tears started to go down my cheeks. I didn't feel like wiping away my tears.. I wish Chelsy could just feel my pain.. then maybe.. just maybe she will leave me alone. I didn't even know someone was coming up behind me. I was staring at the sink now. Someone shoved me against the sink and I turned around. Chelsy and her friends..
"What do you want..." I mumbled.
"Aw look.. she's crying.. Crybaby." Leslie, another of Chesly's friends, laughed.
"Ha. Yeah.. Crybaby Rayline. Has a nice ring to it." They all laughed.
"Leave me alone.." I sniffled.
"Why? All we wanna do is talk to you..." She looked at her friends and nodded. They all started coming closer to me. I inched back against the sink.
"Leave me alone!!!" I screamed. Renee covered my mouth and Leslie held me back. Chelsy shook her head.
"Shame shame shame.. Poor little Rayline.. all trapped.." They all laughed. I tried to scream but Renee was covering my mouth and I couldn't do a thing. Chelsy punched me in the face and I started struggling to get free. Leslie threw me onto the floor and Chelsy sat on me.
"You really are a loser." Renee laughed. She stepped on my leg and I screamed. Leslie sat in front of me and covered my mouth. Chelsy got off of me and kneeled beside me.
"Bitch @ss loser." She laughed. She punched me in the side hard as hell. Renee pulled my hair to make me stand back up. Leslie punched me in the stomach and I screamed. Renee punched me in the face.. making my face bleed even more. Chelsy slammed my head into the wall and I fell onto the floor.
"Psh.. Enjoy life.. bitch." Leslie smirked. Chelsy punched my in the side again and they left. I layed there for a minute. I finally got up, slowly.. I slowly walked out of the bathroom.. using the wall to keep my balance.


Chapter 4- Friends.

As I came out of the bathroom, no one was around. I felt blood drip off my face. I felt my head spin and I was going to blackout. Kayla, Aron, Mike, and Xander came into view at the other end of the hallway. My vision started to blur, I barely heard them yell my name. They saw the blood on my face.
"OH MY GOD!!! RAYLINE!!!" I heard Kayla scream. I fell to the floor and I saw Xander running over to me. Before I hit the floor, Xander caught me. I blackout.

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I woke up in the nurses office. My head hurt and I felt like hell. My side and stomach was still in pain. I could tell my face was all cleaned up. I looked around as my vision and hearing slowly recovers.
"She's awake!!!" I heard Aron yell. I saw Xander beside me but I couldn't hear what he was saying.
"Rayline!! Can you hear me??" Finally, I heard what he was saying. I nodded slowly. "Oh that god! We were all worried sick." I saw Kayla, Mike and Aron around me.
"What happened?!?!?!" Kayla had worry all over her face. I put my hand to my head. I couldn't think.. my head hurt to much.
"What's wrong, Rayline?" Mike asked.
"M-m-My head.. hurts.." I managed to say.
"Do you want us to leave??" Aron asked. I shook my head slowly.
"Rayline what happened??" Xander asked.
"Chesly.. and her friends.. came into the bathroom.. beat me up.." I said slowly.
"OH MY GOSH! I knew it.. I'm going to beat the sh-" Kayla was cut off.
"Kayla. Don't." Mike said.
"But.." She started to say.
"No." He replied. She sighed. I slowly started to sit up but fell back down. I couldn't sit up.. my side and stomach hurt way to much.
"You should rest for a bit." Xander was really worried about me..
"No no.. it's okay.. I don't want you guys to worry.. to much.. about me.." I slowly replied.
"Okay.. if you say so.." Aron mumbled. I slowly started to sit up again, I fell back down again.
"Let me help you." Xander whispered. He helped me sit up, then he helped me stand. I almost fell over but Xander had his arms around my waist. His touch made me melt inside. I felt fireworks blow up inside me as I stared into his eyes. I don't know why I was feeling these feelings towards him. He stared back at me and smiled. Kayla was looking back and forth from me to Xander. She giggled and whisperd something to Mike and he whispered what Kayla said to Aron.
"Well... Were just gonna leave you guys alone.. let you two get to know each other more.. We'll see you later!!" Aron and Mike winked and Kayla gave a thumbs up. Oh my.. I love them but sometimes they can be too weird. I laughed in my head but the left. Xander looked back at me.
"They are too weird.." He laughed "So what do you want to do?"
"I don't know.." I smiled.
"I have an idea.. Follow me." He smiled. I nodded and he held out his hand. I stared at his hand but eventually took it. He gently pulled me out of the nursed office, but my sides and my stomach didn't hurt as much, so I could keep up with Xander.


Chapter 5- Finding out about Xander

Xander led me to a classroom that no one was in. He let me go inside first and he closed the door behind him. I turned around and looked at him.
"What? I thought we would find out about each other." He smiled. I laughed and took a seat at one of the desks. Xander sat at the desk next to me.
"So.. what do you want to know??" I looked into his dark blue eyes.. already I feel my face burning up.
"What's your favorite thing to do??" He looked back at me.. into my eyes.
"Umm.. be in my room alone.."
"What??? Why?? Mine's being with all my friends."
"I like to be alone.. unless I'm with my best friends." I smiled.
"Ha ha. Next question.. What's your favorite color?"
"Black, or blue."
"Mine's blue." He smiled. "What's your favorite movie?"
"Umm.. Red Ridding Hood."
"Oooh, Mine's Harry Potter." He kept asking me questions and I kept learning more thing about him... like his favorite food is tacos, he loves soccer, his favorite book is Eragon, and lots more stuff. The last bell was going to ring in 10 minutes so we left the classroom and started to walk back to our lockers. I kept looking at him every now and then. I realized how muscular he was, and how well you could see his muscles threw his shirt. Dang.. I couldn't stop staring at him... he was just so.. so.. godly. We got to my locker and had 5 minutes left till the last bell rang. He went to his locker to grab his things then he came back to where my locker was. We talked for a bit then the last bell rang. Everybody started to go to there lockers and get their stuff. Xander and I started walking outisde. I say Chelsy and her friends by Chelsy's car, she looked over at us and smirked. I tried to ignore her, tried to not think about what happened today.. We got to my car and I faced Xander.
"Soo... I'll see you later." I looked up at him.
"Yeah.. I hope you feel better by the way." He looked back at me and smiled.
"Thanks." I smiled back. I saw Crystal coming and unlocked the car. I got in and said bye to Xander again. He left to his car and Crystal got in the passengers seat. She looked at me and gasped.
"What happened!!!!" She had her mouth open. Sigh. I started the car and pulled outta the parking space. I explained to her what happened today on the way home. When we finally got home.. I would have to face Mom.. I might have to tell her what has been going on..


Chapter 6- The Truth.

I pulled into our driveway and got out of the car. I locked the car and looked at my house. Sigh. Here we go.. Crystal was already inside so I started for the door. I walked inside and tried to sneak upstairs but mom saw me.
"Hey, Honey..." She looked at my face and gasped. "OH MY GOD WHAT HAPPENED?!?!?!??!" She screamed and ran over to me. She put her hands to my face and was saying a lot of crap.
"Oh my god. Oh my god!! What happened? Who did this? Are you okay? Let me take you to the hospital!!" She was overreacting.
"Mom, I'm fine, stop overreacting." I tried to calm her down but it wasn't working.
"Tell me what happened!!!!" She begged.
"Mom.. your going to need to sit down.." I sighed. I led her to the table and sat down across from her. She stared at me with confusion.
"What's going on, Hun??" She was staring at me. I started to tell her about 7th grade... all the way threw to Senior year. Then I told her about what happened to day and she was about to freak out. She started overreacting again and was asking me why I never told her this. Once I explained everything, I went up to my room and closed the door behind me. I went to the window and stared at the sky. It was about to start raining and I could hear thunder. Soon, I saw lightning and walked away from the window. I went to my bathroom and looked in the mirror. No wonder everyone freaked out, my face was a mess. Cuts all over my face, my lip, my nose, my cheeks, and my forehead. Sigh. Oh well.. I closed the door and turned on my shower. I took off my clothes and in the shower. I got out and grabbed my towel I dried off. I went into my room and went to my closet. I took out sweats and a tank-top, I changed into them. I heard my phone go off and I looked to see who it was. Great.. now the Cyberbullying begins.. I opened the text:

Your such a sore loser, Rayline.. What kind of name is that anyways?? Rayline.. sound's like a mental persons name.. Haha! Oh yeah.. How's your face???
Leslie

Then I got another text:

Hey, Raylineeee. Hows your face doing??? Hahahaaha I bet your being a little crybaby right now and crying. Haha Oh yeah.. I need to remind you.. Stay away from Xander, Kay?? if you don't I swear I will beat you till your dead. Loser.. Why does her even talk to you? Your ugly and have no friends... and again.. Enjoy life!!!!
Chelsy

Why can't they just leave me alone! I was going to go insane.. They kept texting me over and over again. I read the text messages.. they made me even more upset.. I laid down on my bed and was about to break down.. Finally, I fell asleep.


Chapter 7- Sad

I woke up and looked at the clock.. 5 am.. and I was still tired. I rolled over and looked at my phone.. 12 text messages.. all about me being a loser and all that shit. They were really started to get on my last nerves. I didn't even want to go to school today.. I get out of bed and went to my bathroom. I looked into the mirror and saw my cuts were slowly healing. I brushed out my hair and put on eyeliner. I put a bit of cover up over my cuts. I walked back into my bedroom and looked in my closet. I pulled out a long sleeved blue Hollister shirt and ripped black skinny jeans. I changed into them and laid back on my bed. I had about an hour to kill before I had to get to school. I really don't want to go.. but I'm only going to see Xander. I fell asleep again for a bit. Then my Mom came into my room and woke me up. She was crying when she woke me up.
"Mom whats wrong??" I groaned, I was crabby from being woken up.
"Y-y-your father called..." She stuttered. I gasped.
"W-what did he say??" I was shocked.. He hasn't called in... forever..
"He... he.. he's dying.." Now I was shocked. Even though he left us.. I still loved him.. I mean he is my father...
"What.. happened.." I whispered.
"He.. he got hit by a car... a drunk driver.. and.. and he's in the hospital.. dying.. even as we speak.." Mom started balling. I hugged her and tried to calm her down. It wasn't working. She cried into my shirt. Crystal came in and I could tell Mom told her too. She sat next to me and joined in the hug. We all cried.

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We got to school, trying not to cry.. it was going to rain all day today.. great for me and Crystal's mood. I just hope today won't get any worse.. but I know it will. I walked inside and already everyone glared at me. I looked at the floor and kept walking to my locker. I opened my locker and put my stuff in it. I took out my books that I needed and closed the locker door. Hmm.. no sign of Chelsy or her friends yet.. Where's Xander? I walked to English class. That period went fast and I walked to Algebra. When I got to the door I saw Chelsy all over Xander. She was flirting it up with him. I felt jealously, and hatred. My hands turned into fists and I walked over to them. I flat out punched Chelsy in the nose. I swear to gosh I broke her nose. She held her nose and wiggled it back and forth.
"OH MY GOD! YOU BROKE MY NOSE!!! HOW DARE YOU!!!" She stared at me "Oh look who it is.." She gave a slutly, evil smile. "How's you face, loser." Xander stared at me. I don't know why I even went over to them... god why am I so stupid..I looked at the floor. "Awwww.. You look depressed." Chelsy laughed.
"Why don't you just leave her alone, Chelsy?" Xander.. he.. he stood up for me.. I looked up to see Chelsy staring at him in shock.
"Wait... I thought you liked me????" Chelsy still stared at him.
"Umm... why the hell would I like you.. you a total bitch." Xander turned away from her and had his full attention on me. "Are you okay, Rayline?" I looked at him.
"Yeah.." I didn't want to tell him what was really bugging me inf front of Chelsy. We walked back to our seats. I sat down and so did Xander, he stared at me.
"Please tell me what's really wrong?" He pretty much begged. I sighed. I stared back at him.. His eyes.. his smile.. always seemed to calm me down.
"Okay.. My Dad called this morning.. and.. he.. he.. he got hit by a car... a drunk driver.. and hes.. dying.." I tried not to cry. "Even though he left.. He's still my Dad and we still love him..." I took a deep breath and tried staying calm.
"Oh my gosh.. I'm so sorry." He looked upset.. The teacher walked in and started class. We turned our attention to the teacher. I tried to focus but my mind kept going back to yesterday, my dad, and all those text messages... Class ended pretty quickly.. in fact the rest of the day ended quickly. I started walking to my car, Chelsy stopped me.
"That was a pretty dumb thing you did in Algebra today. Humiliate me in front of Xander and everyone else. You really are a bitch and you know it. Your a sore loser, your friends are fake and guess what? Your fathers dying.. or is he dead now? Ohh yes. I know about your father. You can't keep secrets away from me. I will find out. I hope you enjoy the humiliation I bring you for the rest of your life." Chelsy gave me a snobby look and walked away. How.. How did she find out.. I went to my car and unlocked the door. I felt a tap on my shoulder and turned around. I looked into deep dark blue eyes. Xander. Tears were filling up my eyes. He knew what happened.. he put his arms around my waist and hugged me. I buried my face into his chest and started to cry. I sniffed in his scent.. he was wearing Ax and he had a faint smell of apples.
"Shh.. Don't cry." He whispered in my ear. I only cried more. He pulled me closer to him and started to rub my back. I started to calm down.. I looked up at him and he looked back.
"Are you okay?" I nodded. He wiped away the rest of the tears going down my cheek.
"I better get home.." My voice broke.
"Okay.. I'll see you around." He hugged me again and let go. I got into the car and started it. Xander smiled at me and walked away to his car.


Chapter 8- Depression

I got home and walked inside.
"Mom, I'm home!" No answer. "Mom???" No answer. I walked into the kitchen and screamed.
"Mom!!!" She was on the floor bleeding. I ran over to her and lifted her up onto my lap. She opened her eyes and looked at me. "Who did this.."
"3 girls.." She slowly answered.
"Oh my gosh.. I think I know who..." I saw a note on the table. I put my Mom back on the floor and stood up to get the note. I opened it and read it:

Told you I would make your life horrible. First, I started with you, then with your family. If you don't leave him alone, it will get worse. I will make your friends turn on you. I'll make your life a living hell.
Chelsy.

They can't do this... I ripped up the note and threw it in the trashcan. I went back to my Mom. Crystal walked in and was as shocked as I was.
"What happened?!?!?!" She gasped.
"Chelsy." I helped Mom up.
"Oh.. She needs to stop." Crystal helped me take Mom upstairs to her room. We put her on her bed. I went and got the first aid kit. I cleaned up Mom's face while Crystal cleaned up her sides. When she was all fixed up, we left her to rest for a bit. Her phone rang and I picked it up. It was the hospital my Dad was at... I hung up and fell to the floor. I hid my face with my hands and cried.
"Rayline.. Rayline. Rayline!! What's the matter??" Crystal sat beside me and hugged me. "Dad... he.. he... he's dead!" Crystal gasped. She started to cry with me.

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By the time we stopped crying, it had been hours since the call. We told Mom and she cried. Me and Crystal went downstairs and sat at the table.
"I don't believe he's gone..." Crystal mumbled.
"I know right.. Even though he left... He's was still our father." I sighed.
"Yeah.." Someone knocked on the door. I stood up and went over to the door. I opened and there stood Chelsy. I stared at her.
"What do you want?" I crossed my arms.
"I wanted to apologize for what I've done.." She started to say.
"Whatever. I can tell your just lying." I stared into her eyes... which I never do.
"Alright, I am lying." She grabbed me by my shirt collar and pulled me out the door. She slammed the door and threw me onto the concrete. "I want to talk some sense into you. To you know.. leave Xander alone. I swear I will do worse things to you than I have been doing. I will beat the hell outta you and your family. Your a fucking loser."
"There's no freaking reason for you to beat me up. Are you that desperate to be with him? He doesn't like you.. he even said that to your face. Why can't you just leave me, Xander, my friends and my family alone." I stood up but she pushed me back down. I fell on my butt and pain shot up my body.
"I am that desperate because he is the hottest guy in the school. And I always date the hottest guy in the school. Not some ugly, little loser that has no real friends." She kneeled down in front of me and put her face close to mine. "Get this threw that think head of yours, no one fucking likes you, you have problems, your a little loser, you family is a mess, Xander probably just feels bad for you, so he hangs out with you, your friends probably just feel bad for you, oh right you have no friends, why don't you just leave. And never come back. Kay, sweetheart?" She slapped my face. "Bye now." She stood up and walked away. I stood up and went inside. I walked upstairs and fell onto my bed. I soon went to sleep.

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Crystal woke me up and told me it was time to go to school. I got outta bed and went to my bathroom. I turned on the shower and took off my clothes. I got into the shower and thought about everything that happened. I grabbed my towel and dried off. I went to my closet and picked out all black clothes. I changed into them and didn't bother to even put make-up on. I grabbed my bag and slowly walked downstairs. I went into the kitchen and grabbed an apple. Crystal came downstairs.
"Can you drive us to school today.." I looked at her.
"Yeah.. sure. Are you ready to go?" She already started to go out the door.
"I'm never ready to go to school..." I mumbled. I followed her out the door and got in the car. "How's Mom doing?"
"She's doing better." Crystal started the car and pulled out the driveway. The rest of the way to school was silent. It was raining again.. I don't mind thought.. I like the rain. We got to school and went inside. Everyone was staring at me.. and laughing. I looked around then looked at the floor. I got to my locker and opened it. I put my stuff in and grabbed everything I needed. I saw Kayla and waved at her.. She ignored me. I walked over to her.
"Hey, Kayla."
"What do you want?" She stared at me.
"Umm.. what's wro-" She cut me off.
"Go away. No one likes you. Chelsy was right.. why was I ever friends with you." She walked away. What the hell.. I saw Mike and Aron walk past me.
"Loser." They both said. I gasped. My best friends... they.. hate me.. and I don't even know why.. I walked to English class and sat in the back. I stared at my desk. People around me stared at me and made fun of me. I felt my phone vibrate. It was Aron..:

Hey, Loser. Noticed we turned on you?
Aron

I put my phone in away and the teacher came in. She started class and I stared at her. Everyone all looked at me every now and then. Once I heard someone call me a sappy depressed girl. I tried to ignore them. Soon the bell rang and I hurried out of the classroom. I walked to Algebra and when I got there... I froze. Chelsy and Xander were kissing. And it seemed like Xander didn't even mind. Everyone looked at me and laughed. Chelsy and Xander stopped kissing and Chelsy looked at me and laughed. She walked over to me.
"Told you he would be mine." Xander stared at me. Everyone in the classroom started calling me names.. horrible names. I went and sat at my desk then the bell rang. The teacher came in and he started class. Chelsy sat by Xander and was flirting with him. She kept giving me looks. When the teacher left the room for a minute.. everyone looked at me. They started throwing stuff at me and kept calling me horrible names. I couldn't take it. I stood up and ran out of the room not caring that they laughed at me. I felt Xander staring at me, but I didn't look back. I ran into the teacher.
"Rayline? Are you okay?" Mr.Strong asked.
"Can I please get a pass to leave.. I don't feel well."
"Sure." He wrote me a pass and gave it to me. "Get well." I nodded and walked to my locker. I put my books away and grabbed my bag. I don't care if I don't have the keys to my car.. I will walk home. I went to the office and gave them the pass. They let me leave and I walked out the front doors. I hope their all happy... It was still raining when I walked outside. I stood there for a second and stared at the sky. Raindrops fell on my face but I didn't mind.

Chapter 9- Suicide

I looked back inside the school and saw Xander walking down the hall. I started running home. I didn't want to see him.. or talk to him.. I saw enough in Algebra. I got home and I was soaked. I ran inside and went to my room. I don't want to live with this anymore.. I can't take it. I got out a paper and a pencil and started to write out my suicide note. When I finished it I went into my bathroom and started to look for pills to make me overdose and die. I found none so I decided to just go threw a painful death. I would make myself bleed to death. I went downstairs and to the kitchen. I grabbed a knife and ran outside to the backyard. I stood in the rain for a second and then started to cry.
"I'm sorry.." I whispered. I brought the knife to my arm and added pressure to it. I drug it down my wrist to my forearm. I did the same to my other arm. I looked around to see if anyone saw me and there wasn't anyone around. I took a deep breath and looked at my arms. Blood dripped off my arms onto the muddy ground. Raindrops fell onto the cuts. I moved the knife onto my left hand. I gripped the knife and it cut threw my skin. I didn't scream because that would draw attention. Blood came out from under the knife and ran down my hand. I released the knife and it fell to the ground. I picked it up but fell onto my knees. I already felt lightheaded. I checked my phone real quick to see what time it was... School would be over in just a couple minutes. My hands were shaking so I dropped my phone. I put the knife to my right leg and drug it all the way up from my ankle to my knee. I started to bleed even more. My vision started to blur every now and then. Rain ran down my face so I couldn't tell if I was even crying. I saw my phone light up and I looked at it. I picked it up with my hand shaking. It was a number I never seen before I opened the text up:

Rayline, Can we talk?
Xander

He wanted to talk... but.. it was already to late for that.. a couple minutes passed and he texted me again.

Rayline? Hello? Please answer..
Xander

And another.

If you don't reply, I'm following your sister to your house.
Xander

I didn't care... Soon I heard a car come up the driveway. Crystal.. I heard her yell that she was home. She yelled my name.
"Rayline?? Hello?? I know Mom's not here.. she's at work.. Rayline??" I heard another voice.
"Rayline?? Where are you!?" I couldn't tell who it was... I think it was Xander. My vision was really blurring now. I fell off my knees onto my belly. I brought the knife up to my neck. I thought I saw Crystal coming from the side of the house. I heard her scream.
"XANDER!!! RAYLINE!!! She's back here!" She was running over to me. I was about to apply pressure to the knife on my neck, but someone took it out of my hands. I saw Xander run up beside me.. he was saying something but I blacked out.

~~~

I woke up in the hospital, memories coming back to me. I looked at my arms and saw them wrapped up. I heard Crystal's scream in my head. I fell back asleep.

Chapter 10- Xander

I woke up the next day and felt a hand on mine. I looked over to see who it was and it was my Mom.
"Mom.. I'm sorry.." I started to say.
"It's okay. I'm just glade Crystal and your friend was there to save you." She hugged me and I hugged her back.
"Where's Crystal?" I had to ask where she was.. I needed to know if she was alright.. and Xander..
"She's at school... but I don't know if your friend is at school. He looked really worried when I saw him." A frown appeared on my face. I started to sit up. "No no.. you need to rest. And I can't trust you out on your own."
"Mom.. Please.. I feel fine.." I looked at her.
"Fine.. I need to get to work anyways. Let me go see if I can check you out of the hospital." She got up and walked out of the room. Sigh. I looked at my left hand and it was bandaged up from my hand to my forearm. Mom came back in with the doctor. He started to make sure I was okay... He was asking me questions about how I felt. He told my Mom I was alright to leave, but if i had any thoughts about suicide I would have to go back.
"Alright, I'm taking you home then I'm going home. Don't you dare leave the house." Mom ordered. She checked me out and we went to the car. I got in the passengers seat and Mom started the car. She pulled out of the parking lot and drove home. It was silent on the way home.. We got home and I went inside. Mom left for work. I looked at my bandages and slid down the door onto the floor. I hid my face and thought about what I should do... I want to go see Xander.. all I ever thought about was him.. and he did want to talk.. I stood up and walked outside. I closed the door and started to walk. I thought about going to the park.. but.. I just started walking there. I looked up at the clouds and it was getting cloudy.. It was going to rain again. As I walked I looked at my feet and thought about everything that has happened in a matter of days. I got to the park by the time it started raining. I looked around to find nobody there. I walked over to the giant maple tree. I put my hand on the trunk and looked at the sky. I felt another presence behind me.. then a hand. I turned around and stared at his dark blue eyes. He stared back. He was the one to break the silence.
"Rayline.." He whispered. I heard sadness in his voice.
"Xander.. I'm so sorry.." I whispered back.
"It's okay.. can we talk about what happened yesterday in Algebra..?" I looked away. "Please...." He begged.
"Alright.." I looked back at him.
"Chelsy kissed me.. I was trying to pull away but she pulled me closer to her.. I couldn't get away. I would never kiss her..." He stared into my eyes and put his hand on my cheek. I put my hand on his. "The only person I would ever kiss.. is you.." He whispered.. I gasped. "I like you.. a lot.."
"I like you a lot too.." I looked at his lips. They were slightly parted.. he was leaning in. I leaned in and our lips met. His hand slipped off my cheek onto my waist. I moved my hands onto his chest and slid them around his neck. I moved one hand into his hair. He moved his arms around my waist and pulled me closer. His kept kissing my lips and I kissed him back. He put my back onto the tree and started to kiss my jawline down to my neck and back up. Finally, he kissed my lips again. I tried pulling him closer to me, but we were as close as we could be. His tongue slipped into my mouth and he played with my tongue. I followed his movements and played with his tongue. His hands moved up and down my sides. His hands stopped at my hips. He moved his hands around to my butt and just rested them there. He stopped kissing me and smiled.
"I've got to go. I'll see you later.. Maybe we can hang out a bit tomorrow?"
"Yeah.. If my Mom will let me outta the house." We laughed. He kissed me one last time and left. I started to go back home. Finally, I was happy again. I couldn't wait to see Xander again.. he's all I ever think about anyways. If only Kayla, Mike, and Aron were still my friends.. my best friends.. my life would be complete. The rain had stopped but the sky was still covered in grey clouds. It was starting to get cold out now too. I looked at my phone and it was almost 6. Shit. I had to hurry home.. I started running so I could get home faster. By the time I got home, it was 6:15. I opened the door and Crystal and Mom were at the table. Mom saw me and ran over and hugged me.
"Oh my god!! Where have you been!! We have been so worried! I told you NOT to leave the house!" She was overreacting again.. but for a good reason.. I didn't call.. and I did leave the house..
"I was in the park.. with Xander. I'm fine.. calm down." I pried her off of me.
"You were with Xander?!?!! Oh my god!! Tell me everything that happened!!!" Crystal begged.
"Well..." I started to say but Mom interrupted me.
"You were with the boy?? The guy that was here when you almost killed yourself??" Mom stared at me.. her eyebrows showed anger.
"Yes.. But listen.. He is really nice and like the only other person I trust besides you and Crystal." I explained..
"No no no! I don't know this boy. For all I know he could be a rapist! Before you even think about doing anything with him.. I need to meet him then I if I approve of him I will let you date him." She was angry..
"Mom! Your overreacting.." Crystal knew him and she agreed he was nice.
"Seriously.. He is no rapist, your being overprotective ever since yesterday. Calm down." My god.. she was being overprotective.
"I will be overprotective until I know you are okay and will not think about killing yourself again. I want to meet this boy tomorrow. Agreed?" She crossed her arms.
"Agreed." Sigh. Mom looked at her phone.
"Well... I need to go get ready.. I have a date tonight. Crystal, please watch your sister while I'm gone." She looked at Crystal.
"Alright." With that, Mom went upstairs to her bedroom. Me and Crystal looked at each other. We looked pretty dumb cause we were smiling like retards. We started jumping up and down.

Chapter 11- Home Alone

"OH MY GOSH!!! MOM HAS A DATE!!!!" Crystal screamed. She hasn't had a date in forever. We started cracking up laughing. Oh it's been a while since me and Crystal acted like this... we needed a good laugh. We went into the kitchen and started on dinner. Crystal worked on the pasta while I worked on the salad.
"Hmm.. I wonder if that's why Mom has always been coming home later." I thought out loud. "Ha ha. Yeah! Maybe that is why. Hmm.. Ooooh Mommy likey someone." I looked at Crystal and cracked up laughing. I swear she is such a dork sometimes.. but that's why I love her. Soon, the pasta was done and the salad was too. Mom came downstairs into the kitchen and me and Crystal gasped. Mom looked beautiful! She was wearing her short red dress that showed a bit of her chest, she wore her black stilettos, she had make-up on, which is rare, and she had her hair all done up.
"What do you guys think?" She asked up, doing a little spin.
"You look... AMAZING!!" We both said at the same time.
"Ha. Thanks." There was a knock on the door. "Oooh that must be him. I will see you guys later. Bye bye. Be good!" She gave us a hug and left. We sat down at the table and started to eat dinner.
"So.. Whatcha wanna do after dinner?" Crystal asked.
"Hmm.. I don't know.." I laughed.
"Hmm.. I have an idea.." She said in between bites.
"What?" I took a bite of my salad.
"You should invite Xander over." She winked.
"Noo! I giggled.
"Hmm.. Well we'll see him tomorrow." She gave an evil smile.
"Oh my.. Sometimes.. I worry about you, Crystal." We both laughed. We finished eating and cleaned up the kitchen. We put the leftovers away and went into the living room. Crystal sat on one couch and I sat on the other. She turned on the T.V. and started looking for something to watch. My phone vibrated and i checked to see who it was. It was Xander. I opened the text:

Hey, Beautiful(:
Xander

Hey(:
Rayline

What's up?
Xander

Watching t.v. with my sis. You?
Rayline

Laying on my bed.
Xander

Hot ;)
Rayline

Haha :P whatcha watching?
Xander

Umm.. I have no idea.. shes flipping threw channels o_o
Rayline

Haha.
Xander

Hehe(: Oh yeah.. My mom wants to meet you tomorrow.. sometime around noon?
Rayline

Ohh. Alright I'll come just for you ;)
Xander

Hehe :D
Rayline

I miss you..
Xander

Already? I can't complain.. I miss you too.. Your always on my mind.
Rayline

Your always on my mind too. <3
Xander

(: oh umm.. what happened in the park today.. does that mean were together?
Rayline

Yeah.. If your alright with it ;)
Xander

Hehe.. Yeah I'm fine with it ;)
Rayline

Hooray :D Oh hey.. I'm tired. I'll see you tomorrow(: bye beautiful <3
Xander

Okay. o: Byee(:
Rayline

I blushed over our conversation. I really can't live with out him. If he would've gotten taken away from me.. who knows what I would do. Crystal saw me smiling like crazy.
"Ooooh what with that slap happy face??" She laughed.
"Uh? Oh nothing..." I giggled. She shook her head laughing. We watched t.v. and eventually I fell asleep.

Chatper 12- Saturday

I woke up on the couch and it was 4 am. My back hurt from sleeping on the couch.. I guess that's what I get for sleeping on the couch. Oh well.. Crystal was sleeping on the other couch so I can't complain. I heard the front door open and looked over the couch to see who it was.. It was mom. I got up and went over to her.
"Well look who finally came home." I laughed. "Mom? Are you drunk??" I gasped she was drunk.
"Uh...? Wha..." She slurred her words. Sigh. I took her to the kitchen and sat her in a chair. I made some coffee and put a cup in her hand. She shook her head.
"Drink it." I ordered. She reluctantly drank the coffee and I could tell it was doing its job because she didn't look as drunk as she was. "Mom, Xander is coming here around noon, okay?"
"Okay. Good. Well.. I have a while to kill.. I'm going to go to bed. Wake me up a little before noon, okay?" She got up.
"Okay." Mom went upstairs and I went back to the couch. I fell back asleep.

~~~

I woke up around 10:30, my phone vibrating like crazy. I looked to see who it was.. guess who.. Chesly and her friends text bombed me. I opened all the messages and started getting pissed off. Great way to start my day.. they were calling me mean names and threatening me.. yet again. Whatever.. one of these days they will get in trouble for it. I would laugh when they do. I erased all the messages they sent me and looked over at Crystal. She was still asleep. I shook my head laughing. I got up off the couch and went over to her. I shook her a little.
"Crystal.. wake up.." She groaned and mumbled in her sleep.
"No mommy.. I wanna ride the pony.." I tried not to burst out laughing. I shook her again and this time she woke up. "Oh.. Hello." She stared at me.
"Time to get up.. and clean up the house before Xander comes over." I started to fold the blankets.
"Awww... but I'm sleepy..." She looked sleepy..
"Well we gotta clean up." I put the blankets away.
"When did Mom get home..?" She stood up.
"Umm.. around 4.." I walked into the kitchen.
"Oh wow.. really..?" Crystal followed me and made herself a bowl of cereal.
"Yup. She was pretty darn drunk when she walked in the door.." I shook my head. I also made myself a bowl of cereal and we sat down at the table.
"Well. she must of have a good time then." She laughed.
"Ha. Yeah." I ate my cereal then cleaned my bowl. I started cleaning up the kitchen while Crystal vacuumed. After I cleaned the kitchen, I went upstairs to clean my room up. I picked up all the clothes on my floor and threw them in my closet. I made my bed and out my bag by my desk. I organized my desk and then went to my bathroom. I cleaned up my counter that had all my make-up on it. I looked at my phone and saw it was 11:15. I walked out of my room and went to my Mom's door. I knocked on the door and opened it. She was passed out on her bed. I went over to her and shook her.
"Mom.. It's time to get up and get ready.." She only moved. "Mom.. get up.." She mumbled in her sleep. Ugh. I had an idea. I smiled evilly. ( hehe >:) ) I ran outta her room and went to find Crystal. She was in her room. I whispered my evil plan into her ear and drug her to Mom's room. We stood on her bed and counted down.
"One... Two... Three!" We started to jump on her bed, which made her wake up. Ha ha!!! My evil plan worked!!!
"What!! I'm up, I'm up!!" We started cracking up laughing, but we got off her bed. Crystal went back into her room and Mom went to take a shower. I went into my room and waited for Mom to finish showering so I could take one.. By the time she finished it was 11:35. I closed my door halfway and turned on my radio. I put my favorite CD in and turned it up to full blast. I went into my bathroom and closed the door. I turned on the shower and took off my clothes. I got in and my favorite song came on. Bullet For My Valentine- Hand of Blood. I started to sing to it.
"Ohh. There goes my valentine again, soaked in red for what she said, and now she's gone. Oh my god have I done it again, there's a pulse and it's deafening. I can't help what I hear in my head, It's the switch that I flick they said." I was shampooing my head when I thought I heard someone yell my name. Oh well. I kept singing to my song.
"I saw you look away Is what you've seen too much too take, or are you blind and seeing nothing?" I finished showering and grabbed my towel. I wrapped it around my body. I brushed out my hair and blow dried it. I looked over to see my phone going off again. Chelsy would not leave me alone. I finished blow drying my hair and looked at the texts. Yet again.. they were making fun of me.. this time it was worse. I tried not to let them get to me. I deleted the messages. I put on some eyeliner and mascara. I put on a little lip gloss and white eyeshadow. I looked at my appearance. Once I was satisfied, I opened my door and saw Xander sitting on my bed. He looked up and looked at me. I bit the inside of my mouth. He stared at me. Water dripped down my arms and legs.
"Hey." He finally said.
"Hey.. When did you get here?" I asked.
"Umm.. 10 minutes ago.. I was waiting for you downstairs. Your Mom was talking me for a bit.. but then I was wondering what was taking you so long and now I know why.." He looked me up and down. I felt my cheeks grow red.
"Hold on.. let me change." I went to my closet and closed the door behind me. Shit. My bra and undies are out there.. I felt my cheeks grow red again.. I opened the door and quickly walked over to my dresser. I felt Xander stare at me.. which made me blush even more. I opened the top drawer and took out a black lacy bra and black undies. I put them to my chest and closed the drawer. I quickly walked back to my closet and Xander was still staring at me. I closed the door and dropped my towel. I put on my bra and undies and looked for something to wear. I put on black skinnies and a white tank-top. I walked opened the door and walked out. I was looking at the floor when I reached Xander. I looked at him and he looked back.
"You look... beautiful." He grinned. I blushed.
"Thanks.. not to bad yourself." I pointed at his blue shirt and white skinnies. I really could see his muscles.. and that made me blush even more. He grabbed my hand and pulled me in front of him. He put his hands on my hips and put his head on my belly. I put my hand on his head and ruffled his hair. I turned my head around to look at my door because I heard someone coming. It was Mom. She looked at us and she raised her eyebrows.
"Umm.. am I interrupting something?" She crossed her arms. Xander took his head off my belly and looked past me and looked at my Mom.
"Uh.. kinda.." I blushed.
"Mhmm.. Well lunch is ready." She walked away and I returned my attention to Xander. He was looking up at me smiling. I laughed. He stood up and I slipped my hand threw his. I pulled him out of my room and downstairs. I looked at our hands and he had our fingers entwined. We walked into the kitchen and sat at the table.. he sat next to me still holding my hand.

Chapter 13- Mom's Acceptance.

Crystal came downstairs and sat across from us. Mom started putting plates full of food in front of us. Xander let go of my hand and I let go of his. Mom sat down by Crystal and we all started to eat. Soon, Mom started asking Xander question. They started out with normal questions then they turned weird...
"Have you ever been in love?" She asked him.
"No.. not till I met Rayline." He smiled.
"Oh.. I see.. Have you ever have sex?" I stared at her now.
"Mom!!!" I screamed.
"What??? I just wanted to know if he's-" I cut her off.
"Mom.. seriously.. shut-" Xander cut me off.
"No no.. It's fine. No, I have never had sex." I stared at Crystal and gave her a my-god-I-am-gonna-kill-her look. She shrugged.
"Hmm.. Have you had any girlfriends before you met Rayline?"
"Just one.. but we were in the 5th grade so it wasn't a real relationship." He laughed.
"Okay. Are your parents divorced?" I knew she couldn't help but ask. Ugh.
"Umm.. Yeah. My Mom actually died when I was 8... my parents divorced a year before.. I don't really wanna talk about it." I heard pain in his voice. He never told me about this...
"Oh.. I'm really sorry. It's okay, we don't have to talk about it. Do you have any siblings?" I could tell she was all interested now.
"Yeah. I have a brother but he lives in England."
"Oh. Well maybe we could meet him when he comes back into town. What's his name?" I was gonna murder her. He never told me he had a brother though.. so either way I was learning more things about him.
"Cameron."
"How old is he?"
"25.. 7 years older than me."
"How old are you??" She was really getting on my nerves.
"18, like Rayline."
"When's your birthday?"
"June 20th."
"Rayline's is July 21st."
"Yeah. I know." He smiled at me. "Is that all?"
"Hmm.. yeah for now.." We finished eating in silence then Mom started picking up our plates. Crystal got up to help her. I looked over at Xander and found him staring at me. I raised my eyebrows. He leaned closer to me and whispered in my ear.
"Your Mom's questions got a bit weird." I giggled. I shook my head and he leaned back and smiled. Mom whispered something to Crystal and she nodded. Crystal had a smile glued to her face. She ran upstairs. I looked at Mom and she walked over to us.
"Okay." I knew what she meant. Xander raised an eyebrow at me and shook my head. Crystal came back downstairs with her coat and purse. Mom grabbed her coat, purse and keys and started walking to the door. "We will be back later. We need to do some errands. Have fun.. but not to much fun." They walked out the door and closed the door behind them. I looked at Xander.
"Sooo.... What did your Mom mean by 'Okay'?" He had an eyebrow raised still.
"Oh she gave me her approval of what she thinks about you. She's okay with the fact that were dating." I smiled and he relaxed. "So what do you want to do now..?"
"Hmm.. I don't know. Wanna watch a movie?" I nodded and he stood up. He held out his hand and I took it. He gently pulled me into the living room.


Chapter 14- Love

We turned the t.v. on and laid down on the couch. I laid between his legs, my head and upper body on his upper body. I laid my head on his chest and he put his arms around me. We decided to watch Red Ridding Hood because it's my favorite movie. An hour into the movie, I looked up at Xander and found him sleeping. He looked so.. peaceful. I looked back at the t.v. and listened to his breathing. Listening to his breathing started to make me sleepy and I fell asleep.

~~~

I woke up and found the movie over. It was around 7:30 and Mom and Crystal weren't back yet. I looked up at Xander and he was still asleep. I taped his arms, they were still around me. He moved a little but didn't wake up.
"Xander..." Still nothing. I moved closer to his face, our lips almost touching. "Xander.." I whispered. He still didn't wake up. I moved my face closer to his so that our lips touched. I kissed him and that woke him up. I pulled away and stared into his eyes. "Well hello sleepyhead." I giggled. He smiled.
"Well I was tired."
"Oooh I could tell. But your awake now right?"
"Yeah." He kissed me softly and I kissed him back. He pulled away. "Is your Mom and sister home yet?" I shook my head and stared at his lips.
"Why?" I whispered. He smiled. He kissed me again but with much more passion. I kissed him back. Now I know why he asked.. Am I ready to make love to him? I'll just see where this goes.. then maybe I'll have my answer.. He stopped kissing me and sat up. He pulled me onto his lap so I sat in his lap, facing him. He put his hand on my cheek and leaned in. I leaned in and our lips met. He kissed me with so much passion. I put my hands on his chest and slid them up around his neck, one hand in his hair. I gently gripped his hair. He moaned a bit in my mouth. He wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled me closer to him. His tongue entered my mouth and started playing with mine. I did the same. (This might get bad :P) He moved his hands onto my waist and moved his fingers under my shirt. He started kissing down my jaw onto my neck. He kissed across my neck and down to my collarbone then back up to my lips. I gently bit his bottom lip and he moaned into my mouth. He took my shirt off and put his hands on my upper back. I pulled him closer to me and started taking off his shirt. Once his shirt was off, I moved my hands over his abs. He moved his hands down to my ass and squeezed my ass. I couldn't help but moan in his mouth. He started taking off my pants. I had to stand up so he could completely take off my pants. He then decided to take his pants off and after that I sat back on his lap. He started kissing my neck while moving his hands up my back onto my bra strap. He started unhooking my bra. He put my arms above my head so he could remove my bra. He looked at my breasts for a second then laid me down on the couch. He kissed me while moving his hands over my breasts down to my panties. He took off my panties while I took off his boxers. I pulled him closer to me and kissed him with passion. He kissed me back then starting kissing down my jaw, onto my neck, and down past my collarbone. He put his left hand on my left breast and squeezed it gently. I moaned out loud. He started kissing down to my right breast but I pulled him back up to my lips. He rolled us over onto the floor, him still on top. He put his friend you know where...

~~~

We laid on the floor, Xander's head on my chest. I was moving my hand threw his hair. I felt complete.. I felt alive after we made love to each other. It was now 11 and Mom and Crystal still weren't back.. Oh well, I didn't really want them to come home now.. not at this moment. We were still naked. Xander looked up at me and smiled. I looked back at him and smiled back. He kissed me on the lips, biting my upped lip which made me moan into his mouth. He pulled back.
"You think we should get dressed? Just in case they come home.. or we could go to your room?" He smiled a sexy smile. I laughed and shook my head.
"Oh my, Xander. My room sounds nice though.." With that, he stood up, bent down and picked me up, holding me like a baby, my legs over his one arm and my upper back on his other arm. He started going upstairs to my room. Once in my room, I closed the door behind him and he carried me to my bed. He slipped us under the covers and put his arms around my waist. He pulled me close to him. We soon fell asleep.

Chapter 15- Back to School

Sunday went by fast and soon it was Monday.. back to school. I got out of bed only going to go to school because of Xander. All the memories of Saturday still rushed back to me and made me want to see Xander more. I hurried and changed into a purple shirt and black capris. I heard it was going to be nice today, no more rain for a while which I didn't mind. I ran into the bathroom and put on some eyeliner and mascara, I brushed my hair then ran back into my room. I grabbed my bag and went downstairs.
"You seem in a good mood today." Mom laughed. I rolled my eyes.
"Well, I want to see Xander." I grabbed an apple and took a bite out of it.
"Oooh. I see. I'm off to work, bye." She hugged me then left. Crystal came down and looked at me.
"Wow.. Your never downstairs before me, or up. What's with the happy mood?" She eyed me suspiciously.
"What... I wanna see Xander.." I blushed. She smiled and nodded her head.
"Well then, ready to go?" I nodded and we went to the car. She drove us again today. I turned the music to rock music. Crystal looked at me. I shrugged. We soon got to school and I was already inside. Everyone looked at me, like usual. I ignored them and went to my locker. I opened my locker and put my stuff in, then my locker closed and I was gently pushed against my locker. I stared into his deep blue eyes and smiled. He smiled back and softly kissed me on the lips.
"Morning, my love." He whispered.
"Morning." I whispered back. Xander held out his hand and I took it. He walked me to my first period then kissed me on the lips again.
"See you next period." He smiled and slowly let go of my hand. I walked into English and took my seat. I saw Kayla slowly walk over to me.
"Hey, Rayline..." She slowly said.
"Hi." I stared at her.
"I want to apologize for everything! I never should have done that! I'm soooooo sorry! Chesly is a big jerk and when I heard that you almost killed youself... I.. I felt soo bad." She looked like she was about to cry. I stood up and hugged her.
"It's okay. Really." She hugged me back
"Best friends again?" She smiled.
"Best friends." I smiled back. She sat in the desk beside me and the teacher walked in. First period went fast... that's if you pay attention in class... (so true :P) The bell rang and I went to my second period with Kayla. We saw Aron and Mike in the hall and they walked over to us.
"Hey, Rayline.. We're sorry about everything.. We never meant it. We were just so frustrated with Chelsy." Aron explained.
"It's okay. I understand. Really" I smiled.
"Good. So are we friends again? I see you and Kayla are friends again." Mike half smiled.
"Yeah." I hugged both Aron and Mike then pulled away. We all went to Algebra and found Chelsy all over Xander again. I felt my anger grow already. Then, she leaned over and kissed him. That really made me flip. He pushed her again.
"Um.. No. My heart belongs to Rayline. Go away." He glared at Chelsy. I could tell she was just going to run away and sob.. but she looked up at me. She walked over to me and slapped me. I put my hand on my cheek and slapped her back.
"Don't slap me just because he don't like you, seriously. Grow up and stop being a bitch." I walked away but she grabbed my arm.
"Don't tell me what to do. Kay? And for your information he does like me. Everyone likes me." She wore her slutty @ss smile. Xander came over and stood beside me.
"Umm. I don't like you. I hate you. Kay?" He mocked her. She stared at him, her mouth hanging open.
"But.. Why???? What's wrong with me?" She took a step towards him but I growled at her so she took a step back.
"Your a freaking bitch and your not Rayline. I love Rayline. I mean it." He looked at me and smiled. "I do. I love you Rayline." Kayla, Mike, and Aron all awed.
"I love you too." I smiled back at him. He put his hand on my waist then leaned in and kissed me. I kissed him back and Chelsy screamed.
"NO NO NO NO!!!!!! THIS IS WRONG!!! WHY DO YOU LIKE HER??!?!?!! WHAT'S SO PERFECT ABOUT RAYLINE!!! UGH!!!" She ran out of the room, having her little temper tantrum. We all looked at each other and cracked up laughing. The teacher came in and told us all to sit. We all sat by each other still laughing.

~~~

After our morning classes, we went to lunch. We all sat by each other again and talked about what all happened in Algebra.
"Did you see her face it was all." Mike made a shocked expression of Chelsy's face. We all cracked up laughing again.
"Oooh and did you see the way she ran out of the room??? She like stomped ran." Kayla laughed. We laughed even harder.
"I swear... that chick... has issues." Aron said in between a laugh.
"Agreed." Xander replied. We all finally stopped laughing, then looked back at each other and started laughing all over again (I do that all the time! :D). We stopped laughing immediatly when we saw our principal, Mr. Hauling, walk towards us.
"Rayline Brooks, I need to see you in the office." He said in his deep, manly voice. I looked at my friends like, what-did-I-do... I stood up and followed Mr. Hauling out the door, to the office. When we walked in I saw Chelsy and I think her parents. Her parents stood up as we walked over to them.
"Rayline, These are Chelsy's parents. They have something they would like to tell you." I turned my attention to them.
"Rayline, We are so sorry for Chelsy's behavior. She's just a spoiled girl who thinks she deserves to dating all the cute guys in your school." Chelsy's Mom explained.
"She really needs to grow up and learn that she can't have every guy in your guy's school. I'm sorry that what she has done to you like make fun of you and almost costs your life. Chelsy, Would you please apologize." Reluctantly, Chelsy stood up and walked over to us.
"I'm sorry, okay? I just really wanted to have Xander. I'm sorry for my stubbornness and bullying you every day since 7th grade. I just never knew what you were going threw and couldn't just stop." She looked me in the eyes when she said this. I knew she meant it cause she never looked me in the eyes.
"It's okay, really." I replied. I didn't really care...
"Okay, Chelsy go to the car." Chelsy left the office. "Good-bye, Rayline. We hope she doesn't do anything else to you." Chelsy's Mom told me. With that they left.
"Rayline, you can go back to lunch now." Mr. Hauling told me. I nodded my head and left. I got back to the lunchroom and saw Xander, Kayla, Aron and Mike in line, so I walked in line. Soon, I got my food then went to sit down by Xander.
"What did Mr. Hauling want?" He asked.
"Chelsy and her parents were in the office. Chelsy apologized for what she's done." They all looked shocked. "Yeah, I know."
"Wow." Mike replied. I took a bit of my steak.
"That's just... shocking." Aron ate his apple.
"Yeah." I looked at my potatoes. We all finished eating and dumped our trays. The bell rang soon after and we walked back to the gym. We all had gym next anyways. We got to the gym then me and Kayla went into the girl's locker room. We went to the back where our lockers were and changed into our short sleeve shirts and shorts. After we finished changing, Renee came over to us.
"What the hell do you want." I glared at Renee.
"Umm... where's Chelsy?" She crossed her arms.
"Up my ass, why? No, really, she's suspended for what she's done to me." I closed my locker door.
"Why? Do you miss your bitch?" Kayla stared at Renee.
"Ugh. Why do I even bother talking to you guys. Listen, since she's not here for a while, it's my turn to make your life a living hell." She grinned.
"Ahem... Teachers will be watching you and your friends closely. Including me." Mrs. Grim was right behind Renee. Renee turned around.
"H... Hi, Mrs. Grim.. I didn't mean anything I said..." She gave a innocent smile.
"Yeah, Okay. I've heard that before. Office. Now." She pointed out the door to the office. Renee reluctantly went to the office.
"Thanks, Mrs. Grim." I smiled.
"Sure thing. Hurry up, I will be starting class soon. We're going to be outside today." "Okay." Me and Kayla said at the same time. We ran outside and found Xander, Mike, Aron, and my sister.
"Hey." They all said.
"Hellooo." Kayla cooed.
"Alright class. Do your warm-ups then were running today." Mrs. Grim ordered. She sat under a tree and watched us. We all groaned, but started warming up anyways. After our stretches everyone started running.
"Race you two!!!" Kayla taped Mike and Aron. They all started running down the tack. Me and Xander were left alone. He was looking at me smiling, I looked back.
"So, whatcha wanna do?" He asked.
"I don't know... Run around the track?" I suggested.
"Okay." We both started running at the same time and at the same pace. "What are you doing later?
"Um.. I don't know. Why?" I asked, still running.
"I don't know. Just wondering if you would wanna hang out later after school." I knew he was smiling.
"Yeah, okay." I smiled.
"Great! Meet me in the parking lot after the last bell rings."
"Okay." We kept running. Soon, Mrs. Grim blew her whistle.
"Alright everyone. Finish up and change, the bell will be ringing soon." She yelled. Everyone started walking back inside, including me and Xander. We got back inside and I went to the girl's locker room. Kayla pulled me back to our lockers.
"What did you and Xander talk about??" She had a smile plastered to her face.
"Um.. well... he asked me if I was doing anything after school and I said no. So were going somewhere after school now." I told her, changing.
"Ooooooooh!!!!!!" Kayla giggled. I laughed. We finished changing just as the bell rang. We went back into the gym and found the guys waiting for us.
"Hey, Rayline. I'll see you later. Aron, Mike and I gotta hurry and get to horticulture. I'll text you later!!!" She ran over to Aron and Mike and they left. They have always been close and I understand why. They've know each other since they were little. Xander came over to me. We both had Art next.
"Ready to go to Art?" He asked, holding out his hand.
"Yeah." I took his hand and we started walking to Art class. BY the time we got there, class started. We went to our table and listened to the teacher.
"Alright, you can do whatever you want today. Get whatever you need." Ms. Lavender told us. Everyone started getting what they all needed. I grabbed my sketchbook, pencil and a black sharpie. I sat down at my seat and opened my sketchbook up to a clean page. I picked up my pencil and started to draw a girl and a boy. I was totally focused on my drawing that I didn't even know what Xander was doing. I finished drawing the boy and girl and wrote in sharpie "Love is like war. Easy to begin but hard to end ~Anonymous." Under them, and it's true.
"Oooh... Why the quote?" I heard Xander say.. and felt him smile.
"Oh...uh.. well.." I didn't know what to say.
"I'm kiding. You don't have to answer." I looked over at him and he was smiling. I giggled.
"5 minutes left!!!" Ms. Lavender shouted. I closed my sketchbook and put my, sketchbook and the sharpie away. Xander finished cleaning up too and the bell rang. We had study hall next too. We walked back to our lockers to get our homework. I opened my locker and got out my Algebra, History, English, and Science. Ugh.. so many books. I closed my locker with my arm and started walking to study hall. Xander came up beside me.
"Need a little help." He half grinned. I would've slapped him if I had free hands.
"No, it's okay. And I would slap you but I don't have any free hands." He laughed and my face turned red. "Shut up.."
"Hey.. I'm kiding. You know I love you, Rayline." He stopped laughing and and put his arm around my waist to hug me. I kept walking but he gently pulled me around to face him."I was kiding." He smiled, his sexy smile. I would resist but kiss him and he kissed me back. We pulled away. "Now that's what I was waiting for." He whispered. I blushed and started walking again. He followed me and we got to study hall just in time.

Chapter 16- Xander's Mom.

I sat down at my desk and started on my Algebra. Xander sat on the other side of the room but he would always get my attention somehow. I was concentrating on my homework when I felt Xander's stare. I looked over to where he sat and I was right, he stared at me and smiled. I shook my head but silently laughed. I went back to doing my Algebra, and it wasn't even 2 minutes that I felt something soft hit my head. I looked at the floor to see what it was and it was a paper airplane. I picked it up and opened it.

Your meeting me in the parking lot after study hall, right?
Xander.

I looked over at him and he was looking at me. I nodded my head and he smiled. He went back to doing whatever he was doing. I went back to doing my homework. Once I finished my Algebra, I worked on my History. I looked up at the clock and realized it had been 14 minutes since I started my history. We had about 30 minutes left of class. Ugh. History was my worst subject, no wonder I take longer to do my homework in History than my other classes. Finally, I finished my History then started on my English. By the time the bell was about to ring, I finished my homework. I gathered my stuff up into my arms and the bell rang. Everyone all got up and left. I started walking to my locker and Xander, Kayla, Mike and Aron came up beside me.
"Heeeey!" Kayla cooed.
"Hey, Kayla." I smiled.
"That's a looott of books!" Mike pointed at all the books in my hands. I nodded.
"That much homework?" Aron gasped. I laughed.
"Yeah. Homework's a pain." I replied.
"Amen to that." Xander grinned. We all laughed.
"Well see you tomorrow, Rayline!!!" Kayla hugged me and skipped over to her locker.
"Byeee!" I yelled to her.
"See ya!" Mike and Aron also went to their lockers.
"Meet you in the parking lot." Xander kissed my cheek and walked to his locker. I got to mine and opened the door. I put my stuff in and took out my bag. I closed my locker door and started walking to the front doors. I walked out into the parking lot and found Xander by my car.
"So where are we going??" I asked him.
"It's a surprise." He smiled. "Come on." He got in the driver seat of my car and i got in the passenger seat I handed him my keys and he started it. He pulled out of the school parking lot. It was raining.. again. I stared out the window, watching everything fly past us. We were going down a road I've never even saw before. We pulled into a driveway and I stared at the giant house in front of us.
"Um.. Where are we?" I looked over at Xander.
"Guess?" He raised an eyebrow and smiled. He got outta the car and went around the car and opened my door. I started thinking of where we were... Wait..
"Are we.. at your house?" I asked him.
"Yes." I gasped. "I know.. my house looks big on the outside.. but wait till you see the inside." We walked up to the front door and he unlocked it. He stepped inside and I followed. OH MY GOD!!!! The inside was amazing!!! I stood there with my mouth hung open, looking like a fool. I closed my mouth quickly and looked around. It was a kind of french-style house. The walls were a light tanish brown, and the floors were all hardwood. There was a huge leather couch in the living room and a huge flat screen t.v. on the wall. The kitchen was on the other side and man was it beautiful! A nice granite counter stood in the middle with a silver fridge, oven, dishwasher and sink surrounding it. A nice glass table sat by the windows with chairs all around it. Other chairs were around the counter too. There were other rooms and stairs that led upstairs to other rooms.
"Alright, make yourself at home, I'm going to see if Mom's home." I nodded and he went upstairs. I went into the living room and sat on the couch. Oh my.. It was sooo comfortable I felt like I was going to fall asleep, but I heard yelling. I could hear a woman's voice then I heard Xander's. A couple of minutes past and I heard someone coming down the stairs. Xander came in followed by his mom. Xander looked annoyed, angry and in pain. I stood up and walked over to them.
"So this is her? Why?" Xander's Mom half whispered. Xander looked at his mom and looked even more annoyed. My feelings kinda got hurt from what she said.
"Mom.. Seriously.. She's a great person and to me she's beautiful." I blushed a little from what he said. Xander's mom just stared at me. Her gaze made me look at the floor and frown. She whispered something to Xander and he shook his head. He sighed.
"Mom, listen. I love her and she loves me. Why can't you just accept her?" He half yelled. What she said next she mean't for me to hear.
"Because she's a emo and she has issues. Why can't you date someone who doesn't have problems? I mean look at her arms.." She had an evil smile on her face. She was trying to make me feel bad and wanted me to cry in front of them.. not gonna happen.
"Seriously? Your going to make fun of my girlfriend? Dad never would do anything like that and Cameron would be happy for me. Why can't you accept her for who she is? And you wonder why we never talk." He looked away from her and at me.
"Don't bring Cam or you father into this. This is-" She started to say.
"Mom just shut up." He looked back at her. She looked shocked.
"Excuse me? Don't tell me to shut up."She glared at him.
"Whatever.. Come on, Rayline. Let's go." He grabbed my hand and gently pulled me upstairs. When we walked past his mom and mumbled just loud enough for me to hear.
"Bitch.." She glared at me as I followed Xander. We got upstairs and he led me to a door at the end of the hallway. I saw it said 'Xander' on it and he opened the door. He walked in and I followed behind him. He closed the door behind me and looked at me.
"I'm sorry for my mother's behavior. She can be a bitch.." He saw the sadness on my face and wrapped his arms around my waist and hugged me. I wrapped my arms around his neck and hugged him back.
"It's okay.. she called me a bitch when we went past her.."
"I heard. I'm going to have a serious talk with her later." (This will get bad..)He pulled away but left his hands on my waist. I left my arms around his neck. He leaned in and kissed me on the lips. I kissed him back and he gently pushed me up against the wall. He kissed down my jawline, down my neck and stopped at my collarbone. He kissed back up to my neck and stopped. He bit my neck but not hard enough to make it bleed. A moan escaped from my lips and I felt him smile. He let go of my neck and kissed back up to my lips. His tongue went into my mouth and he played with my tonuge. I played with his. His hands moved up under my shirt and stopped just below my bra. I moved my hand threw his hair and gently grabbed some of his hair. He kept kissing my lips. He tried to move closer to me, but there was no more space between us. His hands moved down onto my @ss and he lifted me up. I wrapped my legs around his waist, his hands still on my ass. I kissed down his jaw onto his neck and gently bit him. He moaned. Now were even.. He carried me to his bed and laid me down. He took off my shirt and kissed me on the lips again. I bit his bottom lip and he moaned in my mouth. He moved his hands up my stomach onto my breasts. He moved his hands around to my back and unhooked my bra. He moved his hands back on my breasts and gently squeezed them. I moaned and he kissed down my jaw, neck, and down my collarbone. He kissed down to my right breast. He cupped his right hand around my right breast and sucked. "Xander.." I moaned. Just then, his door flew opened and there was his mom. She gasped, but Xander didn't care. "Xander.." I tried pushing him away, but he wouldn't move.
"WHAT IS GOING ON!!??" His mother screamed. Xander growled and stopped he looked over at his mom.
"What do it look like?" He raised an eyebrow.
"You whore! You will not do anything with MY son!" She screamed and stomped over ot us.
"To late.." Xander grinned.
"WHAT!!!!" Her hands turned into fists. "Get your emo ass outta here!!!!" She yelled. She threw my shirt over my chest and pulled Xander off me. "GET OUT!!!!!" I quickly jumped up and put my bra and shirt back on. I pretty much ran downstairs.
"Mom!! Why did you have to do that! Stop ruining my life! Rayline, wait!" Xander yelled. He ran downstairs and followed me outside. "I'm so sorry." He hugged me.
"I can't deal with her anymore.." I whispered.
"I know.. neither can I.." He kissed me and I kissed him back.

Chapter 17- Not again..

Xander's mom ran outside and over to us. She separated us and slapped.
"What was that for!?" I stared at her.
"For being with MY son!" She screamed.
"You need to get over it and just accept our love! Stop controlling Xander's life!" I screamed back. She screamed and slapped me again.
"I will not take orders from you. Xander! Break up with her.. NOW!!" Oh shit.. that made me take a step back. Xander looked heartbroken. "Uh huh.. I found your weak spot.. each other." She smiled an evil grin. "Break up with her, Xander." Xander looked at the ground.
"No. I will not break up with her. Rayline is right, you need to stop controlling my life." He looked up at her and she screamed.
"XANDER BREAK UP WITH HER DAMNIT!!! YOU CAN FIND SOMEONE BETTER THAN HER!!! She has freaking problems! Why do you love her!?!?! Melissa was way better than her! Why did you break up with Melissa." She screamed. He stared at her. I stared at Xander.. Melissa? Who's Melissa? I heard Xander's mom laugh and not in a good way. "Oops. I wasn't suppose to say that." Xander looked at me. I looked at him for a second then looked away. He saw the pain in my eyes.
"Melissa was worse then Rayline.. She didn't care about our relationship she only wanted my body. She didn't even love me." Xander sighed.
"That's a lie. Melissa told me she really loved you but you didn't want a serious relationship with her. So you left her for this pathetic emo to forget about her." I looked up at Xander, shocked.
"That's not true!" Xander yelled.
"Is it?" I mumbled. "Is it true.." I looked at the ground feeling like I would cry right then and there. Xander and his mom looked at me.
"So she speaks.." His mother stared to say.
"Shut up, Mom. Rayline.. It's.." He sighed. "It's true.. but I love you a lot more!" The tears came.
"You.. you used me.." My voice broke.
"No!! It's not like that! Rayline please-" I cut him off. I looked up at him and he saw tears go down my face.
"Save it! No one wants me.. I don't believe this.. Xander.. It's.. it's.. It's over!!" I started crying even more and Xander stood there, his face in pain and sadness. It looked like he would break down into tears.. Xander's mom grinned.
"Rayline! Please!" I started to run away but he grabbed my hand.
"No!" I got out of his grip and ran to my car. I opened the door and got in. I started to car and pulled out of the driveway. I looked at Xander one last time and saw a tear run down his face. I drove down the street, speeding. I got home in about 5 minutes and pulled in the driveway. I turned off the car and put my head on the steering wheel. I started crying really hard. Everything that happened.. was it... fake..? I cried even more. I can't live without him.. I just can't.. I got out of the car and went inside. I ran upstairs to my room and into my bathroom. I looked around for something to make me over dose. Nothing. I ran to my mom's bathroom and found pills that would make me over dose. I was still crying. I opened the bottle and dumped out 5 pills. I put them in my mouth and swallowed them. I already got a headache. I put 4 more in my mouth and felt dizzy. I took a step and almost fell but I put my hand on the wall. I took another 2 pills and fell onto the floor.
"Rayline! We're home!" Mom yelled. I was starting to lose consciousness. By the time they found me I was unconscious.

~~~

I woke up a week later in the hospital. I slowly opened my eyes and saw Mom and Crystal run over to me.
"Thank god your alright!!!! We thought you already over dosed..." Mom wrapped her arms around me and wouldn't let go.
"Why in the world would you try to kill yourself again!!!" Crystal half yelled but she was about to cry. She joined in the hug.
"X...x... Xander... I.. I.. broke.. up with him.." I slowly managed to get out. The both gasped.
"Why?!?!" Crystal stared at me.
"He.. he.. left a girl... for me.. he lied.." I stopped talking and coughed.
"Why would he ever do that?!!?!" Mom blinked.
"No guy... would ever.. love me.." I coughed again.
"No that's not true!! Xander he truly loved you.. I could see it in his eyes." Crystal hugged me again. I coughed.
"I don't.. feel good.." I whispered.
"You need to get more sleep. All those pills would make you feel bad.. We'll see you soon." Mom kissed my forehead and Crystal hugged me again. They left after that and I fell asleep shortly after.

~~~

I woke up the week after that and felt better than I was last week. When I opened my eyes I saw Mom sitting beside me.
"Hello sleepyhead." She smiled.
"Hi. I feel much better now.." I smiled back.
"Great! Would you want to change out of those hospital clothes?" I nodded and she left for a second and brought back some clothes. "I'll let you change then." She went outside my door and closed it. I got out of my bed and put on a tank top and some sweats. I looked around my room. Mom knocked on the door and I said it was okay to come in. She opened the door, but she looked shocked.
"Mom.. What's wrong?" I stared at her.
"There... There's someone.. here to see you.." She left and Xander walked in. He looked horrible.. but in that hot sexy kinda way. He hadn't shaved in about a week, he looked really tired, he had pain, worry, and sadness in his eyes. He stared at me and walked over to my bed.
"What are you doing here..?" I looked away.
"I had to see you.. your Mom called me and told me what happened.. It was my fault.. I should have told you about Melissa." He was still staring at me.. I could feel it.
"Yeah. you should have.. then maybe I wouldn't be here.. again. What do you want?" I looked at him.. annoyed.
"I want you back. If I can't have you.. I can't have anyone.." He sighed.
"Well what about Melissa?" I was really annoyed now. I crossed my arms which I couldn't have done.. You could see the top of my breasts out of my tank top. He stared at my chest.
"She.. she moved away after I broke up with her. She told me the truth.. she wanted a serious relationship, but I didn't. Then she told me she wanted my body.. I couldn't take it. Rayline.. please.." He took a step closer to me. He moved his eyes from my chest to my eyes. I felt tears building up but tried keeping them back.
"No.. I don't know if I trust you anymore.." He gasped. "It's true.. I don't know anymore.. not after you lied to me.. for all I know our relationship could have been fake.." I looked away at the floor.
"No.. Please trust me.. Our relationship wasn't fake.. I truly love you, Rayline. I would never hurt you." He sat beside me but I moved away. A tear ran down my cheek. Xander wiped away the tears that came down my face. "Rayline.. Don't cry.." I only cried more. He pulled me into his arms and wrapped his arms around my waist. I tried resisting but only failed. I buried my face into his chest and cried. I put my hands on his chest and he pulled me closer.
"I'm so sorry, Xander.. Really. I'm a horrible person.. you don't deserve me." I mumbled into his chest.
"Shh.. Don't say that. I deserve you and you deserve me. Rayline, your my soul mate and I love you with all my heart. I forgive you.. Will you be mine again?" I took my face off his chest and looked up at him. He took his left hand and wiped away my tears.
"Yes, I'll be ours again. I love you will all my heart, too." He smiled and leaned in and kissed my lips. I kissed him back and his tongue slipped into my mouth and he played with my tongue. He laid me down on the bed and started kissing down my jawline onto my neck. Mom opened the door and gasped.
"Am I interrupting.." She looked away. Xander stopped and looked over at my Mom. "I just wanted to say, Xander, your mothers here, and she's really not happy.." Xander got off me and stood up. I sat up and sighed.. Someone I really don't wanna deal with..

Chapter 18- Unexpected Surprises.

Xander's Mom walked in and she really was angry.
"What the hell are you doing here with that?" She pointed at me, but I ignored her and stared out the hospital window.
"She happens to be my girlfriend. Seriously, Mom? Were going to do this.. again? Just remember what happened last time. It ended up with her breaking up with me and almost killing herself.. again." He shook his head. "I'm just about done with you, Mom. I can't all this bull shit anymore. Just go." He turned away from her and looked at me.
"Well.. I.. Umm.. Uh.. Xander.. Melissa.. is back. I just thought.. I'd say that... Sorry.." She started walking out the door. Xander gasped and I froze.
"Wait!" His mom came back in and stared at him. "She's.. she's back..? But why...?"
"Well.. she can tell you herself.. Melissa, come on in." Melissa walked in and I stared at her. Xander also stared. She was waay more prettier than I was. No she looked like a model. She had long, blonde hair with a beautiful face. Light make-up on with light pink lipstick. She had super tight skinny jeans on, you could pretty much see her ass. She was almost wearing a V-neck shirt and you could see her breasts.. man she probably had plastic surgery on them. She was everything a man would want. Xander kept staring at her and i felt jealously building up.. I looked away.
"What.. what are you doing here?" I heard pain in his voice.
"I want you back, Xander." She had a french accent.. No wonder she was so pretty, she was french.
"Melissa... Listen-." She cut him off.
"Your going out with her," She pointed at me. "And you two are seriously in love?" He nodded. "You mother told me.. why her?" Ugh not again.. I stared out the window trying to ignore them, but failed.
"Because she's way better than you will ever be, she's just the perfect girl for me. She's everything I've dreamed of. I love her with all my heart. You have a problem with that?" He started at her, annoyed. She flinched.
"Umm... I mean... look at her.. she's not even as pretty as me. Seriously? What do you see in her? Your mother told me she gets bullied, she has issues, and she almost killed her self, 2 times. Seriously? Why the emo girl?" She crossed her arms and had that preppy ass look on her face. God I hate preppies..
"She' way prettier than you.. well that's my opinion. I don't need a preppy bitch who lies to me and only wants my body instead of an actual relationship. I bet you lied about wanting a serious relationship with me. Seriously I thought you were different but you aren't. Your like every other little preppy bitch who thinks she deserves the hottest guy in school. God, just leave. I want nothing to do with you." His face turned angry. She gasped and took a step towards him.
"Come on, baby.." She reached out and touched his cheek.
"Get away from me." He slapped her hand away.
"Ouch.. What's wrong with you? Your different.." She moved closer to him. My anger was boiling now. I tried to stay calm.
"Of course I'm different. I've changed." He pushed her back but she only moved closer to him, close enough to almost kiss him. "Melissa, go back to Paris and leave me alone."
"No.. Not until you leave her and be with me again. I can be a better girlfriend.. I can give you what you want.. I have more breasts than her.. come on.. I'm begging you." She moved closer to his face.
"I don't give a shit, get ou-" She cut him off by kissing him on the lips. That made me go off. I stood up and pulled her away from Xander.
"What the HELL do you think you doing?!?!!" I screamed.
"So you do speak? What does it look like.. I'm kissing him." She grinned and moved back over to him but I moved her back.
"Are you dumb?!?! You don't kiss a guy in front of their girlfriend! GOD!" I yelled.
"Seriously Melissa. Just go." Xander glared at her and she took a step back. Then she did the dumbest thing ever. She 'pretended' to trip and fell on top of Xander, right on the floor.
"Oh my god! I'm so clumsy!" She acted. My hands grew into fists.
"Don't play that dumb trick on me. I've already fallen for it once." He started pushing her off of him but she smashed her lips onto his. I could tell her tongue was playing with his. She 'placed' his hands on her ass and moaned into his mouth like he was actually doing something. I stood there frozen. I became unfrozen and grabbed the back of her shirt and pulled her off of Xander. She stood and I plain out punched her in the face. Hard enough to make her bleed.
"Get you fucking ass out of here if you don't want to die." I growled. She flinched but grinned.
"Someone has anger issues." She laughed. "Seriously? Couldn't you see he was enjoying it? Xander, admit it.. You loved it." She stared at him with love and passion in her eyes.
"I did not fucking enjoy it. Couldn't you tell I was trying to push you off me." Xander stood. "Get out. No.. Go away and never come back."
"No.. I want you Xander. I'll show you how much.." Melissa lifted up her shirt and flat out let Xander stare at her breasts. But he stared at the ceiling. "Come on, baby. I know you wanna look." She stepped towards him, pretty much almost rubbing her breasts on him.
"Go to hell." He kept looking at the ceiling.
"Come on..." She put his hand on one of her breasts and I flipped. Xander flinched.
"BITCH!" I screamed. I pulled her shirt down and threw her onto the ground. I punched her right in the face again and she screamed.
"NO!! Not my face!! Leave me alone!!! XANDER!!! HELP!" She begged. I slapped her in the face.
"Shut up you whore. Get your own fucking man cause guess what. He's mine." I got held back by Xander, wanting to beat the hell outta her. Melissa started to cry but Xander wasnt having that. He pushed her out the door.
"Good-bye, Melissa." He slammed the door and locked it. Melissa started screaming and banging on the door. I fell onto my bed, feeling dizzy. I closed my eyes to relax, I had a pounding headache.
"I'm sorry about her behavior.. She's just a bitch.." Xander sat next to me.
"It's fine.." I kept my eyes closed.
"No it's not.. She pissed you off and all the shit she did.. you had to see that cause she pretty much wanted to make you jealous.." I heard pain and anger in his voice. I opened my eyes a little and stared at him. I put my hand on his cheek.
"It's fine... Really." I smiled. He looked down at me and smiled back.
"I can't stay mad when you look like that. Beautiful, passionate.. sexy.." I blushed and he put his right arm on one side of me and leaned over me. He stared into my eyes and I stared back. He put his left hand on my cheek, then drug his finger over my lips, down my chin, down my neck then stopped at my collarbone. He traced my collarbone with his finger and a little moan escaped my lips. I didn't mean for it to happen.. it just came out. He smiled, a sexy smile. I stared at his lips and he saw me staring. He laughed but leaned down more and his lips were on mine. I wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled him closer to me. I bit his bottom lip and he moaned into my mouth. He moved his hands onto my thighs and squeezed them, now I moaned into his mouth. He moved his hands up to my hips and put his thumbs under my shirt. He started moving his hands up under my shirt but stopped when we heard the door unlock. Xander got off me and stood up. Mom walked in and walked over to me.
"Good news, your going home. Bad news, you have to take meds and go to counseling." She handed me my meds already...
"What!! Why?!?!! I'm fine with the meds.. but counseling? I don't want to go!! Please!" I gave her the puppy dog face.
"No! You have to go that's that. Now gather our things up and meet me down by the main area." She left the room and I put my face in my hands.
"Hey, It's okay. I'll pick you up after counseling." He put his hand on my shoulder and I looked up at him. "Come on, get you stuff so we can continue what we were doing." He winked. I quickly stood and gathered my things. We left the room and went to the Elevator. We got to the main area and met my Mom there. She checked me out and we walked outside. Guess who was there... Melissa stood there with her hands on her hips, staring at Xander.
"Alexander Draven Eclipse! Take me back now!" She yelled. She started walking up to Xander but I gave her my your-dead-look so she stopped.
"Why the hell would I take you back? I'm with Rayline and I always will be. So why don't you leave me alone." He crossed his arms.
"Wh.. Xander, please. I'm begging you. Why the hell do you like her?" She pointed at me. Xander sighed.
"Because I love her and she's way better than you'll ever be. I just told you in the hospital. Seriously, stop."
"I.. Well.. I.. I freaking love you, Xander." She took a step forward.
"And? Why should I care." He stared at her, annoyed.
"I'm just gonna wait in the car... But hurry up I have another date." Mom walked to her car and got in. We turned our attention back.
"You should care because of what you almost did with me.." She took a step closer to Xander.
"Melissa.. don't bring that up.. Please..." I stared at him confused..
"No no.. let her explain." Why was I encouraging her to continue..
"Rayline.. you don't want to hear.. You will get mad at me.." He sighed and looked up at the sky.
"No no. I'll tell her." She gave a evil smile then faced me. "Last summer we were at his lake house. We were on the couch staring at each other, then Xander leaned in and we started making-out." I think I would flip again.. and end up breaking down. "Then well.. he started taking off his clothes and mine. Can you see where I'm going with this?"
"Yes.. I can even picture what happened.. I think I'm just gonna go." I tried not to break down right there. Melissa smiled, an evil bitchy smile.
"Rayline wait.. Nothing real bad happened. We didn't go any farther, trust me." He stared at me, pain in his eyes. I shook my head.
"I'm just gonna go, my Mom has a date." I turned around but heard Melissa say something.
"Pshh, that's right run away, make excuses." She mumbled. I stopped and turned around and stared at her.
"Melissa, why don't you just shut the fuck up before you make things worse. Oh wait that's all you do, ruin peoples lives. GOD! Your just like Chelsy. Fuck my life." Melissa flinched. I looked at Xander and he just stared at me, shock all over him. I shook my head and turned back, running this time. I got to Mom's car and quickly got in the passenger seat.
"Where's Xander?" She asked me.
"Not coming.. just go. You have to get ready for your date.." My voice broke.
"What happened???" She hugged me and I buried my face into her shoulder and cried.
"He.. did something.. with Melissa.." I said in between sobs.
"Oh.. Alright, we'll leave." She pulled away and started the car. We pulled out of the parking space and past Xander and Melissa.. He was preoccupied.. Kissing Melissa..

Chapter 18- Continued...

I stared at them and the tears came even worse. I covered my face with my hands and felt Xander stare at me. I didn't care.. We drove out of the parking lot and went home. I cried all the way home. We got home and Crystal wasn't there. I collapsed onto the couch and cried into the pillow. Mom went upstairs to get ready. My phone went off and it was Xander:

We need to talk..
Xander

I put my phone on the floor and kept crying. Mom came down and sat beside me. She put a hand on my back and moved it up and down to sooth me. I calmed down a little and looked up at her. There was a knock on the door.
"I have to go, that should be him. I'll see you later." She kissed my forehead then got up and left. I sighed and turned on the t.v. lazily. I finally calmed down when I got another text:

Please, Rayline. We need to talk.
Xander

Sigh. I ignored the text and continued to watch t.v. Then I got another text..

Rayline... Answer me..
Xander

I ignored him again. He texted me again..

Rayline, Damnit, reply!
Xander

Ugh... If I don't reply he won't stop..

Okay, Fine. What?!
Rayline

We need to talk. Meet me?
Xander

Why. I don't want to meet u anywhere.
Rayline

We need to talk about what happened at the hospital. Please meet me?
Xander

No.
Rayline

Fine.
Xander

I didn't reply, but watched t.v. Crystal texted me.

Hey, I won't be home, I'm staying at Stacey's.
Crystal

Okay.
Rayline

I fell asleep soon after.

~~~

I woke up to someone knocking on the door. I looked at the time on my phone and it was almost 9 pm. I got up and groaned. I walked to the door and opened it. I froze.
"What do you want, Xander.." I looked away.
"I said we needed to talk but you wouldn't meet me.. so here I am.. Can I please come in?" I heard pain and sadness in his voice. I looked at him slowly...
"Fine." I sighed. He walked in and closed the door behind him. I went into the living room and her followed me. I sat on the couch and he sat next to me.. I scooted as far as I could way from him.. but I was at the end of the couch.. I sighed and gave up trying to move away from him. He stared at me.
"Listen, I didn't mean for that to happen... for her to tell u about what almost happened.. But I'm serious nothing happened. Please believe me." He reached his hand over to grab mine but I pulled my hand away so he stopped. He sighed.
"I want to believe you.. But somehow I just can't. You never told me, why?" There was anger in my voice, he hesitated.
"I didn't want this to happen.." He stared at the floor.
"Yeah, I understand.. I believe you.. Only because I trust you and I seriously love you." I looked at him and he looked back.
"Okay, good." He smiled. I smiled back and he moved closer to me. He put his arm around me and I put my head on his shoulder.
"Wait.. What about when you and Melissa were kissing.. it.. it looked like... you didn't even care.." I lifted my head off his shoulder and stared at him. He stared straight.
"I didn't care.. But I feel guilty.. I know that hurt you, and now you might be angry with me. I understand why.. I should just go." He looked from the floor away from me. He started to stand, but I grabbed his hand and he looked down at me, confused. I don't get why I grabbed his hand...
"Don't leave.." I mumbled.
"Why.." He frowned.
"Because I love you and I can always forgive you.. Cause if I don't.. then.. then.. I just can't live without you." I took a deep breath.. trying not to break down. Xander got down onto his knees and hugged me. I was kinda shocked.. I blinked a few times then hugged him back. I buried my face into his chest and the tears came. Xander put his head on mine and moved his hand up and down my back to calm me.
"Shh, It's okay. I didn't mean to make you cry." The vibration of his voice soothed me. I listened to his heart beat and felt sleepy. I moved my upper body down onto his lap. His hand moved down onto my hip. I rolled over so the back of my head was in his lap. I stared up at him and he stared back. "No one's home, right?" He grinned.
"No one's home." I smiled.
"Good.." He whispered. He moved his arm under my back and lifted me up to kiss me. My lips met his and I wrapped my arms around his neck. I sat in his lap, still facing him. He put his hands on my lower back. He kissed me softly on the lips and I kissed him back. I pulled him closer to me. He moved his hands down on my ass, stood up, with my legs wrapped around his waist, and carried me up to my room. He laid me down on my bed and took off my tank-top and my pants. I took of his shirt and his pants while he kissed my neck. He started taking off my bra and when he did he squeezed my breasts. I moaned out load. He took off his boxers and put his friend inside me.

Chapter 19- A little surprise.

We laid in my bed, my head on his chest. Xander was sleeping while I just woke up. It was around 2 am, and I didn't feel well. It felt like I was going to throw up. I got off Xander and stood up. I felt dizzy. I ran to my bathroom and sat down next to the toilet. I started throwing up. After a couple minutes, I finally stopped throwing up. I silently went to my Mom's room, not caring I was still naked. I slowly opened her door, but she wasn't in there. I walked in and went to her bathroom. I opened the cabinet under the sink and found a never used pregnancy test. I ran back to my room and silently went into my bathroom and closed the door. I used the pregnancy test and after a couple minutes looked at it. Oh no.. It said I'm pregnant.. Oh god..
"Oh my god.." I whispered. I heard Xander get out of bed and a couple minutes later, knock on the door.
"Rayline.. What's wrong?" His voice was groggy from waking up.
"D... don't.. don't come in.." I managed to say. He knew I was freaking out, so he came in anyways and saw me leaning over the sink. He saw the pregnancy test in my hand and stared at me, I stared back.
"What?" He came over to me and put a hand on my back. I looked up at him.
"I'm.. I'm.. I'm pregnant.." He gasped.
"Are you sure?!?!" I showed him what the pregnancy test said and he gasped. "Oh god.."
"That's what I said.. How am I going to tell my Mom.. and your Mom.. oh god. I'm freaking out.." Xander pulled me into his arms and hugged me.
"I'm so sorry, Rayline.. I didn't think it would happen.." He hugged me tighter.
"It's okay.." I buried my face in his chest.
"Come on, let's go back to bed." He pulled away and I slid my hand into his. We went back to my bed. I slipped under the covers, with Xander beside me. He put an around around my waist and pulled me close to him.
"I love you, Rayline." He whispered in my ear.
"I love you, too." I whispered back. I closed my eyes and soon fell asleep.

~~~

I woke up around noon and found Xander still beside me with his arm around my waist. I tapped him lightly and woke up slowly. Once he was fully awake he stared at me and smiled.
"What time is it?" He yawned.
"Noon. And I'm freaking starving." Xander laughed but got outta bed and so did I.
"Alright. Wait how do you feel?" I knew what he meant.
"I feel fine.. for now." I smiled. I realized I was still naked.. I felt Xander stare at me, smiling. I went to my closet but got pulled around, facing Xander. I looked up at him. "May I help you..?" I giggled.
"Mmm.. Yes." He leaned down and kissed me. I kissed him back then pulled away.
"Can I get dressed now?" I blushed.
"Oh alright.." He teased. I shook my head, laughing and went into my closet. I pulled on a tank top and some sweats. I looked down at my belly and saw it had grown a little. Sigh.. How would I ever tell Mom.. and Xander's Mom.. oh god.. I left my closet and found Xander waiting by my door. I walked over to him and he held out his hand. I slid my hand into his and we left my room, walked downstairs, and into the kitchen. I saw Mom and Crystal sitting at the table. Crystal looked up at us and smiled.
"Hey there, sleepyheads." She laughed.
"Hello." Xander replied.
"You guys hungry?" Mom asked.
"Very." I replied. She got up and went to make us something. I sat down across from Crystal and Xander sat beside me. Soon, Mom put down sandwich's in front of us and we started eating. After we finished eating I looked at Xander. He gave me that you-should-tell-her-now look. I sighed.
"Mom.. There's something really important you need to know.." I looked up at her and she stared at me.. worry all over her face.
"What is it, Sweety?"
"Well... I'm.. I'm pregnant." She and Crystal gasped. They stared at me.
"What.. When.." Mom blinked.
"OH MY FREAGING GOSH!!!!" Crystal screamed. "I'MA BE AN AUNT!!!" She had a smile glued to her face. Mom stared at me.
"When.." She asked.
"I found out last night.." I replied. "It's already grown a bit."
"Oh.. Okay. Well.. you can't take your meds now.. I won't make you go to counseling. Did you guys tell his Mom?" She looked at Xander.
"No not yet.. I'm gonna have to tell her soon... Ugh." He sighed.
"Oh, okay. Oh what happened yesterday.. about at the hospital?" She crossed her arms and raised an eyebrow.
"Oh.. We made up. It's all good now." Xander told her.
"Wait, I'm confused! What happened??" I explained to Crystal what happened and she understood now. "Ohh... Good thing you guys made up!!!" She gasped.
"Yeah." I looked up at Xander and he looked down at me.
"We should probably tell my Mom..." Xander sighed.
"Yeah." I replied. We stood up. "See you guys later." I told Mom and Crystal. They nodded their heads and we left. Xander's truck sat in the driveway. Xander got in the driver seat and I got in the passenger seat. He started his truck and backed up out of my driveway. It took 20 minutes to get to his house. We pulled into his driveway and got out of the car.
"Here we go.." Xander put on a smile and we walked inside. "Mom, I'm home!" He yelled. I heard footsteps going down the stairs, then I saw her. She saw me and the smile across her face disappeared.
"What is she doing here? I thought you guys broke up again." She crossed her arms.
"I told you we were back together." He growled. "And we have something really important to tell you.." His Mom flinched.
"Are you two engaged..?" She looked angry but shocked.
"No!" We both said. Xander looked at me and nodded. I sighed.
"That's not it.. Don't freak out.. Please.. But well.. I'm pregnant.." She gasped and looked back and forth from me to Xander.
"With.. Your baby?" She pointed at Xander. He nodded. "WHAT!!!! WHEN DID THIS HAPPEN?!?!!?!" She looked shocked but yet kinda happy..
"I found out last night.. but.. it may have been.. from when we first did it.." I started answering..
"Okay, okay! I'm fine with it.. just one condition.." She shocked us both.
"W... What's the condition?" Xander managed to say.
"You guys have to be married before you have the baby." I gasped and Xander's eyes widened.
"You not serious, right?" Xander took a deep breath.
"I'm serious. I will approve but your Mom will need to approve." She looked at me. This was shocking... seeing her act so nice... so.. different. We both stared at her. "What.."
"Somethings changed about you.. What happened to all the hatred towards Rayline?" Xander blinked. His mom sighed.
"Well.. This is serious. You guys were right, I should've just listened to you, I should've accepted your love." She explained. Damn..

Chapter 20- Are You Kiding Me?!

Me and Xander were laying on the couch still at his house. I was laying on his chest, not wanting to move. It was around 9 pm when I had to get home. I sighed and got off Xander's chest. I stood up and he walked me to the door.
"See you tomorrow, beautiful." He smiled and I smiled back. He kissed me lightly on the lips and I kissed him back. Mom pulled into the driveway and that was my cue.
"I love you."
"I love you, too." Xander kissed me lightly on my lips again. He opened the door for me and I walked out looking back at him. I got in the car and Mom pulled outta the driveway. We got home and I went up to my room. I looked at the time and it was 9:45, sigh. I went into my bathroom and closed the door. I turned on the shower and took off my clothes. I got in and shampooed and washed my body. I rinsed then conditioned. I turned off the water and grabbed a towel and wrapped it around me. I walked out of the bathroom and to my dresser. I put on some panties then walked into my closet. I pulled on a tank top and sweats. I went back into the bathroom and brushed my hair. I went and laid down on my bed and soon fell asleep.

~~~

My alarm went off and I slammed the snooze button. I got out of bed not wanting to go to school, I felt like hell. I realized I had a text so I opened it. It was from Xander.

Hey, Beautiful. How are you feeling?
Xander

I feel alright, just a bit blah.
Rayline

Well hope you feel better before I get you. ;)
Xander

Haha, thanks.(:
Rayline

No problem, babe ;) See you in a few, I love you.
Xander

Okay, I love you, too.
Rayline

I put my phone down on my bed and went to my bathroom. I turned on my straightener and got out my make up. I put on my black eyeliner, mascara, and eyeshadow. I brushed my hair out and straightened the back of my hair. Once I finished, I turned off my straighter and walked out of my bathroom. I heard the front door open downstairs but ignored it. I walked over to my dresser and grabbed my bra. I walked into my closet and took off my tank top and sweats. My bedroom door opened.
"Rayline?" Xander!!!! I smiled and looked outta my closet. He stared at me looking at my half naked body. "Nice look going on there." He winked and I giggled. "Come here." I ran over to him and into his arms, hugging him. He hugged me back and laughed. "Get dressed or were going to be late."
"Aww.. Alright.." I pulled away and he kissed me lightly on the lips, I kissed him back. I went back to my closet and put on my bra. I pulled on a red hollister shirt and some white skinny jeans. I pulled on my black converse and walked out of my closet.
"Oh yeah, Do you feel better??" He smiled. I half laughed.
"Maybe I'm just hungry?" I half questioned and he laughed.
"Well we should get you something to eat before we leave." I nodded and picked up my phone and bag. We walked downstairs into the kitchen and Crystal was standing there.
"Hey there." I smiled.
"Someone's in a good mood today." We laughed.
"What? I can't be in a good mood once in a while?" Crystal and Xander laughed and eventually I joined in.
"I would prefer you to be in a good." Xander smiled.
"Yeah, Oh hey, where's Mom?" I asked Crystal.
"Oh she had to go to work early today."
"Ohhh. Okay, and are you going to drive to school, in my car?"
"If you let me... I can see your going to school with Xander."
"Yeah, I guess you can use it, just be careful!"
"Okay! I will, when am I not careful?" She laughed.
"Umm... Good question.." We all laughed. "Anyways, I'm starving!" I got out the bread, peanut butter and jelly and made a PB&J sandwich. I put everything away and ate my sandwich. Once I finished my sandwich, I grabbed my bag and we all went outside.
"Alright, See you at school." Crystal said to us.
"Byeee." I replied. Xander got in the driver seat and I got in the passenger seat. He pulled outta the driveway and started going to school. Crystal followed behind us the whole time. We soon got to school, who knows what will happen.. We pulled into a parking space and Xander got out of the car, walked over to my side and opened the door for me. I got out and he closed the door behind me. He held out his hand and I slid my hand into his. We walked in everyone stared at me in shock. I looked down at the floor as we walked. Xander went to his locker real quick and I opened mine. I put my bag in and grabbed my books. I closed my locker, turned around and was face to face with Renee.
"May I help you?" I hugged my books.
"We all know your pregnant, Rayline." I gasped.. So that's why everyone stared at me... "Who did it? An old, ugly bitch like yourself?" She laughed and so did Leslie when she came up beside Renee.
"HA! Nice one, Renee. Soo.... Seriously. Who did it? Your dad? Oh wait! He's dead!" They started cracking up. I groaned, annoyed now.
"Leave me alone." I pushed past them but Renee grabbed my arm.
"Bitch, tell us who it was?" She growled.
"My boyfriend. Gotta problem with that?" I slapped her hand and she let me go. I walked to my first class then sat down beside Xander. I sighed and he looked at me.
"What's wrong?" I looked at everyone staring at me.
"They all know. But how..?" I put my head on my desk.
"I don't know their all bugging me about it too.." The teacher walked in and started class.

~~~

School was over, finally. People kept bugging me about how I got pregnant, who did it, when I was due, blah blah blah. I only ignored them. I grabbed my stuff outta my locker and closed it. I walked outside and saw it was sunny. Sigh. Xander came out beside me.
"Come on, I gotta surprise for you." I nodded and followed him to his truck. I got in the passenger side as he got in the driver side. He turned on his truck and pulled outta the driveway. Soon we were at my house. We got out of the car and went inside. I walked into the kitchen and saw Mom, some guy and my sister at the table. I was confused for a second...
"Rayline, this is the guy I have been going out with lately. Jake meet my youngest daughter, Rayline." I looked at him. He was very handsome and he looked smart. He had short brown hair and a clean cut shave. He was tan and had green eyes behind his glasses. He also wore a black suit and a blue tie. He looked back at me.
"Hello." Jake smiled.
"Hi." I replied, smiling back. "Nice to meet you."
"Nice to meet you too." He gave a little nod. Xander coughed and turned to me. I looked at him and saw him get down onto one knee. I was confused for a second... then gasped. He pulled out a ring from his pocket. He took my left hand and looked up at me. I looked back at him.
"Rayline... Will you marry me??" I gasped again.
"... YES!!!! Of course yes!!!" I yelled, smiling. He grinned and put the ring on my ring finger. He stood up and hugged me tight. I hugged him back.
"Congratulations!!" Jake, Mom and Crystal yelled. I looked at Mom.
"So wait.. you really.. are going to accept this?" I asked her.
"Of course. Xander's Mom already accepted too." I was shocked when she said this.

Chapter 21- Oh shit.

I was laying on the couch staring at the tv, listening to everyone in the kitchen. Xander's Mom was here. I'm shocked she even accepted our engagement. Sigh, whatever. The good thing is I'm happy, right? I could hear kinda hear they were saying. They were talking about when the wedding will be blah blah blah. I felt someones hands on my shoulders.
"You okay, babe?" It was Xander.
"Yeah." I looked up at him and he looked back at me. He leaned down close to my face and kissed me. I kissed him back.
"You sure?"
"Yes. I'm just thinking about the wedding and everything." I smiled.
"Ooh. Their talking about it right now."
"Yeah, I can hear them a little."
"Yeah."
"Xander!! Come here!" His Mom yelled in a excited voice.
"Alright." He kissed me again. "I'll be back."
"Okay." With that, he went back into the kitchen. I sighed and looked back at the tv. I soon fell asleep.

****

I woke up in my bed. I sat up and looked around. I looked at the time and saw it was past 2. Good thing it was summer. I yawned but got outta bed and walked to the bathroom. I closed the door behind me and turned on the shower. I took off all my clothes and got in. I was in the middle of shampooing when I heard the door open. I didn't know who it was cause I had the curtain closed. The door closed and I heard footsteps. The curtain opened and I saw Xander. He took a quick look over my body then looked back at my face.
"Hurry, your mom wants to go get your dress today." I nodded and he closed the shower curtain. I finished showering and turned the shower off. I grabbed a towel and wrapped it around me. I opened the door and walked to my closet. I got changed then went back to the bathroom. I blow dried my hair real quick then went downstairs. Mom and Crystal were waiting for me at the table.
"Where'd Xander go?"
"Him and Amanda went to get so things for the wedding." Mom replied.
"Oh. Okay. Anyways, I'm ready to go."
"Okay. Come on then." I followed Mom and Crystal to the car. Once we were all in, Mom pulled outta the driveway. I stared out of the window the whole way to the mall. Finally, we got there and me and Crystal followed Mom to the wedding dress store.
"Crystal, go help your sister look for a dress to try on. I'll be getting the bridesmaids dresses."
"Okay!" Crystal was so excited to help me find a dress. She practically drug me over to the bride's dresses. I gasped. I saw the perfect one already.
"OH EM GEE!!!!" I squealed. I ran over to it. It was so beautiful. It was strapless and a little low cut. It was off white, with light brown flowers from the waist up. The bottom was long with some ruffles.
"Wow, that dress is... amazing. Go try it on!!!!" Crystal exclaimed. I picked up the dress and went to a changing room. I took off my shorts n t-shirt and put the dress on. Woah, it looked more amazing then it already was. I walked out of the changing room and Crystal gasped.
"Oh wow. It looks amazing on you, Rayline." Crystal smiled.
"Thanks. Where's Mom??" I grinned.
"I don't know. I'll go find her." She went to go find Mom and I looked back in the mirror. I spun around in a circle.
"Oh my gosh! You look so beautiful!!!" I turned back around and saw Mom and Crystal. Mom ran over to me and like bear hugged me.
"Thanks, Mom. Can you let go.? I can't breath..." She let go of me.
"Is that the dress you want?" I nodded. The only dress I've found.. I laughed a little. "Alright. I got the bridesmaid's dresses so were good to go." We went to buy the dresses then left. Once we got home we put the dresses in my mom's closet so they wouldn't get ruined. Xander wasn't back yet. I walked to my room and laughed on the bed. I moved my hand over my belly. The baby was growing now. It's been a month. I sighed. 8 more months to go. I felt tired all of a sudden. I closed my eyes for what seemed like 10 minutes but had only been 5 and I heard someone walk into my room. I opened my eyes and saw Xander. I quickly stood up and half ran over to him.
"What happened?!?!?!" I put my hand on his cheek then to his bloody nose. His face was all cut up.
"I ran into one of your exes." He sounded pissed.. and he looked pissed too. I was shocked though. I let out a gasp.
"Which one?" I started at him with my eyes wide.
"Shadow." He looked away. "Why didn't you tell me? Why-" I cut him off.
"You ran into Shadow?! What happened?!?! And what are you talking about?" His eyes looked darker than they normally are.
"We got into a fight. Why didn't you tell me you had sex with someone else? And in middle school." I was stunned. How did he know this..
"H... How do you know that?" I stuttered.
"He told me. Why didn't you tell me!?" I felt tears coming but kept them back.
"I forgot all about it till now. I was stupid back then.. I didn't know what I was doing.." I started explaining.
"Still! You never told me! He ran into me at the mall and realized who I was and started saying shit about you. He said that.. I told him to shut up and leave me alone but he wouldn't listen. We went outside and "talked" but ended up fighting. He punched me first." I saw a cut by his lip and it was bleeding.
"Babe, I'm sorry.. He used me. I guess that's why I forgot about it cause I put it behind me. Xander.. Xander! I really am sorry!" He started walking away shaking his head.
"Whatever." The tears fell.
"Xander! Please.." My voice cracked. He turned around and looked at me. He had hurt in his eyes but he was still pissed. He turned back around and walked into the bathroom. I let the tears keep falling and the memories came back:
"Hey, Ray-ray!" Shadow called my name. I turned around and smiled like a fool.
"Shadow!!!" I dropped my stuff and ran over and hugged him. He hugged me back then pulled away first.
"Wanna do something later?" He grinned.
"Yeah! What is it?!" I asked excitedly.
"A surprise. I'll come get you later." He kissed my forehead.
"Okay! I can't wait now!!" I yelled smiling.
"Haha, I know. I'll see you later, babe." He kissed me softly on the lips. "Bye." He smiled.
"Bye." I smiled back. He turned around and walked away to his house. I turned back, picked up my stuff and continued walking 4 more houses down to my house. I opened the door and walked in. I closed the door behind me and went up to my room to work on my homework. It felt like hours but my dad finally called me down for dinner. I ran into Crystal on the way out.
"Sorry." I said.
"It's okay. Come on." We went down the stairs into the kitchen. Mom and Dad were kissing when we got into the kitchen. "Eww, get a room!" We laughed.
"Crystal, were adults. What do you expect?" Mom said laughing.
"Alright now, let's eat." Dad said still laughing. We all sat down at the table and dished out our food. We all ate and soon we were done. There was a knock at the door.
"I got it!" I yelled. I quickly got up and practically ran to the door. I opened it and Shadow was leaning against the wall of the house. He looked up and smiled when he saw me.
"Hey, babe."
"Hey!" I grinned.
"Ready?" He asked.
"Yeah, wait let me tell my mom." I quickly ran back into the kitchen. "Mom! Shadow's here can I go for a walk with him? Please?" I smiled.
"Oh alright. Be back before dark." I smiled excitedly and hugged her then hugged dad.
"Don't do anything bad now." Dad teased.
"Dad! We won't!" I giggled.
"Alright, see ya later kiddo." He smiled.
"Bye!" I ran back to the door and quickly put on my shoes. "Now I'm ready." I giggled.
"Okay, let's go." I closed the door behind me and we walked on the sidewalk.
"So, what are we doing?!" I couldn't help but ask.
"Going somewhere." He winked. He grabbed my hand and held it. I smiled like a fool again. Finally we stopped in front of his house. I turned my head and looked at him.
"What are we doing at your house?" I asked.
"I just wanna talk to you in private. My parent's aren't home so it's all good." He unlocked the door then we walked in. He closed the door then held my hand again. "Come on." He gently pulled me and let me upstairs. We walked to the middle of the hallway and stopped in front of a door. He opened it and it was his room. We walked in. "Make yourself at home." I sat down on his bed and he smiled.. a smile I never seen before. He closed the door and then sat down beside me.
"So.. what's the surprise?!" I giggled.
"You'll see." At that moment, he put his hand on my cheek and kissed me. I didn't know what was going to happen but I went with it. I kissed him back and put my arms around his neck. I felt his tongue on my tongue. He played with my tongue for a minute then kissed down my neck. He gently pushed me back onto the bed and was on top of me. He took off his shirt and I stared at his bare chest. He had a scar going down his left side. I reached up to touch it but he grabbed the bottom of my shirt and started pulling it off. I sat up a little and let him take my shirt off completely. I heard his breath and his mouth was open. He stared at my breasts. I was fully grown at my age, most girls weren't.
"Wait.. do you have protection?" I asked.
"Yup." I nodded and with that I sat up a little again and took off my bra while he took off his pants and then mine. He stared at my breasts. "Damn.." He moved his hands over my breasts..
I came back into reality not wanting to finish that memory. I started crying more, realizing how stupid I was to not realize he used me.. just for sex. I walked to the bathroom and saw Xander was shirtless and in his boxers. The shower was running. He saw my in the mirror and still was pissed.
"Xander.." I sighed. "I'm sorry. I didn't realize how stupid I was back then. I didn't know he used me just for sex until my best friend told me a few days after.. I knew things seemed... strange after that day. I'm sorry I never told you. I forgot about it.. I... I.." I started balling. I closed my eyes and cried. I felt arms wrap around my waist.
"It's okay.. I can't stay pissed at you for forever. You didn't know what you were doing back then.. I understand. Please stop crying." He whispered in my ear. He pulled away and wiped my tears away. I opened my eyes and stared into his eyes. His face was still bleeding.
"Yo.. you're still bleeding."
"I know." I pushed him over to the toilet and made him sit down. I grabbed a towel and wet it then started gently cleaning off his face. His face was so cut up.. I gently wiped off the cut by his lip. He was staring at me. I looked from his lips to his eyes. He looked so.. calm now. I kissed him gently on the lips and he kissed me back. He put his arm around my waist and tried to pull my onto his lap. He succeeded and I sat on his lap facing him. He kissed me over and over again. I kissed him back every time. He put his hand on my belly and gently rubbed it. His tongue demanded entrance past my teeth. I opened my mouth wider and I felt his tongue on mine. Eventually, I pulled away.
"You should take your shower now." He nodded and I got off his lap. I left the bathroom and laid down on the bed. I felt tired right away and slowly fell asleep.

Chapter 21- Shadow?

It was Friday afternoon, no one was home. Mom was at work and Crystal was with her friends at the mall. Xander was also at work. I was sitting in the kitchen on my laptop when I heard a knock on the door. I got up and went to the front door, I opened it and gasped. Shadow was standing there, leaning up against the side of the house, just like when he was last here...
"Rayline.." He stood straight up and took a step towards me, like he was going to hug me. I stepped back.
"Shadow. What are you doing here?" I crossed my arms over my chest.
"I want you back. I realized that I was wrong. I shouldn't have used you. I really am sorry. Please take me back. I can't live without you." He took another step towards me and I took another step back. He was standing in the doorway now.
"No. I will not take you back. You used me, I will never forgive you for that. What were you thinking? That I wouldn't care? That I would just be with you for sex? No! I wasn't smart then. I should've known you would just use me. I didn't see the signs. I'm not as dumb as I use to be now. I'm happy with Xander. Leave me the hell alone and stay out of my life." I pushed him back and started closing the door, but he stopped me. He walked in and closed the door behind him.
"Please? Take me back... Please. I'm begging you. I need you. I want you. I love you." It looked like he mean't it, but I know he is just jealous that I'm with Xander. I rolled my eyes.
"Whatever. Your probably just jealous that I'm with someone who makes me happy. You don't love me, you never have. You only want me for sex. That's all you ever wanted. Go to a stripped bar and find a whore to do it with. That seems like something you would do. Now, leave me alone, seriously." I shook my head with disgust.
"I'm not lying. I do need you. I want you. I can never do that, no, I will never be able to. Take me back damn it. Please!! I'm begging you!!! I love you!!!" He yelled, he grabbed my arm and pushed me up against the wall. He used his other hand and put it on my cheek. I tried to push him off, but he wouldn't move. He tilted his head a little and leaned in. I got my arm free and clenched my hand into a fist. I punched him in the nose and heard it break. It also felt like my hand broke. He yelled out in pain and backed away from me.
"Get out of my damn house!!!!" I screamed. He jumped a little and ran out of the house. I slammed the door and went back into the kitchen to wait for Xander. God, I hope he will leave me alone for good now.

Chapter 22- Rehearsal

A couple months passed and it was now a week before the wedding. We had rehearsal today. Xander woke me up around 11 to give me time to get ready. We had rehearsal at one. I slowly got out of bed, in pain because of the baby. I went to the bathroom and took a shower then went to get dressed. I had to wear a short white dress for the rehearsal, along with heels. Once I was changed, I went to the bathroom and blow dried my hair. I put it up in a cute messy bun. I put on natural makeup, only cause my mom would make me wash my normal makeup off and to wear something more natural. After I was ready, I went down the stairs slowly. Ugh, the baby was due in a couple weeks already. Finally, I got downstairs and found everyone ready and waiting on me.
"Well hello sleeping beauty." Crystal teased. I glared at her real fast. "I'm kidding." She laughed.
"Whatever.." I sighed.
"What's wrong, babe?" Xander came over and hugged me gently.
"That baby." I hugged him back.
"Ah, at least it will only be for a while longer." He kissed me forehead, "Anyways, are you ready?" I nodded. "Okay."
"Come on guys! We're going to be late!" Mom rushed to the kitchen to get her keys and then we all followed her out the door. She turned around to look at me. "Wow, beautiful." She smiled and hugged me. I hugged her back.
"Thanks, mom." I smiled.
"You're welcome. Now let's get going." Me and Xander got in the back and Crystal got in the front with mom. We would meet Xander's mom there. We got to the church within 10 minutes. Xander's mom was waiting outside along with Aron, Mike and Kayla. My one girl cousin, Chole, was also a bridesmaid. We got out of the car and went inside the church and started rehearsal.

~~~

Me and Xander where practicing our speeches. So was mom and everyone else. We had dinner soon after then went home to relax until the actual wedding next week. I washed off my makeup and changed into my pajamas, tired. I laid down, Xander next to me. He put his arms around my waist and we soon fell asleep.

~~~

It was wedding day!! Mom woke me up and said Xander had already left so I could get ready here. I got out of bed and took a shower. Mom, Crystal, Kayla, and Chloe had to help me into my dress. After that, Mom and Crystal did my hair and Kayla and Chloe did my makeup. I was ready within an hour and a half. I put on my heels and we got into the car. Kayla and Chloe added a few touch ups to my makeup and hair on the way to the church. We got there and oh there were so many cars! We got out of the car and we went in to the first room. I waited in that room for 30 minutes then finally it was time. I was nervous, but excited. Mom gave me my flowers and went out the door quickly to sit down, Kayla, Crystal and Chloe went down the isle first to their spots. My uncle Zane was giving me away to Xander... since I had no dad anymore. The doors opened and the music started playing. We started walking down the isle.. Xander stared at me. I stared back, smiling. We got to the end, I handed my flowers to Crystal, then Uncle Zane gave my hand to Xander. I stepped up the two steps and stood beside him. The preacher started to talk. He talked on... and on... and on... Finally, it was time.
"Do you, Xander, take Rayline to be your wife?" He looked at Xander.
"I do." Xander stared at me, smiling.
"Do you, Rayline, take Xander to be your husband?" Now he looked at me.
"I do." I smiled back at Xander. Mike gave Xander my ring and he put it on my ring finer. Then, Mike gave me Xander's ring and I put it on his ring finger.
"I know pronounce you husband and wife. You may kiss the bride." Xander put his hand on my cheek and kissed me. I kissed him back. We pulled away and everyone clapped. Xander picked me up carefully and ran down the isle, everyone else followed. Our car was waiting. Xander put me down and mom handed me my flowers to throw. A lot of girls were behind me, excited to catch the flowers. I had my back to them, and threw the flowers behind me. I turned around and saw a hand reach up and catch them. It was Crystal. I gasped then grinned. She looked at me squealing and smiling like a fool. I laughed. Xander opened my door and I got in. He closed it and went to the other side and got in too. Everyone else got in their cars and followed us to the restaurant we would be eating at. We got there and took our seats. Soon, we were all eating then we all had our speeches. I laughed and cried. After that, it was time for the groom and bride's dance. Xander held out his hand and I took it. He lead me to the center of the room and music started playing. We started dancing for about 5 minutes then other people started dancing too. Soon, we were finished. We all went home. Once we were home, I took a shower and collapsed onto on my bed, tired. Tomorrow, me and Xander would go on our honeymoon for about 6 days. Then come home and wait for the baby to come. I fell asleep.

Chapter 23- Honeymoon

I woke up early the next morning and started packing quickly. I finished packing just in time. I quickly got ready then went downstairs with my suitcase's. Xander was waiting for me, when he saw me he got up, came over and hugged me.
"Ready?" I nodded and he smiled. He took my suitcase's and took them to the car. I found mom and Crystal in the living room and went to give them hugs.
"Have fun!" Mom smiled.
"I will." I smiled back.
"Be careful!" Crystal hugged me tight, but gently.
"I will." I hugged her back just as tight. I walked to the door, looked back at them, smiled and waved. They did the same. I closed the door behind me and walked down the path to the car. Xander opened the passenger's door for me and I got in. He closed the door and got in. He started the car and backed out of the driveway. We headed to the airport. We got there in 30 minutes. We went through security and everything then waited until we could board. We were on and in the sky after about 15 minutes. I fell asleep.

~~~

Xander was shaking my shoulder gently.
"Time to wake up. We're here." I stood up and we got off the plane. We got our suitcases and left the airport. There it was. Jamaica. We rented a car and headed to a five star hotel. Once we got there, we check in. We went up to our room... Holy crap. It was huge. And super nice. We put our suitcase's down in the bedroom. Huge king size bed..Hot tub.. Perfect view of the ocean. Master bathroom. Living room. Kitchen. This was.. amazing. 6 days in Heaven.
"So, what do you want to do first?"
"Dunno.."
"Tour of Jamaica?" Xander smiled.
"Yes!!!" I squealed.
"Haha, okay. Get ready." I went to the bedroom and changed into shorts. I found Xander waiting by the door for me. He put the key in his back pocket and held out his hand for me. I took his hand and he opened the door. He closed it and made sure it was locked. We went down in the elevator. We went to the car and went to the tour place. We got on a bus and toured around Jamaica.

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Tomorrow we would be leaving. So far, it has been super fun! The second day we went jet skiing. The third we went out on a boat. The forth we went shopping. Today, we're going out to eat.

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"Hey, baby!!! You ready yet??" Xander called.
"Yeah! Just a sec." I finished doing my hair and put on my favorite perfume. I came out into the living room. He gazed at me.
"God damn, babe." He came over to me and put his hands on my waist. " You look... amazing." I was wearing a red dress that was kinda big because of my big belly, black flats and my hair was all curled. I also had on light makeup.
"Thanks." I blushed. "Ready?"
"Yes, ma'am." We walked to the door and he opened it for me. I walked out and down the pathway. He closed and locked the door then came and opened the passenger door for me. I got in and he shut it. He got in the drivers side and started the car. We drove for about 30 minutes till we got to Wasabi. We got out of the car and went it. We quickly got our seats and ordered. We were there for about an hour. It was one of the best times ever.

~~~

I woke up in the middle of the night in pain. I grabbed my stomach and thought I just had a stomach ache. Nope.. It felt my water break and screamed. Xander woke up and looked at me.
"What's wrong, honey?!"
"My water just broke." He immediately got up and picked me up.
"Alright, let's go." He quickly went to the car and put me in the backseat. He drove quickly to the hospital.

Chapter 24- Baby Raina

I laid on the hospital bed waiting for the doctor to come. Xander stood beside me, holding my hand tight, trying to keep me calm.
"It's okay baby. Just a little longer." Finally the doctor came in.
"Alright, looks like your dilated enough. When I say 'go' I want you to push." I had my knees up and spreaded. I felt the baby coming. "Go!!" I pushed as hard as I could, squeezing Xander's hand even tighter. "Alright, stop. Take a few deep breaths. Ready, push!" I pushed harder this time. "I see the head! Keep pushing, Rayline!" I kept pushing running out of breath. "Okay okay! The baby is out!" I stopped pushing and breathed. Gosh, that was so painful. She handed the baby over to a nurse and the nurse wrapped her in a blanket and handed her to me.
"Congrats." She said. I smiled and took my baby. I held her close. The nurse came over and lifted up the blanket a little.
"Congratulations, it's a girl." She smiled. I smiled big and looked at Xander.
"She's so beautiful." He said and gently moved his hand over her head. "What should we name her?" I thought for a moment.
"I like Raina."
"That's a great name. Raina it is." He smiled and kissed my forehead and Raina's.
"Can I have Raina for just a moment? I need to clean her and certify her." I nodded and handed her over. The nurse took her and went to wash her. She put a little pink hat on her head and did everything they needed to. She came back over after 10 minutes and handed her back over. "She's perfectly healthy. She should be able to leave when you can, which is probably after tomorrow."
"Alright. Thanks." She nodded and left the room to give us privacy.
"She's so beautiful, Rayline." Xander was crying...
"I know. You wanna hold her?" I looked at him, wiping his tears.
"Yes." He smiled and I handed him Raina. He took her and cried tears of joy. I started crying too.

~~~

It was finally the day we could leave. The day we were going back home. Well, to our house. I fell asleep holding Raina on the way back.

~~~

Xander woke me up.
"Were back.. and you're not going to be happy." I immediately started panicking.
"What?!"
"Umhm.. Come on." He got out and opened my door. I stepped out and we went inside. We were at my mom's. He led me to the living room and I froze. What. The. Fuck. Shadow and Chelsy were on my couch. MAKING OUT?!
"WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON HERE?!?" I screamed, covering Raina's ears. They stopped and looked up.
"Awwwwh!!! Cute baby!! Mind if I have it??" Chelsy got up and walked over to me.
"Don't you dare take one more step near me and Xander's baby." She took another step closer and reached for Raina. I kicked Chelsy and she fell on her butt. "Get the fuck out of my mom's house. Where is my mom?? And Shadow. What the hell are you doing here??" I glared at him.
"I came back for you.. But you weren't here. Chelsy came here too, looking for Xander and well, he wasn't here either. So, we kinda knocked out your mom and sister and tied them up. We were waiting for you both to come back. Finally." He stood and came near me. Xander walked in front of me. He was taller than Shadow.
"I wouldn't do that if I were you." He looked down at Shadow. He looked kinda afraid.
"Ha, jackass, do you really want to fight in front of your child?" Xander looked at me.
"Take Raina and go find your mom and sister. I'll take care of them." I nodded.
"Be careful, Xander.." He kissed me.
"I will." Then turned his attention back. Shadow got in his face and screamed.
"YOU FUCKING BITCH. YOU'RE A PUSSY! YOU WON'T DO SHIT TO ME NOW! I dare you to hit me. I dare you to." Xander was calm and waited for me to be upstairs. I covered Raina's ears so she wouldn't hear the noises. Xander was screaming back and I knew it would get bad.
"Hey, bitch! I'm coming after you!!!" Chelsy screamed. "I want that damned baby!" I ran to my mom's room and locked the door. I checked her room and no one was there. I heard banging coming from the closet. I opened the door with my free hand and saw Crystal and mom.
"There you guys are! Crystal, hold Raina. Well.. You can't really hold her but here." I put Raina in her lap safely then untied mom and took the duct tape off her mouth. She picked up Raina and cradled her, covering her ears.
"What in the world is going on down there?!" Mom exclaimed.
"Um.. Xander is "taking care of" Shadow.. and Chelsy is trying to take Raina. I locked the door." I replied, untying Crystal and took the duct tape off her mouth too.
"Wow.. We have a serious problem then." Mom sighed.
"Agreed. I'm gonna go beat Chelsy's ass." Crystal pulled up her imaginary sleeves. I grabbed her arm before she reached the door.
"Don't, Chelsy."
"Oh come on. No one is stealing your daughter."
"Fine BE careful! Knock when you're ready to come back in." I hugged her.
"Don't worry, I will. Be back." She grinned evilly. She unlocked the door and quickly went out. I closed and locked the door so Chelsy wouldn't be able to get in. I took Raina and sat on mom's bed. We both sighed.
"This is a huge mess. Why is Shadow back? I thought he was gone for good?" Mom sat beside me.
"I know. I don't know... He said he was wrong, he wants me back, he can't live without me, he loves me, blah blah. I did too. I saw him and Chelsy making out on the couch." I laughed. "Can't live without me my ass. Fucking liar. He tried to kiss me." I was getting mad.
"Wow. Shadow does lie... A lot. I could've told you that. I thought he was a great kid when you guys were younger, but I should've thought again. He-" She stopped. We heard a huge crash downstairs and a scream. A guy's scream.
"Xander!" I yelled. I got up and ran to the door; Mom came after me and stopped me.
"Rayline! You can't go out there!"
"What if that's Xander?! Take Raina and stay here! Please, mom! I have to see if he's okay!" I started crying.
"Okay okay. Be careful! See is your sister is okay too. Knock on the door and say something so I know it's you." I handed her Raina and kissed her lightly on her little forehead.
"I'll be back." I hugged mom and opened the door and ran out quickly. I ran downstairs and saw Shadow on the ground. The coffee table was across the room, upside down, books everywhere, the bookshelf on the floor.. Xander. He got on top of Shadow and started elbowing him in the face.
"Jackass! Never dare me to do something! And to think you would've LEARNED by now!!" He screamed. Shadow struggled to get free. His face was bloody as hell. He soon passed out and Xander stopped and stood up. He turned around and saw me. "Rayline! When did you-"
"Xander!" I tackle hugged him. "Thank god you're okay." He hugged me back.
"I'm fine. A little beat up but I'm fine. Shadow.. obviously not." He laughed. "Where's Raina?? And your mom? Crystal and Chelsy went outside.."
"She's with my mom. Oh my gosh.. I have to see if she's okay." I let go of him and started walking to the door; He grabbed my arm.
"I don't think that's a good idea.." He pulled me back into a hug.
"Why not?" I pulled back.

Chapter 25- Trouble

"It just isn't.." He looked down at me.
"I'm going anyways." I turned around and went outside before he could stop me.
"Rayline!" He yelled after me. I went around back and saw them. Crystal was on top of Chesly, yanking her hair. Chesly got a good grip on Crystal and rolled over; She started punching my sister.
"Fuck you bitch!" She screamed in Crystal's face. I tackled Chesly so Crystal was free. I pinned her down and screamed in her face.
"LISTEN HERE, WHORE!! NEVER SPEAK TO MY SISTER THAT WAY. NEVER SPEAK TO MY FAMILY THAT WAY. NEVER, EVER, LAY A FINGER ON MY HUSBAND OR MY DAUGHTER. FUCK YOU. YOU'RE NOTHING BUT A SLUT. GET A FUCKING LIFE AND LEAVE ME AND MY FAMILY ALONE."
She screamed back, "MAKE ME, STUBBORN ASS. YOU'RE NOTHING BUT A USELESS BRAT!" I got furious. I punched her. Hard. Her nose was bleeding.
"I'M FUCKING SICK OF BEING CALLED NAMES!! YOU'RE THE BRAT HERE. FUCKING WHORE!!!" She was getting mad too. She got her arm free and grabbed my hair, pulling on it hard. I screamed. I grabbed hers and pulled much harder, some of it ripped out. Chesly somehow rolled over and started punching me. It wasn't that hard but still hurt. Crystal kicked Chesly in the stomach and grabbed her up by her shirt.
"Fuck you, hoe bag." I came up beside her and punched Chesly under her jaw. Crystal let go of her. She hit the ground, unconscious.
"That's right bitch. Way to go, sis." I smiled and we high fived.
"Thanks, you too. Thank for like, saving my life."
"No problem. Thanks, you did too." We hugged and Xander came out. We let go of each other and Xander hugged me.
"Are you okay??" I realized I was bleeding and I also realized he was too.
"I'm fine, babe." I smiled.
"Good. Well, looks like we took care of them both... Should we dump them in the woods?" He had a devilish smile on his face. "Haha, just kidding. Where should we take them?"
"Middle of no where sounds good." Crystal answered.
"Agreed!! Let's put them on a train." I grinned.
"Sounds good!! You two get her, I got Shadow. Oh, don't forget about your mom." I looked at Crystal.
We both said, "She can wait... 30 minutes?" We laughed.
"What about Raina?" He raised an eyebrow.
"She safe with her." I smiled at him. "I just want to get rid of them quickly."
"Alright. Let's hurry then." He ran back inside to get Shadow. Me and Crystal picked Chesly up and took her to the car. We opened the door and put her in the back seat. Xander came out and put him next to her.
".. I'll sit by weirdo." Crystal shivered and got in next to Shadow. I got in the passenger seat and Xander got in the driver seat. He started the car and drove to the nearest train station. We got there and no one was around. We saw a train getting ready to leave with one trailer open. We quickly put them in the open trailer and waited for it to leave before we left. We were all relived.. And bloody.
"I think we should all get cleaned up." I looked at my face in the car mirror.
"Good idea." Crystal replied.
"First things first, let's get home and get you're mother and Raina." Me and Crystal nodded and we got in the car. We were home within 20 minutes. I ran out, along with Crystal and we both ran upstairs.
"Mom! It's safe." I yelled while we both knocked on the door. She opened it and gasped.
"Are you two okay?!" We nodded. "Where are they?!" She looked around.
"On a train going who knows where." Crystal answered. Mom calmed down.
"You should both get cleaned up."
"Right, I don't wanna hold Raina all bloody."
"Okay, go shower then." I went to my room and closed the door, knowing Xander was already there. He was in the bathroom, naked. I came up behind him and hugged him from behind.
"I love you, Xander."
"I love you too, Rayline." He turned around and kissed me. "Come on, let's get cleaned up." He closed the door while I stripped. We took a shower together. We got out and changed, then I went to get Raina; Xander following me.
"Mom!" I came up behind her. She turned around and handed me Raina. I cradled her in my arms.

Chapter 26- The End.

We went to our own house, and finally felt relaxed.
"Now, we can live our lives in peace." Xander hugged both me and Raina.
"Yeah, I hope so." I hugged him back with my free arm. "Here, take Raina. I'm gonna make dinner." I handed him Raina and he took her.
"Whatcha making?" He followed me into the kitchen.
"Hm.. Lasagna?"
"Yes! Sounds good." Xander smiled, sitting at the bar. I got started on making dinner and also made Raina's formula. I handed Xander the bottle and he fed her. Dinner was ready about an hour later and we ate. Xander cleaned up while I went to bathe Raina. After that, I put her in her crib and went to me and Xander's room. I changed into my pj's just as Xander came in. He closed the door and came over to me. He stopped me from putting on my tank top and kissed me. He pushed me gently over to the bed. I laid down, him on top and starting taking off his clothes while he took off my shorts. You can should know what happened next...

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A month later I found that I was pregnant again. It was a boy. We named him Cameron and well, I had the best life ever now. I'm so glad Xander saved me.

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Cameron came in running with Xander following him. Raina was beside me, helping me bake cookies.
"Come back here, Cam!" Xander laughed.
"No! You're gonna tickle me again!" He cried and hid in front of me. I laughed. Xander came over and hugged me, then I moved outta the way. Cameron giggled as Xander picked him up. My boys.. I love them so much. Raina too. They both were Raina was 6 and Cameron was 5.
"I love you, Rayline." Xander whispered in my ear. I turned around and hugged him.
"I love you too, Xander." I whispered back.
"What about me!!?" Raina crossed her arms and we laughed.
"And me!" Cameron stood beside his sister.
"Yes! Of course. We both love you two also." Xander smiled and patted their heads.
"Come here you two." I bent down on my knees and hugged them both. Xander joined in. "We will always love you both. We won't ever favor one of you. We love you both the same."
"I love you too, mommy." They both said. "You too, daddy!!" We let go and Xander picked up both Raina and Cameron.
"Let's go play. Your mom is busy right now." They both nodded and I smiled. Xander smiled back and went to the living room. As he was walking away with our children, I thought, I really can't live without him. He is the best dad any child could ask for. I love all three of them. Forever and after.

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