I sit here in the darkness with a knife sitting in front of me
I sit and stare at it for almost an hour thinking of that night where you gave me that broken heart
What did I do to you to make you so angry at me to make me feel like this?
Will you ever forgive me for something I didn`t do?

I look out of my window with tears coming down my face
I look back down at the knife and then I get up and start packing whatever I can carry into my suitcase
I look at the knife and stick inside my pocket
I grab a piece of notebook paper and pen and write my goodbye on it and then I walk out through the door braceing myself for what is instore for me

I`m half way down the road and I look back and whispers my last goodbye and sorries to the ones I love and then I continue walking
I keep my head down from the passing cars hoping they don`t see my face
When ever I start to think of you I take out my knife and cut myself once or twice and then put the knife away

Daylight starts to come so I put on my cap to shield my face from more passing cars
When I see a passing cop car I jump to a nearest hiding place and watch as they pass me up then I continue my journey
Few weeks or months has passed and I notice more cops are around and must be looking for me
So I take a short cut through the woods

I make it to the end of the woods and I see your house not so far away
I take a moment to think bout what is bout to happen
Will you take me back and keep me with you?
Or will you reject me and call the cops on me?

As I keep thinking and stare at your house hesitating to move I hear movement from behind me and I turn to see your face once more
You look at me but your expression is something different
There I knew you wouldn`t want nothing to do with me so I ran and drop my things and just ran

When I knew I was far from you
I took out the knife and then went back over my cuts and made new ones all over my body
When I had no more room to cut myself to death I turned my knife towards me and then I stabbed myself and I knew I heard you near but it was too late
You wanted me out of your life and you got what you wanted and there is no turning back now

Impressum

Tag der Veröffentlichung: 18.01.2011

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