The Evil me

Sometimes it comes out,
My dark personality.
It makes me want to scream and shout,
That is my hidden reality.

There is a side to me you do not know,
A Dark and evil side,
A side I try to never show.
I wish the darkness inside me was possible to hide.

This evil is buried deep down,
Yet I know it is there.
It is an evil that I wish would never come around.
Let it out, I would never dare.

No one hears me (created 1/27/12)

No one hears me when I scream.
I scream out, but it is muffled.
I shove the pillow into my face...
To hide my scream of sadness and pain.
I cannot hold on much longer.

No one hears me when I cry.
No one is there to hold me.
No one knows the pain I have felt.
I feel like I am dying inside.
I cannot stand this much longer.

No one hears me when I shout.
I am someone that is easily ignored.
My shout is no louder than a whisper.
I am an invisible girl in this world.
I cannot live like this much longer.

No one hears me when I plead.
Too many people just turn their backs.
I am alone in this dreadful world.
Why must I live when it is clear I am dead inside?
I cannot stay strong any longer.

I am unheard.
I am unloved.
I am abandoned.
I am hated.
I am destroyed.
I am gone now.

I cannot live with this pain and self hatred much longer.

Falling

I am falling down a never ending pitfall.
I keep on falling until I can no longer see the walls.
Terrible darkness, Terrible fear,
I am giving out a scream no one can hear.
Falling, Falling, without an end,
Right now, death would be a Godsend.
How far do I have to fall?
How long until Death will call?
Please save me from this fate,
Please save me from this death that bullies create.

Rape

A young girl comes to school one day,
And yet she seems different in some way.
Her boyfriend comes up to her to say good morning,
But then he notices that she seems to be in mourning.
He sees the blank look on her face,
And he wonders what it is that makes her act this way.
She just rocks back and forth,
And stares blankly at the exit door.
All of a sudden sobs wrack her entire body
And tears flow down her cheeks.
Startled, her boyfriend reaches out to her,
And it is then that she finally does stir.
She flinches away from his hand,
Why, he does not understand.
She runs away through the exit door,
And yet she is afraid of the house she is headed for.
She enters the house and there he stands,
With empty beer bottles in his hands.
He blocks the door and drags her to the couch,
She fights and struggles and shouts.
It is all in vain,
For when he is drunk he is not sane.
She gives up the useless fight,
Knowing it will end just like last night.

Sick and tired

You are cruel,
You are evil,
You are my torturer.
Why do you do this?
I thought I could trust you.
You hit me,
You break my fingers
You laugh at me.
You think you are funny,
You think you will get away with it.
You think that this is over,
But it is just the beginning.
I will get my revenge.
Beware,
You will pay.
Down to hell you will go.
Go away,
Leave me alone,
You will hurt me no more.
Lies you tell to strangers.
I
HATE
YOU.

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Texte: Jasmine Paddock
Tag der Veröffentlichung: 03.11.2011

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