1. When the Last Laugh is Silent
2.Darkness is all that Stands Between
3.Stratosphere
4.A Letter to a Lost Love
5.Jealousy
6.Take Flight
7. In Travesty or Treason
8.Midsummers Night
9.Blind
10.Enjoy the wait
11.Our World
12.Stories of the Past
13.Untitled and Unloved
14.Sticks and Stones Shall Break my Bones
15.Heart is Where the Home is
16.As One Fights to be Free
17.A Shattered Soul is Mended into Greatness
18.The Reasoning Attained from a Lifetime of Neglect
19.See the Light
1. When the Last Laugh is Silent
There is a way to be good again
Give up on all your thoughts
Normal words won't fit
They are keys in a rusty lock
Another scratch of your pen
Crumpled paper in the floor
Scream out my name
Slam the broken door
Nothing can be fixed
With your lips sewn shut
Bottle up those lies
Cover up the cuts
You know you have won
When the last laugh is silent
You can't reseal this letter
Your kiss to make it real
Fill it with your burden
Tell me how you feel
Cry out how I hurt you
Let me know I've done wrong
You hate my every breath
You love to hear this song
Nothing can be fixed
With your lips sewn shut
Bottle up those lies
Cover up the cuts
You know you have won
When the last laugh is silent
2. Darkness is all That Stands Between
Falling from the silhouette
The mask you wear appears
The epitome of our hearts
The summation of our fears
Grasping to the star filled sky
Hopeless attempts to weak
The feeling we are lost
Our very attempts to seek
Come to me oh sweet surrender
Let me sleep this very night
Tomorrow is a brand new day
Your smile comes with the light
Darkness is all that stands between
Our next kiss is worth the fight
Nothing at all can relate
To my yearning for your skin
The essence of your touch
My willingness to sin
I clasp my hand over my mouth
To hold in this scream
I need your hand in mine
I curse my mind to dream
Come to me oh sweet surrender
Let me sleep this very night
Tomorrow is a brand new day
Your smile comes with the light
Darkness is all that stands between
Our next kiss is worth the fight
Piercing eyes blue like the sea
Open lungs fill with air
Drowning deep within in my mind
Waking abruptly just isn’t fair
3. Stratosphere
Soft wind in the background
Makes your hair sway
Eyes locked onto me
Beg for me to stay
Open hands in the air
Call for my embrace
Your every plea is
Written on your face
Call to me
Make me hold you tight
Call to me
Tell me one more night
Ask me please
Love you past the fights
On your knees
Beg me in the light
I jump in the air
And close my eyes
Hoping that just once
I will miss the ground
Falling from the sky
Reality reappears
Still planted firmly
In the stratosphere
Call to me
Make me hold you tight
Call to me
Tell me one more night
Ask me please
Love you past the fights
On your knees
Beg me in the light
4. A Letter to a Lost Love
Hello my dear
Have you been waiting long?
For the sunrise
That doesn't belong
Was it wrong?
For me to assume
That last night
Was our impending doom
Extinguish the fiery sky
With the ice from your heart
Call me to your side
Your grief you impart
Tears that you cried
Were even empty at the start
Was it worth it?
For us to stay
Could we make it?
Even one more day
Past the smoke
We saw the end
We could only break
When you wanted to bend
Extinguish the fiery sky
With the ice from your heart
Call me to your side
Your grief you impart
Tears that you cried
Were even empty at the start
5. Jealousy
You call me on the phone
With the voice of a dove
Asking me a favor
To please try and love
Hollow feelings to relate
Why I took you in the end
Trying to mistake
Hate, as love to send
It’s not my fault
That you loved me
It’s not my fault
That you couldn’t see
That all we had
Was jealousy
And never did we
Have more to be
Would you love me if I changed?
Would you change if I loved you?
Such questions do define
Why I never did pursue
Your heart as my own
Such a childish desire
That we could wish
For love strong as fire
It’s not my fault
That you loved me
It’s not my fault
That you couldn’t see
That all we had
Was jealousy
And never did we
Have more to be
6. Take Flight
Could this be real?
The smell of your hair
Just within my grasp
It would only be fair
I try to reach out
But then my mind deems
I should savor this moment
Should it be only a dream?
Wake up
I want to scream
Take up
These broken wings
Take flight
Into the sky
Love me
Until we die
I find the courage
To touch your skin
A feeling that’s welcome
I think with a grin
I creep to a slumber
To look in your eyes
Sleeping like an angel
No sadness to disguise
Wake up
I want to scream
Take up
These broken wings
Take flight
Into the sky
Love me
Until we die
7. In Travesty or Treason
The way he looked at her
Seemed almost a threat
How someone so calm
Could be so offset
So unjustified
In travesty or treason
He searched and scrambled
For just one reason
I’m not the one who had a problem
You are the one with a complaint
Why must I change who I am
Just to make you feel like a saint
What are we fighting for?
Could it really be worth it?
The pain we will suffer
Is it worth such a hit?
Give up on pride
And embrace your want
Will you give me your love?
Or, me, will you only taunt?
I’m not the one who had a problem
You are the one with a complaint
Why must I change who I am
Just to make you feel like a saint
8. Midsummer's Night
A midsummer's night
Attempts to break
A pattern of sorrow
For your sake
Are you here?
Right here
Are you okay?
No fear
Fall away
I'm not worth the lie
Don't stray
You don't need to die
I'm not here
For you
One more falsehood
That we can see
Today is a gift
But tomorrows not free
Can you fly?
So far
Are you hurt?
No scar
A kiss in the shadows
is hardly the way
to show me you feel
the same every day
Am I right?
You know
I am right
So go...
9. Blind
I look at my watch
pacing in the door
waiting for a sign
that you are on your way
and I wake up
it was all just a dream
you were laying right there
asleep next to me
oh dear, am I so blind
to assume that you weren't mine?
oh dear, I am blind
so open up my eyes, kiss me, make me find you
restless I wander
outside our dark room
heading to the foyer
a picture frame gleams
with light from the moon
your smile is enhanced
my heart flies high
you've never had to try
oh dear, am I so blind
to assume that you weren't mine?
oh dear, I am blind
so open up my eyes, kiss me, make me find you
can we do it again?
a million times so
I can't believe it now
make me find you
10. Enjoy the wait
Its crucial to express my bias clearly
Opposing those who have heard me wrong
For what I have felt today is merely
A tiny cavity that's been here all along
Can I find any solace tonight before I rest my weary head?
Disparately in search of solutions, moonlit chaos in my bed
A friend told me how you laugh in my face
A daily endeavor that you must achieve
Hiding your malice with your eloquent lace
If you choose to give, prepare to receive
Why can you hide yourself from the world in which we live?
Unlike me, you will learn, the world will never forgive
I'm giving up on trying not to give up
You've worn me out down to my very core
My patience filling to the brim of the cup
No longer my angel, but forever a whore
I gave you every chance to become my everything in life
But yet you chose to run, causing our first and only strife
Fill me up on bread and wine
Treat me well tonight alone
Drop me off and I'll be fine
Enjoy the wait with your phone
11. Our World
In my own little world
The creatures prance with glee
all that ever matters
is solely you and me
In my world
Oh why can't it always be that way?
hectic lives do make
everything so hard
an escape would be nice
our get out of jail free card
In my world
It would always be that way
and in the shadows we can find
nothing of the sort
of scary men and villains
no bad things to thwart
In our world
all things go our way
do you see the problem
that this alternative does solve
something oh so easy
why can we just absolve
In our world
we'll escape their every day
12. Stories of the Past
I sat down today hoping that you would stay
When in my note I realized halfway through
That if you cannot handle us then I guess that's a plus
Because darling, you haven't been true
I saw you on the docks that day and oh I tried to look away
But nothing could have turned my eyes from it
And he grabbed you and you kicked and screamed but you weren't mad you only seemed
Like you were happier then and just it didn't fit
Like a treasure chest in the sand you want so bad to hold my hand
And I pull away with my heart of frost
You dig and dig til your hands are blue and search the ground through and through
Even though you know that I am lost
Stories of the past are too unreal to last
Reminders of better days that you never get back
With people in there stupid ways racing through their busy days
Ask me one more time and that is that
Another day just passes by and I bet you still try and lie
And say you never loved and lost your way
And if you try really bad you can probably hide that you're sad
But you still cry alone every day
Like a treasure chest in the sand you want so bad to hold my hand
And I pull away with my heart of frost
You dig and dig til your hands are blue and search the ground through and through
Even though you know that I am lost
13. Untitled and Unloved
We had a good thing going in a casual way
I told you how I loved you every day
We had our problems just like everyone else
But I chose to end it all because of myself
From the start I lied to you trying to hide
Everything before you, just a clever disguise
Ridiculous it seemed how I always was sleeping
But in reality every time I was secretly reefing
Its funny how I thought that I would be free
But yet, everyday, you still haunted me
I left for reasons that I thought were real
But only happy memories remain for me to feel
I said, in the end, that we were just a lie
Tricking myself, in hopes to just get by
I hurt you even more than my heart could bear
So I ignored you even more as if it were fair
Since then I've tried every night and day
To find a replacement who I can truly say
Is better than you in even a single way
But all I have gotten is heartbreak in May
Its funny how I thought that I would be free
But yet, everyday, you still haunted me
I left for reasons that I thought were real
But only happy memories remain for me to feel
I assumed that you hated every ounce of my being
Even when I wanted you, I just cowered from seeing
That you still loved me just as if you never stopped
Tearing up my eyes and my jaw had nearly dropped
Its awkward in a way how every night when I deem
To imagine a perfect world, and you appear in my dream
How I awaken so suddenly as my heart begins a race
And how my single waking moment was a still frame of your face
Its funny how I thought that I would be free
But yet, everyday, you still haunted me
I left for reasons that I thought were real
But only happy memories remain for me to feel
Here's you fact, I can't even express
All of this emotion is long since repressed
I tried all I can to move on in this life
But your song still plays eloquently on a fife
Irony can't even try to be as profane
As my nightmares that taunt me insane
I'm scared to wake up in a horrific apparition
Afraid you will leave hastily in opposition
Its funny how I thought that I would be free
But yet, everyday, you still haunted me
I left for reasons that I thought were real
But only happy memories remain for me to feel
14. Sticks and Stones Shall Break my Bones
I've said it before, and like acid on my tongue, I will say it again
Its like a stupid game I play, back and forth I go once more
As I near the finish line, the track seems to extend itself infinitely
I call for help and I wait, and after I wait even longer, there is no reply
Do you see me struggling here? Can you feel me tugging at your sleeves?
I read a book today, but in the first line, all I saw was a picture
With those piercing eyes and soft skin, you taunt and scorn me
Like a stone I picked up that sat in the sun too long, I threw it
Hitting my wall, I see a crack. Blood pours out of it as my room screams in pain
Am I going insane? Is this what I deserve for the bad things I never did to you?
You should be the one crawling back, like a dog who ran to the end of his leash
Why am I feeling the pain you deserve? Why can I have the apathetic role?
Don't I deserve to be happy? Can't you understand that its unfair?
Close your eyes and I hope they are arid, because I have cried all of your tears
Once again I will take all of your burden, my only reply: "As you wish"
15. Heart is Where the Home is
It's hard to see the Earth as I stand upon the grass
Gazing into the empty sky, watching every season pass
Yet it's simple to just assume that every day is thrown away
When you fall into your mind, adventuring aimlessly where you lay
Sing out your soul and paint it on the wall
A maze of pretty pictures for all the world to see
Sing out all the truths, or you will be in awe
Of the lyrical martyr of souls who is yet to flea
Smile, laugh, cry and scream: a muse that inhabits us all
Listen closely to the inner monologue, pick up its hidden wisdom as it calls
Hold your closest friend in embrace like a child who is afraid of life
Tell them every bearing memory, take nothing at all in strife
16. As One Fights to be Free
Peaceful it must seem to die alone right here
Planned to the very last cut, one more failure is my fear
An easy excuse to make for a boy trying to be free
From the thoughts that haunt a tattered soul to be
End it all if you can, be weary of the edge
That you trekked so far to behold from afar
Look to the horizon, only stare at the ledge
Malice is not your calling, it can only mar
In my hands I hold a choice to be free, or just hold on
A simple metal blade. Am I already too far gone?
Through such chaos, I will say it's the most mindful you can be
Holding the key to open a door; only then can you truly see
End it all if you can, be weary of the edge
That you trekked so far to behold from afar
Look to the horizon, only stare at the ledge
Malice is not your calling, it can only mar
17. A Shattered Soul is Mended into Greatness
Cry out all your sorrow, every tear a different woe
Get out every single regret, then yourself, you will truly know
Living in your past can be another tally added to the day
That your future will remember, “good riddance” it shall say
Open your eyes to the light of the stars
Quite sobering a though, your problems are so small
Your mind is your prison, your past the bars
Break free of the chains, out the tower you must fall
Reply “no” to the assumption that you cannot control
The life that you have chosen and mend your broken soul
Take the makeshift pieces and solve the puzzle of yourself
All the effort will be rewarded, put your old ways on the shelf
18. The Reasoning Attained from a Lifetime of Neglect
To my family, I would like to say, respect is a concept I am unable to supply
When naive faith is all that holds together the crumbling bricks of your cult
I've endured your preachings of your god, and all of the intolerance you promote
And you beckon for my undying allegiance to join you on your path of militant piety
But I won't alter my morals for your love, that's obligated with dishonest claims
In our house, that I cannot call home, you've portrayed a heretic in my likeness
I aimed to counterfeit devotion, if only to earn my rightful place in your abode
Yet these days I laugh when I recall the facade I exhibited precisely on every sabbath
Pondering upon the sacred writ you hammered in, I grunted through your book
And I wasn't convinced that logic could be found in your over translated desert doodles
Ignorance can not be bliss, because your incessant prejudice must be stressful
Love one another is your lost claim, shadowed by the violent nature of your dogma
Biologically we are related, but I chose to break free of your poisonous dictum
And you ensnare anyone who is weak minded enough to believe in your fairy tales
Many times I pursued to relate to you but I can't have faith and wisdom too
I'm cursed from attaining your approval without losing my regard for myself
I will always love you all, but its difficult to lay claim to my seat in the lineage
Until you look past your unrelenting zeal and offer dignity warranting a son
19. See the Light
Tragic lies are what fueled our tragic fate
Where we so blind that we didn’t see the way?
Open your eyes and wipe away the puss
Its not every day that you get see the light
Glorious it seemed for the fleeting moments it lasted
We shined brighter than the northern star on a clear night
But snuffed out like dark clouds rolling from afar
We were left alone in the end crushed from the weight of reality
Stupid it must have seemed looking in from the background
Almost sad if you can admit it, we tried to run from instinct
Being as one with you seems like a shard of glass to the heart
Mistakes this big should be in no hurry to reoccur
One day in I kissed your lips
One day out those lips cursed my name
One week in we took the final step
One week out you told your friends you were ashamed
If I knew you were so fake I never would have dreamed of your name
If I ever knew I was so fragile, I could never have escaped as the same
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