the the dream
chapter 1
dear diary,
my dream is to be an artist but if i tell anybody they won't belive me.i won't fit in. just like now.
i have a friend but, she moved away last year now i am all alone all i have left is god and jesuses love.
its time for school to start now and its going to be a nightmare on somedayys but not all of them see i love fca and i'm a leader. so its a blast.i have been seeing this boy in my dreams and i don't now what it means.
well diary i have to go but i talk to you tomorrow i will miss you.
p.s- i love you.
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thats usally how my day starts. my name sage warnern and i am a secret artist. today is school and theres fca and i have to go its going to rock.
when i looked at my schedule agin i saw the word art and i went to the counselers pffice to change it.when i got there i saw him the boy i saw in my dream it was him.
when he turned around he stared into my eyes like he was looking in my soul.but he said"hi i'm john whats yours?" i said"my name is sage come i'll show you around."
after that we had all the same classes.when it was lunch he wentt to the lunchroom well i wen to my car got my sketchbook so i could practice for art. when i got it i had an apple so i went to the most quietist place at school the quart yard.
when i got there i sat under a shady tree.when i sat down i heard something behind me i turned around and it was....... it was john he had been waiting for me.
when he walked up he asked"hey can i see your sketchbook?"
i said"no sorry i'm not that very good and i don..."before i could finish he took in a nice way and opended it. when he saw the first page his eyes popped.
"i didn't want you to see it because theres a picture of somebody i was seeing in my dreams and when i saw you i was scared if you saw it that i was a weirdo."i said
he said"i don't thank that your a weirdo i just want to now why you don't show people this its amazing you have every deatal right even the eyes."
i replied saying"well i don't show people because at this school i'm supposed to be a nothing and if people see this i will never fit in."
after that we talked about all my pictures in my sketchbook and about my dream of an artist and i made him promise not to tell anyone.
after that we went to art and he sat by me.when the teacher told us to paint whatever we wanted john looked at me and i knew what he wanted so i nodded.
when i started pinting i got lost in the colors but i was found when john to ld me to stop.when i heard his voice i loked at him then i saw everybody looking at my painting.
when i saw the teacher had gotten the princible i looked up at my painting.it was picture of the emotions love,hate,and sadness writen on it and in each square a picture of each.
in love there was a girl and a boy falling in love in their eyes you could see the love of
eachother in their eyes.
in hate you saw the two people fighting with words.
in the sadness picture there was the most awfulest thig in the world it had to pictures of what could have happend to one another.
in the first picture it had the boy crying over the girls grave saying why why.
in the second picture it had the same thing but the girl was crying on the boys grave.
i was told to never do that agin and then the bell rang and we went home.john asked if he could ride with me so i said yes and when that was all over i went to my room and went to sleep.
chapter 2
the next day when i got to school all the pictures in my sketch book were posted every were and people were looking at them.
when i saw john he came over to me and sayed"i didn't do this i..i...i"i stopped before he could finish i said"no just stop it it had to be you because you were the only person in this world who has ever seen my sketchbook and after you hugged me when i dropped you off i cheked my bag it wasn't there."
john sayed"well i wouldn't take it because i'm not that type of person.'
when he was done i left ran out to the quartyard and went under the tree and cried and cried.
when i was done i heard footsteps behind me.i turned around and looked but it wasn't john it was somebodyelse who grabbed me before i could see her face.just as she grabbed me john came into the quartyard and told the girl to let me go.
but of course she didn't she just dropped me and started fighting john and i saw the whole thing john turned into a warewolf and the girl stayed her reagular form and i looked at her and saw that she was a vampire.
well they were fighting john told me to run but i couldn't he kept telling me to run but i couldn't move.
next thing i know i'm in joshes room laying on his bed bleeding.when i got up i heard noises downstairs.i heard joshes voice and his parents talking.
he said"i now i was doing the wrong thing but i needed to protect her.
"well why did you bring her here?"
"because i love her to much t take her ot the coucil like i was suppodsed to."
"so it was your duty to do that and you did not obey,"
"i'm sorry but you don't need to make my decisouns."
"well thats the only way your going to make it."
"i will make it however i can."
the next thing i know is hes next to me hugging me and his parents looking at me
i ask him"why is the council or whatever going to kill me what did i do?"
"you did nothing its just theres a reason for everyhting but i don' know this one."
"so this is the girl the.... never mind my name is amanda and this is my husband george."
"hi i'm george and you must be."
"i'm sage waren so how would theyy know who i am and how did i get here?"
"well i took you here and now our safe."
"but i don't want to be here i want to be at home in my bed drawing and texting not here where somebody has to keep watch on me and i don't want to be here with you."
after that i ran i ran as fast as i could. i kep running all i could think about is how betrayed i feel.then i looked and somebody was in front of me it was the girl from the other day. but she had friends.
she said " well well isn't it the sage where is your boyfriend john your alone."
"i don't care for him ou can take me if ou want i don't ever want to see his face ever agin."
"fine if you want to be taken so bad then lets go."
just then john came running he was saying something but i couldn't understand because i was already gone.
then i saw him next to me i said"what are you doing i don't want you to save me after what you did."
"but i didn't do that it was them."he continud
"so drop her now."
the girl said"ok there you go."
she dropped me and we where at the top of trees. and then i felt like i was flying then i was in horrible pain i could here john yelling sage are you ok.
its like i couldn't breath like i was paralyzed.
then well i was lieing there i felt the poem of my soul come put it was saying:
i am
i am what makes a child smile
i am what makes the sun shine
i am what makes the moutains move
i am what powers the love
i am what fallows in his steps
i am what makes your heart beat
i am a laugh
i am light
i am nature
i am me and you are you
i am i am gods deciple
i am your love.
then i could feel my life flash before my eyes
but i still could here someone singing a gentele but loud voice it was a guy singing and he was singing.:
"she is the power to my heart
she is the only one i can't live without
so take why did i have to let her go
take me now and give her life
i am the one to take
but let her live give her my life
i can't live without her----------------"
then i started singing it to and when i woke i was in the hospitile.
chapter 3
then i was asleep agin but somebody was carring me and it was john.
it was such a long walk but i only thought that i didn't know that he was running me all the way to washington dc and nobody will every guess who i was staying with it was the pres.
when i saw that we where there
i said" why am i here i don't now anybody here john tell me why you were chosen to kill me."
"he stared at me like i was crazy and said"
because they knew i was going to fall in love with you."
and that was the end i had to say.
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the next day i left johns house he didn't know it but i wanted to go see the people that tried to take me i know that they wern't going to take me to the council and theres one of those people that i think i know.
when i got to where they dropped me they were waiting there like they knew i was coming.
when i got a good look at the people i saw him the guy i know his name is josh.
i screamed his name and he came running to me.
i said,"josh who are these people and why did they try to take me?"
"because i told them about you and they didn't want any more blood baths."he said
"then why did she drop me?"i asked
"because it would be better if didn't know you were alive then be killed by the council."
then out of the trees i saw john and his family.
john started to say"sgae get back if we go over there we will break the treaty so come back.”
“no I don’t want to josh is going to tell me why the council wants me and because hes my only family I never told any one this but my parents were killed by the council only josh knows and he will protect me from them not take me to them.”I said
I had a tear in my eye and jake was hugging me tight like he won’t let go till me heart stopps beating.
He said”sage has a right to now john what have you been telling her that the council new that you two would fall in love with each other.”josh said.
John was mad now he said”you know I wasn’t going to tell her becase I would never want her to get hurt."
"well ig ot hurt that you wouldn't tell me."
i didn't want to speak any more so josh turned in to wolf and put me on his back and he took me to school.
when i got to school i went straight to fca because it was my day to speak.
when i got there i went right up to the stage and was saying what i had chosen to say.
i said"some of you saw my art work and its ture i do draw.but thats not why i'm here i am here to talk about the mask that you wear everyday. i found out i wear the mask of purity when i saw this it had a caption under it it said"Your mask is purity. You are always trying to be true to yourself. You don't care what others think is right or wrong, you always use your own judgment to decide. You often ignore the millions of rules people are trying to place on the way you should live your life, because you know they are meaningless and that you are a good person. Your intentions are usually pure, whether it's wanting to do something nice for someone, or just take some time for yourself. You understand that pure isn't perfect. You get angry, jealous, mean, sometimes stubborn, but you are who you are, and your mask isn't trying to hide it; it's just helping you get by the life you love and enjoy. but i found out that there are other people that wear mask of vanity and it said under naeth that"Your mask is vanity, and you wear it well. Most times you are so focused on your mask, that you forget who you are as a person. Your aesthetics come together so well, sometimes it makes people hard to approach you. You pour a lot of time and energy into they way you look, and although many people see no problem, you are constantly finding flaws you need to fix. You have friends who seem to be really close to you, but for some reason you often have to rely on yourself. You may not be a "bad" person, but you're vein and everyone knows it. "
i stopped to take a breath and said"
some of you are wearing the mask of purity,vanity,Innocence
and many others i know this is new and unexpected but i want each and every one of you to think about those things."
then john walked in. he sat down and everything was quiet.then i satrted agin"
these past couple of days i thought me wearing a mask pf purity is impossible. these past few days i had people that i care about tell me lies."when i stopped i stared at john then josh came in.
they both moved t the very back. a i started to talk agin" my loved ones had lied to me i was lied to i was thrown from the air i was in the hospital and none of that had killed me because i had god in my heart and he knew it wasn't my time i was reading my bible and came across these verses will you please listson now."i stopped and went on.
"•From Psalm 9:9
The LORD is a refuge for the oppressed, a stronghold in times of trouble.
•From Psalm 34:18
The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit
•From Psalm 48:14
For this God is our God for ever and ever; he will be our guide even to the end.
•From Isaiah 54:10
"Though the mountains be shaken and the hills be removed, yet my unfailing love for you will not be shaken nor my covenant of peace be removed," says the LORD, who has compassion on you.
•From Matthew 5:4
Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted.
•From Revelation 21:4
He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away
Fathers, do not embitter your children, or they will become discouraged.”—Colossians 3:21, The Holy Bible—New International Version.
Ephesians 3:14, 15 On account of this I bend my knees to the Father, to whom every family in heaven and on earth owes its name.
2 Timothy 3:14, 15 You, however, continue in the things that you learned and were persuaded to believe, knowing from what persons you learned them and that from infancy you have known the holy writings, which are able to make you wise for salvation through the faith in connection with Christ Jesus.
Ephesians 6:1 - 4; Children, be obedient to your parents in union with [the] Lord, for this is righteous: “Honor your father and [your] mother”; which is the first command with a promise: “That it may go well with you and you may endure a long time on the earth And you, fathers, do not be irritating your children, but go on bringing them up in the discipline and mental-regulating of Jehovah.”
Ephesians 5:25, 28 - 31; Husbands, continue loving your wives, just as the Christ also loved the congregation and delivered up himself for it, In this way husbands ought to be loving their wives as their own bodies. He who loves his wife loves himself, for no man ever hated his own flesh; but he feeds and cherishes it, as the Christ also does the congregation, because we are members of his body. “For this reason a man will leave [his] father and [his] mother and he will stick to his wife, and the two will become one flesh.”
Proverbs 18:34; There exist companions disposed to break one another to pieces, but there exists a friend sticking closer than a brother.
Proverbs 18:11; Be wise, my son, and make my heart rejoice, that I may make a reply to him that is taunting me.
Proverbs 6: 22; Observe, O my son, the commandment of your father, and do not forsake the law of your mother. Tie them upon your heart constantly; bind them upon your throat. When you walk about, it will lead you; when you lie down, it will stand guard over you; and when you have waked up, it itself will make you its concern.
Proverbs 22:6; Train up a boy according to the way for him; even when he grows old he will not turn aside from it.
John 15:23; No one has love greater than this, that someone should surrender his soul in behalf of his friends.
Exodus 21:7-11
If a man sells his daughter as a female slave, she is not to go free as the male slaves do.
If she is displeasing in the eyes of her master who designated her for himself, then he shall let her be redeemed. He does not have authority to sell her to a foreign people because of his unfairness to her.
If he designates her for his son, he shall deal with her according to the custom of daughters.
If he takes to himself another woman, he may not reduce her food, her clothing, or her conjugal rights.
If he will not do these three things for her, then she shall go out for nothing, without payment of money.
Ephesians: 5
22 Wives, be subject to your own husbands, as to the Lord.
23For the husband is the head of the wife, as Christ also is the head of the church, He Himself being the Savior of the body.
24But as the church is subject to Christ, so also the wives ought to be to their husbands in everything.
Leviticus 20:9
'If anyone curses his father or mother, he must be put to death. He has cursed his father or his mother, and his blood will be on his own head.
Exodus 21:15 Whoever strikes his father or mother shall be put to death.
Deuteronomy 22:28-29 If a man happens to meet a virgin who is not pledged to be married and rapes her and they are discovered,
he shall pay the girl's father fifty shekels of silver. [a] He must marry the girl, for he has violated her. He can never divorce her as long as he lives.
It is better to trust in the LORD than to put confidence in man.
It is better to trust in the LORD than to put confidence in princes."
Psalm 118:8-9 (NKJV)
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"For the LORD will be your confidence,
And will keep your foot from being caught."
Proverbs 3:26 (NKJV)
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"In the fear of the LORD there is strong confidence,
And His children will have a place of refuge."
Proverbs 14:26 (NKJV)
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"For we are the circumcision, who worship God in the Spirit,
rejoice in Christ Jesus, and have no confidence in the flesh,
though I also might have confidence in the flesh.
If anyone else thinks he may have confidence in the flesh, I more so:"
Philippians 3:3-4 (NKJV)
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"Now this is the confidence that we have in Him,
that if we ask anything according to His will, He hears us."
1 John 5:14 (NKJV)
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"Beloved, if our heart does not condemn us,
we have confidence toward God."
1 John 3:21 (NKJV)
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"Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of
what we do not see."
Hebrew 11:1 (NIV)
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"For you have been my hope, O Sovereign LORD,
my confidence since my youth."
Psalms 71:5 (NIV)
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"Don’t put your confidence in powerful people;
there is no help for you there."
Psalm 146:3 (NLT)
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"Oh, the joys of those who trust the Lord,
who have no confidence in the proud or in those who worship idols."
Psalm 40:4 (NLT)
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"Wherefore let him that thinketh he standeth take heed lest he fall"
1 Corinthians 10:12 (KJV)
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"This is what the LORD says: "Let not the wise man boast of his wisdom or the strong man boast of his strength or the rich man boast of his riches,
but let him who boasts boast about this: that he understands and knows me, that I am the LORD, who exercises kindness, justice and righteousness on earth, for in these I delight," declares the LORD."
Jeremiah 9:23-24 (NIV)"i said everybody clapped.
"now i want you to come up here and say what mask your wearing and take it off"i said
everybody came up and said what mask it was and took it off.
the last two people up there where josh and john. john went first and said into the microphone to everybody" i wear the mask of sympathy i have had told lies and been told lies and i am sorry."
he came up and hugged me.
josh was last he said"i wear the mask of purity i don't care what people think and i always try to be truthful to myself."
and he came over and hugged and kissed me on my cheek.
chapter 4
it was a long week and evry thing was happening so fast.its like a dream nothing was slow.josh was always outside of my window always making sure i was alright.
john would always come to see if i was ok but,he would look through the window and see me then,josh would tell him to leave.
at night josh would lay down in mt bed till i feel asleep. one night i wanted to see john so i pretended to fall asleep.
when josh left john could read my thoughts so when josh left he was at my window.i let him in we talked and talked untill josh came in.
before josh could see him john gave me a book and left.josh wasn't suprised i was awake then i acutally fell asleep.
in the morning when i hed for school josh tells me i souldn't go but i do i told him that it was fca day and i was doing something speacil so he said ok and came with me.
at fca i told josh to sit down and see what i'm doing.john came and sat in the front row with josh.
when i got on the stage i started to talk and sayed"today is a good day why you ask because today we worship the lord.i have had ruff times this week but nothing can change that when i'm here i have felt like i could never be rescued from all the pain i deal with this two people in the front row here are my very own family but they hate each other a fight and act like its always a war.
they are the reason for my pain but i always for give them i fell like i'm stuck in the middle and i can't stop it."
i start to cry.
"i have a song about being rescude here it goes:
You are the Source of light
I can't be left behind
No one else will do
I will take hold of You
I need You, Jesus
Come to my rescue
Where else could I go?
There’s no other name by which I am saved
Capture me with grace
I will follow You
My heart is Yours for life
I need Your hand in mine
No one else will do
Lord, I put my trust in You
I need You Jesus
Come to my rescue
Where else could I go?
There’s no other name by which I am saved
Oh capture me with grace
I will follow You
This world has nothing for me
This world has nothing for me
This world has nothing for me
(I will follow You)
This world has nothing for me
I need You Jesus
Come to my rescue
Where else could I go?
There’s no other name by which I am saved
Capture me with grace
I will follow You
Oh I need You Jesus
To come to my rescue
Where else could I go?
There’s no other name by which I am saved
Capture me with grace
Won't You Capture me with grace
I will follow You
I will follow You
This world has nothing for me
This world has nothing for me"
when i was finished i looked out and i had people crying and i looked in the front row and i saw the worst thing.
josh and john were fighting.
i screamed" will you two just stop do you not see how you two are damaging me i just want you guys to stop please for me and until you can stop i will not speak,listen,walk next to,and come nere.
your the reason i want to take my own life everyday because of you two i came here today to get away from all this fighting but i now know that this fighting will never stop there is not hope or faith in ethier of you ,not even an atom. i now know that scince i met you john i would never be safe but you can just go and so can you josh.
i don't ever want to see any of you until you can be nice."
josh said" you can't do that i'm the only family you have but know i guess you don't have any family."
i said"how can you say that when you where bullied who stood up for you and now you are saying you hate me now and that i'm worthless and john what do you say."
john sayed"well its true you really have no family so i wouldn't be doing that well now."
i stoped him before he could finish and i said"
really you too. i thought you were diffrent but now i know you just like the rest if these guys your selfish,mean,and selfabsorbed. john you said you loved me but know your one of those people who feel something than take it back."
i left and ran outside and went to my car and cried.i saw a shadow got out of the car and saw them it was weird i went right up to them and sayed to take me right before they took me josh and john came out.
josh told them to let me be but they didn't.i said"its useless i'd rather die then be with two people who can't even get along."
and they took me the council took me.
i was looking forward to see the council.and they were amazed to see me.
to be countinued..........
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