ok so never in my life have i been the kind of girl to cheat on my boyfriend, but it was not my fault. i was drunk and pissed at David. you see we go to the same college well I go he teaches, you see he had to go out of town for a confrenss for a week and i had classes to keep me bussie but then he calls me up saying he was staying longer cause one of his old gf was there and he wanted to see her. but what really got me was it was my 23 birthday and i really wanted him to be there. i love him more than anything in this world. we met when i was 18 and he was 27.he was teaching my older sis Carmen in her algebra class and it was love at first site. so for my birthday i went out sad and depressed, I went out to a bar and got totally waisted and met a guy and i kept the drinks on coming. you see I hate my birthday my mom died on my birthday picking my cake up. when I was 9. so he knew how badly i wanted to come out of my shell and be loved. but he wanted to see his old flame .well I left the bar with this guy and well you can figure the rest now he is suppose to be on his way home. and he says he will be over to my place and stay with me tonight.

I had just walked out of my shower and there he sat on my tub. hay he whispered. hay i said back i walked right pasted him to my bed room. and started to go through my pj drawer slamming my stuff around. he knew I was pissed off and I could care less ,I put on one of my old night gowns that he hated and got into bed. He turned off the light ,took his clothing off and climbed into bed with me. this is what usually happened when I was pissed at him. I rolled over and put my back to him he came up behind me and wrapped his arms around me. he started to trail kisses’ down my neck and ear .I grabbed his hand in mine and kissed it. no matter how mad I am at him it won’t last long .I’m so so sorry he finally says. and why is that? I ask .I wasn’t home for your birthday. no you weren’t were you ? no you were with an ex. I was trying not to cry. look babe let me make it up to you. yea and how you going to do that? he gets out of the bed and goes over to his pants. I figured he was grabbing a condom but he knows there in my side table drawer. he climbs back into bed and wraps me back in his arms. I was going to give you this at the end of your birthday night but um I think right now is perfect. he takes my hand and slips a wonderful ring on my finger, David I looked at him. I love you and i want to be with you for the rest of my life. Diana will you marry me? oh hear came the water works i rolled over and put my arms around him and kissed him. yea i will I love you so much. and I want to be with you forever .We made love that night and I let the problem roll to a crack in my brain.
When i woke the next morning he wasn’t in bed, I heard the shower in my bathroom Running .i went down stairs and made a pot of coffee when i had just poured my cup hear came my dad.hay daddy I kissed his cheek. My dad works the night shift. so he’s home all day and work all night. i set are cups on the table. he came and sat with me. so um dad he looked up at me and i showed him my hand .and a smile broke across his face he pulled me over and wrapped his arms around me .I knew teach wasn’t stupid .My dad loves David and now that were engaged he is estaic. I love yah baby girl. I love yah to. David came down stairs and dad gave him a huge hug. David gave me a kiss told me he see me later at school took his coffee and left.
When my sister Carmen was in college she got pregnant but would never tell us by who and that he didn’t matter. she has a wonderful 8 year old matty. my sis made it threw college and has her own bussiness all done for her and matty. I went to her house before i had to hit school. I heard matty yell aunty diana. he threw open the door and jumped into my arms hay baby i kissed him. Wheres mom at her office he said. ok i put matty in the play room right next door and went to her office. hay car hay she smilled. what cha doing hear? um David asked me to marry him. and i said yes. she looked up at me all happiness from her face. look car i know you don’t like him and i don’t know why but i love him cant you be happy for me. I am Im really happy for you. you deserve this. thanks um were having a big dinner his fam and ours tomorrow and i really want you to be there. can you mend fences for a night for me and please come? yea i will for you she smilled. ok I got to go but I love ya car i really do see yah later.
DAMN DIANA WHY WHY WOULD YOU DO THIS? “IF YOU ONLY NEW”
CHAPTER 2
The dinner started off well my dad and some of my other family came but my sister was late we had just started desert when she came threw the door. i got up and walked over to her hay.hay Im so sorry im late. its ok Im just, Im just glad your hear. come on she sat on dads other side and durring coffie she talked to everyone but david. I had no idea what was between those to but there both my family and i love them all.
as everyone was leaving i said my good byes carmen and david where no where to be seen i went off to find them i heard voices carmen was crying and she was pissed. i rounded the corner and there they were. I stood still not knowing weather to cut in or
to listen.
damn you david all i have to say is u better take care of my sister. and not treat her the way you did me do you hear me you hurt her and i sware to god david i will kill you. she started to stalk off so i went in to the bathroom and came out as david came round after her hi my sweet he leaned down to kiss me. i love you i said. me 2 he said and walked off to pay the bill.

over the next couple of days i started to move my things to David’s house a lot of my stuff was there but i wanted the rest of it. David had to go to
cali to visit his gram who was sick and dying. I asked him if he wanted me to go but he told me know if he needed me he would call and i should stay sense school was almost over to stay home He lives in a uptown appt and it has 3 bedrooms two are actual rooms and the other is a office he uses to keep all his stuff togethor my computer broke so I was using his when a IM popped up from Carmen what in the world i whispered. david it said I swear if you don't leave me and my son alone than there will be some big problms in the road ahead. i called car and asked her to go out to the club sence im done all my papers and things and David isn’t home yet not untill later tonight.
CHAPTER 3
When i walked into the club I felt so good. hot pink tank black miny and the best fuck me shoes you could imagine carmen was sitting at the table when i got there talking to jim the bartender. no hope there he's GAY hay car haaay she yelled and kissed my cheek. she was all ready tipsy.hay jim i kissed him ill talke a strawberry dakery and keep hers comming.
whats up diana what cha need to see me for? What I can't spend time with my wounderful sister i asked with a sad look on my face. naaaaa not you. she said ok than i said getting to the point whats going on with you and david? she chocked on her drink what???????? you heard me? what makes you think there is well lets see the night of the dinner party you two were fighting in the hall over me and a lot i probly missed second you keep calling and when he anwsers you hang up and than today while i was on the computer a im from you popped up saying to stay away from you and your son what did he ever do to you? he broke up with me for my sister .Carmen got her stuff and stalked off. Hugh I whispered.
When David came home that night i was out on the couch asleep I woke up to a pair of warm lips on mine i deepened the kiss and heard him moan he picked me up and put me on his lap i wrapped my arms around his neck and didn’t open my eyes until I heard him moan again. hi I smiled. I missed you, I kissed him again I missed yah 2. I kept going until I knew I had him like puddy in my hands. hay baby i said between kissing him. hum? you dated my sister? what? he managed to say. you dated car? I shoved my tong down his throught . yea he said. when you to date? um be 4 we met. really I grabbed the back of his neck and shoved his face between my Brest yea it um didn’t work to well between us. and why didn't you tell me? I ah i kissed him again. it never came up. did you hurt her? yea when we broke up she took it hard cause she really fell for me. so how long was that? before i met you ? OK I said and got off him glad your home love yah IM going to bed I kissed his cheek and walked away. What he said when I walked away . maybe tomorrow I said,
I really wanted to know what was going on so I waited until he went to a meeting at work to go search his office. I loved him and I trusted him. Didn’t I ? would I be doing this is I really cared for him? I went through his computer his desk everything and nothing. I went to the book case last and as I went through it a box fell off the top of the shelf. And all the items fell out on the floor. I picked up the items and put them back a sap when I came over a birth certificate for Matthew lee Maguire what? Father was David Maguire and mother Diana martin I couldn’t breathe Matty was my baby? When was I pregnant is that what this scar is? Is that why I feel a connection to him ? I heard David coming in the door so I put everything back In the box and walked in the joining door to our room.
He came in kissed me and went to the shower. I had to find out when I had a baby and when did I forget. Can you forget something like that?
The next day when he went to work I went through that box and found records of a mental clinic what in the world. It said that David’s wife went there after a car crash with her and their son matty were there she was thrown from the car and the baby was fine as could be. Well what the fuck? If im mattys mother than when the fuck was I in a mental hut.
When David got off work we went out to dinner and a club after. I figured I get him liquored up and thank ask some questions. Hay baby I whispered in his ear while we were at the club. Yea baby. Dance with me. I gave him a sexy smile and led him to the dance floor, when I kissed him it was like parks of electric shot out from the tips of our lips, fuck me I whispered. What hear. Yea right here right now. he didn’t take me for real so I jumped up on him and wrapped my legs around his waist and un did his pants fuck me now. And he did no second worries for him. While we were in the middle of this I thought would be the best time to ask some questions. Baby I asked. What he panted out. Were u married before. I saw a sad look pop over his face. Yes he finally said. What happened? Um there was a car crash and she hit her head and she forgot who she was. Is she still alive I asked. Yes he whispered,
We went home and he seemed a little different. I couldn’t wait any longer is matty your son? He turned around and staired at me. What did you just say? Are you mattys father? I guess he could see the sadness in my ryrs cause he told me the truth. Yes I am his father
Chapter 4
Oh ok I got sick to my stomach.. so you’re the one guy she slept with and said was a jerk. No it wasn’t like that. Than how was it David cause IM dying to understand. He came up and grabbed my face aw Diana if you could only understand. Make me understand David please. I can’t he whispered. Am I his mother? He just stared in my eyes. Did you remember something? No um kind of. I found his birth certificate and it said I’m his mother plus lately there have been some dreams. And I can’t really explain them. But am I his mother?
He was crying he shook his head up and down. Yea you are. One more question. He looked pained that I would keep talking after that. Am I your wife? Are we all ready married? He crested my face in his hand and he kissed me. Yes my sweet we are. What happened to me David the truth please. Um we were newly married and you had taken matt to see your dad and you too got fighting. You stormed out of the house and by that time it was storming so bad out you couldn’t see anything. Your dad asked you to stay there and you could stay in your old room or to just leave matt there. But you left any way and um a car ran you off the road and you went down a cliff and you were thrown from the car. But matt was fine he only had some scratches and stuff but you, you were a different story.
David why were me and my dad fighting? He um didn’t like the fact we got married so young. You were only 17 and I was a lil bit older than you, but your father didn’t approve and you too went at it for a while you too fought so bad you weren’t on speaking terms . why does car have matt why didn’t you keep him. After you forgot about me I couldn’t deal with being hear any more. So you left our son. Yea. So where we really meat. A party that’s one reason your dad hated me. But you loved me. I always have. When they told me you were awake I couldn’t believe it I came back as soon as I could but one thing they didn’t tell me was you forgot me and matty . so after I woke up you stuck around? No I left went back to my job but a course my job led me hear. Where your sister was in my class and I met you.
As I sat there I tried to remember us me and him pregnant with matt all of it but I couldn’t . David said we should get some sleep so we layed down and he didn’t come near me so I went to him. I wrapped myself around him. Hay this me knows you and she loves you. And I’m not going anywhere you hear me. He kissed me and fell asleep.
When I finally fell asleep I had the strangest dream it was me but the old me. When I met David. Getting pregnant with matty, him telling me he wouldn’t leave me alone and proposing to me 3 months after I got pregnant . the big fight and my sister running me off the road. I jumped up in a huge sweat. David pulled me into his arms cause I couldn’t breathe he was trying to calm me down.
David I remembered it all, all of it you , me , matty all of it. And Carmen running me off the road. Diana he whispered. Yea baby it’s me I’m back.. and I’m never leaving you again I whispered.. I want my baby David now . well hes not really a baby any more. Still I want to see him. Does he know ? yea he does he understands you got hurt and lost your memory. But he has been waiting until you came back to him. And me and when we could be a family. So has he always known you’re his father. A course why wouldn’t he? I don’t know. Come on I jumped out of bed and got dressed and he followed right behind me. Should we call car I asked him. No she will be up you know her eairly bird gets the worm stuff. Yea your right.
Chapter 5
Carmen I entered the house calling her name in the office she shouted, Carmen I ran into the room. What, what is it? I want my son. She sank down into her chair. Oh my god she whispered. Yea I said I remember everything and I do mean everything. Diana come on I was mad I didn’t mean to . yes you did you men’t to hurt me like I hurt you.. you wanted my baby cause you can’t have any and you were mad cause he came to me and not you. Because the fabulous Carmen got everything she ever wanted but when one man turned you down for your sister you couldn’t let me be happy someone wanted me . and you couldn’t stand it, now I’m taking my son and I’m going home.
I went to walk out of the room when she came up behind me with the sissors in hand she stabbed me in my chest and I fell to the ground. He’s mine she yelled. You can’t have him I have been his mother when you have been off in lala land. Yea because you put me there. YOU WERE SUPPOSE TO DIE she yelled. Not come back. Why do you hate me Carmen? Cause you killed mom she wept,
I have lived with that guilt my whole life car. How the hell do you think I feel that’s one thing I have always known and no matter what we did you would never let me forget. When I learned to drive you told all your friends to keep their moms In the house cause I would kill them.. GOD CARMEN you’re my sister your suppose to love me. But you hate me. Carmen came after her with the sissors again and slices her neck DAVID I screamed he was suppose to be getting matt and his things. You think he’s going to help you? He loves me. Who do you think kept his bed warm when you were locked up? Hugh what?????? Yea he didn’t tell you that did he. No that’s not like him to do so. David walked down to the room. Carmen what are you doing he yelled. GETTING RID OF OUR PROBLEM she is not the problem car you are. WHAT ??????? you love me. No I don’t I love Diana always have and always will. But what about us? There is no us I made that mistake once and never again..
Carmen pulled out a gun and fired David jumped in front of me David I screamed than she went and pulled the gun on herself noooooooooooooooooooooo I screamed Carmen. I love you she said and pulled the trigger . Carmen I yelled nooooo why? David hay sweetness I’m ok he caressed my cheek . car killed herself I cried. Why would she do that? She was crazy Diana anything could of happened to her. Where is matt he’s out side in the car. Come on lets go home.
David and I are doing grate and matty loves living home with us he loves having his mommy and daddy with him. We found out Carmen had the same illness of the brain are mother had. I missed my sister so much. It was a hard world without her. Me and David are planning to get remarried on the 25 of sept the same day we married last time,
Who knows what this life is filled with but who knows maby there secrets worth keeping.

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