Chapter One

Beep, beep, beep, beep. I wake up to my alarm clock and shut it off. I flip the blankets off of me and get up. My names Vera and I live with a abusive family that blames for everything that goes on. And now I'm not aloude to talk because they got tired of hearing my cries for when they beat me and if I ever made a sound I would be locked in the basement without any food water or anything. On school days if I was locked in the basement they would wake up early yell at me while they made sure I looked presintable to go to school that way no one would ask questions and while I was at school I got bullied every day and no one ever did anything. Through out my life I would barly be able to eat it was eaither they didn't give me food and the times they did I would barly beable to eat it, not able to eat it with how much pain I was in, or with all the beatings and hardly any food I would be bring it back up half of the night. I don't eat at school eathar because I can't afford it so I just sit at a table sometimes and read a book or just go to class early.
I go to my closet which only contans two t-shirts with rips in them, four long sleeve shirts that have lots of rips in them, two tank tops for under my shirts, and three hudy jackets. I grabed my tanish coloured tank top, gray riped t-shirt, black riped jeans, black jeans, and went to take a shower. Once done with my shower and dressed I go down stairs to make breackfeast.
When I just finish making the pancakes, eggs, and backen I hear my parents walking down stairs, so I rush over to the corner in the kitchen and wait for them to say I can eat or just send me off to school.
The first one to walk into the kitchen is my dad, my mom, then my brother Daren so my sister Sara must still be getting ready. They all sit down and start eating, then theres a scream from up stairs and my sisters running down them. My father looks up when Sara walks into the kitchen and asks, "Whats wrong Princess?"
"Whats wrong? Whats wrong is I can't go to the One Direction consert Friday because I'm going with my friends to New York to meet Cody Simpson with them." Sara screams. I cring from how loud she screamed.
"Calm down sis." Said Darren.
"Yeah calm down sweety. Maybe your brother will go get it for you." Said my mom.
"Can you Dar-dar please?" asked Sara exididly.
"Sorry sis but I can't I have plans sorry."
"Fine, then can that bitch in the corner go for me and get there atuograph?" Ask Sara.
I was hurt when they always called me a bitch, that thing, a slut, and a lonely nobody that no one wants as a friend or anything other than a slave. There my family and yet they treat me like trash like I don't egsist saying that they'll make me wish I was never born. The thing is I've wished I had never ever been born and wished I wasn't alive. I'm really brocken on the inside on the outside I look like a sad person with no home no nothing, which in reality I am I can't trust anyone not even the people I love and I thought loved me.
I look over at my mother and father to see them looking at each other thinking to see if I should go and or not. I see my father look over at me with hard angery eyes and my mother look over at my sister with soft eyes as she tells Sara, "Yes that thing over in the corner can go for you but," my mother then looks at me and says, "if you talk to them we will find out and you will be punished and have to stay in the basement again understood you slutty bitch?" she says with a hard and cold voice. I shrink further in the corner and nod my head. I find a peice of paper and a pen and write down 'what time will I have to leave so I can get Sara the atuographs from the band' and walk up to them put it on the table and walk backwards back to my corner. My father looks at then hands it to Sara so she can read it and answer the question.
"It starts at 6:00 you slut." Says Sara in a mean and death like tone. So I have to wait 2 more days until I have to go to this One Direction bands consert to get there autographs for Sara. "Bye mom bye dad I'm head off to school."
"So am I bye."
"Go to fucking school you don't need food your still to fat to eat." Says my mom.I slowly pick my stuff off the floor and walk to the door that way they no I'm going to school like they told me to. Once outside I see Daren and Sara leave in there cars of a red Honda and a silver Merceds Benz. As I see them start down the street I start fast walking the 27 blocks it takes to get to school. Once I got to school I saw lots of kids in the parking lot talking to there friends kids in there own group.
I started walking faster trying to get in the building and to my locker before the school footbal team whicth my brothers in and my sister and her group of sluts saw and start picking on me. I was almost in the building when I herd my name and turned around to see my best and only friend Jimmy. Jimmy has brown hair, light green eyes, he's 6'0, has black glasses, and really skiny. His parents are like mine kinda, well I should say parent when his dad died his mom start drinking and always coming home jrunk or high and started beating him then when she found out he was bisecual started locking him in his room with no food or anything during the summers and every night she would beat him and when school would get really close she would feed some but it would come back up most of the time when she feed him, and then at school he would get beat up to but, mostly to try to get all the brutal hits so they wouln't hit me. I no why not tell anyone that we get beat its because no one seems to care almost all the teacher walk right past us when were getting beat up at school eccestp the ones that don't get with a student, why don't we tell the princible about it because he doesn't seem to care, why not tell the police its because they say they no everyone and that they wouldn't do that and it doesn't help my dad is a cop.
"Hey Ji Ji how you doing." I ask with a tiny smile since I still hurt from the bruises I have.
"Hey Ra you no the same living hell, you ok you look like you hurt alot?" Asked Jimmy in a concerned voice.
"Yeah face still some what hurts from the beating I got at home two days ago from burning dinner by falling alseep at the table insted of watching the food and then it didn't help with going to school and getting picked on. You ok you look like you hadn't gotten any sleep and you got a nasty burise on you cheek." I asked him when I saw the big black and blue bruise.
"Oh I got that over the weekened it's ok." He says shurgging it off. I don't ask what happened because I know not to pry because it's better not having to relive it when you talk about it.
"You sure your ok?" I ask him.
"Yeah I'm fine. Are you ok?" Jimmy ask me.
"Yeah I'm fine just... Oh my god I have to go Sara and Daren are over there I'm in so mush trouble if they see me talking to you." I say in a rush as I run into the school building. I'm walking to my locker when someone shoves me into the lockers and starts laghing along with some other kids that seen me get pushed. My back makes contact with one of the locker handles with a combashin lock on it really hard to probaly leave a big bruise.
I groan and get up almost falling right back down from the pain in my back that standing up strait. I walk to my locker having to hang onto the other lockers sometimes because my back. Once I'm at my locker I get my stuff and start walking to class.
As soon as I get into the classroom and start walking to my seat when someone trips me where I end up sparled out on the floor with my things scatered around. Everyone that already is in class are laughing while I'm picking up my stuff. Then theres another pare of hands helping me pick up my things and the laughing stops to be filled with wispers. I look up from picking up my things to see who is helping me to come eye to eye with a really hot guy eventhough I wouldn't say it out loud but he is.
He has green eyes with tints of yellow and light brown in them, brown curly hair, he wore a friendly smile."Are you alright? I saw you fall I hope your not hurt." He said this with a Britsh accent and still wore that frienly smile and had eyes filled with worry. I nodded my head and gave him a small smile to let him know I was fine and contiude to pick my stuff up. "My names Harry whats yours?" He asked me which shocked me because nobody has really asked what my name was accept for Jimmy.Then my eyes widen, did he just say his name was Harry as in Harry Styles.
"You don't talk much do you?" Asked Harry and I nodded my head. Oh great another person that will be nice to me for one minute then rude the next. Wait why is Harry at this school in the first place?
"Hey Harry why are you talking to that nobody. You shouldn't have to talk to her when you could talk to me. Shes nothing but a little nerd and if you are with me you can have all this." I hear Sara said with a gren pointing at herself. I make a desgusted face at what she said and I feel sad because now Harry will deffintly stop talking to me now that he has Sara.
I hear Harry make a desgusted noise and it suprises me because everyone always wanted Sara and I can't believe he doesn't. "Thanks but no thanks." Harry says in a desgusted voice. Sara gasps because she has never had anyone turn her down.
"And why not Mr. To Good For Me." Harry just ignores her and starts helping me pick up my things again."Hey Mr. Harry Face answer me!!" Sara yells.
That way every one would leave Harry alone and nobody would get into trouble if a fight breaks out with Harry being the puching bag I desided to talk because it wouldn't matter if I got beat up nobody care no ones ever cared. "Leave him alone Sara." I said loud enough for everyone to hear and I was glade that my voice was steady insteady of shaky like I was feeling on the inside.
Sara turned her death glare on me and I held it not showing any of my emotions on my face like I rarly do. "What did you just say to me you Bitch?" Sara qeustiond.
In a emosionless voice that to me souded like I didn't care about what happened to me which I don't care I repeated myself but only rearanged some words,"I said to leave him alone my Slutty Bitch of a sister." Every one gasped and stared at me in shock. Saras face turned red with anger she walked over to me with her hand raised and I knew that she was going to slap me but I didn't care the nombing pain inside of me was spreading.
I stood up and the pain in my back wasn't there anymore so I stood all the way up to meet her slap. Just a few seconds after I stood up her hand hit me in the face making my head slam sideways really hard, but I didn't feel it all I felt was the numbness that has spread threw out my body. I turned my head back around and see Sara getting ready to slap me again but someone grabes her arm and holds it still. I look to see who it was to see Harry staring at me with concern in his eyes. If I didn't have this numbness I would probly feel inbarised and run off but instead all I say is, "Don't give me any sempathy. I no you don't really care. No one ever cares besides my one and only friend." and then I just walk out of the classroom without my stuff and walk right out of the school.

Chapter Two

Harry's POV


I jump awake when I hear Liam say, "Harry mate. Stay awake." I open my eyes to see I'm in the lemo with Liam, Zayne, Louis, and Niall and remember that were on are way to some stupid school.
"Sorry I can't really help it. It's like I think 7:40 or something in the morning. And what are we going to this school for exactly?" I ask while sitting up and streching.
"We are tired to Harry. Its like we haven't been up this early before. And the answer to your other question is, we are going to this school to try to find some people with a talent for singing, someone who has a really lovely voice." Says Zayne trying to rubing the sleep from his eyes.
I shake my head to get my hair out of my eyes and looked out the window as the limo started to slow down. I saw a big school and lots of kids outside talking in there own groups. I saw a red headed girl take off running inside the school and a brown headed boy look at her running figure before looking over at the group of football players and shook his head before he to walked into the school building.
As the lemo comes to a stop every head turns in our direction. "Come on mates get ready to run if we have to.", Says Liam as he opens his door and climbs out with Lui and Zayne behind him. I open my door and get out with Niall right behind me.
As we get out of the Lemo all the girls in the parking lot start surrounding us shouting out things like, "I Love You" or "Will You Be My Boyfriend" or "Can I Have Your Autograph". I try to find a way to get out of the circle all the girls made around us, but couldn't find one. I look over at the rest of the guys and see they have the same problem.
Then there's a shout saying "Move out of my way". I look over in the direction the shout came from and see a girl with blond hair walking towards me with three other girls following her. "Look Sara there here it seems your bitch of a sister doesn't have to go get the autographs for you." Says a light brown headed girl.
"Actually we could send her there so your brother and parents don't have to deal with her for awhile, but make it a challenge for her by not giving her the tickets." A dark skined girl with pink hair says.
"That's not a bad idea now shut up so I can talk to Harry." Says the blond haired girl that shouted to the crowed to move whitch like her friends has way to much makeup on. She walks the rest of the way to me and says, "You didn't hear what we said did you Honey?"
I act like I don't no what she is talking about and shake my head no so she doesn't know that I heared them then say, "Its Harry not Honey."
"Yes it is cause your my boyfriend remember?" She asks with a fake sad voice, like she's sad that I forgot we were dating. Trust me when I say that if I was dating her I would remember that.
I look at her with disgust and look for a way to get away from her. I see a break in the circle from were they made people move out of her way and take a break for it. Once out of the circle I had a groupe of girls chasing me. I run accross the parking lot all the way to the school enterince and run inside. I am running down the halls with the girls not to far behind me. I see a classroom door open and run into the classroom just in time to end up seeing the same redhead that I saw running into the school walking to her desk and somebody trip her. Everyone in the classroom starts laughing and nobody trys to help her.
As she starts picking up her things I walk over and start helping her. All the people that were laughing starts to whisper and I have no idea why. Well I have an idea of why, I'm famous and people tend to whisper to there friends when they see me, but this is something else, like everyone thinks its foreign.
I give her a freindly smile and know my eyes are full of worry and ask her,"Are you alright? I saw you fall I hope your not hurt." She doesn't say anything only gives me a weak smile then begins to slowly pick her things up. She looks so depreased and I don't no why. "My names Harry whats yours?" I ask. Her eyes go wide but she still doesn't say anything. "You don't talk much do you?" I ask and she gives me a little nod.
"Hey Harry why are you talking to that nobody. You shouldn't have to talk to her when you could talk to me. She's nothing but a little nerd and if you are with me you can have all this." I hear the girl from the parking lot Sara, I think her name was, say.
I look up and see the redheaded girl make a disgusted face and think of how cute she looks like that. She doesn't see me watching her, but then her exopresion turns sad for some reason. I look up at Sara and make a soft disgusted sound that I don't think anyone heard and say to Sara in a disgusted voice, "Thanks, but no thanks." I hear everyone gasp including the redhead and geuss that no one as ever turned this Sara girl down. My question was answered when Sara said, "And why not Mr. To Good For Me." but I just ignore her and help the redhead pick up the rest of her things. "Hey Mr. Harry Face answer me!!" Sara yells. Does this girl not take the hint when I said I don't want her?
I'm about to tell her to go mess with somebody else when I hear the most beutifull yet calm and emotionless voice I have ever heard say, "Leave him alone Sara." I look up to see that it was the redhead that said it.
Sara turned her death glare on the redhead and she held it not showing any of her emotions on her face and doesn't even flinch when Sara questioned her by saying, "What did you just say to me you Bitch?"
The redheads (Man, I need to figure out her name. The redhead is not the name she diserves to be called.)  expresion does not change even when she says, "I said to leave him alone my Slutty Bitch of a sister." everyone in the room gasps in shock when she says that and her expresion still has not changed. So these two are sisters and the redhead is who Sara plans on giving a hard time. I look over at the girl Sara and see her hand raised ready to slap the redhead and the redheads expresion still does not change. Sara walks closer to smack the redhead and the redhead doesn't even try to back away she stands up to meet the slap. When she stands up I see that she is an inch taller than Sara and I can tell how skinny she is. As she is standing I can see that her outfit looks like a designers the way the cuts and rips are in the jeans, shirt, and sorta in the jacket. I hear a loud snaping sound of the redhead being slaped and look at her but her exprion has not changed, she didn't flinch,and she is not even on the verg of tears.
Sara raises her hand to slap the redhead againg, but I grab her wrist and stop her. I look over at the redhead and see that her left cheeck is really red and I stare at with consurn for a moment and examin her from head to toe. Then I see an old bruise on her right cheek, I look down at her hands and see burn marks on both wrist. I look back at her with my eyes full of concern then she says in an emoshionless voice, "Don't give me any sempathy. I know you don't really care. No one ever cares besides my one and only friend." then she walks out of the classroom.
I let go of Sara's wrist right when I see that brown headed kid that was with the redhead outside walk into the classroom with his school stuff for his classes say, "What happened and why did Vera leave the room?" he asks. So thats the redheads name its a beatifull name. He looks right at Sara and asks in an angrey voice, "What did you do Sara? What did you do?" he looks in the direction of the door and I can tell he wants to go look for her, so I'm geussing he is the friend Vera was talking about.
Sara says, "Nothing besides telling her that her outfit is the ugliest thing ever." Sara makes a face so it can go with her lie.
The girl in Sara's group with the light brown hair says, "No I actully love her outfit. She takes old clothse that has rips, tears, or even stains in them look fashionable. I wish my clothse were like that or at least go somewere were I can buy clothse like her's but I have not found any stores with clothse like her's." She says in a dreamy and sad tone. Then she asks, "Hey Sara were does she buy her clothse?"
Sara looks at the girl like she is stupid and says, "She gets the clothse I don't want to wear anymore or there stained and I don't care for them or the there to ugly and I only bought so the other person that wanted to buy it couldn't. Since she is not my size she finds whatever she can and uses it to stitch it together or something. And how can you say you love her clothse when are clothse are better than her's?"
"I so know that is not what happened in here. Don't see how anyone can trust you, you lie about everything." Then looking at no one inparticular he asks, "Why did Vera leave?" No one trys to answer. I get ready to tell him, but then Sara opens her mouth and starts spurting out another lie.
"Oh she was jealous cause I got to Harry first. I think she's like in love with Harry or something because she tryed to slap me."Says Sara.
"That is not at all what happened. Do you always lie when ever the subject of your sister comes up. And what the hell are you talking about when you said you got to me first? If your talking about me being yours I don't think so, cause I am so not yours." I say to Sara.
"Hey Harry please tell me what happened I need to know so I can go find her?" Asks Vera's friend.
"Awww look everybody Gay Jimmy is looking for Miss Nobody." Says Sara and everyone laughs. I don't laugh I can see how concerned he is for Vera.
"So what if I'm gay at least I don't denie it. And I like girls to so I'm biosectule not just gay. And for your information Vera is not a nobody. She doesn't have many friends, but at least she doesn't try to hide the marks, like the bruises, scraps, or burns that both your parents give her or get a nose job just cause her nose got brocken. Every time you get a bruise from gym you have to hide it with make up or if you got so hurt you had to get stiches once those stiches came out you went and got plastic surgery or with a brocken nose you got a nose job because you said that you nose is now to ugly. Vera has more scares than you have and you don't see her getting plastic surgery to have smooth skin instead of scared or get plastic surgery on her breasts to make them bigger. Now do you? 
She's had a brocken nose and it still looks perfect, she's had to have stiches a couple of times because of her family that your apart of. She doesn't look at her scares in disgust she thinks they look cool and when the scars start to fade she doesn't like it when they do cause then she has nothing she can trace or draw a cool design around. She has a better fashion since than you do. She has strait A's in all her classes and she doesn't make someone else do her homework like you and your jackass brother Daren. She used to think about what people would think about her when they saw her, she would used to tell me about how we would both find somebody to get us out of the hell hole of a family I have and she has. I'm like a brother to her and she's like a sister to me and now she's different.
We used to tell each other what happened at home and relive it to tell each other like a real brother and sister would. She doesn't even do that anymore, all she tells me is what her punishment was or just says every day the pain hurts less and less each day and that the numbness in her is spreading each day as well. Then she gets picked on here at school we both do and yet not one damb person has done anything about it. The cops don't beleive us, the teachers don't pay attenchen, and the princibal doesn't care. Now she always does dangerous things to give herself a rush that makes herself feel free. She's brocken on the inside, your family brock her now she can barley feel anything." Says Jimmy in a sad and angery voice and then turns around and walks out of the room, I assume, to find Vera.
 "She's not numb Gay Jimmy! She was in a lot of pain when I slapped her!" Hallers Sara then under her breath I hear her say, "She shouldn't even be alive." and her two clonies giggle and she smirks.
 Who would say that about there own flesh and blood? It's just wrong, I would never ever think about behaving this way around my sister Gemma. With laughter all around me, hoping everyone was to distracted with there ideotic laughter, I saw a break in the crowd and took it, following the kid named Jimmy, to try to find Vera.

 

 

Chapter Three

Vera

 As soon as I'm outside I start running around the school to the back were the woods call to me. I know it seems a little strange or maybe to some people a lot strange to have woods in the back of the school, but to me its freedom. I run the half mile to my little hide out place, tree roots trying to trip me and some branches slapping at me, but I don't care. Just more sores to add to everything else that aches. As I'm running I let the pleasure of the air breezing torrwards me and the burn of each breath that I take seep in and feel a burst of energy and pick up my speed.

As I get closer to my destination I see my favorit tree and (if it seems possible) pick up my speed. As I stop by a maple tree to catch my breath, I reach into the grove that there and pull out a backpack and grab one of the bottles of water I keep in it. I drink about half the water in the bottle before I put it back in the bag and then pull the bag onto my shoulders before I walk the few steps that it takes me, over to the white oak tree. As soon as I get to the tree I start to climb it, until I get to the middle, where it almost seems like a small closet. As soon as I sit down I lean back until the upper part of my body is hangging off the tree, to were I'm upside down looking down at the ground.

Waiting for Jimmy Jim to show, since he always comes to see how I'm doing every time I come here, which he seems to always know when I come here, I start singing a song randomly as I stare at the sky.

He was a boy

She was a girl

Can I make it anymore obvious?

He was a punk.

She did ballet.

What more can I say?

He wanted her.

She'd never tell.

Secretly she wanted him as well.

And all of her friends Stuck up their nose.

And they had a problem with his baggy clothes.

He was a skater boy,

she said, "See ya later, boy."

He wasn't good enough for her.

She had a pretty face but her head was up in space.

She needed to come back down to earth.

Five years from now, she sits at home feeding the baby, she's all alone.

She turns on TV and guess who she sees? 

Skater boy rockin' up MTV.

She calls up her friends.

They already know.

And they've all got tickets to see his show.

She tags along, stands in the crowd.

All of a sudden I start hearing branches breaking and... the sound of something crashing to the ground, and people complaining, so I look down.

 

Harry

Making sure no one seen me walk out of the room, I jog after Jimmy. As soon as I'm a few feet away from him he truns around and snaps, "I don't really have time, I'm going to go see my friend Vera, so what do you want?"

Stoping myself, before I collide into him(with him turning around all of a sudden it through me off) before I say, "Just going to ask if you were okay. And see if you knew were Vera was, to see if she was alright. Didn't meen to freak you out mate."

I wait as he is complatating if he should tell me. As I wait I look at the builinton board that is on the right side of me and see a poster about a talent show coming up and smile. Guess we'll find are singer at the talent show.

"Yes I know were Vera is." Says Jimmy startiling me from my thoughts. "If you come with me to see here you can't tell anyone where she always goes when she runs out of the school building. I don't no you, but you seem like a nice guy, so I'll give you a chance for now. Friends?" He asks as he straches his left hand out to me.

I shake it and say,"Friends." Then all of a sudden I here screaming and lots of running feet, which makes me think of movies I've watched were there is a stampied. I turn around and see Zayne, Liam, Louis, and Niall all running torrwards me as fast as they can with a crowed of people following.

As soon as my brothers get within hear shot Jimmy says, "Follow me. If we run fast enough we can get rid of them. Jimmy turns around and starts running for the door, I follow suit, and hear Liam and the others following behind. As soon as we get outside Jimmy turns left and we all follow as we run to the back of the school and torward the woods behind and hear the fading of our bursurers as we run into the woods.

***

Jimmy keeps running as soon as were past some trees and we follow for a couple of minutes until Louis says, " I'm sorry mates, but I can't run anymore. I need to rest or I might pass out." Then dramaticly he drops to the ground and acts like he fainted, the only clue giving him away is the smile on his face. "See I fainted." He says as he sits up. As Zayne, Liam, Niall, Louis, and I start to giggle I start to hear some sing. My laughter cuts off aburtly to try to listen. "Whats wrong mate?" Asks Louis as he and everyone else stops there laughter to see whats wrong.

"Listen" is all I say and then everythings quit. Then softley the singing starts again. I can't really hear what the person is singing, I guess that is because I'm still to far away to hear.

I hear Jimmy chuckle silently and mumer, "She still has it." and then smile warmly.

I turn to him asking, "You know who's singing?" When I see him hesitate a moment and then nod I ask, "Who?"

"The person you hear singing is Vera. If someone overhears her singing and then asks if it was her she'll say no. She never admittes to anyone that it's her singing because she doesn't think shes that good. She doesn't even admit to me that shes singing." his warm smile turns bigger and I can see the affection he has for Vera in his eyes as he listens. "Lets get walk somemore. Then we can here the lyrics. Come on." Then he walks off into the direction in which the singing is coming from, which is strait ahead.

*I'll try to write more when I can"

 

 

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