Chapter 1

Chapter 1  So,My name is Hope, Ironic because I've never had much hope.

Well,I'm Hope, A typical teenage girl with a broken household. My dad has always been an abusive drunk that never really cared what I did , My mom left himabout three years ago,mainly to go out and do drugs.  So I'm just a 17 year old girl,with straight A's and B's on her report card, Titled the geek in this awful society.
I'm not really a geek, Just pay attention in class to avoid these girls that brag about their new thongs and padded push ups. Everyone treats me differently, Even without knowing the things I can do.
That's why sometimes I allow them to just treat me like total shit, Because it's destinys punishment for allowing me to do such things. The only one that doesn't treat me differently, is a new kid here,I was surprised,because we haven't gotten a new kid here since I was in fourth grade.
His name is Chase,He has that dark brown hair that falls perfectly in place,Those beautiful turquiose eyes,That perfect sharp shape he has to him. He truly stuns me whenever I look into those big turquiose eyes. I feel like I know him from somewhere though, I feel so connected to him,So worthy,but every single time I hear his name my whole body shivers with excitement of seeing him again. He's only been here since school started,It's already snowing even though it's October,That's what I get for living in Minnesota. I have gym class with him, Fourth period. He's never really talked to me,but he's never insulted me,or thought anything bad about me,Well not that I could tell. I have one best friend
in school, her name is Violet, She has long black silky hair,Big dark moss green eyes,Her hair always curls perfectly,She's usually in lunch detention, So I often sit alone at lunch. Until today.  Hey guys! Hope you liked it so far! It's my first story I've actually shared.

Really,Don't pay attention to my other two books,I wrote them when I was like,Eleven. 
I have a Wattpad. Same username,Also same story. I'm thinking about putting more up on there.

Chapter Two: Lunch

Chase.
   Chase sat right across from me slamming his school meatloaf on the table,I swear it looked like it could grow legs and walk away,I couldn't believe Chase sat right across from me,Staring into his big blue-green eyes just sent tingles down my spine. "H-hello, My name is Hope." He smiles and plays around with his meatloaf.

" I know who you are" He has a weird,but attractive look on his face. "I'm Chase,I figured I'd come sit at your table,because your little friend has detention again and I haven't fully introduced myself."

I start running my fingers through my hair wishing he'd move a few spaces closer to me,I start to get lost into my thoughts until he drops his fork on his plate and pushes his tray away. "I swear this food cannot be edible,I could barely break it apart, this lunch is shit. Wanna go grab something?" I look behind me to see if he was talking to me or not and I look up at the clock, a good five minutes before next period.

"Well we don't have much time,Maybe tomorrow?" I say as I realize how my voice cracked and now I feel the whole spotlight is on me. "Scared to miss 4th period? It's only gym,C'mon we can go grab some subway or something." As he shoots me an intriguing look. "My dad would kill me if I've ever skipped class." I lie,I know my dad wouldn't care,He doesn't have to know though.
"Ah,Alright I give up. Do you have a cellphone,Miss Hope?" I nod, "Yeah,but I ran out of minutes,So I have to wait two more weeks unti I can text or call." He starts laughing "Alright,I'll get out of your hair,See you in gym."  He walked away with so much confidence,I was surprised of what just happened.
Trying to wipe the confusion off my face, I walk to next period feeling like I'm not even there, Like a light headed zombie,I keep hazing off into my own thoughts,I needed to wake up and actually socialize,or even pay attention for that matter. Lunch was all I could think about.
Finally it's 8th period, I never seen Chase show up in 4th. He probably conjured up some other,better looking girl to skip class with him,like all the other guys do. I wonder if he is like the rest of the guys. I don't think he's like the rest,bu- as the bell cuts my whole thinking process off, Finally time to leave.  As I walk down the hall to my locker,I grab my phone,books and the rest of my homework. I walk into the school parking lot as Chase looks like he's looking for someone and the strap on my bag slides off my shoulder, I swoop my hand back into it and I start getting frustrated with it,So I pull out my phone to text Violet to see if she wants to go to the mall later,Until Chase notices me and starts approaching, With a huge grin on his face,"Hey Hope,Seems you magically got minutes on your phone?"
I give off a nervous laugh,"Yeah I guess I did." He gets abit closer "What do you have planned for the rest of the day?" I try to glance the other way to break the awkward silence between us "The mall with Violet." Chase looks down and stares at my feet "Well she won't be able to reply,I heard she was supposed to attend 4 O'clock detention,So if you don't mind we can go do something?" I felt nervous and my palms felt sweaty "C'mon Hope,Don't make up some lame excuse again,try to get to know me."
He smiles. I bite my lip and fix my bag that doesn't really need to be fixed,"Sure,Where to?

Chapter Three:Was It A Date?

   We sat in the car for awhile.                     So, I sit in the car for a few minutes and stare out the window wondering,Where he's taking me,until he spoke up. "So have you ever been ice skating?" He glanced over and grinned at me. "I used to roller blade as a child,Never went ice skating,Why?" Chase looked over by the radio and turned it up a little "No reason" As he smiled that looked extremely attractive,I look at how his hair perfectly fits his face,and the way his shirt fits perfectly,I guess I got abit distracted because it startled me when he asked "Checking me out, huh?" With a huge smile across his face.
I didn't look at him that long,did I? I clear my throat "Oh,no. Just looking at your shirt,It's ...Uh, My favorite color." I glance back over noticing it's a light blue color which happened to be my favorite color,Just cheesy that I said that's why I was staring for so long. Ugh,Excuses.
I need to make this less awkward. "So,Chase.. Why did you talk to me today? No one usually does. Except Violet of course." I felt a small burning sensation in my cheeks,Was I blushing?  Chase looks over at me as I try to hide my face, "Well  you looked like you needed someone to talk to,plus I'm not one of those jerks that usually leaves a pretty girl alone,just because they want to get laid or something,I'm really interested in being your friend,Hope." I feel the temperature in my cheeks rise, oh god. Please don't notice that I'm blushing,That's the last thing I need.
He finally pulls over to some cafe shop,I wouldn't mind a warm drink,According to me feeling like a frozen popsicle due to me just wearing a thin pink sweatshirt. He un-buckled his seat belt. "Hold on,okay?" I nod as he gets out quickly and opens my door for me, No guy has ever done that for me. "Ladies first" He smiled. Why was he being so nice? There's other girls,better girls he could've chosen to take out,but no he chose me. "Something up with the moon today? " I muttered to myself.

  He looked at me as I saw his eyes wander around my expression. "So,Uh want something to drink?"
Him still having his eyes on me,I shrug a little and seem to find myself staring back. "Y-Yeah It's cold out here." I noticed I stuttered and got a little nervous wondering if he noticed.  We walk into the small little cafe,It's so cute. Brick red walls,Small little black chairs and thin looking round black tables and a few booths. "So table or booth?" He smiled at me as he got closer,So close I felt his breath beside me. "Uh,Booth." I smiled back. He asked the waitress for her to escort us to a booth and I guess he came here often,She asked if he wanted his usual and he glanced over at me and nodded,"Anything you want,Dear?" The waitress asked,I felt so weird. "Uh,just a hot chocolate would be alright for now,Thanks. She glanced at Chase smiling at him and he nodded so she walked away. 
Chase put his hands on the table as he starts tapping his fingers to a song that sounded familiar, I didn't question it though. "So,Hope what do you like to do? As in,like hobbies." 
"Oh,I like to Read,Write.. I like to roller blade,Stuff like that. And you?" He puts his hand on the back of his neck rubbing between the back of his head and the upper part of his neck,I look over and actually saw how muscular he was, I bit my lip and he leaned forward. "Well,I like to draw a lot.. I play bass,Is listening to music a hobby?" I giggle and run my hand through my hair, I usually do that when I'm nervous.
"Well, I guss so. If it is a hobby, It must be another one of mine." We make eye to eye contact and our hands get closer and I bite my lip,We had some type of moment,but as soon as his hand touched mine I felt like there was fireworks bursting inside my stomach,until the waitress came over with our drinks and we both quickly pulled away. "Sorry.. " I glance down,He thanks the waitress and touched my hand again,"Hey,I didn't seem to mind did I?"  I start blushing again and this time he notices,and starts laughing. "Seems you get embarrassed easily?" He glared at me,Looked away and as I sip on my hot chocolate,I keep asking myself,Why can't I tell if he likes me or not? Usually guys make it totally obvious if they do or don't like someone. Him and I talked for abit longer,He talked about how he lost complete contact with his parents when he was 8,His uncle took him in,And he was never gaven an explination of what happened to them,Or better yet. If they were dead or not.We talk abit longer then he paid and we got back to the car. "So,Hope anything fun you can think of that we can do in this small town?" I glance over and see a bunch of CD's on the side of the door of his car.
"Well,We could just sit here and listen to whatever these are." I reach over and grab the CD cases and see what the titles are. I read some of the titles and I saw We The Kings,Bring Me The Horizon,Skillet and some different genres,Some bands I didn't recognize and some I did. I popped in the CD of We The Kings, All of a sudden the song "Say You Like Me" Came on and I knew all of the words so I softly sung a long as he started the car and drove around a little bit and the whole time the song was on,I looked out the window and started thinking of Chase. Speaking of,He was singing along too. I glanced over and smiled at him brightly. He checks the time and it's already six thirty! "Hey,since it's getting late,Did you want to go for dinner? Or drop you off home?"  "Well,My dad probably hasn't aten yet, I'm not too hungry,So maybe we can hang out tomorrow?" 

He smiled "Yeah,I'd like that." He drove over to my house while we were singing along to a few songs on his mix CD and he got out and opened the door for me again. I so won't be able to get used to this. I get out of the car and he smiles at me "Hope you had a good time,Hope." I smile back "Well,I did. I haven't had too much of a good time with a guy before" Uh, Did I just say that?  I closed the car door behind me and he stood close to me that I was almost touching the car. I see his phone inside the car on his seat,Open the door back up and climbs in to grab it.
"Hey, I didn't think you'd be wanting to spend more time with me tonight" He grins. Luckily his homescreen was already up and I close the car door back up and type my number in.
"Here,You asked for it earlier and I looked like a fool not giving it to you." He laughs "You didn't have to give me your number,but hey, I'm not complaining." He shoots me a smile. "I'll call you later Hope.I head inside and my dad was already asleep,So I went up to my room,Grabbed some pajamas and walked to the shower, I took a long hot shower,by the time I got out it's already 8 O'clock.
I spent a whole hour and a half in there? Jeez. I get dressed and run my hands through my light brown carmel looking hair that goes abit past my elbows. I start to think about a hair cut. I lay on my bed and start reading,until I got lost in my book and started hearing my phone ring,I checked the time and it was about ten O'clock.
I answer, not recognizing the number,"Hello?" I hear Chase's sexy voice answer back quickly "Hey,beautiful. I called to say goodnight and I'll see you tomorrow alright?" My throat suddenly felt dry,my palms got all sweaty, I had to say something. "Goodnight Chase." He hung up,Thank god. I didnt know what else I'd say. I lay down on my back and set my phone down,All I could think about,Was Chase. Why do I feel so good around him?
It was just one date... Wait,Was it a date?

Chapter Four: Was Rain My Goodluck?

   So I woke up late for school today, I litterally jumped out of bed,It was Seven Fifty Five. Hope,How did you allow yourself to sleep so late?  I usually ask myself questions when I get nervous,Or pissed off. I quickly threw my long carmel-brown hair into a messy bun,I applied abit of black eyeliner on the lower part of my eye,and started batting my eyes,Seeing if I looked okay,I sometimes hated how I looked with makeup,because when I wore any,You could notice my chocolate brown eyes. I never liked them.
They weren't as beautiful as Chase's eyes. Am I seriously thinking about him again? I snapped out of it when, I heard my phone rang, The name was Louis. He's my best friend of all time. I hear the awkward ringtone ring as I stand there for a second opening my closet. "Hello?" I answer slowly. "Hey,Hope! Where the hell are you?"  I wish I could just stay home today,ugh. "I'm running late today,I probably won't get to school until Eight fifteen,Mainly because I don't have a damn car." He starts to chuckle obnoxiously. "Louis! It's not funny!" 

I grab a pair of grey yoga pants and change into them from my weird banana pants. "Hope,I'll be right over,I'll drive you,okay?" Thank God. It looks cloudy out so i'm pretty relieved he's coming to pick me up. "Thanks Louis,I'll see you in a few" A huge smile came upon my face, I loved Louis,Just as a best friend. He used to stay over last year when my dad started staying out late,He used to come comfort me and stuff,He used to sleep on the couch,or the end of my bed
He felt like a family member that I barely had. I throw my hoodie on and grab my flats,Then I looked at what I was wearing,My usual sweats,sweatshirt and flats,but Chase is at school,Should I change?  Then I hear someone running up stairs,As I go to change my pants, Louis walks in.  "Jesus Louis!"  "Oh my god,Hope! I didn't know you were this slow at getting changed!" He turns around,but closes the door. 

"It's not like I haven't seen you in something like your underwear,We've been to the beach before,And I've helped you go underwear shopping." He slowly turns to glance at me after I pull my skinny jeans all the way up,I notice he's grinning. "Hope,Just pretend i'm your gay bestie" He smiled at me truthfully. "Haha! I knew you'd slowly come out of the closet"  He wasn't gay,Just acted like it sometimes,It was like he was a bestfriend that was a girl,helped me pick out clothes,he had a cute soft spot,A feminine side. I giggled," Alright,I'm ready."

I glanced at him as he picked up my laptop and started to read a few of my messages. "Hey! Mr. Nosey,You're here to take me to school! Not invade my privacy."  He surrenders and shuts my laptop,"Sorry,So I missed one day of school yesterday and you and that Chase guy went on a date?"  I haven't even told Violet, How'd he figure this out?

I feel heat on my cheeks appear "Louis,It wasn't a date,How'd you find out anyway?"  He grins and glances at me "Turns out Chase got abit selfish this morning,Figured he'd tell most of the students." I move past him hiding my pink cheeks and head downstairs. It wasn't a date.... It wasn't.
I mean,not like I've ever really been on one...  "So,Did you finish your history report?" I open the door and glance at Louis waiting for an answer. "Nice change of subject,I'm getting details later." He winks at me and jumps in the drivers seat.
We sit in silence for awhile until we pull up to school,We took longer than usual at my house,So now it's Eight thirty. Great,Detention.  "Sorry Louis,Didn't mean to make you late... " He chuckles. "See you in detenion,Hope."  We walk in and grab late passes and he hands me a pair of headphones,"You'll need these in detention." He smiles. I head to my next class,not looking forward to Spanish. 

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So,After dreading those first four periods, I don't bother grabbing any un-edible lunch food,So I sit down and pull my phone out and notice I have a text. Chase: Hey! Lunch? He wants to have lunch with me? I thought he would find me boring after yesterday. It brought a huge smile on my face.  Me: Sure,Where are you? I look around for him,Don't see him.
I casually get up and feel my phone buzz,Almost instantly.
Chase: Step out of the lunch room. ;P
So I feel stupid when I walk out of the lunch room,Searching for him,Until I feel someone behind me. I turn around to see his hair messy,Seems like he just rolled out of bed,Wearing a long sleeved dim red shirt that suited him well, With a pair of worn jeans and grey flats.
It looked extremely sexy,I swear I had no idea why he even wanted to talk to me,He looked... So adorable. "Hey,Hope." I see his eyes wander down from my eyes to my shoes,I knew I should've worn something,That gave less of a 'I don't care' Look. 
We head down the hall and out to the parking lot. He opens the door to his car and I climb in, I saw a few raindrops hit the window as he climbed in the drivers side. "Where we headed to,Hope?"I shrug and look up and make eye contact for a few seconds,until I feel as I'm making things too awkward so I look away.
"How about Mcdonalds or something?" I blurt out. He laughs, "Hope, You're way to good just to spend a dollar or two on for some food that could easily be mistaken for schools lunch."
  I blush and start playing with my phone as he turns the car on, "Surprise me."  He looked so intrigued. He sped out of the parking lot and drove for a good twenty minutes. I was hoping we wouldn't miss next class. "So,Where are we heading?"  "Do you like Italian food?" "It's good,Yeah,Why?"   He smiled just like a boy on Christmas. "Good." He pulls over into some fancy resturant.  "This looks expensive... " He throws his head back and laughs. "It's meant to be." He hurries out of the car to open my door. "Sorry it's a long walk from the huge parking lot to the resturant."
 I shrug it off, "I'm mainly worried about you making me skip fourth period." 

Chase closes my door as I get out "Hey,I didn't make you do anything, Lil Miss Goody Goody."
I blush as I walk to the resturant. We get inside and sit down,He orders some fancy dish I never recognized the name of and I just ordered a regular spaghetti and meatballs. He takes me to a fancy resturant and that's all I get? Wow,Good one Hope.  We talked during lunch,Talked a lot. About how he lives with his uncle and younger cousin,How I live with my dad,We didn't get too personal.
Then he grabbed something out of his jacket, My journal.  I write stories and poems in there,A lot. I wrote quite a few personal things in there too.  "Oh my god! Where'd you get that?!" I blurted out without even thinking. "Hey! Calm down. It fell out of your bag when you grabbed my phone out of my car yesterday."  I try to collect myself without freaking out.
"Y-You didn't,Read anything in there did you?"  "I won't lie to you,Hope. I read a few pages from the front of the book ,just to see if it was like, A school journal or something,I stopped reading when it got abit personal. By the way, You're an amazing writer." He smiles at me as he hands me back my journal. "Should we get going?" I glance at my phone and notice the time flew by,From eleven thirty all the way to two twenty! "Oh my god! We've been gone for so long!"  He smirks at me.Well I guess that's what happens when I find myself so interested with someone.  I start blushing and we grab our stuff and head out. It's pouring so we try to rush to the car. 
We finally get to the car and I attempt to grab the handle when I feel his hand brush against mine as I turn around I see Chase,Trying to open the door for me.
Instead of him opening the door we share a moment as I turn around I feel his hands grab my waist and I lean on the side of the car. I put my hand on the side of his cheek and he leans in and goes to kiss me, Until we hear a car horn beeping at us, Asking for directions. Chase quickly moved away from me and heads to the car to help the fellow driver. 
Chase and I,Almost just kissed.... What was I thinking.... Chase got back in the car,It was silent until we got closer to my house. He smiled at me. "I'm sorry..." I looked over abit confused. "What for?" "For pretty much... I don't know." His face started getting a little red. "If this is about the journal thing,It's fine."
"Well,That and.. The whole thing outside the car.." 
"I didn't seem to mind did I? It's alright" I heard my voice crack and glanced over at him smiling.  I blushed and glanced down into my bag to grab my phone,It's almost Three thirty now,I have four messages from Louis.  Louis: Hope,Where are you?  Louis: Uh,It's seventh period, no sign of you? Louis: Hope? When do you ever set your phone down? Louis: I'm stopping by your house around four,Okay?  I started laughing. He's more protective than my own father! It's abit sad to be honest. Chase looked over at me "What's so funny?" He grins. "Oh,Just Louis. Seems abit more protective over me more than others."
  Chase pulls over to my house and opens my door, My eyes wander from his eyes to his lips. I gently bite my lip and I try to snap out of it. I quickly grab my bag and get out.
"Thanks Chase I had a good time." 
He leans closer to me shutting the door as he's so close I feel his breath on my lips. "I'm glad you did,Maybe we can do something abit more fun some other time,Maybe go to like,Some water park.

I giggle and push a few streaks of hair that fell out of my messy bun behind my ear. "Why so you can see me in a bathing suit? I don't think so." I sitck my tongue out at him,I see his eyes searching my face and he brushes whatever loops i have on the top of my forehead down and kisses the temple of my head sending little power surges through me,I wanted to know how to feel to just kiss his attractive lips,but I saw Louis's car driving down the road and I stepped away to my house,As I hear Chase try to speak over the rain " I'll text you" With a big smile on his face,I open the door and drop my bag down,Grabbing my phone and journal out and I hear Louis come in .
"What the hell,Hope? Where've you been!"  "Louis,Calm down,Alright? I went for lunch with Chase a few miles away."  "So,Hope where's my details I wanted?" He has an evil mischiveous look on his face. I smile and  I sat down and told him everything. My dad would be home soon so after I explained everything he left abit after,My dad didn't really have a great liking to him,No one knows why.
I walk upstairs into my room as I hear it thundering and raining harder.

I love writing when it's raining,So I open my journal and I saw a note fall out.  Hope,You're truly an amazing writer,You're just.. Amazing,My uncle has always told me, Chase Hope whenever you feel broken. I feel alive when I'm with you.  Sincerely,The obvious Admirer.

Hey guys! Hope you enjoyed so far.(: I usually don't do much on the weekends,So I'll have more posted soon.

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A Girl who thought she lost hope. Until she fell head over heels over an irresistable guy.