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TRAVIS
I thought it was true love, but i was wrong again. it turned out to be a mistake. the biggest mistake i could ever make. this guy never loved me. he was in love with my sister Clarissa and my best friend LEXI. he turned out to be an asshole. he treated me like shit. he did things i didn't want him to do. this is the story about my relationship with Travis.
the first time we kissed. this toke place on April 26,2011.
OK so after school Travis came down so we could hang out. we sat on the bus together. we held hands. Marcus was recording everybody on the bus. when he looked at us and said,''there's Travis and Marissa still together like always.''at that time Travis he'd up our hands. i hide my face on Travis’s shoulder. when we got of the bus he had to wait at the baseball field. it toke me about 30 minutes to go back to the field,because i had to eat and i had to change.
when i finally got to the field i was poking Travis and he said,''if you don't stop poking me then I’m going to hug you.''so i kept poking him. he ended up hugging me. so we decided to go to my NANA OFIES house. when we were on our way to her house she was living. so we just went up there anyway. when we were walking up there i was walking in front of everybody. when my sister said,''wait for Travis.''so i waited for him. when we got there we were listening to three days grace. we were all singing the songs. it was so funny. when we went back to the field i was laying on the bleachers by myself. when Travis came up to me and said,''whats wrong?''i sat up and said,''nothing.''he said,''OK.''i said,''ya.''
so about 4 seconds latter he said,''do you know how many chances I’ve had to kiss you?''i said,''no. how much?''he said,''about 5 chances.''i said,''oh.''about 3 seconds latte he had his arm around me. then we leaned in and kissed three times. it was amazing. like fireworks. so about 4 seconds latter we kissed 3 more times. then i said,''lets go back over here.''so i got up and we started walking towards where my sister and Daniel were at. when we got over there my sister and Daniel said,''did you guys do it?''i said,''ya.''so we decided to go somewhere else. when we got to where we were going i sat on a wall and Travis stood in front on me. he put his arms on the wall next to me and he leand in so we could kiss.when we were kissing,we heard a laughthats when we figured out that my sister and daniel were spying on us.it was funny because my sister said,''daniel.you blow our cover.after that they said,''sorry,''and went back on thee other side of the wall.thats when travis said,''do you wanna go somewhere we can be alone?"i said,''umm where?we can go to spy point.''travis said,''ok.lets go.''so i jumped of the wall and we started walking.we walked through the baseball field.when we were walking he ended up putting his arm around me.when we got to spy point we sat down and he put his arm around my waist.we ended up kissing.thats when we heard my sister and daniel say,''where did they go?''it was funny because the were looking right at us.after me and travis kissed about 4 more times.i yelled,''sis,daniel!''so they came up to spy point.when they got up there they said,''when did you guys come up here?''travis said,''we just came up here.''so they ended up leaving us alone.so when the left me and travis kissed about 2 times.thats when my mom yelled,''girls!!,''from our house.i yelled,''sis!''she said,''what?''i said,''we got to go.''so me and travis got up and started walking.when i was about to leave my sister said,''don't forget the goodbye kiss.''so i sat down on the bleachers and travis kissed me.it felt so good.when i got home i couldnt stop smiling.it was the best day ever.
ok so when travis started dating my sister this is the email i sent him what do i do? i can't stand not being with you. over the weekend i realized that i love you,i want you & I NEED YOU. i swear that I’ll never ever cheat on you again. i just need you to promise me that when we're old enough to get married we'll do it(if we're together by then)k. please give us another chance. i need you more then anything. i love you. so email me back and let me know when you figure out everything k.
hey read these lyrics
the songs called
BACK TO DECEMBER
I'm so glad you made time to see me.
How's life? Tell me how's your family.
I haven't seen them in a while.
You've been good, busier than ever,
We small talk, work and the weather,
Your guard is up and I know why.
Because the last time you saw me
Is still burned in the back of your mind.
You gave me roses and I left them there to die.
So this is me swallowing my pride,
Standing in front of you saying, "I'm sorry for that night,"
And I go back to December all the time.
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you.
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine.
I'd go back to December, turn around and make it all right.
I go back to December all the time.
These days I haven't been sleeping,
Staying up, playing back myself leavin'.
When your birthday passed and I didn't call.
And I think about summer, all the beautiful times,
I watched you laughing from the passenger side.
Realized that I loved you in the fall.
And then the cold came, the dark days when fear crept into my mind
You gave me all your love and all I gave you was "Goodbye".
So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you saying, "I'm sorry for that night."
And I go back to December all the time.
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you,
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine.
I'd go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time.
I miss your tanned skin, your sweet smile,
So good to me, so right
And how you held me in your arms that September night --
The first time you ever saw me cry.
Maybe this is wishful thinking,
Probably mindless dreaming,
But if we loved again, I swear I'd love you right.
I'd go back in time and change it but I can't.
So if the chain is on your door I understand.
But this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you saying, "I'm sorry for that night."
And I go back to December...
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you,
Wishing I'd realize what I had when you were mine.
I'd go back to December, turn around and make it all right.
I'd go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time.
All the time.
i wish i could go back to December in 2011.the first time we dated. the first time i asked you out. the first time i fell in love with you. i miss you please go back out with me. i cant live without you. you mean so much to me please Travis go back out with me. please please go back out with me.
hey UMM can i talk to you at lunch?email me your answer before 4th hour k. i need to talk to you its important k. email me you answer if i can talk to you k.
he never emailed me back though. he read the email when he started dating my sister.
OK so on October 26,2012 we kissed after i just got out of a break up. we were standing by each other and he had his arm around me. so when my bus came he was AGENST the wall and we kissed for about 4 minutes. it was amazing. i remember who i just broke up with, it was bobby. he had just walled by when we were kissing. he looked pissed. so that's how i figured out that he still loved me.
so the next day we got back together. this toke place on October 27,2011.
Travis kept his arms around my waist the after school. it felt kinda weird because i was standing in front of him. i was leaning on him,so you know what i mean when i say it felt kinda weird. i don't mind though because i LOVE him. i know that i said,''i LOVE Chris,Bobby,and T.J too,but i figured out that i don’t really love them or i don’t really wanna be with them. i know for a fact that its different with Travis he actually LOVES me back. so i know who I’m going to be with and that person is Travis.
OK so i got suspended and tomorrow is my last day. this toke place on November 1,2011.
OK so today i when i was in SAFFORD,at the hospital i finally got to see the greeting card that Travis sent me. its so so cute. its a rose that changes and it say i love you. it plays music in the back ground. so i emailed him saying,''plug you freak-en phone in. I’m going to call you at 6:00.we really really need to talk.''latter when we were on the phone we were talking about whats gonna go-on on Thursday. out of now where he asked,''will you go steady with me?''i gave my sister the phone and she said,''she gave me the phone because she's thinking.''i said,''are you for real or are you just fucking around?'' Travis said,''I’m for real.''i said,''I’m not going to answer because the last time i answered you were a no show. he said,''Thursday.''i said,''Thursday what?''he said,''Thursday, that’s when.''i said,''your confusing me.''he said,'' Thursday. to go steady.''i said,''i don't know.''he said,''why?''i said,''I’m scared.''he said,''what did i do to make you scared?''i said,''nothing. it just reminds me of my second boy friend.''he said,''I’m not the past I’m the present.''i said,''OK. do you remember this summer?when you were at camp,and we were TEXING. you asked me how far I’d let you get.''he said,''ya i remember.''i said,''OK then you know that i won't let you get past second base.''he asked,''whats second base?''i said,''really really.''he said,''I’m going to look it up.''i didn't say anything. he said,''second base is touching.''all in could do was laugh.
he said,''you laughed.'' i said,''yes i did.''then he asked,''do you wanna know what all the bases are?''i said, ''name them.''he said,''first base is making out(already did that),second base is touching,third base is more touching,and fourth base is home run(hooking up).''i said,''that’s awkward.''he said,''i can't wait till Thursday.''i asked,''why?whats suppose to happen?''he said,''I’m gonna get to be alone with you.''then he said,''Thursday I’m not gonna be in the MPR or on the patio. I’m gonna be were we go for lunch. I’m gonna do something that’s probably gonna get me bitch slapped.''i asked,''what are you gonna do?''he said,''I’m not gonna tell you because you won't be surprised. i don't know if I’m going to be able to wait.''
OK Travis picked me up. this toke place on November 2,2011.
oh my god today at lunch Travis picked me up!!when he picked me up he scared the shit out of me. OK this is what happened:OK at lunch i was standing on the wall when he came up and put his arms around my legs,well around my knees. i didn't think he was gonna do anything. so when he picked me up i was fine,until he almost dropped me. when that happened i started to freak out. i started yelling,''PUT ME DOWN!!''i think he tried to put me down,but then he lifted me up higher. so i freaked out even more. i started kicking my legs and swinging my arms.
then he finally put me down. when he put me down i punched him the chest about four to five times. after school i said,''if your going to pick me up,then tell me first. OK.''he said,''OK.''
TRAVIS(THE MISTAKE)
OK so we started planing our wedding. this toke place on November 30,2011.
OK so these are our wedding plans:
DEARLY BELOVED WE ARE GATHER TODAY TO JOIN
TRAVIS & MARISSA
IN HOLY MATROMONY
IF THERE IS ANYONE THAT THINKS THAT THESE TWO SHOULD NOT BE TOGETHER SPEEK NOW OR FOREVER HOLD YOUR PEACE.....................
BY THE POWER INVESTED IN ME I KNOW PERNOUNCE YOU HUSBAND AND WIFE YOU MAY KNOW KISS THE BRIDE
LIST OF WITNESSES
* CLARISSA
* TJ
* PETER
when: DECEMBER 7, 2011 AT LUNCH
where: BEHIND THE BUILDING
VOWLS = JUST LIST WHY WE THINK WE SHOULD BE TOGETHER
TRAVIS - OK I THINK WE SHOULD BE TOGETHER BECAUSE
MARISSA - IT ONLY TOKE ME 3 YEARS TO REALIZE THAT I LOVE HIM AND THAT I WANNA BE WITH HIM. IT TOKE ME THAT LONG TO REALIZE THAT WE'RE MENT TO BE. SOMETIMES I THINK THAT HE DOSEN'T REALLY LOVE ME,BUT THEN I REMEMBER WHAT WE'VE BEEN THROW , HOW I FEEL, AND HOW HE FEELS THATS WHEN I REALIZE THAT WE'RE MENT TO BE. THIS I JUST A LITTLE SAYING ABOUT ME & TRAVIS SOUL MATES MAY FIGHT OR BREAKUP BUT THEY ALWAYS ALWAYS END UP TOGETHER OR IN MY WORDS TOGETHER 4EVER (4EVER ''N'' ALWAYS).
IM SO LUCKY TO HAVE HIM BECAUSE MOST PEOPLE THINK OF HIM AS NOTHING , WORTHLESS , BUT WHAT THEY DON'T KNOW IS THAT HE'S MORE,HE'S REALLY CHESSE WHEN WE TALK ON THE PHONE , HE'S LOVEYDOBY, HE DOSEN'T TREAT ME THE WAY MOST GUY'S DO, HE MAKES ME FEEL IMPORTANT LIKE IM WORTH SOMETHING LIKE IM MORE THEN JUST A GIRL, BUT I NOW FOR A FACT THAT IM WAY WAY MORE THEN JUST A GIRL TO HIM, IN HIS WORDS IM EVERYTHING TO HIM ,IM HIS ''SOULMATE''. NO MATTER WHAT ANYONE SAY'S I KNOW AND HE KNOW'S THAT WE'RE MET TO BE, WE'RE SOULMATES. SO THATS WHY I THINK WE SHOULD BE TOGETHER. AND I'D BE SO PROUD TO CALL MYSELF HIS BRIDE.
HONEYMOON(MAYBE)
WHEN: DECENBER 9,2011
WHERE: tunnels
He never filled in his vowls.
OK so Travis and me broke up. he's dating my sister,and I’m dating his best friend Logan. this toke place on February 10,2012. OK so Travis started dating my sister when i cheated on him with his best friend Logan the following day.
so now Travis is dating my sister and I’m dating Logan. i don't know what i was thinking when i cheated on him with Logan. to be honest it was a freak-en mistake. well at first i didn't like Logan,but now i LOVE him. well i think i do.
OK so my sister and Travis broke up. this toke place on march 3,2012.
so my sister and Travis broke up yesterday. so yesterday when we were in life skills,we were all turning in our papers to Mrs. Yeoman in life skills. after i gave her mine,Travis was standing behind me so when i started to walk away from her desk me and Travis kinda held hands for about six seconds. i don't know what to do. i don't know who to pick. i don't know if i should stay with Logan or go back out with Travis. i like both of them,but i can only have one of them. its either i pick one or i don't date either one of them.
OK so at school we had a lock down..this toke place on march 9,2012.
OK so we were sitting on the desks,when me and Travis started holding hands. About 6 minutes latter Mrs. Prott said,''you guys need to sit down.''so we sat on the floor. Travis sat down and we started holding hands again. Travis asked,''when are you going to be mine again?''i said,''i don't know.''a little later I sat down right,and Travis put his arm around my waist. i let him,then we ended up holding hands. When I sat with my legs up,then Travis put his hand between my legs. Then he started moving his hand up and down. It felt so so good. Then I whispered,''stop.''Travis asked,''why?''i said,''because.''he kept moving his hand. i didn't tell him anything though. it felt really good. OK so about 8 minutes we started holding hands again. he started touching my boob. It was kinda weird,but I didn't mind. Then Travis asked,''do yo have a problem with me moving my hand up?''i said,''no,i don't mind.''he said,''OK.''so about 4 minutes latter I said,''you can move your hand up as much as you want.''all Travis did was smile. about 9 minutes latter he asked,''when am I going to be able to see whats behind this shirt?''i said,''i don’t know. when ever you want.''all Travis did was laugh. It was funny. Then Mrs. Pratt said,''we have to go to the foot ball field,''and turned on the lights. So Travis moved his hand. When we were walking to the field Travis was walking behind me,when he grabbed my ass. It was weird. I said,''don't touch my ass OK.'' he said,''not until Monday.''i said,''exactly.''he laughed. Latter when he pissed me off,i told Daniel what happened. Then I let Daniel tell everyone,including Logan. Logan walked back over to were Dustin was standing. When I went over there he looked like he was about to cry. I grabbed his hand and said,''come over here with me.''he said,''OK.'' so when we got back over there Casey said,''don't worry about it dude.''Logan didn't say anything. so when we finally sat down I was TEXING Chris. Chris found out what happen with Travis and he was pissed. Latter when Logan’s bus came I said,''bye.'' he said,''bye.'' so Travis is more likely going to die.
so me and Travis are suppose to hookup tomorrow. this toke place on march 11,2012.
OK so Monday me and Travis are suppose to hookup. he already has the condom and everything. I’m kinda scared,but i love him so it doesn't matter. i can't wait till Monday. i don't know how Mondays going to go,but i hope it ends good. so Monday after school,when my sister and Logan are in detention we're gonna hookup in the tunnels.
Travis is going to Clifton school. this toke place on march 12,2012.
OK so Travis is going to Clifton school. Dylan keeps telling me to go too,but i don't think i want to. i really like it up hear,but i really like Clifton, too. i really wanna see Dylan,but I’m dating Logan. so this little thing between me and Dylan is over. I’m staying in MORENCI school,and I’m staying with Logan.
change in plans Travis is staying in MORENCI school. this toke place on march 13,2012.
so change in plans Travis isn't going to Clifton school. he's staying in MORENCI,and Dylan is coming back in one year. it sucks because I’m gonna have to see him. it sucks,but I’m not gonna let him get in the middle of me and Logan.
these are our emails from last year and this year:
these are some of our notes we've past this year and last year:
I SAID-your mean
TRAVIS SAID-how?
I SAID-because you are
TRAVIS SAID- but I love you
I SAID- I love you too.
TRAVIS SAID- your everything to me
I SAID- aw how cute
TRAVIS SAID- tomorrow can it just be us?
I SAID- why?
TRAVIS SAID-just wanna spend time with you
I SAID- OK,well maybe. I’ll let you know tomorrow morning k.
TRAVIS SAID- k
I SAID- do you still love my sister?
TRAVIS SAID- shes family.
I SAID- what do you mean?
TRAVIS SAID- I’m with you,so shes like my sister.
I SAID- oh
TRAVIS SAID-ya love you
I SAID- I love you too.
TRAVIS SAID- your sister is pissed off
I SAID- why?
TRAVIS SAID-i don't know.
I SAID- I miss you,i need you,i want you,i love you
TRAVIS SAID- I love you,too.
I SAID- I’m for real I NEED YOU,and I WANT YOU.
TRAVIS SAID- same here
I SAID-i miss you,i love you
TRAVIS SAID- just wait we will be together again
I SAID- when?i miss kissing you,i miss holding hands with you.
TRAVIS SAID- today,RIGHT NOW. meet me next to the school after the bell.
I SAID-right after class?what about my sister and Logan?
TRAVIS SAID-after school. i need to feel your kiss. They don;t have to know.
I SAID- OK. Where?are you still gonna break up with my sister?
TRAVIS SAID- by the door near Mrs. Yeoman’s class.
I SAID- OK.
TRAVIS SAID- ya,i love you
I SAID-i love you,too
I SAID- hey what do you wanna do at lunch tomorrow?
TRAVIS SAID- I don't know
I SAID- well figure it out please
TRAVIS SAID- be with you
I SAID- anything else?
TRAVIS SAID-not school appropriate
I SAID- what do you wanna do?
TRAVIS SAID- second base?
I SAID- I don't know what that is?i for got.
TRAVIS SAID- me either. just something new.
I SAID- I guess
TRAVIS SAID-k. I want you to have this
I SAID- k
TRAVIS SAID- so.....
I SAID- so what?
TRAVIS SAID- do you wanna do something latter?
I SAID- what and when?
TRAVIS SAID- I don't know
TRAVIS SAID-what we had,but no longer have.
I SAID- oh. So we don't have anything anymore? OK wow you give up so easy.
TRAVIS SAID- not what I said
I SAID- what do you mean than?
TRAVIS SAID- we are just friends
I SAID- OK. Then we can never date again.
TRAVIS SAID- not right now
I SAID- no. I mean NEVER again. Since we're just friends
TRAVIS SAID- maybe latter in life.
I SAID-not gonna happen
TRAVIS SAID- OK
I SAID-i hate you means I love you
TRAVIS SAID- oh OK. I love you,too
I SAID- your so weird
TRAVIS SAID- ya,but you love me
I SAID- ya duh
TRAVIS SAID-your so amazing
I SAID- how?
TRAVIS SAID-your everything to me
I SAID- I feel so weird
TRAVIS SAID- why?
I SAID- because how short my skirt is
TRAVIS SAID- I like it
I SAID- I know you do
TRAVIS SAID- you look good.
I SAID- um...kinda creepy
TRAVIS SAID- I’m going insane
I SAID- why?
TRAVIS SAID- because your over there and I’m here
I SAID- I’m confused
TRAVIS SAID- I’m not next to you
I SAID- aw how cute
TRAVIS SAID- I’m so bored
I SAID- I know,but this video is kinda cool
TRAVIS SAID- that's messed up
I SAID- why?
TRAVIS SAID-because
I SAID- what do you wanna talk about on the phone?
TRAVIS SAID- I don't know. What do you wanna talk about?
I SAID- I don't know. Maybe us or the past?
TRAVIS SAID- OK
I SAID- so you wanna talk about the past?
TRAVIS SAID- sure
I SAID- no,I’m for real we don't have to if you don't want to. Do you want to?
TRAVIS SAID- ya I do.
I SAID- OK. We can talk right now or on the phone. You pick one.
TRAVIS SAID- what ever you want
I SAID- pick one
TRAVIS SAID- both
I SAID- OK. What would happen if we got back together?
TRAVIS SAID- then we get back together
I SAID-hey
TRAVIS SAID- you want me to help you with you work?
I SAID- ya sure
TRAVIS SAID-k we start tomorrow
I SAID- OK
TRAVIS SAID-k cool
I SAID- I love you
TRAVIS SAID- love you,too
I SAID- I’m kinda bored
TRAVIS SAID- yep me too
I SAID- whats wrong?
TRAVIS SAID- I’m tired
I SAID- you look pissed
TRAVIS SAID- not
I SAID- oh OK
TRAVIS SAID-i love you
I SAID- I love you too
TRAVIS SAID- I love you more
I SAID- OK you win
I SAID- are we cool?
TRAVIS SAID- I guess
I SAID- OK. Whats Dylan’s birthday?
TRAVIS SAID- Jan. 3,1995
I SAID- oh OK. How old is he/
TRAVIS SAID- 16
I SAID- oh OK. So what goes on?
TRAVIS SAID- nothing much
I SAID- oh. I'm bored
TRAVIS SAID- me too
I SAID- I need a new boyfriend. Who should I go out with?
TRAVIS SAID- no comment
I SAID- just who should I go out with
TRAVIS SAID- nobody
I SAID- well I want to go out with someone else
TRAVIS SAID- Logan
I SAID- ya,I’m with him
TRAVIS SAID- yep
I SAID-he has to ask me,and he has to say that he wants to
TRAVIS SAID- OK
I SAID- can I be honest about something
TRAVIS SAID- sure
I SAID- don't tell my sister. She'll kill me. Um.....i miss you
TRAVIS SAID- I miss you too
I SAID- ya right
TRAVIS SAID- no everyday I see you and it kills me
I SAID- your with my sister
TRAVIS SAID- and???
I SAID- that kinda proves that you don't love me
TRAVIS SAID- I do. Can you talk on the phone today?
I SAID- no sorry.
TRAVIS SAID- OK.
I SAID- why?
TRAVIS SAID- I life sucks with out you.
I SAID- ya I know.
TRAVIS SAID- OK.
I SAID- how am I amazing?
TRAVIS SAID- cause you just are.
I SAID- how?
TRAVIS SAID-your eyes,your smile,your everything,all of you
I SAID- OK. I love you
TRAVIS SAID- love you,too
I SAID- are you OK? You look kinda sad?
TRAVIS SAID- ya,just pissed
I SAID- why?
TRAVIS SAID- your sister
I SAID- what did she say or do?
TRAVIS SAID- poor me bullshit
I SAID- oh
I SAID- why should I kiss Logan?
TRAVIS SAID- cause I’m gonna kiss your sister
I SAID- that's not a good reason
TRAVIS SAID- a deals a deal
I SAID- whatever. Why should I kiss him?
TRAVIS SAID-because I say so
I SAID- your not the boss of me
TRAVIS SAID- so
TRAVIS SAID- I love you
I SAID- I love you,too
TRAVIS SAID- when are you gonna be mine again?
I SAID- I don't know. maybe soon
TRAVIS SAID- OK.
I SAID- OK.
so that's the end of my book. that's the end of my story with Travis,so far. i hope you liked my book. thanks for reading my book. hit me up and let me know what you think.
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