Our first meeting - the start of something Special?

With a pounding heart I pulled into the parking lot and turned off the engine of my car. Taking deep breaths I looked around, but his car was nowhere to be found. A bit relieved I lean back and close my eyes to calm down. Throughout the day my heart was racing as I thought about what to expect.
Next thing I knew, was someone knocking on my car window. “Hey sleeping beauty.” he greeted me. He opened the door, stretched out his hand and helped me out of the car. Since we just had chatted and this was our first real date, I was accordingly nervous. Shy as can be, we hugged. “Shall we go?” he asked, whereupon I nodded. As we went into the coffee shop, he held the door and paid for the coffee. As we sat there, we began to get to know each other a bit better. A view times an embarrassed silence prevailed. "You got beautiful eyes." he stated. “Thanks." I replied and glanced down, blushing.
After we had finished our coffee we wondered what to do next. Since everything was new for me, I just didn’t know what to say or do. So here we were, standing between our cars, each one leaning against his own. “ls everything Ok?” he asked and stared into my eyes, just as if he would find the answer in them. ”It’s just new. And to be honest I don't know what to do or what to say.” I answered and gave him a shy smile. “And what is the most natural thing to do with new situations?" he asked grinning. “Explore them?” I asked. He nodded, “Exactly!” “But not here, please.“ I begged and looked around. Although no one was in the parking lot, I had this strange feeling of being watched. "What can I do to make you come out of your hiding spot (to bring you out of your shell)?" he asked. I laughed, ”If I knew that, I’d be steps further!” All of a sudden and without any warning, he leaned over and kissed me. I was shocked an surprised at the same time. NEVER had I imagined that today would be the day I get my first kiss! “A tomato is nothing compared to you right now.” He joked after he had leaned back.” Where could we go next? Maybe somewhere more private?” I asked, trying to deflect from myself." What have you planed?" he asked in return, again with a huge grin. “Exploring.” I answered, blushing again. "Ok. then follow me, I think I know where to go." he answered and opened my car door.
As I followed his car, my thoughts just went crazy. I couldn't believe / realize that this really IS happening! It felt just like a dream. A dream to good to be true!
Near to a pond we stopped. Again he opened my door and helped me get out. But this time he pulled me against his body and kissed me tenderly. Then he just hugged me and we started walking arm in arm. ”Don’t be nervous. Just enjoy the moment." he whispered. “I try to.” I replied. With each step I felt more comfortable in his presence. "You know something?" he asked, “I have this strange feeling we have met before and that we would know each other all our life. It just feels so natural." he continued. As I heard these words, my heart started pounding again. I just felt happy, cause I felt the same way. Overflowing with joy, I stopped, and taking all my courage, I kissed him. Now I could feel his heart beating really fast. “I feel the same.” I responded after the kiss. Hearing this, he lifted me up, whirled me around and carried me to the next bench, where we sat down cuddling.

Everything just felt right. This was a wonderful Start for a very special relationship.

Something special alright!

Well, so I thought. But everything you’ve build up so far, was soon smashed beyond repair. Since our first meeting went so well, we had decided to meet again soon. Everything was planned and prepared for. I would come and visit you, and then stay overnight at a friend’s place and go with her the next day to a concert. The same minute I got into my car, you had texted me. “I’m sorry, but I’m afraid you don’t have to come” said your text. “Are you ok? Did something happen?” I responded with a racing heart. “I’m fine, just a bit hung over. Had a drink or two too much, yesterday. “ you explained. “No problem. I can pick you up, and I’ll be quiet.” I offered, hoping you’d say yes. “No. I feel terrible and I don’t want to ruin our date.” “Just being with you, is enough for me, so I don’t have to miss you.” I begged. But you insisted that I should not come. I was angry and disappointed. “You did ruin our date. Couldn’t you have texted me earlier? Listen, I’m coming anyway. You think about it again and you better think hard! And if you still don’t want to meet I’ll just spend some time in nature on my own.” I texted and started the engine. As I later left the highway and reached town, I heard my phone ringing, telling me that you had texted. I pulled over and read what you had written, “I’m very sorry. But we cannot meet. I’m just too hung over and I will now lay down and try to get some rest.” Furious I threw the phone back into my purse and drove to the pond we first met. As I walked around it, I also walked down memory lane(I thought back to the time we were here). With tears in my eyes I continued walking, still hoping you would change your mind. But then the thought popped up, that instead of spending my time alone, I actually could ask my cousin to join. So I called her. “Sure, pick me up in 10” she replied happy and so I hurried back to my car and picked her up. We decided to drive to a small lake and take a stroll there. “You are awfully quiet today, is everything ok?” she asked after a while, so I told her everything. She listened patiently and asked a view questions in between. “And what is this guy’s name?” she asked after I ended my report. “C…Z…” I replied. With a huge smile she took her phone, first texted someone and then showed me a picture. “That’s him!” I cried out totally stunned. “He is my neighbor, living together with his girlfriend. I just texted him if he wants to meet.” she explained. “He told me that he has a hangover, so I doubt…” I started to explain, but a -pling- interrupted me. “He just asked where I’m at.” she grinned and texted back. Speechless I watched her texting with him back and forth. “Now he wants a picture of my friend and me” she laughed. “Tell him, if he wants to meet your friend, he has to come over.” I begged her, already planning a trap. A few seconds later the response was there. “He’d love to, but they are just about to leave the house to go to a bar called “Gogo”.” Now I was curious. “Hey darling, how are you? Hope your head is better. Got any planes for tonight?” I texted him. “Feeling a bit better. Was thinking of watching a movie and staying in bed.” was his reply. “What are you up to?” my cousin asked me as soon as she noticed my huge smile. “Wanna go and have some drinks?” I asked. “You’re not seriously thinking of paying him a surprise visit.” she asked cautiously. “Why not?” I responded. “Is that really you? Where is my real cousin?” she joked. “What? Can a girl not think about sweet revenge?” I laughed. I knew she was surprised, cause usually I was that type of girl who just accepts things, cries over it and moves on. That I had changed over the Years, she never noticed. Why should she, she never witnessed my actions in a situation demanding such a response. “Yes it’s me. I changed a bit, but that’s not the point now.” “You really want to do this?” she asked. I nodded. “100% sure. And believe me when I say, he better pray that the bar is filled with people, otherwise I’m gonna smack him so hard, he’ll see stars flying.” “Wow. He’ll never see that coming.” my cousin concluded.
As we reached the bar I began questioning my own decision. But we entered the room anyway. A bunch of people were in the back of the room, but he was nowhere to be seen. “His girl is here, so he must be nearby too.” whispered my cousin and we sat down at a table near the entrance, making sure we had a good view at the backroom. In front of the table there was a wooden room divider, whereas my cousin could be seen from the backroom, I couldn’t. Still I could see who is coming toward our table. It took some time, but eventually he came over. Seeing my cousin he waved and came close, but his smile vanished as he finally saw me. Shocked to see me, he greeted me shortly and then just talked to my cousin, totally ignoring me. He told her that he finally found a new apartment for him and his girlfriend. Then they talked for a couple of minutes and he left again. This was it. Since the table was too big for me to reach over, he got away way too easily. Still processing what I just heard, I was speechless. So he DID lie! “Are you ok?” my cousin asked worried. And with good reason. I started to tremble with anger but was pale as a white wall. “Yes I’m fine. Let’s just pay and go, please!” I hissed and got up. As I hurried outside, my cousin paid the bill and came out eventually. “What took you so long?” I asked furious. “He came again and asked me how we know each other and if you said anything. I just responded that you are my cousin and that you didn’t say anything.” she explained and we got into the car. After I dropped her at her place, I drove straight to my friends. Luckily she was tired and we went straight to bed. As I was lying in bed, I was thinking on what to do next. Should I just leave it like this or should I take revenge? But my thoughts were interrupted by my phone. He was calling. With a pounding heart I was staring at the screen, but decided to reject the call. Soon after that a message followed. “Was so nice to see you. You looked gorgeous. I’m sorry I lied and didn’t talk to you, but your cousin is my neighbor and she and my ex are BFF’s, so since I hadn’t broken up with her officially, I had to pretend. I know you are angry, probably want to kill me, but I hope you can forgive me.” it stated. Since I knew what he texted my cousin I doubted that he really is just pretending. But I decided to play along. “Yes it was a huge surprise. I just don’t get why you lied to me, but ok. Since my friend likes to sleep in, I wanted to ask if you want to meet tomorrow morning to start the day together.” I replied. It didn’t take long till his text came back. “I’d love to! But I’m invited to a birthday party and I have to be early, to help preparing. Sorry.” Again I was angry. I desperately wanted to meet him, just to talk things over. But it seems that he doesn’t.

Revenge... Oh sweet revenge

Since his texts over the following days got less personal and also less in number, it was clear to me that he just wasn’t interested in me anymore. So I decided to get in contact with his girlfriend. “Hey aren’t you the neighbor and friend from my cousin J?” I asked. “Yes I am. And I’m also C’s girlfriend.” she responded. I was stunned. Why on earth would she say something like that? Was it possible that she knows about me? “Why do you mention C? Did he tell you that we texted?” I asked. “Sure. I know that you text, just as he does with others too.” she replied. “But if you don’t mind me asking, what do you guys talk about?” she asked. Now it dawned me. So she knows that he talks to other girls, but not more. So I still had my chance of revenge. “Well we talked about many things, but I want to be honest with you. We also met once.” I explained. “When was that?” she asked. “Thursday two weeks ago, around 4 p.m.” I replied. “He told me he was meeting with a coworker!” she replied angry. “Why can’t he be honest with me?” followed soon after. I began to feel sorry for her, so I decided to tell her everything that happened, but without certain details. “Ok, now I’m angry. Just a sec. I’ll ask him right away!” she replied. “What I would give right now just to be a fly on their wall!” I thought. “It took him some time, but he confessed.” she texted some time later. “Did he say why he did this?” I asked. “No. He doesn’t know why.” was all she said. Now I just wanted his explanation and move on with it, so I texted him. “All I want to know, is why? Why did you have to lie? Was there any feeling for me or was I just a toy to you?” I asked. But he never replied. A view days later I wrote my final text. “Ok I see. No answer is also an answer. Thanks for having the balls to tell me! You are just another proof that most men just want one thing! If you still want to explain yourself go ahead, I’ll listen, but don’t expect me to text you ever again!” Also here no reply. Interestingly his girlfriend continued texting with me and even wanted to meet. I refused, not because I was afraid of her, but because I expected him to be there too.

Days passed by and I was on my way to our annual family get-together in connection with the city fair. As we were watching the parade, I got a text from his girlfriend. “Whatcha doin?” she asked. “Watching the parade” I answered. “Are you in T?” she dug deeper. “Yes, why?” I replied. “Why didn’t you say so? We are going to the fair later, wanna meet?” Actually I had this strange gut feeling that this would happen, but I still didn’t want to meet, especially now that I know that he will be there. “Were gonna have some coffee first, I don’t know when the kids want to go. But we’ll see” I replied, hoping we wouldn’t meet. But Luck was not on my side. My niece, my siblings and I just left the bumper car, as he and his girlfriend passed by. Of course he had to see me! He smiled at me, just like nothing had happened. Stupid me smiled back as he passed by. It seemed that his girlfriend didn’t notice anything, which I was happy about. So there we were, standing meters apart, secretly casting glances at each other. As we walked up towards them, I was thinking on passing by, pretending not to see them, but I decided not to. “I have to say hi to someone. You go ahead I’ll follow.” As I was talking to my brothers, I heard him telling her, “Look, she’s gonna pass by” but as I turned around, walking up to them I heard him whisper, “Or not”. “Hi there” I greeted both. “Nice to finally meet you.” she greeted back. Totally ignoring him, I talked with her about anything and everything, just not the relationship between them or what happened between him and me. As soon as he was gone for a view minutes, she changed the subject. “You know, he confessed really quickly. He promised never to cheat on me again.” then she came closer and whispered, “But if he does, he knows what he’s in for (what is going to happen to him).” I laughed. “If you need help, I’ve got a baseball bat at home, I’ll come over.” she joined my laughter. “Was really nice meeting you, we definitely have to stay in contact. But I gotta go now, he’s waiting.” she said and left. I searched the crowd for my brothers and joined them again. Though we didn’t meet again that day, I noticed that he was always close by and watched me, just as I secretly glanced at him. As I drove back home, my thoughts were centered on what happened today. “Does his secretly starring mean something? What is his girlfriend thinking? Are they both in it together?” These thoughts kept popping up in my mind.

Are you kidding me? This is how it ends?

 A couple of days later I received a text from him. Surprised and also accordingly curios I opened the message. It was some stupid chain letter about friendship and who you don’t want to miss in your life. I was angry. “Are you kidding me? No explanation, no apology and now this? Is there anything you want to tell me?” I replied. “Sorry. Wasn’t meant for you. I just send it by accident.” he answered. “Accident my ass” I thought. “Seriously. What is it? What do you want from me?” I asked. “I don’t want anything anymore.” was his answer. Again he left me angry and confused. Since I had to move on somehow, I decided to ignore what happened, but easier said than done. So one day I decided to apologize to him. So I texted him, “ Although it was short, it was enough. Way too fast did I fall in love, just to get hurt. You made me to want revenge, for the first time. How I wish things would have ended differently, or we at least would have talked about it. Nevertheless I have to move on, not knowing why you did what you did. So to be able to move on, I want to apologize for all the bad things I have done to you. SORRY” I didn’t take long till his response came: “I have done these bad things to you! I should be the one saying sorry. SORRY that I have hurt you.” I was stunned. Did he just apologize? Hoping this would be the chance to talk things over I continued texting him. “Thx for the apology. Although I’m still angry and hurt I will remember the fund memories of you.” “I will too. To be honest I fell in love with you too.” was his response. Now I was really confused! If he really loves me why would he have done these things? “Why did you then lie to me? I would have been Ok if you had told me that you still live with your ex but you're moving out soon." I asked. “I don’t know. But I’m really sorry. I hope you’ll soon find your true Mr. Right. Love C" was his last response. Although I felt like crying, I was relieved. Now I finally could move on! I just regretted one thing: That I didn't slap him across his face, when I had the chance to!

This is how I moved on

The following days and weeks were like an emotional rollercoaster. On the one hand I was relieved to know why things between us ended, but on the other side I was missing him so deeply. During the times I was angry, I listened to a song that gave me some really stupid ideas. I seriously was thinking of paying him a surprise visit, making him jealous and I even thought about smashing his car! But I would never do the latter. So to snap out of it, I decided to take a trip to M. I spend a whole week there and it was just awesome. I was sightseeing, shopping and visited some friends. This is when it happened. A friend of mine organized a party with all her friends nearby so I could meet new people. “Hey, I’m S. Nice to meet you.” a guy, about my age greeted me with a smile. He was a bit taller than me, had gorgeous brown eyes and looked a bit Indian. “I’m A.” I replied shy. “New here?” he continued. “No. I’m just here for vacation.” I explained and looked into his stunning brown eyes. Gazing at each other we stood there, forgetting everything around us. All of a sudden my friend stood next to us and cleared her throat. “Don’t want to interrupt, but we’re ordering some Pizza. Any requests?” she asked with a huge grin. “As long as it doesn’t have mushrooms I’m ok with anything.” S answered. “Me too.” I agreed. “Ok then. Have fun.” she replied and left again. “Would you mind accompanying me downstairs? I need some fresh air.” I asked because I wanted some privacy. “Sure.” he replied, so we went downstairs and took a walk around the block. “So how long will you stay here?” he asked. “Just a few more days.” I answered and sighed. He stopped and looked intensely at me. “Are you ok?” he asked a bit worried. “Yeah, I’m fine. It’s just so nice here. Wish I could stay longer.” I replied and gave him a shy smile. “Well, then you should come more often.” he suggested, also smiling. “I will try to.” I answered, blushing. “I’d love to see you more often.” he replied. As I heard him saying this, my heart started pounding. “Really?” I asked whereupon he nodded. “Until then we could exchange numbers if you like.” he suggested and grabbed his phone. “Sure. My number is…..”

So the rest of the evening we spend time together, getting to know each other. Also the following days we texted throughout the day. On my last day in M, we arranged another meeting, this time in a café. “So what do you do for a living?” he asked. “Well where should I start? It’s a bit complicated to explain.” “Just try.” “Well let’s say, if you have the flue and your family doctor is not there, like during the night or weekends, you call our number. Then according to the address you’re currently at, we can tell you which doctor is in charge and arrange a meeting with the doctor or a counsel over the phone.” I explained. “Sounds interesting. Compared to this my job is probably boring.” he laughed. “Well what do you do for a living?” I asked. “Well I’m basically just pushing papers.” he laughed and I joined him laughing. We really had a blast together. After coffee we decided to take a small walk. Since it had been cloudy all day, he was smart enough to take an umbrella along. Because I forgot mine at home and was too lazy to buy one I hoped it just wouldn’t rain. But luck was not on my side, or was it? We had been walking for quite a time when it started raining. As quickly as possible he opened his umbrella and held it over my head. “And you?” I asked and pulled him towards me so he wouldn’t get wet either, because his umbrella was big enough for two. Again we stood there just gazing at each other. After a few seconds I regained my consciousness and glanced down, blushing. So as we started walking again, he carefully put the arm around my shoulders and pulled me closer to him. I felt so comfortable with him, that I put my arm around his waist and leaned my head against his shoulder. “Too bad you live so far away.” he stated. “Yes. But we can still meet once in a while, if you want to give this relationship a chance.” I replied with a pounding heart. Suddenly he stopped walking and looked me straight in the eye. “Do you?” he asked. I nodded, blushing. “I feel comfortable around you and to be honest, just the thought of you gets my heart pounding.” I explained and started trembling. With a big smile he kissed my forehead and hugged me. “I meant it when I said that I would love to see you more often.” he whispered into my ear. “The second I saw you, you’ve got me under your spell.” he added.

I felt great joy. Everything that happened with C, was forgotten. Now I just was thankful that these things had happened the way they did, even if it was hurtful for some time. Who knows, if I hadn’t met C and would have had to take a vacation in M to get my mind off of him, maybe I wouldn’t have met S.

Finally the Happy Everafter?!

The following days and weeks S and I texted almost every day. I also started to post some quotes and pictures about love over Whatsapp. I knew that everyone who was curious would look at these, including C. Once in a while I was still thinking about him, but not with anger or regret, but with fond memories and full of gratitude. One day I posted a picture with the following statement “Have you ever felt like you were holding your breath and just started breathing as you met your soulmate? At last I have found the one." It didn’t take long till C texted me. “Good luck with your “new one”.” I was surprised. Since he had apologized we haven’t texted again. But again my brain took a break. Why did he put the “new one” into quotation marks? “Don’t you believe me or don’t you want to believe it?” I responded. “I just wanted to wish you luck, hoping he won’t treat you as I did.” he explained. “Oh, ok. I just wondered because of your quotation marks.” I texted back. “Sorry. Just hope he treats you better and that you can forgive me.” he replied. Suddenly I felt sorry for him. “Actually, as weird as it sounds, I actually have to thank you. If I wouldn’t have been hurt by you and therefore haven’t made the trip to M to take my mind off of you, I probably never would have met him. So thank you.” I answered, but never got a reply. This was the last time we ever talked to each other again. S and I met at least once a month, either in M or in B. We both searched for a Job in the hometown of the other. S was the first who found a suitable job. So he moved down to B, where I lived. Finally we could meet whenever we wanted to. After about a year we got engaged and soon after that married. Now I finally got my Haapy Everafter!

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Tag der Veröffentlichung: 05.07.2018

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