Another Nightmare

"Open the fucking door right now!" His voice kept shouting as I sat curled up in the corner, blood dripping from my wrists. He kept punching the door violently. My hands were shaking as I pulled the razor blade closer to my wrists again. What if I cut in deeper? What if I end it all? The thought ran through my mind. Is there really anything to loase? He punched the door even harder now. "Open up, you fucking faggot!" He growled. He's gonna break in soon. I cut trough my skin. Deeper and deeper. Sweet familiar feeling of pain flashed through my body. A little more, I thought as i pressed the blade even harder, feeling it cut in even deeper in my skin. Blood was everywhere. I started feeling weak. This is it.. It got hard to keep my eyes open. I closed them and lay down. I've heard the sounds of door giving in to his force. It didn't matter, it's gonna end soon. The door gave in and smashed onto the ground, as I opened my eyes to the sound of my aralm clock. I've had the same dream again. I sighed, and slowly sat up. I felt nauseous in my stomach. It wasn't really a dream. I looked at my wrists and saw all the reminders. It all happened almost two monthes ago, yet sometimes, I wished that my stepdad just left me on the floor to die. But I woke up in the hospital. "Jack, sweetheart, can I come in?" I've heard Beth's voice, as she gently knocked at the door. "mhhhhmmm" I mumbled, and ley back down. She walked in, and pulled the blinds up. I've been living with Beth and her family for a month now, since... bad things happened. And even tough she's been really careful, it still wasn't nearly enough for me to get used to it. "Go get ready for school, okay?" She smiled and walked out. I closed my eyes and sighed. She peeked trough the door, like she was reading my mind. "And don't go back to sleep!" I got up and opened the closet. I took out a random grey shirt, black hoodie, and black ripped jeans. Everithing I owned seemed to be the same. As I took off my shirt, I looked at the bruises, that were all over my body. They seem to be healing. I felt a bit better, and quickly got dressed. I went to the bathroom and looked at myself. My hair was way too long. I didn't want to cut it, though. I liked the fact that I had a black curtain to hide my face with. I quickly got ready, and went downstairs. Beth's doughter Emily was alredy walking out, and her son Gabe, was whining about not having an Iphone. I grabbed my bag, and tried to walk out unnoticed, but again, Beth was quicker. "You're having breakfast!" She grinned over her shoulder, with victory in her voice. "But I'm not hungry." I complained, and the scent of eggs made me sick again." you will be hungry later" I knew this battle is lost, so I just gave in, and sat down. Gabe kept going on and on about the Iphone, which only made me more sick.

I quickly ate few bites, just to get away from there, only to go to school, where I wanted to be even less. My mood got a bit better when I saw Adam, but was soon crashed by the sight of a bruise under his eye.

Again.

"My dad decided to tell me how "awesome" his new boss is."

He said with a huge transparant smile, showing obvious disappointment.

I sighed, as he tried to cover at least some of it up, moving his long, blonde/golden

bangs to the side.

It wasn't even lunch yet, and Mike alredy managed to find me.

He pusshed me onto the ground, and grabbed my backpack.

"You want this back?"

He teased, throwing it to Kyle.

"Ohhh noo it's gonna cry! Maybe it'll go cut itself."

Kyle was more then happy to add.

Adam tried to help me, and I've felt terrible guilt slowly rushing up my body, when Kyle grabbed him 

behind his back.

Mike walked up to him, and slowly removed the bangs from Adam's eye, to reveal the bruise with an disgusting evil grin on his face.

"Problems with your daddy?"

He sang teasingly, fully aware he's hitting where it hurts.

Anger started burning through my body, as the bell rang, and they dropped my bag, walking away.

Adam helped me up, and handed me my bag.

"Thanks."

I smiled and turned to walk back to class, but I was stopped Adam's hand grabbing my elbow.

"Wait!"

He mumbled.

I turned to look at the only person I trusted in the world, as he nervously looked at the floor, biting his lip.

"Would you... uhhh"

He took a deep breath before continuing.

"Would you go out with me?"

At first, I was really suprised, but then I smiled.

I've always had feelings for Adam, I was just scared he wouldn't like me back.

Plus, thigs got complicated after... The thing. And I couldn't stand human touch.

"You mean like a date?"

I asked smiling encouragingly.

He nodded still not lifting his gaze from the ground.

"Sure!"

I took his hand in mine and quickly kissed his cheek.

He blushed and smiled at me finally looking up.

"See you after school, then."

I said, running back to class, feeling the butterflies in my stomach going crazy.

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Tag der Veröffentlichung: 04.10.2013

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