Prologue

Just a little girl brought into the world. never had a fear. Just one life, one life to live, one life to hope to be the best life, not a care in the world hoping that god was protecting and watching over her that evil shall never touch her, that she would get to see all of the life in the world.A world filled with light and no darkness.

The Start

It started off with a little girl born on July 16,1999.I was a pretty little girl, I was bright and loved to smile. My name is Payton. I had a smile that could brighten up the whole room,I had that smile that could make everyone fall in love with me,and as I got older I continued to smile.When I turned 1 years old I started to noticed that My dad always made me stay down stair and my mom and dad would go up stairs I always wondered why. But one day I would find out.One day my dad just had walked in and I said "Hi Daddy" and he just slammed the door and walked right passed me he had a real mean look on his face he just walked up the stairs to where my mom was not focused on anything else. All of a sudden I hear My mom screaming "Stop" and so i slowly walk up the stairs to find my dad holding my mom down pinned to the wall he's hitting her and punching her i noticed my moms nose is bleeding I start to cry " mommy alright" i say my dad says " Mommy's fine" then he looks at my mom with a evil look in his eyes when i say " Mommy are you ok" and she softly say's "yeah" with tears coming down her face. I go give my mom a hug even though that i can tell she's in pain but then again i don't beleive my dad would hurt my mom on purpose because i've never seen him like this but at the same time i'm scared as he says " don't tell nanna about this" I nodded knowing me i've never had the urge to disobey my father. After my dad said go to your room and play with elmo.Elmo was my only friend really my dad never let me play with other kids i had absolutely no friends my friends were my toys my mom would always buy me all the dragon tails,Pooh Bear, seseme street, and Barney charaters because he would never let me nor my mom be outside because his "friends" would be outside on the porch smoking weed or gambling.After I heard my parents door slam then i heard a cry then the door opened and my dad came out I could hear my mom crying my dad came into my room and said "Bye Pooh" Pooh was my nickname that he always called me because i loved winne the pooh. My whole room was winnie the pooh. Then I see my mom come out the room she walks to my room as she wipes her tears she says " hey payton guess who'S coming today?" and i look at her and she says "nanna" and i scream yay! Then my mom walks me into her room and all i see is glass everwhere lamps on the floor broken light bulbs and the bed is messed up I asked " mommy what happened" she says nothing honey and i say "it's messy" and my mom just smiles at me. Then we hear a knock on the door nanna i cheer as i run down the stairs "hey girly" " nanna" "hey mom" "hey.. how was my baby today" "she was fine" " nanna play with elmo"... "hi i'm elmo" my nanna says "tehehe" i giggle "want to go to elmo's world" my nanna says then my mom says" how was work?" my nanna says "good you know i love working with the little kids" and my mom says "yeah i know" and then my nanna played with me till at least 8 pm then she said " Well I have to go I love you girly... I love you guys " then she kisses both of us on the cheek then walks out the door. Then soon after it was me and my mom sat in my room with me untill iI fell asleep. Then around 12am in the morning i woke up to the phone ringing and my mom not there so i screamed mommy but i got no answer so then i look in her room no ones there so then i scream mommy again still no answer so then i scream with a screaching voice mommy and she answers in a whiney voice payton i'm down her and then so i walk down their to find my mommy sitting on the couch crying and i'm asking "mommy what's wrong with you" and im patting on her thigh and she says "nothing payton just go up stairs" " then i say mommy can you come up stairs i scared" and my mom says weeping " go up stairs i'll be there in a minute" so i slowly walked up stairs TERRIFIED and then my mom slowly walks behind me i looked at her face deep into her eyes and i can tell that she is not happy she had a sad worried like look on her face her eyes were red like she had been crying for hours. She followed me to my room we sat in my winnie the pooh room and watched beetween the lions. As I asked her "where's daddy" repeatly I notice her watched as he smile from just being aroun dropped and she just couldn't look straight at me she looked down at her hands and as i asked one last time she walked away and just cryed.

Unbearable

The very next night after not seeing my dad night before and the all day and then he walks in, and because my dad wasn't there my mom had made plans to go to our cousins house and my dad wasn't happy about that so as me and my mom were putting our coats on my mom has me down stairs in the living room and she puts my shoes on and then we hear our cusion knocking and because my mom told my cousin because my dad wouldn't let my mom talk or hangout with friends we were going to hangout with my cusion.My mom went to go answer the door and my dad slams the door back in my cousin face.He trys to snatch me out of my moms hands but he couldn't he could only snatched my timberlands and coat and hat and was throwing it on the floor saying were not going nowhere my mom was struggling to keep a hold of me mean while.. you can hear my mom screaming stop as he slaps her in the face while im in her hands and you can hear my cusion saying stop it's me Tiara stop and then he finally opens the door and i'm in my moms arms screaming and crying were both crying and were laying on the floor.Our cusion tells us to come on that we don't deserve this she walks in the house and helps us pack some of our stuff.When we arrive at my cusions house she asked us are we alright my mom starts to cry and tell her everything that has happened my cusion asked does my nanna know about this and my mom says know she said you can't tell her and she promises to keep it a secret. Then we go to bed. In the morning I wake up we decide were going back to our house my cusion asked is my mom sure she said yeah when we got back my mom went to put the key in the door the key wouldn't fit my dad had changed the locks we were locked out so my mom called for the locks to get changed again... later that day my dad had got in some trouble but was released on bail... so my mom changed the locks after a while i could speak really clear and i would tell my nanna everytime my dad was around nanna don't leave me but she would always say i love you i have too go at first she didn't get why I wanted her to stay i guessed she thought the only reason i liked her to stay is because I love her But there was other reasons.Later that day me and my mom were down stairs watching the Grinch Who Stole Christmas I was sitting on her lap because I was scared of the Grinch, mean while my dad was waiting for his cab and my nana was on her way to my house from work.Finally the taxi arrives and he asked my dad where are you going and my dad says that he's going to 434 Maple and the taxi driver say's i just dropped a guy off at that address and as stupid as my dad was he beleived him so he says please hurry i have to get home. Mean while my grandma just arrived at my house but she sitting outside in a green van talking to the lady she works for then the taxi pulls up the lady say's to my nana "isn't that your son in law"she say's as he runs to the house "yeah" she replys "why is he running?" "I don't know i have to go" then she quickly gets out the van then We hear a knock on the door my mom see's it's my dad and answers it the door left right open he says "so you had another man in here?" my mom says "no" in a scary voice and he slaps her in the face put's her in a head lock and drags her punching in her nose and face she's choked up trying to scream for help "mommmy" i yell as he makes his way out the back door throwing her body like a rag doll choking her squeezing her throught tighter and tighter my grandma walks in and see's me screaming mommy she goes to the back door to find my mom's body half way out the door being choked out my nanna then punches him screaming "Nate let her go" then she punches him and grabs my mom's arms pulling her away from him then my short skinny dad gives up and let's go my nanna ask "are you okay?" and then she get's my mom a big glass of water and my mom turn's around to pick me up and all I saw was blood her nose was gushing out blood she has bruses all on her face. As my nanna handed her a papper towel for her nose my nanna called the cops my dad ran into my his and my mom's room and locked the door. My nanna explained to the cops that he basicly tried to kill her. I don't know what would of happened if my nanna wasn't there my mom would have probably been dead my dad would of probably took me and ran away somewhere were no one could find us. Meanwhile my dad was locked up in the room doing god knows what my mom was just saying to my nanna that it's been going on for a while and my nanna just was like it all makes sence now that's why Payton would tell me to stay and then she said why didn't you tell me my mom replyed i didn't know how then my mom said my nose really hurts i can you call the abulance and then my nanna did and she said that there on there way mean while my nanna said that we should sit on the couch untill the cops and abulance come so we did. Finally the cops cam they were banging on the door my nanna answered "where is he" they asked "locked up in the room upstairs" my nanna replyed as my mom just sat on the couch holding me and sobbing as they took him away as they slowly took him away he said "don't let them take me away don't" but my mom just looked away.At least 4-5 min after they took him the ambulance came it was a long way to Baystate but when we got there we found out that my moms nose was broken and her lip was busted open so she was going to have to get surgery and stitches. My mom only ended up staying for a day and a half.

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Tag der Veröffentlichung: 12.06.2012

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I Dedicate this book to my mom.