Chapter 1

"Come on to the party" said Kendra my bestfriend.


"why?" I say


"Cause you need to get out the house plus Chris is going to be there" she sang the last part.


"Okay.okay I'm coming only cause you made a good case"I say laughing


"Hurry up".


"Okay talk to you later bye".


I walk to my closet and decide to wear a black dress that just stops at the top of my kness.


I put on a pair of black high heels,put my in curls and pull my bang to the side.I go in the mirror to see how I look.


Pefect as I look back at my refecltion.I'm african american with dark down hair that stops at myshoulder 5'7 with deep down eyes and thick in the right places.


My phont start to ring Nicki Minaj-right thur me that's my ringtone for my baby.


I pick up on the first ring.


"Hey babe"I say


"You coming to the paty" he ask


Dang no hello or nothing?


"Yeah I'm coming to the party" I said I start to hear laughter in the background


"Okay see you then"


I look at the phone no bye orI love you?


Chris has been acting werid lately.


I shake off the werid feeling and start to finish getting ready.


I grab my car keys and start to ride to the house party.


While I'm driving Katy Perry-Firework comes on and I start to sing along.


After fifteen minutes I make it to the party and I look like it's in full affect.


I walk in the house looking for my girls and I see them on a couch I start to walk over to them.


"Hey yall" I say loud enough so they can hear me over the music.


"You ready to have fun?" Kendra ask me


"Yeah, watever you say have you see Chris?"


Kendra rolls her eyes and say.


"No I haven't see him I don't even know why you with him"


"Kendra not now please"


"Okay" she sigh


"I'm going to get someting to drink"


"Okay girl and bring me one to"


I nod my head and start to walk throw the crowed of peopleI almost fall.


I make my way to the refrigerator and get me and Kendra pepsi.


I look in the kitchen to seeif Isee Chris.


I sigh in frustration and walk back over to my girls.


"Here"I said to Kendra asI handed her the pepsi.


I sit with my girls and as they talk I scan the room if I see Chris once again he's no where in sight.


He told me he was going to be here where is he?.


I swear he get's on my nerves,if he don't come to me then Iwill come to him.


"Girl am going to see ifI can find chris"


"Okay girl but we about to leave it looks like it's about to rain"


"Just when the party was getting start" my friend Candy whining


"Yeah alright I talk to you later"


"Okay girl be safe"


"You to"I hug her and the rest of the girl and make my way to find Chris.


I walk up staris just to see.I know he better not be up here this is where you come to have .

I knock on the first door causeI hear moans.


I open the door and see two people going at it.


I take a closer look and it's not Chris thank god.


I close the door and make my way to the next room and no one was there.


Guess they all left cause of the rain it was pouring rain right now.


I have to use the bathroom I hate thatI have a small blatter.


I make my way to the bathroom and open the door.


I could not believe what I was seeing Chris and Kendra getting it on.


He's pants was at his knees I saw her thong hanging for dear life on door knob.


I start to feel my eyes getwatery asI watch them have sex on the bathroom floor.

It's seems they didn't hear me come in.


I shake my head and back slowly from the door.

I ran out the housekeep thinking over and over no this is just a dream Chris knowI love him and he would never hurt me.But I keep getting flashbacks with him and Kendra.


I was soaking wet when I finally found my parking space.


I walk to car and got in and slamed the door,this could not be happening to me I keep saying over and over and start to bang on my steering wheel. I finally got the strength to start uo the car and drive home.


I walk up stairs to my room and start o take off my wet cloths.


I walk over to my dresser and find an old t-shirt and sweat pants.


I wish mydad was here ever since mymom died the only thing he do is work I think it's to hide the pain,so I'm left in this big house all my self and I'm an only child.


I walk over to my bed and flop down on it.


Can this day get in worse?


All of a sudden my left's went out cause of the rain storm.


Great just great


I lay down in my bed in the darkness thinking about all the pain the people who said love me hurt me so bad.From this night on I want to fell nothing else, I want to be cold hearted


Chapter 2


I woke up the next morning trying to decided if I should go to school today sooner or later I'm going to have to face them.I swing my feet to the edge of my bed and put my feet in a pair of slippers and look for some thing to wear today.


I finally decided to wear a pink shirt with a pair of ripped up jeans and a pair of pink converse.I make my way to the bathroom to take a shower. After fifteen minutes I turn off the water and grab a towel and wrap it around me I look in the bathroom mirror my hair is wet from the shower my eyes are red and puffy from crying all night.

I walk out the bathroom and start to get dreesed,after I'm finished I walk over to my dresser to look at my phone.

No missed calls or text message I guess I shouldn't be surprised nobody care about me before so why should they start now?. I grab my ipod my bookbage and car keys and start to make my way down staris.

I walk in my kitchen and look around it's painted white and baby blue my mom favorite color I smile and took an apple and a water bottle I started to eat the apple as I make my way to my car.

I open my door and plug up my ipod to my car and start to play Beyonce-Broken Hearted Girl sometimes I think this song was mad just for me. As I listen to the song I was thinking what should I do about the Chris and Kendra situation.

Maybe I should just let It go? I shake my head thinking it's not possible I can't get the image of them to together in the bathroom out of all places.I finally make it to school in head inside.

But as I was making my way in it felt like everyone had there eyes on me so I lift my head up a little higher and keep it moving. My first period class was boring I was not really paying attention .

For some reason today went slow all day I was trying to avoided Kendra,the girls,and Chris.But It seems like every time I turned a corner he was right there.


Finally the play was over I was exhausted from playing hide and seek with Chris all day.I grab my book back and walk out the school grateful this day is over.


I start to make my way to my car when I start to hear someone yelling my name I start to walk faster but the person footsteps was getting closer and closer I was about to run when the person grab my arm.I turned around and look up in the face of a cheater of a boyfriend Chris.I jerk my arm back.

"Shanice didn't you hear my calling you?"he says with a hint of angery in his voice.


"Yeah I did but I don't fell like talking Chris"I said trying to keep eye contact.


"What you mean you don't want to talk?" he said with confusion on his face.


"Just what I said I don't feel like taking" and I start to make my way to my car but I guess I wasn't fast enough cause he got right in front of me.


"What the hell is your problem?" he said his voice getting louder


"My problem you want to know what my problem is?" I ask getting evening louder.


We must be pretty loud cause I start to see a crowd form around us.


"Yeah ain't that what I jsut said"He snapped at me.


No this mother fucker didn't


"First of all you don't pay for nothing when we go on dated it money always coming out my pocket,you always hanging out with your boys and never have time for me and to put the icing on the cake you slept with my bestfriend"I screamed at him I got a little chocked up at the end but I was not going to give him the satisfaction of seeing me cry.


"Finally she found out" I hear I think a male voice whispers.


I was about to ask who said that but Chris started to speak again.I look up in his hazel eyes the eyes I fell in love with but looking in them now they look cold and life less.

"I know I messed up" he said his face showing a no emotion.


I look at him sad and disappointed


"Is that all you have to say for your self?" I ask as I start to feel the tears


He shrugged his shoulders "I'm sorry Shanice what else do you want?'


"How about you atcually mean it" I said as one tear escape and start to roll down my face.


Chris hand start to rise up to wipe away my tear


"Don't touch me" I snapped at him a look of disgust.I look at him one more time and walk to my car as tears start to run down my face faster.


I wipe the tears as fast as I can and drive away from the school .I finally make it to my house and go in the kitchen to get a snack all that yelling got me exhausted . I make my way to the refrigerator and see a note.


Shancie

Had to out of town for work, money is on the kitchen counter

-Dad


I crumpled the note in my hand and throw it in the trash.I walk my my room and close the door and put on a movie. After a while I look at the clock and in my room it read midnight.


"Happy Birthday" I whisper tomyself and head to my bed and fall alsleep.

Chapter 3

I woke up to the sun shining in my face I forgot to close the curtain ugh. I lay in bed for a few more minutes thinking about everything that happened yesterday god my life is falling apart right in front my face.


I walk to the bathroom and take a shower after 10 mintues I came out and decided to wear a long sleeve red t-shirt and a pair of dark color jeans pair of red and white shoes.


I grab my bookbage and walk down stairs. I walk in the kitchen and think about all the times my mom would make me my favorite breakfast for my birthday blueberry pancakes.I shake off the memory.


I just grab a bottle a water I'm not really hungry today. I grab my car keys and headed for my car.My drive to school I think of all the happy moments me and my mom had together the first time she took me to get a training bra,the talk of the birds and the bees,and the day she told me when I get marrried she was going to me my maid of honor on my wedding day.


I finally made it to school and made my my to science class and sat down in the front sit. I saw my girls walk in Candy.Eric,Stephaine,and the last person to walk in was Kendra.


They all look my way all at the same time they all had the look of pity in there eyes andsadness ecept for Kendra her eyes hold happiness and carefree.


I shake my head and turn around to look at the window.I listen to the teacher talking about earthquakes.


The bell finally ring and I make my way to the rest of my class all day it felt I was inslow motion. I was on top of the world with everyone around me know I dropped to the bottom and no one was in sight anymore.


I mad it half wasy threw this day and made my was to the luch room it was painted red and white the colors of out school.


I walk in the line where you get luch.I walk down the with my tray in one hand and pick up a slice of pizza and green jello and a bottle of pink lemonade.I start to look around where if there is any tables empty.


I see one and start to walk but then all of a sudden someone push my right shoulder hard and all my food went start to the fall I turn around and came face to face with Kendra.


"What the fuck?" I screamed at her


She looks at me with an innocent express and say" What do you mean"


She fucked with me the wrong day " You know what I mean" and I start to point my hand to the floor where my food fell.


"How it that my fault?" she asked


I sucked my teeth"Please stop playing the dumb game your not that smart to do it right"

That got me to laughes from the luch room.


That pissed her of she got right in front of my face and said


"Don't be mad cause your man left your virgin ass and got with me"


"How could you mess with my boyfriend Kendra?"


"He came to my house and we talk he kissed me and one thing lead to another and we had sex"


My hands were at my sides I was about to punch her. I was not the kind of girl to fight a girl over some boy but she need to learn a lesson about messing with other girls man.


What happened to my sweet nerdy Kendra? She left the buliding is know a bitch came back in her place.

She look down at my hands and rolled her eyes.

"You ain't going to do nothing"


I was about to show her wrong.when I felt someone come behinde me and hold down my hands.


"Let me go so I can teach this hoe a lesson"


She sucked her teeth


'Watever you ain't going to touch me"


I finally give up the knowing who ever had me was not going to let me hit her.I push the person off my and made my way to leave the lunch room not before but I still has one last thing to say.

"You better watch your back" I sneered and from the look on Kendra face she looked scared good.

I walk out side to get some fresh air.I hear the door open behinde me I look back to see the person who was holding me back from kicking Kendra ass.

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Tag der Veröffentlichung: 25.12.2010

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