THWARTED LOVE

 

one shot unconditional Love story ~

 

I never had chance rely on other people because I cannot and I don’t have the courage to do so.

But there is only one person who realized my existence and gave me strength to carry on somehow.

“Hey ~ Bryce which among the pictures in the exhibit caught your attention?”

“We’ll I really like the one entitled moonlight” i heard him mention my own photograph

which I captured during full moon last month.

No one even took a glance at my work except for him and to say he liked it –

I felt happy.

“Isn’t it to ordinary and simple?” asked again by his friend

“Not really ~ you know the feelings and emotions are all conveyed in that picture”

Without him knowing ~ his little words lit up my dark world

Someone notice my existence through the pictures I carefully took

“Sanchez? Isn’t she really good?” he then asked as he read the watermark under my photograph.

That’s my name – Aya Sanchez, too ordinary for it reflects my personality,

 I’m seventeen years old and I don’t literally stand out.

Always just around the corner without anyone to talk to.

My classmates don’t even know my name and we’re actually going to be together for a year.

 “Don’t know I never heard her name”

And because of that soon I’ve realized I’m admiring that person from  far ;

It never occurs for me to confess for the only reason that I’m happy just seeing him everyday .

His smile healed the scars in my heart and His existence slowly fills the loneliness in my life.

Until One day as the rumoured spread --- my Life also shattered into pieces.

Bryce Died because of Heart failure.

All day inside the classroom the news has been the talk.

“He is suffering from heart disease since he was in elementary and barely surviving it ;

it just became worst when he entered this school year” one of my classmate said

“I can’t stop my tears from falling! He has been my classmate since elementary.” Cried the other one.

While here I am quietly listening to all of them

I couldn’t cry, I shouldn’t I never even once talked to that guy

Would it too weird to cry for someone who’ve never encountered?

But why is it my heart hurts so much that I couldn’t stop myself from going out –

locked myself inside the bathroom and cried so much until I don’t have anymore.

Only a day passed – and everyone went back to normal as if nothing happened

But here I am in this secret place with one goal to take a picture out of the beautiful scenery

at the back of our school as my one and only present to Bryce.

Who could no longer get to see it but then ~

“Wait isn’t it always with Bryce?”  at the side of the tree just near me I saw Bryce’s friend.

I always saw then together and he’s with someone ------  I think I know ----

“Bryceeeeeeeeee!?”  the first time in my life I reacted so much and that caught their attention

And started walking towards me, my knees becomes too weak and I can barely stand up

Was the news spread only a rumour without any basis?

“ wait wait ! How come he is here? Didn’t you die? Was it not true?” I endlessly asked

“ waaaaaait? You can see him?!”  his friend suddenly asked

“what? What? Of course I see him! what are you talking about?”

“it’s true he died and the one standing in front of you is just a ghost”

With that statement I fall down completely on my knees.

“Hey are you alright?” his friend asked as he helped me up

“Yeah~but ---- but How come?” I nervously asked again

Before the two of them answered my question we sat down.

“Bryce here ~ actually had a goal since he was elementary and that is to always make sure

he could make it until his birthday” his friend explained “by the way I’m Xavier ~ this guy’s best friend”

Feeling irritated Bryce said “and it’s only four days before my birthday! Why is it I died before that?!”

“And that’s the reason He couldn’t yet go to heaven ~ he still had some unfinished business to do”

Xavier continued looking a little depressed.

“Hey! What’s your name?” Bryce asked --- it’s the first time again someone cared to know it and

No doubt it’s the same person – someone I’ve loved.

“ It’s Aya—Aya Sanchez” I answered back “ well you don’t actually know me because I don’t stand out”

Xavier who looked like thinking “ I heard your name ~ somewhere.”

“don’t mind it --- probably same name though” I continued.

“Aah! Yeah the One who photographed moonlight! At the school’s photography exhibition?!”

Xavier too “that’s it. Bryce mentioned your surname many times!”

My heart couldn’t stop from crazily beating – He actually remembers.

“You’re really good! I liked it very much!” He said again grinning

We chatted like that for almost an hour then we have to leave because it’s getting dark.

Xavier walked with me all the way ~

“You know Bryce has always been liked that --- he actually is forbidden to go to school

but still he insisted and he keeps on telling me

‘since it became like this? Why not live my life to the fullest? So that even if I die one day

I won’t regret anything.’ (laughs) that why he always got scolded ---

he has a weak heart ever since elementary it actually got better but it worsened this year.

By the way? how come you could see him? we’ll I do have my sixth sense that’s why but you?

Do you have it also?” he suddenly asked that makes me wonder too.

“ I don--- I don’t know~ I don’t actually have that”

“ then ? you liked him?! strong connection of one person too can actually surpass seeing someone

who is dear to your heart” it hit the button. Still I denied it “ No! N—no! I don’t dar---e!”

“Dare what?!”

“Nothing! It’s not definitely like that!”  it’s nothing like that because I love him.

Then continued “well how come we leave him there? Don’t he want to go home?”

“ he couldn’t bare looking at his parents in despair, but don’t worry he could actually come at my house”

The next day --- in his remaining three days we ( Bryce, Xavier and me ) went to

his own funeral as his last glance to his parents.

“There’s a special sit for the both of you!” as cheerful as he was he lead as in– as if it’s his birthday party

The smile never left his face knowing he is already dead.

“Never mind him ~ his actually this energetic” Xavier playfully whispered when Bryce was away

All there was are small sobs and crying that it wants to make me want to join too

And there he was Bryce sitting at the side of his picture funeral  looking straight at his parents

as they were lighting the candles then

He mumbled “Im sorry and thank you for everything”  as he slowly be fade one with the air.

I never once touched him ~ I want to hug and comfort him just for once but I couldn’t.

That day he asked a request that is to write a letter for someone because

he could no longer hold the pen and write it himself ---- for his Best friend Xavier.

With that Bryce’s face was all red and he was really shy; which was actually really a cute side of him.

After that I asked him “ Can I take a photo of you?”

“You won’t capture anything – silly”

But still in one click though I know it’s impossible ~ there is something in that photo

miraculously captured --- the happiness the both of us felt at that moment.

And in that invisible picture of him --- only I could see how his smile changed my world.

And on the next day

“ Here – Bryce wants to give your this letter, for his best friend Xavier. He was all red saying that to me”

“He embarrassed me once more” Xavier whispered but actually looked really sad

To Xavier,

   For once I want to thank you for everything! All we’ve done together will always be in my heart

  When I met you and become your friend I actually couldn’t asked for more.

 Up until now you were by my side – im grateful for having you.

After Xavier read that I saw a tear fall as he said

“Your handwriting is really good but this is actually his words. Thank you ~”

That night the rain falls heavily and I couldn’t think of anything instead of him.

“ Ay—Aya? Why did you come this late?” Bryce surprisingly asked.

“ it uhm ~ its to tell you I delievered your letter and because the rain falls heavily,

somehow im worried about how your doin’”

“silly – You don’t have to worry ! I cant get wet ! look !”  he reassured me, smiling ---

Those smile why does it hurts me so much

Foolishly I said “ ah! That’s true! I shouldn’t have come!”

But I want to see you and talked to you while I still have a chance. I thought

Then suddenly he walked slowly to me and said

 “Thank you, the truth is ~ when I leave my body I felt really regretful and insecure it’s like

why did among all of us “it’s me?” but when I see you Aya I felt quite relieved and happy –

for some reason I don’t even know I feel contented”

That time all I want  to do was to hold his hand and wipe all his worry

But my hand just passed by him – he couldn’t feel it ~ but the warmth of him being this close to me ---

I’m thankful enough and asking this might be too much.

If only I realized it a bit sooner, if I talked to him a little bit earlier

I could have discovered more about him and maybe – just maybe at those time

I could actually conveyed what I felt.

That night I did nothing but to cry and shout his name while he was still just beyond my sight

“ I want to touch you – just once”  Bryce mumbled.

On his last day ~

While the whole class was busy preparing for the upcoming school anniversary –

here I am with my head ducked into my desk, crying softly and thinking of Bryce --- everything about him.

“ I knew it --- you didn’t capture anything” Xavier suddenly appeared

“ I knew if I see you like this, even if he told me to give this tomorrow --- Here!”

“ a letter from Bryce --- today is his birthday ~”

To Aya,

  Thanks for everything you’ve done, I only knew for short period of time

but the memories is enough to fill all the gaps in the remaining years I might lived,

even though I’ve died and was something to be scared of ~I’ve still gain someone

who I could actually be a friend, I regret nothing --- my life is so wonderful enough to be blessed –

Please make a lot of friends don’t be afraid to show them who you really are

and I bet they will absolutely like you. You actually befriend with a ghost so being friend

with flesh like you is much more easier FIGHT ! I’ll support you from up there.

 I’m happy that I’ve met you aya.

From Bryce J

At that moment I couldn’t stop myself from running so fast as I could at the back of the school ---

to reach him ~ to happily send him off.

“ Waaaaaaaaaaaait !” I shouted, as loud as I could before he disappears

“ AYA!” he was so shocked at my presence that time

Just this moment ~  I gain thought but this time tears rapidly falls down my cheeks.

I couldn’t stop it --- because that’s how much I love him.

“ I LIKE YOU! NO – I LOVE YOU!” he didn’t answer but I knew he was there listening

while looking at me with those beautiful gem like eyes and with a smile of his lips.

“FROM A LONG TIME AGO ! We’ll I really like the one entitled moonlight

WHEN YOU REMEMBERED MY PHOTOGRAPH AND EVEN WHEN YOU FIRST NOTICED IT ---

IM REALLY VERY HAPPY, IM GLAD IVE GT A CHANCE TO TALKED TO YOU ---

IM REALLY HAPPY ! AND THEN THE LETTER --- I PROMISE TO KEEP AND TREASURE THAT FOREVER ~

UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN !”

When I looked at him ~ he was all there – startled and couldn’t talk but his eyes,

It might looked like it wants to cry but behind that I always knew they are so happy.

“ this silly and clumsy Aya right now – but still try your hardest”  I want to hug you so much.

Then continued “It’s really cute – I LIKE IT” though he couldn’t touch me anymore

he slowly lean his forehead into mine which actually answers my love to him as he says “Thank You”

“GOODBYE ~ LET’S MEET AGAIN SOMEDAY AND FALL IN LOVE” with that he disappears as

the wind blows sweetly together with him.

@School anniversary – One day has passed.

“ Okay! Ill take pictures now! So smile brightly!” I tried to slowly change as to what Bryce wants me to be –

I want to have friends as much as I can and help others as I could.

“Thanks Aya!” one of my classmate says which makes me smile someone knew me

and was grateful to my presence.

When Xavier suddenly said “Goodluck on making your class photo album”

“Hey! Xavier!”  as I walked closely to him

“You would have  worn one costume. Aya, its tough right? Taking pictures of all this events?”

“ no. I don’t think so because through this I could make many friends as I could right?”

I brightly smile facing him.

“Hey – aya, you know you’ve changed – you become bright and lively ~ like someone I knew”

Xavier prefers to his best friend Bryce.

“ AYA! We’ve seen your photo in the exhibit! It’s beautiful” another classmate shouted

Bryce—today I’m full of confidence. Thank you!

Up to this time and as the time will go on – I will never get tired on coming at the back of the school

because that is the only place I could feel Bryce’s presence.

Maybe it’s God’s will to not allow Bryce that time to go to heaven

With his only mission to reach his birthday there is someone who really needed his encouragement and His

happy smile --- Because of this man who I never had a chance to hold into my arms changed my life

forever. I will never forget this soft atmosphere where we shared our short time being together.

Being together with you is enough to fill the gaps of my Forever –

 

@ At the exhibit the picture posted by Aya Sanchez is the with Bryce in it – I cannot see him with my eyes

but with how my heart creates its eyes to see how Bryce smile take away my loneliness entitled

  <<‘Our own World’>>

Thank You for reading this --- Hope it touches your heart.

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