What's the point

Chapter 1: What's The Point

 

Growing up I always thought to myself whats the point in love. My parents always talked about it. At first it seemed like their marige was good untill my mom told my dad she didn't love him and wanted a devorse. When they first split I was broken its been a long hard jerny trying to fix myself. I was 5 when all this started I'm now 13. I have alot of friends that help me but sometimes it's really hard. 

I like to think to myself what's the point in all this liveing a life that seems like you dead already. Most of my days I spend in my room on my phone texting friends. I've relized that life isn't easy just hard and you don't always get what you want. It seems like life will only get harder but that's ok because I know that there is some good to it. 

Lets forget all the bull shit and move into what this story is about.

Him

Chapter 2: Him

 

I was only 9 when I first met him but I was 12 when we started dating. You're maybe wondering who the hell is this him guy. Well his name was Jacob. Ya ya I'll admit it I loved him. I was blinde and stupid. He was about 6 foot tall, he had black hair that use to cover the right side of his face until he cut it all off. He loved to play video games manly Call Of Duty. No one could ever beat him beside the time when I played with him but I think he let me win. When we started to date he broke up with me for a mounth. I was so depresed I even took a knife to my wrist. I never cut but I would wear a rubber band so I could snap it on my wrist. It gave me the same pain as if I were to cut. 

We got back together after that one mouth of being apart. Something about him changed though he seemed different. At some points I felt like he was just messing with my emotions. We dated again for probably another 4 mounths or so I couldn't tell because it all went by so fast. I was blinded by the love but no matter what I still felt dead inside. Like we were still broken up even knowing we were dating. All my friends were telling me to breake up with him. I finaly did but when I did he told me that he was cheating. I put all the fucking puzzle peaces together and it all made fucking sence now. at that point I cut just once it didn't feel the dark hole that I felt. It didn't feel the empty voied that was inside me. So I went back to the rubber band thing. That one cut has hiled it didn't take long though. 

The life I was now liveing was my death. I was able to move on though it felt better to move on and finde better people for me. Most of them wheren't right for me so I gave up I said "fuck this shit I'm done". Life wasn't getting any better for me what so ever. Yes I did have my friend but sometime it felt like I wasn't there. Like I was nothing like a dust of wind that meant nothing. Jacob and I still talked we were friends he kept telling me he was sorry. He would tell me everyday I still loved you I fucked up big time. He would ask if I would take him back. I told him to go fuck himself and that I moved on. He still trys to talk to me I wan't to be friend's but even than I feel like he would just fuck around with me. Like he did before when we were dating. I wanted to die but I didn't because even than I knew it would all get better for me in the end. This life was hard but I wasn't going to let it get any harder for me. 

I was just a normal girl that loved to watch Netflix and YouTube. My favorite show's where The Walking Dead, American Horror Story and all animes and horror movies. Sometimes I get so bored I talk to myself about what I'm watching on tv. You probably think that I'm crazy but I'm really not I'm just alone in this life. 

New Guy

 Chapter 3: New Guy

 

Its been a while since me and Jacob broke up. Life has been getting better for me because I found someone way better than Jacob. Only bad thing is his name is Jake. Other than that I love him he makes me happy. Jake doesn't live close to me what so ever. Jacob was 16 so 4 years Jake on the other hand is 14 so not to much of an age difference. Jake is 6 foot, has blond hair, blue eyes, and a british accent. To me Jake is so cute and adorable. Okay know I'm getting out of control just thinking and talking about Jake. Now you maybe thinking that I'm stupid and carzy, but I'm not its just what my zodiac is. Now I have you wondering what my zodiac is my zodiac is a Pisces. For those of you who know what that means it means that I will be more than glad to talk all good things about my boyfriend and how badly I need him. It also means that I need to be protected and cared for. Kinda makes sence to me oh well Ireally don't care. 

Now back to Jake. Jake asked me out a week after we stated talking and I said sure. Jake says I'm changing his life and making it better. We share alot in common but not to much. It's been a week since me and Jake stated dating and things are starting to look better for me. Jake and I have skyped everyday since we started to date. Until he got told on by his brother so now we can't skype. We can only talk on kikk like we always do when we'er done with skype. Everyday he sends a pic of himself and tells me how much he loves me. Ulike what Jacob would do. Everyday Jake talks to me and listens to me Jacob would never do that he would just ignore me. 

Boring

 Chapter 4: Boring 

 

This is getting a little boring for me talking about things like my love life. You guys reading this story can't posibly be enjoying this story are you? if you have any ideas about what I should wright next or if I should continue this story  tell me in the comets below. TeeHee XD                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                         

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The characters are Jake, me, and Jacob its a love drama story