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About Me
innercalmbuddha@gmail.com
Blog https://malachimuccmin8.wixsite.com/selfhelp
Youtube Channel https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCBAv_nrZHiEGNnV8RmpG-xw
My writings are a collection of my thoughts based on my spiritual journey going inwards. This is my point of view, maybe from a narcissist’s point of view, a lone wolf or perhaps a unique conscious mind. Yet...I don't have all of the answers because the truth is our own.
I was dealing with immigration issues so I ended up homeless in 2011. I spent 5 years homeless in Florida with my wife and child. I forced myself to keep doing yoga, tia chi, Wing Chun, chakra healing and later Kundalini yoga to make sure that I stayed Conscious during this hard period. I knew that if I let my homeless experience get to me, I would die or fall asleep and lose my higher awareness.
I now realized that All I wanted was a closer relationship with God. As I began to study myself going inwards, I realized that worry, holding on to my past and attempting to control things were affecting my behavior. I then realized that everything that happened in my past human experiences was supposed to happen, for learning about my behavior so that I could forgive myself and others to evolve in Love.
By letting go I began to recognize the voice of my soul, vs. my sporadic ego, combined with my scattered mind. I also began to see and slowly understand the universe within while growing in divine love. Working on my Chakras helped me experience Self Knowing and a Spiritual Awakening. Accepting that I am a narcissist helped me forgive myself. The attempt to change my personality profile to feel perfect was my worst mistake.
My spiritual journey, going within and then coming out. This awakening allowed me to see what was happening in my psyche, then seeing the correspondence in my experiences within my created reality. I have been fighting with abandonment issues for years. My journey within put me through many healing experiences with my chakras, such as working with sound and colors and intense visualization. I did a lot of crying as I let go of my past and let go of false pride.
Focusing on healing from spiritual means put me back to my origins, the person who I was born to become. After this experience, I never looked back. Who said that the past was important, it’s only useful to learn lessons so that we keep moving forward. Peace, and bless you all.
Email: innercalmbuddha@gmail.com
Website: https://malachimuccmin8.wixsite.com/selfhelp
Youtube Channel https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCBAv_nrZHiEGNnV8RmpG-xw
What is NPD?
By Abdul Mumin
Narcissistic Personality Disorder or NPD is a disorder in which a person has an inflated sense of self-importance. I am a Narcissist myself. I can describe this perception, It seems like the world revolves around me. I used to be trapped in my illusion of grandeur. I found out that my insecurities and my lack of self-confidence made me feel ashamed of myself.
Later I began to see that I was avoiding my own feelings. I was only focused on myself because I was looking at my feelings, this is why I was being self-centered. Avoiding my feelings cause me to feel ashamed of myself. When we hold back who we are without fear of being judged or rejected, we express our feelings and move with our emotions in healthier ways. We can do it without causing violence, we must express how we feel because it is being fair to ourselves.
Shame was the battery for my narcissistic behavior, If I was not ashamed of myself then I would have trusted my feelings. There are no wrong feelings so respect how you feel, and how others feel too.
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Verlag: BookRix GmbH & Co. KG
Tag der Veröffentlichung: 05.07.2019
ISBN: 978-3-7487-0920-6
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