chapter 1
(blues eyes0
Damon
Blue who I say and laugh what a stupid name. That girl I know I can’t remember I think we had sex last night. She laughs and trails a finger down my chest and I falter a little.
Yeah blue she is really beautiful I like her hair James says. My sister frowns she hates when we make fun of them. I think she beautiful I mean take a look at her eyes no wonder they named her blue my sister says. I roll my eyes she would be a good fuck maybe she wouldn’t id never know. Wow I love when people talk about me said a quiet voice. I look up and my heart jumps and my pace slows she is interesting her eyes are the darkest deepest blue I ever seen her hair a light pastel blue. Where is damen she says? I look at her me I say smirking. Well guess what you’re stuck with me to show me around she says. She smiles and holy dimples.
I don’t like when people stare at me she whispers. And I look away and by the time I look back she is gone and when I mean gone I mean gone like she was a ghost.
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This shit sucks I grumble. What’s wrong my sister asks. I can’t fuckin find that blue chick I say. Somehow it bugged me more than before. I saw her somewhere around the football field she says. I look at her she is something I mumble. Catty nudges me in the ribs and I flinch. What she is something one minute she is there the next minute she isn’t she is like a ghost poof I say using my hands to make it look like something disappeared. I hear a laugh it was musical and sweet I liked it. I turned around and poof like I said she was there laughing her lips smashed together trying not to laugh. I grumble her bag is slung over her shoulder her hair in a bun showing how big her eyes were and like I said before holy dimples. Sorry aloof she says and I quirk my eyebrow up aloof I said. And come on aloof I’m going to be late its quiet but I can hear her.
So blue why you moved here I say. Her delicious scent wafting in my nose. Vie always lived here she says and I laugh god how I hate people who lie. I’m being serious she says and I stop she looks at me and I realize she is being serious. I was home schooled by my mother she says. And tucks a loose strand of hair being her ear and I see transparent freckles dusted on her nose. This chick was something. Why did your parents name you blue I say. My eyes she says and I look there like warm swarms or blue like oceans that you can drown in. She blinks and I’m out of the spell they put you in. come on the bell is going to ring she says. As she speeds up I kind of stand there for a good couple seconds before my feet start moving. She sets me off edge come on aloof I got shit to do she kind of yelled. I nodded and set off to her.
So blue how old are you I say and she looks around and bites her lips and my eyes happen to travel down to her lips. I realize there plump and godly soft I’m seventeen she says and I look up. Then she turns into the classroom and I realize I’m not in this class and somehow it bugs the shit out of me. This damn girl is getting my inside into a war zone I growl and it’s almost like I can hear her laugh in my head. Holy calm down a screechy voice says. I realize its mia and I I’m not ready for this. I turn around and my eyes bulge her breasts are hanging out of her shirt her skirt is hiked up almost making her arse. Show and I my face screws up in disgust I didn’t really see of how much this girl really a whore a big one. Hey mia I say and she jumps at me smashing her lips against mine and I never knew this but her lips are chapped very much so. I have half of the urge to push her off but then that would start a war between people and I’m not wanting that.
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Blue
I sit in the classroom high school sucked ass and that boy is annoying. I bite my lip and write down notes for history. I sigh tired blue Anderson a voice yells and I look up a girl that just looked like damen but a girl version smiles at me. I fiddle with my fingers yes this is she who asks I say packing my books in my bag just as the bell rings. I’m catty she says I smile not knowing what to say did she want me to shake her hand or something or clap I sighed. Why did I ask to come to school high school sucked my lollipop.
She smiles want to come sit with us at lunch she says. I feel like I’m in mean girls movie sure I say plastering my fake smile sounding pleased. She smiles and say great yeah great I have to sit with this girly girl chick. If she is a giggler I’m going to punch her I hate being stuck with miss fuckin giggles. I grumble and I pull out my headphones and put them in my ears.
I let music turn the loud white noises go away my head hurts and my I’m hungry. I let the male version of close from tove lo play and let myself go one of the best things I can do. I walk down to the lunch room and open the doors and look around terrible I whisper. I jump when a hand grabs my elbow and drags me across the floor. I didn’t like being touched god no I didn’t without knowing I ripped myself away and stepped back my world spinning like a merry go round. Sorry I catty say when the world stops spinning I look at her her eyebrow quirked up and the face like omg she is a crazy on her face I shake my head and the dizziness is gone. Sorry I whisper and keep walking so blue why you moved here she says. I roll my eyes mentally I was home schooled vie always lived here I say and I hear the laugh rising in her throat. I’m ready for it I’m being serious your brother did that too I say and stop by the line and pick up an apple with a water. I never really ate I ate once a week not cause I think I’m fat or anything I just don’t like eating. I look at her and she looks me up and down and I walk away waiting for her to come along she grabbed her tray and follows me. And I sigh why I bothered wishing I went to a high school. I sit down and I look over and aloof is there staring at me and my food. A crease forms in his head and I look down is that all your eating he says and I nod.
* this is my first chapter the chapters might seprate point of veiws so thanks and please add to favorite*
( blues hair)
chapter 2
Blue
*dream*
The thing swept across the floor. I stilled at watched in move across towards me and I gasp. Its ugly its face covered with a bag. Blood smears the bag I feel the cry rise up in my throat. Mom I cry out as I almost feel tears spill over my face. I want you to run blue and run as far as you can don’t stop until you can’t see me mom says and gives my hand a squeeze. Mom imp not leaving you I sat as tears spill over my face. You have to blue promise me you will blue promise me she says. And I nod because it’s the only thing I can do. She pushes me forward and hugs me. I love you blue she whispers and the thing the man grabs her. RUN BLUE RUN my mom say and I do run. I can feel the tears that spill over. Momma I cry as the man brings the knife over her throat and slices it. I run as fast as my legs can carry. I hear his footsteps and his grunts. My heart hurts my lunges are going to burst I want to stop and fall to the ground a scream. I duck into an ally and curl up into a ball. I hold my breath as long as I can as I see the man take off his bag and throw it. I want to scream I want to yell so hard it’s going to hurt he killed my mother. The man leaves and my body goes weak and I slump against the wall my whole world is shattered gone she is gone and imp left with in this world. The world fading and spinning momma I say and my world goes black.
*end of dream*
I wake up gasping for air my lunges feel trapped MOMMA I scream my body is sheeted with cold sweat. I curl up into a ball and back away into the corner into my bed as I look at room its dark. I hear footsteps he is back to kill me. And the light flicks on and I scream. Blue sweetheart imp hear my uncle says. I get off the bed and run to him and jump into his arms. MOMMA I sobbed she is gone uncle I sob again. He rubs circles on my back. What was it about sweetheart he says? Just hold me please I say and sniffle. He nods and holds me. Why uncle why did she have to leave it should have been me I say and cry again. No honey it shouldn’t have been you your mom gave you a chance she wanted you to live he says into in my hair. Do you want to sleep in my room I got work to do sweetheart he says. And I nod and he scoops me up and takes me to his room. He lays me down and covers me up. And sits at his desk and turns it on. I know imp save because he is there. My uncle found me when my mother was murdered he was a cop I remember him crying. That time I was numb and didn’t talk for months I was so sad and angry. Thank you uncle I say and he smiles I know that smile it’s sad and worried.
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I wake up the room is cold and I don’t like it. Come on blue you need to get up my uncle says shaking me. I open my eyes and I see he is dressed for his job. I hurry and get up and grab my hair tie and but my hair into a messy bun. Go uncle imp fine I’ll walk I say and he frowns. Are you sure your ok do you want to talk about last night he says. And I still I dint think I want to at all. No imp fine I say and give him my fakest smile and he relaxes. The problem was imp not fine my dreams have been getting worse by day and night. He kisses my head and smiles. Call me when you want to talk he says. And I smile because I know he truly cares about me he walks out and shuts the door. I grab my jeans and my sweater and throw it on. While brushing my teeth. Multi-tasking isn’t hard I know this cause of my old days. I sigh and grab my bag and swing it over my shoulder school sucked ass.
I stepped in front of the school and sighed my dream still burned into my head like a scar won’t go away and never will someone grabs my shoulder and I gasp. I turn around its him I know it is. I turn around and almost scream and realize its catty. Her quirks her eyebrow up are you ok she ask. And I nod my throat dry she looks me up and down and again down and up. I stand there almost awkward like my feet shift and I fiddle with the cuff of my sweater. She looks away and I walk to my locker and she follows and I hate it my palms are sweaty and my heartbeat is till pumping like a bomb. How did you get your hair dyed like that she asks and picks a loose strand and rubs her fore finger and thumb against it. Like very one else does it I say and tug the loose strand behind my ear. Hey blue a voice makes me jump and I turn around and there is demon. I look down at my shoes. Hey aloof I say and get my thoughts back together and smile one of my fake smiles. Its ok I don’t need you to show me around anymore I know where everything is I say and the truth is I don’t. I just don’t want him or anyone around me anymore. Are you sure there sweet cakes he says and I look at him. I’m sure aloof I say and throw my books into my locker with a loud bang I wince. Are you ok demon says and I nod but imp not my mother is gone.
Damon
I stare at blue her eyes are black today very black I can’t see the blue in them. Her skin is paler than normal and it bugs me that she won’t tell me. Are you sure I say and I lean my body against the wall to keep her from getting away. It’s a dick move but I want to know what’s wrong. She only comes to my chest small and fragile. She gives me the look of get the fuck out of my way prick. But I don’t move I stand my ground she sighs and her teeth catch her bottom lip and I stare at them. She nibbles it then let’s go and I still stare there godly plump and tempting as hell. Then she walks around me and heads for her next class.im already hot and bothered damn I adjust my pants so my arousal isn’t pressing against my hands or shows something’s that can’t be unseen. And I follow her only a couple strides and imp right beside her. Come on a date with me I say and she stops and looks at me like I said I killed your puppy. No she says and imp surprised I’ve never heard a no in my life. Why I say and she sighs because damon I don’t know you and I see her lip quiver. Look I need to go ill maybe talk to you later she says. Bu that’s the thing I don’t want to talk later. Are you ok I ask her eyes seem misted and cold? Her eyes flutter and he falls back. My body acts quickly and I jump out and catch her. Her cheeks are red now like a fever. Momma she murmurs. I brush her loose strands of hair and look at her face. Momma don’t go momma don’t leave me she whimpers. And I pick her up wonder what happened to her mom she seems like a good person. Blue starts thrashing in my arms like a maniac and I don’t know what to do. STOP DON’T TOUCH HER LEAVE HER ALONE she screams. And I see tears brick her eyes and slid down I’ll take her to my house and then we can talk.
By the time we get there it’s into second period. She looks so sad tears are still sliding down her cheeks and I whimper what’s wrong why did she faint why won’t she tell me what’s wrong. Because she isn’t ours silly a voice in my head says and for some odd reason it kind of hurts that she isn’t and I don’t date but something about her makes me want to.
* hope you like*
chapter 3
Blue
I woke up in a soft bed and smelled godly good maybe too good. I cuddled the pillow and smiled warm and no nightmares. Your awake an amused tone said and I jumped a little and buried my face into the pillow. Come on blue I know you’re up said a voice and I realized it was demons and I gasped pulling up and looked up at him he was smiling. Where I am my voice sounded distant cold and sad so are you going to tell me about your mom he said. My body tensed where am I demon tell me I croaked he smirked and fear ran up my spine was he going to kill me. Its ok blue imp not going to kill you he says and I hear the hurt in his voice. My mom oh I never met her I say but it’s a lie I saw her die I watched it and imp going to remember it forever. Bullshit sweet cakes I know you do know your mother he says and my body tensed. Look aloof I need to go I say and slid my lower body out and gasp I have no pants did you undress me I gasp. And the worse part about this is imp wearing my lackey black underwear that shows my thing. His eyes darken and he nods his eyes are staring at my underwear I don’t know what to do or can I even move no I can’t. He is still staring at them and I realize that there is a rip in them I touch it and his eyes darken more. Where my pants I say are and he looks up something in his eyes set me off I don’t know what it is but it scares me. He nods over to the other side of the bed I reach out and grab them and slid them on. Why did you take me hear I say angry he had no god damn right cause you fuckin passed out in front of me what am I supposed to do he growls. Don’t growl at me I say but fear crawls up my spine cause that was the sound that man did when he cut my mother’s throat and tears mist my eyes and I don’t want him to see. I need to go I whisper and walk away pain and emptiness hollows my stomach run blue run was the only thing I’ll ever hear from my mother again and maybe forever.
I run towards home my breathe caught and my tears streaming down my face why does life have to be so damn hard it hurts momma it hurts I scream kind of out loud blue what are you doing out in the rain I hear my uncle say and I cry. My jeans are soaked and along with everything else my hair sticks to my face Jesus Christ blue you’re going to get a cold my uncle says. I nod and walk slowly I smile cause then maybe I don’t have to go to school. Come on he says and wraps me in his chief coat I stumble along the way. We get inside and I smile because I want to go to bed, go night uncle I say and he nods I walk up stairs and throw my shirt off and my pants getting into my bed and closed my eyes.
I woke up the next mooring my eyes were lighter and I smiled they always seemed lighter after the rain. I look up and imp startled of what’s on the board in a light blue chalk the words
BLUE IS THE WARMEST COLOR
I gasp the writing isn’t messy I know that. It’s neat and polite and I growl this has to be a joke and I don’t like it at all. My mother use to say that to me when I was younger. She would tell me that when I would freak out. Blue was the warmest color sweetheart she would say. And she was right it was the warmest.
* sorry for the short chapter i promise there will be a bigger on next time*
charactors and author note
*blue* * damon*
* james*
*catty*
chapter 4
Blue
My body slammed against the locker and the blow caused me to double over. My air was gone I looked up my stomach throbbed. A girl with brown hair she smiled and I closed my eyes this what my mother probably felt when the man killed her helpless and weak. That’s what I felt helpless and weak I could feel the bruise on my stomach. You bitch she sneered I looked down at her shoes high heels probably a slut I groaned. And I felt the heal of the shoe kick my rib I grunted they wanted a scream I wasn’t going to give it to them. What did me do I gasp and the girl laughs or maybe cackles I don’t know what you did you stole Damon from me she sneers. Didn’t she get it I don’t like him I just want to have my momma back and have normal life but of course she didn’t. She lowered her body and picked up a strand of my hair you pastel blue bitch she growled. She yanked it hard making me yelp and her minions laugh with her tears brick my eyes STOP YOU FUCKIN WHORE I growl and my fist connects with her jaw. The pain in my ribs and stomach becoming worse and the minions take a chance and kick and hit me. The pain getting worse now I know what mom felt like hapless weak and nothing they kept kicking. Tears streamed down my face and they stop my body is on fire it’s like a flame that doesn’t burn out it just keeps wrecking more and more stuff. I curl up and push myself into a corner the darkest one so no one can see me cry and see the nasty bruises that form on my pale skin. I feel my nails dig into my palm cutting the skin as I bite my lip until draws blood so I don’t scream out in agony and pain. I feel the blood on my lips travel down my chin and the blood from my palms slide down slow and soft it tickles. Students walk by and I see mica and Damon arm in arm it doesn’t hurt but mica might of made me bleed. No one can see me imp transparent like everything else in my life imp a nobody and nobody wants a nobody.
When the hall looks clear I grab my bag gently put on my shoulder and oh so slowly get up and limp my way out the doors the sunlight hits my face and I feel fresh set of tears slid down my face this was going to be a long walk home.my body aches and my heart is about to burst I wish I was a somebody a anybody but im nothing that man should of killed me when he had the chance but he didn’t why. Because you ran you should have stayed with your mother. I cross the street as kids look at me and some laugh more tears slid down my face. I hear a door slam and footsteps I panic and make a run for the street I feel someone’s had close around my elbow and I jerk away. STAY AWAY FROM ME DON’T STOP TOUCHING ME I scream and a sliver of power goes through me I run. My stomach feels like someone is stabbing me with each step I take and I can’t breathe my throat is dry and it’s painful. I hear the footsteps behind me and I run faster until I can’t hear them anymore I land in the woods I collapse to the ground. The pain slowly goes away and I relax I look through the trees and see Damon he looks stressed as he runs his hand through his hair I hold my breath until I see him slam is fist into the tree. I gasp DAMN IT IVE LOST HER he growls he turns around and leaves me in the woods.
The pain is gone and I feel better like I smile and as soon as I see him gone I break out laughing that was fun almost like a thrill. The pain is still there I slowly get up and walk out and it starts raining. And I take the chance and spin around the water showering me I wipe the old crusty blood from my face and let my hair soak and I let that wall come tumbling down slowly and painfully. I can relax and I do and it’s the best I let happy tears slide down my face and smile. I hear a rustle and I look over and it’s a dog a stray I bend over forgetting the pain in my ribs and stomach. The poor animal whimpers and I smile and pick it up causing it to make the pain more painfully it hurt but I ignore it.do you want come home with me I say. No cause it’s my dog I look up and I see someone I don’t know I’ve seen him around the school. James he says holding out his hand blue I say and smile grabbing his hand what happen to you he said and I smile fake again. I fell down the stairs at home I lie and he nods well better get going huh shouldn’t we spike he says and bends down. I rub its head one more time nice knowing you spike I say and walk off my body aches but I ignore it.
I get home and kick of my boots and quietly walk up the stairs so my uncle won’t notice me. I run the shower and pull of my sweater and my pants the bruises are nasty and huge and purple. I press my fore finger in it and I cry out a little she banged me up pretty bad. I hear a bang on the door and I jump yes I call is that you blue my uncle says. Yeah imp showering I yell. Well someone wants to see you he yells back and I grumble who I it I yell back. His name is Damon he wants to talk to you in private. I shiver and pull my sweats on and my tank top and sweater on so he can’t see the bruises. Tell him to come up I yell my heart beats loud I could hear it and I hear loud footsteps breathe blue. I wing open the door and I look up at him agony and heaps and heaps of stress shows on his face he has five o’clock shadow I never knew he had. He comes closer to me and pulls my sweater or more like ripped it off WHAT ARE YOU DOING I scream rape he is going to rape and then kill me. What happen to you he whispers and traces his finger on my bruises and I pull away imp fine leave me alone I snap. You’re not fine you look like shit blue he says. Oh what do you care you don’t so get out of my house now I snap again imp not leaving until you show me I know what they did to you he says. Get out I say pointing towards the door and once again I feel weak and helpless. He tugs a strand of hair behind my ear and examines my lip and frowns. YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO COME BARGING IN MY HOUSE AND DEMAND ORDERS FROM ME YOUR NOT MY FATHER OT MY BOYFRIEND SO GET OUT I scream. He growls and head towards the hall way and I go into the bathroom slamming the door. I slid into the water and slowly gasp it hurts but feels so good. And I remember my mom’s poem she made. Because the wind will blow and the sun will rise blue is the warmest color but tomorrow the flowers will curl up and die.
I get into bed and squeeze my eyes shut please don’t let me have another dream please I beg you lord not to let me have a bad dream
I keep praying until I fall asleep but my dream got worse
chapter 5
Blue
*dream*
The music plays soft a silent almost like under water. I spin around in the studio like I use to when I was younger. My legs glide across the floor. My back arches and I jump spinning lightly my head is back the silk covers my body tight and its light blue. I can hear the sounds of the claps and gasps but I also can hear my mom cheering me on its low and silent but I can feel tears brick my eyes. Mom I say and she comes out in smiling you did good blue I’m proud of you your dad will be proud she says and holds out her arms but something is very wrong. I can see right through her like a ghost and the dress she was wearing that night when she died. Momma why can I see you why I thought you died I say something changes in my mother’s face something very wrong. Her brow arches and her eyes turn black no longer hazel how dare YOU she wails and she lunges at me like an animal I swivel out of the way. Mom stop you have gone mad very mad mom STOP I scream and she does and falls to the floor and sobs. I’m sorry my baby I didn’t protect you I want you to stick around Damon ok sweetheart she says. But momma I don’t want to please don’t do this I cry please do it for me Damon cares about you please blue do it for me she says and her hand latches on my wrist. Mom I’m not going to I say and I know I will have to for my mother.
*dream ended*
I wake up not gasping but cringing why Damon why him. I slid my body out sore and in pain from that beating yesterday I whimper. I hear a honk and I jump and almost fall off my bed who the hell would be honking at this hour fuckin Christy. I peek out my window and the unholy fucker that was honking was Damon he was leaning against his truck smoking. He looked up and looked at me and moved his head for me to come down I shook my head. Then he smirked and went to my door I panic I don’t want him up here so I put my finger up saying one minute. I pull my hair up into a pony tail and slip on my blue tank top and pull on my black skinny jeans and slung my bag over my shoulder. The pain stung in my ribs and stomach I slowly walked to the door my heart was beating a mile a minute I winged open the door a little too rough. I shielded my eyes from the sunlight what are you doing here and I can walk I say he frowns and I roll my eyes. You’re not walking blue I’m sorry but your hurt and I’m not letting you walk that far he says. I’m fine go to school se you there I say and turn down the road just get in the fuckin car blue he grumbles but I don’t I and in a couple strides he picks me up pressing hard on the bruises. I yelp in pain and he eases the pressure sorry love I didn’t me to hurt you he says I blush at the word love. Don’t call me that I say but I liked it my mother use to call me love. Why it fits you he says looking at me and tugs a piece of hair behind my ear. I’m going to be your crutch today he says so romantic I say sarcastic and I feel my self-giggle but it hurts. I like your laugh love he says and stares at me I feel that blotchy blush go up my neck and I shudder. We need to go I say and he looks away and starts the truck and drives out I turn the radio on and my favorite song. I whispered the words bobbing my head and I got louder until I was really singing my world shifting somewhere I don’t know where. I bit my lip and hummed until I heard a snort and then a groan. I forgot where I was and my eyes shot open Damon was looking at me you have a beautiful voice love he whispers. Thanks I say and he nods.
We get out of the truck slowly my body aching and Damon walked around the truck and put my arm around his neck. He smelled good I eased myself on his foot as he walked am I heavy I say and no your too light you need to eat better love he says and looks at me I snort cause I know I’m not that light. He shifts my body so he I’m pressing right into him so my head is in the crook of his neck. I look around and catch the eyes of mica she glares at me. Damon I can walk I panic. No you can’t your stomach is bruised and don’t worry I won’t let them hurt he says our heads are so close so are our lips I push back and lean my head on his shoulder. I look at it and I see ink without knowing I pull his shirt down and trace the tattoos I hear him suck in a breath. Love please stop your distracting me he says and I gulp I’m sorry ill stop I say and I put my hand down. We get into the school and he lifts me up so I’m kind of off the ground and I feel his hands brush my neck and then my back he traces little trails down my spine. What are you doing I croak out and he looks down at me I don’t know blue what I am doing but your fueling my actions he says. Sure I say and giggle and then yelp the pain spiking my stomach are you ok love do you want me to carry you he says. The thought of him carrying me makes me panic that would only fire up mica more and I don’t want that no I’m fine I say biting my lip cause the pain.
*Damon*
I don’t know what the hell I’m doing but all I know is that blue is melted into my side with her head pressing against my collar bone. Her smell wafting in my nose I look around to find mica I can’t believe she beat her up and made me angry. My lips ached to be on hers they stung so much it hurt the way her lips are so close its pure torture. I wanted to kiss her I wanted her to touch me in ways that were not very friendly like not at all hell I want her in every way every moment. My lips stung painfully but I won’t leave her cause she would be in danger very much danger and I don’t want that. Without knowing I place my lips on her head to release the sting in them but I need her lips and only hers. What are you doing she says but I ignore her until the pain in my lips goes away nothing love I say and she blushes. I could tell she loved the word love. My love it fit her so damn perfectly fuck it I hear her say and before I could look up her lips meet mine the sting is gone and her sweet plump lips burn the taste away. First it was soft until I needed more and it got rougher my one hand grabbed both of her wrist in one and I got rougher and rougher I nipped her lip asking for permission. But she didn’t reply so I nipped harder and she moaned and my tongue slipped in I played with her. Until she started smacking my back I stopped and looked at her tears streaming down her face no I can’t know I don’t want this she said and backed away from me. I’m sorry I got rough I say but she keeps backing away please blue I didn’t mean to I’m sorry I got carried away I say. No you’re not all you want is to get into my pants and I’m not one of your many sluts you can fuck around with she snips. And turns around did she really think I wanted to get in her pants if I did I would of already done it she is wrong to think that. Blue I yell but she is gone I need to get her back before mica gets her. I stare at the distant figure I need to convince her that I love her cause I do.
chapter 6
Blue
I fuckin kissed him my lips burn. What have I done this is wrong so wrong what have I done. A stabbing pain hits my head and I fall my world goes black and fuzzy for a second. I look up and its Mia she glares at me and I feel weak she bends down you whore fuckin whore she says and I feel her knuckles smash across my cheek it stinks. And I have the urge to scream cause the stink got worse you think you can just steal from me she says and I feel her knuckles come down on me harder. I yelp out the oh the pain it burns I know what feels to be helpless. Her knuckles hit my stomach and I bite my lip and I feel my teeth sink in my lip you will pay you stupid fuckin bitch she says. And I see james the james the one with the dog. What the fuck are you doing he hisses and he shoves Mia away hard making her slam into the locker he puts his hands under my body and scoops me up and slowly puts me over his shoulder. My lip is split and I have a huge cut on my head from her. I can walk James I say but I wince when I speak cause my I breathe in. no you cant wheres my cousin damn it he was suppose to walk you around school he says. You mean damon I say and wince when he moves me causing pressure on my stomach yes damon he says and walks me out of the school and I wince when the air hits the cut on my lip and forehead. I think I might go to my aunts cause this isn’t working out and im getting beaten up in a constant loop of pain and memories.
I feel tears slid down my face god it hurts god it feels painful. And without knowing I put my head in james neck and sob out cause I cant do this cause im breaking like a glass all of me is scattered into a million pieces and I cant find any of them there gone. James holds me and lets me cry I know his shirt is soaked in my tears momma had to leave me why couldn’t it be my dad he was mean and cruel my mom was sweet and caring. The burn in my throat increases and I feel like someone just poured gasoline on the fire sending my body into a fire a internal flame that wont go out
I sit on the counter as my uncle cleans up my cuts. Im sending you to your aunts blue I cant have this I cant have the teacher always phoning me saying that your getting beaten up tomorrow im sending you he says and I all I can do is nod cause if I say anything ill break into tears and I shatter and I don’t want to shatter. Go pack your bags he says and I slowly get off the counter and slowly go to my room. I pack all my stuff that I need or want like my cloths and stuff I pull out my ipod and stare at it. That was the last thing my mom gave me when I was younger and that’s all ill have left of her.
The next morning comes up and I get out of bed slowly I feel tears brick my eyes. I don’t want to cry cause then ill shatter and I don’t want to shatter. Come on blue my uncle says and I nod grabbing my bags and stuff I don’t bother getting dressed or anything. I just go down stairs and get into the car and put my music in. my uncle sighs I curl up into a ball in the back seat and cry cause that’s all I can do I cant fight ill be sleeping in this car for two days.
We're falling apart, still we hold together
We've passed the end, so we chase forever
'Cause this is all we know
This feeling's all we know
I let the music take me away from here from this place. Bye damon bye south Dakota I watch the small town slowly disappear new start new life here I come. I sit back and smile cause I know life will be better. I laugh and my uncle stares at me and smiles. But tears slid down cause I loved damon.
Bye
damon
this isnt the end of the book sorry lol
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Tag der Veröffentlichung: 07.12.2016
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to my sister who was there for me when no body was there