It was so cold but the news was what the coldest to me. He was very cold he had nothing he had his eyes closed but I could tell that he was not happy about being here.
“Mam your husband is in really bad shape. He can not be left alone. You need to help him to not sleep more than an hour a day. If he sleeps for more than that, he could die. I am so sorry.” The doctor looked right at me as he said this news that hit me like a 10 ton boulder.
“I will take care of him. All I ask is there a way for me to get some help either with money or with someone who can take care of him when I am at work.” I was on the brink of tears.
It had been a whole year since the car wreck yet my husband was still in major shock. We lost our twin Daughters. They were my life. No they were our life. My husband loved his little girls so much. When they passed he was gone, since he has started to come back but no way near what he used to be. I love him anyways. My name is Naomi I have blonde hair and neon green eyes. I have short straight hair. My husband’s name is Chris he has straight black hair. He is very tall and if only he would stand he would dwarf me in size. We met when we were really young I mean we are only 24 now. We had our girls and when they passed it seemed as though my husband would never want any other kids. I am 8 months along with our twins one girl one boy. I am happy to be having them but I wish my husband would come back to himself fully.
“We will be able to help with both. You are pregnant so we will help with money and if you have someone close to you that you would like to help you then just send them to us and we will let them know what needs to be done for him. How have you been doing?” The doctor said as he looked from me to my husband.
"Me and the twins are fine. I hope that these next few months will be fine." I said while holding my stomach telling them to help me take care of daddy.
"Well we will call you when he is ready to go home goodnight miss."
"Thank you doctor."
Man I thought that this day would not come. My husband is still in shock but now he has to live on limited amounts of sleep. Who could even help me with this? The name seemed to just float in front of my eyes. Jarred. He has been my husbands childhood friend, and mine to. How could I not have thought of him before. Owh the kicks started. I think it may have been to much stress for me to be having while pregnant. The second kick seems to confirm my thought. I speak to my kids a lot. They seem to like it. They calm down and seem to fall asleep to my thoughts. I can tell that when they are born they will be very close to me. My girl I hope will be like the first two that sadly I had to lose. I should tell you why we were in that car reck. It pains me to talk about it but before you go through this journey with me you must know. It was a group of drunks and you could tell just by how they were driving. They swerved to the left then to the right. I was driving so I stayed a good 30 yards behind them. It was dark out and my two girls were singing to their favorite song “I’m a little tea pot.” They were only 4. I had stopped on the side of the road to let those behind me go because the drunks seemed very far ahead of all of us now. When I got back on the road it seemed to be ok again for a good ten minuets. Then all hell broke loose. It looked as if the road in front of us was on fire. My girls stopped sing and started to scream. I was just about to try to turn around when I was hit by the person behind me. We were being pushed toward the flames. By now the screams from my two little girls had stopped I did not dare look behind me for I knew that they were not there. At least not mentally there. I put on my brakes so fast that my husband hit his head on the dash. His head rolled back and his eyes closed. He had been knocked out. I was the only one that could handle all this anyways right? I had to get out of the car the back was so crunched I knew right when I stepped out and saw how bad it was that my girls were dead. So I went to the passengers side and opened my husbands door and dragged him out of the car. I went to open my girls door when the ambulance showed up. I guess some one must have seen what I was doing and called cause this ambulance pulled right up to my Van. They asked if any one else was in the car I told them yes my twin girls were in the back. They had to use the jaws of life to get them out. They looked really scratched up. They were covered in blood from their blonde hair down to their little toes. It was the worst thing for a mother to see.
“Do you want to hold them? They are gone miss but it may help ease your pain.” Said the tan strong man that had gone into the car to get my girls out.
“No it is best that they just get to the morgue in our town before their father wakes up and see’s them. I am fine I will have to be strong for them and him.” I said holding my ribs so that the feeling of me falling apart would not come true.
I still can see their bloody faces in my nightmares, even though the people that had my girls bodies did a great job making them look like before. It felt like he just knew when to walk up to me.
“Hay Naomi, You ok?” Jarred said as he ran up to catch me from falling on the concrete.
“Ya I am fine. You always have great timing.” I said.
“Ya you almost falling is fine. Whats wrong? You heard the news hu? I told them not to tell you. I mean hello you are el pregnentae.” He said as he looked from me to my stomach.
“Your point yes they told me but I am fine I was thinking about my girls and the accident when you walked up.” I hate when he uses my pregnancy against my strength. “ Even 8 months pregnant with twins I still can get your butt in a head lock.” He stepped back at this he knew I could too because I have.
“Hay want me to drive you home? I know that Brianna brought you here.” Jarred said trying to say sorry for what he said.
“Sure, why not you only hurt my pride.” I threw back at him then gave him a hug to show that I forgive him.
“You know that I am sorry right?”
“Of course Jarred.” I gave him a little smile.
Me and Jarred have know each other for some were around 18 years. He was there for me through thick and thin. He was my husbands friend only for 14 years so I have known him longer. Jarred, Chris, and me we all hung out. Everyone thought that I would marry Jarred. I liked Jarred for a while but it seemed like we were just better friends. He in fact hocked me and Chris up. I thought that me and Chris would never work but well here we are today. Ya here we are today. He is not even here but he is still the love of my life.
“You ok you have been very quite that is not like you at all. What is on your mind?”
“I am just thinking of how me and Chris met to be honest. Hay do you remember when you first told me that he liked me?”
“Ya how could I forget. That was the first time you slapped me. and not the last.” He whispered the last part as he rubbed his check as if he could still feel the pain.
“Hay I am sorry about that but I thought you were just trying to play with my emotions.” I said as I gave him a little girl smile.
I remember all that me and Chris went through. I was the total normal dating girl. Chris was a very well kept to himself guy. He never dated till me. I thought that maybe he was against dating at all and well I kinda got the feeling that he kinda looked down on me for dating. I wish that I would have not go out with anyone but hay I can’t go back.
“Hay you want me to stay with you tonight just in case something happens? I don’t really want you alone. If Chris was here it would be different but he is not.” Jarred said looking at my stomach.
“Sure. You can sleep in His room.” I said as I opened the door to my house.
“Wait are your telling me that you and Chris don’t sleep together?”
“We do but just not right now cause of his illness and my being pregnant. He came up with it don’t ask me.”
“Oh well thats good at least he is keeping you safe.”
“Why do you say that like you are not his best friend? It seems like since my girls passed you have been harder on Chris and more like my big brother.” I said turning around to look at him.
It took him a while to answer in the mean time we moved to the living room he sat down on my couch and I took my chair.
“To be honest I blame him for what happened to your girls and I don’t want it to be you next. I know he is my best friend but I have know you longer. As for the brother thing I have know you for 18 years. I am the closet thing you have to a brother since yours passed.” Jarred said turning to face me.
“Thats true but Chris was not driving I was. It is not his fault at all. You need to know that it was my fault not his.” I said as I stood to walk to my room to cry.
He stood to and walked up to me and gave me one of those teddy bear hugs.
“Naomi You must not cry. You must not worry. Let me take all this stress from you. I am sorry I should not have brought up your brother.” Jarred said as he hugged me while I cried.
The time just seemed to stop. Jarred was the best person to help me through this he had the mind to know what I needed. After my cry fest we decided to just watch our favorite movie, The Secret Garden. Ok so it’s only my favorite movie. Jarred put it on just to make me feel better. I laid my head on his shoulder like I used to back when I was really little. That is were I feel asleep.
This nightmare was new to me. I had seen her in the crash and in the nightmares with my girls. This time it seemed that she had her arms around a man. I did not recognize him at first, but he was a handsome man. Then he spoke, it was Jarred. The women looked back and saw me. This was the first time I had ever seen her face. She had black hair as black as night, her eyes were as red as the blood that was covering her pure white teeth. Her dress had a slit up to her hip and looked as if she had just been picked up from a bar. She had her hand a little to close to his lower back and front.
“Naomi, are you ok?” Jarred said shaking me awake.
“Oh I am so happy it was just a nightmare. Did I wake you?” I said looking up at him.
“No I have trouble sleeping remember that is why it is best that I stay here with you. So you want me to take you to your room?” He said as if he planned to carry a 8 month pregnant woman with twins.
“No I am fine right here if you want to move it is ok but I don’t mind either way.”
“Ok then I will just stay put.”
I was back asleep before I knew it. Normally my dreams don’t just pick up were they left off but this one did. It looked as if I had walked a away for a while because things were more heated up when I came back. The only one I watched was Jarred. I had known him to be a loner all his life so to see her having this much affect on him was very disturbing to me. At some point I almost puked. They were now very far into their dirty show. Then Jarred pushed her away and off of him. She of course was in protest to this and tried to remount him. He then threw her to the other side of the room. He then turned to me and started to cry. I guess that I missed the fact that I was not pregnant in the dream until they came running in, Artemis and Apollo, I still have no idea how I knew their names.
“Mom! You need to come back to us. This is wrong to take part in and you know it! Come back home with us!” Artemis yelled at me.
“This is the way it must be. I can not leave now we are almost done.” I spoke with out even knowing it. My head was not saying that it was saying. “Help me”. Then I looked to a mirror and saw that I had black wings and was a sorry form of myself I looked evil.
“Mom you may say that but we know that it is just her speaking through you. Mom you need to come back you left us at 5 to fend for ourselves, before that you were a great mom gone but you loved us and were fighting her. We have now picked up your fight!” Apollo looked so much like his father.
They both had wings. Apollo’s were different though. He had one pure white and one black as the night it’s self. His sister Artemis had pure white wings, she looked so pretty. When I did not respond Artemis flew her self at the woman. Jarred had moved to my side now. He had his pants back on. His arms went around me and his head came right down on my shoulder. His lips started to move and said “Maybe I was wrong, I am sorry about what I caused and brought on you and your kids. I know they will defeat her and save you and me. I am so sorry about all of this.” After he whispered this to me he kissed me. It was forceful but when I did not pull away from him he made it more gentle. After I looked back up at the mirror and saw that he had wings much like mine black as hell it’s self would be. We looked so evil yet trapped. The fight was still going on and then Jarred pushed me to the ground and blocked the girl from me.
At this I woke up. Jarred was there right by me. He was awake but only just.
“Jarred? Are you awake?”
“hum...... Ya why? You ok?” He said wiping the sleep out of his eyes.
“I had a horribly real dream. It had my kids me and you in it. It was so weird.”
“Oh. Wow that is weird. What did your kids look like?” He looked very awake now.
“Well my daughter looked like her two sisters before her. My son, he looked just like his father. It was odd though Chris was gone. Like I mean he seemed to be dead.” I said as I held my stomach.
“Wow that is really odd.”
I was looking at him and realized that he was a little like the man in the dream. Not the whole man hoe part but he was different then when he was little. I guess you could say more grown up but it was not so. Just then I felt two kicks. The twins were up. Since this dream I now felt as if they should be here already with me. I knew I would name them as I had in the dream. They fit those names anyways. They were already so close to being with me now it seemed as if they should just be born today.
“Oh my gosh! I totally forgot.” I said putting my hand on my head.
“What? Whats wrong?” Jarred said reaching for my stomach.
“I have a check up for the twins and me today.”
“Oh. I could drive you be ready in like 10 min ok?” Jarred said as he jumped up to get dressed.”
“Oh uhm ok thank you I will just get changed.”
We were done and on our way in a half an hour due to me. Hay what can I say I am a girl I have to look pretty. We were only around the conner anyways. I had just looked over to Jarred when she pulled up into my hospital. I saw him staring at something and looked and saw her. It was as if the twins knew who I was seeing and wanted to just fight her now. She had the same look on her face as she did when she was on Jarred in the nightmare. That woman had everything but the wings.
“Jarred can we park in back?” I said clutching his arm.
“Sure, but why?” he said finally looking back at me and not at the woman.
“I have a horrid feeling that woman is up to no good.”
“Oh ok. Are you alright though you looked kinda pale.”
“Sure I am fine will be better when I am with my doctor.”
The kicks were almost telling me that they would be born soon. It seemed as if they sensed her here. We parked and walked up to the door. She had gotten back in her car and left. It seemed that Jarred went back to normal as soon as she left. It took a while for my doctor to get in because of her too. I guess she was a patient of his. He seemed to be hypnotized the whole time he was with me. He told me that I was really close to my due date. He said the twins could be born anytime.
“How great! I hope that Chris will at least be able to see me off and return from the hospital with them.” I said to Jarred and the doctor.
When I got back home it was like the hospital knew that I wanted him home cause they said that Chris could come home and that Jarred was cleared to help us in this. So Jarred and I went to get him and found that he needed more help then I thought. He could sleep only an hour every three hours. I would have to be very carful when I go into labor someone else would have to be either with him or with me. Who could I trust with this?
“Is there any way that when I go into labor that someone from the hospital can come and make sure that Chris is ok?” I asked Chris’ doctor.
“Yes I would personally do this for you to make sure nothing goes wrong ok?” He said with a sweet little boy smile.
“Thank you so much Dr. Taylor.”
I was so happy to have him with me Jarred drove and I decided to sit in the back with Chris. He had his head on my lap.
“My love are they ok?” Chris said as he touched my stomach.
“Yes they are due very soon in fact.” I was so happy to hear him talk about them like he used to talk about our girls.
“That is good. May I sleep now?” He asked looking so tired.
“No, I am sorry my love but you need to stay awake for 1 more hour.” I said before I leaned down to kiss him.
His lips were warm but had lost the fire that they once had. We were silent most of the way back. Chris just looked from my eyes to my stomach. He kept rubbing my stomach and I could tell he felt them kick a few times. This seemed to make him smile a little. This made me really happy. I had to pretty much beg him for our twins.
“Naome, have you though of names for them?” Chris said with his eyes looking, searching into mine.
“Yes, I have an idea. I had a dream and I want to name them Apollo and Artemis.” I said looking at him asking with my eyes if he liked them. His kiss told me that yes he did like their names, before he ever said it.
“I love those names for them.” He finally said after our long kiss.
“I am glad. I was worried that I would be unable to talk to you about the names before they were born.” I said running my fingers through his soft brown hair.
We were sadly home a lot sooner then I thought we would be. This meant that our talk was over.
“Jarred, would you help chris with his equipment?” I said finally remembering that Jarred was there.
"Sure, I can help my best friend." He said smiling at the ver sleepy Chris.
When we went in side and got Chris' alarm set up it was about time for him to sleep. When i got him laying down on our old bed I decided to sleep with him so that I could get on his schedule. When we woke up it was almost 5 o'clock. I hope up and just decided to start on dinner. I made Chris' favorite, Macaroni and cheese. I know it is a little kid thing but hay I like it too they taste so good.
“So what you making?” Chris said as he hugged me around my waste.
“Our favorite.” I said letting him rest his head on my shoulder.
I could tell that Jarred was a little weirded out by all of this, but he is both our friend so he just turned a blind eye when ever we kissed.
“The twins are doing so good Chris. I hope they will be born soon. It feels so weird now for them not to be here.” I said holding the his hand that was on my stomach again.
"I am glad my love." Chris said after he kissed my neck.
At 8 I once again slept with Chris. But this time when we woke up chris asked if I would just continue to sleep so that I could be up with him tonight. I agreed since I know he would want me to help him at night and it would be more comfortable for him and me. I really do feel for him. He only gets one hour of sleep already it was making my eyes hunger for sleep. I finally woke up at midnight. Chris had woken up again as well. I could tell that this was torture to him. His eyes were very puffy and red.
"You look so tired Chris." I said before I realized it.
"I am tired, by the way Jarred is in my room why?" He said lifting one of his very sleepy eyes in a confused look.
“I told him to sleep in your room. I did not think you would mind.” I said asking with my eyes if he was mad.
“Oh ok, I was just wondering if he did that on his own or if you let him.”
“Ya, I let him sleep in there. I am so happy that you are finally able to be home. To be honest you seem to be more yourself now. Not the same as before the reck but better then before you went to the hospital.” I said as I started a thumb war with myself.
The night was cool. Chris and I just talked all night long. It was great, almost like the old days but then again not at all we did not have our girls after all. I did not dare bring them up at all. I knew this was good and bring that up would make this bad. I have missed him so much. Now with him here and his arms around me again I feel like nothing could go wrong, I was very mistaken. The night was long but calming at the same time. It was so cold I had to get him and me like 10 blankets. I started to feel really sick. The twins had not moved in a long time. I was starting to get a little worried. Chris knew something was wrong.
"Are you ok? The girls don't seem to have moved. That and you look so pale." Chris said looking at me with wide eyes.
"I am not feeling to great..... wait did you say the girls?"
"Ya the girls our twin girls. Did something happen to them? Did one pass or something?" Chris said with his eyes filling with tears
"No hunny uhm we were having a boy and a girl remember?" I said hoping this would help him come back and forget the girls completely.
"We were? I thought we had twin girls? Well at least I will not be the only man in the house now." He said not tearing up anymore.
It was heavenly to be able to sleep with him for an hour. I only wish he could sleep more. Hay maybe soon he can. With him not remembering the girls it is possible that he will go back to his old self sooner. with this thought I woke Chris up.
"Darling you have to get up."
"I do? it's been an hour already?" Chris said clearly still tired.
"Yes, I am so sorry. Do you still want me to wake up Jarred now?"
"Yes, you and the twins need your sleep now. You look a lot better but you still look kinda pale." he sad touching my stomach.
At that I got up and went to wake up Jarred. He looked like a wolf pup when he was asleep. This being the first time I ever really saw him in a deep sleep I took longer waking him up as to prolong this look. I walked over to the side of the bed and reached to touch his shoulder to wake him up but just as I tried he opened his eyes. It was so weird to see him look like that. I mean he had always been my friend and had always seemed cute in the little brother way but the look he had right when he opened his eyes made him look like a man who is handsome yet lost all he ever had. 
"Jarred are you up to watching Chris?" I asked planning to ask him later if he was ok. 
"Oh, yes of course. You look kinda pale are you and the twins ok? If you need me too I could call Dr. Taylor for you." he said going back to the way he always was (worried).
"No I am fine. I just need to sleep for a really long time." To be honest I was still worried about the twins. They were not as mobile as normal.
Jarred hoped up gave me a hug and helped me into my bed. It was nice but, I felt weird having him tuck me in like Chris used to before he had to leave for the hospital. After I was tucked in and Jarred had left my body relaxed and I welcomed the blackness. The Nightmare was not as bad as the last one, but it was mean on my part. Before I could even say anything to my kids. The dream me walked into the room. It looked to be a much smaller house then this. It was Artemis and Apollo alright but they were much younger like 4 or 5 years old. The room had Dark black curtains and a light tan floor. Artemis was in a black dress with white trim. It looked like something a goth teen girl would wear on halloween. Apollo was wearing a cute green turtle neck sweatshirt and some black pants. His hair was white though. It looked as if he had a faint glow too, while Artemis had a dark tinted glow around her.
"Mom how long will you be gone this time?" Artemis said with her little british accent.
We had never been to England but for some odd reason her and her brother both had a British accents.
"Ya, Mom how long? I miss you so much when you are away." Apollo said grabbing on to the dream me's black dress. It looked like something I would wear only to a funeral.
"I won't be back. You guys are old enough to take care of each other. I am to report to our Goddess now." I said pushing Apollo away from me and looking at the door not at them.
"Mom, you can't leave us not yet. Daddy still has yet to return to us." Apollo said looking hurt. ( I hated seeing him hurt like that even though he was not born yet. )
"Your father is dead! He is NEVER coming home! He died the day you guys were born!" I screamed at them finally looking at them but with what looked closer to hatred then hurt.
"Mom, though dad is not coming home we still need you here. We will need you even more now that we know that daddy will not return to us." Artemis said sound much to old for her age.
"I am done with you guys now! I have done what I had to! I am leaving and not coming back! Goodbye!" The dream me shouted at them then running out of the door.
I was so shocked at what I saw next. I saw my son break in front of my eyes. His light glow turned tinted like Artemis's once was. Her glow then took on the light glow that Apollo once had. I had not noticed Apollos hair turn as black as night until Artemis screamed.
"Brother look!" She screamed while pointing at Apollo's hair.
"I don't care sis! Mom has left us for good. I don't care that I have been cursed!" Apollo said looking at her with more pain then I could bear to see on my child's face.
I did not notice that I had left the house till I saw the sun faintly rising over the Rocky mountains to the west. I saw myself not more then 10 feet from the small one roomed house of which I had left my kids. I was leaned up against a tree I had tears running down my face and I was whispering to my self.
"It is only the best for them. I would have only hurt them more had I stayed longer. The Dark Angle would have came for me. She would have killed them. It is all I could have done to leave now. I spared them by leaving. Besides I can't even keep a good hold on my mind anymore. I was starting to look at them as she dose, useless. I know I am wrong to think that as she is but her thoughts are now becoming mine. I need to give up and join her now before she takes me over and ruins all the rebel forces through me. I must go now!" The dream me said all to herself while slowly slipping down the trunk of the tree and crying.
It was at this point that I woke up. It looked like it was still early in the morning. I took the blankets off to see a very horrible sight. There was blood on the sheets. The only thing I could think of was that i had been stabbed or had scratched my self really bad while I slept.
"Jarred!" I screamed not moving cause I was to scared to look at were the blood had come from.
"Naome! What is it are you ok?" Jarred and Chris said running into Chris' room.
"Chris you need to leave. I am sorry but you can't handle this." I said pulling my blankets back up so Chris could not see.
"What happened?"Chris said looking at the blankets which I later found out were also covered in blood.
"Chris let me handle this you need to get your sleep now. I will take her to the hospital now. I am sure it is not that bad." Jarred aid pushing Chris out of the room.
"Now. What happened?" Jarred said looking wide eyed at me.
"I wish I knew. Just please can you tell me were if the blood is coming from my stomach or not?" I said starting to cry.
"I am just going to call Dr. Taylor ok? I am sorry but I can't really handle so much blood." Jarred said as he turned to walk out of the room.
It took Dr. Taylor 10 minuets to get to my house. He washed the blood off of me and told me that there was a cut on my stomach but it did not harm the twins. He said it was a very close call though and he suggested that I not be allowed to sleep alone. He also said that it is better to have Chris sleep ever 2 hours now since he is doing so well but ease into it at first. So for a little while we will have to stay awake while he sleeps to make sure he stays with us and his breathing is fine.
"If this is to much for you Naome I can have a nurse come in and take care of either you or your husband. I can also take care of the cost of it being that you are my best friends daughter." Dr. Taylor said.
Yep Dr. Taylor was my dads best friend before he passed away. It was nice of him to be helping us so much but i had a feeling that it would be best to start to just look to him as my doctor not my friend.
"I am fine no need for all that." I said probably looking like a little girl who stole a cookie. "By the way how did I get blood all over my stomach?" I asked the doctor getting really worried.
"I have no idea to be honest. I think it may have been from your nails or the bed. It looked more like a sharp object then nails though. I think you may have rolled or squirmed over the edge of your bed and got cut." he said looking at me with worry in his eyes.
"Thanks doctor. I am glad the twins are fine. I will heed your advise no more sleeping alone." I said while having a farewell to him.
"Well he sure seemed worried about you."
Chris' voice made me jump. I had forgotten that I had probably made him so scared.
"Ya. How are you doing? I am so sorry for how I treated you." I said looking at him and feeling his pain and hurt.
"I am fine just worried about you. I understand why you did what you did." He said as he walked over form the inside of the door to my bed side. "May I sit?'
"Of course you can." I said as I held my arms out to him.
He knew as he always did that I was in need of a hug. His arms fell right were they always did, right on my hips. This hug was the best and one I would not soon forget. I felt safe and at home. A feeling that for so long had been missing. It was at this moment that I knew he was my strength, my reason to fight. I knew that I was his reason to fight too.
The sound was not one I recognized. It was loud and like a really loud siren from a cop car. Then I realized it was my stupid alarm. I didn't even realize that I slept. What I last remember was me resting on Chris' shoulder then nothing. then dark. I suppose that must have been when I gave into sleep. The light outside was blinding. It was about 12pm from what I could see. I had no idea that I had slept for a whole day until i came out in to the living room and found the calendar on July 8th. Chris was up with Jarred playing his new Halo game. (Boys) I rolled my eyes at them, but they did not see me at all.

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