Do you ever think that there is another person that might be your other half? Do you even have another half or are some of us ment to be lonely? Why do we act the way we act is it mandatory ? Are we acting out our feelings to trick others into thinking we are normal?
The only way to anwser these questions is if we go so deep in side of ourselves we will find the key to finding our feelings.Use that key to open other things about yourself even you yourself didnt know. Explore what no other person can explore. Explore the one person you should trust to lead you to the light. Yourself.
There are two pathways. One is the light and the other is the dark. Only you can choose for yourself. Be a leader and see where you get yourself. Somewhere great i hope.
What am i doing with my life? Shouldnt I be more productive and "get out there?" I say to myself as I sit down at the most popular bar in town."Maybe you should , if i was a s fine as you I would have a boyfreind for everyday of the week'' said an unknown voice.''Did I seriously say that out loud. Why the hell am I such a idiot?"
"Honey don't sweat it. A fine lady such as you shouldn't be as uptight as you are now." Said the mysterious person.When I finally take a look at him he isn't bad looking. He is actually kind of hot."Thanks darlin' I really appreciate the compliment but, sorry I don't roll your way."
"So, you mean that your gay........OMG! Sorry I didn't mean for it to come out that way.Sorry it really was an accident."I stuttered out embarassed.
Its okay not many people believe it at first. So, what brings such a pretty lady as yourself in to a bar lonley if I might add?" He says while raising his left eyebrow.
"Nothing a little vodka will fix or make me forget about......Sorry I didn't mean for it to come out like it was a threat or anything!"I say with a loss of words.
"Stop apoligizing ,accidents happen ok."
"The reason is that...I...caught.. my boyfriend.....cheating on me with my .....bestfriend."I say trying to hold onto my tears.All of a sudden I hear a chair being scraped back and feel warm into big arms that make me feel safe so, I cuddle into them and let my tears out since the 'incident".
"Oh honey, you poor thing just sitting speaking to you for a couple minutes lets me know that you are a good person and deserve waaaayyyy better than that jerk", he said in a country accent.
"Sorry , for making your shirt wet and..... for crying on you.... and for yelling at you", I sniffled out. "Hun it's no problem at all so why dont you clean your pretty little face up and let me get you a drink. It's on the house", he said with a toothy grin.
"Sorry for the inconvenience but, what is your name? Mines is Tiana but, you can call me TT or Anna". i said with dried tears on my face. "well TT my name is Jayden your new gay best friend. Extra emphisis on the word GAY" Jayden said with a wink.
My face immediately went red from remebering what i had said earlier."Oh, and stop saying sorry I'm m ore thyan happy to help you. Last note ytou look cute when you blush."
"Thanks so much I've never had a best friend and this could be really fun," I said with a wink. I was about to go to hug Jayden when in came the person I saw pounding into my best friend." Tiana , I can explain what you saw can you please just let me ex..." he said on the verge of tears.
"No", I said as i cut him off,"what I saw is embedded in my mind and at this point I really could care less what you want me to hear .You broke my heart for Mariah my bestfriend. So, come to my house tomorrow at 8:00 on the dot or all of your stuff will be outside for you to pick up", I growled at him.
"But Tiana I ju..", I cut him off again.
"NO. I NEVER WANT TO SEE EITHER OF YOUR FACES NEAR ME EVER AGAIN . STOP APOLIGIZING TO ME I AM TIRED OF YOUR BULLSHIT JACE. WE ALL KNOW IT'S A LIE SO FUCK OFF!"I yelled at him.
At this point everyone in the bar was looking at us and some just looked mad and others just looked shocked.
"We will continue this conversation later so, don't think this is over", jace said with tears running down his face.
"Sorry about that everyone you can just forget whatever happend in the past minute or however long that took", I said with a smile on my face. "TT was that your ex?" asked Jayden. "Yes, I have really bad taste in guys right"< I say with a slight awkard chuckle.
"Eh.. He's not as bad as you think he is he started to get crazy after he started drinking again due to stress and the stress is because of work", I say desperately trying to explain his actions while walking out of the door.
Tag der Veröffentlichung: 19.10.2016
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This book is dedicated to all of those girls who still haven't found the right man for you to enjoy all your beautiful lives.