She turned her head and looked away. Her hand was up to her cheek with her fingers curling a strand of her golden hair. “Jase,” She whispered in a shaky voice, “I just can’t see you go through this pain anymore. I can’t stand seeing you upset like this.” Once she turned around to face me, my eyes pierced into hers. “You aren’t the same anymore, and sometimes I feel like you don’t even love me.”
I was drawn back by her words. How could she say such a thing? “Do you understand what I’ve been going through? Do you ever feel how I feel?”
“No. But that doesn’t mean you have to treat me like I’m nothing.”
“When have I ever treated you that way? When has there ever been a day I didn’t tell you I loved you.” I felt my voice go shaky on it’s own. I swallowed hard and looked at the ground. “You don’t understand the things I go through. I should just leave you alone.”
“Jase, I’m sorry..”
“No. No you aren’t. You're not sorry till you live a day without a father or mother, haunted by the soul of your little sister, and treated like you’re the dirt people try to get off their shoes.”
“We’re done here, Jase. Don’t talk to me for a while," her voice fell silent for a moment, "I’m sick of you making me feel bad.” Tears fell from her dark brown eyes and her makeup ran with it. Eyes gleaming as she could barely speak and turned around, calleing out to me, “Good luck getting through this without me.”
I couldn’t say anything. I stood there and my knees buckled. Unbelievable, leaving me when I need you most. “I can’t..” I mumbled to myself. I turned around and trudged off to my car, getting into the passenger seat and gripping onto the wheel. I cursed multiple times to get the anger out as I looked to my right and spotted the golden envelope. To prove to you my love lasts forever, read the top of the envelope. I opened it once again and read the letter I’d written to her. The diamond ring fell in my lap and I picked it up to examine it, bubbling with anger and frustration. I started the car and opened my window, throwing it out as it landed in the grass.
Never in my life had I felt this much pain. After the many deaths that have occurred, the death of my heart was by far the most painful. She’d managed to take my heart and rip it to shreds with simple words. As I got to my apartment, I slammed the door behind me and sat on the couch. Tears poured down the skin of my arms and my eyes stung in pain. I cursed under my breath and kicked my shoes off, laying back on the couch, soon crying myself to sleep. That night, the recent events flashed before my dreams. As I was asleep I felt a dark presence pulling me under to a malevolent hell.
No. No longer will I let this take control of me. This sickening depression will ruin me no longer. Are you happy? Are you happy that you’ve finally taken everything you could possibly take away from me?
‘Yes..’ The voice said. I jolted awake and my eyes searched within the room. My arms were shaky from fear. “He’s there...” I whispered, “He’s still there.”
Tag der Veröffentlichung: 25.07.2013
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To everyone who's ever suffered. To anyone who thought that one moment would be the end. This story goes out to those people who thought giving up was the right option, when it never is.