Hi, i'm Caitlynn. I am a typical middle school girl. I have brown hair that comes a little past my shoulders. I am in 7th grade. I am about 5'3". My best firned is Kiaya i just met her this year but her and I have every class together. She is very short she has short black hair. She is pretty cool i mean she is just like me,not normal. My guy bestfriend is Cameron but i call him Cam for short. he is about 5'1". He has black hair and needs glasses but refuses to wear them unless he HAS to. My boyfriends name is Nathan he has short brown hair, has glasses but got contacts. I try to stop by his locker when i can because we are in different cores so i barely ever get to see him. I have known him since the begenning of 6th grade. Him and i have Japanese and French class together i really liked him but i was to afraid to hear his response. But, at the begenning of 7th grade i told him "I kinda like you." he didnt respond (we were messaging eachother on facebook). i said "u there?" he said "ya i'm just thinking." i responded "about what?" "that i like u too." i said "well what happeneds next then?" with a big smile on my face. "Caitlynn will you go out with me?" he asked "Yes." i replied and that is how we came to be a couple. Honestly, him and i really like eachother nothing broke us up yet and there has been alot of crap that has tried to hurt our relationship but nothing has got to it.

At school i have a great group of friends Rayne,Kiaya,and Kristen. Kristen is in Nathans core so we only see her in gym. A couple days ago Rayne,Kiaya,and I all got paired up for an algebra assignment that it'd be awesome right? Well it was until we relized we did it all wrong the whole class was calling us stupid,and dumb,and that we were the stupidest people in the whole school and that we shouldn't be on a "smart" core they didn't relize how bad that hurts me. I know it doesn't seem much to you but if you had my life you would understand why it made me cry for days and it came up again today my sister who is 7 she is in 2cd grade. She calls me fat,ugly,stupid and worthless. The only people who ever care or see it is my Grandma Barbara, and my older brother Andrew he writes books about zombies on this (thewalkingdead141414)you should read his book it's good ,but see i made this so I could tell MY story and MY life.

Some people don't relize how one word could hurt someone so bad for so long. Ever since last year since people have said i was a Ugly, Stupid, Worthless ext. And my family started treating me different i was cutting myself i FINALLY told my brother about it he told my mom and my mom talked to me about it. Everyone says that it's no big deal that i felt like that it was a stage well it's NOT my parents sent me to a theripist and she kinda helped ,but they didn't allow me to go anymore (my parents). So i started cutting myself and hurting myself i had thoughts of suicide ,but my friends and grandma got me through it I am ONE of the people who deal with this middle school crap and drama ,but i am one of them who at first didn't get to me ,but that has all changed how EVERYONE treats me and how they FEEL about me and the RUMORS they spread they just don't relize that people like me who used to never get messed with started to and they go home and cry everyday NO ONE understands us that is why i wrote this i am going to make it like a journal.

No one seems to get me i wish i wasn't so alone. People always tell me it's ok they are just mad at you for some reason ,but i'm like i honestly don't give a rat's crap about them ,but what they say about me they should say it to my face not go around telling otherpeople that. NO if you got something to say to Me or about ME say it to ME!! I just feel like if i was gone no one would notice my best guy friend Cam likes likes me and he says i'm to pretty to have so much crap ,but when i look in the mirror all i see is an Ugly, Fat, Dumb, Worthless Creature people tell me i'm pretty and skinny and smart but i'm not i have a "C' in science and social studies and I am failing algebra ,but the reason i'm failing because this annoying kid i had to sit next to in the beginning of the year would not shut up ,but I asked the teacher if i could move my seat she said yes and i didn't have my glasses at that time either. So my grades have improved ,but my grade was so low it didn't pull it up alot.

My parents oh my gosh i can just tell they like my brother and sister better because they get better grades, their prettier than me, never get in trouble as much as me, it's like their perfect to them it's like I AM NOT THEM WHY CAN'T YOU JUST EXCEPT ME FOR ME AND LET ME BE MY OWN PERSON MAYBE I MIGHT NOT GO THE WAY YOU GUYS WANT ME TOO ,BUT I WILL DO WHAT'S BEST FOR ME WHY CAN'T YOU JUST DEAL WITH THAT?!And i wish my dad helped make it easier for us not easier for him. It's like my 14 year old brother and I are the dad of my 7 year old sister. I wish he would care for my feelings too. It's not like when you wanna just smack us acrossed the face we don't wanna just kick u in the shin! When you wanna hit us we wanna hit you too. See we aren't just kids we have feelings and we have oppions too! Care about our feelings, our rules, and our oppions then we'll respect yours!

I got to go to bed now it's like 12:30 nighty-night DATE: NOV. 10 actualy NOV 11.now since it's AM nighty-night i will post more tomorrow i guess.

Hi it's Caitlynn again. it's 10/10/12 I am already having a terrible day it's sunday so I don't have any school today. I am supposed to go to hunt club for my friend's birthday party ,but my mom isn't letting me because of my grades even though she said i could go yesurday and she let me R.S.V.P. No one sees how hard i'm trying to get my grades up. I study, i'm staying after on wedsday for math tutoring I am going to ask my algebra teacher if I can take the tests i have failed and see if that helps ge my grades up.

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