chapter one Gone and suprises
I laied in my bed with my music on loud trying to block out my mothers moaning from fucking an guy.I rolled my eyes kinda used to this since forever.My mom never cared about me she ignores me every day No eye contact no saying hi or I love you at each other.Nothing.But truth is I still love her no matter what she says or puts me do.I yawn as my eyes became heavey with sleep my eyes shut as the world became frozen in my time.
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I woke up snd rub my eyes and took out my headphones.I yawn and got up from my bed and went to the kitchen and saw mom sitting on the old broken run down couch. "Mom?" I ask she just started art the wall before her lips moved with words "Pack your things were going on a little um...ride" She trailed off i did as i was told and pack my guitair clothes make up shies everything i need.And went to the couch but not finding her there she must be in the car I thought and went out side and saw her sitting there inside the car.I grab my things and put them in the back seat and sat in the front seat.She did nothing for a few seconds the turn the key making the car roar to life she pulled out and began driving silence filled the car.I sighed and put my headphones in and blast it loudly.I shut my eyes for a few mintes but them opening them fast as the car jointed to a stop in a gas station. She grip the staring wheel and reach something in her purse a folded up pice of paper and money "Here" she shoved the money and not in my hand "go bye me something that food" I nodded and got out of the car and went inside and grab some chips and reb bull for me.
I paid for it and went outside but saw no car and saw my stuf and the floor I blink for a second then got angry and kick the wall "What the fucking hell! This is compeltly bull shit! Fuck my fucking life! UGH!! II scream then grab my stuff and then I sat on my guitair case and open up the note had two pices of paper one was my birth thing from the hostiple and the other was writen by my mother it read "Dear lovely Iris I hate to do this but I can handle you no more I need to fix myself....Im lost in drugs and liquar and myself...i need to fine myself again...Look for your father He doesnt know you but show him the other paper for prove that your his daughter....His name is kellin Quinn....I know this doesnt make sence but um you need to stay away I hate you your nothing to me but a freak good bye..." Tears pour down my cheeks as I read that sorrow filled me I bite my bottom lip trying not to sob out loud but this was to much...I knew she hated me I just knew..
I ghed and wipe my tears and went to the libarey to do some reserch on my father It said Kellin quinn male arist of an band called Sleeping with the sirens will be playing at warped tour in Millsland at Michigan Tickets on sake hurry they go quickley! I stop reading and walk out with my stuff.I hated my life right now.I did before but know? its ways worst.I sighed and called up an taxie at an payphone I waited ten mins. then got in the back Then sun was rising high in the sky shing in my blue eyes.I look back down and saw warped tour infront of me I paid the driver and got out I was sweating under my sweater and jeans I hurrny in the thing and saw a lot of girls in the shortest shorts and in bras........Um.....Akward....I heard price the veil playing Caraphernelia I smile and started to head bang a little Then stop and hurry back stage "exus me Miss you can NOT come back her" The guard said then he put on a creepy smirk "unless you show me a little something" He wink and stared at my chest IK shook my head no and back away "come on its a good deal sweetie" He grin wider i shook my head no again He was about to say something but a guy said "Ew get away you creep from her shes like 15" I look at the guy it was kellin Quinn...........My father.........He staared at me like he was trying to remember something really hard then he smopke up you remind me of this girl I meet 14 years ago" He trailed off getting lost in thought.
"Yea um..thats why im here actally..." He look confused and I spoke up again and took the notes out of my pocket "h-here Im Iris y-your daughter" He had no emotion on his face he took the papers and read them over and over and look up at me then drop the papers "it cant be" He mummble out then look at me ass I became a little light headed from the heat...I felt my face paled and stared at Kellin "Yea um sorry I-I leave you...t-this n-ever happen" I cough he shook his head no "No your my daughter...I think...." "and your my dad....I think..." I traled off before coughing a whole bunch i fell to my knees and put my hands around my throat as no air went in me "Someone help!" He scream people rush over at me my vison blur ad darkness overwhealed me...
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chapter two.....the cat did it.........
I woke up and kellin was there just staring at me with sorrow and pain."What?" I ask He said nothing before speaking up "how long?" "What?" I question he drop his eyes to my arms that cover in cuts and scars.i hid them behid mmy back "t-the c-cat did i-it" My voice went hirer as i lied he got angry "bull shit! Tell me why you would do this!" I got angry to "you know what?! I dont need to tell you shit! Your just kellin Quinn! And singer and a so call dad! I dont even know you!" "then why did you fucking come in my fucking life?!" "because my mother said you would help me! I should of know that drug head lied to me! Everybodys lies and hates me! O look at me an worthless girl! Your fat and worthless and patheic! Kill yourself you stupid whore! Your nothing but an mistake! Your just shit!" I screa, at myself before breaking down on the floor screaming how worthless I am over and over. I felt arms wrap around me tightly.I cried on Kellin as I broke down "why am I so worthless?" I cried into Kellin my body shaking from my sobs.He rub my back "Your not" He said simpley He squeez me tighter crushesing me."Kellin were on now!" someone said running in the room "Hello" The guy said at me and smile I wipe my tears and said hi back no smile lighten my face his eyes drop to my arms then back up to my eyes..his eyes fulled full of sorrow then look at kellin "come on!" He said "Im going Justin chill your dick" Kellin said I smile and laugh a bit then Justin said "This dick will never be chill!" He started to hip thrust.
Kellin laughed and look back at me "ill be back" I laugh "yea thats what my mom said right before she left" i laughed he sighed and got up and push Justin "Go you dumb ass" "alright alright"e said then left with kellin and slam the door.I sighed then did nothing but sat.
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