chapter one Deep breaths

I look down on my feet sweat beams falling down slowing off my for head.I took deep breaths my heart pouding with the drum beat.Screams fill my ears.I lick my lips as the curtion drop down the screams grew louder as my heart beat.My head dip up at the fans and everyone with smiles on there faces.A cheeky grin creep on my face.The stage lights shone down at us.Liam Nial Louis Zayn and I.I grip the microphone in the plm in my sweety hand.I brought the mic up to my lips "Hello lovelys! How are all of you!?" Scream grew louder in oks and goods. "That's good how about you Louis?" I turn towards him as he smile at me "I'm doing just fine how about you" "Perfect" I answer simpley,but I'm not."So now were going to sing for all of you!" Liam said into the mic as screams grew to the loudest.

The music started to live while we're young.

We hit each note perfectly but I knew I wasn't doing my best I just need to try a bit harder.The song ended and girls clap and cheer for more.The lights dim a bit as we walk off stage to change into other clothes and get a sip of water.We change and I saw Niall eating a bag of chips getting crumps all over him and our clothes desinger yelling at him.

 

I shook my head and smile at the boy.Then I look up and bit my lip as the thought came back into my head.Terrible singing try harder.The thought scream at me I tried to ignore it but coundn't it always comes back."Two minters!" Someone scream shaking me out of my own little world.

 

I sighed and grab the mic and meet up with the rest of the lads."Harry are you alright you look a bit glum?" "Yea just fine" I mutter Liam stared at me as i rose and eye brow "what?" I snap but din't mean to."Sorry" I mutter and let my head fall down as my curls fell in my bright green emerald  eyes.We went back on stage with all smiles plaster on our faces but my was fake don't get me wrong but I love my fans and the lads and everyone but my singing isn't like theres,Theres are better more soothing more better but mine? Is just stupid.

 

Before I knew it the conert was over.We were back in the stage sitting on the couch.The other lads laughing while me just stayng quit lost in thoughts."Harry!" Someone yelled i slowly look over to louis and the other lads with worry expresions on there faces "Yes?" "You look kinda depress latley..." Zayn trail off while i just blink with no emotion on my face."Are you?" Niall ask "Am I what?" The boys sighed "depress harry" I shrug one shoulder "I don't really know..." I  trail off getting stuch in my thoughts. "Want to talk?" Liam suggested "No." I said and got up with there eyes fallowing me "Now will you exus me" I walk off i don't where maybe to look around and think.

 

I open the door and went outside.The cold wind made me shiver but all I thought was derpress.Am I? I don't know truly...Maybe I am....

Chapter two Why cant I be....perfect

I sat on the bus looking out the window watching the little raindrops glid down the window slowly.I sighed as thoughts came raceing back into my head.I hate myself yes I know you suppose to love everything about yourself well...I don't I really can't.I'm so un perfect.Why does mostly everybody say I'm perfect? Is it all just a joke? Probaly..Like every fan see's me harry the "Perfect" One.But that is all lies.Everything is lies.

 

I put my face in my hands trying to figer out stuff."Harry?" I look up to see Louis leadning over me "Hm?" I answer "Are you alright? because you left for hours yesterday and we all got very worried" "I'm fine..." I said but it came out like an question.Louis sat down next to me and said nothing but only stare at me with his bright sky blue eyes."I know you Harry and I can tell you simple lies" He sighed then keep going "Please tell me what's wrong I want to help" I stood up and glar at him "Help? I don't need help" I said and walk away leaving louis hurt and confuse.I put my head down in shame.My shoulders slump as I walk.

 

It was rainind outside like usally in London.The weather not to fun.A bit glooming.I grab my coat and open the bus door not looking back.Rain fell making my hair fall down wet and stright.I flip it outof my eyes and keep walking its just rain I mean what so bad about getting wet? Its like an shower but with your clothes on.Nobody was outside cars were passing by quicky spalishing water everywhere.But I'm still trying to figer out if i'm depress or not...maybe I'm just really insecure about myself...or maybe depress....I hope not I cant be more un perfect...I relized I been stranding in the road for an long time lost in thoughts.I keep walking then I head a buzz my phone was ringing.I look at it and saw 18 miscalls..oops..i answer Louis "Where are you Harlod?!" I frown he knows I dont like the name harold "Walking..." I trailed off looking around "Well you been gone for an hour your going to get sick and i want tea so come back and make me tea bye!" He hung up I chuckel a bit at his sassyness well he is louis.

 

I turn around and started to walk back growing board.I started to sing lightly to myslef "Your hand fits in mine like its made just for me but bare this in mind it was meant to be I'm- "Bloody hell! Your THE Harry styles!" A girl scream I turn around and saw an teenager with brown log hair and brown eyes staring at me with a big grin on I smile to my dimples poping out."Yes but please be a bit more quited" "O oops sorry" "its fine" It got really quited until she spoke again "may I have an picture with you please" "of course" I answer she pulled out her phone and stood next to me we both smile as the phone bright flash went off. "well thanks Harry you made my whole day..or life" "No need to thank me" "ok bye love you" "love you to ,babe bye" She giggle as I call her babe.

 

I rolled my eyes playfully as every girl goes crazy over love or babe but its just how we speak....So its nothing to big..well to us of course.I saw the bus an open the door and seeing all the boy waiting."Harry meeting now" Liam said "Yes mother" I smile playfully but he din't smile back...I sat down in betweenNiall and zayn.."Ok me and the other lads been thinking nd seeing how you act Harry you been eating less and glooming around like some dead person You are derpress its the truth and we want to help you and see why" Liam said slowly so I could get every word."I don't want to talk really" I sighed and played the end of my coat.Liam nodded "we understand come on lads lets go" They all stood up."but remeber harry where here to speak if you need us" "Ok whatever" I mutter softly.

 

they all left leaving me on the coauch to think to myself....I am actally derpress....

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