As my mother once told me "Lux you will find the right guy for you. The one who will make you smile even though he has not said one word, but it seems as if he said everything you wish he could have said. Trust me dear you will know it when your time comes". Although back then I did not believe one word that my mother said to me that day. I still kept it in my mind when I was feeling down from who knows what upset me that day. Even though back then I was not really the usually American teenage girl that everyone expected to see. See I thought that I should like myself for who I am and not what other's want me to be because honestly how happy would I have been then, if I listened to every single word that ma or pa said to me. Lets face it if I did my life would be a total mess from here on. I did have the beauty that most girls wanted. That perfect body where if you wanted to bend down to reach something then you did not really have to been down all the way down. I was not very tall then. five foot and one-half inches. Even though around this time I stop growing so I am still the same size I was when I was fifteen years old. You would think that with having a nice body, being beautiful, and having a family who had tons of money that my life would be just like a fairy tale. Well here is the honest truth my life was hell back with my real family. They wanted me to be something that I was not at all. I eventually got out of Hollywood California and moved to London and loved it there. Amazing sight seeing and not to mention very nice and welcoming people too. Of course not all were that welcoming as they could have been, but hey I am the new girl what do you except me to fit right in with every one. No way! Well this is my story.
Dear Ma and Pa, December 25, 2010
I love it here in London. I have met a lot of nice people, and the family I am living with right now are so nice and kind to me. They told me I already feel like one of there children. There is one other kid here, my age to he is just not to thrilled that I am here living with his family. I know he will open up to me once he See's the nice loving girl that I really am. His name is Cody. We go to the same school and all his friends think he is so lucky to live with me and all this good stuff. They have pets like we did at home, well not a zebra, but honestly what family has a zebra? I miss strips tell him I love him and miss him but I had to find out who I am and will be home soon to come back and get him. Love you, and tell little Bree to be a good little girl and to listen to you and Pa
With all Love,
Lux Marie Cassidy
It was a Monday morning and I was about to get ready for school when I realized we had the day off, for whatever reasons the school had, but hey I get some time to myself and my new family too. I am beginning to fit in at school. Slowly each day I get new friends. People are starting to call me a popular does not help that I come from Hollywood, California. Which everyone thinks that everyone there is rich? Yeah, so my family was rich and had money but I never thought of myself as a rich girl. The only time that I thought I had many advantages over some of the girls in London was that I had my man skip. My zebra by the way. Well anyways I was laying in bed thinking of what I shall do with my day. Maybe go site seeing. Its only been a month with me living in the house and I have been so focused on my school work and everything that I haven't really been out of this city. I could ask Dylan who is old enough to drive me around. I am also old enough to drive but still have to take my class up here in order for me to drive. See if I was in Hollywood then I could be driving in my nice new BMW that my Pa got me for my sweet 16th birthday party. Anyways the family who I live with "The Salvitor's" actually like this young man where my family would be totally against it if he did have money of any sort which is why I hate money. All it does is ruin peoples lives, and I don't want that to happen to mine. I want to be able to live life where no one thinks I am a stuck up snob with a lot of money. I want to be a marine biologist some day. That way I can help sea animals since other than a zebra they have always been in my favorite lists.
The Salvitor’s said that it would be fine if Dylan and I went roaming around. So I can see where I live by and when I am able to drive here, and where I can drive to. Well I still have to call Dylan. I pick up my cell phone and call Dylan. "Hey Dylan do you think you could pick me up to go site seeing? I will pay for gas and everything else?" Dylan replies.” Yes, we can go site seeing, and no Lux its fine. I have the money for gas and everything else. Does your family know that you are going?" "Yes, I already asked them and they said it should be fine, well see you when you get here". I hang up the phone and patiently wait for him to arrive at my house.
See Dylan and I, you could say we are best friends, or you could also say we are dating but the thing is we are just best friends. Maybe something will happen in the long run, but I don't even know how long I am staying and if I am going back home soon? So I don't see the point in starting a relationship with him. I like him and all, but I am afraid if we start anything now that we will love each other and if I decide to move back home with my real family then I will be breaking his heart and thats not fair to him. I could always bring him back home. It may seem selfish but I don't want to take the chance of having my family hate him then disowning me because of the guy I decided to date and take home with me. I know I came here to find out who I really am without the help of my families money, but they are still apart of me in some way and that will never change even if I want it to.
Dylan finally pulls up to the drive way and I am ready to leave the house. I have been waiting for ten minuets yet it has felt like a million years, guess I am just that excited. I see him and give him a big hug. It has been three days without seeing him because he has been sick lately which really sucks and I have been to busy with school but he knows that I have not forgotten him. I am just focusing on getting my future all set and ready. I had Mrs. Salvitor drop me off and give him some chicken noodle soup his favorite. Well I am just glad I can talk to him today. Maybe even tell him that I really do like him more than a friend, but I don't want it to end badly because my family is selfish and would disown be for not dating a rich guy, but like I said in the beginning. Who are they to tell me what to do in my life including Ma. What I don't understand is why Ma and Pa would be so upset about me and Dylan when Ma told me that one day I will find the right one out there for me. What if Dylan is the right one? It feels as if so we were meant to be together. Whenever he and I are near I feel the sudden urge of delight like when a mom sees her baby for the first time and she never wants to let go of her baby, and she will do anything to protect that little child. Well its the same with Dylan. I would do anything to protect him because I have feelings for him like I have never had for any other boy. I really think he could be the one. I pondered on the question. Should I tell him that I think I am ready to start a relationship even if it involves
my Ma and Pa to dislike me for a little bit. What I can tell Ma is that before I decided I ever wanted to come here she told me that I would find the right one for me, the one who doesn't have to say anything to make me happy he just does. Well I am pretty sure thats Dylan.
We are almost to the first stop and he asks me "Lux do you want anything to drink?" I politely responded "Yes, please. I am quite thirsty. Want me to go in with you" "Yes, I would love for you to come in with me" So we walk in the doors hand to hand. Yes, I know we are not dating but you see girls holding there friends hand all the time so why cant Dylan and I hold hands? I think it is perfectly fine so whatever. The lady at the store told us that we are a cute couple and all the nice things a person could say. We both giggle and start to blush a little bit. I go and get our favorite drinks. Mountain Dew. I get back to the register and he is waiting there patiently there for me with his eyes the color of ice cold water. I have thought this since the day that I first met him, that he has the most perfect eyes any guy can have, although he tells me that its a lie and that my blue eyes are better than his will ever be. I smile as we walk hand in hand, and he asks me what I am so happy about. "Dylan, I am happy that we are here now and I have a great friend like you" "Lux, there is something that I really need to tell you" "I look bad, I knew I should have wore that other outfit." Dylan laughs a little bit "No, you look amazing like always. I just wanted to tell you that I really really like you a lot. There has been something I have always wanted to try with you" Lux smiles. "really" Dylan leans forward and kisses her on the lips. Of course I don't mind so I keep kissing him as if we were the only people in the world. As I look around I see others clapping and smiling as if we were in a movie and this is the happy ending. "Dylan, thats what I was going to tell you too, is I really like you a lot. You are nice to me. You make me smile when I just wanna go in a conner and cry because life can really suck at times, but when your around everything is alright until you leave. I think I am really starting to fall for you" We smile at each other while all eyes are on us and we walk back to his car. I cant stop smiling at the thought that I actually kissed this boy who I've told everyone that is just my friend not a boyfriend, well I don't think that is true anymore. Only time can tell for that. Our kiss was amazing by the end of the kiss it felt like my first kiss. I know it was not my first kiss but it was for sure better than the first kiss. It was just simply amazing in its own little way.
Well my day was sadly but coming to an end. There will be a lot more sight seeing tomorrow. I found out that my true love was clearly Dylan Mitchell, and that I wanted to spend my life with him.
Dear Lux,
December 27, 2010
We are pleased to finally get a letter from you. I know you are having a great time in London but please come home. Your father and I are worried that you will never come home again. If this is the case please don't forget everything that we have taught you through out your years. I am sure that he will open up to you, just as much as anyone up here that doesn't know you would. Does the family you have any money. They have to or else how are you surving? Oh trust me Skip misses you with all of his heart. We can all see that. We go and visit him everyday and he only eats and drinks enough water so he can survive. He clearly does love you more than anything ever could. The bond the two of you share is incredible and someday you can tell your child about him. Which better not be soon young lady. I am too young and beautiful to be a grandma.
Bree is being a good little girl. She misses you a lot. She has a picture of you in her room and talks to it as if it were really you. You should call her sometime. She would really enjoy that and I know me and your dad will love it to. I know you are making safe decisions. Take care of your self.
Love you,
Mom
Oh Ma the things you say. I know you truly mean this letter to be good and loving but really. Did you have to say do they have money? Not everyone needs money to live and enjoy life. There are a lot more other things than money and buying everything that nobody else can afford because they are living off of a low income job. If only I could tell her that in person, and what does she mean everything she has taught me? What to be a selfish little girl. That is all she ever taught me, and well dad has never really been around enough to get to know me or even his two year old daughter Bree who I usually end up taking care of and when we go into the store everyone thinks she is my daughter anyways so Ma does it matter if I get knocked up because people already think that I was? Besides the fact that if I was to have any sexual intercourses that I would be more carefully. Its like she has never heard of the plan B. Wish that I could call Dylan and let him know about the response that I got from my Ma. Boy would he be more than angry at her. Its nearly Two AM and I need some sleep so goodnight. Cant wait to tell Dylan what my Ma said. I shut off the lights and suddenly I hear some footsteps coming towards my bedroom. Oh no who could this be?
Of course I see the door finally open and guess who it is? Cody Salvitor. "What do you want Cody? If its about me moving back home its not happening. I am sorry I like it here and I am much happier than I was with my nagging parents" Cody sighs "Sadly enough Lux its not, as much as I would love to pick on you its something else" Cody shows me the school news paper. "Cody, I was about to go to bed and you woke me up for a schools news paper? Thanks that's what I always drept about." Cody replies in a joking matter "I always knew just what you wanted didn't I" "Oh Cody just shut up and tell me" he hands me the newspaper and I look threw the papers. "So its just a bunch of news about the school and the sports so?" "Lux keep going" I flip to a few more pages and I see a big headline saying "Young Love; Miss Lux Cassidy and Dylan Mitchell" I jump off my bed and start laughing and giggling. "I mean who would do a pathetic little story about silly old me and my love life. I mean come on school news paper its not that important" Secretly I am saying in my head awwww how cute. Let me see that artical so I could hang it on my wall and fall asleep to mine and Dylan's picture of us kissing. I guess the way I was looking was all cute to Cody. I knew he would warm up to me eventually. I smile at cody and say "You can take it but I am going to bed. Goodnight Cody" "Nah, Lux I don't need this picture here have it." I smile as he walks to the door way. "Cody?" "Yes?" "Thank you" he smiles at me "your welcome. Now goodnight sleep tight. You need your beauty sleep the way your looking" I smile and laugh "Your so funny, goodnight."
I finally get into my covers after putting the picture next to my bed. Goodnight all of London and have a swell night as for tomorrow. I will be seeing you in my dreams. I slowly pass out as my day turns into another wonderful dream.
Its 5am and its time to get ready for school. I dance around my room all excited to go and see Dylan after yesterday! I cant help but to not stop smiling because I know he is all mine. He is not what you expect a girl like me to date. He is kinda on the dark side. He has been into trouble, but day by day Dylan and I are working at his nasty little habits. Mr. and Mrs. Salvitor thought he would never change but look what love can do to you. It can change you for the better or for the worse. I finally get into my closet to pick out what I am going to wear. I finally come to a decision. My favorite American Eagle Mini Skirt and my pink american eagle flannel shirt. I am a little obsessive over American Eagle items. They are all so adorable, and well American Eagle fits my pale skin and blonde hair with blue eyes. I am 50 percent German. Ma says that is the best to have in your because they are all so pretty but to me I am just an average teenager. Everyone is beautiful in there own way. I hear my name being called by Mrs. Salvitor. "Lux you almost ready to go?" "Yea, I am just getting my jacket." I walk down the stairs and see that she packed me a lunch. "Thanks Mrs. Salvitor. I could have picked something up at school it would be fine with me" They don't have very good food, and I know its not what you are used to." "Its fine honestly. I don't need my chief. It was nice having one but not everyone needs them. Thank you. I really appreciate it"
She is so nice when it comes to this kind of stuff. My Ma or Pa would have never took the time out of their lives just to make me lunch. I mean just one day is that going to kill them? Oh well. We start heading out the door when Cody realized that he forgot his backpack. That's really hard to forget. Just kidding. How in the world do you forget that oh well. We wait five minutes before he finally gets outside and I text Dylan and make sure that he will be at school and he reply's "Of course love I will be coming to school. Do you think I really could miss today after yesterday?" I smile and lock the message and then suddenly we pull up to the school parking lot. I say thank you to Mrs. Salvitor and then walk into the building. I see Aubree and I say hello to her. She talks about the picture in the schools news paper and tells me how perfect Dylan and I look together. I smile and say thank you. Is this how my whole year is going to be. Unless something happens that nobody will like me for. Which to be honest. I hope that never happens because I love all my friends out here. They are all so nice to me. Aubree and I go sit down when she suddenly says "So did you do you Bio homework?" "Ummmm... We had that?" Yeah he only gave us the paper before school." "You got to be kidding me Aub's I never even did that. I totally spaced on that. I mean I never forget anything you know that. What am I going to do?" "Lux, calm down you know he will give you a break since you are like the best student in his whole class. He says that you might be able to graduate early." "Oh, really that's cool." While in my head yes that means that I dont have to deal with high school anymore. No more teenager drama that goes on in this building. Thank god. I finally see Dylan in the hallway. I go running up to him like its been a million years without one single drop of rain. I never knew I could miss someone so much in my life time. He is in my first hour class which is the easiest one in history I swear well anyways a hour went by and by that time my notebook was all I heart Dylan.
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