I thought about the birth, giving life to a monstrous boy, and to my innocent baby girl, leaving with her. I looked at the hell hole where I would have been trapped, then I turned away and left. memories played back in my mind...


A darkness that consumed me and swallowed me whole. White noise filled the air, I felt weightless as if I was drowning, slowly sinking and then it struck me. I chocked, unable to absorb air, was I truly dying?


She lay in the bed, her matted hair spilled across the pillows, droplets of sweat covered her whole body, her chest rose and dropped, her weak feeble body could not hold the thing within her. Her skin had lost all colour, she was pale and looked like clear glass, her eyes closed in an endless sleep but she flinched as it moved, the bump dominated her and she could not cope. The humans refused to have her in the area once they found what she was carrying, yet they were fine with us being here, the weak pathetic humans feared the unknown but yet again they lived within the dark. When I had seen her when I was young, I knew it was different, she was made to be mine and I hoped that she survived.


Drowsily I opened my eyes, the light was so bright that I flinched but then all the pain flooded back to me, I was covered with a thick white cover and in a large soft bed, sat asleep by the bed was the blonde stranger. I moved slightly because it pained me to stay in this position, then his eyes flew open and looked straight towards me. I cowered away.


His soft silky voice reassured,"Shh it's ok, I'm not going to hurt you," A tear slipped down my face at the memory of when he did hurt me. I chocked out," Yo-uu hu-rt m-e be-fo-re," His eyes widened then he shook his head. He made a reach for my hand but I pulled it away. His swirling honey eyes looked deeply into mine and he pulled a sad face, how could he dare pull a sad face when I'm like this. I felt a vile substance rising up in my throat and I leaned right over to the side of the bed and accidentally was sick all over his shoes. I wiped my mouth and shakily leaned back against the headboard. I whispered out an apology then closed my eyes peacefully but I was deeply shook up and my stomach felt like it was butter being churned.


I heard a familiar tune being hummed and I drifted off into a deep sleep. I remember the song my mother use to sing to me, was she my mother? She wasn't mary, but she looked so familiar, I listened to the song being sung.


It was a sweet silky tune, almost like the hush or the sea or the noise of the breeze.

Here in the forest,
dark and deep,
I offer you,
eternal sleep.

Then I remembered what happened when I was five.

I woke up screaming, it was now dark, the room brightened up by the stranger coming in but when the room eluminated, I saw my mother.

I stuttered but then I realised she wasn't the woman I remembered, she was more kind and gentle and didn't have the evilness and fierceness of the person before me. My eyes widened and she nodded gently. The stranger burst threw, then said harshly," Mother, go away, your frightening her," I shook my head then grabbed my mothers hand then hissed at the stranger," She's my mother, not yours," He just looked at me with disbelief and went to feel my head. He cuddled me then murmured into my ear," Honey, your running a fever, she isn't your mother, she's mine," Her clean crisp voice cut over his humming in my ear and she said," Christain, she is my daughter, but your not my real son but your like my own flesh and blood," Feeling sorry for him, I stroked his hair then said," The tune you were singing was what she use to sing to me," I had no idea what was coming over me, how could I possibly have feelings for this man, I don't even know his name and he is a were! He did this to me, I'm falling into this places trap.

He left the room swiftly, dragging my mom along, I waved bye and she did too. I closed my eyes and I fell ito a deep deep sleep. I was starting to remember everything...


I felt like I was standing on plain glass above the world, clouds surrounded me and I could see the forest below.

I snuggled up to the warmth of my mother, inhaling her exotic spicy perfume and the smooth feel of her silk dress, soon my eyes began to droop, then my body went limp.

I fell down and down to the forest and landed with a thump.

The harsh icy wind blew at me, almost knocking me over, I cried for my mother, for my father, for my sister but no one helped me. I was stuck in deep, grubby black mud which clung to me as a second layer of skin, I gripped close my dear china doll and wailed some more. The mud was knee deep, it was dark and the bright glazing moon was out in all of its glory but I was terrified, I was only five years and two days old, I was too young to die. The twisted black trees tried to claw at me, the mud tried to devour me whole and the darkness left me blind. An eerie howl sounded but it got louder and louder, there were more howls now but then I heard the sound that changed my life forever, a blood curling scream followed by a second scream. I felt strong with determination, I threw my doll to the side, then started to yank myself out of the mud, praying for a miracle, I was out. Shivering in my tiny long blue silk dress, which was now torn, muddy and ruined, I ran and ran to the sound of the screams. I tripped over a log, scrapping my knees, but I continued to run, sharp thorns and branches scratched me and red ran onto my dress. I was in a small clearing near the road, tipped to the side was the carriage, the horse was laying almost dead on the road, its deep black eyes crying for a quick painless death which would never come, I walked over to the horse and her breathing was ragard. I picked up the rock near her head, then swiftly dropped it. She was out of her misery, she was torn, her guts spilled onto the floor but whatever had done this was sick, leaving a poor horse nearly dead in this state, I looked over to the carriage and it was torn as well. I had to admit, I was terrified beyond belief, all I wanted was my family and to be curled up beside them. I saw a long trail of blood, I followed it along then entered another clearing but the trees were more spreaded apart.

I realised, I had killed before, but yet I left my mother to die in pain but she didn't really die.

My vision went red, it was a blood red, I touched my eyes and pulled back. Was I crying blood?

Then I saw them, tall creatures almost wolf like but stood upon two legs, their breath smelt like rotten flesh and the smell of damp and decay was overwhelming, they had dragged my family here, there was many decaying rotting bodies here but none of them were recognisable as human as they were shredded beyond belief. The largest was stood over a body... It was father! I fell to the ground and silently sobbed for the loss of my father, if he was dead then it meant they would be too.

I felt a warm breath tickle the back of my neck, I was too terrified to look behind me, I heard light snarling and I knew one of those things was behind me. I closed my eyes, just waiting to be struck dead but the blow never came, shaking I turned around and there was the creature. It was a light golden yellow, its fur stained with blood, its sharp teeth were dripping with saliva but were a shinny white colour, I didn't look it in the eyes because supposedly thats the one thing you don't do with wild animals. It took a step forward, It was only a small one, taller than me only by a bit but it was a creature none the less.

Timidly, I looked up to see what it was doing then the sharp golden amber eyes stared into mine, I was frozen to the spot, I heard the screams of my mother and sister. Quickly I turned around, picked myself up off the ground as I began to run to the clearing, the creature jumped on top of me, it was just playing with me, giving me a small bit of hope then crushing it. It had me pinned to the ground, its sharp claws cut my arms and I let out a little welp. Then it snarled loudly in my face, distorted words came from its...His mouth, " Shut up, your mine and I'm not letting them have you...Don't forget your mine, ever..."

I realised, that was MY christian then, he had saved me and wanted me as a child. Wait...did I just say MY christian? I felt different now, as if I was out of my child body.

Then he was gone, she picked her self up and stumbled into the clearing, all was heard was the eerie sounds of animals, she ran over to her sister, she felt for a pulse but she was dead, not a single mark on her. Her glassy grey eyes were open but lifeless, she stroked her hand over her face then closed her eyes, she crawled over to her mother. Her red dress was torn, showing skin which was not allowed to be seen, she had a large puncture in her stomach and blood continued to flow, her eyes were open but then they blinked. "Mother.." She sobbed quietly. She grabbed her hand then felt her grip tighten then it went limp, she shoved her hand away then saw what she had left in my hand, It was her most prized possession. A necklace, it was a unique black diamond but it was ragged and rough making it not that valuable but it was going to all the girl had left of her. She hugged her body, not caring if she got blood all over herself, in her last words she faintly whispered," Run, they will be coming back, don't look back just run because if they catch you they will do terrible things," She cried into her shoulder then told her that she loved her then left her to die in misery. She ran and ran till she got to a fence then climbed over but dropped from exhaustion.

It felt weird experiencing my childhood nightmare as me as a child and then experiencing it as another person. Suddenly I heard children giggling, a flash of white ran to the clearing, I chased after the child or was it children? There drenched in blood was a little girl, she had white hair in wild curls, her white dress was more a bloody red, her head was looking at the ground. She lifted her head up and she looked straight into my soul, her eyes were golden honey coloured and her high pitched voice whispered one word," Mamma," I woke up in agony, I felt deep tearing inside of me, I let out a high pitched scream, in came running was christian and mamma and a few people I didn't know also a man that looked like my christian came in.

I screamed again, my sheets were stained were blood, my breaths were laboured. Mamma held my hand then I felt an awful tearing. She whispered and told me to keep pushing. In a large pool of blood, a crying baby came out. My tense body relaxed but their was another to go, I was already feeling week and that pained me when the midwife told me there was another.
With all my might, I gave it all I had and what I thought was the last one came out. I closed my eyes, christian just stared in utter shock. My heart beat slowed down, everything seemed to be in slow motion.
Christian slowly running towards me, the midwife yelling, mother crying and others just in shock.

I felt my life drain away, I think I dying. A sharp bit of pain was felt on my wrist then it was like I had been dunked into an ice lake.
The iciness consumed me, trying to put out the burning flames and then it went black...


I was brought back to reality when the dark clouds came in and a cool droplet splashed onto my face.

I cuddled my daughter, trying to think of a name for her then it came to me, dew. I didn't know why that name but it wasn't really a proper name so I looked around me and saw a rowan tree. Rowandew, I lookd at her again, looking at her beautiful pale hair which was ghost like, if we both didn't find shelter, something bad could happen. Mud clung to my nightdress, the darkness surrounded us both, each step, my foot dug into grubby brown wet mud. The trees loomed above us, ows hooted and red eyes could be seen in the shadows but I couldn't be afraid,I had to be strong for my child. In the distance I saw, a small cottage. It was built from wood and stone, I walked faster as the rain poured down more, I could see a light flickering from inside, I banged loudly at the door and asked if I could come in, for a while nobody answered then a woman came to the door. She was young and beautiful, braided blonde hair and she was wearing a green dress and apron, her face sofened as she saw me. She gestured for me to come in and I whispered," Thankyou so much," She rushed out the room, three boys were staring at me, they were proberly around the age of ten, all with their mothers blonde hair but with amber eyes instead of chocolate brown. They looked away and continued to fight, snarling and biting at each other, the woman came in again but rushed me to a hot bath, she took my baby from me and left me to bathe. The hot water felt good and rinsed off the mud ands dirt, I dried off and got changed into the clothes left out and when I walked ino the living room, she was feeding my child with cows milk and singing to her.
She smiled at me then said," Whats her name? Come sit and talk," I sat beside her then replied," Her name is Rowandew, shes only a few days old, whats your name?" She cooed at my child then said,"I'm annabel sullvermore, these are my children, the eight year old is mark, the ten year old is sam, the eleven year old is seth and I have another son, jake but he is out with his father at the moment and he is fifteen and I have three daughters, one about your age, lilly and one about your sisters age, called sondra and then a little five year old called emilie, so whats your name?"

I smiled then said," My name is illina, Rowandew isn't my sister, she's mine," Annabel gasped at what I said then hugged me," Darling, I can't believe that happened, us wolves never do that to their own, was it a human?" I stared at her warm chocolate eyes then said confused," I'm not a wolf, I'm human, it was the wolf I met as a child thats the father,"
She shook her head then said," Your definatly a wolf, I can smell it in your blood and all over you, so your saying you were once human? ah, I get it, your father must have been Micah the wolf who left but got killed when he returned with a human family, you must have had blood passed on but been human, thats why you were left alive," She smiled at the fact she thought it was correct, I felt a bad itching then looked down at a nasty bite on my wrist, she wandered off then came back with a liquid, she poured it on my wrist and a small snarl came out.


I sighed then I heard the door open then I caught sight of Jake, his dark chocolate brown hair and aqua blue eyes, oh no why hadn't I realised it. Hs eyes locked with mine and a quiet snarl escaped his pale lips, his father wandered in and I could instantly tell where jake got most of his looks from, his father was tall with the same chocolate brown hair but amber eyes. All I could feel radiating off jake was hatred and I knew it was aimed at me. I slightly backed away from him in fear, then his angry face slightly wavered but still stayed grim. He motioned for his mother to talk to him, she gave my baby and then wandered off, then all I heard was angy shouts, I listened to the convosation.

" WHY THE HELL DID YOU INVITE IT IN! KICK IT OUT NOW!" It stung the fact he refered me as nothing but he did hate me, a cool tear slipped down my face as I continued to listen.

" Honey don't raise your voice to me, and no she is in need of help, there is no chance she can look after that baby by herself or herself for that matter, she is completely clueless, for goodness sake, she didn't even know what she was, so now tell me how on earth is she supposed to survive?!?"

There was a slight silence and in a more hushed voice jake said, his voice slightly broke ," I- can't co-ope with that THING here, get rid of the baby, mother she was the girl I was on about..." He inhaled sharply and a light sob escaped. I almost felt my heart break at that very second, did he care about me? If he did it must be torture knowing I had child with another.


My baby gurlged then she whimpered slightly, her eyes were a golden brown and she seemed different, I begged that my child wasn't going to be a monster...

Christian's P.O.V

I awoke from my slumber to only hear the light snores of my child, I pushed the warm quilt off me, my bare feet padded along the cold wooden flooring. It was too quiet, where was everyone?

I saw my maid scurry to me, panic filled her eyes and her breathing was irregular, she sobbed," Master, they are gone! She has taken off..." A burning heat of fury built up inside, my mate had left with my own blood. I had to find her and bring her back, she will love me.

I roared then shoved the shaking maid out of my way, I knocked over many vases, watching them smash into tiny pieces and wishing to tear the whole house apart. I heard a childlike wailing, I ran to the nursrey to see my baby son rolling in his crib. His golden brown eyes looked up with confusion, but my baby girl was gone. I sighed knowing it was because we were monsters but what she didn't know was that her baby would be exactly like me, she was still an infant so her eyes would eventually go to their natuaral colour and she would have a strong urge to kill and become bloodthisty, the childen are the worst as they have to learn to become remotely civil. I picked my son up, his warm eyes looked up dearly into mine and then he giggled. He had a mop of blonde hair like mine, but his sister looked like Illina apart from the eyes, the beautiful white blonde hair and pale skin but she would be more beautiful when she is older.


Illina's P.O.V

I couldn't even look at my baby Rowandew, her golden brown eyes were too intense and it shattered my heart to know she was like her father, a monster but yet again I was a monster too. Cool salty tears dribbled down my face, I let out little sobs, Rowandew reached out her little hand to me as if she wanted comfort. I placed my face in my hands, trying to hide my face from when Annabel and Jake wandered in. I gazed slightly out of my hunched over position, jake was gritting his teeth togther and his fists were clenched, annabel quickly paced over and picked up rowan dew, she quickly paced away. I heard footsteps coming closer to me, jake sat next to me and hugged me in his warm embrace and I cried freely in front of him. He looked me straight in the eyes, his aqau blue eyes were on the verge of tears. I saw one dribble down and I wipped it away.


Annabel P.O.V

I picked up Illina's child, I had noticed that the warm violet eyes were gone and Rowandew's had changed to a golden brown, I realised that must be the reason why she is crying as she did run away because he thought the father was a monster but it must break her heart to see her child be like the father too, she was sobbing but her pale hair hid her face, I couldn't imagine what she was going through, my son hated the child with a passion as he loved Illina, I could see why and we all felt a strange need to protect her, she seemed so vunnerable and broken. I watched my son sit next to her, it was silent and her pale dainty hand wipped away a tear. I turned away to look after Rowandew but she was on the floor crawling towards Illina. Oh dear...


Illina"s P.O.V

I stared as rowandew crawled towards me, I let out a little cry and moved away from her, I shuffled into Jakes embrace and closed my eyes, I listened to the faint thump of his heart, it was as fast as a humming birds. He smelt like strong pine, a deep musky scent than relaxed me.

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