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Chapter 1

 

There was a 17 year old girl named Penelope Goodman. She was “confused” about what she wanted, according to her mom. Even though she didn’t care about what her mom thought most of the time, this subject really got to her. Her birthday is close and she has some things on her mind. She began to explore boys and girls. She knew that her mom wouldn't like the idea of that so she tried to convince herself she only liked boys, which was easy, since she already had a boyfriend. His name is Jundor White. He was sweet, outgoing, and REALLY sexy but He can be a little overprotective. She loves Jundor but there’s only one problem, her very close friend, Jayda Davis. They have been friends since 3rd grade, they spend every weekend with each other. But it was this weekend that was very exciting.

Like usual, they met at steak & shake to have some food then they go to a movie. This saturday, Penelope dug through her closet and put on her white and sky blue fitted dress with white heels and a sky blue purse. Jayda was always earlier then her so when she got there jayda was already sitting down at a table. Jayda was wearing a black and red silk dress with a garnet necklace with black heels, "You look amazing” said penelope, smiling at Jayda, Jayda looked up from her phone and walked over to penelope, “you look better” Penelope nodded in agreement and Jayde rolled her eyes smiling, walking back to the table, Penelope followed. Once they sat down, a waiter came and asked what they would like, “ Can I get the chocolate mint milkshake, a hamburger with no onions and fries please” said penelope. The waiter nods at Penelope and turns to Jayda, “i’ll have the same” “copycat” muttered Penelope, and smiled. Jayda kicked her under the table and penelope jumped, “ow” Jayda smiled at that. Penelope already knew that jayda liked only girls and she knew Penelope only liked boys. The waiter came back with their food and Penelope popped a fry in her mouth, “so, how’s it been going?” “Pretty ba-, I’ve missed you.” said jayda, reaching for penelope’s hand. Penelope looked at jayda’s hand then up at her, “Jayda you know I don’t like girls” “yeah i know, but i’m not going to hide the way I feel for you just because.” Trying to change the subject, she said, “well you ready to go?” Jayda looked up at her, “can I eat first?” “fine”

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When Jayda and Penelope got to the movies, they decided on watching the conjuring 2. Penelope wasn’t worried about her mom being scared about where she was at 10:30, because she didn’t care, “Shit, it’s the weekend, go have fun”, is what she always said. The person she was worried about though was her dad. But she remembered he was out of town, cheating on her mom with a woman at his job. When she found out she debated whether or not she would tell her mom. She knew her mom would have asked him if it was true and of course he would have denied it and beat her for assuming. She felt that it was best not to say anything and so she didn’t.  They went to the back of the theatre and shared a large popcorn extra butter and white cheddar cheese, a slurpee, and a blanket. During the movie, Penelope looked over at jayda. She felt she should do what she wanted to do for once in her life. But she didn’t. It was a lot harder than it sounds, considering that Jayda kept holding her hand and rubbing her thighs. The movie went off but they weren’t ready to go home. Jayda can go home whenever she wants, her and her mom didn’t care for each other that much, that always made Penenlope feel sad for Jayda because they used to be really close but pne day things changed. “ask your mom if you can spend the night over my house.” Jayda said to penelope ”Is your mom ok with that?” asked Penelope with a worried expression. Jayda looked at her with a “duh” look on her face, “she loves you and she probably won’t even care, as long as she doesn’t see me, she’ll be fine with it.” Penelope looked at Jayda sadly, and touched her shoulder ”don’t say that” “it’s nothing but the truth.” Said Jayda, looking down at the ground. Since she did want to spend the night and it was already 12:00 she decided to just call her mom and ask if she could spend the night and of course she said yes. They went to watch If I stay and she let her urges get the best of her, she barely listened to her mother any other time, why should she now? When they got bored with the movie they left and went to the food court. When Penelope sat down at the table in front of jayda, she quickly said “So do you really like me. Like more than a friend?” Jayda gets really red and says, “of course, I mean you are amazing, who wouldn’t” “I’m so sorry, I didn’t mean to make you embarrassed.” Penelope says, smiling at her reaction Jayda smiles at her, “It’s okay, I figured that question was coming.” Suddenly, penelope had the urge to kiss her, like if she didn’t she would regret it. So she closed her eyes, leaned towards Jaya and hoped she would kiss her back. She felt Jayda’s lips on hers and she smiled, still kissing her. Penelope pulled back from the kiss and Jayda bit her lip then let it go and got out of the seat. She held her hand out to Penelope and said, “you ready to go?” Penelope put her bottom lip in her mouth and smiled and took jayda’s hand and they left, best night ever thought penelope, looking at jayda.

 

Chapter 2

 

Penelope was laying in Jayda’s bed with her eyes closed going over what happened last night in her head. She couldn’t help but wonder what this meant. Does this mean we’re a thing now? Penelope thought. I mean it was just one really really long amazing kiss she thought. Fuck, what am I going to say to Jundor? I love Jundor, why would I break up with him? She started to get flustered and panicky but calmed down when she heard Jayda enter the room and say, “I know you’re up. I made you breakfast.” Penelope smiled and thought That’s why “I really just wanted cereal but than-” Jayda dramatically put her hand on her heart and gasped, “I am so hurt. I slaved in that kitchen ALL morning making you pancakes, bacon and eggs and this is how you repay me?” Penelope rolls her eyes and looks up at her and laughs, “Give me my food.” Jayda hands her the plate and sits on the bed in front of her. “So, why are you being so nice?” penelope says as Jayda picks up a piece of bacon and eats it, Penelope pouts and yells “put that back, it’s not your food.” Jayda laughs and eats the piece of stolen bacon then says, “Do you want me to tell you why I’m being so nice or no?” Penelope cuts a piece off her pancake and eats it then nods, Jayda smiles and says, “well I want to ask you something.” “I knew it, I knew you wanted something from me. Damn,why can’t you just be nice to me out of the kindness of your heart?” “Who’s ever nice to people out of the kindness of their heart?” Penelope rolls her eyes and says, “what is it?” “Are we gonna date now?” “P, you know I have a boyfriend, that I love very much. You really want me to make a decision like that?” Jayda looks at her in disbelief, “I understand you have a boyfriend but you’ve known how i feel about you for forever and then you kissed me last night, you were really happy, you’re still happy right now in this moment. I never see you smile as much as you do with me, with Jundor ever. You’re not even willing to give us a chance?” penelope looked down at the bed then said, “You’re right but it’s hard to just let someone you love go.” jayda sighs and gets up from the bed and walks toward the door, “When you make a decision, let me know.” Penelope smacks her teeth and says, “Are you actually mad right now?” Jayda stops and scoffs than turns around, “yes, honestly, I am mad. I’m mad because you kissed ME you’re happier with ME you smile more with ME you love ME more but because i’m a girl it’s a big deal. You’re playing with my fucking emotions, do you not get that?” “I do bu-” “I don’t really care, when you’re done with your breakfast leave.” Jayda turns back around and leaves the room, slamming the door on the way, making Penelope jump.

Penelope finishes her breakfast and gerts out of the bed and puts on her jacket and shoes. She goes downstairs and sees jayda watching tv. She opens the front door and leaves.

Chapter 3

 

    It’s been a few days and penelope hasn’t even sent jayda a text message. She was sitting in her bed looking at the selfies her and jayda took the night of the incident and started to think, It’s not the fact that she’s a girl it’s just Jundor, Right? She sighs heavily and goes to jayda’s contact in her phone and hits the call button. After a few rings Jayda picks up, “yes penny?” “I wanna talk to you” “Aren't we doing that right now?” This makes Penelope annoyed a little but it's important they talk about this so she says, “In person, can you meet me at the park?” There was a long pause then Jayda sighed and said, “Sure.” “Alright see you in a bit” Penelope hangs up the phone and puts on a jacket and sweatpants.

When Penelope gets to the park she sees Jayda sitting at a bench in front of the swing sets and she gets inexplicably happy. She starts to walk faster to Jayda and when she gets to her she sits beside her and Jayda looks over at her and says, “I like you, I want to date you and I know you feel the same. Be honest with yourself. you and Jundor’s relationship has been falling apart for a while now and i’m offering you a way out and it's not like it’s a bad option because you want this just as much as i do. Do what YOU want, not your mother.” She sighs sadly and looks down at the ground. Penelope turns towards Jayda on the bench and says, “That’s what i wanted to talk you about. I really do want to be with you. You make me a better person in so many ways and I want to be with you. me and Jundor aren’t working out so, I’ll break up with him, I love him and it's going to be hard because of the love I have for him but i’ll do it, and we can date because I think that’s what’s best for me.” Jayda was still looking at the ground and Penelope nudged her and Jayda looked up, “I don't believe you. I want to but I can’t believe you.” Jayda looks back down at the ground and penelope lifts her face back up and kisses her. Jayda kisses her back and Penelope moves closer to her. Jayda wraps her arms around Penelope's waist and Penelope wraps her arms around jayda’s neck. Jayda pulls away and looks at penelope, “when are you going to break up with him?” "later on today” Jayda could hear the uncertainty in her voice. She unwrapped her arms from Penelope's waist and got serious, “If you don’t do it, I will.” Penelope unwrapped her arms from Jayda’s neck and got a little angry then said, “ I don’t need your help all the time jayda.” “Fine, I won’t help you.” Penelope felt calm again but then, “ If you don’t tell him by tomorrow, i will.” Penelope stood up angrily, “ Are you fucking serious right now? It seems like you’re trying to make me choose sides and it's pissing me off. He has been with me through so much” Jayda stands up and says, “So have I, probably even longer than he has am i right? And I’m glad you feel that way because I am. I want you to choose sides and I want you to choose mine. If need be, I will show you how he couldn’t give two shits about you if you want me to.” Penelope scoffs and says, “What the hell does that mean?” Jayda looks at Penelope, “Don’t tell him by tomorrow and you'll see.” Penelope rolls her eyes and turns around and walks away. Jayda yells, “I still love you!” Penelope keeps walkin but sticks up her middle finger.    

Chapter 4

   

When penelope got home she called Jundor but it went to voicemail and so she left one, “ Hey Jundor i really need to talk to you. I don’t think you’re gonna be happy about it but it needs to be said, call me back. Bye.” She hung up the phone and took a shower then went to bed.

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Penelope woke up and checked her phone just to see no missed calls from Jundor, she got out her bed and changed in to some clothes and made her way to his house. After a 15 minute walk she got to his house and rung the doorbell. His mom came to the door and Penelope smiled and said, “Hey, is Jundor here?” She smiles but has a confused look on her face, “ he is. I thought you were here already.” “No, i actually just woke up a few minutes ago, why do you think that?” She looks up the stairs then back at penelope and says, “Some girl came earlier and they’ve been up there for a few hours now, the song he’s been playing the whole time made me think it was you up there.” penelope was pissed but she couldn’t let his mom know that,” if you want me to, i can figure out who it is for you?” She opens the door wider and lets Penelope in then says, “Aw, thank you.” Penelope walks past her and smiles then walks up the stairs. When she gets to the hallway she could hear the music and now understood what his mom meant. She turned the doorknob and it was unlocked and she opened the door and walked in. When she could make out was happening she saw Jayda open her eyes and gasp and push jundor off of her. Penelope wiped tears out of her eyes and turned around and walked out, slamming the door, causing things to fall off the walls of his room. Penelope started to sob when she got out the house. She was about to cross the seat when Jundor came out and grabbed her arm, “ Penny, Penny come here” penelope snatched her arm away and looked at him, her eyes filled with tears, “Don’t penny me! I have NOTHING to say to you.” “I didn’t mean for it to happen, she showed up out of nowhere, I didn’t even know she had my address.” “I don’t give a fuck about anything you have to say. You said you loved me and clearly that was a lie.” “Penny, she told me.” Told you WHAT?” “That you and her are going to be a thing, and that you’re technically dating. So, you cheated first.” Penelope bit her bottom lip and punched him in his nose, he groaned and backed up. Penelope walked closer to him and yelled, “You dumb fuck, I was coming to tell you. I tried calling you yesterday but you didn't pick up your fucking phone, how's that my fucking fault!!?” He goraned holding his nose and looked up at Penelope angrily, "It won’t happen, I know you don’t like girls, I know you’re just confused, we can let this go, can’t we?” Penelope bit her lip again and punched him again, this time making blood come out of his nose, then she said, “Fuck you. I’m not confused about anything, I like girls. You can have that girl in there though, i don’t want her. You and her can both go to hell.” Penelope walks across the street ignoring jundor calling after her.

 

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 When Penelope got home she laid on her back on her bed looking at the ceiling. She grabbed her phone, which was vibrating beside her and saw that she had a call from Jayda. She rolled her eyes and pressed the decline button. A few seconds past and she called again, Penelope pressed decline again. Jayda called again so she answered the phone, “ I have nothing to say to you.” “I am so sorry Penny, it wasn’t meant to go that far. I went over there to tell him about us and then he kept flirting with me and, i just gave in.” “I told you I had it in the first place. This could have all been avoided if you would have listened to me. You are a liar and I don’t want to talk to you” She took the phone off her ear and hung up. She looked up at the ceiling and started crying. Her mom knocked on her door and she sat up and wiped her tears then said, “yeah?” “I’m coming in” Penelope looked down at her bed sheets as she heard her mom enter the room and sit down in front of her, she could feel her mom staring at her but she knew if she looked at her, she would cry. “What’s wrong Penny?” Penelope sniffled and looked at her and just like she suspected, she started to cry, “Nothing, it’s stupid, I’m stupid and I’m sorry you heard me crying but I’m fine.” “You are not stupid, tell me what happened, you never cry.” That you know of Is what she wanted to say, “Jundor… Cheated on me, I caught him.” “Aww baby, i’m so sorry, did you know who it was?” “It was jayda” “Your best friend jayda, that jayda?” Penelope nods her head, not able to say it. Penelope's mom sighs and rubs her shoulder,  “I know it hurts, that was one of your closest friends.” Penelope takes a deep breath and says, “She wasn’t just a friend, I loved her and I wanted to be with her, we were going to be together but then this happened.” Her mom was silent and Penelope looked back down. There was a silence and since her mom wasn't going to break it, she had to, “I know that's not what you want and you're probably glad it didn’t work, lesson learned.” “Penelope, I never had a problem with you liking girls, it’s just my job as a parent to teach you my religion and my beliefs. I’m going to love you regardless and if you are happy I have no place to object to that, understand that.” Penelope looks up at her mom and smiles, “Thanks. But, you don’t have to worry about that now.” “I wouldn’t forgive her for doing that, but you’re not me. If you want it get it. I’m not saying forgive her but tell her how you feel like really feel, good and bad. See if it can be fixed. Take yourself back to before it wasn’t bad and ask yourself, do you want that again and if you do, fight to get it back like that. If it was with a boy I would say the same thing. But you deserve to be happy, whether it's with a female or male” Penelope’s mom rubbed her shoulder and got off her bed and left. Penelope lays back down and sighs heavily What am I gonna do?

 

The End 

2 months later

Penelope is holding Jayda's hand as they walk down the path of the park. She can feel Jayda looking at her so she says, "What?" Jayda looks down at the ground and her lips curl up into a small smile, "So, am I forgiven?" Penelope smiles looking straight ahead, "Of course you're forgiven. I just don't fully trust you, I will, but it's going to take time" Penelope looks over at Jayda and sees her nod her head. She looks back straight and says, "Then, we can date." Jayda smiles and nods in understanding as they make their way out of the park. 

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