EACH STEP THAT I TAKE
BY: LINDSEY LIMORE


DEDICATED TO: ALL OF THOSE TEENAGERS THAT ARE STRUGGLING <3


CHAPTER 1
It started that night .Kemen and her friend Furrey were waiting for their parents after watching a movie with the usual popular group from school. Honestly those were not her kind of people she had always been quite, sort of to herself. Then one day the hottest guys in 8th grade asked Kemen out. She couldn’t believe it. She grinned one of her famous grins and said yes. Her mother had always said Kemen had the best smile, Kemen for that much didn’t care anyways she hardly smiled. So why not just give the amazing smile to someone that does? She didn’t know but she was glad she had that smile; sometimes. It came in handy a lot more than you would think. On others it was just a pretty little smile and a pretty little girl. But to Dave (guy that asked me out) it was my best feature and he was crazy about it. Dave and I had been dating for almost 5 months now. It had already moved out of school time now it was summer. We were going to be freshman on August 19, 2012. I was always caught up with him I loved him. Now mom didn’t see anything in the guy, I don’t see why. You won’t get why she hates him either I mean really why wouldn’t you love a guy like this?
6’3, tan, raven black hair, ocean blue eyes, athletic in football, soccer (ugh), baseball, track, and wrestling. Grade point average around 3.6, smart kid and very respectful. Basically my dream guy and my own mother, my blood, my family! Hates him. Everyone else my father my brother and my sister all love Dave. Yeah I know what you are thinking how could anyone not like him? Right well I did some snooping as usual. I looked at my mother’s old photos and found out that my mother Krysti dated my boyfriend’s father Cole. I couldn’t believe it when I saw my mom in his arms kissing him at an old, old football game. I had to tell Dave. I couldn’t though what would it do to us? I thought. He is too important for me to ruin. I didn’t show him the picture witch was a mistake but I didn’t know at that time.
A FEW DAYS AFTER I FOUND THE PICTURE
I was waiting beside Furrey I have no Idea where our parents came up with these insane names but everyone loved them so I guess not too much to complain about. Now waiting 30 minutes outside a theater for them. Now that was something to complain about. I was cold kind of I am never cold when I start to get cold that is bad I called my mother. Rejected call again ugh I hated, hated her right now. So I called Joey my brother he is 16. I loved him and he loved me. He never would let anyone call him Joey just me to everyone else it’s Joe or a punch in the face. He said he would be there in 13 minutes and to time him. At that I laughed I always loved the little games my brother played.
I timed him as he asked, right on time, he made me so proud. I ran up to the door highfiving him.” Your friend Furrey. Does she need a ride? ”He asked while rolling down the car window. “I’m not too sure. I will ask her just hold on.” I ran over to her “You need a ride girl?” I asked. She shook her head no. “You sure?” I asked. She nodded. “Okay I’ll see you Saturday right?” I asked while giving her a hug. Once again she nodded. I left then. At the time I didn’t know that, that moment would change my entire future as well as hers.
“So how was work bro?” I asked as I got in the truck. “Good I still hate it. I mean I love working there but my boss is a word that mom will not allow me to say around you.” He replied while laughing under his breath. “So it was great I take it?” I laughed. He smiled at that.
I loved my brother; he was the only person I could trust he was always there for me no matter what. I have always wondered what I would do without my big teddy bear of a brother. Die I would think whenever that question crossed my mind.
“So what’s for dinner bro?” I asked. He shrugged “How am I supposed to know?” giving me now one of his signature grins. We had the same features like no joke. Other than him being a boy and me a girl. Tall, super tan, bright green eyes, thin lips, dirty blond hair, and athletic in football, basketball, softball/baseball, wrestling, and volleyball. Needless to say we were basically twins. Just born exactly one year apart. Both on December 26 at 9:09 in the morning.
Well that is a lot of help I thought to myself as I glared at him. He smiled back. “You just look so happy sis.” He said grinning again. “Yeah I know... you are not funny you know?” I grinned back. By that time we were home.
“I’ll race you to the door.” I said. “Eat my dust!” he yelled. I jumped out ran and acted like I slipped. He ran over I pulled him down jumped up and ran. “I win!” I yelled, as I opened the door.
Mom was on the couch crying. Step father was holding her wrists and had his hand mere inches away from her face. “JOEY!” I yelled, “IN HERE NOW!”
He ran in “What is going on?” his voice dropping with each word. As he ran in he slowed down a little bit. Then he saw it Jeff had frozen where he stood hand same place. Glaring at us as if we interrupted a Grammy award or something. Mom stood smoothing out her clothing. “How was the movie Kemen?” she asked as if nothing had happened. “Mom are you okay? What is wrong why was he about to-” but I didn’t get the chance to finish. “Why was I about to what?” Jeff asked with a crazed look in his eye. “You know I hate being interrupted so why do it?” I asked. He rolled his eyes and stalked out of the room. When I started to speak again the phone rang.
“Babe? Are you okay?” Dave was on the other end of the phone; he always seemed to know when I wasn’t okay. “Yes I am fine I just miss you why weren’t you at the movie tonight?” I answered with a question of my own. “I wanted to trust me I don’t like being around Tasha I don’t really think anyone does.” He laughed while talking.
Tasha was his younger sister she was only one year younger than Dave and nothing like him. She hated me just like my mother hated Dave. See Tasha and Dave used to be close like scary close until Dave and I began dating. Then they grew apart and I and Dave grew together. We created a special bond.
“True, Dave why did you call me?” I asked. The silence dragged on and on. “Kemen the real reason I called you is to say one thing in a few words.” I braced myself for him to tell me “Oh it’s been a good 5 months but we are over I hope we can still be friends. It’s not you it’s me. We both know it’s not working out right now I will always be there for you.” I waited for those words I was prepared for them. It had happened to me before, the whole breakup scene. I was ready this time. The words never came though.
“Kemen these past few months have been the best 5 months of my life. Kemen I never want to lose you. You, I mean you are the girl of my dreams. I guess what I am trying to say is Kemen I love you with all of my heart and if you ever leave me I have no idea what I would do. Kemen I just I can’t explain how I feel about you.” He said.
“Dave do you think I could come over to your house right now? I need to be with someone. Please?” I asked as a reply almost breaking into tears. “Yes. Yes of coarse babe are you okay?” he asked with full concern. “Dave you knew I wasn’t okay before you asked me that question.” I said as my voice cracked, “Okay yes Kemen come on over I’ll be waiting by the door okay?” he said. On that note I hung up.
“Mom I’m going on a walk okay? I’ll be back around 11 or 12!” I yelled at her from downstairs. She threw me 30 dollars “Don’t be out to late baby okay? I love you!” she yelled down.

As I walked down the street I thought. What would my life be like without Dave? Sad I mean Furrey is always mad or sad anymore. I need to find her a boyfriend. Every time I bring it up she just blows me off. I hate it. Oh well nothing I can do I can’t force her to date. Back to Dave I never thought I would find love after what happened three years ago. My father Devin died three years ago. His best friend John was the one that was most effected. Besides me. John was the only man I ever trusted besides my brother. I loved John like I loved my father. Yet my father and John were best friends I didn’t know why. They were so different yet so alike and I loved it. I missed my father. I missed him like you wouldn’t believe.
By now I was two houses away from Dave’s. I saw his porch light I was half a step away from his house. “Hey babe! I was hoping you would show up soon!” he yelled flashing me a grin, only he gives to me. I ran up the steps and hugged him. He smelled like water and was yet so warm. It felt good to be in his arms. I felt like never letting go. I wanted to enjoy this as much as I could. It was already 8:30 by the time I got there. I had to let go. I kissed him once and started crying. I turned my head away, looked down wiped my eyes and fell on the porch right there.
Dave dropped to his knees he knew the drill. I had not eaten the entire day I was not hungry. He picked my weak body up, carried me inside and laid me on his bed. He said “I will be right back.” He ran back in with a bottle of orange juice and package of crackers. I hated when he made a big fuss about me not eating it was really annoying. He was just thinking of me witch was sweet but I hated that! He treated me so well and I don’t even deserve it!
“So why did you want to come over?” Dave asked. I honestly could not answer that question. I just wanted to be with him not really anything special. “I just wanted to be with you.” I said. “Baby you know I will always be here for you.” he said. I nodded. Honestly I didn’t know why I was there I just wanted to be with him. I started crying I didn’t know why I had so much going on I just wasn’t sure what to do! Dave took me in his arms and kissed me on the head. I laid down and he laid behind me and put his arm around me. In that moment I knew that he was the one for me, I had never had a guy that would wrap his arm around me. I was shaking so bad I thought he would let go. To my surprise he sat up took his jacket off and put it on me. I had never had a guy that would give me his jacket either.


That is what I loved most about Dave. He was different than any guy I had ever met. I turned around and kissed him. His lips were so soft and gentle he never rushed me into anything. I mean we were 15 we could handle it. He knew not to push his luck though. “Babe will you tell me the truth about why you came over?” he asked, I sighed and said “Dave I haven’t been feeling well lately and when I came home tonight, well when I came home Jeff was beating my mother. Dave I don’t know what to do and just when you called me everything slowed down and, and you were all I could think about.” Choking out the last word almost bursting into tears worse than I already was.
“Wait your step father hit her! Oh he is a dead man!” he said as he got up and started putting his shoes on. Him and my mother hated each other so why was he mad? I thought but I didn’t know so I just slowly got up walked over to him. I gently pointed his chin up toward me and kissed him and we made our way over to his bed and just made out for what seemed like half an hour I loved this I thought to myself and I let go of him and took a breath, I think I will spare the details for now. I got off the bed and fixed my hair back into place and put my clothes back into order. He pulled his shirt back down and smoothed out his hair. I was glad we had the situation of my mother long gone.
We went upstairs to the kitchen and I sat on the counter. “What do you want to eat babe?” he asked. “Your just trying to make me fat aren’t you?” she replied. He just shook his head and laughed. I laughed as well why did he have to be so darn cute? I loved that smile of his it made my heart melt. He was looking into my eyes with his eyes that were like two gigantic oceans. It literally knocked the breath out of me. I hated that feeling that I could freeze by just looking at him or hearing his deep angelic voice. It made me feel powerless; I just wasn’t okay with that.
He slowly made his way over to me. Gently he covered my hands on the counter with his. I had goose bumps when he touched me. He kissed me on the cheek gently. I didn’t flinch and at that he knew he had permission to proceed. It felt so good him close to me. At that moment Dave’s little sister Tasha walked in. Oh how I hated her I am the center of attention attitude. She looked us sighed gave me a death stare and that made me want to slap the eyes out of her! Dave laid his head down on my shoulder sighing “Why does she always do this?” he whispered in my ear. “Moms going to kill you, you know that right? You know she doesn’t want that here.” Tasha said as she walked over to the fridge grabbed a piece of pie and 2 cans of cream soda. “You know that will go straight to your thighs right?” I said as she made her way out of the kitchen. She turned around smiled sweetly and flipped me the bird. Can you believe that? I mean she never does this when Dave is around. I jumped off the counter and walked over to her slowly she stepped back each step I took forward. I raised my fist to hit her in the face but just as I was swinging Dave grabbed my waist and turned me towards him. Don’t do it no matter how much you want too I could see that in his little smile. I just smiled and buried my face into his chest. “I hate her so much Dave.” I whispered while laughing into his chest. “I know baby I know.” He said while laughing too. He pulled me away from him I rubbed my eyes and laughed again. He just smiled kissed my forehead. He put his arm around me and led me to the family room.
Did I mention that his parents are like millionaires? Yeah like insanely rich. It was weird his dad was a doctor and his mom was a lawyer. She had always envied her boyfriend’s life. Even before but now more than ever because she was embarrassed by her own home. Her own family she hated how perfect Dave and his family was and how imperfect she and her family were. Dave didn’t mind though in fact he showed her off like royalty. She loved it too. She wasn’t sure why he treated her this way she didn’t feel like royalty she didn’t look like it and she certainly didn’t live like it. Was he just a sweet heart or does he really believe I’m the one for him? I have always wondered these things.
Back to reality Dave’s sister walked into the family room and flopped down onto the couch. Dave removed his arm from my shoulder and held my hand. I loved how he moved the right way with him there was never an awkward moment. I ran my fingers through my hair and asked “Why are we down here?” “I am not too sure anymore I think we should go upstairs and just be alone for a little while.” He said with a sly grin on his face. I smiled deviously trying to match his grin. “Puke! Ya’ll are nasty!” Tasha said. “Your just jealous.” I mumbled under my breath. She still glared at me. “Sweetie you might want to smile before your face gets stuck like that.” I said with a nice school girl smile.
She flipped me off a second time I let the first one slide but no I do not give second chances to brats like her. It happened really fast I dropped Dave’s hand tackled Tasha and started beating her face in with all that was left of me. I hoped she had bruises or worse. Dave stopped me too soon though.
“Tasha I told you tonight was not the night to mess with her! I told you that so you would stay in your room and not get hurt! I told you! Why did you have to do this? Tasha this is ridiculous! She is my girlfriend I am in love with her so you will have to get over it! Guh why is it a constant battle with you all the time? I just try to do what’s best for me and you always hate it! Why I am begging you for the answer! Why?” that almost brought him to tears.
“I will leave if I need too?” I said. “Yes!” “No!” they said at the same time. “So I am leaving?” I said. “No babe you can’t leave come on lets go back upstairs.” He pleaded. “Are you sure?” I asked. He nodded.
We walked back upstairs. We sat on his bed and just laid down in silence. It was the best feeling to have Dave so close and her intoxicated with his rich smell of water. It was like I was in an entirely different world. I couldn’t get enough. “Dave what was the real reason you called me tonight?” I asked. “Okay Kemen the real reason is I wanted to say that. I want to be with you forever.” He replied. That made me turn around in the bed and face him. “What?” I said. “You heard me; you are the only girl I ever want to be with.” I was shocked at that reply. “Did you really just say that?” I asked. He nodded and got off his bed. I couldn’t believe it. He really loved me.


Chapter 2
Next thing I knew he pulled out a ring. It was a promise ring. It meant we would be together forever. “Kemen this might not mean anything now but. I love you with everything in me. I want to be with you!” he said. I couldn’t speak I was caught up in the moment and forgot to breath. It was insanity I love him and he wanted to be with me forever. It was the same thing right?
He sat next to me and I gently removed his shirt and he took my hair down. He loved playing with my hair. He was so warm it felt so good up against him. We fell back on the bed and his kisses got more powerful, harder on my lips. It felt so good though. Then Dave’s mother walks in on us. I wonder what that looked like to her. Her perfect son on top of me. We were just making out though! She lets us do that all the time what was the big deal.
In reality his shirt was off we were on his bed my hair looked wild and he had his hands on my waist. Yeah it looked bad but she couldn’t get mad at us for making out. I hated parents why couldn’t some things be private? It was ridiculous.
“Dave a word please?” his mother said giving me a stare. All I could hear was fierce whispering. I jumped off the bed sighing heavily. I walked into his bathroom and fixed my hair back into its perfect bounce and straightened out my clothes. As I looked around his bathroom something unusual caught my eye. Sticking out of his cabinet was an old picture. I grabbed it. It was the picture of his my mom and his dad! How did he get that? Kemen checked she had hers still in the back pocket of her jeans.
“Kemen! Are you in the bathroom?” Dave’s mother yelled at me. I put the picture back in place and did a once over myself again. I stepped out and she was waiting by the door. Motioning for me to get out. Dave grabbed me as soon as I got out of the door. I knew right then what he wanted to do. We ran.
We got four blocks away before we stopped. “What was that about?” I said breathlessly. He didn’t talk though he just smiled grabbed my hand and walked slowly. It was killing me that I didn’t know where we were going. So I stopped sat my butt down on the concrete and let go of his hand. I patted the spot next to me for him to sit down, he just laughed. He sat down after a minute knowing that I wasn’t going to move. “You’re a stubborn girl you know that?” he said. I smiled up at him he pulled me into him. “So why are we running? Do not lie to me tell me the truth.” I said. “Well as you know my sister hates you. She told mom what happened and she forbids me from dating you anymore. Kemen I am not going to lose you.” He said. Why was he being so serious right now? He never not smiled it just wasn’t in his beautiful nature.” Still why are we out here then?” I asked. “I don’t want to be with them anymore. They hate you I love you please don’t make me make this decision. I love you with all of my heart. Not them.” He said. I still didn’t understand. “I still don’t get it!” I yelled. “Kemen they want me to dump you!” he said. That took my breath away. I broke down, the tears wouldn’t stop I couldn’t bear to lose the only guy I had ever truly loved! No this could not happen.
I stood up and grabbed his hand. My other friend Liza had a birthday party tonight, we were going. “Where are we going?” he asked. “Just trust me.” I said. We walked for about 20 minutes. Finally we showed up in front of Liza’s house.
It was in full swing already at 9:45 at night. I was surprised just by that. “Come on.” I said as I tugged on his hand to go into the house. I found Furrey there with the boy she liked Anton. When I saw her I started walking toward her. I felt a restraint on my arm and turned around. Dave was shaking his head so we went upstairs to Liza’s bedroom. I found Liza and her boyfriend John on the bed. I coughed to get their attention. They looked at me and Liza jumped up to greet me. “Girl I have been missing you! Sorry I wasn’t at the movies tonight I had this to plan.” She said as she motioned around the room and then walking closer to hug me and Dave.
“Hey do you have a quiet room where me and Dave can talk?” I asked. “Oh yeah sure just follow me.” She walked out and led us up the grand staircase. “Will this be alright? It’s the guest room and no one is up here I banned people from upstairs since mom and dad’s room is up here.” She said with a nice smile. I nodded. We stepped in and it looked like a master bedroom not a guest room! “Wow” I whispered.
It was the most amazing room I had ever seen. It was ocean blue with orange curtains. And a giant bed with an orange bedspread and blue pillows and a hard wood floor. It was just beautiful. “Why are we up here Kemen?” Dave asked. “Because we are going to work this out and get you and your mother to like me.” I said. “I don’t need to like you I love you. We just need to get my mom to like you.” He said while grabbing my hand.
We walked over to the bed and laid down. “Kemen I am not letting them take away my first and only true love. You are going to be with me and I am going to be with you.” He said roughly. “Babe your scaring me.” I said. “No need to be scared baby girl.” He said.
I couldn’t shake the feeling. Something was not right here. Dave never acted like this. I felt as if there was something he was not telling me. Something important enough that he couldn’t tell me. I had to find out what it was that was the only answer. I was not sure what he was telling me so I guess I would just have to ask him if he was hiding something from me. I didn’t want to but I guess I would have too.
“Dave are you hiding anything from me?” I asked.
“Why would I do that?” he asked.
“Just answer my question please.” I said.
“No, do you think I am?” he asked.
“Yes. I did, not anymore but you have been acting very strange. I trust that you are not lying so I guess there is nothing more to say.” I replied.
That got him to stop and think for a while. It was really scaring me I was afraid what he would say next. Tonight was so confusing and rough on both of us. I checked my cell phone and it was 10 already. I had 9 new messages, all from my mother. All asking where I was and if I was safe. I texted her back saying I was fine telling her I went to Liza’s party. She replied saying okay thanks I’ll see you at home.
“You were right I have been hiding something from you.” He said. I was surprised at him admitting that he was hiding something. “Well what are you hiding?” I said. “Something bad. I don’t think you will want to know. I think it is against the laws of our kind.” “Are you like a CIA agent or something? What is against our law?” I said. “Something very bad. We are not the same. I don’t think I am aloud to tell you. I am sorry for telling you that I was hiding something but I cannot tell you.” He said.
“Why can’t you? No matter what it is I will still love you! Just tell me please.” I said almost shouting. He turned to stare at me. I could see the fear in his eyes at the same time I could see disappointment in his face. “If I tell you will you believe me?” he asked. “Yes I promise I will believe you.” I said, I wasn’t sure if I would but I would try to believe him.
He looked at me, sat up and got off the bed. He started pacing. Why was he being so secretive? It’s not like I will break up with him because of it. Would I? I thought to myself. No it wasn’t possible to break up with the guy of her dreams.
Chapter 3
The next day I woke up with an agonizing head ache. I couldn’t believe the love of my life was an immortal. Well he had said he was but I wasn’t sure if I should believe him yet or not. I had last night so why had it been so hard to believe today? Last night had felt like a dream and I was still dazed from it.
He had told me he was an angel. I had just laughed and brushed it off and asked him to be serious. He said he was. I felt like passing out again after that. He caught me in mid-fall. He had taken his shirt off after I had completely come back to reality and explained that he was a real angel. I had seen his scars on his back from his wings. It scared me what my boyfriend was.
At that point I was mad. Mad that he had kept this from me, mad that he didn’t trust me and most of all mad that I didn’t understand any of it. I had asked him to prove that he was a real angel and that’s just what he did.
He had shown me his wings. They were beautiful, like a piece of heaven taken and shaped into wings. The wings were literally glowing golden and purple. It took my breath away how beautiful they were. I was jealous that he was so amazing. Now she knew why he was so amazing at everything. He made me promise that I wouldn’t tell a single soul what he was. I promised and he flew me home.
He did what most gentleman angels would do (or what I think most would do). He kissed me good night and told me to have a good dream. I told him there was a fat chance of that and kissed him again. At that he left.
I didn’t dream at all well if I did I hadn’t remembered it. I woke up in a cold sweat though. I had a dry mouth a head ache and my feet were killing me. I wanted to go back to sleep and I tried but I kept replaying what happened last night. I got up to go to the kitchen and get a drink but there was something telling me not to go into the kitchen. Something pulling at me to stay in my bed safe. And the next thing I knew Dave was at my window. At 4:30 in the morning. I couldn’t believe it that he was just hovering out there. It was amazing so I opened my window and let him in.
“Hello Kemen how was your rest?” he asked while taking me in his arms. “It was fine, Dave are you going to get in trouble for telling me what you are?” I asked. He looked down and shuffled his feet. A pang went through my chest. At that moment I knew the answer I didn’t need him to tell me. Now I was scared because I didn’t know what could happen, to either of us. I decided one thing at that moment.
I wouldn’t let anything hurt us. I would do whatever it took. “Would you look at me and answer, I deserve that much.” I said with anger rising in my voice. “Yes I may very well get into trouble. What does it matter to you?” he said taking me by the shoulders. It was my turn to look down and shuffle my feet.
I didn’t know why it mattered so much to me it just did. I didn’t want either of us hurt. It worried me that we would get hurt and that was not an option for me. I loved him and he loved me. I was not going to lose him. At any cost.

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