Preface

Dear Alice,
I longed to think of it as a blessing. A reason. A way. But sometimes it would trail my thoughts and I would get mad and angry. But I couldn't get mad at myself for something I didn't do...or could I? But then I click back to thinking it was a blessing. A reason. A way. I was like a switch. Clicking on and off as if it was my life and purpose. Alice you've given me a purpose to live now you've given me a purpose to die. Make up your mind, am I on Earth to think of you or am I on Earth to forget you? I die, I will see you but I will live with the regret of leaving my family with open hands for something they will never have.
-Love,
Amy
I closed my eyes as I closed the half-filled book. I put my face in my hands and cried. I stood in that position for at least 30 minutes but then it was interuppted by a warm hand on my shoulder. I looked up quickly to see him, my night in shining armor. "Amy, dont cry, it's the right thing to do." I put my head down on my desk and mumbled words that filled my sorrowful soul, "Nick, I'm sorry I can't do it anymore it hurts too much to even think of her. And writing to her is even worse." He kneeled down to my level and put his hand to my chin, "Ames, it'll be alright now we have to go, pack up your stuff and meet me in the car." And he left me alone with only his footsteps echoing in my ears. I lifted myself from the chair and trailed to my closet. I thought to myself as I put the clothes at random in my bag,If he only knew my latest entry he would be devistated. I closed my eyes as I hurled to bag to my back and walked out the room. I didn't know I left the journal until I reached the destination. "Nick! HAVE YOU SEEN THE JOURNAL???" I yelled as I hurled clothes at random around to room. Nick came in looking at the mess I made, "No, just a weekend without would be okay, so just go to bed." I climbed into bed as a sudden light went off and Nick climbed in, too. "Night," he said turning to his side. "Night," I said as I turned the other direction.

I awoke in a cold sweat. I looked around to see me in my camp bunk alone. I climbed out of the bunk and climbed to the top bunk where Alice, my bestfriend, slept. I shook her instantly, "Ally, wake up!" I whispered in a hush tone. She turned around and lifted herself up, rubbing her eyes to adjust to the light, "Huh?" once her eyes adjusted she saw me shaking her, "Amy what the heck is wrong with you?!" she yelled in a hush tone. I held her close in my arms, "GET OFF!" she yelled trying to shake me off. I let go and layed down next to her. She layed down too and gave me some blanket. I turned to face her, "Alice I had a dream," I said as started to sit up again. She sat up too, "What about?" she asked lifting to blanket to her chin. I closed my eyes trying to make a vision of it again, "Well, I don't exactly know what happened to you but I was sad to think of you at anytime and there was this handsome man. He had thick curly hair that was black." Alice looked at me in shock, "Amy you can sleep up here tonight. But when we get back to the orphanage we have to tell Mrs. Bragwoods, she believes, dreams can tel the future you know?" I nodded and layed down. I hoped with all my heart this wasn't my future. I closed my eyes tight and drifted back to sleep.

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Tag der Veröffentlichung: 02.08.2010

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