And so it Begins

This is where my story beings. My life was going well; it was exactly how I pictured it. My dad comes home from work every day I see him and say hi to him. I come home from school I see my mom getting ready for work. I thought to myself how I have never seen her so happy in my life. When I get to my room I go on my laptop and see who is online. I see Kyle is on. Kyle is one of the coolest guys I know, but also the hottest guy I know.
Kyle_Baseball: Hey!
Kaitlyn_Girl123: Hey!
Kyle_Baseball: What’s up?
Kaitlyn_Girl123: At home in my room on my bed bored to death, you?
Kyle_Baseball: in my room talking to my best friend.
Kaitlyn_Girl123: Who is that?
Kyle_Baseball: You of course.
Kaitlyn_Girl123: Awesome, But you won’t like what I am about to say then.
Kyle_Baseball: Oh Boy what is it?
Kaitlyn_Girl123: I am Moving. I am moving to LA. I will be going to this brand new school called LAHS for my freshmen through senior years.
Kyle_Baseball: I thought we were going to go to high school together because we are so close and best friends, please don’t leave me! I can’t go to high school without my best friend!
Kaitlyn_Girl123: I’m sorry! I really am, maybe you can join me it is supposed to be the best high school in the USA.
Kyle_Baseball: Can’t, I really want to but can’t!
Kaitlyn_Girl123: Then we will be reunited for college. I hope we end up staying connected. I leave tomorrow!
Kyle_Baseball has logged off
When he logged off I knew he was mad at me. My moving to LAHS will change my whole life. I got in to LAHS. I still can’t believe it. I will miss hanging out with him forever. I get offline and start packing. When I am done packing I put everything in the moving truck and go to bed. I had to sleep on the stiff, cold, hard, uncomfortable ground. I get up the next morning and get in the car. We drive all the way from Newberry Florida to LA. I get a text from Kyle. “Hey I am sorry I got all mad at you last night, I know you want to go, It is great you got into LAHS I am so proud of you getting into that school. I looked it up online, and found out all about it. Now I know why you want to go there, I do too.” I text him back, “Hey, I am glad you’re not mad at me anymore. I really think this is the best thing for me right now and I need this.” I really miss him already. We pull up to the house and I see how my house is. It is really nice. I am nervous to start my freshmen year without any of my friends. I pick my room and unpack. It is huge compared to my old one. When I unpack my laptop I get online. No one I want to talk to is on. I look at Kyle’s status which says “Life will change without you here!” I comment on it saying, “Who is this about?” Now I wait for him to get on and comment back. He isn’t doing well about me leaving. I look at the bottom of the page and I see it says “Kyle_Baseball is online”
Kyle_Baseball: You’re on! That is wonderful!
Kaitlyn_Girl123: Yeah I have been on I just unpacked my laptop waiting to see how you are.
Kyle_Baseball: Oh you know me I am always okay you know that right?
Kaitlyn_Girl123: Yeah I know you but you were really upset when I told you the bad news.
Kyle_Baseball: yeah I was, I still am, my status is about you. Well since you’re far away, can I tell you something and promise me that you will not judge me and keep talking to me.
Kaitlyn_Girl123: Yeah I promise now tell me!
Kyle_Baseball: I like you more than a friend; I have liked you since I met you and I will never stop.
Kaitlyn_Girl123: Are you serious? I like you too; I have liked you for a long time.
Kyle_Baseball: Wow I wish we could date but long distance doesn’t work ever. But I don’t care. On school breaks I can come visit or you can.
Kaitlyn_Girl123: Yeah but still.
Kyle_Baseball: Will you go out with me?
Kaitlyn_Girl123: Yes! I hope long distance works this time.
Kyle_Baseball: Me too
I changed my status to is in a relationship and I also changed my name on it. So did Kyle. I really hope this year goes by fast. Tomorrow is the first day of school so I went to bed early. I went to bed and woke up the next morning with my mother of an alarm clock. After I get ready I go to school and meet everyone. I miss my old friends though. I walk in and this girl comes up to me and says “Hello, I’m Lily and I am the Welcome committee.” She is all Getty and what not. I said “It’s the first day of school how is there a welcoming committee?” “It’s from the middle school.” “Oh well thanks I can find it on my own.” That was a huge lie though. I don’t even know where I am going. She can tell I was lying so she was introducing me to everyone, but when Lisa and Chris walked by she got quiet. I asked “Who’s that?” She had answered, “That is Lisa and Chris. They are dating, and following them are Lisa’s friends. They are the plastics. Claire and Chloe are their names.” As we walked down the hallway people stare at me. I get stared at like I’m a freak. When I get to the library I check my email and I see I have a new email.
To: Kaitlyn Berowin
From: Kyle Walker
Subject: I miss you!
Message: Dear Kaitlyu,
We all miss you here and we think you need to come back. I am at school right now in first period. I just found out you would have been in every class of mine. Please come home! I hope you love it there though. I am applying for next year to go there if you like it there. I will work my tail off so I can get in and be with you. I wish you were here. I guess I am going to be fine. I am going to LA for this school trip soon so I will be going to visit you! I get to see the best thing that has ever happened to me. I am emailing you from the schools computer. Man Newberry sucks so much. Over at Oak View I heard people got arrested at a Flipping middle school. Some people here are getting searched for drugs. I am getting searched too. Crap I have to go hide my stash now. Just kidding but everyone gets searched so far five people got busted! One was Bailyn. Can you believe it? Ever since her dad died she started to turn her life around. My mom wants me to go talk to her about it. Maybe that will help, hey you need to email her that might help too!
Love,
Kyle
It felt great to get an email from him. I just cannot believe Bailyn. She would never do that. Not the Bailyn I knew. I really wish I could go and get her to come here and change. I turn on my TV and the stupid news is on. As I look for the remote (because with my luck it’s missing) I hear the news anchor say “Young teenager arrested in Newberry, Florida, Bailyn White...” I turn back and my mouth drops. I call Bailyn, No answer. She’s gone, she’s in Jail. I look at the news for more information. “She tried to steal clothes, shoes, watches and cigarettes.” I didn’t know she smoked. Kyle called me “Hey Kyle!” “Hey you are not going to believe this!” “What is it?” “Bailyn got arrested for shoplifting. She called me and told me, she was also arrested for having drugs.” “Will she get out soon?” “Not sure yet she will be in there for a few days though.” “That sucks, tell me when she gets out so I can call her.” “Okay I will, hey I got to go to class bye.” We got off the phone. A few days later I see on the news that Bailyn is out of jail and is back at school.
I wish the old Bailyn was back, I really do. She would never get into trouble, but now she does. We were best friends; I don’t know what had happened to Bailyn. I keep trying to call, no answer still. I call her parents and talk to them; they told me that Bailyn will be in Jail for a few days. Her freshman Year she gets arrested. I go on the school website and sign up. Right after I make my account I get a friend request from a Tabitha Flowers. I accept it. I update my profile and get a TON of friend requests. I was shocked that every person wants to be my friend. I am brand new; I don’t know anyone at all. As I get up from my computer I get a drink of soda and go sit down again. Tabitha messages me.
Tabitha Flowers: Hey! You are that new girl right?
Kaitlyn Berowin: Yeah, I really am lost ha-ha I don’t know this school at all I came from a small town in Florida.
Tabitha Flowers: Really? I am from Florida. Newberry, Florida.
Kaitlyn Berowin: That is where I am from! I miss it so much.
Tabitha Flowers: Me too, it was really fun, wait I was in your kindergarten class.
Kaitlyn Berowin: Oh yeah we were best friends when we were little.
Tabitha Flowers: Yeah tell your parents I say hey, I have to go bye.
 
Chapter Two:
As I get off I look through my pictures from when I was little. There I saw two short girls one with brown wavy hair and one with blonde curly hair. I noticed it was Tabitha. I looked at the back of the picture where it says “Kaitlyn and Tabitha first day of Kindergarten!” We were best friends. I still cannot believe she remembered me after all those years. We were so close and I thought she dropped off the face of the earth. What a best friend I am. Tabitha Still remembered all our memories we had before she moved. Now that I live here (not even knowing she was living here) we can hang out. I go down stairs and call Tabitha. I hear someone say “Hello.” I said “Hey is Tabitha there?” “This is she, who is this?” “Oh hey it’s Kaitlyn.” “Oh hey!” “Want to hang out today? Where do you live so I know?” “Okay, I live in L.A. Evergreen, how about you?” “That’s where I live!” “So your family is the new family that moved in!” “Yeah, I live next door! Go outside.” All I hear is an extremely loud dial tone.
I go outside and I find Tabitha waiting for me. She comes up to me and says “Hey! We are once again neighbors!” So we head inside my house when my parents pound us with a million questions of how we got back in touch. We explain the whole Situation. My parents invited Tabitha to spend the night and of course she couldn’t say no. My parents invited the Flowers Family to come over and cook s’mores like we used to when I was younger. They came over and stayed till Midnight. When Tabitha and I went in my room we went on the school’s website. The website was www.LAHS.com. When Tabitha and I logged on there was a geek that messaged us.
Nick Share: HEY!
Kaitlyn Berowin: Hey?
Nick Share: Would you or Tabitha go out with me?
Tabitha Flowers: I’m sorry but No thanks and Kaitlyn has a boyfriend so bye!
Tabitha Flowers has left this group conversation.
Nick Share: Oh ok well it was worth a shot for Tabitha to go out with me I am in love with her.
Kaitlyn Berowin: Oh ok well sorry but bye.
I logged off and so did Tabitha. We stayed up so late and got hyper off of candy. This was the first step of being best friends again. Our families were the best of friends, until they moved. Tabitha says, “Isn’t it a convenient that we were best friends until I moved then you moved here to a few years later?” I agreed with her on that. When we finally fell asleep it was around three AM. We slept for eight short hours. We didn’t expect us to wake up at nine. We get on the computer to check my email. My computer said “no new emails.” I was hoping I log on and hear a voice say “You’ve got Mail!” Kyle still hasn’t answered my email. I leave my laptop on for the longest time. No emails. My mom calls us down for breakfast. She made us chocolate chip pancakes with milk. It was Delicious! My mom is the best cook! She is so awesome at cooking. Tabitha was so amazed by my mom’s cooking that she asked if my mom can make her some pancakes to go so she can bring them home. So my mom had of course shrieked “Yes! Of course!” my mom loves cooking so she couldn’t say no. My mom always babbles about how she loves cooking.
Tabitha left around noon. I cleaned up our mess upstairs in my extremely lavish room. I founder Tabitha’s Laptop she had left in my room. So I brought her laptop to her. She was so grateful that I brought it. My other neighbors brought us some cookies to say “Welcome to the neighborhood!” It felt amazing to be wanted in the neighborhood by people I didn’t even know. By the end of the day we had about ten thousand cookies in our house. My dad took some to work, I took some to school and my mom took some to the homeless shelter to feed the poor while we kept the rest. Everyone knew that Tabitha and I got really close already even though we had just met. Yes, there is Lilly, but Tabitha is such a better friend than her. I can just see it right now. As I walk into school with my hands filled with cookies, books and my backpack filled to the top with books and even more cookies on my back, I feel my phone vibrate in my pocket where it tickles can’t even reach it so I start laughing crazily while everyone is staring and laughing at the new girl who starts busting out laughing and can’t even help it.
While everyone is staring at me I start putting everything on the first table I get to. I hand out cookies to my friends then I take some to the people who pass by and were laughing at me. Lisa made it clear she didn’t want any by saying, “What are you just trying to bribe us so everyone will like you? Well I am not taking any I don’t eat carbs, plus you’re new!” I had explained “Well actually we didn’t make any of them; a lot of my neighbors brought them for us since we are new.” She just walked off while I walked the other direction and that was to the kids who don’t have a lot of friends. I gave them a few and then walked to Lilly, I gave her one. After that I felt I should go up to Chris see if he wanted any. I can tell he did want some, but Lisa was around and she told him to not even go near me because I might have a fatal disease. Well I am not the one with the disease. She has the self-centered disease you can totally tell. No one really liked her anyway, they just liked her stuff.
No one likes the new girl ever. Lisa’s dad owned the mall so she bribed people by giving discounts on things that they would like. After passing cookies out to my friends and the geeks, I gave some to my teachers. I brought fifty cookies and I only gave ten out because of Lisa. So I gave everyone who wanted one even more than I should have. When I got to first period, which was Math, I couldn’t find my homework because all the containers of cookies. I gave one full container to my math teacher. Mrs. Dooms was my math teacher who let me give her my homework after she collected it. I finally found my homework ten minutes later. Lisa was laughing at me because I couldn’t find it. When Mrs. Dooms collected it she said she didn’t even do it because grades don’t matter. She thinks she will get a scholarship to College by looks. Wow she is a really big idiot.
As I listen to Mrs. Dooms I smell Nail Polish. I whisper to myself, “Nail Polish?” Mrs. Dooms says, “Yes Ms. Berowin?” “Oh sorry for interrupting.” As she finishes teaching, I look back to see what the smell is and it is Lisa Painting her nails a really hot pink to match her hot pink skirt and her white blouse over her pink tank top. Oh look designer shows too. She carried her pink bedazzled purse everywhere she went. She even named it Pretty N’ Pink. I have no idea why though. When I look toward to the board I see Lisa’s name on the board under the detention list. I start laughing but trying to hold it in as long as I can. The bell rang and a crowd of people fled into the hallways from every door opening here. All I can here are people screaming. I get pushed, and then shoved. I couldn’t find any of my friends. Not one in sight. I squeeze my way to my locker and get my books. I grabbed my English book when someone pushed me into my locker and made me bump my head so I hard I was as knocked out as my grandfather on Thanksgiving. As I lie there, Tabitha walks out of English to go get a drink of water. She sees me lying down in the hall with my locker wide open and my English book in my hand.
Tabitha starts to scream, “HELP!” as Mrs. White comes out to see what is going on. When she sees me unconscious on the ground she takes me to the school nurse. The school nurse says “What happened here?” Tabitha has no answer. Tabitha is really good at putting things together. Tabitha says “Well I am guessing she got her head banged on her locker then when she had fallen, her head banged on the floor.” They tell Tabitha to go back to class so on her way back she passes by where I fell and sees blood on the hard, cold granite ground. She goes back into class and starts getting to work. After she had finished her work she went back to the nurse while she sees my lying there on the bed with bandages on my head where I was bleeding. The nurse called my parents to pick me up from the hospital. She had called the ambulance to take me there. Of course Tabitha came in the red and white Ambulance. All of a sudden you here sirens coming out of nowhere. I know everyone is staring out the windows while I get loaded on the long, strong, yellow and black stretcher.
My parents appear when I wake up. My mom says “well good morning sleepy head!” I have no idea what is going on. I have no idea where I am, who I’m with or anything. As I ask all these questions I find out all this information. A few long days later I come back to school with my memory well in tact just like it used to be. As I walk into school everyone is staring at me laughing and pointing. I try to ignore it the best I can, but it isn’t working. I try my best to ignore it and focus on getting to my locker and remembering my combination. When I get to the hallway where I stare at my locker and where there I see the blood stains Tabitha told me about. As I walk into math class I get a text from Kyle. The text said “Hey how are you I heard you got a concussion at school!” I didn’t text back because after that I get a text from Bailyn that said “Hey sorry I couldn’t talk I have been in jail, but I have major news for you, Kyle’s CHEATING on you!” I read that text and started crying. I got taken out of first period to find out who caused my injury.
After I had identified the guy he got expelled. I ran to the bathroom broke into tears and stared at that text. I got another text soon after, it was a picture of Kyle Kissing someone else. My heart had shattered and was all over the bathroom. Of course with my luck Lisa walks in while I am busting out in tears. She just stared at me sitting on the ground in tears. She asks “what are you doing?” I answered her question “Nothing I just am thinking.” “About what, about how you got Jason expelled!” I walked out of the bathroom with my face all red and eyes watering. The bell rang and I started walking to English. A few minutes into class I raise my hand and ask to go to the nurse to change my bandage changed. The doctor said I will be able to feel when it needs changed. As I walked into the office people stare at me because they see all the blood leaking out of my head. We had to put three layers of bandages on my head plus the stitches.
When I got home my neighbors brought brownies instead of cookies this time. When Jason got expelled he moved into my neighborhood for a fresh new start. I sat on my porch doing homework and writing in my journal. He sees me on my porch and you can hear screaming coming from down the street. His mom told him to come tell me he is sorry and to talk it out with me. I know it was an accident. My parents hate him now because this was life threatening. When the doctors told my parents that, we had thanked god for giving me a chance to live. After he came to talk to me I went inside to go and dig out old memories of me and Kyle. I can’t stop thinking about him. He cheated. I don’t know him anymore. I get on my computer to find Bailyn on, wow didn’t expect that. What her parents didn’t ground her. They should, she just got out of jail. I text Kyle back and say “Hey Kyle, I have one thing to say, that is thanks for cheating on me, we are over!” It broke my heart to have to say that to him. I thought we would be together forever. Now I know never to have a long distance relationship again. Long distance relationships work well for some people, but for me it didn’t even work.
I don’t get why I actually believed it would be like a beautiful fantasy that every girl dreams about. It is like the fantasy girls have about their weddings. They find the most perfect place they will want to have it at when they get married, have the perfect dress picked out and everything you would imagine. We dream about every small little detail. Like what we eat the night before or what we wear the night before. We girls are crazy when it comes to fantasies. Kyle finally texted me back and was acting so confused he called me to ask about what I was talking about. I answered in an angry way saying “Hello.” He said “Hey what in the world are you talking about?” “I received a picture see.” I sent the picture to him. When he got it and looked he had hung up on me. He realized he lost the best thing that has ever happened to him. My mom saw me crying and came to talk to me. I had no choice but to tell her about Kyle.
My mom tried her best to comfort me without bumping my head. She didn’t do too well. By the time she was done her shirt was covered in blood and I needed new bandages. Tabitha was right there with me. I get online to see Kyle’s status which says “Getting on flight 51A to Los Angeles.” My mouth dropped I couldn’t even comment on it I was so shocked. I got offline, got a nice warm long shower and went to bed. I woke up the next morning to find Kyle on my door step. When I opened the door he kissed me. The kiss was amazing but I stopped it. He was a dirty cheater that I don’t want anything to do with. When I found out he was staying here for a while I also found out he was going to my school. So when I couldn’t find Tabitha I walked into school to find Kyle kissing Tabitha.
Tabitha pushed him away and said “GET OFF OF ME!” She sees me standing there watching. I give them a look and run off. I was gone by the time she could get to me. I was nowhere to be found after that. I ran all the way home to find my parents at home. I walk in and say “I’m home!” My dad works till five what is he doing home at eight a.m. I ask why he’s home so early, they ask me the same question. I told them the whole story. They told me I can stay home but I will have to go tomorrow and tell people I felt sick or my head was hurting. After school ended I hear the doorbell so I go and answer the door. I open it up very slowly. Of course it is Tabitha. I Say “What do you want?” “I didn’t do anything, he kissed me first!” “I don’t want to talk about it!” I slam the door in her face and tell her to get lost. I tried to be as nice as I could to her, but she made me so angry! Who steals their best friend’s boyfriend? Should I talk to them? I honestly don’t think I should.
I thought I was in love with Kyle until I saw him cheating. Now I have no idea what to think. What should I think? I am so embarrassed to go back to school. This school year stinks so much. I am very scared to even go to school that I will bump my head. Later that day I go and get ready for bed. When I finally fell asleep I was out like a light. I woke up around six thirty a.m. to get ready for school. I walked into school and everyone stares more than usual. I go straight to my locker, When I close my locker I see Kyle standing there trying to apologize. I walk away from him but he keeps following me and I cannot get away from him. He is stalking me I can totally tell. I turn around and say “STOP FOLLOWING ME!” Everyone stops and stares at me. Dean Allen calls us to the office to talk it out. Holy crap my heart is beating so fast I can’t even hear myself think.
All I hear is thump, thump. I can’t even hear Dean Allen talk. That is not good; I can tell he is trying to ask me why I was yelling. I wasn’t so sure he was asking that though. I asked “Can you repeat that?” So he repeated it, he said “What was all the commotion about in the hallway?” “He will not stop following me everywhere I look he is everywhere I look and I am so tired of it.” Dean Allen says “Maybe you need to take a break from each other. Do you think I should suspend one of you?” I say “If you suspend someone it should be him for stalking me.” I am so mad I think he got me in trouble. I give him a look. I felt like I was going to kill him for that. Dean Allen decided to call our parents. I honestly do not think I should be getting my parents called. My mom answered so I was nervous to see what she will think of this. I am so tired of all this drama at this school. I am thinking about changing schools even though I worked so hard to get into this school. I don’t want Kyle here!
I thought life would be better when Kyle went here. I know for a fact Kyle has changed and I want the old Kyle back. I went to talk to Kyle all alone. “Kyle we need to talk. You have changed and I am tired of it. I want the old Kyle back, the Kyle I loved. Please bring him back.” “Look I am sorry but I am the same me.” “Oh so the same Kyle cheats on his girlfriend. Good to know.” “No not that one, that was an accident I didn’t mean it, I love you!” “It’s a little late now. Good-bye Kyle it’s officially over!” It hurt so much to say that to him. As I walked away I looked back at him and I see him crying in a distance. I stop and stare. I think to myself, “Did I do that to him?” I felt like a witch who had broken someone’s heart in half. But my heart felt like it was broken in half when Kyle cheated.
The next few months were as long as five years put together. I didn’t speak to Tabitha and Kyle for six months. I would see them in the hallway and I’d walk away. I am still shocked Kyle got into LAHS. As I walked into math class on Thursday I accidently ran into a cute guy. I apologized after we were staring into each other’s eyes for ten seconds. He apologized as well. He had that country voice I can tell he was from the south. “I’m Kailtyn”; “I’m Brandon.” “Nice to meet you, I love your accent, where are you from?” “I’m from Austin, Texas, what about you?” “I’m from Newberry, Florida.” He and I talked until the bell rang. Brandon had given me his number and told me to call or text him. I gave him mine and told him the same exact thing. During fifth period I got a text from him saying “Hey! I am so bored talk to me!” I replied, “Me too!” But I looked up and Mrs. Thomas was standing right there and told us if we took our phones out again she would take them. We laughed when she turned around and walked away.


Chapter Three
I wake up on Saturday Morning half asleep thinking I was late for school. I get up out of bed, brush my teeth, get dressed, do my hair and run to school. Since I’m a freshman I am only fifteen years old so I get my license next year. Brandon and I were talking and when I got to school he was standing there staring at me. He starts walking toward me slowly. I stand there not knowing what to do. Should I stand there or walk to him? He finally gets to me and kisses me. I smile, when Kyle appears out of nowhere with an angry look on his backstabbing face. Is he mad at me? When he pulls I knife out and he stabbed Brandon. I knew I am next when he takes the knife to me kisses me then stabs me. I wake up screaming, oh it was a dream. That was a vivid dream I had to write down so I can tell Tabitha. Then I remember Tabitha and I aren’t friends anymore. Her online status is “Please be my friend again!” I know she is talking about me. She would laugh at my dream. That’s what we do, we laugh at each other’s dreams. We have a journal filled with our dreams we want to remember. We have them in the same notebook.
My door bell rings. I go answer it there is Tabitha standing right now standing at me trying to apologize. I do not accept. I try to close the door but she stops it with her body. “Please forgive me! I didn’t mean to, you know that. He kissed me; I would never betray my best friend Kaitlyn, please!” I try not to cry. I feel wet tears coming down my cheek. “I know, but I feel like I can’t trust you anymore. You kissed my boyfriend. Now I am single but I feel kind of happier now.” “I know, he leaves for Florida tomorrow. Go to the airport and forgive him. Get a good-bye kiss they do in the movies.” “I don’t like him anymore. I like someone else.” “Who is it?” “His Name is Brandon.” She gives me this look, but then she knew who I was talking about. Her mouth dropped so fast. “He’s so cute, you guys should go out. He likes you. I have known him for a long time, he said he liked a girl named Kaitlyn I didn’t know it was you.” Since we were getting alone I let her in showed her the journal of my latest dreams and she glued the ones she did while we were fighting. She still knew to write them down just like what I did.
Finally it was Sunday at ten A.m. Where I get a taxi to LAX and find Kyle waiting in line. “I was waiting for you, I am really sorry; please forgive me I lost the best thing that ever happened to me.” I look at him and say “I only want to be your friend nothing more than best friends.” “I know I am sorry.” The announcer said “Flight A42 to Florida now boarding.” “Well I guess that’s me.” Kyle said. I hug him good-bye and kissed his cheek. As I watched him board the plane he looks back at me and waves. When I look away I see I was all alone. I looked back and Kyle was gone. I went back to catch another taxi. It happened to be the same taxi driver I had before. I finally got home and paid the taxi driver. As I walk up to my porch I see Brandon sitting on my porch swing. I say “Brandon? What are you doing here?” “Well I was at home thinking about someone I really like but I didn’t know how she felt about me. I wanted to ask her something.” “What do you want to ask her?” My heart is pounding so fast I can’t even hear myself think.” “Kaitlyn, will you go out with me this Friday?” “Yes! I would be honored to go out with you.” I was so excited he asked me out. He had to go.
I went upstairs to find a note in my room. The note was in an envelope that was addressed to me. I tried to open it but I couldn’t get it opened. When I finally got it opened all I saw was a card that read “Happy Birthday Kaitlyn! We love you! Love Grandma and Grandpa.” They remembered about my sixteenth birthday. Then the doorbell rang. I go and answer it. The CDA was here. I thought it was a new kind of UPS when the guy said “Delivery for Kaitlyn Berowin.” I signed for it and looked outside. It was a brand new car. I asked who the Guy was and he said “CDA.” “What’s CDA?” “Car Dealers of America.” My grandparents sent me a new car for my birthday. I turn around and they are behind me. I scream and hug them. I couldn’t believe they were here. I went to bed that night thinking of what tomorrow will be like.
When I woke up my family crowded me and screamed “HAPPY BIRTHDAY!” My mom was holding Breakfast in Bed, My dad was holding one present, my grandma was holding a crown and a sash, and my grandpa was holding my license certificate from the DMV. All I need to do is go and get my picture taken and it’s all done. After I ate, I opened the present. It was a new outfit I was going to wear today. It was a pair of boots, a pair of skinny jeans and a strapless top. I wore that to school with the sash and crown. I walked down the hall with people staring at me and Tabitha standing next to me. Suddenly I feel someone grab my hand. It was Brandon. The cute blonde, with muscles I call my boyfriend. I smiled at him and see him holding a present and so is Tabitha. I say “Tabitha were you holding that the whole time and Brandon how did you know it was my birthday?” Tabitha says, “No I told him to bring it for me so you wouldn’t know I had it.” Brandon’s answer to my question was “Tabitha told me when she asked me to hold it. When I sit down on the bench I open both presents. Brandon got me a necklace that says, “Kaitlyn” on it. Tabitha got me a brand new pair of shoes.
Right when school ended I hopped in my mom’s RAV 4 and I drove us both to the DMV. I got my picture taken so fast. I looked at it and it looked Amazing. The old guy with the beard and the glasses handed me my license and I about flipped out. I drove us home to get into my new car and set it all up. I looked in the glove departments to find a gas card! My grandparents got me a blue RAV 4 just like my moms, but hers is black. I turn the engine on and drive off. I put my brand new designer purse on the passenger seat and I drive to the Coffee Café to meet Tabitha and Brandon. When I pull out of the neighborhood I see this line of cars to get to the mall. The mall is a few miles away so having to wait in a ten mile line to get into the mall. The problem is I am not going to the mall; I will have to pass it to get to Coffee Café. Tabitha calls me to ask me where I am, how did she get there so fast? I get out of line and drive back home.
As I drive home I get a text from my mom. The text said, “Hey Stay out as late as you want, the earliest you come home is eight.” I was so confused why I get that text so I go to Tabitha’s house to see if she is hope yet. I don’t see any cars there so I drive the back way to the Coffee Café when I totally forgot about this way. When I pull up I see Brandon and Tabitha through the window. I park my car get out and walk up to the window. When I get their attention I go to the door walk in and sit by Brandon. “Hey do you mind staying with me all day since I can’t go home?” I say to them. Tabitha and Brandon both answer, “Sure.” I take out my laptop and open up Microsoft word and start to type. We have homework, which all three of us are partnered up.
“Ok so what do we start with?” I ask. “Well what is the project?” Brandon asked. I go on the school website to find out. It says to write a story about five thousand words! When I told Brad and Tabitha, they weren’t too happy. We all didn’t know what to right about. The waitress came over and asked “Hello what can I get for you?” I said “Three Mocha Latté’s with extra whipped cream and chocolate syrup on top.” When she brought them over to us we had her put our names on them and we went back to work. We had a great idea of what to write about. They chose it. They want to write about my birthday. I don’t know why, but I said ok because it’s a topic. So we talk and type. We have all week to do this so why are we doing it today? We were gone all day and finally it’s eight. I walk in and it looks like no one is home. “Where is everyone?” The lights start to flicker. “Hello?” The lights turn on and everyone comes out and yells “SURPRISE!” I jumped because I didn’t expect that.”
I went to the kitchen to thank my family for this amazing surprise birthday party. I felt something inside I had never felt before. It was an amazing feeling. I can’t even describe it. I go up to my room to go put my presents up after I opened them. As soon as I walk in I hear my laptop. Someone is trying to call me. I answer, it’s Bailyn! “Hey Bailyn!” “Happy Birthday Kaitlyn!” I was so excited to hear from her. I didn’t think she remembered my birthday after being in jail. When Bailyn had to go, I went into the living room to open presents. The first one I grabbed was from Tabitha. The card said “Happy Birthday! You were such an amazing friend when we were little and now we are best friends again! Love you like a sister! Love, Tabitha!” I opened the gift and there was a picture of us when we were little. It came with a frame that said “Best Friends for how long?” Then it came with our Kindergarten class project. I started crying because she went through all that trouble for me.
After opening all my presents and everyone leaving I put everything in my room. I walk upstairs put my things in my room and start getting undressed for my shower when I hear a noise and find Brandon hiding in my closet. I screamed so loud China could hear it from here. I asked “What are you doing in here?” “I was going to surprise you and give you your birthday present.” I unwrap the box slowly, and then open it up to find a beautiful Necklace that says “Kaitlyn+Brandon=Forever.” “You had it personalized for me? That’s so sweet!” “Yeah it was the best thing that I could find for you.” “This must have cost you a fortune!” “It was worth it” I kiss him for two whole minutes!

Friends Come and Go, But Family is always there

Life is amazing when you thing about it. You have all these friends and all these people who care. Who care about you and not what you look like. I never expected this. It was the Unexpected. My life changes over night. My feelings change as I get older. I go to Tabitha's and find something I didnt want to find. I walk in to see her staring out the window in the dark. Died her hair black. Wore black clothes. "Tabitha? Is that you?" "Kaityln what are you doing here?" She asks so glum. you can tell in her voice and how she looks that she changed. "Tabitha, What happened to you?" "I am not me anymore, I am goth. Or as people say, Emo." Tabitha showed me her arm. I Scream on the top of my lungs, "YOU CUT YOURSELF! Why are you like this?" "My dad, he died." I couldn't get the words out exactly until I got the guts to say it. "How did he die?" "It was his time I guess." I watch her take out her dads rustly old pocket knife. Tabitha started cutting herself.

"Tabitha I am sorry about your dad, but this is not the answer!" "You're right. I need to die. I need to kill myself." "NO! DO NOT KILL YOURSELF!" I cannot stand to see her like that. I said, "If you are going to be like this, I can't be friends with you!" I walked out. That was one of the hardest things I would have had to do in a while. I looked back at her. Then I walked out. I can not believe she is doing this! I walk up to my car put the key in the ignition, put my seatbelt on and drove off. I was so angry at Tabitha I couldn't even stop thinking about that. Tabitha didn't even try to stop me when I walked out. I was on my way to the coffee shop to meet Brandon. I texted Brandon when I was at a red light, "Meet me at the coffee shop! ASAP!" He texted back, "Okay I will be there in ten minutes." When the light turned green I stepped on the gas and a drunk driver comes out of nowhere. The drunk driver hits my car, pushes me into another car and causes this whole traffic jam. I am barely breathing. Trying to catch my breath I can't keep my eyes open any longer I close them.

My family is worried. Brandon is worried. The doctor had told my parents and Brandon I might not make it. Today might be my last day. They all waited by my side listening to the beeps. Watching me sleep. I might not even wake up. I never got to say I love you to Brandon for the last time. I never got to be myself. My eyes open slowly while everyone is praying around me hoping I wake up. Everyone puts their heads up high enough to see my eyes open. I struggle to breathe still. I can't get these works out. Trying and trying to talk. But Cant. I look down at my hand and see an IV in. I look around slowly. All I see are Brandon and my parents. I keep trying to get these words out, but I can't even breathe enough. I tell myself to Breathe in and out. In and out. My mom calls the doctor in to ask why I am not even talking. Am I deaf or something? Did I die while I was asleep? Brandon is the first one to talk, "Kaitlyn? Can you here me? I love you!" I shake my head yes while my dad gives Brandon the "What did you just say to my daughter" look. I close my eyes right before the doctor comes in. I am asleep again. The doctor notices my breathing is not right. She takes me to surgery right away. The waiting room is full of people. Tabitha didn't even show. The police were there waiting for me. Waiting for me to tell my side of the story. I am the one in the worst condition. The drunk driver was caught. He is now facing jail time.

I get out of surgery and sleep. I wake up to find a breathing tube in my throat. Not helping. I struggle to catch my breath. I am alone. The doctor told everyone no visitors. My respitory theropist comes to help with my breathing. I am worried I might not make it. The respitory theropist says "Hello Kaitlyn, I'm Jane your respitory theropist. I am sorry to say-" I worry to hear this. I don't want to here this. "You might not make it. If you do, you will need breathing treatments more than once a day." A week later I get the tub out of my throat so I can finally talk. The doctor gave me a button so if I can't breathe, to push it. I can barely talk, but I do. I whisper, "Mom, is it true? I might not make it?" My mom tells me the truth, "You might not make it honey. we love you so much. We need you, stay with us!" I take a sip of my water. I take a small sip.

When Brandon comes in he says to me, "Hey babe, I love you! Don't leave me!" I try to tell him the best I could, "I love you too! I want to stay!" I do my school work in the hospital. I get my teacher to come help me. I have to stay in the hospital for over like one month or more. When ever my doctor thinks I am ready. I get a visitor later on the day my teacher came for the first time. The visitor was the drunk driver. "Hello, you must be Kaitlyn, I am sorry!" "I am short of breath and try to say, "I might not live. I can barely breathe." I lost so much breath, I can't breathe at all. I push the button. I start to close my eye. My heart is stopping. This was unexpected. There is a long Beep coming from my room. My parents and Brandon had gone to get food when I had stopped breathing. The drunk driver saw that and left my room. The doctors tried to shock me. Nothing. I was be taken to an emergency surgery. My parents and Brandon came back to my room when the doctor came in after the surgery. I lie on a hospital bed in the operating room.

"Hello, Kaitlyn's heart stopped. We took her to surgery. We put a tube in her throat again. She can't talk. She will be in here soon. We lost her for ten to twenty mintues. We got her. She is breathing, but barely." Everyone prays. I pass by the waiting room. I see my Florida friends. They see me with the tube. A few months later, I go home with all this breathing stuff. When I finally get the okay to drive my car will be fixed. Walking to the front door with all my stuff Tabitha stares out the window like she did the day I came over. I always new certain friends won't always be there for you.Tabitha was a great friend. She went down the wrong road. Tabitha was arrested while I was in the hosptial. She was caught with weed. I never expected that, that was unexpected. When I got home from the hospital and I saw her sitting at the window, I noticed that our friendship was over.

The Move

My parents fighting all the time. Ever since the accident my house has been like war. I can't get peace in this house, but I can't even leave this house because I am in bad shape. I have nowhere to go. My life will never be the same. I listen to my parents fighting. As soon as it is quiet, my parents come to my room. My mom looks into my eyes and says, "Kaitlyn, honey, I know you are tired of your dad and I fighting. It doesn't look like it is getting any better, we are getting a divorce." The word Divorce makes my heart ache. My parents were the perfect couple until my accident. My dad looks at me intensly and says to me, "You will be moving in with me. I will be moving back to Newberry."

I yell at him so hard it hurts! "WHAT! WHY? I CAN'T LEAVE! I GOT INTO THE BEST SCHOOL IN THE COUNTRY!" When I yelled "WHAt", IT hurt so bad, then I ended up not being able to talk for a day. My parents had told me I will be leaving next week. I will meet my dad there. My dad has a week to find a house. I text Brandon and tell him everything. As I start to pack everything I come across a picture of Tabitha and I. Our friendship is over, why do I still have this? I put it in a box. I put it in the box for keeps and I don't even know why. I couldn't get myself to throw it away. A week later Brandon and I say good-bye. I go to LAX and fly all the way to the Orlando, Florida Airport. When I get off the long sleepless plane ride I see my dad standing there. I grab my stuff and go to the car.

I slamed the door as hard as a frozen carmel apple in antaritca in the window. We had a three hour long quiet ride to our new house. When we get home I notice the house I will live at is my old house where I use to wake up every morning to my mom's homemade pancakes. I will not smell those pancakes again. Not in this house. I walk in the house where I see Kyle standing there with flowers and chocolate. Am I still with Brandon? I text him asking if this long distance will work. When he texts back he said, "No I really don't think so, I love you to death! I will always love you! I think we should be over though." I said the same thing to him. When Kyle saw me he said, "KAITLYN! I have missed you!" I just stare.

How did he know? What will happen now?? I hate the unexpected. I miss Brandon so much I wish he was here with me. Brandon is still in LA though. Never will he be in Newberry. I never even told Tabitha I was moving. The last time I saw her she was staring out her window. When I unpack my breathing treatment I start my breathing exercises. I look off my balcony when I am done to find my anitials in the tree. When I am in better condition I am going to climb the tree to find out what else is up there. Something moves in my closet. I walk slowly to the closet door. When I get there and open the door up,I scream. "AHHHHHH" I lost my Breath after that scream.

Room 312

My dad runs upstairs after he hears me scream. He grabs the phone and dails 911. All along I knew this was a bad idea. I woke up in the hospital with a breathing mask on. Right next to me are my parents and Brandon. Why are my mom and Brandon here? I close my eyes for a minute then open my eyes again. They were gone. I just imagined them. But I know I am not imagining Kyle walking in the hospital room door. Room 312. I really want to talk so bad, but I can't. I wish this would all change. I wish everything was back to normal. I noticed back at the hospital in Los Angeles I was in room 312 as well. My adress always had 312 in it. What is with the number 312? Kyle brought me a magazine called 312. Why is everything 312 now? Was room 312 haunted or something? Something is linking me to Room 312.

When I got home a week later I asked my dad, "Hey dad, what room was I born in?" It took my dad a mintue to answer. He answered, "Room 312." My mouth dropped. I needed to do more reseach on the subject Room 312. When I got home I see The spot I was found on the ground. I check my closet out but I find nothing. I started to climb the tree outside on my balcony where I found "Kaitlyn and Kyle are Best Friends Forever!" Carved into the tree. Right under it is the date. "March 1,1997". I see all this stuff from Kyle and I. Then I found some from me and Bailyn. At that time I noticed I haven't told Bailyn I was back. Has Kyle already told her and she is in jail again? I call Bailyn's phone. No answer. I text her, No answer. After that I call her house phone and her mom picks up from the phone. "Hello." "Hey this is Kaitlyn, is Bailyn there?" "Oh Kaitlyn, Hi I haven't heard from you in a while. But no, Bailyn was arrested last night for possession." I thought to myself, Of course. I reply back, "oh, I am sorry, but I got to go bye." I put the phone down. I went down off the tree to my room.

I looked at my photo album of Bailyn and I. Such a good kid too. Then I relized I need to go down there. I drove my car all the way to the Gainsville County Jail. I waited for Bailyn to come out with a cop holding her and silver handcuffs keeping her hands together. When she came out and saw me her eyes got wide and sat down. "Hey Bailyn, what happened?" "I got arrested for possession and this was not the first time." "I heard before. But What jail cell number are you in?" "312 Why?" I paused and thought of every room number that has 312 in it. I am confused more than ever at this point. But Why the number 312?

The Healing of all Parts of Me

Healing? Is that even a choice for me? I want to know how I can stop with all these breathing treatments. Coughing all the time really stinks. Since i'm back home and my mom is so far away, who am I going to talk to about boys or any problems I would have? I miss my old life. All my friends are gone and all I have is myself. I email my friends, no emails back. I look everyday for emails, texts, calls, and I am stupid enough to check the mail. Why am I even trying? They probably forgot about me. You find out who your real friends are as you get older. I want to go back to Los Angeles though. I can't stand it in this little town called Newberry. I want to go back to where my mom is. I can heal every part of me there. I know where I belong when I am there. I just hope I can leave here to go back. I got into the bset High School in the United States and I had to leave. That school looks good on all Applications to everywhere. I feel like I am not good enough to fit in anywhere else. My dad comes into my room as I am taking my medicine so I can finally heal. my dad says, "I know you are upset here, but when you get the okay from your doctor, you are going back to L.A. Your mom called the school and they are ready for you to come back." I could not wait for that.

I finish my breathing treatments and sit in the old tree house where everything is calm and I do no have to worry about anything but being where I actually belong. I was about to start packing the tree house first, when I saw the floor board popping up. I lift the floor board up as I see my old photos I put up here before I moved. Nobody even touched them ever. I start to cry as I read the old newspaper clippings over me and see my family so happy. Why do I even try to be happy again? As I start to pack up the old newspaper clippings and the old photos I get a call from Kyle. I ignore the call and keep packing my stuff I am taking. I left alot of my stuff to be here at my dads and I still have some things at my moms. I took the essentials with me. Between the next few days, all I did was pack. On Friday, my dad drove me to the airport where I had a one-way ticket to Los Angles, California. Being in the car with my dad was pretty boring. I put in my earplugs for my IPOD when my dad decides to talk. All I hear is Music from the pink zebra headphones sticking out of my ears. My dad doesn't even know I am not listening when he turns to me and says, "I am going to miss you, I love you Kaitie, I hope you keep in touch." All I heard was the "uch" We pull up and I say good-bye to my dad.

He was the only one that has ever called me Kaitie. As I grew up, that was all he called me. So as I board the plane I look out the window and see him in the window standing there waving at me balling his eyes out. I know he is upset. I just cannot help it. To think I am hurting my dad so much just to get the best for me. I hope he something to make him happy. As I am thinking of how much I am hurting my dad, I see an elderly guy staring at me in a way you couldn't imagine. I cannot even stand this ride already. I thought I was lucky to be on the plane sitting all by myself in the plane seat. The old guy trys to come sit by me where I am getting completly grossed out I yell, "When will we be in Los Angles?" But we are just lifting off now. I try to get someone who works on the plane to keep the man in his seat because he is creeping me out. I can see him staring at me out of the corner of my eye. I turn on my IPOD and start listening to music. All I can here is my dad calling me Kaitie. I am having Doubts of moving. I really wish I was not though. I finally fall asleep. I wake up when we have five minutes until we land and I see the creepy man sitting right next to me! I say "Please leave me alone!" He is hitting on me! I refuse to even talk to him anymore.

The plan lands and I run off the plane so fast I left tracks. As I get my bags and I look for my ride, my mom is not here. I look at my phone and the screen said "No New Messages" I call and text my mom, but no reply. I find a bench to sit on. I wait and wait for my mom. The guy from the plane is looking for me so I sheild my face. I cannot find my mom anywhere. I call everyone and nobody has seen her. Where is she?

Lost

I am lost. My mom is gone. I get ahold of one my neighbors who were shocked to hear from me, but has not even heard or seen from my mom. Fear runs through my veins as I have the feeling something is wrong. I call my dad. "Dad, I landed, but there is a problem." "Kaitie. what's the matter? What happened?" "It's mom, she has not arrived and she is never late. I have a feeling something happened." The line went dead. Did he hang up? Where is my mom? I need her so much. I look at my phone and see Tabitha's number. I text her "Have you seen my mom?" That was the first time I have talked to her since the fight. She answers, "No why? Aren't you with your dad in Newberry?" "I am here to live with my mom and go to LAHS, but I cannot find her and she was suppose to pick me up from the airport." "I will be there to pick you up, LAX right?" "Yeah, we need to talk." "Yes we do, I miss hanging out with you Kaitlyn!" I didn't answer until I got a text saying, "I am out front." I go out there to find Tabitha. She puts my stuff in the trunk of her car.

We drive down the high way and talk about all the good old times and how amazing it was for me when I lived there. Tabitha says, "I missed you when you were gone, you didn't tell me you were leaving, why?" "We were in that fight, I didn't think you cared about me anymore. I didn't think we'd talk ever again. I didn't even think I would be back here. I love it here. I am glad to be back." "I am glad you are back, you look different, I will help you find your mom, she is somewhere close, she couldn't have gotten far." "It isn't like her to something like this, somethings wrong, i just know it! She didn't even answer my texts or calls!" I keep trying to get a hold of my mom but no answer. I get more nervous and more afraid as minutes pass. out of nowhere, it starts to poor down raining. "What the heck!" I yell. "It was suppose to be clear skys, not pooring down rain!" Answers Tabitha. Something is wrong I think. Then out of nowhere, starts thundering and lightening outside.

Then, we get a tire blown and swirve of the side of the road. "AHHHHH!" Screams Tabitha. I didn't know what to do. Nobody else is on the road. We are lost. No way out. "I have no service!" I scream to Tabitha to get over the thunder and lightening. Scared to death, we try to get service. We are stuck in the middle of nowhere. Pitch black and hearing wolfs attacking animals. Something comes to the window of the car and makes us scream on the top of our lungs. The window breaks. The wolf starts to attack. I try to get out of the car, but of course the wolf is on my side. Tabitha gets out and trys to pull me out by my arms as the wolf has my legs. I scream in pain, "Tabitha! Help! Help! Help!" Blood everywhere. I cannot breathe. Losing all my breath and screaming so loud I am losing my voice. Suddenly I can feel my eyes closing as I am in terror struggling for my life. "Tabitha, leave me and run. Im dying as it is just go and save youse-" my eyes close and I stop breathing.

The Struggle

I struggled for life while Tabitha watches and tries to help. A truck passes and sees blood, a wolf, Tabitha and my body. Tabitha tries her best to get his attention. He stops and shoots the wolf. We finally get signal as the kind stanger calls 911 and helps keep as much blood in me as possible. Good thing he is a doctor. He tells Tabitha, "It looks like your friend might not be able to walk again. She will be lucky if she even lives." Tabitha looks down and prays I will be okay. She grabs my phone calls my dad and tells him about the accident. An hour after calling 911 an ambulance comes with lights flashing and a siren going off. Then a fire truck comes to help lift me into the ambulance. I struggle for my life as the kind doctor from the side of the road meets us at the hosptial to see how I am doing. Tabitha comes in the ambulance with me. My dad tries his best to get here as fast as he could. But he is all the way in Florida. Tabitha's family meets us at the hosptial and tries to get a hold of my mom. I am afraid she is gone. Tabitha calls Brandon and tells him about me. I wasn't even here a day. Not even an hour and I am struggling for my life.

Brandon comes and watches me. Tabitha takes her parents car to my house and checks around for my mom. She finds this note on the kitchen counter. She didn't look at it. It was addressed to me and it was from my mom. She must had known something was going on. Tabitha brings it to the hosptial and waits for me to wake up. Brandon holds my hand kisses my forehead and prays. Pray for me I say in my mind. I am half dead and half alive. I can tell because my spirit came out of my body and I see my body. I see everything. Scared of what is going to happen. I panic. nobody can hear me scream or talk. I look at my body and Brandon. I listen to Brandon saying, "I love you so much! Please! Please come back! Kaitlyn! I miss you! Dont leave me!" And he is crying. Tears rush down his beautiful cheeks. The cheeks I kissed. I don't want to watch this anymore. I want to be there with him. Be alive and not half way dead. I don't want to hear the meter say im dead. I look through the window to see the doctor from the road as my doctor. His name is doctor John. Tabitha comes back and is holding a letter. She hasn't opened it. I try to give her a sign to open it. So I grab it and open it. Well my spirit does. I read it. It says,

Dear Kaitlyn,
If your reading this, I bet you are afraid. Afraid of why I didn't show up. I am sorry, something came up and I couldn't get a hold of you. Please ask Tabitha to stay with her until I get back. I don't have my phone. It is missing. Stolen actually. So I bet you tried to get a hold of me. Please, be careful. You can still get ahold of me. Just call or text this number. I had to get a new phone so call or text, 358-873-8888. Please, Stay here and don't go back to Florida with your dad because my boss decided to tell me now he needs me in New York. But get your stuff in the house and get unpacked. But you can stay with Tabitha if her parents say it's okay. I want you to stay close to home. So Please! Go to Tabitha's tell her mom to get a hold of me if she needs to. Thanks honey, again I am really sorry.
Love,
Mom

So now I know I don't have to worry. Tabitha is now reading the letter. She calls my mom and tells her about the accident. She feels so guitly. They both do. I can feel my dying even more. Every second going by. I get faiter and faiter. I try to give Brandon a signal that I am here. I need him. He needs me. I don't get why life does this to me. Brandon's tear drips off his face and on one of my stiches.I felt it in my spirt as well. But I can still feel me dissapearing. I don't want to struggle anymore. I need my life more than ever. Today is Sunday and Tabitha goes to church to pray for me. I need all the prayers I can get. When Tabitha got back, Brandon went to church so he can have his turn to pray for me. My spirit followed him. He went up on the stage and asked for prayers. Soon enough, the whole church was praying. When church was over, we came back and waited for something to happen. My body was fighting for my life. But my body started to lose an the meter had told Brandon and Tabitha that I was dying. All we hear is a Stright Beep. My spirit was fading and leaving. I was gone.

A place I like to Call Heaven

White Fluffy clouds everywhere.Everyone is dressed in White.I got this crystal ball so I can look down at friends. There is this website I signed all my friends and family up. It logged them on right when they log on to the computer. It is the only way we can contact people who are still alive and they can contact us. I look up all the people who I see up here. A two year-old is here, her parents murdered her. Her name is Erin. Her story is amazing! I met someone my age, blonde hair, blue eyes, tall, skinny and looks to be like she was a cheerleader. Always peppy and is helping me out.Her name is Kayl and she gave me her chance to go home. She loves it here. She was killed instantly at her school by a student. I suffered. She feels so bad for me. I have two years to use these or I will be stuck here. I have to earn it. I find Brandon's name and email him.

Dear Brandon,
I miss you so much! I set you up for this account. This is me. I can prove it. Here is a picture of me up here. Everything is changed. I miss you guys. I met someone who is my age. She died at her school. A student shot her accidently when he was aiming for the teacher. I felt so bad. She knows I was suffering. She saw the whole thing. When I died. She thinks you are cute. I told her to stay away from my man. I want to see you in person. Kiss those lips one last time. I was there. My spirit was when I was in the hosptial. I was half dead and hald alive. I stood there. I felt your tears hit my stitches. I cried too. I suffered. I was in pain. Pain that you wouldn't believe. I still heart. Ever since I died. But not anywhere from the wolf, from the pain of not being able to see you again. That is tough. Promise me something, you will never forget me and never let them do anything with my body. I will be back soon and I want to be able to be back. It is getting late. Sleep Tight. I miss you! I love you! I will always Love you! Email me back soon or IM me when you get on. I will recieve every IM.
Love,
Kaitlyn

Dear Tabitha,
I miss you! It's Kaitlyn! I want to thank you, you tried to save me. The wolf, the wolf was to strong. I want you to be safe. I will always be here. If you ever need to talk. I read the note. The note from my mom. I read it right before you did. You know my spirit was there. Walking around right next to you and Brandon while I was in the hospital. Don't let anyone touch my body, or my room. Stay Safe. I will be back soon. I have two chances. I have until two years to come back. Please, believe me. Here is me right now. I just took that picture. I am up in Heaven. I am the only one that can access this account. Please IM me when you get on or Email me back! Please! I miss you! I will always be here if you need to talk. Just always remeber that. I get life changes. WE had plans. To go to college together. To have a double wedding and be eachothers brides maides. We had plans. I will always remember all these plans we had and I will never forget our lives together. Just remember I will be with you through every minute of everyday. Just because I am not there physically, doesn't mean I am not there at all. Go to my house. Grab my favorite and lucky necklace and keep it. I wish I could have given it to you myself. Stupid wolf! I just can never repay you for trying so hard to save my life. You risked your life. But in the end it ended like it should. Thanks so much.
Love,
Kaitlyn

Dear Kaitlyn,
Is it really you? The love of my life. Anyone can edit a picture and say they are Kaitlyn. If this is not Kaitlyn, I will hurt you. I loved her so much! She was the best and most wonderful girl I had ever known. I want to find that wolf. I want to kill that wolf. If this is Kaitlyn, I love and miss you! They will not touch your body if I have anything to do with it. I want to see you one last time. I want to kiss you and know if it will be our last kiss. I want to remember what is was like to be with you. I will always keep the pictures of us. Are you the only one that wants to come home? That is awful of how some people died. Tell me if you see my grandfather up there. Tell him I say hi. I pray for you everyday babe. Everyone tells me to give up on you. They say you will never come back. I want you back. Everyone else does too. Your parents are feeling guilty and are blaming themselves. They aren't even blaming the wolf anymore. Nobody expected a wolf to come out of nowhere in Los Angeles. Did you know your dad is probably moving back to Los Angeles? You never had a "get it while it is hot" family. I had that my whole life. Which means your parents don't have anymore children. You grew up as an only child. I have brothers and sisters. Please try to come home! Your mother just sobbs in a corner over you and I watch and watch. Cry and Cry. Come home babe! I love you and I always will. Forever and always!
Love,
Brandon

The Time to Say Good-Bye

"Am I ready to say good-bye to my old life?" I ask Kayla. Kayla answers, "Nobody is, but you will know when you are. When you are, you will not torchure your friends and family anymore. The thing is, when you communicate with them, you are torchuring them, they think they are dreaming. Dreaming they can talk to you again. Nobody wants to say good-bye, I wish the boy made better choices, I wish I said good-bye to friends and family. But with death, you don't say good-bye, you say hello to new standards and new ways where ever you end up. Try to go back if you really want to. You will not remember this at all. Well I was told you don't. You will go back, but life will be different. It might be best if you stay here and not go back. Start a family here. I am happy here. You can be too!" I try to take all the bad stuff out of what she said. I cannot run anymore. I have to try to figure it out. What's best for me? "If you die again, you will not end up here again, you will end up down under. I heard of the down under. You won't want to be there. You will love it here." She adds.

All I can think about is if I am really ready to say good-bye and change who I am. I look down. I am torchuring them. Waiting and waiting. I find a solution for them to be happy. I am not going home. But I am going to say good-bye. I look down to Brandon. I go and say good-bye to him first. Crying as I say, "Brandon... It's me Kaitlyn. I came to say good-bye. I hear people saying good-bye to me all the time, but I never get the chance to say good-bye to them. I love you so much Brandon. I will never forget you! Please don't forget me, but find someone else to love. You will hurt less that way." "Kaitlyn! I will never forget you I need you! I can never love someone else. I don't want to say good-bye." He goes on, "Kaitlyn! We need you here! We want you here!" Brandon is making this harder for me than it already is. I kiss him. He is kissing back. This is our last kiss. "I'll miss you Brandon!" I say. "I will miss you too Kaitlyn!" "I love you forever and always!" "I love you too!" I dissapear and cry. I cry in the place everyone calls Heaven.

Nothing ever occured to me about my ex-boyfriend who I called Kyle. Also knowned as one of my former best friends. I look down on him. I see him reading about my death now. Tears beating down his face. He quickly grabs the phone and calls my mother. She tells him everything. I cannot believe I forgot to tell him.I said my good-byes to everyone and now I know I am not coming back at all. I guess I have a new best friend up here. Kayla will help me out here. I feel like I am alone up here. I feel like I will never fit in up here. I keep watching everyone down there. Makes me think of what I am missing out on. I am going to send Brandon a girl. Just like me in everyway. Maybe he might be happy. Well When he is ready I will. She exists, I know it. My funeral arrangements were set up and I am going to attend my own funeral. How weird is that? My dad is flying here to see the funeral, I never thought i'd say this, but I am nervous. I am nervous to here what people have to say about me. I wonder who all is coming. Is Kyle coming? I know Brandon is and I know Tabitha will.

Do I dress up for my own funeral? In Heaven the color is white, white means happiness I guess. So nobody wears black here. Black is what you wear at funerals. So I am not going to dress up because nobody can see me anyway. I walk around heaven looking down at everyone I loved. Tabitha is trying on the dress I made her. It happened to be black. We had matching dresses that we had made eachother. Close friends for a long time. The dresses were made a long time ago. Tabitha made the dress fit better. That is all she did to it. Brings memories back. I wish I could be there with everyone. I never got a chance to go to prom, to graduate, to live life, or do anything I hoped to as a child. All my life I have wanted to go. I will be with Brandon there, but he won't know it. All of this was Unexpected for everyone. Nobody knows I was writing a letter. The letter was for my grandfather. The letter was found.

The Letter

Dear Grandfather,
It's me, Kaitlyn. Thanks for helping me with my goals. I want to be just like you! I am getting older. I wish I knew where you were. You being the traveling journalist you are, you cannot give to much information away. By the time you get this, I would have found some way to get this to you. Did you know Mom and Dad just got divorced and I am upset. Yes, they were fighting a lot, but now I have to choose who to live with. I have stuff at both houses. Daddy is moving back home to Newberry, Florida. Mamma is staying here in Los Angeles California. I really am nervous about this. I don't want to hurt their feelings. I am going to stay at Daddy's for a bit. I have no choice there though. I don't know how long this will last. It is November. He moves tomorrow. Today is November third to be exact. I leave and say my good-byes to Mamma and all my friends. I am in a fight with Tabitha. You remember her. One of my good friends from when I was little. I said good-bye to Brandon and all the Los Angeles friends I have. Now it's time to say good-bye to my best friend in the whole wild world, Mamma.

I am now in Newberry with Daddy. Back in the old house, I sit and I am writing to you. I took my breathing treatments for the day. I bet mamma told you about the accident. I really don't feel like saying it. Grandfather, when will I see you again? It's not the same without you! I have a feeling, somethings wrong. Are you okay? I really hope nothing happened to you. I sit in my room looking at a picture of us. The one taken before you left. I really wanna know what is new with you. I am the only child still. Really lonely. I have always wanted a brother or a sister. When the family was together we would have dinner just the three of us every night. In the quiet because everything was always the same. Same stories, same people. If there was more of us, it would have been different. We might even have to fight to get some food. That would be funny though, don't you think. By the way. Happy Thanksgiving!

I know when you get this this will be alot of reading for you. But I just hope, you will read it all. Thanksgiving was different this year. Daddy messed up. He bought a ham, not a turkey. I wish it was like normal. I wish you were here for the holidays. I wonder what mamma did for thanksgiving. Probably worked, that's all she has been doing lately.I have been looking at your picture and smiling. Wondering, did he change? Why won't he talk to us? I want to get you something for Christmas. I was thinking a notebook. You would like that. You can write about your day. You can write my back. I would read every last word everyday for the rest of my life. Will you be here for prom? I want you to be here when I go off with my date for the night. Don't tell Daddy this, but I wanna go live with Mamma. Mom and I we were two peas in a pod. Hope you had a good Thanksgiving where ever in the world you are.

So it's Christmas Eve and I think I am about done writing to you. I will send it because I think we found where we can send it to you. This way it keeps your secret. And you and I can talk. I won't tell anyone anyway. It can be our little secret anyway. I am on my way to Los Angeles and I cannot wait to see Mamma. Is she excited? I ask myself everyday, Does she even love me? I bet she does. I am worried that she or Daddy just say that. I have a feeling you don't love me because you won't tell us where you are. What is so secret over there? It is not like you are at war! You are exploring the world. Where all have you been anyway? How do you get around? Will I ever see you again? Please talk to me! I miss you Grandfather! Did I tell you I have straight A's at school! I am moving back to Los Angeles with mom since I still have my spot at LAHS! Did I tell you I got into the best high school in America! I am so proud! Mamma is not answering her phone. Where is she? I am so worried something happened to her. I called Tabitha and she is coming to pick me up! I will be okay, are you? I miss you! I love you Grandfather! I will be okay and we will let you know we need you. Will you let us know if you need me? I love you!
Love,
Kaitlyn

The Funeral

My Grandfather got the letter in enough time to come to the funeral. He came in astonishment of my passing. A few people were so kind and wrote speeches. Grandfather was one of those kind people. Everyone had flowers in their hands. Brandon sat in the front row of the chapel and cried. Tears streaming down his beautiful, tan, face. I could not believe how upset I made him. Tabitha looked so wonderful in the dress we had designed. Dad trying to be tough, I can see right through it, if their wasn't so many people here, he would be crying like a baby. Mom, so upset, Mascara running down her face onto the floor. When she gets up, their is a black puddle on the ground by her seat. The paster says "Now for speeches from close family and friends. First is her mother." "Hello ladies and gentlemen. Thanks for being here for my little girl, we are not here today to dwell on her passing, we are here today to celebrate her life and all her accomplishments. My daughter was an amazing person in this world. she went through a lot. I loved her so much and I could not have asked for more. I did not think I could love another child as much as I loved her. Kaitlyn was so amazing. My only child. She will be missed and I hope she Rests In Peace."

The next speech was my father. "Kaitlyn she was courageous. She was murdered by a wolf. I do blame myself that she is not with us today. If I would have told her to stay with me a little while longer, she would still be here today. My little girl had goals. She had a life. I wish my little Kaitie was still here with me flashing those big white teeth she would flash all the time. I smiled everytime she flashed her teeth. She was so unique in every way. When I found out about my little girl, I died a bit inside. Tabitha was one of her best friends and tried so hard to help Kaitlyn. Tabitha, I thank you so much for risking your life for my daughter when I know you could have ran, but you stayed and tryied to help. Kaitlyn, you are gone, but never to be forgotten."

I heard that, I cried. Next was Brandon. "Hello I am Brandon, Kaitlyn's boyfriend. Well I was her boyfriend. When I met Kaitlyn, I was saying to my friends, that is the girl I am going to date. Nobody believed me. They thought she was out of my leage. She is. I was the most popular guy in school and when everyone met her she was the most popular girl in school. I fell in love with this beautiful girl who I pray I will meet again soon. Everyone said we were the perfect couple. When I heard about the accident, I was in the middle of an important meeting with the college of my dreams. I ran out of that meeting and went to the hospital and waited for days. I cried and cried. I had plans. I was going to propose to her at prom. But we were going to get our careers going before we would get married. I loved that girl to death. The last thing I said to her was I love you forever and always. and I meant it."

Brandon made me ball my eyes out. Next was Tabitha. "Hello, I am the girl that risked my life to save the best friend I had ever had. I didn't know what to do if I lost her. But I did. We both designed this dress for the fun of it. I think of her every second my life now. It is my fault. I could have taken her the other way, but I took her the way I thought would be fastest. That night scared me to death. I called Brandon and her parents when we were on the way to the hosptial. Yes, I could have left her and ran to get help. But if I did that, she would have been eaten to death. I was not going to let my best friend die. I got a guys attention. He was coming home from work. He was a doctor. He helped. He kept Kaitlyn alive as long as he could. He kept her alive for days. I still feel her with me. Right now. Everywhere, every minute of everyday. She is always with us."

My grandfather had to follow after Tabitha. " Kaitlyn was my only granddaugther. She had wrote me. I am a traveling journalist. I travel the world writing. Kaitlyn had said, 'Grandfather, I want to be just like you when I get older. You are my Idol and Rolemodel.' Those were her exact words. I cried when she said that. She was only five. She put a smile on my face. I think about that moment everyday. If I need to smile. I think of that moment. She was writing this note for me. For about two months. She was worried. She hasn't seen me since she was five. Now she was going to be eightteen soon and I never got to say good-bye. She was the best granddaughter ever!"

Tears filled my eyes as I heard these speeches. I looked through the audience and see all my friends from Newberry. Even Kyle came. As we go outside and pack into cars, we all drive to the cementary where I am going to be burried. All the cars drove in a line. Police escort to the Los Angeles Cementary. There are some police still looking for the wolf that had killed me. I will get pay back everyone is saying. The wolf will be put down. I will be watching and make sure the wolf is the only one that sees me. Watching the wolf get killed like the wolf killed me. I finally can rest in peace when the wolf is caught.

I always have this feeling. The feeling telling me there is no going back. It is like you are walking alone in the darkness. Cannot look back, just look forward. But i my positon, there isn't even a chance to look back. My life is over, literally. When you are a teenager, you say, "My life is over" when you are being over dramatic, but I am not being dramatic, I cannot go back to how life should be. Or how life needs to be. I think about all this as I watch my friends and family put flowers and notes at my grave. My grandfather, my mom, my dad, Tabitha and Brandon put the speeches at my grave. I am burried in the Mausoleum so everyone can put all this stuff and not worry about it getting ruined. I stood next to my family tracing my name on the stone. I never thought I would see it up there. Nobody can see me, but I can see them. Tears flow from everyone's faces. I can feel tears dripping off my cheeks. As I keep tracing my name, I see a hand tracing my name as well. It's Brandon. Brandon is tracing my name crying. If I would have waited, I would still be alive today. I should have stayed with my dad a little longer.

Kyle decides, "Hey I will go talk to Kaitlyn's boyfriend" Brandon tried to get out of the conversation. Kyle was saying how terrible I was and how I mistreat everyone I meet. Brandon did not like that at all. He would not stop saying bad stuff about me. I didn't want Kyle here. I am dead so I have no control over that. I have lost everything. But, It is for the best that I am gone. That I am not torchuring everyone. Being at the funeral I realized if life gives you lemons, you make lemonade. The lemon is me passing away in this situation. Brandon and everyone else need to make the best of this situation Brandon can meet someone else. Tabitha can get a new best friend and my parents can go and date other people without having to worry about me. I will be watching to make sure everyone is doing good and staying out of trouble, but I want them to be happy. To be happy and not stress about me.

I'll be Watching

Just watching and waiting. Trying to protect everyone that was close to me. I go and trace my name everyday.I look and more and more things are added to my part everyday. Where my accident occured, there are flowers and a sign that says "Be Safe" right where I died. My story is everywhere. Across the news, across the world. They found the wolf. Thank gosh too. I am finally in Peace. The wolf was put down...today. Brandon was there. I saw him and wanted to kiss him. His eyes are bloodshot. You can tell he was crying. His sister made him a shirt. Made everyone close to me a shirt. The shirt says,"Rest In Peace Kaitlyn" And my picture is on it. On the back is my story. So many people wanted one after that, she sold them. Now Brandon sees my face everywhere. Standing in line at the store and having to read my story. The people close to me have shirts that say things like "Kaitlyn's boyfriend" on Brandon's.

I watch Brandon and he wears that shirt all the time. He prays all the time. I look down and Brandon says good night to me everynight. It is not like he actually sleeps. He stays up thinking about me. He has barely gotten any sleep since I have been gone. I haven't even processed it yet. Has he? I looked down the next day to see him sitting on the sidewalk at school. He looks up and says "I love you Kaitlyn!" I scream on the top of my lungs, "I LOVE YOU BRANDON!" but to him, that came out as thunder. He looks up as I cry. I cry and cry. It starts raining from my crying. He runs inside because it is pouring. "Mom, she is out there. I felt it. The rain is her crying, I have a feeling." he says to his mom. "Honey, you need sleep. Go get sleep." She says back. He is right. She isn't. I break the rules. I know I am not suppose to do this, but oh well. On his computer a chat comes up.

Im here, I love you! My tears are the rain. I watch you from up here. I am right next to you. Look to your right. I am sitting there and watching you. You are covered in my tears. I know I am torchuring you. I am breaking rules doing this. I love being able to see you. I just say one thing. You need to get over me. There is no way for me to come back. I see you everyday at my stone. I traced my name. I know you have. One time we traced it together. I have always been here. You just didn't know it. I told you I would. I want my life back. Please do me a favor, move on. Kayla is helping me break this rule. This is all I need to tell you! Brandon, Please, I am going to be sending you signs. You will know when I am with you. I miss you! I love you! XOXOXOXOXO -Kaitlyn

When he read that he look to his right and said "Kaitlyn?" He thinks he is going crazy. He is just human. I am sending him the right girl. A girl just like me. I feel he might be ready. My heart pounds every time I think about Brandon. I want the best for Brandon. That very next morning Brandon was at school for the first time since I passed. He got all his missing work and got all caught up. He went to his locker for the first time and stared at our picture. Tears streamed from his face. I cannot take this anymore. I torchure him. I know I torchure him. I just cannot stand not being with him. Kayla said, "You will always feel like this. It might be meant to be if he passes away before he is twenty. If he older than twenty and alive still, it is not meant to be." "I want him to lose his life before twenty then, but I want him to be happy and live. He is going to be eightteen soon. He has time then."I answer in terror. I look down and I see him staring at my closed locker that says, "Rest In Peace Kaitlyn Marie Allen". He says, "I know your here Kaitlyn. I need you. Your in a better place now."

After all the heartaches of watching Brandon, I decide to watch Tabitha. Tabitha started a "Kaitlyn Group". This group is to share my story. Tabitha found my journal. This journal was given to me when I moved to Los Angeles and I wrote in it everyday. I wrote about my fights with my friends. I wrote about Brandon. I wrote about everything that I cared about and that I wanted to look back and remember. Growing up, my favorite book was "The Diary of Anne Frank". That book shares a wonderful story that I thought was unique. This thirteen year-old girl has to stay in an attic called "The Secret Annex" with people she barely knew and she was stuck in there for two years. To make matters worse, Anne was a normal teenage girl who was adventurous. This was her story. My journal is like her diary. People say "Kaitlyn is the next Anne Frank. It was funny, we both had a goal to be journalists. And we both died before we can even finish high school. She died in a concentration camp, I died from a wolf. Was it Jacob Black? Jacob Black was a werewolf from one of my favorite movies called, "Twilight". This movie was a series. I was always on Team Jacob. Not Edward.

The Letters

People put notes they right me at my podium at my stone where I am burried, or in my locker. Once in a while I like to read these. Some are so sweet I cry. Some are from people who I never talk to. One stands out from all the others. A girl from my school who was a few years younger than me remembered when she was a freshmen on her first day of school what I did to help. I was glad I could help.

Dear Kaitlyn,
I am sorry to here about your passing. I will never forget the day you helped me on my first day of school. I was knew there and I was a freshmen. You were a junior and you knew your way around. The day was not a good start for me. First I dropped my books, then got pushed down trying to pick them up, then I got lost. I was so confused. Such a big school and I still get lost. But when I get lost, I think about the day you helped me. People would make fun of me and you would stand up for me. Now you are gone, nobody talks to me in your grade. I pass your locker everyday. It says "Rest In Peace Kaitlyn Marie Allen". I stand there for a minute and stare. If you would have not helped me, I would have most likely committed suicide. I had a friend. Brandon and Tabitha want to be my friend. I don't want to replace you. I don't think anyone will heal from your passing. Days go on. Your story is always on tv. On every channel. Rest In Peace and thanks again for everything! I cannot thank you enough!
Sincerly,
Amy Lynn Baker

Dear Kaitlyn,
You were such a cool person. Nothing is right without you. I have a confession. I was always jealous of you and Brandon. I have had a crush on you for the longest time and I cannot stand that I never got the chance to tell you. We talked in the halls. The oneday we talked outside of school, was when we found the rose. I found one exactly like it and I thought of you. So I put this at where you lie and I hope nobody takes it. Shame on them if they do. Thanks for all the help you had given me and I will always think of the girl who helped me when I needed it. Brandon was lucky he had you. I see him all around school and all he does is think about you and what he had lost. When he lost you he gained strength because he lost the most important thing to him. He will always have you at heart, everyone will. I am so sorry for your family. When I walk down the school halls, I feel like you walk around the halls still. There will always be a piece of you here.
Sincerly,
David Williams

Dear Kaitlyn,
I really never liked you. I thought you thought of yourself as "little miss perfect" who all guys drooled over since the day you got here. I am glad you are gone. Nobody needs you here anyway. You stole my boyfriend and I am glad your gone so I can have him back. I have my ways and trust me, I never lose. I am on the wolf's side. I wish I could have watched you suffer. I do not get why everyone is making a fuss over your death. Your stupid story is all over school and I am so tired of hearing about it. Brandon will be mine and forget about you in a heartbeat. Kaitlyn, you got what you deserved! I hope you can read it from where you are. I know for a fact you are not in heaven. Just watch down and see Brandon get over you!

Sincerly,
Brittany Sanderson

I saw all these letters and I cried. The one from Brittany really hurt me. I thought we were friends. She acted like it most of the time. But what did I expect, she was popular. I wasn't. Only around Brandon. I never knew he broke up with her for me. I didn't even know they dated. Unless they dated before I got there and she wanted him back. Brandon won't see that letter, I hope. I look down at Brandon to see her coming on to him. He tries to get away. She kept him in. I wish I was down there with him now.

The Chats

I found out I could go on my friends computers and look from up here. I also go down and stand behind them while they are on. Most of the time on my profile. Wow nobody deleted it yet. I am shocked. I really thought somebody would have by now. I see people posting on my profile every second. They post stuff like, "Kaitlyn was cool, she has an amazing story." "I never knew her, but I wish I did." All these make me cry. Tabitha and Brandon post all the time about me. I have a fan page. How cool is that! As I look I see messages from people trying to get ahold of me. I look at all these IM's and stare. I look at Brandon and Brittany's Im's to see what is going on with them.

Chat with Brandon and Brittany

Brittany: Hey hottie!

Brandon: Hi...

Brittany: So since your single now and that idiot is out of your life we can finally be together again!

Brandon: Don't talk about her like that again! She was amazing and a better girlfriend than you will ever be! She was the love of my life. I cared so much for her and she is gone. Don't talk to me again and stop coming on to me. I will never date you again!

Brittany: Brandon, don't say that babe! We belong together! You know it in your heart! Stop trying to hide it!

Brandon: You and I do not and never will belong together! I know nothing in my heart but that I love and will always love Kaitlyn! I have nothing to hide!

Brittany: You do have stuff to hide. If you do not want to be with me, then fine, I will make your life terrible. You will never show up again. Our names even go together. Don't you see that Brittany and Brandon forever! Brandon and Kaitlyn sounds really bad!

Brandon: Just stop trying to do whatever you are doing. Brittany I will never go out with you again. Going out with you was the worst mistake of my life. I feel sorry for your family! You get to obbsessed to fast. Now good-bye!

Brittany: Brandon please! Hear me out! I love you! We were made for eachother! God has spoken to us. Plus dating me could not be the worst mistake of your life bc remember that one night? Or atleast I will tell everyone about the night.

Brandon: What night! We barely even kissed when we were dating! GOOD-BYE! I do not need you in my life.

Brandon logged off after that chat. I think somebody is obbsessed. I thought ab out going and looking at my old chats with him. Should I? It might be to hard. To hard to read all that stuff and missing what we had. I think we will always have it. I really want Brandon to find someone else. To get over me. I am not coming back. But who am I to be saying get over someone when I cannot even get over the love of my life. He always knew how to make me laugh. I miss him. So I finally get the strength to look at the chats.

Brandon: Hey babe!

Kaitlyn: Hey guess what!

Brandon: What?

Kaitlyn: I am coming home. I am going to live with my mom in California. I am so excited I have already started packing.

Brandon: That's great! I am so happy. Does it feel good to be home though?

Kaitlyn: Well I did grow up here for a long time. I see all these markings and I think, wow I was so stupid. I carved my name into everything. But I did carve "Kaitlyn+Brandon=Love" in a tree outside my window as I sat and stared at the moon.

Brandon: Aww that's so cool. Tabitha and I have been talking. She didn't even know you left. I thought you were suppose to be best friends?

Kaitlyn: We were in a fight. I never got the chance to tell her I was leaving.

Brandon: She was upset and felt unloved.

Kaitlyn: I bet, I missed hanging out with her.

Brandon: Oh, but I love you!

Kaitlyn: I love you too! I cannot wait to be back! To see your wonderful face and to be with you!

Brandon: Oh I know, I love you so much that I do not want to lose you!

Kaitlyn: Same, I gotta go though, I am about to leave for the airport. I love you!

Brandon: Love you too! Bye!

That was my last chat with him. The one we will remember forever. The day he could finally look back at the messages he read these and printed it out. He put it in an envelope and put at where I rest to this day. I really don't want to torchure him anymore than I already have. I want to go on his computer and delete ever message we had. I know he looks at the messages everyday. He tears up. When I see Brandon that way it feels like my heart is ripping open and I cannot do anything about it. Brandon and I are not meant to be. Well unless he passes away before the age differences. I need to help him get over me.

The Perfect One

After working so hard I am trying to find the perfect girl for Brandon. I finally found her. I will send her to him. She is a working journalist. She has blonde, beautiful, straight, soft, long hair like mine. She also has blue eyes and a wonderful sense of humor. She starts LAHS next week. Just moved here for the journalism program. She unpacks and ends up living next door to Brandon. As she unpacks Brandon comes over with a "welcome to the neighborhood" basket. She smiled and looked into his beautiful eyes that I fell in love with. He says, "Hello I'm Brandon and I live right next door if you need anything." "Hello, I'm Kelsey and I live, well here." She laughed so much as she answers. "Nice to meet you Kelsey, what school are you going to?" "LAHS I got into the journalism program." "That's the school I go too, if you have any questions just ask me." "Thanks, this is my senior year so I am nervous to go to a new school."

Brandon and Kelsey smiled. Brandon thought of me the whole time talking to her. The problem is she is just like me so he will not be able to forget about me. "Well I guess I will see you at school then. I can take you if you want." "That will be great thanks." She closes to door. As he walks back to his house he goes to the tree where he sees "Kaitlyn is the most amazing girl ever!" and "Brandon is the most amazing guy ever!" I remember when we carved them. That was my last month in Los Angeles before I moved. When Brandon gets to the tree he looks up and says "Did you send her to me Kaitlyn? Are you watching me? Are you trying to make me happy?" A piece of paper flies through the window and into his hand. It said "Yes". He looks at it and said to himself "I knew she was there."

The next week came by and Brandon went to go take Kelsey to school. "Thank you so much, you are the only one I know here." Kelsey said. Brandon said, "No problem anytime." When they got to school Brandon showed her around and stopped and stared at my picture. He said, "Hey Kaitlyn" to my picture like he does everyday. "Who is that?" Kelsey asked. "She was my girlfriend. She died not to long ago. She was the perfect girl for me." "oh, I am sorry for your loss. If you don't mind me asking, what happened." "She was moving back here to live with her mom when she got here she got a ride with her friend. The car broke down and a wolf attacked them. That was the only wolf here. They found the wolf and put the wolf down." "I am so sorry! She is the girl I heard on the news." "Yeah her story is still going around." "You know if she really loved you, she is still with you. She will always be with you."

He smiled when he heard her say that. "You know I see her in you." He tells her. "Really? Is that a good thing or a bad thing?" "Good because she was so amazing." "That's good." "She wanted to be a journalist and was in the program here." "Really?" "You took her place here. Her locker will never be used again. People can put letters in there she can read them from above. I put them on where she lies." Really? She was lucky to have a guy like you." "Thanks, when I am ready to date I'll let you know." He walked away. I think to myself, "GO OUT WITH HER!" He knows she is perfect for him. He cannot get over me I think. When he gets home and watches tv, a commercial came on. "Find the perfect girl for you? Ask her out! Don't wait to long! You might lose her! Call 1-800-KAITLYN" That was a hint from me for him to go ask her. He laughed at my ways of sending hints. "Really Kaitlyn! Are you sure?" He asks me. Another commercial comes on. "Yes! I love you so much!" It was a girl getting proposed to. The next day when he picked Kelsey up to take to school he asked her to go to a movie. She said yes.

Kelsey and Brandon went to a movie where my story was one of the commercials. Brandon had to leave. He went to the bathroom until the commercial was over. When he came back Kelsey asked, "Are you sure about this?" "Yeah, I just don't want them to make her story a movie, it is hard enough that her birthday is almost here." "Really? I am so sorry!" "Oh good the movie is starting." Now they are making my story into a movie! Oh great! What will my family say? I feel bad for Brandon to find out like this. His eyes tear while watching the movie. The movie about my story comes out on my birthday and everyone in my life gets a free ticket. Like they want to watch a movie about my story when they lived it. They lived through all the pain. All the suffering I caused. Just from my death. I am sorry everyone!

The Birthday

My birthday is today and my parents decided to celebrate my long life. I would be eighteen. My dad came all the way to Los Angeles for the party. Everyone decided to go see the movie about my story. The theater was packed! The movie was also sold out. Zac Efron played Brandon. Cameron Diaz plays me. The Movie is called, "The Story of a Teenager" This movie was rated Pg-13. While watching the movie Brandon had to leave. I saw tears streaming down his face like a river. Kelsey came with him even though she never met me. I wanted her to come. I sent her to him. When the movie ended everyone clapped. At the end of the movie it said, "This girl lost her life and didn't need to. This was not anyone's fault. Pray for everyone around her." Then it said the names of everyone and had pictures of the real people. At the end it said, "Based on a true story." After the movie, everyone went back to the party and left flowers.

I would be eighteen today and at school more and more flowers appeared at my picture and my plack. I felt loved. I really did. My whole school was at the party, execpt for Brittany. I didn't think she would be there anyway. I went down and sat next to everyone. I knew they felt me there. Trying to say Thank you for coming. Speeches were given. But I did notice Tabitha left early. Brandon followed her out.

"Tabitha where are you going?" "I need out of here!" "Why where do you have to be, this is your best friends birthday!" "No it isn't it is my old best friend's birthday, my new best friend is Brittany." "Do not be friends with her, she hated Kaitlyn!" "Well I do too!" "What did Kaitlyn ever do to you? Be your friend! She was always a good friend to you!" "SHE LEFT ME IN THIS WORLD TO BE SOMEWHERE ELSE!" "DO YOU THINK SHE WANTED THIS! SHE CAN'T PICK WHEN SHE DIES!" "I lose one of the closest people to me and nobody cares!" "We all care she is gone! She was an amazing person!" "How was she an amazing person if she left us? She could have fought for her life, but she didn't, she gave up!" "No she didn't her heart stopped! You use to think this was your fault that she is gone!" "Brittany told me it isn't, it is her fault, she probably could have gotten away!" "You are wrong! You were her best friend! She watches us all the time to make sure we are fine. She makes sure nothing happens to us. She is probably watching us right now!" "Who cares! I don't! She messed everything up for me!"

Tabitha pulls out a cigarette. "Tabitha! You smoke now!" "Yeah, want one?" "No, you've changed! You're just like Brittany. Do us all a favor and dont talk to us again. We were your friends. You don't care about anyone but yourself!" Brandon walks back inside. He grabs his keys and says good-bye to my parents. "Hey sorry, I gotta run, I will come by tomorrow to help clean up." "Bye Brandon, thanks for coming and thank you for offering to clean up." My parents said. Brandon took Kelsey home and went and tried to get ahold of Tabitha. He went out that night. All by himself. Tried to find Brittany and Tabitha to try to get them to change. He wanted to find the old them. I wish I could help. But since it was my birthday, this is the only day out of the year I cannot protect anyone. Well it would be the only day I need to protect someone.

We Meet Again

"Well, well, well Tabitha, look who came to see us." Brittany said. "We need to talk." Brandon demands in anger. "What? Did you finally get your head on straight?" "Brittany I told you I won't date you again! You changed Tabitha, why?" "Why you ask, because I need her. She was Kaitlyn's bestfriend, I know Kaitlyn watches you guys. I want to make her mad. Plus, Tabitha is easy to break. You on the other hand, your harder than rock. You know you want me. She gets close and kisses him. Brandon pulls away, "WHAT ARE YOU DOING?" "You Know you want me and you can have me." "I don't want anything to do with you!" He leaves. He walks to his car as Brittany follows him. She takes him inside the abandoned warehouse. She kills him right there and says to Tabitha, "If I can't have him, nobody can!" She leaves his body and goes to her car. She drives off with Tabitha. Leaving Brandon dead in the warhouse.

That night was the one night I wish I could protect someone. Out of nowhere, Brandon appears up here. "BRANDON!" I yell so loud everyone stares. "KAITLYN!" He kisses me. "Where am I?" He asked. "Heaven. I have been here watching you. Sending you signals." "I thought so, Oh, Happy Birthday!" "Thanks!" "I have missed you Kaitlyn!" "I have missed you too!" It was so great to see Brandon again and be able to kiss him. I cannot believe Tabitha did this. Her and Brittany. "You know I wanted to help you. I tried to protect you. But I cannot protect anyone on my birthday. And Neither can you." "You did? You didn't want to see me again?" "No, I loved you! I didn't want to watch the guy I love go through what I did. We need someone to find your body. If your body is found we can get them arrested. Remember when I was in the hosptial trying to keep my life. I was unconscious. I was there sitting next to you. Trying to save my life I was half and half. Then I couldn't fight anymore. My heart just stopped and I couldn't help it."

"Really? Was that you. The person that emailed me?" "Yeah, I took a risk though. We are not suppose to have access to talk to the living. That is illegal here." "oh, That is why I never got a reply. And those commercials, those were hints weren't they?" "Yeah, Brandon, I love you so much!" "I love you as much as I can love someone!" I am so glad he is here. We look down at the perfect time. Brandon's body was found. We now can lead the cops to Brittany and Tabitha. To think Tabitha use to be my bestfriend. I cannot let her get away with murdering Brandon! When Brandon goes down to his body, the cops are looking for prints. Tabitha and Brittany are good, they cleaned up! I look around for clues and so does Brandon. "Let's go catch your killers." I say to him. "Yeah, I still cannot believe Tabitha and Brittany. Do you know Tabitha smokes now?" "Yeah, I found out and I cried. I didn't think she'd be like that. She use to be the best friend! She use to think my death was her fault. Now I am starting to think did she take me that way on purpose?" "You know when they are caught my funeral will finally happen." "Yeah, You can really rest in peace after the funeral. I read everything you wrote me Brandon." "You did?" "Yeah I really wanted to read what you felt. Even though I saw you writing it."

Brandon and I are together again. I try to send Kelsey to someone else. Her ride to school is gone. She ended up moving to where she came from. Her mom said Los Angeles was not safe enough. I guess she is right. To deaths in one year. We look down to Brittany and Tabitha and we see them talking. Tabitha said, "Wow I cannot believe we are getting away with this." "SHUT UP! We will get caught if someone hears us talking about it stupid." "Sorry, but you do know we might get caught eventually." "I know, thats why we are going to make a run for it. I will take my parents money." "Why not credit cards?" "Are you stupid, they can track it down!" "oh, you know alot about this stuff." "Well I have killed more than Brandon." "Who else" I sent that wolf to Kaitlyn." "YOU WHAT!" "Yeah it is not like your friends with her anymore!" "Still, how did you get the wolf to do that?" "Training duh!" "It was Brittany" I say to Brandon "She killed me!" Brandon said, "She killed both of us! She doesn't know we are together again though." "Yeah, she didn't think this through." He kisses me. I really love him.

I would do anything to be alive again with Brandon too. But, he is with me now and that is all that matters. We looked down at everyone and My parents were cleaning up from the party talking. "I thought Brandon said he was coming to help?" My mom said. "I thought so too he probsbly got caught up." My dad answers. When Brandon's parents barge in, "HE'S DEAD!" his mom says crying. "MY SON IS DEAD!" My parents try to keep them calm, but they keep on crying. Now they know why he didn't show up. Brandon starts to cry. "I cannot stand to see my parents like this." He says to me crying. I cannot stand to see him like this. Upset and hurt. Nobody has any evidence on who killed Brandon. Tabitha and Brittany made a run for it. and were out of Los Angeles. Suddenly their tire blew and they were trapped in the middle of nowhere. Not one car stopped for them. Waited and waited but nobody came. Tabitha and Brittany tried to get people to stop, but nobody did, until a cop passed. The cop questioned them. He knew exactly who they were. That was a cop that was trying to find Brandon's murderer. When he saw dirt in the car and on their shoes he remembered what the scene looked like. The exact dirt. The exact foot prints too.

"Excuse me ma'am, where were you last night between eleven at night to midnight?" He asked curiously. "Sleeping a girl needs her beauty sleep." Brittany answers cautiously. "Why are you leaving town?" "Going on vacation with my friend." "Well I was told you were seen at the old warehouse last night." "I was, but I, I-" She stutters not knowing what to say. "Ma'am get out of the car, both of you." They both step out. "You both are being arrested for the murder of the teenage boy named Brandon."

Rest In Peace

Brandon can finally rest in peace because Tabitha and Brittany were caught and his funeral is today. "Kaitlyn, can you go with me to my funeral?" Brandon asks. "Of course, you were at mine, I'll be at yours." I answer. Nobody will be able to see me. Everyone thought it would be cool if we could be burried next to each other. So we were. Brandon and I were all dressed up because it wouldn't feel right. "Kaitlyn, this isn't a dream right?" Brandon asks me like he was worried. "No, this is real life. This is heaven. The worst is past us." I answer trying to calm him down even though I still think it is a dream. "We will never see our family will we?" "We see them, they cannot see us." "I should have not gone to talk to them!" "It isn't your fault! Is this your way of telling me you don't want to be with me!" "No, I love you! I wanted to marry you! I do not want to be dead! I got into colleges. I had dreams and plans." "So did I! I wanted to be a journalist!"

"I know I am sorry. I am just so upset my life is over. I know you went through this too." "Yeah, but the difference is I went through this alone." "You had that Kayla girl." "But I barely knew her. You have me." "I know, but you know me I miss my life." He offended me when he said that. Does he not think I miss mine? " I miss mine too, but lets just focus on your funeral okay." "Okay." We look down as he looks in the casket and he sees a pale face that he sees when he looks in the mirror. I see his tears drip down his face and I rarely see him cry. I grab his hand and holds it. He holds mine back but holds tight like he would if he was trying to save a life from falling off a cliff. I know what he is going through and I don't know how to comfort him. "Hang in there." I say to him trying to keep him calm. He is hurting and I don't know how to stop the pain. He sees how much pain his parents are in and says, "I did that to them." "No you didnt! You had no control over them! Don't you dare blame yourself!" My best friend betrayed me and I will never forget that.

After Brandon's funeral I looked down at Tabitha and Brittany. Tabitha is talking to Ashley who was a friend of mine. "Tabitha, I came to this prison to ask you questions about why your in here." "Okay ask away!" "Did you just use Kaitlyn as a friend?" "When she was gone I started to hang out with Brittany and she was so much better than Kaitlyn. When Brittany told me about how she hated Kaitlyn we said we can get rid of her. Then Kaitlyn made it so easy when I found out she was coming back so we distracted her mom and I picked her up, took her by the woods and faked everything." "Some friend you are!" "I don't regret what I did. Yes, I am in this awful place, but I don't have to worry about Kaitlyn or Brandon!" "What did they do to you?" " Kaitlyn knew I liked Brandon and she still dated him." "So you wanted to get payback by killing her, then torchuring him with her dead and you kill him." "We weren't going to kill him that night, but he had to go to the warehouse." "I can't believe you did that." "I'm human I make mistakes, but this was not one of them." Ashley walked out. She wants to be a lawyer so she felt this was a right time to practice.

Yes, lives to end. Nothing is worth giving up on. I worked so hard my whole life just to die at an early age. All I see is Brandon, upset as he is, he will always be the Brandon from down where we lived our whole lives. Tabitha changed. Not for the good, but for the worse and I never did expect that. I also never expected her to show up in my life after she moved. All this was so unexpected and I would never had guessed. Life goes on. I have to remember to stop running when I get scared. Up here is a pretty scary place that I would not have dreamed of being here at this age. Atleast I am up here and not down there under the real world. People say there are angels, but I have not seen one yet. Nobody believes that you could be where I am and how I am right now. I look down everyday and see my parents are still upset about my demise. My parents started talking again though. That is the first step to their friendship. I know they are going to be just friends, but I hope they find away to be happy. Since my dad moved back to California to be close to me, he sees alot of my mom so they came up with an agreement.

I try to look at life as a good thing. Everything happens for a reason. I believe the reason Brandon died was to be with me. I just wish he didn't have to die for us to be together. Brandon is all I have here. I did have Kayla to help me. But, he has me though, I had to meet all new people and he had already known someone when he arrived here. I want Brandon to be happy. I want Brandon to be happy for us to be together. Brandon was so upset after parting. He thought we would never be together again. Now look at us together. "I know you are upset. I saw you when I gone. You couldn't see me. But, I could see you and it broke my heart to see you so upset. You thought we would never be together again. Well look at us. Together forever and you know you make my world and I would give anything to make you happy." I say to him hoping I can make him feel like there is a reason he is here. "I know you try and try. Nothing will work. I will never be the same Brandon I was down there. I will never get to the chance to do any of the things I had hoped." He tells me. "I hope you know we are here forever so we need to get you back to the Brandon you were!" "I know that in my heart, just not my head." As Kayla bursted into the room she screams, "THE WAR, IT'S HERE!" "What are you talking about Kayla?" I ask. "The war. It doesn't happen often. Heaven has been attacked by down under! We don't have enough people to help. I cannot get enough to go for it. If we lose, we all die. When you die here. There is no coming back. You are definatly gone forever!" She explains. "I'm in." Brandon says to Kayla. "BRANDON DON'T, I DON'T WANT TO LOSE YOU!" I scream to him. "I want to help. I want to make myself useful." "Fine, I am in too."

The War

Kayla is glad I volunteered, but Brandon isn't. "Kaitlyn, don't, I cannot lose you again. I will not lose you again." "Brandon, you are so I am. They need us or we all die!" "They can find someone else!" "I am doing this whether you like it or not!" I cannot believe him. I am the last hope for us to even have enough. "I have been in every war since I have been here." Kayla tells us. "When does it start?" I ask. "Now, so we have to go." We all rush out and grab all the weapons we can carry. All these people who are trying to fight their way up to trade places with us. I stand by Brandon the whole time. "Brandon, I'm scared." "Don't be, Kaitlyn, I love you!" "I love you too!" We kiss thinking it might be the last time ever. "HELP!" I hear. Kayla is fighting and fighting. I go and try to help. Someone shoots her from behind and she falls to the ground. "KAYLA!" I run to her side as fast as I could. Barely breathing she says, "Save yourself. Only one more left kill him before he kills you! Make sure we win this war. My time is up." "Kayla stay with me! Brandon go kill him!" Kayla's eyes close for the last time as she says "good-bye."

In tears I try to save her. I look around me. All alone on the battlefield I sit next to Kayla crying. "Kayla, please! Come back! You were the one person that helped me!" She lived through all the wars she was in. I don't see anyone but bodies. The people we killed start to vanish. Only bodies left were from Heaven. None vanished. The war has not ended. One left fighting hard. I leave Kayla just for a minute to see where Brandon is. I feel something hard hit me. The last guy left through a hard rock at me. No gun. Nothing. He is giving me a look. He killed my friend. I will never see her again thanks to him. I hear someone scream, "KAITLYN! THERE ARE MORE! COME HELP! I NEED You Kai-" Then I hear a shot. I run as as fast I can. I will not lose Brandon too. "Kaitlyn. I need you to understand. I might not come back. I want you here to stay if I don't. I want you and everyone else to try to kill these last few." "I can't. Please, don't leave me." I cry hoping I don't lose him.

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Texte: Kenzie Elizabeth Mulligan
Lektorat: Kenzie Elizabeth Mulligan
Tag der Veröffentlichung: 28.01.2012

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