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The Intro

Life  aint  easy  for  everyone.  It dont matter if you the rich little white girl with daddy issues or the poor little ghetto girl in the heart of atlanta who dont even know her daddy. Living in a one bed apartment with the roof leaking, Stripping just to pay the bills and to support your younger brother."Life is a bitch and then you die" My mama used to say. Her cracked out ass was right.

She left me and my brother Lasiren when i was 10 and he was 6. She lefy us in the house alone for days. She had told us she was going out to get ciggerets and never returned. Sometimes i sit around and wonder if the life she yearned so badly for was worth leaving her family. My aunt Lisa found us 10 days after she didnt hear from any of us. And we were to afraid to leave the house and go to school so noone saw us either. We moved in with with my Aunt and she got our lives back on track.

Uneffected Lasiren went on perfectly fine. But me on the other hand was damaged. Maybe because he was to young at the time to notice what in the hell was going on with our mother. We were pretty smart and understood most , But not so much him. Everyday i'd sit in my bedroom windowseal and wait for my mama. And one day my aunt finally confessed. My mother was never coming back. My aunt KNEW she was going to leave us. She told my aunt days before. I guess as a warning or some shit. I was badly affected. I was just another one on the list of ghetto little kids with no parents.

My dad was partily in our lives. He kinda tried here and there to be there for us but my mother wouldnt let him for some strange reason. I never stopped to question. Mysteriously our bills would get paied and food always flurished the house.I had only met the nigga once. I didnt like him too much. Like.. You want to be a father now? He was a joke. He even denied my brother. HA! They were twins. Mirror Fucking images of eachother.

When i was 16 my aunt had me working two jobs. I was her secratary (She worked at home) and i was working part time at Dennys. When i was 17 i spiraled out of control. I cut loose of the good girl act and got on my grown woman shit. Get money how ever i could was my mind set. I was stuck on getting the hell out of atlanta. But back then i didnt understand how hard that was going to be.

I always hung with ballas. Like my on and off Boyfriend T.O. I had tons of niggas breaking off Hundereds just to see me lick my lips. Imagine what niggas had to pay just to SEE my pussy let alone smash. Soon i had about 9 grand and bought my first car and moved me and Lasiren into a apartment not far from my aunts just incase i had to move in a hurry.

Now im 20 and Lasiren is 16. Life aient all perfect but we have eachother which makes it Wonderful. Lasiren is just the cutest little thing. He always has hoes blowing up his Galaxy s3. And i have tons of tricks tryna pull. Both genders inside and outside of work. But me and Lasiren both vowed to never get too attachted to people because as soon as i got the money up we were jetting off to wherever he wanted to go. 

Sailing to Paradise??

"Layla wake yo ugly ass up!" Lasiren yelled in my ear jumping up and down on my side. "Why nigga. It aient even time for you to go to leave!" "I wanna leave a lil early.. You know?" I gave him the stankest look i could possibly give without bursting out laughing. "Why? Cause um. I dont know" I explained sarcasticly. "Girl. Im tryna slide with a few females. Maaaaan Pleeeeaaasssseee!"

I knew he'd been fucking hoes since he was 12. Way more advanced than i was At that age. We were just that close to tell eachother anything and everything. Shit we had to be. We were the only things we had left entitled to our name. "Okay. Fine. But you better find a ride to school and be there on time!" "Alright alright oh and give me ----" I cut him off by throwing 3 condoms at his left eye. "Damn you so mean but thanks." "Where im dropping you off at?" He showed me the text message and i googled the adress. It wasnt too far. It was in the rich area of atlanta. By his school.

About 15 minuets later we pulled up to this mansion looking house. He told me a few white girls lived here. He was into every race just as i was. "Oh yeah. Lay Lay you working tonight?" I cringed at the nickname. "Um yea. Of course! And Nicki mean midget self wants me in kinda early cause we have 'special clients' from out of town that just flew in to see me. But why you asking?" "Uh.. Cause i kinda wanted to spend a little time with you, Ya know?"

I had been stripping so much i barely had time for him. For us. We always had weekend plans to do something. "Im sorry as hell boo. Im off tomorrow night. If you wanna chill then?" "Alrighty. See you later" "Dinner will be in the oven when you get home" "iight thanks sis" "Love you" "Love yo big headded ass too." He slammed my car door. I went back home and showered and got dressed and started my morning. I cooked breakfast and dinner then put tonight's outfit in my car. I wanted to give them a show they'd NEVER forget; Then i locked up the house and proceeded elewhere.

"Hey Ray!" I schreeched to the homeless man that is always posted up at the coffee shop that i just love. "Hey darling. You got some spare change?" "Yes child. You know i always got you" I said pulling out a 5 dollar bill. "thank ya baby girl. bless yo soul" He wasnt like other homeless men around here. He was actually saving up to get a cheap little appt and he has a job as a sweeper in a nearby barber shop. It dosent pay much though.

"Aw shit look at this nigga giving out to the less fortunate." a familar voice yelled out from behind. I turned to witness my old highschool love Jayden; Before T.O. He was my EVERYTHING. I was willing to take charges or even a bullet for him anytime. But unfortunatly he cheated on me with my bestfriend Nena. That trifling hoe. Thats why i dont trust females nor men now. One of the reasons why i vow not to get attachted because im afraid of getting hurt. He aproached me.

"Damn you look better than ever baby girl. i been looking everywhere for you. heard you were still living in this peiceof shit ass city and that this was yo spot in the mornings. Had to come and check up on my baby." "Oh.. cool. Why you been looking for me? You got countless other hoes. It must be something you want.." I stared him down. I think seductivly.

"Man slow down lil mama. If it was that good pussy that i wanted i woulda hinted that right off the bat. But it aient nothing like that. Its deeper. I wanted to catch up and rekindle MAYBE... Apoligize and shit. I just moved back here from mexico.. I was taking care of a little biz there." I knew he was a drug dealer. A Big time drug dealer at that. He wasnt on that when we were dating. But i had to admit, I LOVED the idea of a drug dealer boyfriend.

"Oh thats nice. How was it there?" "Pretty damn beautiful just like you." He said softly stroking my face. I giggled "Haaa... Well um you still fucking with that nigga T.O?" I stared at him long and hard. "How'd you know bout us? You were.. Gone.." "Im telling you. I got people everywhere. I had some people looking out for you. Like when them strange packages of clothing and jewlery and cases of money popped up at your appartment, that was MY doing. "Well damn. You offical though. I feel loved and all special." "You should.. cause you are" I smiled. "Haa. So uh how my lil nigga Lasiren doing?" "He's doing good. Real good." "Grade wise? Is he pulling hoes? He gotta job yet?" "His grades are outstanding. And pulling hoes for him is like breathing. Its natural. And nah. He dosent have a job yet. Besides i provide his wants and needs." "Thats wassup. But hey. You know i can put his bird looking self on right?" "Dont be throwing shade on my brother. You look like a bird too. Ole ostritch looking nigga. But nah. he good. we good."

"Ha alright. But you say you make enough for both of yall. Where you working at?" I hesitated.. "I work at king of diamonds. Which you probally already knew since you had people checking up on me" "Nah i didnt know. But thats why you cornbread thick nah! You a stripper. thats cool" "Aha yeaaaa" "How long you been working there?" "For a few years now" He grinned hard. And then and there i fell in love. His charming smile drove me half insane. His 6'1 tall dark chococlate ass always had a spot in my heart. And he knew it too.

"But maaan.You still with T.O? Cause yeen answer my question earlier." I giggled sickly at his suspense. "Haha. No. Not anymore. We broke up a while back." "He neglected something real good." He hesitated then i cut him off before he could utter another word. "Just like you did" "You right. And i apoligize bout that" He stared me down. "Well uh. Anyways i gotta go." I was lieing. I didnt have anything to do. I was getting caught in my feelings and i was not down for that. "Dang ma. Well whats yo #?" "905-264-3628" "Alright. Catch ya later. Maybe we can hang out later on in the week?" "Souns good." I sprinted back to my hooker red impala and drove off not looking back. I headded towards my bestfriend Leanna's house. 

Just a simple movie night??

I knocked on the door and her ugly ass baby daddy came to the door. He's tried to get with me so many times but.. Ew. T.O had to beat his ass countless times over me. "Ugh get out the waaay. Where my sister at?" "In the back you rude ass foul ass lil girl" "Shut yo ass up, God i cant stand you!" I guess Leanna heard all the raket and came running towards us.

"Whats going-------LAYLA! I missed you. Where you been? Why you aient been calling me? Yo god baby missing you. Whats been up?" "Chile i been everywhere. You know im always busy. Andking od diamonds still wearing me down. And where is my godson? I been missing him too. But oo. Lemme tell you who i ran into today!" She gazed at me long. "Who? Cause you giving me that goofy ass smile. You saw T.O or something? "PSH. No. He still texting me too. But that's beside the point. I saw Jayden !"

"Bro. You lieing. I Could've swarn he was.. Dead. I miss him!" "Yea.. He was on one of them 'Ima put the mac on her' type of missions. And he got me all caught up in my feelings so i just left." She smacked my thigh. "Ow! What was that for?" "Dont you DARE go running back to him! I dont wanna see you hurt AGAIN. Cause IM gonna beat his ass." She looked serious. "I know you dont wanna see me hurt.. But.. He's.. He's diffrent now. I can tell. He's grown up." "Do whatever you chose to.. But play it smart baby girl. I dont want to have to hurt him. Seriously. I'll do it over you." We both laughed cause we knew she was SO SERIOUS. We sat there and Reminised and cracked jokes for hours until it was time for me to head to work.

Round this time i always get worried about Lasiren. Like was he home and safe and okay? Had he done his homework? Had he eaten? But i had to put my game face on and carried on thru the night knowing i couldnt go running home to him whenever i wanted. "Aye rain, You gotta blunt?""You know i got you bae." She handed me an extendo roll. "Dont smoke ALL my shit nah." "Haa. I wont." I needed weed to get through the night of being groaped and touched and watched. I remember i started smoking when i was 9. My mother would give me her leftover blunts.

But.. I mean.. I had gotten used to it. The strange men in the club. But it took a while. I remember my first few nights i would run off stage crying until one day Nicki told me he'd fire me. I gave a few dances to the "Special clients" , Preformed onstage and headed home. I got home and Lasiren was knocked out on his air matress in front of our blasting flat screen t.v. If the house was broken into he wouldnt even know. I turned off the lights and tv and, Covered him up cause it was colder than a polar bear's ass then showered and nodded off to sleep. King of diamonds had me DOG TIRED.

The next morning i woke to Lasiren making us breakfast. I kissed him on the cheeck. "Morning kid. Thanks." "Morning. Welcome" "So umm. What we doing today lil nigga?" He always had the day planned out to a perfect t. "I just want it to be a inside type of chill day." "Okay. Okaay. What we finna do inside all darn day?" "I didnt say ALL day. HAAAA. Your reeeeaally funny." He smirked sickley. I know his ass had something planned. And i knew i probally wouldnt wanna do it.

"Soo----" He yelled from the back of the appt. He was searching for something. "After school i went to redbox & got 5 movies. Ted, Set it off, Casper, El derado, And albino farm." "Nigga you know im afraid of albino farm! Thats not funny!" "Just give the WHOLE movie a try. For meeeee?" "Okay. Gosh." "And i got tons of popcorn and soda & we can make the nachos and shit, Oh and when you wanna do this? Sometime tonight or now?" I looked at the clock and it was 10:15. "Umm.. Tonight at 9?" "Okay, Now we can do the other part of the plan right now. Go get dressed. Approiatly. Not no freakum dresses." "Okay FATHER!!" I was wondering what his sneaky ass had going on.

I put on soft suttle light brown eyeshadow, And slipped on my tan skinnies & my white camisol with my tan mesh shirt & my black wedges with tan lace on them. "Zamn zaddy, Waass yo nameee?" Lasiren joked round'. "Boy get on somewhere. You look all handsome. Where we going maaaan?" "Dont ask no questions." I knew not to. I always wanted to make him happy. He gave me an adress to some apartment complex. "Pull up to building B" "iight" I hesitated before i got out the car. Not sure if he wanted me to follow him up or not.

"Come on!" I then remembered he had been secretly talking to someone. Was he going to meet them? Why was i apart of this? What was he hiding? I smelled this strange stinch in the air when i hopped out the car. Lasiren jetted up the stairs mumbling numbers under his breath. "187..187..187..187". We got to this door with the numbers 187 and he waltzed right in. WTF? Were they waiting on us? I stalled then proceeded.

Kid toys were all over the floor. Then a little boy came from the back running full speed towards me and nearly knocked me over. He stopped then stared me down for a good 30 seconds. He looked like Lasiren. Alot like Lasiren. The hazel eyes, Tiny nose, Big bow lips. He then screamed a big "HI!" at me. "Hey handsome" He then went on about his biz outside. I heard Lasiren sniffling and mumbling something. Then a female voice mumbled something too. The sounds were muffled like the door was closed or something. My heart was racing. "Lasiren!" I called out in fear.

The door opened and the female voice spoke softly. "Is that her?" "Yea, thats her." Lasiren's voice was cracking like he had been crying or something. The appt. smelled of cigars and Jasmine White Blossoms. The ones my mom used to smoke and the smell of my mother's purfume she always wore. Then reality hit me. More like slapped me with a plank of wood.

This was my mom's appt. That was.. Her son.. My.. My brother. Lasiren had been talking to mom this whole entire time. He set this all up. He set ME up. He knew how i felt about mom, I cant believe him! "Can you come here Layla?" Lasiren whispered out to me. My heart sunk to my ass and i thought i was gonna shit it out. I swallowed a huge chunk of my pride and walked towards the back of the appt. How long had they been talking? How did they first BEGAN talking? Was she.. Clean? I mean obviously. But.. Was she off that oo wee for good? Had this.. Been the life she so longed for? Once i got to the room she shot me a slight smile. Lasiren didnt even look my way, insted he looked at the floor.

She looked like the mother i once had. The lively one. When i was much much younger. Beautiful. She had always been a looker..Even when she was on that oo wee. It made me slightly happy to see her clean. But i was still angry. I cant even imagine how stank my face was. She was puffing on hella srong ass weed. Made me dizzy. She signaled me to sit beside her. I motioned over still silent. "Hey there lay lay. You look so.. Lovely." "Hey.. Thanks" My voice cracked. "How you been mama?" "Good. As you can see. Yo no give hug?" Her english improved. Mom was asian and black. More asian than black though.

I gave her a weak side hug. "Aw. You do better than that. I know you can. Why you act like this? You no see your mother in 10 years and you act so evil. Why?" "Because.. You just up and fucking left us like we were nothing! You followed the drugs insted of your dreams of a family. Now what? You wanna be a mother? Ha! Fuck that! Its been 10 years and we've been just fine without you. We'll be okay. You go on with your life , Just as we will do ours. I want nothing to do with you and whatever you and Lasiren have going on.. Ima need that to be shut down immediatily. Goodbye mom!".

She cried hard. And i didnt feel any remorse. I got so much satisfaction out of it. All those nights i cried myself to sleep and all those therapy sessions. I wanted her to feel the same way i once felt before. Hurt. "Just give her some time to chill out. Love you mama. Call you later" "Okay my darling. Tell liam i say come inside." I was pacing back and forth in the living room. Liam? Thats his name? Why am i going thru all of this now? Lasiren ran towards me and pushed me.

"Why the fuck did you have to act like that?! Weve been thru too much. She's clean and wants to be in our lives again. I miss her, and i know damn well you do too. Shit! Your so goddamn evil!" I pushed him back by his neck into a wall. "How could you?! You know what. Find yo own way back home. And i aient finna be there when you get there. Oh, You can ask YOUR MOM to drop you off. I just cant believe you would do me like that."

Tears welled in my eyes. I was boiling hot and hurt. I know i could've handled that way better but all that anger that i had bottled up was soon to be let out. Better sooner than later right? I ran out crying and drove off half dead. That took apart of my soul and tore it to shreds right in front of me. It hurt my soul to see mama again. I thought she was dead. I called leanna and went over her place for a while. "Was it that rough babygirl?" Leanna spoke softly stroaking my hair.

"Yea, It was. I.. Just really wasnt expecting THAT. She was clean. And.. Alive. Its been 10 years man. 10 years i had to fend for me and Lasiren. And.. I have a little brother. He's cute or whatever. And its like i know i coulda handled it more civilized. But all that-------" "Anger that was built up". Leanna said finishing my sentence. "Yea" Me and Lasiren's Arguement raced thru my mind. Loudly. I closed my eyes. But it only got worse. I felt bad. Real bad. I felt... Alone. Like a single red rose in a dark room; Alone. So i decided to call him. "Let me borrow yo phone Lele. He's not gonna answer my calls. 

A simple phone call??

 "Hello? Lele what you want? I knew you'd be ringing in fa' some mo'." "Dear god.. Its not Leanna.. Its Layla.. Look. Im sorry. And I know you hate me now. And probaly forever. But i do love you with all my heart. But you gotta understand that.. I just have a ton of anger built up that you cant interfear with. If you wanted me talk to her you coulda just asked. The worst i could have said was no. I didnt want you to see that. I love you soo much. And im not coming home tonight just to let you cool off a bit." "Layla.. I.. I dont hate you. I love you with all my heart too. And i know i was wrong. Im sorry. Its just that.. I wanna be a family again. I missed out on a mother. Your the only mom i've ever known. But i understand where you coming from and i respect that. But i really want you home tonight. Shit. We're still on for tonight i hope you know that. I feel like your tryna waste my money."

He chuckled. "Ha okay. Ill be home in a little bit." "Love you lay lay" I told Leanna i'll call her when i get home. I stopped at the 24hr Everything store for some juice but insted i got Jayden. I hurried past only to have him grab my wrist and yank me back. "Woah woah woah lil baby. Where you going?" "Away from you" "Sooo soon? You know i love a good fight." He smirked sickly, "Shit. Dont i know." "I called you eariler. Why yeen answer?" I forgot i had a missed call from some random number. I wanted to confine in him right then and there but i couldnt. I didnt wanna deal with the result. So i lied.

"Sorry. I was shopping and as soon as you called my phone died." "Ha. Alright. So.. Im guessing you bought something cute for our date yo next night off at Changs... Am i right?" He stared me down seductivly. I wanted to pounce on him then and there. "Mhmm.. Whatever.. My next day off is friday." "Well alright then." I dont understadnd why i accepted his offer. "Well.. Thats a bet babe." Jay said. "Im not your babe." "Oh yea. Your right. Your not my babe.. Yet" I looked at him crazy. "Yet? Boy you funny." Realitly hit me.. I had to go shopping and Lasiren was still waiting on me at home. I picked up some Tampico juice and proceeded on. "Aye jay.. Call me later on tonight." "Alright lil mama" I waltezed out the store and saw Jayden loitering ourside with his friends i guess.

I got home and saw Lasiren had everything ready. We had a L shape couch and he was waiting on the shorter side of the couch. The house smelled of nachos. Lasiren sprung up and hugged me tight. "My feet are killing me" I whined. "Aient nobody tell yo ugly ass to put them shoes on" "Hush!" The rest of the night we cuddled up, ate and watched movies.

He stroaked my hair while mumbling something. "Speak up nigga!" "I said.. I hate the fact that you stripping man.. Id rather you be out there cooking and sellin dope. Stripping is a danger zone sometimes. Some of them cats in there be getting attached. They might follow you home or some shit like that. Shit.. Look what happend to Lolli pop." "Aw baby. Im sorrt. I only do it for us. Just.. Give it some time. I wont be doing this for too long." "I wish there was something i could do." I mumbled something and slowly nodded off to sleep on his chest.

I woke up by the vibration of my phone at 2am in the morning. "Ello." "Who this?" "Jay. What you doing right na?" "Sleeping like normal people do at this time of night, Jay" I slowly got up trying my best not to wake up Lasiren with my movement or my loud ass voice. "Damn. Well you want me to call you back later lil mama?" "Na man. You gucci." The rest of the night we talked about life in mexico and how my life was after he left and he asked about mama. I broke down and confinded in him. I cried and cried. He was mad at me a little bit bout me lieing bout me shopping but he understood. At 6am there was a knock on my door. I told Jayden i'd call him back in a second. Another knock. "Im coming!" I yelped from the back of the appt. I opened the door and saw Jayden standing there chesing hella hard.

"Mind if a come and comfort you for a lil while?" I yanked him in. He had a duffle bag fulla clothes , im guessing cause he knew for a fact i wasnt gonna let him leave. Lasiren was up and running around by then. "Wassup cuh?" Lasiren asked Jay. "Chilling with yo sister man, You know." "Maann.. Coo, Coo.. Thats wassup. But ayo sis, Ima be back in like 3 hours " "Okay. Be safe lil boy. Love you!" "Luv u too" The door slammed shut behind him. "Man.. Since yeen in no shape or form ready to go outside, So this is offically our first date.

" Jay's goofy ass told me. "Ahahah. Okay i guess. What we finna do sir?" He dropped his bag, And ran to the kitchen. I went to lay down and in 20 minuets there was Rice, Lemon Baked Chicken, And Choclate Mousse. "You Remembered!!" I yelled in excitement. This was my favorite foods. He threw them all toghther which was funny. "Yea. I guess i remembered.." Jay spoke softly but blushing hella hard. We ate and giggled and talked about silly shit. It made me feel WAAAY better.

I slowly made my way over to his lap. "Whew.. Um.. Soo?" Jay studdered nervously. "So.." My voice got extra sultry. I pulled him towards me and kissed him slowly and passionly. "Woah.. So um what this mean? lil mama?" "Nothing.. Yet.." "Alright lil mama.. Thats a bet" We kissed again but harder. He sprung up and pushed me aganist a wall. Kissing all over my neck and grabbing on my ass. I pushed him all the way to my room and threw him on the bed and locked the door.

"Shit" I turned on some slow music and started dancing. I pushed him down and climbed ontop of him. Grinding slowly. Jay grabbed my hips and grinded with me. He ripped off my shirt and i ripped off his. He flipped me on my back and slid off my pants, & slid my thong off with his teeth. And dropped his pants quick fast and in a hurry. "So.. What you want me to do?" He managed to get thru breaths. "Its whatever you wanna do" I dropped my head back The Flicking Of his tounge fast, He had me going crazy. He jolted up and got aggressive. He slid in slow and deep. His stroke got faster and deeper.

I yelled at the top of my lungs not giving a flying rats ass about who was above me, beside me or around me in these apartments. He bust and kept going, continuing to fuck me like a rabbit. He flipped me around each and every way that you could possibly think of. He was terrorizing my insides from behind and i finally gave up. "Baeeeee stop please." I yelped. He laughed. "Why? You tryna tap out on me?" "Maybe just a little!" He laughed hella hard then sped up. Finally i squirted. He stepped back with a face full of satisfaction. I didnt like the stare his caramel eyes were giving me so i covered up. He slid under the sheets with me and fell asleep. "Hey get up" I shook Jayden. "Why man?" "CAUSE! Im changing the sheets. Do you wanna lay around in our juices?" He raised up. I snatched the covers off the bed and threw them in the dirty clothes hamper. I slipped into my robe then had Jayden help me spread the new sheets on the bed. They were adventure time sheets(Im a huge kid).

Jayden crawled back into bed and i began to feel uncomfterable and needed someone to talk to. Lasiren still wasnt home so i was completely lonely. I sat there for about 20 minuets then called Leanna. "Boo. I did something really bad" I hesataited before speaking. "Oh lawd. What you done did now lil girl? I want every detail." "Well mother i you have to know.. Jay called me at like 3 this morning, We talked till 6 bout random shit and then got on the topic of mama or whatever, Then boom! A knock at my door. I wondered who it was. I opended the door, He was standing there cheesing. Lasiren then left, He made us brunch, Then you know.. We kinda.. Fucked."

I felt a little bad. I knew i was about to get a earfull. Leanna sighed. "LAYLA ZAYNADA KEYANNA WANG, Young lady you ought to be ashamed of your fucking self. Thats.. Just.. Ugh! No! You can do so much damn better! Girl. Do you understand what you just did?! You just let the demons back into your life. Are you willing to deal with the consequences?! HUH? NO you arent! You know what. If you get hurt. Just know that i told you so. And when you run back to me. Ima always be here, But ima laugh. In your face for being an idiot!" I sat there in total silence for a few seconds. My throat was dry. "Well.. Uh. Leanna.. Im gonna call you back" I struggled to say. " You better not hang this pho-----"  Leanna yelled.

I hung the phone up. That wasnt what i wanted to hear. But what did i want to hear? What was i really expecting to hear? I heard footsteps behind me. Jay slowly wrapped his arms around my waist. "My jayden senses are tingling. There telling me that my bae is upset. maybe even a little hungry. just like me. But really tho what's wrong?" I weakly giggled. "You silly.. But nothings wrong with me. Im fine. And i am hungry as hell. How'd you know?" I ran to my phone the was on the couch and ordered chinise food. He scarfed his food down and i sat there giggling hella hard.

Lasiren bust through the door. "Hey sis, im finna go get a couple things. Ima stay at sean house for the rest of the week." "Um.. okay. but wait do i trust yall enough to go to school and stay there and no trouble out of both of yall?" "Yes yes yes yes yes!!" He yelled from the bathroom. Jay laughed hard and lasiren was running around the appt like a crackhead. "Shit's not funny jay!" I hit his arm playfully. "It actually is. That nigga is grown! Stop worring bout him." "Well.. I guess you right." Lasiren came out the room carying something that was hidden purposly. But i shook it off. I brushed it off for a while only to be on the sweet side with jay. I knew he could do it but it just took the right chick to bring him to it. 

A not so simple phone call.

I started freaking out. Lasiren hadnt contacted me in 2 days. We cant stay away from eachother for 3 hours even if we tried. Let alone 42. Not a call, Nor a single text to tell me he was still alive. Maybe he was just having too much fun? Maybe he just forgot bout lil ole me. NAH. This, Was not normal what so ever. My phone rang at about 2:45. It was lasiren. I knew this cause he had his own ringtone. It was his voice saying "Nigga pick up its big daddy" I chuckled. "Bae can you answer that?!" I yelled out. "Yes. Mhm. This is his brother-in law. Yes. Yes. No. Oh my god is something wrong? Oh no."

My slight smile dissapered and my heart dropped to my ass. Jay walked in shaking his head. Tears welled in my eyes. "Take the phone." Jay's voice cracked. "Hello..?" I hesitated. "Um. Hi miss wang this is detective Kimswayla. Sorry to say, But your brother Lasiren has been shot and it seems like he wont make it. Could you possibly make it to the hospital right away?" "Oh GOD. Okay Okay." I jumped up , slid my sandles on, grabbed my keys and jetted off.

Jay struggled to keep up with me. Pains kept striking my heart. I loved him too much to loose him. I swear i'd die a little inside if he.. I shook that thought away while i bolted through stop lights and cut through parking lots. I was such a SAFE driver. But this right here was a serious matter. Me and jay raced through the hospital to find Sean's parents sobbing and Sean lieing there dead. Lifeless. Still. 16 and dead. Was lasiren...? NO. The detective and the doctor ran towards me.

"How is he?!" "He's in stable condition now. He vitals were changing drasticly but their under control now. Lasiren was shot in the chest twice and in the left leg once." "Thanks.." I turned to the detective. "So.. How did this happen?" "We dont exactly know the full story. But bystanders say it might have been drug related. There were two young guys around the same age as him and Sean but they were walking alongside Sean and Lasiren and one of the other guys shot Sean, He was still concious. Lasiren ran after them but was shot. He crawled back to sean and held him. Sean died minuets later. Lasiren soon passed out from im guessing blood loss. 

My Head Dropped. "When can I see him? I just wanna see him" I whispered. "We dont know yet" She expressed with sorrow in her voice. I cried even harder. Jay grabbed me and held me tight as I sobbed into his chest. Slowly I was angered. I softly banged on Jay's chest "I JUST WANT TO SEE HIM!! LET ME FUCKING SEE HIM!! I REFUSE TO BE STAREING AT HIS LIFELESS BODY!! I WANNA SEE HIM NOW. RIGHT FUCKING NOW!"

I knew people were looking at me like "this crazy bitch" But i didnt care. If acting an complete ass was going to allow me to see my brother, then so be it. "Okay Miss Wang. You may see Lasiren now." The doctor said with wide eyes. I brushed pass the doctor and nearly knocked him down. I ran to Lasiren's bedside. "Oh baby boy! What the hell is wrong with you! If i loose you.. Ill go crazy! Lasiren please pull through! PLEASE!" I cried into Lasiren's shoulder. 

Jayden grabbed me up and sat me on his lap in the recliner. "Chill out bae. He's fine. He'll pull through. He's a fighter. Dont you dare think about him dieing on us. He wont! And we all know this. Just.. Take a nap. Ill let you know when something pops off." I did as he told me and fell straight to sleep. 

I was woken up by Jayden softly shaking me "Aye i gotta go. You're mom is here.

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