Entry

Home alone
Feeling unknown
Want to be shown
No sight of tone
Always in this zone
Now no one will answer the phone
Don’t wanna feel so alone


Bed unmade
Clothing hanging from every surface
Needles were laid
With all the drugs and tools
Fire started to fade
Along with my memories and myself


Eyes wide opened
Reflection before me
Touch of cold
Hard to see
Lighter skin
Darker eyes
Lips filled with sin
Red thick liquid sliding
Sticking the hairs of the arm
Down while it starts dripping
Teeth white and sharp
Don't know what to feel
Standing there alone
Can anyone save me?


Glass, knife, razor
Everything dug in skin
Only one favour
Stop the loss of blood
Tongue filled with flam
Throat clogged
A part of me wants out
Another wants to be blocked
My head is giving my body
So much confusion
Seems like a nightmare
If not a night terror
Like a warning beware
Life threatening
Think about the consequences


Will and strong like green lantern
But gone yellow with fear
Powerful and courageous like Thor
But lost without his hammer
Slim and fit like cat woman
But got smell of catnip
Up and tall like superman
But can taste the kryptonite
Difficult to breathe
Not sure whether it is day or night
Will they save me?


Make movements
Pain sparks
If only one kiss
Overwhelmed with heartbreak
Just as poisonous like venom of a cobra
To death I’m delicious
Wanting the pain to leave
Building up but breaking back down
Some part of me does believe
That a being will save me


Hands reach out
Contact others
Don’t shout
Please my friend
Give me another chance
I want this misery to end
Having the same emotion
Pain, sadness, grief
Making the same motion
Darkness covering eyes
Begging to not let go
Not allowing for goodbyes
Don’t let me go

Breaking down to knees
Falling into a pit
Waiting for someone to hear my pleas
Calling for a hero
Screaming for help
Praying but don’t know
Whether the god will give a hand
Demonic claws scratching
Razor teeth grinding
Evil voices growling
Blades sharpening
Smoke rising
Eyes staring
Devil laughing


Consumed with fear
A light peeked through
Not able to shed one tear
Pair of arms held
Them and pulled away
Using a shield
To block the dark
Sweet lips attached theirs
Looking over shoulder seeing a park
More of a never ending garden
People with joy and finding loved ones
As the gate began to widen


Feathered wings on backs
Golden trees and skies
Children played stacks
Tag and other games
People watching over them
Calling out their names
Green smooth grass beneath my feet
Smell of water and fresh air
Many others to meet


Roses, Lilies, Basil flowers
Willow, oak, fruit trees
Rivers, oceans, waterfall features
Love, family, friends
The beauty of the light
Was always right


The sun rises and sets
Feeling alone does not mean
Your heart has met
To no one on our home Earth
Heaven filled with love and life
Someday your light will give birth

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Bildmaterialien: not my picture
Tag der Veröffentlichung: 24.12.2012

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