Chapter 9

Monday Morning
Jacob

Crap! What am I going to do? The girl who broke my heart is going to be at my first day as a junior today; and I don’t know how to deal with this! I can’t forgive her and I can’t forget her. I’m afraid that I might go back to her, on my knees, asking for one more chance. Good thing Ricky graduated last year. I still feel the same way I did for her last year. Judy. Judy has helped me through all this time. She’s liked me since the beginning, and never judged me when I occasionally broke down crying for HER. I still love Judy and I’m going to keep on loving her, I have to. I know that yet I’m still wishing to marrying, and having a family with HER with the first boy named Roger, just like I promised her last year….But wait! I CAN’T leave Judy alone; I know how that feels, being heart broken, and left behind. Wait, what was up with that guy, named Jonny? It didn’t look like they were just friends. OMG! I CAN’T BELIEVE MY SWEET ANGEL IS BACK!!! Wait damn it, DON”T BE HAPPY BECAUSE SHE CAME BACK! She broke my heart, and she probably just back to rub it in my face. I wonder though, has she forgotten me? Did she get someone new too? Is she the same as before or did she change, like how I change? Damn. How am I gonna face her in school? Is there a law saying that you have to say hi to the girl who broke your heart? It’s gonna be alright though because I have Judy, she can help me through anything. Ok, I just gotta act cool, remember what Janet said. If she wants to talk to me then she will. Just act like she doesn’t exist. Yeah, that will work. Right?

Janet

I can’t do this. I can’t face HIM with HER at school. I mean, what am I supposed to do? Say hi to him? Act like I don’t know him or remember him? I don’t even think that I can look at THEM together without crying or breaking down. I can’t believe that he found someone else! He couldn’t wait? I did take long and I didn’t tell him if I’ll be back but I still blame him! Does he love her? OMG! What if he doesn’t want me only HER? Does she love him the way that I do? Can she treat him nice and take care of him as good as I can? I don’t think I can let her have him if she can’t treat him the way that I can or even better than me. She is probably the one that changed him, in fact I KNOW that she is because he never had a sense of direction. Why did he change? Where’s the cute boy I left behind? Now he’s a ten hunk. He looks like how Ricky acted when he was in high school and I hated that style. Sure it’s a smart jock but it looks like he has a big ego, did he get an ego? Is that why he is like this? I miss the old HIM, the one that told me that he loved me. I wonder if he still remembers the last thing he told me. I can see that future of us, as a family and a son named Roger. Why is this so hard? Argh! This is too hard, I need my grandma! What would grandma do? She would probably just wait and see what the others first persons move will be. I’ll just wait and see how he will react when he sees me and then I’ll act the same way that he does. It will be ok. Jonny is going to the high school as well so if he chooses to ignore me, then Jonny will be there with me, and he will help me get through it. Yeah. It will work out. Right?

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Texte: KarinaEdithRodriguez
Tag der Veröffentlichung: 16.06.2012

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