prologue:
Okay guys this isnt your normal love story. It doesnt start out with love at first sight or anything like that. It takes time. Because its not the other person that changes. Its you.
Chapter 1
Hi, My names Clio. Im 14 years old. I have black hair that goes down my shoulders. I have dark brown eyes. Im 5'5''. I grew up in Canada and then moved to Iowa when i was 11. Ive never been in love before. Well unless you count in 5th grade when this one kid told me he liked me ( i didnt like him back). I grew up, with little freinds, a not very nice grandmother ( who enjoyed beating me) and i went to a private school where the teachers couldnt be worse and my dad always wanted me to be something im not.
Well I've had many crushes. Way too many. Im the type of person who has never taken it serious before, mostly cause no one wants to take the time to get to know me back. Well little did I know that I was in for some serious changes to my perspective of life.
Chapter 2
I woke up to my dad yelling my name from the bathroom "CLIO GET UP OR YOUR GONNA BE LATE" my eyes shot open but I stayed in bed and eventually fell asleep again. It was February 14. Valentines day. HOORA. Another year single. I got up, changed my clothes and brushed my hair. Literally thats it. I dont brush my teeth. Like I would if i was trying to impress someone but oh well. Id been in love before. This one guy named Brian. The popular kid. I shouldve known better than to fall in love with him. Even worse- make him the first guy I fall in love with. Well he ended up breaking my heart before anything actually happened. I ended up going from sweet, smart, and girly- to one of the meaner people who started hating everyone. That was last year. Ive gotten over him. I think. Well after a year of trying to get over him, I met more guys, fell in love- and they usually didnt like me back. I get to school and meet up with my best freinds (AKA the only people I didnt hate) They were: Megan- Who was sweet, small, and a ginger. Maryanne- who was a bit taller than me and had longer hair. DJ- Who had a boy haircut and always tried solving others problems. Joyce- she was the youngest of us and had the biggest heart ever, Well it was just us 5. Some of us had other freinds, and some of us didnt.
I got to school that day and saw Megan in the cafeteria "hey Meg" i said to megan "hey" she replied looking up from her phone. "how'd it go with your mom?" I asked. We both had parent problems. "eh shes still being a female dog"
I giggled a bit "hah thats not a shocker"
We had small talk then went to our classes. We all met up at lunch. "hey what are you guys doing this weekend?" I asked
"I have to go to my dads" Maryanne said
"well i have to do my science project and i need you guys as my test people"
"you mean testing subjects?" joyce asked
"same thing"
and we all started laughing.
"remember last year you had a crush on Jake??" DJ just had to bring up
"oh god dont bring that up"
" OH MY GOD i remember that!!!!!" Megan burst "OMG when we went on that feild trip you kept staring at him!"
" do you have to bring this up on Valentines day??"
"cmon were all single!" Joyce added "you dont need to worry"
"yea, your right I guess"
The lunch bell rang and we all seperated to go to our classes
Well jake was just this one kid who I had home ec. with. He was sweet and all. He had these cheeks that were completely adorable. I had a crush on him but had gotten over him just like that. I never knew if he liked me back but oh well. Its not like anything gonna happen with him.
Chapter 3
I asked my mom if I could have freinds over this weekend for my science project. I have these super overprotective parents, who have to talk to your mom before you can come to my house, and give me super long lectures about the smallest things. Its super annoying. So she told me I can if they want.
I rang up Meg first
"Hey Meg"
"Hey, whatcha doing?"
"nothing much, I was just wondering if you wanted to come over this weekend."
"sure, what time?"
"umm hows 11?"
"kay see ya" then she hung up
I dialed joyce and DJ next and they both said yes to coming.
"hey joyce"
"heyy"
"Maryannes not coming"
"awee are DJ and Megan coming?"
"yea"
"thats okay then"
"yea. Hey i have to go ill see you on saturday"
"Kay byee"
*Saturday*
Joyce came first at about 11:15 and we both played Just Dance till DJ came which about 15 minutes later. Meg showed up, eventually and we got started on my project. It was to determine which hand is more sensitive and which side of your brain is faster at detecting that, so you had to put your hands in ice water and take out whichever hand felt colder first.
We got done with that and went to my room.
"hey do you guys wanna prank call people??" Meg asked
"YES"
and with that we started prank calling a bunch of people. It was hilarious!
I took Megs phone and started looking through her contacts to see who to prank call next.
"woaw you have Jakes number?"
"yea I do"
"omg lets call him!"
we dialed him and i started saying a bunch of random stuff. I eventually gave up and admitted that it was me.
"Clio?"
"maybeeee"
"OMG THERES A POSSUM OUT SIDE THE WINDOW!!!!" Joyce shouted looking out the window
"OH MY GAWDDDD"
and with that we all started screaming while I was still on line with Jake.
"o my god, once my dad saw a possum out the window and he shot it!" Joyce began
"oh god! why?" and so began Joyce with the back story of the time her dad shot a possum.
"hey? you still on line?" I asked
"yep"
"sorry about that"
"no its okay" he said with a chuckle "it was quite funny"
I dont know why but I smiled to myself
"thanks" okay now I was blushing "you should save my number and message me?"
"okay will do"
"okay byee"
"bye"
I looked up to see Joyce and Meg holding their cheeks in, about to burst into laughter.
"what?"
they both burst out laughing "O MY GOD YOU GUYS WOULD BE THE CUTEST TOGETHER!!"
"its not like anything going to happen, I dont even like him anymore"
"sure you dont" DJ said to me with a goofy smile
"I dont!! I swear!!!!!"
They all looked at each other with huge goofy smiles
"cmon guys grow up, you guys know no one likes me"
"sureeeeeee"
"lets go watch a movie instead"
so we all went to the basement and started watching horror movies. We watched The possession first, then the devil inside, then scream, then the nightmare on Elm street.
It was quite a night
Chapter 4
The next day I saw Seery sitting in the cafeteria. Seery was another one of my freinds. She was awesome. We had our ups and downs but she was an awesome freind. She was always there for me and I tried my best to be there for her. She was here to listen through my nonsense and I was glad to have her.
"heyy" I said to her
"hey"
"o my god you wont believe what happened on saturday"
"what?"
"we prank called Jake and we've been texting non stop sincee"
"omg really?"
"yes!!!!"
"he is really cute, I remember when you had a crush on him"
"oh god, but dont forget you had a crush on him too"
"oh yea"
It was true Seery did have a crush on him originally, but I did too afterwards.
Maryanne came in after a bit
"hey"
"hey" Seery said back
"you guys wont believe what"
"what?"
"I have a boyfreind!"
"WHAT?!"
"I know right!!"
Maryanne pulled out her phone and showed us a few pictures of him
"o my god he is so hot!!!"
"i know!" Maryanee said while blushing
" tell us everything" I said
"but what do you guys wanna know"
"everything" Seery said
"okay why dont you start from the beginning, like how did you two meet?"
"it all started from a follow on twitter"
"wow, what a start"
"then we just started talking and then he just asked me out"
"awwwww" seery said, she had a huge heart
"you two would be cute together"
"thanks, and oh yea his names Javen, and he lives in Minnesota"
"woaw thats quite a distance"
"I know, but its okay"
The bell rang and we headed to our classes.
During lunch Maryanne told the others the big news. The day passed. Another day single.
After school, I walked out with Maryanne as always, and got into the car.
"hey mom"
"hey Clio" She seemed very happy for some reason
"I have news"
"shocker"
"were moving"
"WHAT" I felt like I had just been stabbed with a knife- a very sharp knife. I had heard that phrase in books about getting that feeling, and I just now realised what it truly felt like
"your dad kinda lost his job today"
"you mean were moving back now?"
"no, not yet"
"so he just got fired?"
"no he went from senior manager to something we dont know yet"
I didnt reply, I couldnt. I didnt know who or what went wrong. I didnt want to go back to Canada. I had something here. I had people who loved me here and I was just expected to leave it all?
I ran into the bathroom as soon as I got home and dialed Meg. I told her this and started crying really hard.
"what! so your just moving?!?!"
"yes" I choked out between sobs
"when??"
"I dont know, but it all depends on what job my dad gets and if he likes it."
"they cant do that!"
"I know"
"my life would be horrible without you... empty!"
"my life would too Meg, I just dont know"
"are you going to tell the others?"
"No, last time I did in October DJ spread it around school, just by telling one kid"
We thought we were gonna leave in October, but we decided not to, and when I told DJ it was spread around school and everyone was bidding me there goodbyes.
"Ok then, its just between me and you.
"yea" i had stopped crying, but my eyes were red and my voice was hoarse.
"Im gonna go now, get something to eat."
"okay, good luck."
"thank you"
and with that I ended the call.
Chapter 5
The next day I tried my best to act normal, but deep down I was hurting, hurting more than anyone could see or stop. I acted bored and like I just didnt care about what was gonna happen next. But inside I was horrified. I had grown to love it in this small town. Many people didnt like small towns, and had usually grown up in them and had dreamed of moving to a bigger one ever since. But not me. I had grown up in a big town, but never dreamed big or small. I never dreamed at all. I never dreamed there was a life beyond strict parents, strict teachers, a strict school. I never dreamed I would fall in love. I never dreamed I would have freinds. I just never dreamed. It was just boring Canada where nothing big happened despite its big crowds.
I dont know how my parents could do this. Take me from my hurting and move me somewhere else. Somewhere where I could start fresh and start a new life, and after I did start a new life and actually liked it, They just had to snatch it from me. Like snatching a toy from a baby . Only this was not as simple as snatching a toy.
Back in Canada lived my grandmother. The worst grandmother. She would always make me feel down. She had to shove in my face that I was fat, she had to shove in my face I was ugly, she had to shove in my face that I wasnt smart.
She used to call me fat more than anything, and since I lost so much weight and now I was perfectly skinny (thank puberty) she couldnt call me fat anymore, because I wasnt. I was thin now.
She was the main reason I didnt want to move back. I didnt want to go back. I liked it here. I loved it here.
Chapter 6
It was now the end of february and I was still waiting. School was horrifying. Starting out with Mrs. Smith who had a sub cuz she was pregnant and decided not to come back since the baby was born. So we were stuck with Mrs. Moore. She wasnt that bad. I had her first and second period. Today something weird happened in that class. Jake- who usually never got out of his seat, or talked to anyone came up to me asking if I wanted to correct his paper. I said sure. But I found it kinda weird. We hadn't talked much since last year when we had Home Ec. together or over the phone. I didnt take it as a big deal, but I probably should have. I didnt tell anyone either. The rest of the day was the same. Once I got home I asked my mom when we were moving.
"I dont know yet. Your dad should know by today.
The next few hours didnt seem to pass by enough. Which was shocking because time had been passing by way too fast since we moved here. Mostly because I was waiting for some sort of miracle to happen and some super attractive guy to love me.
My dad came home that day shortly after 5:30
"hey dad"
"hi, how was school?"
"good"
"what did you do in math?"
He was clingy like that. Most kids got all the freedom they liked on weekends. But not me. I was stuck studying math with my dad.
"uhhh triangles" I usually said something absolutely random like that
" did you find out anything?"
"no why? you wanna move back?"
my parents were also like that. They needed to know everything and said crap about everyone. They always made fun of what I said too.
"I dont care"
"okay then, can you go study now?"
"no"
"ANJU!" Which was my moms name "YOU CAN TAKE CLIOS PHONE. SHE DOESNT DESERVE IT"
I rolled my eyes. I was used to it. He always took my phone, then would give it back, then would take it again. Nothing out of the usual.
I called Meg after, giving her the updates.
I didnt text Jake that night. Which was okay.
I went to the gym afterwards with my dad. I loved going to the gym. I felt good after working out. It took my mind off all the crap going on in my life.
Chapter 7
The next day was Friday. Then march would start on Monday. My birthday was getting closer too. I was turning 14. Nothing out of the usual happened. Over the weekend my dad made me study (as usual).
On the weekend I was greeted with quite some news. Meg had gotten a boyfreind. She had met this guy named Devon over this dating website we both created over the summer of 7th grade. I barely ever went on mine. I just didnt want too.
Devon would be her second. She had her first somewhere in 5th grade. He cheated on her. So I was super happy to see her with someone else and she was happy too which was great. But their was one thing. She wasnt all loud and giggles and cheery anymore. She was more serious now. I was okay with that too. I was going to support her no matter what she changed into. I had too. She was always there for me. All my freinds were.
The day was boring. It went somewhat like this:
1- getting yelled at in reading
2- getting yelled at in language
3- going to gym
4- standing in the same boring lunch line that takes way to long to get through
5- failing my spanish test
6- getting yelled at in science
7- not doing my work and just playing candy crush the whole time
8- going to home room and playing on my laptop instead of homework
then walking outside to see my mom waiting in the car with my sister.
"soo, how was school?"
"good"
"what did you do?"
"nothing"
"guess what"
"what?"
"your dad found out what job he has"
I sat up straighter "and?"
"he got architect manager"
"and"
"he likes it"
"soo"
"I dont know anything else yet." my mom said "but we do know your staying for the rest of the school year."
I felt part of that weight fall of my shoulder. At least I was promised another 2 and half months. Which is better than nothing.
Chapter 8
March flew by. I had my science fair and got eliminated on the first round. I dont know why. I thought I did okay. Joyce got eliminated too. I really liked her project. But DJ was on for the next round. I stayed to support her and she won 5th place. I was happy for her.
Meg had her first kiss. She and Devon met over one weekend and had it there.
I was super happy for her.
Maryanne and Javen were stilll dating. I was happy for her too. But I was also kinda jealous cuz Javen was super cute.
And I was still forever alone.
I talked to my design and modeling teacher about how I was single. I always did. It was just a thing I did. Just a thing.
I had also started dating 6 guys over that dating website. Cuz of this one guy I dated in the beginning of the school year. We barely dated for a day, so it doesnt even count. Plus he cheated on me. For like half a day. Well he was a huge cheater and I wanted to see if I could break his record, and I did. But I didnt count any of those 6 guys. I dont think I even knew there names, and broke up with them after I got 6 guys.
It seemed like a heartless thing to do.
Looking back to January when this happened, I realised it was heartless and I knew I wasnt like that. I knew I wasnt going to turn into those heartless bastards from my school. Because I was waiting for the perfect someone and he was going to make it worth the waiting. He couldnt be very far. Right?
At school that day I heard some prep had cheated on her boyfreind. Like every prep-girl had dated like every prep- boy. I didnt care. Though I did wonder how they dated so many people easily.
I hated people who cheated. I hated even more that Ive done it before.
This world can make you pretty heartless. Even though you dont notice it.
By the end of march it was only Joyce and I who hadnt had our first kiss yet.
Maryanne had hers in 4th grade. DJ in first. and Meg who just had it like a week ago.
She was super happy. So was Maryanne. and so were we all.
Chapter 9
It was April 1st today. Normal day right? well yea more or the less boring but once I got home it wasnt very boring. I had quite an interesting conversation with Jake. I was in the bathroom. Same as always. I spent about in hour after school in the bathroom. Its the only place I can be where no ones bugs me or my parents arent all nosy about what im doing.
I was brushing my hair when I got a text from Jake.
"hey"
"hi"
"what u doin?" he always sent me that same message.
"brushing my hair, you?"
"riding my bike" he was always riding his bike
"lucky. I wanna ride my bike"
"then why dont you?"
"you know my moms rule."
"oh yeaa the one where you cant ride your bike unless your dads home?"
"yep"
"then whens he coming home?"
"at like 6"
"awww"
Then we just talked for another hour. I could talk to him about anything. He could talk to me about anything too.
But then it got weird.
" Soo....."
"sooo...?"
"am I the one?"
"the one?"
"yea you know the one"
"what do you mean the one Jake?"
"you know, if im the one you wanna be with"
"woaw Jake you know im not ready to be in love, I go around wining about how im single but you know im not ready..." I didnt know that this was the biggest mistake I ever made - to say that.
"ooh. Well I just wanted you to know that I really like you, and when I talk to you I get this burning thing inside. I think its just some lung problem, cuz I was getting it after we did that running test."
"really? lol, I was not expecting any of that."
"yeaa... sorry"
"noo its okay, wait since when have you liked me?"
"just guess"
"ummm im a bad guesser"
"random guess"
" a month"
"you are a bad guesser"
"i know, so since when??"
"6th grade?"
"6TH GRADE?!?!
"yeaa"
"AND YOU NEVER TOLD ME??"
"sorry"
"oh god"
"what?"
" I liked you too in 6th grade!"
" I know"
"you knew??"
"yeaa"
"then why did you never ask me out when I liked you??"
" I dont know"
"okay okay, but why would you like me?? no one likes me!"
" I do"
"but why??"
"your different"
"im different?"
"yeaa"
"how??"
"your fun, and your weird and crazy. But in the best ways possible, and your not fake. Which is why I like you"
"no ones ever said anything like that to me"
our conversation ended eventually after that and I went to bed in utter shock but the good type of shock.
Chapter 10
The next day as soon as I got to school I told all my freinds this.
"woaww" Joyce said
"you should just go out with him" Maryanne said
"yea" DJ agreed
"I cant believe you turned him down!"
"I dont know what I was thinking!"
"So hes liked you since last year?" Meg asked
"6th grade actually"
"wow"
"I know"
"I still cant believe you turned him down!"
"I still think you should go out with him" Joyce said again
"me too" DJ and Meg both agreed
"I dont know. Ill think about it"
The bell rang and we went to our classes
I put thought into this but didnt do much.
I guess I liked him , and he liked me. Damn I never thought I'd see the day.
Have I found him? Was it really him? Why would he like me? Why me? Why not those preps that dressed with half clothes on? Why not those preps that were so much better at soccer than me? Why not those preps that were so much prettier and smarter? Why not those preps who were better at sports than me? Why not why not why not? I had so many questions. I didnt deserve him. I had lied to him. More than once. I wasnt what he thought I was.
I lied to him. Told him Id never had a boyfreind. Which was kinda true. Because I didnt count any of those guys. But I acted so sweet and innocent and smart around him. I did act weird and stuff. But it wasnt who I was.
I told him I collect poetry and that I dont listen to any recent music and that I only liked old music. Which was kinda true because I did listen to old music and todays music too. And I didnt collect poetry. I had only read some because I read a bunch of love stories and they usually recite poetry in those, so thats how I knew some.
It was my birthday on the 15th. I told him and he promised to get me something. He wouldnt admit what though.
I saw him at soccer a few times. He had soccer practise the same day I did but we both were on different teams. He once told me while we were texting about his childhood. He was also abused and beat. I didnt tell him much about my childhood because I wanted to give him my attention. He needed someone to listen to him, and I already had Meg.
It was now April 10. 5 days till my birthday. Me and Jake were texting all day long as usual. At night he told me his phone was going out of service and I shouldnt message him.
All I could do was hope he was gonna be back by my birthday.
He didnt talk much to me while at school. Actually he didnt talk much to anyone at school. Which wasnt such a big deal right??
We were on the verge of moving. I hated talking about it and I hated it when my parents talked about it. I tried to avoid it but you cant avoid things like this for very long. This reminded me of this one quote I saw. "You can close your eyes to the things you dont want to see. But you cant close your heart to the things you dont want to feel" I could relate to that right now.
That saturday I had a soccer game. My dad always yelled at me and used the time walking from the feild to yell at me and make me feel bad. Always.
Afterwards Maryannes mom called asking if I wanted to come over. My mom said no being the BEEP she is. The only good thing that happened that day was that I started riding my bike again. I had a fear of bikes since I was 6 because I fell once and got really hurt. Well I started riding it again and rode it all around town. I got back. Apparently too late bacuse I was greeted with yelling.
"WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN??" my mom yelled at me
"i was riding it around town"
"why??"
"I dont know! because I wanted to??"
"You know your not aloud to go outside this neighborhood!"
"well I didnt know that! and wheres our dad?"
"I sent him to go look for you!"
"you sent dad to look for me?"
"yes!"
my dad eventually came home and surprisingly he wasnt even angry
"gosh I thought on the first day I let my daughter out of the house alone she gets kidnapped" my dad joked
"hah" I said sarcastically
We all sat down in the bench in our backyard
"Clio your not aloud outside our neighborhood"
"Sorry I didnt know"
"Well if you go out of this neighborhood again you have to wear your helmet" my dad suggested
"no! Your not aloud to go out this neighborhood with or without a helmet"
I eyed my dad willingly
"Sorry kiddo but do what your mom says"
"Fine then!" and with that I went inside
It was now 2 days till my birthday and I was still single. All by myself. Celine Dion moment.
I walked down the stairs with Jake and his freind after 7th period.
"so is your phone gonna be renewed by my birthday?" "probably not" "woaw woaw she has your number?" his freind cut in
"I dont see whats wrong with that" I said
and with that we were seperated by the people current.
I was pissed off majorly on how different Jake acts in front of his freinds. Once again I thought it was just him being quiet. Once again I was wrong.
Chapter 11
It was finally my birthday and when I woke up I knew it was going to be the best day of my life. I wore my Wolverine shirt and my super baggy pants. Its like my car knew it was my birthday and played "The Best Day of my Life" by the American Authors. I took it as a good sign. The day passed. Meg got me a necklace saying my name on it. Joyce got me a card with a bunch of "thats what she saids" on them. DJ got me a Wolverine snapback and a pack of earrings. Maryanne came to my place after school to give me my present. She got me 4 harry potter movies and a card that sang. It was awesome. But there was only one thing that wasnt awesome. I hadnt gotten anything from Jacob, not only that- he didnt even talk to me or say happy birthday. Not. A. Damn. Word. He wasnt kidding when he said his phone wasn't going to be renewed. Because he didnt message me for another 2 days. My 14th birthday felt lonely and incomplete even thought it was great deep down I knew it wasnt complete. He texted me after 2 days saying "hey" and flipped out on him on why he didnt say anything to me. I was pissed but he said he was sorry and would bring me my present that saturday for our soccer game. I told him we didnt have a soccer game cuz of easter, and my aunt and uncle were coming over from Canada and we were taking them to St. Louis.
Thursday- the day my aunt and uncle would arrive came by fast ( mostly cuz it was only 2 days after my birthday) They arrived late in the day at about 5:30. I was glad to see them. We had small talk and I realised that my aunt had changed a lot. She was the best aunt I could ever ask for back in the day when I was younger. She bought me a bunch of things, she always made time for me even though she had to work, and she was always their to listen to me. But I realised something the next few days which takes a while to learn and I learnt the hard way. Nothing is permanent. Especially people. Strangers become freinds. Freinds become lovers. Lovers turn into strangers once more. Strangers become freinds and over and over again. My aunt changed quite a bit. Its crazy how someone who used to be such a big highlight of your life can be gone in a second.
The next day we left for St. Louis early in the morning. We had a day off school for Easter Friday. We reached at about 1 and went to our hotels and then went to a museum. I was texting Jake the whole time and told him I wanted to go out with him now. He asked lots of questions about how I changed my mind and why I did that and things like that. But he wouldnt say yes. I wasnt defeated though. He told me he likes me but doesnt see the point in dating.
We went to Olive Garden that night in celebration of my birthday and I texted him there too secretly by hiding my phone between my legs and sitting at the end of the table where no one can see what you were doing. I knew how much trouble I could get into if I got caught and how many chances I was taking. But I didnt do anything. I was going to take chances. Everyone has to do that some point in there life. Even if its just hiding your phone and texting at your late birthday party.
The next day was a Saturday. April 19. Just some day right? No.
We went to the St. Louis zoo. It was fun. It was one of my favorite places to go even though I hated animals. Jake asked me that too.
"I'm at a zoo"
"I thought you hated animals"
"I do, but I dont have an option."
"lol you poor thing"
"I know right!"
Well we talked normally the rest of the time. I would always get out my phone to take "pictures" of the animal we were looking at, but I was actually texting Jake.
Then we stopped at about 1 to eat. I was up at the counter with my uncle and dad and I felt my phone vibrate like three times.
"dad I have to go to the bathroom"
"okay, you can go once you finish ordering what you want"
So I finished ordering and left for the bathroom.
I was standing in a super long line for a dirty bathroom with a bunch of woman with babies.
"babies, ugh of all things, why babies?!?" I thought to myself
Then I pulled my phone out
"You know what I think I do want to go out with you. So yes." I read.
I put my phone down in shock then lifted it again to make sure that text really was there.
Yep it was still there. I had a boyfreind. I HAD A BOYFREIND!!!!
I felt great. I even talked to the woman standing behind me with a baby.
"hii" I said to the little boy "hes so cute"
"thank you" his mom said to me with a huge smile on her face
"how old is he?"
"10 months"
"Awwww"
his mom giggled a bit.
I saw that the baby was staring at the snapback I was wearing. I took it off and showed it to him.
"do ya like it?"
his mom looked at him and smiled
"yes he does"
I smiled back
"its the wolverine" -"its x-men" both me and his mom said together
by then it was my turn. I went into the tiny stall. and deleted all the messages and texted Maryanne telling her the big news.
"THATS AWESOME!"
"thanks!"
Maryanne has always been wanting us to get together. She was a huge shipper of "cake" which was our ship name.
The weekend after we went to Chicago. My dad promised to take me to a comic book convention.
I wore my Marvel shirt with my snapback. I had an amazing time. On the way back I was texting Jake till we got lost. And if anything like that happens, my dad gets super pissed off and acts all snobby and bitchy.
"JESSICA GIVE YOUR PHONE TO YOUR MOM! RIGHT NOW!" my dad yelled
'what wh-"
'JUST GIVE IT!"
i quickly texted Jake and didnt get to see if he replied to my message- which was asking about what his freinds said the one time I kissed him while he wasnt looking in the lunch room.
I just hoped he wouldnt reply.
My mom didnt give me my phone back at all. That night my dad went inside our hotel while I stayed in the car with my mom and sister.
"so Jessica whos Jasmine?"
"my freind"
"ive asked you before"
" ya i know"
"and is Jasmine a he or a she?"
"a she"
"oh really?"
"yes"
"well then you can explain me what this message means" and she held up my phone and read the messge out loud "they asked if you were my gf and I said yes. Now Clio that doesnt sound like something a girl would say"
"GF doesnt mean what you think"
"it means girlfreind Clio I am not stupid! and im not in second grade!"
Chapter 12
I couldnt be happier. I was in love and it was even better than I ever dreamed off. He loved me and I loved him. On Monday we had a field trip to the University of Iowa. He ignored me every step of the way. It was really weird and I got really worried. That day after school I texted him.
"hey"
"hey"
"why were you ignoring me today?"
"im sorry"
"it wasnt very nice"
"sorry, I just didnt wanna ditch my freinds"
"you didnt wanna ditch your freinds so you dont even look at me?"
"im sorry. I promise I'll do much better next time"
"Okay"
"I promise"
"I believe you"
and then I texted Maryanne
"hey"
"hey"
"I asked him why he was ignoring me"
"and?"
"he said he didnt wanna ditch his freinds"
"and?"
"he promised to do better next time and said he was really sorry"
"wow you have him wrapped around your fingers dont you?"
"YEP lol"
"did I tell you that me and Javen broke up?"
"WHAT NO YOU DIDNT?"
"yea we did"
"what why?"
"I dont know, It just didnt work out I guess"
"awww im so sorry"
"Its okay"
"when?"
"not long ago"
"and you didnt tell me?"
"sorry, I just didnt feel like it"
"awww, its okay"
"hes with someone else now"
"What? Who?"
"this girl named Rachel"
"I met her, shes actually super nice"
"How could you think that?"
"She is and hes happy with her"
"but he was happier with you"
"its okay really"
"okay, well keep me updated k?"
"yea okay"
The next day we went to the library. Jake promised me that he would walk with me there. But instead he stayed all the way in the back with Gray- one of his good freinds. Me and DJ started making our way back slowly and trying not to be noticed at all. we didnt go all the way to the end cuz that would appear clingy and so we made our way from the fron of the line to only having 3 people behind us then Jake and Gray. Gray was this blonde who I had science class with and was on the same swim team as me. He had this country accent which was really funny.
"wow Jake, your pathetic" DJ said to me while looking back at him
"He is" and with that we all went inside.
We got seated and he sat all the way on the other side of the library with Gray. It was some boring presentation I didnt pay attention to. Once it was over. We all went outside to leave. Jake was in the front now. Me and DJ were laughing about how stupid the presentation was when I saw Jake sitting on the steps with Gray and when he saw me he got up and started walking in front of me and DJ with Gray. I was telling DJ about how my dad has a bunch of old music CDs and how I listen to them all the time.
"even Elvis Presely?"
"yep even Elvis" I lied. My dad had no Elvis Presely CDs. He had just about any other 70s and 80s and 90s singer but Elvis.
We just talked about random things on the way back. I spotted a dandelion and picked it up and gave it to Jake saying "I love you"
"oh thats nice" and he took it and gave it to Gray- who threw it at a stop sign
"well, you make me feel loved"
Once we got back to school we saw a movie in the auditorium while the other half of the school was at the University of Iowa. We had a substitute for our home room class. So while we were making our way to the auditorium we all stopped to go to the restroom- since the movie was pretty long and we were not gonna be able to leave. So me and DJ finished early and were waiting outside when mrs. K's homeroom walked by and Jake was there- all the way at the back of the line with Gray.
Me and DJ ran after them leaving our home room behind and got seated with Mrs.K's home room. Since DJ had work to finish for the time she burnt her foot and didnt come to school for about a month, she had to leave and that left me alone without her. I sat by this one kid in the end, Jake infront of him and Gray infront of me.
"hey Jake, switch spots with me, I wanna sit by my freind- Jared" The kid sitting by me said.
Jake eyed me and I raised my eyebrow at him, then he looked to make sure no teachers were nearby and swapped seats with him. I smiled to him and he smiled back.
He started playing cards with Gray I watched them and was laughing my head off cuz Jake kept losing.
"Im guessing you havent told Gray yet?"
and he shook his head "nope"
"tell me what??"
"nothing"
"no im serious tell me what"
"I - I have cancer" I joked
"and Im on Drugs" Jake played along
"oooooh I knew it!" I said " I have cancer and I have a year left to live
"yea im on drugs and im gonna die in 10 minutes"
"Your joking about having some really bad disease?" Jake said to me with a smile
"and your joking about doing drugs- which isnt very good either" I said back to him
"I knew Jake was on drugs. I just knew it!"
and then Gray turned around for the movie.
Once the movie started they waited a bit before shutting all the lights off and I bent over to Jake and said
"I get scared in the dark" which was a complete lie. I loved the dark more than anything "will you hold my hand?"
"gosh! NO!"
"fine then!"
Once the lights shut off I touched his arm and he gave me his hand to hold. First I kept my hand on top of his. Then he moved it so that our hands were cupped together then he moved it again so that were holding hands the way couples do. It was the first time I held anyones hand and I sweating horribly. Teachers kept passing by and after a while we both stopped moving our hands when teachers walked by. Once he grabbed 2 of my fingers as a reassuring that he was there for me. Then once he put his hand on top of mine.
I dont remember any of that movie. None honestly. I just remember how safe I felt and how long I'd been waiting to hold someones hand. Even though I wasnt expecting the first time I hold someones hand to be at our school auditorium in complete darkness, while watching some movie about college. But I dont mind. It was amazing.
I was sitting by one of the sluttiest preps ever born- Jaqueline. She had her foot hurt and kept bumping me cuz she kept putting her foot up on my chair and said a simple "sorry" I wouldve pushed her leg off if I wasnt with Jake and having the time of my life.
The movie was about 2 hours long and we held hands for that long. Once the movie finished and the lights turned back on he moved his hand and both our hands were sore by the time the movie ended. Gray looked back at us at about half the movie when I bent over to apologise for my sweaty hands.
after it was done I said to Jake
"you know what I just realised?"
"what?"
"Im sitting with the wrong home room"
he looked around at our home room and then his and laughed
"oh" he said giggling
When the teacher dismissed our home room he stood up and I walked past him. We were really close when I walked past him.
We went into another home room after the movie because the teacher had to make an annoucement.
"alright students settle down." Mrs. Tharp- our science teacher said " you may have heard rumours about next weeks baseball game. Well we are going to one down in Davenport."
Then she just talked about the lunches we could bring.
I read the rest of the time and talked with our substitute the rest of the time. She was awesome and she asked me about my boyfreind and if I had one. I told her
"who?"
"hes in mrs. K's home room"
"ooh, wait was it the guy who you were holding hands with in the auditorium?"
"wait you guys could see that?"
"yea we could see everything"
"oh god"
"Dont worry we wont do anything"
"okay thank you" and we both laughed a bit till the bell rang and I left.
I went home that day. Feeling amazing. I didnt want anything else.
That weekend. I got my phone taken away. I had renamed Jakes name as Jasmine so I wouldnt get caught. So I took my ipad and started messaging him from that
"heyy"
"hey"
"dont message my phone, I got it taken away"
"okay I wont lol"
"soo"
"soo"
"do you ever think about sex?"
"umm what?!"
"do you?"
"would it be bad to say no?- or worse to say yes"
"its your answer"
"ummmm"
he took a while to answer but finally he said
"ummm then that would be a no"
"What!?"
"you heard me"
"umm"
"were too young and its just wrong"
"well thats not at all what i expected"
"were you being serious?"
"TOTALLLLLYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! no"
"oh okay lol, well sex, in my book is something you should wait for"
"lol okay"
then I heard my parents come upstairs. They didnt know I had my iPad with me. Ships. I thought. Im so freaking screwed. I deleted everything except that last message he sent. No big deal right? Its not like my mom looks through this app. I dont think she even knows I have it right? I rushed to their room and put the iPad away. Missing one tiny detail. I put it in the wrong spot, and my parents notice those kind of things.
I acted all innocent and used a stupid excuse on why I was in their room. I started reading when I heard my dad come up to my room.
"CLIO!!!"
Oh.Shit.
"yes?"
"WHO ARE YOU TAKING TO?"
"I have no idea what your talking about"
"who is this- 563 571 something something? COME HERE AND LOOK! WHY ARE YOU GUYS TALKING ABOUT SEX?"
"its Meg"
"I ASKED AND IT SAID VANESSA, WHICH ONES RIGHT?! IS IT MEG OR VANESSA? WILL YOU COME HERE??!"
so I slowly got up, buying as much time as possible.
Im. So. Fucking. Screwed.
My dad picked up the phone then dialed his number, luckily it went into voicemail saying his name in the end.
" THIS DOESNT SOUND LIKE MEG OR VANESSA, ITS SAYING ITS JAKE!"
"I dont know what your talking about"
and so he dialed it again and it went into voice mail again.
then my mom spoke up
"WHY WERE YOU GUYS TALKING ABOUT SEX!??"
and i just shrugged my shoulders
"YOUR SO OLD AND IN LOVE THAT YOUR READY FOR SEX!??"
" no" I could hear my voice shrinking
"THEN?!"
"GO TO YOUR ROOM!" my dad yelled out and i walked out.
'WHO IS THIS PERSON" I heard my dad yell at my mom "BECAUSE IM GOING TO TALK TO HIS MOM, IM GOING TO! SHE THINKS SHE CAN JUST GO ON AND TALK ABOUT SEX WITH GUYS. WELL SHE CANT!"
I shut the door and just let him yell out as much as he wanted.
He didnt shut up that night. I knew that I wasnt going to get my phone back.
Chapter 13
The next day during first period, I apologised for what happened and he just laughed and said it was no big deal. As long as my dad doesnt come to murder him, which i assured him wouldnt happen.
The next week we did go to a baseball game. I sat by DJ on the bus and we listened to music together. Cuz we were awesome like that. Jake texted me a couple times while we were on the bus. He hated bus rides. He thought they were loud and annoying.
"hey"
"hey"
"its so loud in here"
"its not that bad, Im guessing you dont like long car rides"
"no I do, I can barely hear myself think."
"lol why dont you listen to music instead"
"its okay, me and Gray are playing fruit ninja"
"lol your always playing that"
"I know lol. Gtg were here"
"okay byee"
We got off to a huge crowd of kids. We were going with the 7th graders too.
I saw Jake with his freinds not far away and I looked away to talk to mine.
"did you see Jake just hugged a 7th grader?" DJ said
"WHAT!??"
"Wait who?" Ava said. Ava was DJ's cousin in 7th grade. She was awesome and super sweet. DJ showed Ava Jake along with the people he was with. He didnt talk to me at all, or look at me, or anything that had anyhing to do with me.
"you should just dump him"
"nah its okay."
"are you sure?"
"yea he'll come around and apologise to me tonight then promise he'll do better."
The rest of the time was normal. Kinda like a girls night out. Only it wasnt night and there were about 200 other kids there.
We were having a pretty normal time. Eating. Gossiping. Fangirling about the hot guys. Until it started raining. We had to leave 3 hours before the actual leaving time since it started raining and the field was too wet. Since it was raining we got back to school and just had free-time for the hour left.
Once I got home I texted Jake.
"hey"
"hey"
"why were you ignoring me again today?"
"I wasnt"
"ya you were"
"Im sorry, I just didnt wanna ditch my freinds"
"you could at least say hi to me"
"sorry"
"its okay"
Chapter 14
Times passed. We went to the baseball game again the next week. He ignored me again. This time there were other middle and high schools and the place was packed. I mean freaking packed. There was no room to sit. He went off to sit in the grass with his freinds and I went with Seery too.
This guy kept staring at me and pointing to us as me seery were walking by. Then a little kid came up to me and said.
"hey you see that guy there?" he said pointing to him
"yea"
"well he likes you"
"really?"
"yea but hes just too shy to show it. Hes thinks your really cute and hes really shy around cute girls"
I couldnt see why he found me cute. My hair was a mess cuz of the wind. I was wearing my batman shirt with my baggy sweatshirt on top. I had short shorts on too.
He, on the other hand, was super cute.
He was standing with his freinds, and would ocasionaly glance over at me and Seery.
I eventually went up to him and tried talking to him. His eyes just widened and he ran to the other side.
um okay. I thought and walked back towards the grass where Jake was sitting.
One of our freinds was sitting with them. Me and Seery went over there to sit by them. I threw my sweatshirt at Jake and sat by Seery.
Jake tried "selling" my sweatshirt to Enrique- who was Jakes freind. Bitter butthole in my opinion.
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